#im not good at it but that makes it easier somehow

[spacechampion]

rough 2am poetry under cut, will probably delete in the morning

i know it is because my emotions are too big for me to contain.

i know these feeling intimately; they are held close as they would shred me, flay me open and bare for all to see if they were expressed as i need them to be.

i know them, yet they are unnamed. they will remain unnamed as i can hardly describe the shape of them, let alone the sound they will make ripping out of my chest

i know my desires for expression are overwhelming, my worries and anxieties insurmountable in this paralyzing fear. worst case scenarios rapidly become the only possible outcome.

what if im right? god help me if im correct about any of this

i like solitude, i find my own company most rewarding. But

i don’t want to be alone.

i wish to hold and be held in ways that heal, but what if that’s too familiar a request? can you really ask that of anyone, guilt free? without creating more hurt, more harm in your path?

penny for your thoughts? feedback? comments, critiques? nothing can be worse than what i think about myself!

i worry i remain aloof, distant, un interested when of course the opposite is the truth. obviously

maybe the ruin i fear is inevitable. maybe i’m destruction inherent.

its foolish to hope for any other destination

[apocketfullofhobbits]

can't stop thinking abt how the fact that declan mattered so little to his father that the asshole couldn't even be bothered to keep the memories of the day his son was born was supposed to make up for declan's whole shitty childhood

like hey kid u know what u just weren't worth the pain. do u feel better abt it now.

[orcelito]

Less than an hour before the mcelroy selfie & signing

I'm a little nervous

[angelstrawbabie420]

i miss my dogs so fucking much besides obviously loving them to death i had no idea how much they helped my anxiety and depression and got me outside before i lost them now i just want to fucking die

[gensymscribes]

really trying to convince myself that i need a job even if i have to work 6 days a week and only get around 12-15 hours notice for each shift so i can't plan anything in advance and never get to do anything outside of the house other than work

[thefairywithboots]

This has made the SECOND TIME Twitter has suspended my account, so I filed an appeal and deactivated it for good. I’m done with this bullshit.

[syekick-powers]

man you know i understand why some people are pushing really hard for the idea of mental illness/disorders being as a result of stress in capitalism. i understand that a lot of depression anxiety etc is often triggered by shit ass conditions that exacerbate misery. but i really don't think we should swing all the way in the other direction of "all mental disorders are due to stress and if capitalism didnt exist depression/anxiety/etc would simply Go Away Magically" like. homie. sister. gurl. bruh. i am bipolar. i will basically always be bipolar. i will need to be medicated for my bipolar for the rest of my life because my brain swings back and forth between manic and depressed for lengths of months on end. even when i am very heavily medicated and in a relatively stress-free environment i can still tell that my brain is going back and forth between depressive/manic episodes basically constantly because certain symptoms still display even with the amount of mood stabilizers i'm taking. even if capitalism vanished tomorrow and all world governments were replaced with socialist systems and climate change was suddenly reversed and everyone on the planet lived in harmony, i would still fucking be bipolar and still have manic and depressive episodes. mental illness will never be defined by a one-size-fits-all definition. some people's mental issues are caused by stress. some people's mental issues are exacerbated to unhealthy levels by stress. some people's mental issues will continue to exist regardless of their stress level. all these things can be true at once.

[cum-padre]

me 🤝 you

closing at our jobs

I close every night but if you asked me how to close i couldn't tell you ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

its not bad and today was really easy compared to most nights this month but idk i always feel like im bad at it... on the bright side i feel really confident in my book keeping skills lately. also its really flattering to be closing and having my cashiers miss me and then doing a morning shift and having the morning cashiers miss me

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

experimenting w/ blood colors, b/c red blood would not stand out on this hoe’s already red-as-hell design

[oh-gh0st]

unironically i might start working backwards when writing fics now

[onepiexe]

locked myself out of the house and my car

[orangechickenpillow]

I'm really sad :(

[forgotten-daydreamer]

knowing im going to die very young somehow doesnt make the psychological violence any easier to bear

[dragonbornoflegend]

pt 1 🖤

[skyburger]

best day of my life was when vimms lair let other regional versions of games be on the site u have no idea how happy i was. like yes finally i dont have to send people digging through a huge archive.org dump of DS games so they can play professor layton & not suffer thru lukes american dub voice 😭

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

*head in hands* oh God my parental issues affect my view of Kiryu