#ill be so upset (not really) if this flops lol

[awesamforehead]

What if, at the end of the milk bucket game, a bulletproof glass pane comes down at the end of each losing teams corresponding number? Separating the players and keeping the losers from escaping.

(aka this is me giving a 'reason' as to why Hannah and Suzyroxx couldn't move from their pen and gave it my own flair. Spoilers for day 5 of squidcraft 2)

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sc!Hannah being confused when she got back to her teams cow pen. Her going up to it and knocking her knuckles against it, it sounded pretty thick.

And due to it being thick, sound is a little muffled. She couldn't hear her fellow competeters completely but she still gave her ggs. Her and Suzy gave their thoughts on why they couldn't get the buckets acrossed as fast, those things were heavy as fuck. She still got one final laugh out after she asked Aldo and Roier to sing her a song, only for it be some free style rap.

She almost forgot her situation until Sapnap's voice yelled through the glass, clear as day.

"Hannah! Look at me, Hannah! Don't look back!"

Against her better judgement, she looked back. Her heart sank to her stomach once she saw the guard approaching her, assult rifle in hands.

Hannah lets out a cry as she curls up her fists, banging them against the glass. Maybe if she hits hard enough, it will crack. Give leway, something. Seems like Suzy noticed the guard too, as she was also punching against the glass.

But no matter what they did; punching, kicking, throwing their whole body weight against it, the glass didn't budge.

Hannah leaned her body against the glass, winded from using all her energy. This was it, her time was up. Dammit, she wanted to go to the finals, not lose just before it. Now she has to die with a barrier separating her from her friends (Were they still friends at this point?). Reaching over to her right, she grabs Suzy's sweaty hand in a tight grip. Just as strong, Suzy grips hers back.

At least she wont be totally alone.

Hearing a bang against the glass, Hannah looks up to see sc!Sapnap leaning his head against the glass right up against hers, so they were face to face. Sapnap placed his hand palm open on the glass next to his head, and Hannah lifted hers up to place it right over his. She holds back a sob as she does this.

"Look at your friends Hannah! Don't look back, look at your friends, ok?" Sapnap's voice was still clear through the glass. His voice was steady and calm, but it did nothing for her nerves.

Hannah's sobs got loud as she heard the rifle behind her being loaded before the first gunshots rang out. She felt Suzy's grip on her hand loosen as her body fell backward on the ground, the momentum of the fall causing their hands to separate. Blood splattered widely on the glass, but none of the bullets broke through or even cracked the glass. Bulletproof.

Sapnap's voice got more frantic as he saw the gun point towards Hannah, "Keep looking at your friends Hannah! We'll win this for you! You hear me, we'll win this for you!"

Hannah didn't get to respond as she felt the searing pain before she hear the gunshot. Her knees fell underneath her, and she fell down to her side. Her ears were ringing, but she could still hear her friends crying out for her and banging against the glass.

She couldn't help but let out a small chuckle as her last breath. Guess they were friends in the end.

[pervertedreams]

i thought the hyperfixation was wearing off but i have more farleigh headcanons!

requests / asks are always opennnn !

minors dni. sexual themes

- i think he gets sick easily, constantly sniffing (for multiple reasons) and gets cold super easy. i don’t think he’s a whiny type of sick person but he makes it obviously known that he’s ill. but whenever you offer help he’s almost got an ‘i don’t need your pity’ attitude, meanwhile his curls are flat, lips are dry and complexion pale as ever. idk i feel he doesn’t like asking for help even when he really needs it. makes him feel inferior. but eventually he accepts defeat and lets you take care of him, with a not so satisfied tone in his voice when hes saying thank you.

- thinking about how farleigh laughed in oliver’s face TWICE once at nobody knowing his name at his bday and again when he laughed at oliver’s dick flopping around in the field. so i think it’s fair to say he’ll laugh right in somebody’s face loud and shamelessly. and he should! and when people get mad at him for laughing it just makes me laugh more.

- i can’t remember if i said this before so imma just say it again, but i think he likes giving head more than receiving it. he likes having a purpose and fulfilling it. so whenever the two of you are in the mood he almost always offers to give you head… yeah

- i feel like it takes a lot for him to yell in an argument, i think by nature he’d like to have a screaming match but knows it’s more effective to be calm in a disagreement. it’s more productive and bound to get more of an reaction out of whoever he’s bickering with.

- when he’s really upset or mad and arguing is getting nowhere, he just feels like he’s talking to a brick wall he does the silent treatment. just giving hums and slow nods as a response.

- doesn’t really smile in photos the most you can get outta him is a smirk. if he is smiling in a photo it’s def an off guard

- walks dick first.. yeah

- idk i feel like he’s a good kisser it’d be crazy for me to say he’s good at giving head but a bad kisser. he’s very into it, very tender almost with it. it’s one of the few things he does where his softer side shows <3

- much like oliver i feel he’s attracted to pretty things and just femininity in general

- has an intense skin care ritual that he makes sure to follow every night. he gets down he don’t play

- runs through a pack of cigarettes a day and gets pissed whenever someone mentions it cause he’s convinced it isn’t a problem. he’s knows it is but.. pride yano?

- i feel like farleigh has a choking kink, likes to choke and liked to be choked. idk if i said that already LOL. but it’s something about giving into the submission of being choked, and letting his brain get foggy, with rolled eyes. just allowing himself to be dominated, but the soft dom in him also likes having that control. putting that soft pressure against your neck, and watching the way you fall apart. he gets off to him being the reason you fall apart.

- he’s an asshole and he knows it, i think he just naturally gets off to teasing people. he’ll whisper in peoples ear laughing and snickering, i think he’s just a whisperer in general. randomly coming up behind the shell of your ear to whisper something inappropriate in front of his family. or whispering a joke about oliver to you while looking oliver dead in the eyes. and if anyone asks him about whatever he’s whispering about he plays like he doesn’t know. i think he just likes being the reason for peoples reactions. good or bad, makes him feel powerful

[creatrixanimi]

as a submas fan who recently got into hazbin I would absolutely love to hear your au thoughts!!!!

Ok ill have to try to write out everything i've got so far!

So the original premise was that ingo and emmet got mixed up and ingo got sent to hell instead of emmet as an oopsie (emmet didnt do anything overly bad in life but heaven/hell stuff is so arbitrary they probably just made a weird decision somewhere down the line lol) but i thinkkk i have switched it to Ingo gets sent to hell because Volo successfully sacrificed him in a ritual and emmet, while dying in the same place, wasnt actually part of it so normal rules still applied to him. Ingo's soul is all messed up and corrupted because of the ritual which caused his amnesia. Emmet finds out about Ingo being sent to hell after he cant find ingo anywhere in heaven and rightfully gets upset at heaven's lack of action because he see's ingo's situation as a huge injustice. So Emmet's whole thing is basically just causing problems until he finds his way to hell and reunites with ingo.

Ingo's situation is where the fun is lol. So he wakes up after spawning in hell and is just a total odd-ball. Half because he doesnt remember ANYTHING from before he died. Maybe not even his name? Which is weird. And also because he's a total sweetheart. No one can figure out why he's even there because it's not like he's a hellborn so he must have done something to end up in hell. After a brief period of wandering around aimlessly, Lady Sneasler, who is an overlord in this au, kinda adopts him and takes him places because she thinks hes so charming and adorable. Melli is just a guy that hangs around lady sneasler even though he acts like he doesnt like her? She's the poison overlord (kinda like an aqua tofana situation for sneasler) and melli is a poison guy. So they kinda just fall into the same group. So they both become friends of Ingo. After a while of character introductions and some brief fun stuff like Sneasler getting Ingo to do all kinds of fun stuff he probably wouldnt do on his own (like the clubbing thing lmao) Ingo has his first blackout, probably triggered by some sort of memory thing, and its kinda terrifying. When he has those blackouts he shifts into his full demon form and his power goes haywire causing a lot of destruction. Its a huge shock because normally regular sinner demons dont really have much in terms of inherent power and also because Ingo cant actually use his powers while conscious so there was no sign of him being capable of that level of chaos. Anyway, after he has his little blackout his body sustains damage from exerting that kind of power and is kinda down for the count for a while afterwards. His story from there on is figuring out what is going on with him and trying to stop those blackouts before it either destroys him or a good chunk of the city, whichever comes first lmao. Sneasler is kinda just there to reign in ingo and melli she just loves a good show lol Melli is kinda where i wanna connect it more to the existing hazbin characters/storyline. Because this is lowkey more of a crossover. He accidentally becomes charlie's new pet project which no one is a fan of 😂 melli did not volunteer for this at all but his character arc is learning to make friends and care about other people after pushing people away for so long because he's a huge ball of self-hatred. He's kinda perfect for the "i can fix him" thing the hotel is all about. SO he's stuck learning to become a better person and being the narrative connection back to the core of the actual show lmao. Not sure if they ever even stay at the hotel. Maybe ingo and melli could flip flop between sneasler's place and the hotel. They dont actually have places of their own so its one or the other. In terms of intra character interactions i think its like this (this is prolly set post-s1 so no sir pentious): Charlie: thinks ingo is nice, wants to fix melli and is working with ingo to do this. Her relationship w sneasler is similar to rosie in my head. Alastor: finds Ingo somewhat threatening because Ingo can read him like a book. would otherwise find him pleasant but because he has a hard time keeping up his mysterious scary image around him he avoids him if possible. Ingo really likes him because "he reminds him of someone but he cant put a finger on it", will teleport away if melli is in the vicinity, finds sneasler charming. would gossip with her 10/10. When emmet shows up they try to kill each other which is entirely unsurprising. Everyone else in the hotel is more or less "theres something not right about that ingo guy but he's nice enough i guess", "FUCK melli get him OUT OF HERE", and "lady sneasler is chill" and when emmet shows up theyre just like "oh this explains why he likes alastor so much. Now theres TWO OF THEM." I would like to develop the other character's opinions on the situation more but this is getting. so so long. misc other character stuff: 

Lady sneasler still has sneasels, usually 3 of them. they just have tiny wings and horns but otherwise look like regular sneasels. No clue what their deal is they just exist. 

Rosie and Sneasler get along great. they are kinda similar but fill different power-niches in hell. 

Rosie finds ingo SO charming. She loves his odd vintage flair despite literally dying like. in the 2020s lol. He's very popular in cannibal town because he's a train freak and edwardians love trains. He takes the cute edwardian cannibal kiddies on train rides.

im not really sure what goes on with emmet in this au i just know he's having a shit time of it and eventually finds ingo. I havent decided if he actually falls or just leaves heaven because it sucks and no one cares enough to stop him. Also only slightly related but i actually have a voice-canon for him which is will wood which works great for this au lmao. Also emmet plays killer jazz piano and alastor is so mad about it because its actually good.

emmet and alastor dont really have all that much in common besides the smile thing but its just enough for them to beef over it. really its a similar feud as alastor and lucifer, alastor sees emmet as a threat both because of his power and the smile thing and emmet doesnt like that ingo is following alastor around like a lost puppy. emmet is def way less mysterious, he's just pissed that his brother is suffering even if ingo doesnt seem to notice his own problems.

volo doesnt really come back up in this au because he's still alive. just imagine that akari is kicking his ass in the living world or something lmao. 

i cant decide if pokemon exist in this universe. It would be funny tho to have chandelure exist in a world where souls are like whole ass people who can die for a second time. worlds nicest guy's pet lamp eats people until theyre perma-dead for breakfast.

Elesa (and probably also drayden and iris depening on your headcanons) are very sad :( i like emmet/elesa so it makes it extra hard on elesa tho. there is no solution for this.

not sure what the arceus situation is here. hazbin as far as i know doesnt have a canon god design so for all we know god could be a dumbass llama i guess. its doesnt really matter besides stylizing volo's ritual

[finniestoncrane]

i want to start writing but my account is new and i have like no followers and the characters im inspired to write from (mostly batman villains) aren't super popular so im scared to post at all cause i dont want stuff to flop and get like 3 notes if that and UGH i know notes shouldnt matter but i also know myself and ill feel bad

idk why im venting in your inbox i just love your writing and you seem kind so here i am

oh bug!! good news, i answered something like this a while ago, and my advice isn't any better lmao

another thing i would add though is that perspective helps!! it's a thing you gotta practice (and you can't practice without doing, same with followers really!) so yeah you post something and it gets no notes, that's ok. you can be upset about it, completely! i often am lmao but put it into context!

if something gets 3 notes and it's a request for a character people ask for i'm like "ok why are you asking???" if something gets 3 notes and it's something i wanted to write just for me? yippee!! 3 other people wanted the same thing as i did!!

also, realistically (and you may be vastly different from me lol!) i am rarely in a room with three people who like anything i do. i don't really have two people who like what i do to rub together. even my husband sometimes looks at the kinks i'm writing and goes "technically good. not for me" so if you have 3 people liking it that's AMAZING

you'll be fine, you'll be good. you might not get what you want out of it, but you'll get what you need u-u 💚💚💚

[acedomkarl]

angel asked: when g30rge gets to florida dr34m has like. blankets and stuff all ready in his room for him to nest with and he hovers over him all excited and happy. and g is like hey fun fact omegas find nests more comfortable if they're made by people they trust ( except he says trust in such a way that it implies love and or sexual attraction) so dr34m shoves the blankets around and g30rge is flopped down in the middle of his bed instructing him on how to place them. and once he's satisfied he's like. thanks goodnight dream :] so g30rge has a nice proper nest now and then he does his silly little closets nests as well but they're easy. dr34m asks him if he wants a nest in the living room because he hangs out there a lot and g30rge is like sure. so dr34m crafts another nest around him. and then hmm lets say s4pn4p and g30rge often chill out on the bed in dr34m's office & one day s4pn4p complains about being cold or something so dr34m is like :o u should make a nest !! and he rushes to grab blankets and s4pn4p is like wat and g30rge is like lol and dr34m comes back and s4pn4p tries to take the blankets to make the nest but dr34m is like nonono stay still im gonna make it for u. and s4pn4p is like ?? so dr34m explains what g30rg3 told him, that nests are better if someone u love makes it for u and s4pn4p just bursts out laughing like what thats so fucking dumb he got u good dr34m you're such a simp. and then dr34m is upset because he thought he was being helpful :( and g30rge is upset as well because ? how is that dumb it's literally true you made the nest for me in england and it was better than all my nests i literally used it the whole time until i moved here. and s4pn4p is like. you slept on the couch for 8 months? and g30rge is like. it was comfy ;( um anyway sorry this doesn't have a real conclusion they all make a nest together and then fuck in it or something ive actually been like. terribly ill with a headache all day so im really sorry if all the brainrots are literally fever dreams lol i hope they're ok i went kind of ham lmao i hope u enjoy i had fun thinking them up :]

HE SLEPT ON THE COUCH FOR 8 MONTHS ANGEL IM GONNA THROTTLE YOU

[yungviry]

rant again

well im fucking upset. not intentionally, ive been having a conversation with my ex boyfriend for like the last week. and i always tell myself not to reply cause there's no fucking use. we've had the same conversation over and over again and neither of us seem to agree with the events that took place in our relationship, nor i guess who's at fault (cause someones's always to blame on how it ended)

essentially hes to blame for the whole relationship flopping but he doesnt see it that way. he sees my retaliation as an issue. because according to him im supposed to be the bigger person. im not the woman he was molding me to be and gets upset i go off script. i swear narcissist will never see themselves as the one at fault for anything. personally i can see i was a petty betty, but because i never got the sorry i wanted and i still wanted to be with him (but thats my own self esteem issues at work)

im saving a lot of the story for the eventual book i write so i only vent so much but also it wont really make a difference seeing as ill probably phrase things differently once i get to that point to im gunna actually be a little vulnerable-ish cause its all public knowledge really. but you get it im writing it down instead of just telling my coworkers lol.

basically. i met malik around august of 2019. at the time i was on tinder so i was casually fucking multiple people at this point ( at least 4 other guys besides him) i was doing porn videos with one of my casual partners (sup byrd) nothing serious, just recording ourselves while we hung out. it was cool. they had made some noise when we first started putting them out that march/april. his profile was in the top 2 on xvideos which i very much enjoyed. lowkey weird seeing yourself when youre looking for something to rub your frustrations out on lol. malik and i met in august, i had already had porn videos out in the internet. he was not my boyfriend immediately. he didnt ask me till like 3 weeks of dating. i told him about the sex tapes the first week i met him. i cant remember if it was that same first day i met him or if it was the morning or day after, some shit along those lines. but you get the jist i told him i had sex tapes out BEFORE he ever asked me out.

now that a little backstory has been set up, he sit there and tries to make me feel bad for the sex tapes, knowing i didnt post them, some other dude did. i have no control over them being on the internet, i had agreed and even out of respect for malik i asked byrd to take them down and he refused so it basically ended there. i cant force some dude to do some shit for me. much less to spare my boyfriend at the times feelings. and still now he continues to torment me with "he cant get pasted my sex tapes" YOU DIDNT HAVE TO ASK ME OUT. i told him i had them out when i was single and still wants to be upset abut shit i did when i was single. like most bitches, usually if you dont like something from someones past and you cant seem to get past it, i wouldnt even ask them out in the first place.

maybe a month into us going out i go thru his phone and BAM theres hella messages to other bitches where hes literally flirting to all of them, some of them even happen to be at times were hanging out together. I had shown him how to make flautas maybe a couple weeks into us habnging out and there in his ig messages he was telling some random bitch hed make her flautas. ANd essentially from there it all started.

from that moment i could never trust him. i remember we were laying on the couch at my house when i was going thru the phone and i kicked him out m,y house. i remember i was heartbroken cause i really liked him already. we had spent almost every single day together since meeting each other and this shit was just unbelievable to me. we probably broke up for like 3 days and i was just aruguing over text with him thew whole time. i remember i didnt really wanna end things, but i couldnt deal wit the cheating. cause literally the day he asked me to be his girlfriend the only thing i had warned him about was infidelity. i have always thought cheating is the worst thing you can do to someone. its selfish, its hurtful, its destructive. those 3 days i remember he spent begging for me back, telling me how hed never do it and listing off all the ways he was going to make it up to me. he would repeat to me that hes do anything to have me forgive him.

eventually we had the conversation of what it would take for me to go back. i said i would need him to do things in order to feel like i could trust him, and at the time he happily agreed to all the conditions. helll, hed even offer to let me slap him as hard as i could to take him back. and trust me i felt like slapping the shit out of him. and then there i go back. i gave him his slaps and all his conditions and he said hed follow them. and that lasted 4 months (but not really cause according to the dates on his phone he never stopped talking to bitches behind my back) but i didnt catch him till like February.

literally from that fist instant i really should have just left him forever but my dumbasss had no respect for myself so i thought because we had a good connections i could look past the bullshit. i ate up his lies too about him changing, but i should have left regardless of all that. my hard no was cheating, he cheated and still my ass gave him a chance. i shouldnt have to give chances and make list of things i need to regain my trust. i should have dipped. cause at the end of the day all his words were just that, words. he didnt change, if anything he only got meaner with me and stricter. he was mad i was a fun girl and i guess he wanted to catch up on bodies? im not sure what it was but he never stayed loyal to me the whole relationship and would constantly lie about it. and he wouldn't admit till i had proof that he was. and again try to sell me a dream on hoiow hed change and how he loves me. blah blah blah cause in the end he was lying and i just turned petty. i stopped believing him and constantly accused him of cheating.

and i guess thats what bothered him, so you see it was a toxic cycle that HE STARTED. CAUSE HE FUCKING CHEATED ON ME. but for some reason because i was mean to him AFTER HE CHEATED ON ME im the bitch in this whole situation and its my fault he stepped outside the relationship and constantly lied about it.

obviously i can get more into it cause it went on for years and my dumbass just believed he was gunna change, even though i literally accused him daily. but to my surprise (or not really) i was right the whole time. he wsa cheating, lying and happily taking my money. bum ass bitch.

but yea we have conversations now and still he doesnt seem to understand HE"S the reason we never worked out. cause what the fuck do i look like trying with a bitch that doesnt know how to keep his eyes on his own girl. he should of just just dumped me but too late. now i dont like him a nd personally bashing him online makes me feel better. i get to warn other girls that he hits girls and has herpes (cause he also doesnt like to tell bitches hes fucking [which i can confirm he fucked at least 3 girls while we were together and he knew he had herpes and didnt tell them] that his ass has HERPES)

uggggghhhhh i dont even really like getting into it cause its pointless. he did me dirty and hell never acknowledge its all his fault. literally everything i did was just the repercussion of his actions. and im tired of his punk ass trying blame me for any of the bad he caused/created.

[3416]

Hey Emma, here's something I wanted to share.

I am was planning on writing few fics on both Sobbe and ELU but lost confidence, been thinking what if people don't appreciate the crappy writing. What should I do now? 😐🤦😭

hey there! i'm sorry you feel disheartened about your work!! i've always been of the opinion that if you're making things with other people's satisfaction and validation in mind ONLY then they'll hardly ever get done, and when they do, you won't be happy with the reception either way. i totally understand that that's a major motivating factor and sometimes there IS a lack of appreciation (i've felt both, don't get me wrong at all here), but writing especially, i think you just have to treat the experience like practice?? write what YOU want to go back and read, ya know? befriend a couple people to help you and hype you up when you need motivation to keep going. as cheesy as it sounds, i think you're going to have to want to write more than you're scared of lack of interest, and maybe you don't want to and that's okay too!!!! if it makes you feel unhappy and underappreciated, you shouldnt do it!!! if writing is something you love, then all i can encourage is practice, and i know for sobbe at least, people will be grateful bc we're in a sobbe DROUGHT RN. anyway, there is just no feasible way i can promise you the feedback you want but maybe reframe how you're looking at the writing process in general or get a small hype squad or person to help you out... because sometimes we all need that too!! hope you're having a good one and this helped ❣️❣️❣️

[angelyuji]

Obey Me Demons’ Toxic Traits

inspired from the haikyuu boys’ toxic traits by @haikchoo-main

heyyy i know i said i’d write this like a month ago, but i hit some writers block for this lolz. no angels or Solomon sorry :/ anyway enjoy! <3

cw // mentions of cheating, insecurities, break-ups, controlling behavior, angst

Lucifer: he’s not used to not be denied. he’s so used to everyone following his orders that being told “no” is new and annoying. he doesn’t like not being in charge so when he tells you to do something and you say no, he fucking loses it. not like temper tantrum but like he’s about to murder you and rip your limps off your body for defying him. have fun with that.

Asmo: asmo has never been in a committed relationship, his entire personality is based on being a flirt and being with multiple people at once. so, if you guys are dating, you’re going to have get used to the sight of him flirting with every pretty person he sees. he doesn’t understand monogamy like why limit yourself to one hot person when you can have a lot of hot people?

Beel: he puts you on a pedestal. you’re virtually perfect in his eyes. no matter what happens, it’s never your fault. you guys never argue because you’re always right…even when you’re wrong. in his mind, you can do no wrong, so if you ever do something that breaks that pedestal, he’ll start realizing that you’re not the amazing person he thought you were. and instead of learning and realizing that humans make mistakes, he thinks that means you guys aren’t meant to be and will break up with you.

Satan: his love language is being mean. he teases you and pokes at your insecurities. he crosses the line multiple time, but calls you too sensitive when you get upset. he gets angry at you for “not being able to take a joke”. he’s used to being mean to everyone he meets and doesn’t realize that being mean is actually fucking mean. he’ll roll his eyes when you get angry, and call you manipulative when you cry at his insults. you can try to tell him that his “jokes” crosses a line, and he’ll try to not be as mean, but it feels fake to you and him and he’ll get angry at you for trying to change him…good luck lol

Belphie: scheduling anything with him is a mess. he’s forgetful and lazy. he either forgets that you guys have something planned or will get too tired and flake. trying to get him out of bed takes forever, so making plans is frustrating for you and him. he’ll get upset that you’re interrupting his sleep and you’ll get upset that he never even tries to show up to your date. either you’ll have to get used to date nights in his room or you’ll have to drag him out of his room and watch as he falls asleep during your date.

Mammon: with mammon, he expects you to know what he’s thinking constantly. he won’t tell you how he’s feeling, but he expects you to know anyway. is he pushing you away? shouldn’t you know that it’s because he’s feeling insecure? is he pouting at you? shouldn’t you know that means he’s hungry? he wants you to tell him everything you’re feeling, but doesn’t tell you how he feels. he just assumes you’re a mind reader. maybe he doesn’t understand that communication is key, maybe he’s insecure and afraid that you’ll leave him if he talks about what he wants. you probably won’t know without sitting him down and talking about how he needs to be more open.

Levi: levi is very, very, very emotional. like he feels the most intense negative emotions with you (not saying there is no positive emotions, but that the negatives ones take over and cause him to spiral). you could mention that you really like the outfit he wore last week, he’ll start stressing about if you like the outfit he’s wearing now. you probably don’t know that every comment you make on anything is stored in his head and used as information to overthink about. if he makes a joke and you don’t laugh, he’ll get sad and start talking about how he’s not funny and how he’s a worthless boyfriend. if you (somehow) win against him in a video game, he’ll spiral and talk about how he’s bad at everything. (kind of reminds me of a pick-me guy) you’ll be constantly reassuring him that he’s amazing and a good boyfriend. (lowkey exhausting for people with a short fuse)

Diavolo: diavolo doesn’t take anything seriously. everything is fun and exciting and nothing is truly serious. you can never have a serious conversation. the only thing he’s ever serious about his RAD and the kingdom. to him, your relationship is supposed to be carefree and something that isn’t supposed to stress him out. so if you guys ever get into an argument, he will not care. he doesn’t think he’s supposed to care. if the relationship is starting to stress him out, he’ll break up. diavolo didn’t sign up for someone that exhausts him, he signed up for someone he wants to have fun with.

Barbatos: barbatos is used to taking care of someone and coddling them. so, when you’re dating, he doesn’t really let you make choices of your own. he does things for you, he does the cooking, the cleaning, the shopping, and won’t really let you do any work. are you at a restaurant? barbatos will pick and order food for the both of you. are you out shopping? barbatos will choose clothes for you to wear. he’s not very good at handing over control. he’s ordered around by diavolo, but also enjoys doing everything for him. he likes controlling you and doing everything for you. (in my opinion, barbatos is super adaptable, so just telling him “hey, chillax” will get him to stop being so controlling)

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ok so this turned into “toxic traits and how to stop the demons from being toxic” . i based these off of different stories and devilgram stories in the game, and just things i think would be their worst traits:) if this doesnt flop, ill write some for the angels and solomon :) anyway love u and hope yalls liked <3

[commajade]

sorry for sending this out of the blue, but i wanted to ask for your help conceptualizing why many kpop fans have the "we need to give X company our money so X group doesnt flop!" or "i hate X company but boycotting them is ridiculous bc it'll hurt the success of X group!" mentality (i mainly think of smaller groups such as predebut loona and not big ones like bts, shinee, etc). the answer seemed obvious since all companies are complicit, and so is any celeb by association of participating in the industry. but when i tried debunking that myth to a kpop fan from school who has more of the bootlicking brain, i lost my words and realized it was bc i wasnt as educated on the issue of capitalism(?) as i thought. its been hard researching (im not too good at it to begin with) on the subject and so far been reading about unions and businesses lol but its been hard finding stuff i just mentioned. i ask u bc your blog has helped me think more critically about kpop as a korean person, but i know this is really vague and loaded so i understand if u dont wanna answer and ill continue my research regardless. thank you

it's actually very simple and not that deep at all. kpop is literally the same thing as sports except the way u win the "game" which is the promotional cycle is by getting the most sales and views and recognition or whatever. they're just rooting for their team and playing the game. and now there's a million teams so everyone's always upset lol.

for korean gp before hallyu started massively skewing the numbers in the market based on intl fandom size (like pre-2017?) it was actually very clear when people actually like a song or not by things like views and sales but now it literally means so little so critical reception and artistic reputation are being prioritized by fans of groups who care about that kind of thing.

[azaffranist]

To think that Frozen 2 could've been so DARK. You think that kids would be psychologically damaged if Elsa had actually died, having grown emotionally attached to her over the past six years?

First off, sorry about the delay anon! I researched some more information about the topic before tackling this ask.

I was hoping the documentary would maybe give a little insight into this to understand those endings better, but sadly (and unsurprisingly) they didn’t. I wouldn’t expect them to talk about Elsa’s death because that’s scandalous, but at least I expected them to talk about A Place of Our Own, a scene and a concept that got cut late into development. So late, it’s actually in the Frozen 2 artbook. I’m not gonna go full conspiracy theorist because that’s pointless, but we know for sure they decided not to talk about the most controversial topics like Arendelle’s destruction or Hard Nokks. Which is understandable, but I’m not entirely too happy with that, lol.

I actually got new information about F2′s original/early plots. So far, I haven’t been able to find the link to the source (will definitely update the post if I do): allegedly, a storyboard artist called Jeff Ranjo, who also worked in F1, said in an animation symposium around early 2019 that he found the original script of F2 to be so dark that he couldn’t take it anymore and therefore left the team. His name is in the ending credits because he had worked for a while on the movie before quitting.

Jeff Ranjo is not some random dude. Jeff Ranjo is the artist behind pieces such as this. I’m sure everyone recognizes this unique artstyle.

Nevertheless, I haven’t found the source. It’s not easy to, because I’m not sure what animation symposium it was. There’s tons of them, and it’s something that he happened to mention, as it wasn’t focused on Frozen 2. So we’ll take this for now with a grain of salt, and I hope to update in the future if this is confirmed real or not.

But - it is good to consider when we’re talking about this, and it ties in with what we’ve talked about. Frozen 2′s original plot most likely was, according to multiple sources not related to each other, dark. And we know why. 

As for your question (wow that took a long time!) I’m glad you asked it because it’s something that we haven’t discussed much. I think it would’ve simply been devastating. For a multitude of reasons. Something to note before going into detail, though, is to establish what we mean by “Elsa’s death” - some of the information we got points to her dying but in some versions, her presence would still be represented by the Unity Snowflake (with a chance to come back in a third movie). I don’t know what you guys think but that doesn’t scream “alive” to me. That’s... kind of dead with a touch of magic. So keep that in mind when I’m talking about dead Elsas.

Kids wouldn’t have taken it well. Most adults would’ve sort of... accepted it. But I know we as fans wouldn’t have taken it well, either. These characters are important to us. They’re role models. They represent the struggle many of us have gone through. And Elsa is one of the most relevant characters when it comes to that. Her powers in the first movie resonated with all sorts of people, because at the end of the day, they were a metaphor that we were free to interpret however we want. Mental illness, queerness, disability, being “different” - you name it. What’s vital is that because of this, all sorts of people connected with Elsa. And seeing her die would’ve hurt. A lot.

And well, it’s obvious that kids would’ve been deeply hurt by this. The younger audience already didn’t enjoy Elsa vs Nokk. They didn’t like at all when Elsa froze. And something interesting to note, the final version toned this all down a little bit. Elsa’s freezing and thawing was originally accompanied by a much, much sadder soundtrack. They removed Elsa’s last breath, maybe in an attempt to make her death feel less “final”. We know shots in the Dark Sea fight were cut and this is painfully apparent in the last movie. Here’s what I’m talking about.

So, if the movie was modified down to removing Elsa’s last breath as to not upset kids (kids were, unsurprisingly, still upset by it) just imagine what would’ve happened if Elsa didn’t come back. Sure, apparently there was gonna be a snowflake, but... that doesn’t scream alive to me, again.

The merch would’ve flopped. What kid would want the doll of a dead character for Christmas? And we’re sleeping on the fact that Olaf was not gonna come back as a consequence, either. In terms of popularity with kids, Elsa is obviously number one, especially among girls. Olaf is number two, and boys’ favorite.

So, yes. It would’ve been devastating. If Anna had died in F1, while it would’ve hurt lots, it wouldn’t have hurt as much, because it’s the first movie of a franchise that’s just starting out. But F2 is the sequel to a movie that was showered in love and that received 2 shorts thanks to its popularity. As you said, kids (and adults too!) got attached to these characters over the span of six years. And to see them die would’ve been soul crushing. I know plenty of kids would’ve grieved them as if they were a real person. In fact, I would have too.

Were they gonna die, like, absolutely, 100% permanently, and not come back ever? No, I don’t think so. In fact they were probably setting up F3. Yes, it’s true it wasn’t gonna happen right after F2 - but after F2′s huge monetary success, I’m not afraid to say that I would see it happening soon. 2 years from now, 3, 4 even. But definitely not six. The reason F2 took so long is because F1 was supposed to be standalone movie, but it was so well received it got a sequel. That’s how things work in this world. If it brings money, Disney will try to milk it.

But that doesn’t change the fact F2 seemed like it was gonna end with a not-very-alive Elsa and a definitely-dead Olaf. This would’ve led to people being furious, sad, but I don’t doubt some would sort of like it for being different. What I think, though, is that because this ending seemed to be planned with much more anticipation, the plot’s quality would’ve been better. That’s something you just sort of deduce by logic, honestly.

Elsa and Olaf dying would’ve hurt people. I really wish to know exactly how it went, because execution matters. Some things sound one way on paper but feel completely different onscreen because of the execution. And I hope we learn the truth one day.

[superborb]

Winter Begonia

tl;dr Mixed feelings: loved the acting and characters, the plot is scattered and uneven.

The premise: in the Republican era (i.e. right before WWII, the Japanese are in the process of invasion), Shang Xirui is an up and coming Peking opera dan performer (i.e. he sings the female part). He's childish but extremely passionate about opera, and has brought his troupe to Beijing to make his name. There, he meets Cheng Fengtai, an extremely wealthy businessman, who becomes his financial backer and the two share a deep friendship. The story begins with a substantial amount of opera world drama, but slowly the Japanese occupation / Second Sino-Japanese War begins to overshadow everything.

The things I liked: The acting was TOP NOTCH. Nearly everyone was extremely good and believable; IMO Gu Dali was a bit overacted, but that's basically it? They also did a good job with the production values; the Peking opera clothing and makeup was obviously gloriously beautiful, and when it was the gloomy Beijing winter, it felt like gloomy Beijing winter. All the clothing that the Cheng and Fan ladies wear (as upper class women) are so beautiful too. The aesthetics of the Republican era are also really interesting, a mix of Western influence but still very traditional in some ways.

Although this is based on a BL web novel, this show is more on the friends-who-are-soulmates (知音) side in portrayal. The core relationship is very nuanced, where you really see why they've developed such a deep friendship: they understand each other at a level that no other person in their lives do.

I generally really liked the characters; they did a good job of being flawed yet realistic. For example, there's a major subplot where CFT's wife is jealous over his opera going, and the show depicts why she is upset in an unflinching way. I also really loved Du Qi and Fan Lian, who are kind of dramatic in a way I enjoy. (Sorry, I acknowledge SXR is also dramatic, but he’s too childish for me to enjoy the same way sdjflk.)

It was also interesting in terms of how the Republican era is viewed. Because of course-- the CCP then fought a civil war against them, but it's still highly praised in-world to be patriotic. The Japanese portrayal does give you a sympathetic character who's then [mild spoiler] used to show how even with the best intentions, war will put you on opposite sides with no way to bridge the gap.

Also, this is just personal for me, but my grandparents don't watch period dramas (and obviously not modern trash for girls lol) so this is the first drama I could really discuss with my grandpa. (His opinion on CFT: 放荡不羁的公子哥儿. He translated that to "a bit of a lad", but it's like... a rich scion who uninhibited and dissolute. He was aware the novel was BL, but it's unclear if he just looked that up after. Also then he went on to send me a lot of celebrity gossip about the actor for CFT lolol.)

The things I disliked: While the show tries to portray complexity and usually does well in presenting the conflict, it'll often shortcut its way out of resolving the problem. It does the common cdrama thing of finishing off minor subplots rapidly without letting them breathe! Of course, this is my own sensibility entering to make me feel this way, but I do think that a lot of the solutions are too pat.

I heard that the novel is also very uh, scattered in how it approaches the plot, and while the adaptation smooths over a lot of it, I think it's still visible in the edges where the subplots rub against each other.

There's also some inconsistencies. Some of the characters flip flop in intelligence in order to make the plot continue, which is a little frustrating. And more minor, some of the smaller details can be inconsistent, e.g. in how money is valued throughout the series (largely unimportant for plot, since the answer to everything that can be fixed with money is that CFT will pay).

More seriously, the portrayal of mental illness is extremely questionable. Some of it is period typical attitudes / characterization choices, some of it is... not. It isn't like, terrible in a flat way -- they do still do well in displaying complex morals -- but it falls into the "and then it resolved itself cleanly" issue I mentioned above.

Overall, I have no regrets in watching it! It's definitely a more serious show than a lot of stuff I watch, which raised my expectations perhaps too high. I did think I'd come out of it liking Peking opera more, but I think I might like it less now sdjfslkj. Would be really interested in watching the accompanying "opera explainer" show, but it seems to be unsubbed everywhere, and I think the discussion would be too high level without subs for me.

[painandpleasure86]

I can’t live with you (but I can’t live without you) - JohnicaWeek 2020

Author’s note: This idea born in my mind since Rachel announced this special week. My real life inspo were my own parents, married since 1991 (I born in 1992). Here I portray this couple as I imagine, based in real life experience having a 67 yrs old dad and in things that I read about this couple. This will be the most realistic posible representation of them that I could write. Don’t hate me if isn’t all cuteness here, life it’s good but also bad things :/ Also sorry if it’s too cheesy! I don’t like make suffer to my characters a lot lol.

Art by @imflashqueen (instagram). She drew the second piece inspired in my story! She was my beta indeed :3 Thank you for give me some feedback! Ah, and the first one was an old collab that we did in last November!

Plus, i’m doing this just for mere entertainment ;) I just love participate in this kind of events to meet new people, practicing my skills and have fun!

Summary: The anniversary date it’s here! How will they react about this?

Pairing: Current John and Ronnie :)

Warnings: Angst, some humor, some swearing, some fluff too. Mention of death.

Word count: 2139 words, perhaps my longest fic. If not, the second one.

Prompt used: Anniversary Day

First part

January 11th. Just like another weekend, another morning. He left very early his bed, trying to not wake up her. He wants some quientness to drink his tea. He wants to forget for a moment everything. Ever that next Saturday will be 18th. Just like in 1975. A cold Saturday in that catholic church, where Freddie made a particular entrance. Remembering that made him smile, but then was so upset, because Fred were ruining the strict ceremony. 

“I’ll always love you bud. Cheers for you” he said rising his almost empty cup of tea watching the sky through the windom and finishing his tea. 

His eyes were shining. His smile, wide. Until…

“Morning, no?” she said near to him.

He jumpscared a bit.

“God Ron! You know that I have heart problems…” he exaggerated putting his left hand in his chest.

She laughed.

“Exaggerated as always…” she added.

“Morning, yeah!?” he said finally, letting the empty cup of tea in the nearest table.

She started to prepare her breakfast. 

“Who you were talking?”

Lighting a cigarette, he said “I… just remembered something Ron.” He aspired the smoke deeply. Now the cigarette are between his index and his middle finger of his right hand. 

“Something happy”. Let go to the smoke through his nose.

Her eyes focused in him and smiling widely.

“I just remembered when Freddie entered to the church with that two girls in our wedding.” He aspired the smoke again. “Hahahaha… he couldn’t did it in another way!”

Her face turned so quickly in an deceptioned expression.

“oh… that, haha.” she said meanwhile she was preparing her tea.

Letting go the smoke but now from his mouth, he smiled mischievously. He did it again.

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In the afternoon of that Saturday, the couple received a video call of their youngest offspring.

“Hiiiiii dad!! Hiiii mom!!!” he said with his habitual happiness, smiling widely.

Both parents greeted to their son.

The young continued talking.

“How you feel knowing that next Sat will be your anniversary?”

Ronnie smiled widely. “FINE!!”

But he stared at the camera and rolled his eyes, sighing. “Another year” he said kinda melancholic.

His son and his wife watched at him.

“Huh? I was honest.” But really he wasn’t real honest…

Trying to change the mood, Cameron added with a smile “Well, the fans are more excited for that than you, and you’re the one that’s married with that lady” winking an eye to his mom.

Being visible upset, the old man said: “That fans, ha! Try to be married at least 5 years and have 3 children in the meantime and after they can say if they’re happy with that life! I have enough of that fans speaking about me like the cute one, the good dad! I wasn’t one all the time for fucking god's sake!”. He raised of his chair and slammed the door of the room.

“Another time with that rant about the fans…” she said sighing and watching at her child.

“Well, let’s speak about you then mom. You have plans to the anniversary?” he said trying to make smile to the 69 years old woman.

She said “yeah. I reserved a table in Nobu for that day” and smiled shyly.

“MOOOOOOM, that restaurant it’s so famous. Every famous people will can see you with Dad there” almost shout the young man.

“It’s my intention, son.” and she smiled kinda mischievously.

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Second part

Another 18th came finally. Another year. Another cold winter day. Another time where he remembered why he did that.

He opened his eyes that morning earlier than usual. He watched at his side. She was snoring softly. 

Finally he decided take his morning tea. Putting his robe and his winter flip-flops, go to the kitchen. He’s trying to not make any noise. More than ever, this morning needs that Ronnie don’t wake up at the same time than him. More than ever wants some silence and time with himself.

In the kitchen, he puts to boil some water to his tea. Meanwhile, he smokes a cigarette watching at outside through the window, still dark.

“45 damn years today. For good or bad... “ he sigh deeply meanwhile he was thinking. “Sometimes I ask myself why I did that. Sometimes I wanted to get away from this life, but for some reason i’m still here. Perhaps i’m tired of trying? I don’t know.” He aspired the smoke and let it go in a deep exhalation. “The only certainty it’s that I decided 45 years ago that beautiful slim prego lady, now an old woman, be my wife. Her…” and his thoughts were interrupted for the sound of the boiling water. “For fucking god’s sake…” he mumbled, while he turned off the fire. He prepared the tea and go to his “office” to check the internet. “Let’s see what the people say about me today… Wait. It’s early… Don’t care. I’ll be with this all day long if it’s necessary. This will be more fun than always.”

He sat at his desk with his computer, with his tea in one side. Meanwhile the PC was initializing, he was with a lot of expectative.

He sips his tea and opened the navigator. Typed the right search in the search bar. “Gosh, a lot of thing already. That people really loves me being with her”, he whispered. Clicks in the first result. And he started to laugh. “Happy 45th anniversary blahblahblah, his marriage its the proof that the love always wins” he said reading the text on that post in a social network. “Little person, it’s just the proof that I prefer be with her for a reason. Well... Six reasons. Hahahaha” he “responded”. 

Another post. That one, a drawing. “Oh okay, I look cute with her, goooootcha” he said  with a pinch of sarcasm. 

A fic. In this he stopped to read it entirely. He almost ended his tea meanwhile. And his laugh was harder. “These little girls haves a lot of imagination. Gosh, why I’m almost always the good boy in this things? Hahahahaha”

And another, and another, and another… He passed a lot of his morning there, having fun or merely entertain himself with the posts of the fandom. More than always.

Ronnie wake up. And her husband isn’t there with her. “John… at least today…” she though resigned meanwhile she puts her robe and his flip-flops.

When she was about to down the stairs, she listened a loud laugh. “He’s in the studio”.

She knocked the door. 

And he sighed. “why Ronnie?” he though. But he said “come in!”, still laughing.

“Morning Ronnie!” he said as any morning. But that one wasn't like any morning. Was the morning.

She stared at him, after close the door behind her. 

“Just that?”

He rolled his eyes, sighing.

“Happy anniversary Ronnie!” and he smiled quite exaggerated. “Come here”.

She was with mixed thoughts and kinda hysterical, but she approached him. She after a few steps was at his side. He hugged her, still in that comfy chair, with funny face. She couldn’t resist to hug him too, caressing his almost bald head. “Sometimes I hate your behavior John” though Ronnie. “But anyways i think that I still like to be with you, haha”, continued in her mind, quite smiling.

He, moving his face to leave that embrace, said “Well honey, I told it. I was cute no? hahaha. Stay with me and have fun with me reading that things that under 30-years-old girls write and draw about us”.

She stepped away from him.

“John, that people are just being kind with you. A lot of people recognize you now. A whole new generation. And they’re educated greeting us for the anniversary”, she said watching at him.

He laughed. Turning his chair in her direction, he continued talking. 

“Ron, that people thinks that marriage its easy, plus having 6 SIX kids to raise! Isn’t nice, it’s hard! And super stressful!”

Her face showed her nuisance.

“Ha, really you say that? You always recording or touring or in an endless holidays. I raised OUR kids ALONE a lot of time!”

He sighed so deeply. He started to need another cigarette. Now his arms are crossed.

“Really this again? Honey, stop. We fixed that already. Now i’m more at home with you and I helped a lot raising to our youngest kids”

Without thinking in the repercussion of her words, she said “Yeah, just because Freddie died before the birth of our youngest ones” and she half turned to her left, arms crossed.

He was without words. Was like a dagger in his heart. He didn’t knew how to react. A lot of mixed feelings. His hands in his face, he reclined his head.

“Veronica, get out.”

She, watching the results of her impulse, tried to fix that situation… in vain.

“But John, it wasn’t m-”

“GET. OUT.” His words were like a sharp.

She left the room, almost crying. “Well I’ll change my clothes meanwhile… and ill make my breakfast” she though in the meanwhile.

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That old wound was opened. he remembered that words about getting older together writing songs. he remembered how Freddie cheered him up to write songs, how he said once “shhhh John it’s creating”. He remembered noticed that scars. And knowing that his friend would die sooner than everyone expected. “He had a lot to give… We lost a lot of moments together for that damn disease. He was my real fuel to composing, and when he gone, my interest faded away. I just wanted to survive…” he started to think. He raise of his chair and took an old whiskey that he had over there, serve a glass of it and drank it of one sip. He lighted that necessary cigarette, now watching at the window, immersed in memories, in things that happened… He cried.

In audible voice, he said

“Fuck you Ronnie. Why you said that? Why you opened that wound again?” He sighed deeply, putting the cigarette in his mouth and aspiring the smoke. “I can’t live with you, but I can’t live without you, sadly.” Exhaled the smoke for his mouth. “Why I couldn’t leave you? I’m a masochistic? I love a lot to my offspring? In the very deep inside, I still love you? I don’t know really…” Aspired the smoke of the cigarette again, the last one. The cigarette its too short now. Throwing the cigarette to the floor, he stepped on it, turning it off. Exhaling the smoke, he continued. “You are my life, despite all the events. I give you my life. My love. My “freedom”. I married with you just having 23 years old. I REALLY loved you. Now?” He sighs deeply. “I don’t know. I just know that I don’t hate you”.

He didn’t knew that those words were listened for her, she opened silently the door minutes ago to apologize her  for her words and she stared there, listening.

“John…” she said with tears in her eyes.

He turned his face enough to show her that he noticed her presence, smiling. She entered to the room running. She hugged him. “Sorry John. I- I was impulsive”.

Now watching at the window again, he said “nothing to sorry. It’s okay” and he placed his left hand over her hand that was hugging him from the back. He take that hand and kissed it. He turned to her and hugged her tightly.

“You should knocked that door first, he said, leaving the embrace.

“well, I-” started to say Ronnie, kinda scared.

“hahahaha! Relax! Now come with me and read that things that the people say about us” he said going to sit to his chair again.

“No John.” she said, shaking his head.

“Uh Ron, you’re booooooring! hahahah”

“That aren’t plans for an anniversary” she said, getting closer to him.

Watching at her eyes, he said “and go for a dinner today? We don’t usually go to dinner and you want TODAY? Oh, and I just hope that you didn’t asked to the Father of the parish  to office a Mass for our anniversary! I’ll not go to the church today, and nevermore!” 

She stared in silence, incapable to react. Her plans are discovered.

He watched at her, smiling mischievously. “Ha, Mrs you’re so predictable…” he thought.

She, trying to cover her real intentions, responded “Eeeeeh, no. I didn’t do that! You know me John, hehe… I’ll just cook a special meal.”

“No Ron. I’ll do that, and I promise, will not be cheese on toast” he replied smiling lightning another cigarette.

He had a surprise. But one that just he knew… And eventually Ronnie. Because something like that deserves an adequate celebration. And will be at Deacon style.

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-Lily.

[bffsoobin]

lol girl wasn’t this you?

“Yall I’m gonna be honest and say I will probably postpone writing the dialogue prompt drabbles for a bit because they’re getting barely any attention. I know that sounds kind of bratty but I spent about 45 mins yesterday writing Drifted instead of doing homework and it’s only gotten 13 notes, so the time to payoff ratio just isn’t looking that appealing to me at the moment”

Yes this was me, real props for copying and pasting one of my text posts that everyone already saw to prove your point!! Here’s the funny thing about phrases like “for a bit” and “at the moment” they mean that things are subject to change, and may do so quickly as you’ve recognized here!

I’m not gonna tell you I wasn’t upset that it got a low number of notes, but that was mostly due to the fact that I prioritized it over actual schoolwork and while I do love writing it really is just a HOBBY. I try to delegate my time as well as I can between this blog and real life. So if my readers were not seemingly interested in my dialogue prompt drabbles/drabbles in general I was going to put them on hold. I posted change of heart last night because once again, writing is a HOBBY and I was in the mood to create and post something. I don’t live for notes, anon.

I’m all about owning up to things I’ve said before so like 10/10 good job for bringing this up but I don’t see an issue with being honest about being disappointed by a lack of notes? If you bothered to read the tags on that (which you probably didn’t) you will realize that I didn’t demonize my readers or blame low notes on txt “flopping”. Not to mention that several of my own readers told me that they understood feeling like I wanted to not post if they seemed to be ill-received. Now if you don’t mind hopping off my dick, I’m going back to earning my degree!

[angel-princess-anna]

APA Meta Monday - Pregnancy Brain

As things are going well for Anna and John, they in a way end up serving as the commentators or Greek Chorus for guiding the audience’s view in other plots (this was actually a wish of mine back yeaaaaars ago in order to let them having a breather after S3. Just let them be happy and talk about the others for a handful of episodes. Whoops).

Anna’s been described as the ‘moral center’ of the show by Gareth and the likes in interviews for those PBS telethon programs. We know that both Anna and John have strong morals, and it’s in part why they were drawn to each other. But having the role in the scope of the show at large means that Fellowes can use her to influence the viewers. The issue is though, when he uses her for this device (vs. her just being there with her own standard), it causes her to flip-flop quickly issues. In this case, that was Henry Talbot.

She tells Mary that they don’t really go together, and this balances out Tom trying to pair Mary up with Henry. Anna and John discuss this (one of Anna’s character flaws is gossiping, ironically), but then two episodes later, Anna’s opinion has changed (as her and John serve again as the Greek Chorus to explain why we should definitely now want Mary with Henry). While perhaps Anna’s opinion changed due to Mary’s reaction to the crash, we don’t actually see Anna talk with Mary about this that night... nope again, we see her discuss it with John instead and we don’t really get that’s where maybe that conversation is leading (John’s opinion is just he wants Mary to be happy, lol).

My joke here is that it was pregnancy brain. It also explains why she was just so darn tickled about Mrs Patmore’s House of Ill Repute. Anna wouldn’t normally be giggling up a storm with that, she’d genuinely feel bad for her, and would know she’s be upset if she and John were in her shoes will they ever have a hotel though?! And I mean, Anna’s the ‘moral center’ and all... but I think in this case, Fellowes wanted you to know this was a light-hearted joke (I mean it is Mrs Patmore and all). Or maybe it was just pregnancy brain.

[kurainburdened]

POKEMON AU pls.... bc i know ur passionate abt pokemon and honestly Me Too

III LOVE YOU!!! I WAS PLANNING ON MAKING THIS A THING WHERE I ADD IN THE SENDERS MUSE INTO THE HCS BUT MAYA AND YOUR MUSE NEVER INTERACTED WHICH IS A CRIME!!! Dont tell edgeworth or she might get arrested lol. But anway!! I want to do stuff with you!!

ALSO THANK YOU FOR SENIDNG THIS BECAUSE THATS REALLY SWEET OF YOU AND IM REALLY TOUCHED YOU REMEMERED I LOVE POKEMON

Number 1

Mayas first pokemon, funny enough isnt a ghost type, but a normal type. See, in the pokemon verse Mayas background is basically the same. The Fey village is basically unchanged in this worly except for one thing. On a certain part of the mountainside is a forest that travellers tend to get lost in for ages. Many report hallucinations as being the main cause for this so it’s kind of cut off. Maya, being the rebel she is, of course wanders it in hopes of conquering it. Her sister is usually the voice of reason and really it would only take her being like. what if youre lost forever or something to scare her into staying but shes not ther so into the forest she goes! It’s there that she finds a waterfall and goes there to train constantly. She tries and tries to channel spirits and one day, she succeeds! Or so she thinks. The first time she thinks she’s channeled another spirit, she sees herself as the spirit she’s been trying to channel, sees her now-possessed body moving and acting on it’s own. When she runs back to the village to tell her story, she’s told that she couldn’t have channeled a spirit because if she did she would’ve been unconscious. 

Confused Maya goes back and tries again only to get the same result. After a bit of investigating Maya realizes the source of travelers getting lost and the hallucinations is due to a stantler. This Stantler saw Maya, this little girl training so hard that it took pity on her, and wanting to help in the only way it could let her see herself channeling a spirit. At first Maya is crushed and upset at the pokemon for giving her false hope but quickly forgives it and thanks it for wanting to help. The pokemon soon takes on this kind of caring role for Maya, along with also being her only playmate seeing as the other girls in the village are kind of distant with her. Her being the heir to the Master title and Morgan instructing them to listen to her and listen to all her selfish desires, leading to them being resentful of her. Anyway, also to build off of that. Once Mayas sister dies, she asks the Stantler to let her see her Sister again. And thats like a thing she did for awhile before telling it to stop because it became this painful reminder of something she could never do which is channel her sister. Actually fun fact she asked the stantler to show her her mother but was heartbroken when it basically gave her the answer that it couldnt because Maya didn’t have the memory of her mothers face anymore. Anyway. One time when shes particularly heartbroken and hopeless she laments in the forest to herself how shes so useless and cant do anything right. How she hates herself for being this way. Hates herself for not being able to compare to Mia or her mother. At this point she sees the image of her sister saying shes proud of her. Maya is angry at Stantler for showing her such a horrible lie and runs away. Only to later be told by the pokemon that it wasn;t trying to make her see her sister say that, rather it was the only way of communicating that even if no one else appreciated her, it was proud of her. 

ANYWAY ENOUGH OF STANTLER ON TO NUMBER 2

That’s right another in depth backstory for another pokemon hopefully not as long lol

The next on the list is a primeape that lives in the forest, training with sawk and throh. It kind of ended up getting abandonned by it’s trainer in a place where this breed of pokemon aren’t really found but it’s found it’s place with the sawk and throh so it doesn’t mind too much. It ended up earning it’s respect with good old fashioned fighting and is kind of in a ‘king of the forest’ position. Scary and intimidating and bent on establishing its dominance to all that challenge it! Anyway, while Maya is exploring the mountainside of her village she finds out about it and it’s plain to see that Primeape has a certain amount of respect among the other fighting types. After having seen a cool tv episode where the hero challenges the strongest of the strong a really young Maya decides to do the same, announcing loudly when the pokemon is alone that she’s here to challenge the pokemon to a duel to the death! She runs up throws her small fist at the might and strong pokemon!

To which, not wanting to hurt this strange small child, primeape falls over dramatically, clutching the side which she hit and lets its tongue flop out all goofy in the hopes of appeasing her. Maya, not really sure what to do, honestly not even having thought this far ahead starts getting worried for the pokemon and starts crying to which it quickly gets up in a panic to reassure her its ok. From there it kind of takes on this older brother position with her. Also playing with her, letting her grab onto it as she swings throughout the trees. 

Goodness this Maya is turning out to be much more of a wild child than her aa counterpart. She’s not exactly strong, but she’s more athletic I’d imagine in this version. More nimble but can definitely have her clumsy moments on occasion. 

putting last three under cut cause THIS IS LONG. IF YOURE ON MOBILE IM SO SORRY

Number three!

Goodness I stuffed way too much into those other HCs but onto Phoenix! Anyway this also remains for the most part unchanged. What you think the pokemon world doesn’t need lawyers? Anyway, quick tanget but trainers arent really…it’s not a sustainable lifestyle, most people do it as a way of coming of age before moving into the respective field they took interest in during their travels. So no, if you have a pokemon au you don’t have to be some professional trainer. Professional battles are like a sport and trainers are athletes. Sure people enjoy it on the side but it’s NOT the norm to make it a living off of it. You have to be smart and strategic in a very complicatedf sport that takes a LOT  of training and it’s not like in the game where if you spam tackle after walking around for 5 seconds you gain XP. its more like you’re a coach training 6 athletes in how to train their bodies in the best way possible while coming up with tons of game plans. 

anyway tangent over. Phoenix is a lawyer and this taking place in the pokemon world only lends itself towards there being much more factors to consider when thinking of how murders occured. Her life with Phoenix for the most part remains unchanged but as a side note Maya encounters a lot of pokemon along the way during her travels with phoenix. She thinks strong heroic looking pokemon are cool so she tends towards pokemon like sawk and throh or conkeldurr. OH AND IVE BEEN SETTING THIS IN SPECIFICALLY UNOVA AND ONLY RESEARCHING THE UNOVA DEX FOR MAYA ND THE POKEMON THAT SURROUND HER. 

I feel like.. Audino might enter theyre little group at one point? Like Stantler comes with her when she leaves the mountain cause Stantler is a worrywart and Maya is a mess and has never been down to the big city, but Primeape is more trusting in Maya and her abilities and knows shes much stronger than a lot of people give her credit for. He doesn’t come down the mountain to be with her until much later just cause he has a pack to guide. Actually the pokemon it leaves in charge is like another pokemon Maya is close with since it was primeapes apprentice and maya and this pokemon were kids together and kind of were the babies of the pack ANYWAY SORRY TANGENT. 

aNYWAY AUDINO. A while back Audino were attempted to be integrated into crime fighting in some way since the way theyre psychic powers work they’d be able to sense overwhelming…i guess malevolence or evil or bad intentions but like. It’s just REALLY unhealthy for them and it really signifigantly lessens their lifespans just cuase all the negativity eats away at them emotionally and one of the pokemon, it’s really old honestly like it was one of the pokemon that originally was part of this attempt to integrate these pokemon with the police force and was luckily enough like it survived long enough for them to end the program and it just…can’t endure being around negativity anymore like it’s really stressful so it enjoys being around Maya just cause she is really kindhearted and senstive and good and the Wright office is filled with kind hearted people so it just takes comfort being there. It doesn’t really leave the office though and while it’s there for everyone it really does belong to Maya for the most part. 

THATS JUST AN IDEA I HAVE THOUGH IDK IF ILL MAKE THAT PART OF HER CANON

Im kind of just going off on differen points in this one huh. Like the other wre a story here im just like SO MANY DIFFERENT THINGS. 

Number 4 (where diana tries to stop being ADHD and hopefully doesnt fail miserably)

Honestly you’d think being part of a back of fighting types would make her more suited towards groups and make her less selfish. Spoiler alert. It didn’t  If you think Maya is good at making people do what she wants now you shouldve seen her when she was a kid. Though it also means shes got a entire pack of fighting types who will die for her and if you make her cry you better be sorry. and if youre not you’re going to be.  

Oh and also dont think that just cause Maya is a forest girl that oh shes strong and knows how to fight cause like. She really doesn’t. Honestly the pokemon around her kind of coddled her and outside of her gaining enough stamina to hold up against running around with her pokemon friends she’s not really….all that much stronger. She doesn’t know how to fight either. She can jsut run really fast and is more likely to attempt more dangerous things that she’s seen other pokemon do cause WHY NOT. She basically just has more dangerous influences lol

Number 5 cause i want to wrap this up a bit

Oh boy now what can i do for a fifth one lets see… see the thing is Maya is basically the same between the two versions of her except for certain like physical differents that I just listed. 

I guess here’s one but she doesn’t….she’s not a good trainer. Like her team, right now, is an old man of an Audino. A Stantler that can only do hallucinations and is kind of bad at fighting and then this powerhouse of a Primeape. 

The Primeape is a GREAT fgighter but tends to keep to the mountains unless it starts missing her and comes downt o visit real quick. Her other two are just…weak. Maya though is really good at thinking on her feet so she can use what her pokemon do have to come up with some great strategies. Thought his doesnt reall come out unless shes backed up against the wall. See the reason why everyone percieves Maya as stupid and useless is because that’s how she percieves herself. Maya for the most part does what she can in what she think she can do but doesn’t really let her true intellect show because shes convinced shes an idiot. She kind of jokes around with bad ideas but she really is quick on her feet and good in a clutch.

So the only time you see her good skills with her pokemon and coming up with inventive ways for these basically powerless pokemon to get her out of tight situations is when literally shes by herself, there’s no one else to rely on and lives are on the line.

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20180217 SHINee and 40,000 weeping fans: a fan account

This is an account of my experience watching SHINee's concert last 17 February 2018, their first one since that ill-fated December day.

I arrived early from my homebase in Tokyo via bus. I headed straight to Kyocera, where my friend was waiting for me so we can line up for concert goods. I got there by around 8am and the line was.. incredible. It was starting to wind around the arena. Seeing how it's the middle of winter, mad props to all the Shawols sitting in the floor in the cold.

Thankfully they opened the stores earlier and there were a lot of booths so the queue moved quickly once selling began. The goods were also gone very quickly, haha. I'm glad I managed to snag all I wanted (plus the umbrella sold out before my turn, so it didn't tempt me anymore xD). After that we went back to my friend's airbnb so we can rest and refresh, then back to Kyocera by 2pm so we can grab lunch before it all begins.

To be honest, I don't really know how to feel? I'm thankful I met my friend and my seatmates because they distracted me from my anxiety. I was starting to have difficulties concentrating and breathing as the hour draws nearer. It was even worse because it was delayed by about half an hour.

So the opening VCR played, and wow, the moon.. gee, so subtle. When the first notes started playing from the first song, I completely lost it. I knew this song so well these past few weeks. It was Colors of the Season.

See, I liked this song but it wasn't on the top of my SHINee ballad list. But that December Monday, it was the first song I listened to. I listened to it on repeat. It was very comforting for me.

Jinki's lines, the first time we'd heard his singing voice after a long while! He looks so good. Then I started bawling, because I knew the next lines were Jjong's, but Kibum sang them.. And it was so surreal. I have no words to describe the feeling of hearing thousands of people crying-no, weeping-- so openly. It was the first time I wept so openly as well. It was so clear the members were having a hard time too, they looked really nervous and distraught. In my head I was going, "Shoot, we have to stop crying!!!" because I knew it'd affect them too.

Then, it was a roller coaster ride. LOL. There were high-energy dance songs! I was so nervous when Everybody started playing because the choreo was so Five-centric..I think the revisions were good. But it still felt bittersweet, because.

EVIL! It's one of my fave SHINee choreos and I can't believe they performed it since it's Korean. There were no blindfolds, but I loved the red cloths. After Juliette, there was the opening ment. Not a lot of words were said. Jinki said he was nervous because it's been a really long time since he last saw everybody. Then Key said they'll change clothes for the next stages. Minho asked us to listen to the next song.

So the lights dimmed and BOOM. End of the Day started playing. There was a message flashed on screen. "Hey Jonghyun, you're also here today right?" My heart stopped beating. A montage of Jjong and SHINee's photos on the screen with sweet messages.. Jeez. I wasn't ready. More Shawols wailing. Then came the ballads and it was tough. They left Jjong's parts in and his photos on screen. It was really hard for them~ My boys.

Diamond Sky was played with videos of the Five performance on screen. This was really sad, because those were usually cute and sweet and it was hard to see it alongside them on stage looking rather upset. The hand signal means so much to Shawols. Minho was raising his hand extra high to the sky, like he's sending it to someone up there.

Then came more high-energy dances. LLO reminded me of the time they made fun of Jjong's lines. Taemin covered it and I laughed. Hello was so cute! Also Onew forgot he was singing Jjong's lines and he smiled at his mistake. Then came go-near-the-audience time! The usual trucks moving around..

Then Minho and Taemin rode on a freaking BALLOON. This was so amazing ahahaha. Minho kept bowing to us like a prince. My prince, Minho. Taemin was his usual fail self, like he was all extra trying to throw the frisbee as far as he can but it ended up hitting the balloon and flopping straight down below. Then when their paths crossed, Minho threw a ball to Taemin and he caught it! He was so shocked himself. Aaah, dorky Taemin is best Taemin. I haven't talked about Key. Kibum was so extra gorgeous today. That's the best way to describe him. I love his new hair color, and his outfits wow!

Towards the last high-energy-dance parts, they wore these red satin outfits? Key and Minho had shiny tight pants and Key's neckline was as deep as the Marianas Trench. Thank you stylists. Also Taem wore a beret. They performed Hitchhiking which was AWESOME! They were doing it in a dance-off way, two on two. Except you know, this was a Jongkey song so I was a bit sad again.

I also forgot to add, but most of the stages were done in the moving parts, similar to the ones used during Five. an extension of the front part of the stage can slide towards the front. I like that most of the time they were at the center.

Why So Serious was.. interesting for me. Mainly because my first thought was "Hah! Well you'd had a lot of practice doing this one without him."

Kimi no Sei De was next. Minho and Onew were near our side of the stage and damn, that chorus choreo is not healthy when it's so near. Minho killed a few fangirls on the arena seats.

After Lucifer, they dimmed the lights, flashed the logo and we started the "SHINee, woot woot!" which was weird, because it's ending so early? They came out for encore, not dressed in the usual encore tshirts, but very casually. More ballad time! Sing your Song was funny for me because it became reading practice. I loved it when we sang along! And then I'm With You and people started bawling again~ the four are now looking sadder again, did I tell you this was a roller coaster? Yep. The ending ment was too much for all of us, I think. Taem was the first to mention Jjong, saying he was like family to him. Minho said he wants us to promise to remember Jjong forever. Key cried. Everyone cried. They then said the next song is a new one sang by all of the members. It was a very jazzy number and the choreo (as always) was cool. Urgh, Jjong's voices shine in tracks like these.

The last one was Replay, minus the dance.

Everyone thought it was over but we stayed, chanting SHINee over and over again. They did return for one final song. The stage showed five spots, with five mic stands. The middle one was empty bar another light shining on it from a window. A new ballad! They all had roses in their suits but Jjong's place, the center, has a rose in the stand. The song was so good, what's new it's SHINee, and the message was so sweet. But everyone was crying and all of them were crying and at the end, they placed their roses on the mic stand. It's over.

So I bawled over the opening song, cried a bit for first ballads, then overall, I started enjoying myself. But I am a blinger, so I remember everything. I know almost all of Jjong's lines. I appreciate the fact that they didn't assign all of his lines to one member-- they all sang. Not just Taemin or Onew. And we all know Jjong's lines are not the easiest. Eventually I just felt calm, in a I am numb sort of way? When I see the boys distraught, or crying, or having difficulties speaking, I thought: what a cruel, cruel world.

Whenever I see fans holding up uchiwas or signs for their biases I wanted to barf, because well, there's no point holding an uchiwa anymore for my bias, lol. I felt so sad and sometimes I felt out of it for that very reason.

I wish he was still here. I wish he wasn't taken away from us. Then it'll just be a fun concert and we'd have new SHINee memes and new happy memories? But it's a cruel world.

SHINee was my consistent source of positive light. These concerts used to be a sweet, fun gathering of a group and their loyal fans. But it will never be the same, won't it? The worst was that I in the audience could feel how difficult this was for them. Nobody deserves this fate, more so SHINee and Shawols.. But we couldn't do anything about it, because the world is cruel like that.

I love them so much, with all my heart. I want to hug them and thank them and protect them forever.

Jinki, Kibum, Minho and Taemin. Thank you for doing this. I promise I will remember Jonghyun forever.

Jjong.. were you watching? I miss you so, so much.