#im also watching a pals stream

[basilpaste]

how are u doing this evening. or whatever timezone youre in its evening here

it is like 8pm here. i am!!! very tired and kinda brain-offish but otherwise okay!! trying to will myself to either work on stuff or go to bed early! i wanted to finish a thing today but ah. spoons low.

[autisticlalna]

The Fourth Wall Will Not Protect You: Establishing Contact With R.C.

im being exploded from all angles but i bring news from the skyblock kingdoms discord. which is also news from fool's chat last night. WE HAVE MADE CONTACT WITH R.C.

"leo. leontids mathonwys what does that mean" IM GLAD YOU ASKED <- unhinged

after Rubyco's episode dropped yesterday, someone was curious about what was going on with the weird galactic messages. Solar and I gave an overview of what we know, which dovetailed into talking about V.P., and because im incredibly predictable i also started talking about Navigator.

normal behavior.

and then...

He is definitely someone to keep in mind.

im gonna just post some screenshots going over this part, because it got very chaotic very fast.

or, to summarize: SBKCD attempts to figure out who to yell at for being ominous.

things somehow get even more chaotic, with several others chiming in Galactic, Enderian, letter substitution ciphers, and fucking hexadecimal at one point. im gonna skip over most of it and zero in on the other message we got from R.C. during this:

leo: i was supposed to be clipping something. aces: Team L.O.R.E. Suffering continues R.C.: :) R.C.: [Suffering is not the intention]

okay! cool! awesome. R.C. making the discord explode was not part of their plan, whatever it is. more importantly hi hello what the fuck do you mean nav is someone to keep in mind

this is, somehow, not the end of it. later that night, during Fool's stream, Ruby-- or the Rubyco clone, to be more specific-- was lurking around being threatening and all-around very suspicious. Solar was in Fool's chat and feeling very stabby (which Fool shot down), and when it became clear that Ruby was stream-sniping, decided to cause a distraction.

solar: also -- fool, ignore me for a second -- R.C., pal of all ours. [i don't suppose you're listening in?]

unexpectedly, there was a response from Rubyco in Fool's chat:

R.C.: [I am always watching]

Solar and R.C. then proceeded to have a conversation, still in Galactic.

solar: oh, awesome! great to see you! [out of curiosity, do you take up capacity for this line of sight? which is to say, can that other ruby see right now?] R.C.: [I am not a parasite] solar: would never accuse you of that! quite the opposite, [i wonder if your presence protects us from the prying eyes of that impostor.] R.C.: [I do not influence the worlds- i am not him, i should not communicate- but this is different.] R.C.: [You are an ear that will listen]

a couple other chat members chimed in in Galactic, and im assuming Fool noticed what was going on (i had his stream at near-zero volume unfortunately) because R.C. ended communication with this:

R.C.: [Do not tell about my existence] R.C.: [Please tell him this too]

incidentally, the distraction didn't work. after all, they outright told Solar "I am not a parasite"-- this isn't a Sapphire situation.

what's interesting is that, in other instances of R.C. speaking to the viewers so far, they've referred to themselves as plural-- "we". this includes in the most recent video that started all this: the hidden messages include "This was the only one we could save", and the description says "We are not sure of their location".

however, here we're speaking to an individual, or at least someone speaking on behalf of themself and not as representative of the assumed greater whole. "I am always watching". "Do not tell about my existence".

hey guys what the fuck

[retroactivebakeries]

The Scriptures of the Maidens as Dril Tweets

The Eternal Maiden: pissed off by the idea of my ass becoming grass The Desirable Maiden: drunk driving may kill a lot of people, but it also helps a lot of people get to work on time, so, it;s impossible to say if its bad or not, The Maiden at Sea: (witnessing the flaming wreckage of a 6-car pile up) ah. Respect. More power

The Maiden Entombed: my grave is just a huge tv displaying videos of me doing parkour in hell and it makes all the other graves look like shit The Maiden and Shadow: who the fuck is scraeming 'LOG OFF' at my house. show yourself, coward. i will never log off Lover and Maiden: damn it to piss. my wife replaced all of my anti-wife reading materials with Pro-Wife bullshit The Hunted Maiden: (dismissing waitress handing me the check with a hand wave) no thank you. i dont believe in any of that The Bride: i lvoe and cherish all of the girls of this site, and other websites. you all become my wife more and more with each passing day. Thank you The Dancer: my watch beeps whwich means its time to stand in front of my ex-wife's house and play "Hit THe Road Jack" while dacning and licking her mail The Desperate Maiden: ive signed a 1 Month Pact w/ my wife which grants her the right to viciously berate me online, as long as she watches & supports my Stream's The Clay Maiden: (playing russian roullette and its my turn) hasta the vista mother fucker (shoots the other guy The Drowning Maiden: joke's on you; i actually love being body slammed by one dozen perfect wrestlers. and my mouth isn't filled with bloodm, it's victory wine The Maiden on the Shelf: strongest blade in the world, howeve,r it is so fragile as to shatter when handled by any force other than the delicate touch of a lesbian . The One-Handed Maiden: BOSS TELLS ME I CAN KISS MY FERRETS AT WORK, BUT NO OPEN MOUTH. I PUNCH THE FLOOR SO HARD HIS SCREEN SAVER DEACTIVATES The Maiden at War: astrally projecting my brain into antifa head quarters and memorizing their combat patterns is the easiest shit i have ever done in my life That Old Thing: if someone posts something that is good then i will look at it and think its good. Simple The Savory Maiden: Your replies have been simply Fire. Love the energy but please do keep any talk of boiling me alive to a minimum as that is against the law The Maiden in Terror: big bird was obviously just a man in a suit. but the other ones were too small to contain men. so what the fuck The Maiden in Chains: i was tricked into sending $100000 to a man claiming to be DB Coopers son. and not a single one of my followers even bothered dialing 911 Absence: no The Maiden and the Dust: so long suckers! i rev up my motorcylce and create a huge cloud of smoke. when the cloud dissipates im lying completely dead on the pavement The Maiden and the Scythe: people come up to me and say, "I will never use the bathroom. I will never shit" and i gotta tell them pal, sooner or later youre gonna shit The Maiden's Promise: the doctor reveals my blood pressure is 420 over 69. i hoot & holler outta the building while a bunch of losers try to tell me that im dying The Expectant Maiden: as far as im concerned the best revenge is ordering wolf piss online & pouring it into soneones car. "living well" is too hard The Maiden and the Road: obliviously driving m y car through chernobyl , absorbing lethal anmounts of radiation while looking for cute girls

[cg-saturn]

as someone with a hard time voluntarily regressing, do you have advice?

the last time i tried it took me three hours and five coloring pages and a whole season of bluey </3

all the websites i looked at were like "get your paci" a=but i don't have any gear to make me feel small

Hey kiddo!

I know it can be hard to regress sometimes for whatever reason- maybe you've been too stressed, too busy, or just having a little block the same way artists or writers sometimes have. But I promise, you are still a valid little even if you struggle with regression at times.

Regression can come in so many different ways for people that it can be hard to give a definitive answer of how to make regression easier for you specifically, but I do know for some people who don't have the ability to own gear for any reason (living or financial situations) it can be even harder. So Star and I decided to come up with a little list of activities that can help with both! If anyone has any ideas or questions, please reblog and we'll add/answer what we can!

For kiddos who don't have gear because of living situations-

Legos- these are a great toys that can be bought in "adult" type sets, and many people don't question having Legos as a hobby no matter what age you are! Make yourself a little castle, or your own creations!

Magnets- I've always loved playing with magnets! You can get packs of bead magnets for fidgits and sounds, or even just play with the invisible force between two refrigerator magnets!

Playdough/slime - you can buy it or look up some easy at home recipes! Make it your favorite color, and add some glitter or beads to it for a textured play!

Tangles/figdgit toys- I've always loved fidgit toys, but some of them can secretly act as chewies/pacis too depending on textures!

Childhood movies- now that streaming is more avalible, it's pretty easy to access some movies from our childhoods! Personally I love the old animation of Disney movies, but there's also Scooby-Doo and all sorts of other cartoon network shows on hbo and Netflix!

Stuffie party- gather all of your pals and make a big circle on your bed or the floor, and enjoy their company! Ask them about their days, what did they get up to while you were out?

Kids apps- im planning to make a larger post about these in the future, but there are tons of apps that can help the regression process, and it's easier to hide if you're scared of people finding out.

Agere blogs- this one is kind of silly, but I think sometimes it can help a lot to scroll through some blogs that post outfit boards and soft little things! It can help to know you're not alone in your regression too, and maybe you can meet some friends who will help you in the future!

For kiddos who don't have gear because of financials-

Baby Einstein YouTube- if you don't remember Baby Einstein, it used to be a DVD series on learning for kids! They've moved to YouTube, and you can listen to various songs and watch different shapes and colors, it's very relaxing! You can do the same with clips from shows like sesame street.

Tell a story / madlibs- making things up and being creative is a great way to open your little mind. Telling a story about the unicorn who lives in the woods, or making up a silly madlib about the purple horse who jumped the tree. Make up the silliest story you can, don't worry about it making any sense, that's the whole fun of it!

Kids music- you can find playlists on YouTube and spotify for kids music! You can go from instrumental to learning songs like "wheels on the bus"!

Play with textures- at work we have sensory buckets for the kids. Put sand or rice or glitter in a bowl, mix in some beads, bells, cotton balls, or whatever other fun textured things you have around. Just put your hands in it and explore! Take time to touch every texture, try to focus on objects like it was your very first time seeing it!

Blanket fort- take the pillows off the couch, move your kitchen chairs around, take off your sheet if you need to! Make yourself a little oasis, snuggle up, and enjoy the small feelings!

I spy / where's Waldo games- you can play with books, apps, or even just with a friend in real life! I love to play with Star, it puts them in little space almost immediately as they frantically search for "something orange"!

Wear mismatched clothes- I've always believed that matching socks are bad luck in general, but I also think there's something about not having high fashion can help regression tons! Don't worry about the stereotypes of pigtails and overalls, wear those silly leggings and the oversized t-shirt with holes in it! Wear a sock up to your knee and one down to your ankle if that's what feels right! Clothes deserve to be a comfortable reflection of how you feel!

Remember, Littlespace is just like any other mindset. It doesn't matter what you do or don't have, as long as you're enjoying some childlike wonder again. You're just a lil kiddo! That's all it comes down to. Remind yourself that you're valid for healing your inner child and letting yourself enjoy things, you deserve to be a little angel again. Do things just because you want to, just because you're curious, just because it looks good, soft, whatever. Being a kid is learning everything for what feels like the first time no matter how many times you've learned it before. You deserve to experience things for the first time again, to relax, and to heal.

Sending love and always wishing you the best!

Pippi Saturn 💕

[door]

tagged by @brella HEY PAL while sat eating contraband and reading at the reference desk so let's do it

3 Ships: there are so many. ok: obi-wan/cody for the serious adult/serious adult content my heart craves, apollo/klavier because i LOVE an anxious weirdo and what's better than 1 anxious weirdo?? and finally peter/harriet on account of all the heyer mysteries i've been reading and there are some good and fun romances in them but truly nobody did it like peter and harriet.

First Ship Ever: i have forgotten the specifics of the chronology of my youth. Nancy Drew & Ned Nickerson or Anne Shirley & Gilbert Blythe, likely. han & leia also, possibly. i watched the original trilogy straight through on a snow day so i wasn't left in suspense about them for very long but i did very very badly want it to happen. the first ship i ever read fic for, however, was mulder & scully.

Last Song: the Glass Onion score while doing some research, but i currently have Transgender Dysphoria Blues by Against Me! playing on a loop in my head (not a complaint)

Last Movie: watched Invitation to a Murder last night after finding it on a wikipedia list of films set in the 1930s. i have been reading almost exclusively books written and set in the 30s and i just wanted to see it. i like the unpretentious nature of tv movies so an american-made straight-to-streaming take on a Christie country house mystery should have been right up my alley but mostly i was bothered by how wrong the breakfast service was.

Currently Reading: just finished one heyer (A Blunt Instrument) and immediately started another (No Wind of Blame)

Currently Watching: nothing. i am very weird about tv.

Currently Consuming: just finished the contraband (a peanut butter cup cookie from the cafe)

Currently Craving: it's still fucking pimento cheese

tagging: @notabuddhist @ratherembarrassing @powpowhammer if you want! im not a cop

[mollyhale]

9 people to get to know better

tagged by @mickeysjones :)))) thanks for tagging me <3

3 ships: oh boy just three??? i have so many???? (like please ask me about all my ships i have THOUGHTS) i could make them all pokémon because pokémon is my heart and soul (pun intended) but i will try my damnedest not to 

- pallet/nameless/originalshipping (only because im going to internally count them all as being variations as the same one so im counting it for one okay??) also adding contestshipping bc i loved ash with may first (and maybe i’m just biased to being in love with gary/blue since i was little)

- robrae and bbterra from the teen titans cartoon like from 2003 (im cheating slightly) but also dickbabs in general overall 

- lucaya. it’s 2023 and i will never not feel ROBBED. the whole reason i got into using tumblr seriously way back when was bc of sabrina as maya and lucaya so they have to be on here, it wouldn’t be right without them 

Last song: monster by skillet because 2000′s rock will forever have my heart (but i am literally about to play the new linkin park song fighting myself so there’s a bogo answer for ya)

Last movie: i think if memory serves (and sometimes it dont) it was the man from toronto which was honestly a lot more fun than i anticipated! i dont watch movies as much as i’d like anymore because i dont feel as committed to them when im watching them on streaming v. in a theater. i think the last irl theater movie i saw was black panther: wakanda forever which i loved!

Currently reading: quite literally just finished beartown by fredrik backman which i fell in love with and read in like two/three days!!! i wanna get the other two books in the series but i think im going to read the immortals of tehran next

Currently watching: lotta things in rotation: ted lasso, dawson’s creek, next in fashion, and american dragon jake long. those are my main four that are in rotation until i finish the season/series (as applicable) 

Currently consuming: ferrero rocher :))))

Currently craving: a piece of barbari (persian bread) 

Nine tags: oh boy imma tag some pals from the side blogs bc i dont have nine mutuals i interact with on main for sure lol but no pressure to do this at all :) also open to whomever wants to 

@slickmascara @flippinfins @seancamerons @xoxo1601 @kljmiy @caw4brandon @le-pokerus @arieldoll @wishcloak

[a4g]

hey hihihi mister a4g tumblr, in a rather unexpected turn of events i got covid and had an awful fever yesterday (im feeling better now!!) then had my first ever fever dream in which your blog page turned into a doctor who fan page, then police started looking for me because i was watching a spoke stream, only to retreat in disappointment because they couldn't figure out how to enter my apartment. overall im just grateful for feeling better bc my weak lil mouse body physically CAN NOT handle another one of these dreams

oh btw the hidden """upcoming""" spoke youtube streams are in the "subscriptions" tab on the youtube app, click on spoke's channel icon and only then can you find them in the video list. pretty strange that they're not listed in the actual channel page

ok ill stop now lolll sorry the length of this ask got really out of hand really fast. almost like a letter. your like a pen pal of some sort to me a4g tumblr, the only difference is you don't have to witness my awful handwriting and i threaten to eat your other asks. but come to think of it ofcourse my handwriting is bad im just a lil rat!!!!!!!! :)) ok good bye bye

-🐀

AHHH IM SO SORRY I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIS

I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER NOW :((( and that certainly is a. dream. i love fever dreams they are so weird and stuff just happens. i remember i had one wear this guys face melted into a pizza and then everything started melting into the floor. i was seriously ill and passed out during class for that LOL

also hmm i never noticed an upcoming subscription thing. im not sure how youtube streams work so im not sure how those title screens for old old streams still exist but ! cool piece of spoke channel history i guess!!

STOP EATING MY ASKS.

[smokeys-house]

hii smokey hi hi iam so sleepsy its bedtime for me but iwanted to share that im finally getting to watch blooborne gameplay (my bestest friend has been streaming it for me) and we saw amelia today and i almost fell over from excitement bc i love her a lot shes so coolsies and also bc i was reminded of my good pal smokey from smokeys-house and i got soo many screenshots ill have to postthem and @ you whenever i rember todo that (hopefully tomorrow)

Ohhh!!! Thats very exciting bloodborne is one of my favorite games 👀 amelia is so ❤️🥺 thank u for thinking of me basil omg... sleep well! Good night!

[girljeremystrong]

fellow victim of the succession to hockey pipeline here HOW do you watch the nhl if youre not in the us please help im going insane

ok so first of all who are you 👁️👁️ i'm dying to know more people who are both into succession and into hockey! but also don't show yourself if you're not comfortable i love you even if you stay anonymous

secondly i use this dodgy website https://livetv.unblckd.pw/enx/allupcomingsports/2/

and on there you can stream the games live but also as you can see on the banner up top you can click on 'video archive' and then select ice hockey and you can find recorded games which is what i watch on the day after because i will Not wake up in the middle of the night to watch hockey live and i like the recordings because they are pretty high quality!

also i said it's dodgy but actually i do think the website is okay virus-wise but still i access it from TOR browser which gives me the illusion that my identity is safer but idk

if you need more info or anything please feel free to send me another message!! i will do anything to help a hockey pal watch a game

[omegawolverine]

hi again damien my pal damien :] i hope you don't mind me not following up to your answer of my ask yesterday until now—there are just There are so many Tasks and Tribulations. in this cruel world. far far too many in my opinion 😭 BUT ANYWAY!!

I AM SO HAPPY YOU GOT YOUR BILLZO MERCH THAT IS SO AWESOME though also i need to say like i agree like the fact that it's already too cold for short sleeves... CRIMINAL!!!! i don't even mind the cold it's just that i have so many band shirts which i want to wear all the time and of course they're all Short Sleeve... and so many of my halloween graphic tees are too 😭😭 it's not a big deal just Annoying. massachusetts weather is so. hmm. not sure how to describe it id just like to strangle it sometimes

AND I'M DOING GOOD :D!! nothing really Special or that interesting happening in terms of myself but im ok with that i don't mind :] plus i think you also saw that post about me fighting for my life cause i Also need to find a day to finally just WATCH the rest of rise, like i still keep scrolling by every meta post too i can't do this anymore 😭 hopefully very soon though :D id give you rise fic recs too but i only know like... one. and i haven't even read it so idk how good it really is 💀

SORRY IF THIS GOT SUPER LONG BUT EITHER WAY TY FOR ANSWERING AND I HOPE YOU'RE STILL DOING GOOD!! good luck with everything you're up against whatever that may be :D

i have looked at this ask every day since u sent it with the intention of answering and then not gotten to it bc adhd so im forcing myself to do it Right Now (so yeah obvi dont feel bad for not following up with me immediately im clearly worse at it than you'll ever be)

nah but fr massachusetts weather is ridiculous, i just have a variety of turtle necks for every fall/winter season to wear under my plethora of short sleeves bc otherwise i cant use more than half my wardrobe during those seasons without freezing to death 🙄 plus it's like downpouring every fucking week but i dont own an umbrella and i have no clue what happened to my raincoat but i fr havent seen it in like 2 years now?? anyways me and my friends went to spirit again today and got soaked bc when we went in the store it wasnt raining and when we left like 45 minutes later it was pouring and we didnt park close.

but ya i did see that post!! hows ur finishing the show going anyways? i havent seen any updates from ur blogs on it but i def couldve missed them 😭😭 i have made no progress since we last spoke bc ive fr just been watching video essays and streams every day with the exception of one day where i just started a new show randomly and watched the entirety of it in one sitting.

but ya i hope ur doing well also!! we will make it through this massachusetts weather together o7

[bonyato]

Only I would have the absolutely brilliant idea to decide to finish Miitopia and stream the whole thing in the middle of the night

[baeshijima]

𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫!𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫!𝐲/𝐧

A/N : oMG YOO ITS BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE I LAST POSTED ANY STREAMER CONTENT KSLDFS (ಥ _ ಥ) BUT IM BACK !!! AND WITH OUR BELOVED GIGACHAD, ARATAKI NUMERO UNO ITTO ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪

masterlist

wE’RE BACK TO STREAMER AU AFTER 6387562507349750TREYURET034 YEARS

 AND WITH STREAMER ITTO ??!?!?!?"!$"£%^ 

pog.

poggers

poggies

pogu—

ahem

anywho 👩‍🦯

our one and oni gigachad of gigachads, ARATAK1TTO, here would most definitely make a top tier streamer

i mean it

nO BC HE’D BE SUCH A FUN AND ENTERTAINING MULTI STREAMER ????

I SWEAR, ONE MOMENT HE’D BE KO-ING IN VALORANT OR APEX, THEN HE’D BE DOING 50 POKÉMON TCG BOX OPENINGS TO TRY AND GET CHANDELURE/GENGAR VMAX, THEN HE’D BE OUT VLOGGING WHILE BEATLE HUNTING SHIRTLESS

at this point it’s just a talent of his that his community have just,,,, had no choice but to accept their weird but loveable strimmer

i won’t lie, itto is just chaos incarnate

the physical representation of the elmo hellfire gif

the type to have that super obnoxious, yet cute and contagious laugh that sounds more like a wheeze but gets covered up by the loud slapping of his hand on his keyboard bc he missed the actual desk space if he’s not choking

probably leaned so far back once that he just fell off his spinny gamer chair and nearly knocked the desk over

ngl, there have been multiple petitions hosted by his community

one of which being :

pls give our questionable strimmer software funds so he can afford 3 new monitors, a keyboard, a mouse, endless lollipops, and life support to help him survive in his own room <33

he snacks and eats sm on stream that it would be weird if he doesn’t eat abt 10 mins after the last thing he ate

mf probably has a hexbug collection too

but speaking of community, he’s one of those streamers that everyone just,,, knows even without ever watching him

well, it’s purely for all his chaotic moments that went viral and got turned into a meme

which is literally every waking moment he records himself

also just gets KAPPA’d and OMEGALUL’d and UNLUCKYYYYYYYY 99.5% of the time he streams <//3

. . .

itto sweetie ur doing great, i swear

:’)

and another thing that really stands out with his community is that they’re not just ??? a community ???

like

they’re literally all bros

one big diverse, confused, wholesome family of bros

bros before hoes—

he also just calls everyone “bro”, “dude”, “man”, “buddy”, “pal” and “homie”

unironically calls his friends “babe” too

when voice chatting on streams he’s caused more misunderstandings than u can imagine :’)

unlike the other two streamers i have posted abt (albedo — whose community is just the epitome of wholesome — and childe — whose community is just the literal spawn of the devil), itto’s community just has this super warm and comfortable, yet chaotic vibe ??

idk how to explain it

u gotta be there in the discord server especially to know what i mean

all the times they voice chat, have a big watch party of an anime/movie/series, have a massive and stupidly competitve game night (probably pkmn tcg online or who can get the biggest in agar.io or smth)

but real talk, there have been so many instances where they all hype each other up to do dumb shit, as well as help one another through their lowest days that it honestly just takes the top spot as the number one community KJHSLJ

PLS THEY’RE ALL SO OPEN WITH EACH OTHER ???? BC ITTO’S COMMUNITY REALLY IS JUST ONE BIG FAMILY AT THIS POINT 😭🖐

definitely played doki doki literature club once bc his chat said that it was a super cute and fun game and he was down bc wow, cute girls and a fun dating sim? count him in!

that was until he actually got into it

there are many… many clips of him freaking out 

they all went viral, as expected—

“iF yOu LoVe Me leT me goOoOOOOOOooOo~~~”

beatboxes 74.2% of the time he’s on stream

but this big ole puppy has lots n lots of plushies !!! i just know he does !!!!

one of his favs is this bull plushie that he always has on him just to rest his head :(

lots of fanarts of him with the bull as his lil mascot 

so much so that it’s now his actual mascot 😭

he also has one of those little chomper thingies that u attach to ur charger as a gift from one of his viewers !!!

it’s a smol cow one (≧︶≦)

probably has quite a few pets !!

maybe like,,, 3 dogs, 1 cat, a couple of hamsters, maybe some ferrets,

and a goat

mans probably lives on a farm with horses and 10 cows or smth

wouldn’t be surprised

it’s probably why he’s broke tbh

nOW ONTO HIM BEING WHIPPED FOR U AS A GENSHIN STREAMER ?!?

well

it all started on this one, fateful day 

he was doing a pokémon tcg box opening and rambling abt his authentic hexbug collection (u know, as u do) when a viewer sent in a tts :

“hey boss !! (that’s what they call him when doing a tts ;-;) have u tried the game: genshin impact yet?”

and that folks is the beginning of him spiralling down the hell known as genshin <33

now

after finishing up his pkmn unboxing, he searched up the game and downloaded it !!

truthfully, he has heard of it, but it didn’t really interest him all that much at first

in other words, he’s only gonna give it a try bc his chat wanted him too (when he asked if they reallyyyy wanted him to play it and they all spammed yes, he gave in JHJKS)

while waiting for the download to finish, he began just going through the official website to see the characters

by this point, it would be around the 1.3 update, so the lantern rite festival would be the ongoing event in-game !!

so he’s going through the mondstadt character list:

“alright, not bad! this diluc guy looks like batman with his dark clothes, so that’s pretty cool! kaeya looks suspicious tho. could never be me.”

also thought fischl looked super cool too

he thought albedo was a cat until he saw diona, who was an actual cat of sorts

now thinks albedo looks like a puppy

then he gets onto the liyue characters:

“WOAH! WHO’S THIS?! XIAO? MAN DOES HE LOOK AWESOME, AHAHAHA!”

so yeah

he’s part of xiao nation now :’))

but then he noticed his chat spamming similar things

“wait where’s (y/n)???? they left out my beloved adepti ARATAKISOB”

“(y/n) modCheck”

“zhongli’s righthand adepti has perished ;-;”

“liyue’s nuke where KEKL”

and itto just sat there, being the confused bby he is like:

“(y/n)? who dat? 🤨”

and his chat went W I L D

next thing he knows, he has an influx of tts screamers, ppl spamming words of affection for u, others tryna send pics of u in-game + links of ur official art—

it seems his chat are all part of (y/n) nation (and rightfully so wink wonk—)

he managed to get hold of one of the links to ur official art promoting the 1.3 update and. . .

oh my

u hear the sound of that?

that’s the sound of itto’s jaw positively dropping to the floor and his heart stopping.

it was so quiet on his end that his chat had thought he died or smth 🤡

tho, that wouldn’t be all that far from the truth bc hOLY ???? IS IT POSSIBLE FOR A CHARACTER TO LOOK SO BADASS AND STUNNING AND SO FREAKING LOVEABLE N ADORABLE AT THE SAME TIME ?????”!”!£?$£$£^%&

itto be running laps rn

heart pumping, mind spinning, and a big goofy grin to top it all off

MISSION: convert mr aratak1tto from xiao nation to (y/n) nation has been a success !!

so when he realises that ur gonna be released in this current new update after xiao banner (in place of keqing bc as much as i love her, she’s a standard banner so i can easily replace her with ur release :’)), he’s now super pumped and impatient for the game to finish downloading

his chat get a front row view of him going through ur character demo, trailer, previews, art, and then him tapping his monitor screens in hopes it’ll speed up

they approve of their strimmer’s actions. 100000000000/10 !!

and once it does download? he’s right on it 🐥

until he realises he won’t see you until he finishes the prologue with mondstadt

and that xiao’s banner is still ongoing so he can’t even get u

f in the chat for aratak1tto sir 😔💔

but he forgot abt all that once the game displays it’s immaculate graphics

mans is hypnotised by dvalin roar and venti disappearing

NO BUT ONCE HE UNLOCKS WISHES HE’S SO CLUELESS

“luck? why would i need luck? i’m the luckiest man alive! just you all watch and see the greatness that is arataki itto—” *starts choking or smth as usual*

thought he was god when he got noelle in his first 10 pull until someone told him everyone gets her in their first multi on beginner <//3

n e who he did another multi on beginner and got another noelle

noelle gang rise—

no but i can actually see him as a noelle main pls 😭

but anyway he goes through the prologue, ranking up, screaming while fighting slimes and hilichurls, screaming while running from mitachurls, abyss mages, whopperflowers and ruin guards, screams while tryna steal the holy lyre der himmel, then just goes spin to win with noelle 25/8

shield mitachurls his beloathed until he remembers he has amber <//3

contrary to popular belief within his community, he actually completed the prologue quicker than they thought

and by that i mean within abt 4 hours or so

they all think he just wanted to meet u as soon as possible HKJHSDKL

bUT NOW HE’S IN LIYUE !! 

makes his way through the region to liyue harbour, only to discover more enemies to go on his beloathed list, which incurs more shouting on end and free entertainment for his chat :’))

enter: liyue harbour ~~

and w o w

the visuals are just ??? so cool ???

he was told by his chat to complete the liyue archon quest, and he would’ve sighed if it weren’t for the fact they told him u would be introduced in the first act

h a

itto is positively whipped and he hasn’t actually met u SKDJF

by now he’s built up a good amount of primos from his time in mond, and his chat told him to save for now since there was still about ten days left of xiao’s banner

so he did just that and witnessed rex lapis dying 💀

speechless

just sat there, gaping at his screen

man </3

fast forward some more and he’s screaming while running through the milelith bc he doesn’t speak sneak, just sprint

found childe weird when he first saw him and heard his name ngl JSHDKJ

then found him even weirder when he found out it was tartaglia bc it sounds too much like the pasta he ate literally an hour ago

but now he’s on a mission to find the five adepti with the sigil of permission !!

first meets moon carver while attacking the milelith with his spin to win tactic, then xiao who he practically fanboys over before shouting at the ruin hunter in the forest, then mountain shaper where he has a field day pretending to be an adepti messenger, and finally cloud retainer in which he complains abt not having enough ingredients to cook everything

and now is the time everyone’s been waiting for

ur introductory time :’))

after he finds the four, another quest pops up telling him to head back to liyue harbour, to which he finds a bit suspicious bc shouldn’t he be looking for u since ur the last one ?

but his chat reassure him so he proceeds

and lo and behold ur there waiting for him at the bridge

he didn’t even realise u were there until the screen went black bc he was too busy sprinting and gliding to notice HKJLSD

but once he realised what was happening he let out the biggest gasp

he let out an even bigger one when u looked at him his character

safe to say he’s now ur biggest and most devoted fanboy despite u not even saying a word yet <33

definitely takes so many screenshots to commemorate ur first meeting so he can look at it every anniversary 

he goes through ur dialogue and omg ur voice is so nice, and so is ur smile, and— wait no don’t leave already !!

D:

salt. and betrayal

anywhoodles he’s in love with u and now ur both official

who says? well, his community said so :/

also lowkey falls in love with zhongli and beidou but like,,,

who doesn’t ???

but timeskip of abt another few hours and it’s 1 am but he doesn’t care bc he’s a mAN and will power through to the end and his chat are both here for it and are ✨ concerned ✨

zhongli hinted abt u more than a few times, esp when at the guizhong ballista

ngl, a lot of ppl have so many theories and speculations that u two have/had smth going on, esp with zhongli’s voiceover abt u in his profile

itto may or may not have attacked zhongli’s model when searching for the broken parts a couple of times bc of it

but ye he awed at the osial fight but also shouted at the fatui until he started screaming bc of the speed buff xiao gave him

but anyway let’s just skip past that and go straight into ur banner bc this has somehow dragged on long enough at 2.2k words and i’m abt to cry bc of it but it’s okay—

bUT YES !! IT’S NOW TIME FOR UR BANNER

he’s so excited and has been waiting for this day since,,, well,,, ten days ago

itto became an ar 49 player with all the all nighters he spent grinding and exploring

but anywho, he has all ur mats ready and prepared for when u come home to him ~

his community both revelled in and pitied his introduction to artifact farming

they know what it felt like to get pummeled by rng but his reactions were too entertaining :’))

he actually got xiao somehow within 40 pulls, so now he has a lvl 80 dps xiao bc he’s not at ar 50 yet 💔

but rn he’s prepared for u as much as his ar 49 ass can so u better appreciate his efforts and external crisis

okokok sO

banner change

ur here

he cries at how amazing and cool u look in ur splash art bc 

“KSDJFHDKJGHDFJLKG ??@?!$£’?”

^^^^ his actual reaction

anyway, he hypes himself up and chat spams his (Y/N)NumeroUNO emote for good luck ><

one multi in. barbara.

telling himself it’s alright since he has no pity anyway

two multis in. the bell and another barbara.

telling himself it’s (not) alright since he only had 10 pity

three multis in. rainslasher.

telling himself it’s alright since he only had 20 pity

four multis in. gOLd no it’s purple. 

he got bennet

it’s alright, he’ll take bennett constellations but hahahsjhfds where are u?

five multis in. a fischl.

u know what? he’ll take that too bc fischl pog but no seriously where are u pls come home soon preferably now?

six multis in. dragon’s bane, barbara, and sacrificial fragments.

okay haha funny joke,,, now (y/n) pls come home—

seven multis in. barbara.

okay i take it back this isn’t funny anymore pls come home ;-;

eight multis in. ningguang and the bell™.

internally crying and externally screeching

nine multis in. if he doesn’t get u here he will—

keqing.

. . .

oH SHIT UR IN THIS MULTI TOO WTFJSDHOS

bro’s fallen off his spinny gamer chair again bc u appeared on the very last one <//3

he’s crying, chat’s crying, his lil mascot’s soaking up his tears, and ur the cause of it all ehe

no but as soon as he looks up and sees u on his screen he just has a big dumb grin on his face that he’s (kinda) forgotten abt the suffering u just put him through

now he’s on ur profile thingy and admiring u in all ur glory :’)

levels u up so fast and just,,, runs and jumps around with u in  his party of noelle, xiao, and bennett

ur party is called the ARATAKI GANG and he’s never been prouder

his fav voice overs are favourite food + when the sun is out + good morning + birthday (when he has his birthday, that is,,,)

did he set u as his profile icon?

pshhh, of course he did

did he change his signature to be related to u?

yuh-uh he did :

“me and (y/n) finish each other’s sandwiches o(≧▽≦*)o”

he was very proud of himself for coming up with that

did he change his in-game name?

hAH! obviously !!

“(y/n)’s ( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧”

he also made sure to put u into all of his socials in any way he could

pfp? done. bio? EZ. display name? hah! child’s play

anything else?

well, he pulled for ur weapon with funds provided by his community bc they pitied him 

[corpsehusband-simp]

here me out🥵

Corpse Husband x reader😏

Reader is a pro minecraft player and i mean MAD GENIUS OF MINECRAFT

while their streaming on the dreamsmp, tommy also streaming at the dream smp and he's with corpse😩, tommy saw her building and ask to join their vc, there tommy introduce noob corpse (im sorry corpie) to reader and ask her to teach him how to play it because hes new and reader is good good at minecraft, there reader show their talent to corpse and corpse is amaze

Corpse:🤩

A/N: LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD DO A PART TWO!!This was such a cute request, I absolutely love writing for Corpse so if you guys have more requests please send them!!!

“No, no Chat I think I’m gonna put the chest here” You pointed your character towards the side of your room in Minecraft that you wanted to put it. “Okay now that we have that sorted let’s go back to building on the outside.” You hummed happily, swaying in your chair as you were building, occasionally talking to your chat until a message popped up on the bottom of your screen,

Tommyinnit: YN

Tommyinnit: JOIN VC

Tommyinnit: PLEASE

You giggled.

“What do you think chat? Should I join?” There was an overwhelming amount of yeses in the chat, a few nos but mostly yes. “For those of you saying no I’m so sorry but I’m gonna join Tommys VC.” You used your second monitor to open discord and join the VC, Immediately you heard Tommy yelling.

“NO NO NO Corpse you are fucking shit at this game.” He laughs loudly before realizing you joined. “YN HELLO!” You hear a deep laugh and know damn well that didn’t come from Tommy.

“Hello Tommy, how are you? and hello deep voice.” Tommy lets out a loud sigh.

“I’m doing pretty good y/n but I’m trying to teach my friend corpse here how to play but its hard. Oh, by the way, Y/n this is Corpse he’s really cool and Corpse this is Y/n they’re a god at Minecraft.” A deep blush creeps up your face at Tommy’s compliment.

“I wouldn’t say a God Tommy.”

“Well I would, you are amazing at this game, your builds are crazy.”

“But Foolished is much better at building than me.”

“Eh agree to disagree I guess.” You both shrug. “Anyways Y/n the whole reason I’ve asked you to join VC is because I need your help to teach Corpse Minecraft.”

“Ahh I see… well I can certainly try.” You bite the inside of your lip thinking for a moment.

“Okay right so the way we are gonna do this is I’m gonna build a basic house and I want you to copy me okay!” Corpse lets out a hesitant okay. You start building a house and Corpse was following along but what you didn’t notice is Corpse stopped building at some point and was just watching you build. You were so focused on trying to explain everything you were doing until you heard Tommy speak.

“They’re amazing right?”

“Yeah they really are” You look up from your build and see Tommy and Corpses characters just staring at you, corpses house was still in the beginning stages.

“You know Corpse it helps to learn if you actually build as well” You tease.

“I’m so sorry it was just-your building-wow” Corpse was at a loss for words at the moment. You giggled which sent the already flustered man over the moon.

“Well I need to end stream but Corpse if you want to keep playing I’m more than happy to.”

“Yeah, I’d like that.”

“Perfect!” You clap your hands together. “Alright guys gals and nonbinary pals it’s time to say goodbye, so until next time goodbyeeee!” You cut the stream and sit back in your chair doing a big stretch.

“Your outro is very cute.”

“Corpse stop flirting!”

“TOMMY!” You yell as a deep blush burns into your skin.

“What?!”

“Dont you have to go to school or something thing?!” Tommy laughs.

“No but I do have to go, I told Tubbo I would play a game with him so bye!” And just like that Tommy disconnected from vc leaving you and Corpse alone.

“Hey Corpse do you live in LA?” Theres a small pause before he answers. “Yeah I do, why?”

“I know you are faceless and stuff, and I totally respect that, but maybe if you wanted to you could come over to my house and I could teach you Minecraft in person. It’s a lot easier to teach that way.” You babble nervously to which Corpse giggles.

“Yeah I’d like that. Its a date.” Corpse says with out thinking. “I-I mean not like a date date-I just- well if you wanted it to be a date-”

“Corpse” You speak soft you. “Its a date” You cant see it but Corpse was smiling the biggest smile hes had in weeks. “Cool” He gives you his number and you text him your address.

[tuzi0usagi0bunbon0bunny]

I finally did the kaiju males!! it took longer than expected but im glad i finished them

some of them looked rushed so im sorry for that 

heres the female anthro if you’re looking for it! 

Godzilla

Godzilla is the king of the monsters in the original au , but in this au . Godzilla owns a succesful  company  where a bunch of kaiju works in , he’d mostly overwork himself and sometimes takes breaks , he’d sit in his office doing his job so he can both support his company and family , but whenever he is at home he mostly  sleep for hours due to the non stop working , but when he’s not sleeping he’ll try his best to interact and play with his kids and having outings with a family  Godzilla and mothra own a two story house with his wife , kids and his retired veteran brother in law battra , he’ll mostly be in his office working day and night , and maybe get interrupted by his kids Godzilla is a hard working husband and father , who doesnt know that needing a break exist , but also a good drinking pal to be with 

Rodan

Rodan used to be a employee for both godzilla and ghidorah , but now hes a full time youtuber who makes videos about gaming and cooking , he owns a youtube channels  like “Fire demon’s gaming” and “Fire demons cooking time” , he also owns twitch where he live streams his gaming and cooking! , Recently he made a youtube channel called “FiredemonVlogs!” where  like the channel names says ,vlog , he will vlog his daily life and help promote company and other things alike , he’s currently promoting kongs bar which both godzilla and ghidorah were upset at first but they’re okay with it now ! as long as he promotes theyre company too

Rodan owns a big house with a pool , he lives alone and will occasionally host parties for his friends or fans , he also has his own gaming room in there , and has a specific room for his achievements.

Rodan is energetic fire chicken and always likes to cause abit of chaos either for his fans or just for the fun of it! 

Ghidorah

wooo someone grab godzilla theres another king! , In this au Ghidorah owns a successful company too that it rivals godzillas , ghidorah has pride in his company and will do anything just to piss of godzilla  

Ghidorah owns a really big mansion full of expensive items in it , and of course two big ass pools and a garden  Ghidorah is a proud of his company and himself and will literally flex his money on you. 

Battra 

battra is the twin brother of mothra and is a retired veteran , he was once in the military but later on dropped or disqualified for his mental health  deteriorating and for his loss of his left arm( he currently has a robotic arm)  and lost of his left eye  , he currently stays at his sisters, brother in-law nieces and nephews place . He rarely goes out and will spend most of his time sleeping in the couch and watching shows in the tv , he tries his best to help out in the house but mothra will just tell him not to worry and just to relax , the only times he does come out thou is when he visit appointments with ms manda for therapy. Battra has his own room but he’d rather sleep in the couch saying “its much more comfortable” and the tv static gives him a easy time to sleep. Battra was once a brave and proud person , but now he’s just tired and is just a shell of the person he once was , thou he still have some emotions  but he rarely expresses them.

Kong

okay looks we have three kings in the house (or five if you count the heads) , Kong once lived somewhere far away where he owns a small restaurant but then he found out about the inheritance he had gotten from his parents company so he  then moved  took over his parents company and made abit of a name for himself , his company started to grow and grow more and still is! , even for having a growing company , kong still isnt  satisfied yet , so he build his own bar , where kaijus alike can hang out in, Kong lives in a house near a subdivison , where he lives in a one floor house with his pet doug and his hellhawk ! kong is a optimisitic but serious kaiju who can take things seriously and if anything bad ever happens he’ll try his best to make things better again!

Spacegodzilla

Spacegodzilla is the older half brother of godzilla  and biollante and is the fiance of destoroyah and the father of the twins krystalak and obsidious and the baby aurora , in this au spacegodzilla is a famous celebrity , he acted in famous shows and movies and even acted in a movie about him! , he won grammys and starred in magazines! , being a famous celebrity meaning he has a busy life of course and most of his life is recorded in the public eye, Spacegodzilla owns a tall penthouse where he and his famil. stays in, Spacegodzilla is a laid back man who have a very charmy personality.

Behemoth 

Behemoth is a friend and roommate of biollante and barb!, he also helps biollante with her garden shop and helps with the shipping of the plants , in his freetime he goes to methuselahs library and reads novels and stories in it and is also currrently writing a book novel!! Behemoth lives with biollante and barb , but has his own room where his equipment where he writes his book and his small collection of books and plants! Behemoth is a calm and collective guy who doesnt talk much but whenever someone asks about himself or about his books he goes all out!

Mr manda 

As you know or you might not know , in this au there are two mandas! and they are a couple!! and they both own a hospital! , Mr manda is a doctor and a owner of a well known hospital and he helps patience with theyre health and theyre injuries! , he is a really serious kaiju who is really dedicated into his work, but he is a really grumpy guy and stoic guy and has a bitch resting face! He and his wife live in a apartment , where they work on theyre bills and on theyre jobs , they’d often get breaks causing them to have a different sleeping schedule  , but they still love each other regardless.

Mr manda is a grumpy stoic old guy who would not hesitate to scold you for doing something wrong and he wont hesitate to tell the truth even if it hurts . 

Methuselah 

Methuselah is a old kaiju and he owns a big library  that he owns for quite a long time , he mostly sits in his chair as he watch kaijus come in and out and read his books and will always let schools let theyre student visit the library to read the books and even borrows some . he is currently taking care of his granchildren anguirus , baragon and gorosaurus , since theyre former caretakers passed away. and loves them dearly. Methuselah and his grandchildren  lives in a old cottage house  where he also reads his books  and where he helps tutor his grandchildren and read them to sleep.  Methuselah is a kind and wise old kaiju who loves to help and educate people if needed to , thou he might act kind and frail due to his age, he can still fight and he wont hesitate to hurt anyone who dare threaten his loved ones and his grand children.

Rhagor (Leo) and atlas

Rhagor is the first son of mothra and godzilla , older brother to the twins atlas and eve (evelennia) , Atlas is the second son of mothra godzilla the younger brother of rhagor and the twin brother of eve. both brothers along with theyre sister go to school! , rhagor is 9 yrs old while atlas is 6 yrs old ! ,  even thou theyre brothers they’re both opposites, Rhagor is popular kid in his class meanwhile atlas is the least popular in the class and sometimes is a target to bullies but luckily his brother rhagor and his twin fight off those bullies away. they both live in they’re parents home they shares a room with they’re sister rhagor sleep his own bed , meanwhile atlas sleep in a bunkbed with his sister,  atlas is always the first to be awake but rhagor is always the first  to finish breakfast and getting ready. Rhagor is a energetic boy who is secretly a mommas boy and always love to seek attention from his mother meanwhile atlas is a quiet boy who does whatever his parents ask him to do and loves his parents equally. woof oki this is long 

i can finally sleep after this 

i hope you guys liked this!! 

when i wake up i might try rewriting this DFFE

[sytco]

common blessings [joochan]

pairing: childhood friend!hong joochan x reader

word count: 3.5k (!)

requested: "toothrotting fluff ft. joochan"

dedicated to @sahiflowers.

a/n: im SO SO sorry this took so long and i hope u like it even a little and that it makes u smile thank u for being so patient ily!! ily!!! reminder im always here for u!!

In which you find that time is meaningless when Joochan is not by your side.

~

wonderboy.

-

Sometimes, you speculate whether Joochan has some kind of genius for finding you as soon as the school bell rings, signalling the end of another day.

Today, he surprises you behind the auditorium where you lean against a maple tree, hugging your bag to your chest, because you’ve skipped your last period (Introduction to Psychology) in favor of lying on the grass so you can watch the clouds in peace. And Joochan smiles a fond, fond smile because you have that look on your face again that you only get when you’re lost in thought.

“Missed me?”

You tense from shock before relaxing at the sight of your boyfriend who widens his arms so you can walk right into them.

“How’d you find me?” Your voice is muffled in the fabric of his vest and Joochan reaches up so he can play with the back of your collar.

“Just had a little hunch you might be here.” And this is the answer he always gives, accompanied with the same smug smile each time.

You pout even if Joochan can’t see it. “That doesn’t explain anything.”

“Well now,” he says in an affected voice that sounds like the narrator from that National Geographic documentary on penguins the two of you watched last week, “I can’t afford to have you getting your hands on all my secrets, can I? I’ve got to keep some things to myself so that in ten year's time, you’ll still think I’m the most amazing and magical boy in the universe.”

It’s ridiculous, you think, how it’s nearly winter but the way you can feel the laughter that starts in his chest and electrifies you to your fingertips is more than capable of keeping you warm and making you feel like you’re really alive.

“Doesn’t matter if I find out all your secrets or not,” you mumble, “you’ll always be the most amazing and magical boy in the universe to me.”

From the courtyard around the corner, you can hear Jaehyun shouting a loud “Oi Joochan!”.

Joochan ignores him and instead casually pecks your cheek with a kiss that feels like a blessing. “Always?”

You tilt your head as though unsure. "Well… for at least fifty years, probably.”

“Fifty?!” Joochan echoes in mock outrage, and you playfully poke his side to which he flinches slightly.

“I was lying. I meant for all of time ever.”

And despite him doing his best to hide it, your boyfriend melts instantly, burying his face in the crook of your neck where he’s probably smiling his brilliant smile that feels like the sun against your skin.

Jaehyun’s voice interrupts the peace and quiet once again with a noticeably louder and more panicked tone.

“Hong Joochan! We’re going to be late for soccer practice!”

Joochan groans exaggeratedly and you can’t help but giggle at his theatrics. “Wish I didn’t have to go to stupid practice,” he grumbles.

“You know, I’ll wait for you in the library until you’re done,” you offer and Joochan perks up - if only slightly because your arms still feel like heaven after years of loving you, and two hours of kicking a ball around (while Donghyun and Jibeom brainstorm inventive ways to trip each other up, much to Coach Lee’s chagrin) just can’t compete. He tells you as much in the way his arms tighten around you.

“You’re the best,” Joochan declares suddenly, “I might be the most amazing and magical boy in the universe, but you’re the best.”

You snort. “Go to practice already before Jaehyun starts going spare, wonderboy.”

Joochan kisses your forehead one last time before he detaches himself from you with a dejected sigh and picks up your bag, slinging it over his shoulder despite your protests. “Walk with me to the oval?”

You slip your hand into his hand only to find it a perfect fit and wonder briefly if there is anywhere in this world you would not walk to with Hong Joochan, the boy who has a smile like sunlight and a personality like a billion shooting stars.

“Of course.”

*

fm.

-

There is the occasional moment in which you wish that your boyfriend wasn’t so exceedingly talented in nearly every field he tries his hand at, because the various extracurriculars that Joochan (being the naturally energetic and enthusiastic person he is) involves himself with have an awful way of making tremendous demands on his time towards the end of the semester.

Right now is one of those moments when Joochan trudges into your room and dives face first onto your bed without even bothering to shake his coat off. “So what was it today?” you ask in a voice that betrays your concern and Joochan can’t help but smile at it.

“Theatre rehearsal,” he yawns, “then string quartet practice. Also an hour of soccer drills with some of the boys. Even though it’s a Saturday.”

You get up from your chair at the desk so you can sit on the bed where Joochan immediately moves his head onto your lap, lifting your hand and resting it on his hair. You absentmindedly start stroking it, staring out the window at a soft grey sky.

“Did you eat?”

Joochan shakes his head. “No time. My dumb E string broke again so I barely managed to have half an apple before we went straight into a new Mozart piece today. Think we might perform it at the next concert. You’d come, right?” And he asks that in a self-assured tone, because he already knows what your answer is going to be.

You give it to him anyway because there’s no point in hiding your blatant admiration for all that he does. “No matter what.”

“And just to see me, right?”

You fake a pause that has Joochan peering up at you suspiciously.

“You do know I have friends who aren’t you that are participating in the concert, right? Like Jangjun and Sungyoon?”

Joochan scowls. “But none of those hooligans are your boyfriend, who - in case you forgot but I do know you’d never - is me.”

“That’s quite true,” you concede before leaning down to kiss his cheek with a smile that makes Joochan’s stomach fill with butterflies which are probably colored pink and green and blue. It never gets old, he thinks: your talent for turning his world upside down in a look or a word or an action. And you don’t even know you’re doing it most of the time.

“Mean,” he accuses but in a half-hearted manner and your smile only widens because you know that Joochan is supremely happy despite his exhaustion, if the way his brow has smoothed completely and he has started drawing little stars on your knee is anything to go by.

There’s a gentle lull in the conversation while you continue to run your fingers through Joochan’s hair, and especially his fringe. It’s almost as though time has passed you by, leaving you together in your own little reality where things like hazy futures and big concerts and broken violin strings do not dare draw near.

“Wanna order something later on for dinner?” you ask quietly.

“Maybe,” he grins through closed eyes, “but nap first.”

Your radio continues to run, and you drift in and out of listening to the DJ duo while watching the rain finally fall outside.

“It’s been pretty cold recently, hasn’t it?” one of the DJs opens the conversation after a small stream of ads.

“Sure has, pal. And speaking of the cold, apparently our first snow of the season is scheduled for next week Friday!”

“So do you have any plans lined up with a special someone?”

“Just had to remind me of how single I am, didn’t you”- rambunctious peals of laughter crackle from the speakers - “but maybe some of our lovely listeners will send in their plans for next Friday.”

“I sure did - and wow, they’re already pouring in! Do you wanna read one out?”

“Let’s see… Listener ha_miii_ran says: ‘I’m planning on confessing to my crush of two years. I’m pretty nervous about this so I’m hoping the two of you will wish me luck!’ All the best of luck to you, Ha Miran-nim, from the both of us. I don’t know how you’re planning on it, but hopefully the first snow will act as a good luck charm for you!”

“Yeah, good luck Ha Miran-nim!” the other DJ chimes in. “Be sure to update us on how it goes!”

“Well, we’ll be back with some more stories after this excerpt from a famous piano concerto - maybe some of our more classically-inclined audience will recognise its globally renowned composer.”

A beautiful melody begins to play and you’re on the cusp of losing yourself in the music when you are most abruptly interrupted by a sleepy, but decisive, “Gershwin.”

You blink down at Joochan. “What?”

“It’s Gershwin. The composer. Don't you think your boyfriend's clever for knowing that?"

“I thought my boyfriend was asleep, actually,” and you narrow your eyes.

“I was,” Joochan protests, “I only woke up when they were talking about the snow or something. And then they talked about that person who’s confessing to their crush of two years - got me thinking about how I can relate because I vividly remember having a crush on you for at least three before I could muster up the courage to confess. Which ended up working out for the best, you know,” he adds in a thoughtful tone, “but sometimes I’d get so nervous just thinking about it that I couldn’t sleep at all. Anyways, I’m really hungry now, so can we order something soon please?”

Maybe it’s the way he so nonchalantly wears his heart for you on his sleeve, or maybe it’s the way he looks at you as though you have strung the Milky Way itself together and made a gift of it to him. Maybe it’s the way you simply realize that you might not be able to live with yourself if you were to lose your boyfriend, ever. But for whatever reason it is, a thousand smiles bloom in your heart and you lean down to give Joochan a kiss that hopefully tastes like everything you cannot possibly put into words.

“Anything you want,” you whisper, and Joochan draws a heart on your knee in response.

*

enchanted.

-

You’re outside the auditorium again but in front of it, this time, and not behind. The post-concert hubbub has died down, mostly owing to the fact that much of the audience has left already whether it’s to a late congratulatory supper or down to the boardwalk where fireworks are scheduled to go off at midnight. The bouquet of lily of the valleys in your hand trembles slightly as you use your other hand to fumble around for your ringing phone.

“Hello?”

“You’re waiting outside, right?” Joochan asks.

“Yeah, I am.”

“See, Donghyun, I told you I was right about - wait. Wait! Don't move!”

And then you have less than two seconds to process exactly what is happening before your boyfriend catches you up in a running embrace that sends the world spinning in a flurry of snow and stars and kisses that Joochan plants all over your cheeks. He remains blissfully unaware that somewhere in the vicinity, Donghyun has started making gagging sounds at your very public display of affection, punctuated by Jaehyun’s giggling. (You pay them no mind.)

“Did you enjoy the concert?” he asks, fond expectation twinkling in his eyes.

You nod too much. “You were incredible,” you tell him honestly, and Joochan beams.

“I was, wasn’t I?” he says in a satisfied voice as he pulls you closer. “Guess all those hours of practice paid off.”

“It’s almost like that’s the whole point of practicing,” you tease.

“It’s lucky you’re cute and I’m hopelessly in love with you,” Joochan crinkles his nose in contrived distaste for your little jab before hugging you again so he can hear you whisper just how proud you are of him, right into his ear.

And the two of you stay like that for a little before you remember the gift you brought with you.

“For me?” And the look in his eyes reminds you of how he looked at you when you first told him that you loved him too - or maybe of every time you’ve told him that you love him too.

“Who else?”

He snaps up the bouquet, pressing it against his nose and inhaling deeply with a smile. "This is a nice surprise."

"They mean 'return to happiness'," you say, gently touching a little white bloom that looks like a star against the backdrop of Joochan's black school blazer. "Thought it was cute. And the florist was sold out of roses anyway."

Joochan laughs with the warmth of a thousand sunbeams and puts your hand in his so he can start gently tugging you away.

“But your violin”- you begin protesting.

“But nothing,” he shushes you as the school gets smaller and smaller behind you in the distance. “I don’t even want to see that thing for a week. Hey, and guess what - I found a secret place for just you and me so we can watch the fireworks without being pressed up against everyone else like sardines in a tin can.”

“You and I are going to watch the fireworks?” you echo, surprise colouring your voice.

Joochan’s exhale turns into a giggle. “Who else?” And you dig an elbow into his side, hiding a smile at his antics.

The two of you stroll down quiet streets and you lean into your boyfriend’s comforting warmth. Most shops are closed with the exception of some fast food chains and convenience stores, but you notice almost none of them now as Joochan picks up the pace, his excitement bleeding into the quiet song he sings that floats up in the air and is lost somewhere in the stars above.

“Here we are,” says Joochan proudly and he helps you up into the little gazebo at the top of the hill you hadn’t realized you were climbing. “Take this,” he adds as he tosses you a torch that brightly illuminates the space you’re in as soon as you switch it on. You turn to the rustling sounds on your left, finally seeing the wooden bench that Joochan is busy spreading a rug over.

“You planned this beforehand?” And there’s a note of wonder in your voice - the same kind that only Joochan ever seems to be able to evoke. “I thought we were going straight home.”

He gestures for you to sit next to him with a charming smile and you do so immediately. “Told you I can’t give up all the secrecy. Not yet.” Or, he thinks privately to himself, not when you look at him like that.

The golden light from the torch casts long shadows over the grass and gives Joochan’s face a nearly ethereal glow that reminds you of summer sunsets despite the cold. You slip into a soft and easy silence - one that comes from memories built upon memories, resulting in a code made up of gazes and touch that only the two of you will ever understand. And so when he squeezes your hand gently, you instantly open your arms for him to sink right into.

There’s only a few minutes left until midnight when you finally speak.

“Joochan,” you murmur.

“Mm?”

“You ever think about where we’ll be this time next year?”

Joochan shifts his posture slightly. “Often, actually. Especially when I go to sleep at night and think about tomorrow - then I’ll wonder if it’ll even remotely go the way I want it to.”

“And how do you usually want it to go?” you ask.

“Someone has a lot of questions today,” Joochan remarks with a droll look on his face that makes you laugh briefly before his expression sobers. “But usually I want it to go safely. You know? Everything in its proper place and things like that. And more importantly, I want to know all the time that I’ll be able to see you.”

You’re silent for a moment, looking out over the view of the city. If you squint, you can just make out the boardwalk by the beach and the crowds of people who have gathered there, young and old alike. “I’m scared sometimes.”

Joochan frowns. “Scared of what? I’ll fight it off for you,” and he waves a threatening fist at nothing in particular.

“The future, I guess. It sounds silly but… sometimes I don’t know if we’ll always be okay. Like this, the way things are right now. Whether it’s tomorrow or next year or even after that.” Your voice fades in volume until it’s nearly lost against the threads of your scarf, and Joochan’s heart breaks a little when he hears it: the genuine uncertainty and timid fear that seeps past the smile you give him in an effort to hide it.

“Why do you think we might not be okay?”

You look down at your feet, almost embarrassed by your own honesty. “Well, people… change, Joo. They move places, and have goals to achieve and dreams to chase down. And we’re not immune to that either.”

It’s Joochan’s turn to be silent for a bit as he mulls over your words before he straightens in your hold, turning his face towards you so he can affectionately bump his nose against yours. “You’re right,” he says in a voice that mirrors your sadness, “and it would be a lie to say I don’t think about the same things you do. But”- and he leans in to give you a quick kiss that’s shaped like a smile - “it’d also be a lie to say that every dream doesn’t feature you in it. Because every dream of mine that I’ve ever had places you centre stage.”

He kisses you again, a little longer - a little more wistfully.

“You see, the real problem here is that you have me perpetually thinking that I can’t do any of this without you,” he says simply. “Whether it’s late night phone calls or early morning messages; or maybe we’ll find ourselves having to book flights for each other, holding bags full of gifts that remind us of us. And maybe it’ll be hard and maybe I’ll wake up some days, knowing I won’t be able to see you. But that doesn’t mean we won’t be okay.”

You swallow and Joochan watches you carefully, the urgency in his eyes prompting him to lift your chin so you can see it too.

“Even if we change,” he continues in a whisper, hoping you will understand the heart in his words. “And we should. And we will, and we’ll still be okay. You believe me, don’t you? Seeing as I’m the most amazing and magical boy in the universe?”

Somewhere, midnight comes and goes and the fireworks start, dousing you and Joochan in bursts of coloured light.

“Of course I do,” you smile with eyes that glitter with tears of relief and he pulls you into a tight hug, so tight you can feel every movement of his rib cage as he breathes in and out.

For once, you do not feel that fear deep down that threatens to taint your time with the only boy you think you cannot live without. And so you unreservedly hold him in return, fingers running through his hair as he tells you that he loves you, over and over again.

*

up, up and away.

-

There had been a time during your childhood when your one greatest wish had been to go see the stars.

So your friend Joochan, in all his clumsy sincerity, had done his best to make you a rocket out of a box he’d found at home. He’d then brought it to your house after he’d finished it, blue marker staining his fingertips and glitter shaped like stars lost in his thick fringe.

The two of you had sat in it together and looked up at the moon, holding hands from childish innocence and recounting thrilling tales of adventures you’d never had. And before having to go home to bed that day, he’d made you a promise that present-day Joochan complains about not being able to fulfill.

“I know I said I’d take you to the stars,” Joochan sighs in displeasure from where he lies on your bed, right next to you, “but while your boyfriend is exceptionally talented, you do know I’m no astronaut, right?”

You hold his hand in response and look into his eyes that sparkle with mirth and deeper in, shine with a love that always gives you peace.

It may be that Joochan will never be able to keep his promise of taking you to space in a real, functioning rocket. But, as you drop a kiss on his mouth that soon widens into a brilliant smile, you can’t find it in yourself to really care.

After all, it’s hard to miss the stars when for you, they all start with Joochan and end with him.

-

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[ruby-whistler]

Srry but i noticed in one of ur dream posts u Referred to tommy's cat as hope. I must correct u, that cat was born pussbou and died pussboi. /lh Also tommy killing that cat was nothing compared to dream killing mushroom henry in exile btw just wanna say Also for ur posts about dreams trauma or wilbur manipulating him can u provide links to vods or other proof? Srry if i seem rude i mean that in a "genuinely curious way"

Aaa sorry if my ask came off as rude im just genuinely curious :(((

hi! dw, you don't seem rude at all, and i'm extremely happy someone with a different perspective has found my blog! i really appreciate that sort of attitude and am happy to answer :]

/dsmp /rp

the cat was called pussboy by tommy, but dream only called it "the cat" and then said that "it was hope", which is why it sort of became a symbol (his hope is dead, basically) - that's why i kind of made its name capitalized, because it was more of a metaphor than anything.

most c!dream fans call the cat hope because it's just really nice and really symbolic, and also really sad when you think about it. that's why the name was used in the essay, just to clear up the confusion!

tommy killing that cat was nothing compared to dream killing mushroom henry in exile

i don't really think so? mooshroom henry was entertainment more than anything, and even if it was bad, when watching the stream i don't remember seeing him mourn that much - on the other hand, dream was very quickly and very obviously attached to the cat, with it being his only companion in months of isolation, along with the hope that even when tommy left it would keep him company.

keep in mind c!dream has been deprived of stimuli and human contact for so long it's officially classified as psychological torture at that point.

i don't mean to compare trauma or even compare deaths - because honestly, what c!dream and c!tommy have gone through individually is incomparable and i think neither should be diminished in favor of the other since they're both terrible situations.

that's why i disagree that it "was nothing compared to" - it had an obvious effect on c!dream, and was still c!tommy killing an animal specifically to hurt him, no matter what reasons he had.

when i'm talking about effects people's actions have had on c!dream, i'm not talking about those people. i'm talking about him. :) /lh

as for the trauma, a lot of people agree that a lot of the things he says or does are trauma responses, and hence it's very possible that he's had trauma before he went into prison!

this includes being repeatedly called a tyrant via propaganda by about half of your friends who decided to betray you, trying to keep peace and being pushed deeper into villainy instead, repeatedly being put in between a rock and a hard place in order to make sure the people you care about don't start killing each other, then being betrayed by your closest friends after merely trying to keep peace (sapnap & george) and just in general having no control over your life or image and grasping at straws to gain it back.

i know a lot of people with trauma who heavily relate to certain trauma responses, which aren't always just shaky breaths and flashbacks, but trauma often also manifests itself in extremely ugly and destructive ways, both inwardly and outwardly.

trying to control the people around you is also very often a response to going through trauma, as well as emotional repression which is... rather evident on c!dream during season two. it only seems to get worse with repeated abandonment.

in the end, during the vault scene, the way he acts really just isn't at all the way a healthy person would act, and a lot of his really bad mindsets come from the way he was taught by the world around him.

the character is very reserved however, and since we don't have his pov we can't really say for certain - a lot of people claim it in good faith because they have a lot of evidence for it, and i think they're certainly valid in that.

that is just before the prison, however. from what happened during the prison arc? there is no denying he's traumatized at this point.

he's been emotionally and physically abused by c!sam since the very beginning of being imprisoned, and being in solitary confinement for over two weeks is generally considered psychological (and maybe also physical?) torture. that alone shows up in a lot of symptoms of his mental deterioration while in pandora's during people's visits, and quackity's "sessions" just absolutely drove the point home.

what he's gone through during this arc is absolutely incomparable to anything others charactes have faced before, and it's just plain suffering being endured by someone who is, despite everything, still a human being.

as for the wilbur manipulation thing!! it's talking about the whole vassal scene (though even beforehand a lot of their interactions are pretty iffy), and here's a post about that :]

I also have a small question about the analysis u last reblogged cus it says "why dream needed lmanburg gone rightfully" and like. The house analogy is poor because for one cus the land is infinite. And 2 cus punz's yard was literally larger then lmanburg. And also stuff about dream being a mediator? Can u provide examples?

i wouldn't say it was poor. dream's said a lot of times that he didn't care in the slightest about the land - a lot of his problems with l'manberg arose with the fact that wilbur basically built it on lies and tried to disallow half of the server to come there. c!dream was mad about the division and the fact that wilbur wanted "freedom" to have authority in his lands - over others, as can be seen in this post also.

the table analogy was fitting not because dream was some overlord, but because these were literally friends he invited to hang out and live in a place he wanted to call home. claiming a part of it for yourself and saying people of a certain nationality can't come in is directly opposing those goals.

in the early days of the smp, dream's always been a mediator between his friends - sapnap and george, who would often get into fights and go around killing each other! he would always do his best to stop the conflict, which continued after tommy joined when he took him to court and then later tried to mediate conflicts he was a part of, which resulted in tommy killing him unprovoked, stealing his gear, and starting the disc wars when dream was trying to get his stuff back. later, during pogtopia, he is also most concerned with peace over everything, and this seems to continue indefinitely after.

Today i was thinking about how messed up the final control room was. Like. Dream arranged the betrayal and punz and sapnap killed tommy and tubbo who like. Were literal children and their pals (because the author, wilbur soot, is dead/j but srsly if u take the streamers words tommy said he was 9 during the revolution sooo)

Sorry im gonna ramble about how dumb canon ages are for a second cus like. Streamers can say the characters are one way or another (wilbur saying he is mentally 30-something, etc.) But in the end the characters act like they(or at least their streaming personas) do.

i... honestly don't find it that bad? they were in a war, and the final control room was basically just supposed to end it quicker. the l'manbergians made it clear they were going to fight to the death, so they really left c!dream no other choice. and it's not like he didn't give them chances to give up.

also yeah the 9 year old thing was retconned, because in that case c!dream would've been 14 and i don't think that's true.

c!tommy and c!dream were both young and once again, in a war. the final control room was an attempt to assure victory, which both sides would've taken if possible, but only c!dream saw he had the option.

i do agree the whole child soldier thing was bad but... complain about that to c!wilbur, methinks. he talked naive kids into fighting for his personal power. however, the age argument isn't really valid either way. they had enough agency to sign up for it, and whether or not c!wilbur pushing the intense nationalism onto them had something to do with that is another debate entirely.

Bacl to final control room cus like??? Also fun fact punz took 2 of wilbur's canon lives. And like that probably is what started wilbur's paranoia which later lead to his spiral and i. Many thoughts full of lmanburg today.

i'm pretty sure cc!wilbur said what lead to c!wilbur's spiral was a "dark, twister view of possessions" and "disregard for his fellow citizen whom he claimed to love so much", but i really wouldn't say it was the control room; if anything the sudden loss of power after the elections seems to me like the trigger for his spiral.

I watched the exile arc live and. I feel dirty almost for feeling little to no sympathy for c!dream (srry ive been forgetting to add that aa) because of his actions toward c!tommy and like. The whole probation was so humiliating and unfair and c!dream was planning to frame him for the crimes he and puffy did under the the guise of "pranks" and c!quackity was planning to seize the vice president role.

i mean... to be fair, if you didn't watch the prison arc much yet or only watch tommy's perspective i understand not feeling that sympathetic - however, i encourage you to maybe watch a few prison visits, since they could help you see the whole picture better!

i also watched it live, and i also thought it was terrible, but i share very much the same sentiment for the prison arc because. absolutely no one should have to go through either of those things, you know?

i don't think probation was that humiliating? he was just. being asked to not start conflict with the other factions for two weeks. of course, what happened as a result is in no way justified, but i don't think probation itself would've been bad at all. either way yeah the framing and c!quackity's behaviour was. very yikes, i agree.

Also c!tommy antis are dumb because they say "he deserved exile angry emoji" i dont see u saying that about ranboo. Just say you hate cc!tommy and go. Also people say c!tommy was just as toxic to c!dream and i??? No. One is the victim and one is the abuser and like. :/// man. This part is rambly srry

i wouldn't say they hate cc!tommy? cc!tommy has a persona who people think is annoying at first ( but then they subscribe because he is super entertaining big man! ) but a lot of c!tommy's actions are straight up toxic to certain characters, such as c!funndy and c!jack. he has a very dismissive attitude towards others and their trauma and it does affect the people around them very negatively.

examples; his repeated bullying and behavior towards fundy:

Tommy: “Fundy, I’m just here to kinda let you know that I – if you weren’t Wilbur’s son, you would be out of L’manburg, alright? Just remember – you need to keep that relationship with your father. I saw how asshole-y and bratty you were acting in the courtroom the other night. You need to pull your shit together young man.”

......

Fundy: “I’m wearing glasses…are you making fun of my eyesight?!”

Tommy: “Yes.”

Sapnap: “Your father would be very disappointed.”

Fundy: “Wh – disappointed for wearing glasses?!”

Tommy: “You got glasses, like what are you wearing…”

Fundy: “What do you mean?”

Tommy: “Sapnap, Sapnap, over here. Fundy, Fundy, Fundy, I’m really sorry to say this – I’m just here to publicly denounce you.”

Fundy: “…What?”

( credit for transcript: @/findingjoynweirdstuff )

he's also responsible for a big chunk of c!jack's trauma, both with actions and words, and that's why i think certain people might dislike the character, and i don't think that's wrong of them. anyone can dislike any character they want if they don't attack people for liking them, in my opinion.

also c!tommy was most definitely toxic against c!dream in the cell. it's of course understandable but that doesn't change the fact he was constantly hitting and insulting him (without dream doing anything back for a long while until he snapped) which is toxic behaviour.

i wouldn't say he was "just as" though, so i agree with you on that. they're different and they behave differently.

i made a dream blob keychain today. Is it possible to send images if u wanna see? Idk cus i havent used tumblr before. I think that's all for now. Thx for letting me talk :D peepoShy -curious anon (but fr a connoreatspants c!dream redemption arc would be cool)

yooo that's cool! i don't really,,, know if it's possible to send images? try it out and if it isn't i'll try find a way to turn it on.

also, no problem! just please remember this is a c!dream sympathetic blog, and me as well as my followers are uhh,, oftentimes emotionally attached / personally relate to the character, so if you could avoid sending hate on the character (not that you have or that i expect you to, just a friendly reminder) in the asks that would be great! we already see a lot of it unwillingly so, i'd rather not see more, but as long as the discussion is civil i'm absolutely ok with you asking more and with me answering more questions if you'd want to! :)

if anyone else would like to reblog this and add some things i might've missed with my answers, feel free to, just go easy on her (she uses she/her pronouns!) and keep it factual.

i hope u had a good or at least ok time at school today :D

thanks! i gtg now because exam tomorrow but i'm going to try write the redemption essay tomorrow as well because ohhh boy i have a lot of ideas about what all i could write around the concept.

also sorry this was long, i can't keep my tongue on the leash :[