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sparklingchim · 3 months

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#can i yap for a moment #im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused #also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting #anyway #made out w a boy tonight #and he wanted to go to his place #and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies #and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid #that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him #i just hate when boys think they're so superior #so i argued with this stupid but hot man #until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things #anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship #but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again #it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times #and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends #anyway and then we left the party #this guy pulls me aside the parking lot #and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it #and i just wanted to die #and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute #but i legit have zero feelings for him </3 #and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one #actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3 #the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes #but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3

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leo-kinnie · 6 months

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Kiiinda unhappy w the fact that a mutual made a post essentially saying “if you support / interact with this proship neutral dont interact with me + DONT harass the account i mentioned” and then immediately got condescending/manipulative replies, asks, and Extreme dogpiling by the accounts friends/affiliates to the point of having to leave their account.

Personally I think if you can’t handle other people saying what you are, you maaybe should rethink identifying with that label.

#miscellaneous post #i dunno. proship people have this tendency to say their proship and then #get VERY MAD when antis say ‘’that person is proship dni with me if u support them’’#we’re all pro safe spaces until… someone ensures their safe space ?#idk just confusing #its also really gross to see such a large number of harrassment heading their way when the og post clearly #stated not to attack the proship account? like ok … but the antis are the bad guys. right #IDK GUYS. im not very happy with the community rottmnt has established #on twt it was miserable and on tumblr it seems equally as miserable if you dont pick the path of least resistance #SANDRO WOULD BE UNHAPPY WITH THEM PEOPLE IS ALL IM SAYIN 🫵#the mutual wasnt even a big account ???

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kanasnaur · 6 months

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ik its not my place to judge but why is tumblr so horny over asynchronous rondo

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #asynchronous rondo #not even mad or anything im just very confused #is there something im missing

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bananasfosterparent · 5 months

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#dont mind me just havin a conversation about rpgs and mods (specifically BG3)#and the person says they don't like mods and im like thats fine! nothing wrong with that!#and then they just go off “Mods are delusions and lies and deception!! its not real!!”#like ummm idk how to break this to ya buddy but uhh #the entire video game is not real lmao #they seem weirdly attached to the idea that the creator's vision is law and anything remotely changing any detail is blasphemy #nevermind all the things Larian themselves have retconned and moved around lol #the studios themselves dont know what their own canon is sometimes #in TES Kahjiit look different in each game #the elves are drastically different between each Divinity game #idk this is just a super bizarre conversation and ngl it threw me for a loop lmao #“mods are an illusion” feels like a meme #like i get that in spirit they mean that mods can hurt the integrity of a game and oossibly change the original vision #or go against established lore #but at the same time like....who cares? the creators aren't going to be offended and block you from playing the game because ur using mods #sorry im rambling but im just so darn confused #this is a hot take i wasn't prepared to catch #like show me where the video game mods have personally attacked you lmao #and YES if youve made it this far into the tags i will tell you #this was a conversation with an anti aa person on the aa kiss mod #theyre mad because it just “supports a delusion” and “ruins the story Larian is telling”#cause ya know ...the Tav expressions are meant to godmod players so that we know AA is abusive!#it was just all very patronizing #theye like “nothing wrong with using this mod if it makes you happy!! but hust remember that its NOT real and not canon!!”#imagine being so bitter you have to comment on things not for you just to bring down morale of those who enjoy it #and you do it with a take that isnt even correct lmao

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biblicalhorror · 22 days

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Thinking about one of the loser men I dated directly post-college who, after I showed them Dirty Computer [the emotion picture] by Janelle Monae, said they "prefer rap that has something to say"

#this person identified as a man but used they/them pronouns just in case that was confusing #but yeah like. what does that mean. did you watch the video #also one time said colorado edibles were 'too strong' and therefore 'dangerous'#they said that COLORADO should have more 'regulations' imposed on weed products lmfao #also when i was watching mad men and expressed that i liked it #they were like 'i dont see the appeal bc the commentary feels obvious to anyone whos lived on the east coast' skskdkdkelsdnakas #they had the WEIRDEST complex about being from the east coast. like. most tightly wound person ive ever met in my life #who was constantly insisting they were sooo type b and so chill and go-with-the-flow #and like yeah im aware im from one of the most laid back slacker states #but this person was one of the most uptight people ive ever met let alone dated #and just had like 0 self awareness about it #like they would exclusively wear button downs sweater vests and cardigans. wouldnt be caught dead in a hoodie unless it was northface #would only drink coffee if it was made from a french press #also see above story about edibles (which was the biggest 'fight' we ever got in bc i was like what the fuck r u talking about)#like. the label says clearly how much thc cbd etc is in each edible and how many doses there are per container #what else could you want #if you dont know how itll affect you just take half or even a quarter of one first???#this still gets me heated to think about #but yeah like what kind of person sees DIRTY COMPUTER and is like 'hmm not political enough' lmfao #OH ALSO guess why we broke up #the blm protests happened and they said they were just 'too affected by police violence to be dating right now'#(they were very much white. blonde white)#and then i found out 11 months after we broke up that they had started dating a poc a month before we broke up #because i saw an anniversary post they did and i was like '...wait a minute'#and a friend of mine used to work with them after we broke up and according to him this person would constantly bring up what a great 'ally'#they were for dating a poc #fucking. wild

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heartyearning · 4 months

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im involved in drama unfortunately. people r talking about me behind my back and someone else is ignoring me because of something i've not done, i'm surrounded by children

#this makes me sound like ive actually done everything theyre talking about but its literally not that deep #me and a 2nd year have used a similar technique on one of our costumes so apparently im copying her #despite the fact that functionally there is literally no fucking way people would ever confuse my costume and hers #& like its as though because i knitted my historical last year now i should be mad that people are doing that this year #like oh my god grow upppp its like getting pissed that someone's used the same colour as you in a thing its so nothing #and the other thing is like. not unexpected just very childish its just someone who didnt get her way because a 3rd party #decided to do something with me instead of her so now i'm the target of her ire #which is wild bc (not that id wish this on the 3rd party but) the 3rd party is not at all a target of her ire ??#like girl i didnt do anything this is literally only tangentially related to me #its pissing me off like i'm not even that offended i'm just bothered by the fact that no one could come up to me #and talk to me about it like an adult like girl how old are we

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call-me-xyl · 1 year

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Hey, why the fuck did Poison of all fucking bands cover God Save the Queen?

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rox-of-iu · 2 years

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@ the people saying kind words and offering me english alternatives for the czech in my last post

first of all, I know you mean well and I love you to bits and I'm giving you a little kissy, ok? But... guys I do know English phrases... hahhah

Listen,,,, I am chronically online and I do actually have a certificate from C2 exams that is just 5 points shy of being 100%. I Know it absolutely doesn't look that way but that's just because I'm the laziest guy around and I don't feel like fixing it after myself when I have the excuse of being a foreigner- sahdjsd

so when i use czech words it is not out of the necessity of not knowing any substitutes but just me goofing around and going haha funny word go brr

#man this is probably coming of as mean and super defensive but its not supposed to be 😭😭 (tones still hard in any language)#it is genuinly super nice of you to try to help out!! and you couldn't have known so 💞#but just throwing that out there....jasdhksdj #o(-( man #ykno like i said throwing in cz words is just me having fun with it #since its my scribble side blog and all that #because due to spending almost all my free time connected to english-centric internet my own language/culture took a bit of a backseat #like even in my day to day life which is very prevalent among lot of foreign people today #but i wont get into it now it doesn't rly matter #so me throwing in some funky words is me just having fun around and trying to bring some of it back while i doodle #but looking back at it it is prolly weird to do since ykno its Chinese so what is cz doing there and no one will understand it anyway #so ppl are probably left feeling confused or cheated out of something #so i should probably just stick with eng alternatives #oh well #idk why im even making this post this has completely derailed ashdk and again I'm not mad at beloveds who commented and left tags #it just made me think #and overthinking hahh bcuz im in the middle of stressful projects #plus tHE STUPIDASS UNI DOENST WANNA ACCEPT MY MONEY OK PLEASE TAKE IT I BEG OF U I WILL PAY EARLIER NEXT TIME (lying)#anyway thats all jhds uhh bye #wait im already having regrets about making this post in the first place man but i did spend valuable time typing it out so ughhh

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mvvocaloidgifs · 1 year

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Can you do Neapolitan by Apols and EmpathP ft Yohioloid?

Yep, it's in the queue now. There's one more post for "Becoming Pigs Yeah Yeah" and then your request will post Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday

Also, not your fault anon, I forgot to update my description, but requests are closed rn :( Unfortunately the new photo editor is a fucking nightmare so I won't be working on gif posts until they either fix it or bring back the old version

#ask #request #not gif #im not mad at you or anything anon #it was my bad for not changing my description #and i wanted to take this rq anyways just to test the new editor #cause after i saw it update i just havent touched it #its very finicky confusing and hard to use #and it gave me a headache and i dont even know if that was bc its so poorly designed or bc it was pissing me off #N E ways we're good anon i only bring this up for future reference 👍#i wanted to take requests but the hellsite decided to do hellsite things

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abluehappyface · 2 years

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I'm proud of you. You did your best, and it's ok that you couldn't do it.

I know this is you consolidating me, and I'm really not mad at you... but how could you be proud of me? Sure I got a passing grade, but it was on the brink of being a failure. The fact that you AND my mum aren't scolding me right now confuses me. I did TERRIBLE on the exam, so why is she not mad at me? Why are you praising me? I just don't understand. I know I did my best, and that's "what really matters," but my best is so low it was an almost failure. I can't accept that. My best is someone else's WORST. There's no reason why that should be the case. I just can't understand the last part. The "it's ok that you couldn't do it" part. No... it isn't? I took this class to pass not fail. I NEED to be able to do this, if not for class then for my life. My potential career. My potential future. I can't NOT be able to do it. It's never going to be ok that I couldn't do it. No I don't know how to force myself to learn it, but I WILL. Sorry for this long reply on what should've been a simple thank you, but I guess that's not how my brain works. Should I have even answered this? I don't think so...

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marsixm · 2 years

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feeling alright but tired after work despite how busy and annoying customers were today, like this one lady, bless her bc she was very nice, was like ‘do you have more flowers in the back’ and i was like ‘uh can you be more specific’ and she was like ‘no<3′

#there was just a lot of customers being kind of confusing ldjkfglksdfjg like more than usual.#holidays are just always a mad house and as the primary person trained in both cashiering customer service AND floral?#oh they fed me to the sharks tonight jkldfhg #i did get to be in the tent outside tho which i enjoy #i may be one of the only ones left who knows how to work that register and im very efficient #and i got to wear my fun little outfit and play music off my speakers all day #also so many times i got to brag to my fave manager and hear him praise me lol i love that shit #im sort of the de factor accidental manager of my department right now and im trying to squirrel my way into that position even harder #managers like 'i need u' im like ok u gay bitch #what can i say the praise kink trope also carries #anyway

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mwydyn · 2 years

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When your friend is like I can't help you idk if you're going on a date "this man is strange" and "he throws me off"

Have you considered most of what you know is being filtered to you via 5 layers of derangement and autism he might be being really normal I couldn't tell you

#i can't even be mad that he is being confusing because i know i am too #the autism really really cranks up when i am with him it's so unhelpful im normally actively chatty 😔#the two times we have met up outside of like lessons i also slept like shit (please be a coincidence) so i am very tired #he might just be like wow this guy is really awkward i will try to accommodate that #worm food

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hauntingmiser · 3 months

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tbh why does everyone think of maruki as

A ) one evil mf that is worse than shido or someone that doesn't need redemption. only suffering

Or

B ) cinnamon roll or an innocent himbo man that did nothing wrong

#maruki #even I. a maruki kinnie im confused yet confuddled #how the hell you think he's a manipulator that is more worse than shido or think that he's an innocent man that didn't do nothing wrong #and listen he had a good intentions I understand that.....but you have to put him accountable for other reasons #I just think he's both but lower down the bad side a bit #yes he is a man that have his cute moments but but deep down he is devious yet malicious and he probably won't do anything wrong #in a bad intention but in a good way #because he's both a dumbass and a good ass antagonist and that what makes it counts #also clumsy ahh bitch #and honestly thinking about it. yeah he is a cinnamon roll but I know damn well deep down he's very devious #end of story....anyways this is just something stupid I just want to say this cuz holy hell I have seen this in broad daylight #takuto maruki #and yes he did something wrong and we can't cut him some slack because that's wrong #but that doesn't mean his intentions were THAT bad honestly #I mean come on he has so much potential of being a mad scientist and likes resurrecting people #but in my opinion maruki is a nihilistic character gets perpetrated as a someone that doesn't deserve happiness or someone that deserves #to be happy #and sometimes confuse me to the point I can't even fathom #and yeah I think it's both #because it makes sense #so yeye #it makes so much sense

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gnc-tits · 4 months

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i genuinely have such an issue w how the general internet approaches trigger warnings like on all sides it just fuckin sucks. either theyre completely unnecessary and if u need one ur a baby or u need to tag every possible trigger theres like no in between. and the meaning of what a trigger actually is gets watered in the process like i know this is kind of 2018 to bitch about but i am irritated!!!!!!!!

#gonna blow up genuinely #inspired by a post tht was like a poem of sorts discussing a suicide attempt but like. the way it was set up is that it was split up by #slides ans the title on the first slide was pretty self explanatory so like. you have to swipe to see the rest of it #and people were mad in the comments that there wasnt a trigger warning like. dude #it literally says what its about right there you made the decision to read the rest of it??????#and it didnt even get that graphic imo so like im just confused like do u want the very concept of suicide trigger tagged?????? sorry?????#like sometimes art wants you to feel uncomfortable and upset and thats okay!!! it does not mean you need a trigger tag for it like #im sorry i know discussions of suicide Can be triggering but this wasnt even that it was just like art and the idea of making an artist #trigger tag their work depicting/discussing suicide when it a. isnt even that graphic and b. is set up in a way that you know whats going to #be depicted before even reading it like. that just is so #like its giving tag your self harm scars likeeeeee #just fuckin irks me man #genuinely i think 90% of mental health ‘discourse’ is inane bullshit and like projection and shit but #idk. IDK rhis is a hill ill die on like. if talking about suicide is a trigger then you should handle that on your own and not blame ppl for #discussing it when you like knew what you were getting into #but like also: is it actually triggering you or does it just make u upset #likeeeee its okay to be upset…….healthy even……

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yongseungkim · 6 months

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#a lot of this came about too partially bc it was her black belt test right and like at the very end #she comes up to me and goes i didnt mention it in the speech but u were a part of why i got this today.#i was like aww i mean u didnt have to mention it and she was like yeah idc abt the rest knowing i just want u to know #so then we talked about it a little later as we were winding down for bed #and i was like congrats today and also for reaching out at the end i appreciate it #and she was like yeah i wanted to know bc i dont think youd have connectedthe dots #and i was like yeah i would have never guessed #(again to me in my mind im like ? idk how this girl sees me)#and she was like yeah youve made an impact in my life and im sure others as well #and i dont remember the exact words but smth abt how like ppl miss you when ur not there and all that #which caught me off guard i did start crying like i didnt know any of this #like how was i supposed to know any of this #so for me the next day idk i woke up and just spilled my anxieties and like #i cant tell if it was the right or wrong thing to do #im a little better in that like im not exactly anxious that she'll get mad at me for sayign this #but im more worried right now if its information she had to even know cuz its just my anxieties ? like #its not necessarily real its just how i perceive the world idk :((#i really hate feelings becasue i always think im wrong for having them.#and the sucky thing about anxiety is like if its not her itd be something esle for sure and i know that much like #idk man why is having friends SO CONFUSING #i was like damn if you feel like we are close and you miss me while im not there then whyyy do we not talk when in group settings #idk where i was going with any of this tbqh i just #i feel weird and anxious about it still #and i thought being open about some things would help but it hasnt not really

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evilweasel · 6 months

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does anyone wanna know about my self insert fanfiction I wrote when I was 11 about A Little Princess. By Francis Hodgson Burnett. Written in 1905. Where I was a time travelling vampire princess.

#and GUESS WHAT #me and sara crewe??? besties #sara was SO intrigued by this new person who came to the seminary. who are they. where did they come from #i described myself as having a “quiet and intelligent” voice. i cannot #btw all i said was “hello”. but quietly. and intelligently #ooouhhh im so mysterious i take lessons by private tutor and am never seen....... sara's so confused and intrigued.....#and then i overhear her telling a story one day and im like “wow you kind of suck. wheres the action and tension?”#and sara is so offended shes like “i want to tell stories about beautiful things” and im like “yeah ofc YOU would”#and then she kinda has a grudge against me except shes too polite to hold grudges so shes just vaguely annoyed whenever im in a room #i mention her cool brown eyes meeting my misty grey ones like. every other paragraph #and then she walks in on me feeding from a DEAD BODY from the MORGUE which are the SECRET PACKAGES ive been taking in my room the WHOLE TIME #im feasting on an ARM and then i have to lock her in my room and swear her not to tell the other children #and she thinks im evil at first and then realises im good and that i had a point actually about her stories and is flattered i think shes as #beautiful as the stories she tells #in hindsight this is the gayest thing ive ever written. mad crushing on sara crewe #and also myself and my intelligent misty grey eyes and offputting demeanour and beautiful silvery hair. all things mentioned multiple times #im actually so disappointed i didnt write more #also. the entire fic my name was Sapphire #very period very 1800s slay. self insert is doing a great job at fitting in #i sucked so bad at naming characters. thats not even the worst one. the worst one i cannot disclose #weasel words

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