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akumaasylum · 2 years

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Hey y’all, long time no see. Well, I guess I’m back here again, now that it looks like twit’s going belly up? So over the course of the next couple.... days? weeks? I’m going to be slowly changing my blog up. Might change usernames, unsure of that though since I use this one everywhere, but it has been feeling uncomfy for a bit now. I’ll give a heads up ahead of time

Anywho... a lot of my interests have shifted since the nsfwpocalypse and since covid, and my follows have been cut in half. My happy-brain chemicals pretty much only come from Dimension20, Critical Role, NADDPod, and video games now, so apologies to the people who followed me for homestuck content way back when. That’s not gonna be showing up as much, if at all, anymore. If anyone has some good blogs for those aforementioned interests, though, send them my way, please!

I guess that’s it, that’s the post.

#holy fuck im such a boomer now #none of this was necessary to mention #or valuable information #but whatever this is what y'all're getting from now on #oh also i go by bear now #fucking ellen moose ruined my fandom experience and now i gotta relearn how to interact with cool people instead of 40 year olds #im too socially inept for this

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saturnniidae · 5 months

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Whenever I see those 'miraculous out of context' compilations it's so funny bc it's really just like. Clips of the characters being really blunt and socially unaware, like interrupting or not realizing what they're saying is random and unrelated. Like god they're all just fucking autistic.

They seriously might as well change the name to 'miraculous autism moment compilation' or something like wtf

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butchdykekondraki · 11 days

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the dsaf fandom has noooo fuckin literary comprehension but in a supremely fucked up way. like theyre good at character analysis until they get to dave and then it takes a stark turn into Ableism Central

#good LORD can yall GET OFF HENRYS DICK for FIVE SECONDS and have some fuckin LITERARY COMPREHENSION #please please im begging you Please #PLEASEEEE STOP LISTENING TO DOCTOR ABLEISM FOR FIVE SECONDS. SHE ISNT STUPID CAUSE SHES GOT BRAIN DAMAGEEEE ILL KILL YOU #shes a fucking genius dude she worked in robots WITH NO DEGREE and still managed to make functioning animatronics & phone heads -#- BY LEARNING ON HER OWN #she is objectively smart as fuck. shes just really socially inept. she isnt stupid bc of the brain damage (CAUSED BY HENRY. MIND YOU!).#henry just thinks that cause hes egotistical as FUCK and firmly believes shes just too stupid to be on his level #like. he fuckin hates her. thats why he thinks shes stupid. it has NOTHING to do with her actual skills or motor functions HES JUST ABLEIST #ok whateverrrrrrr. rant over. good GOD i hate it here #speaking.mp4

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xylophone888 · 2 months

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list of discworld characters based on their relation to the word 🚬:

1) ridcully - technically can say it but i myself will literally rip him to shreds if he ever does

2) rincewind - can say it (ofc) but never would

3) ponder - can say it, he's unsure if he can though so he doesn't

4) twoflower - can say it but doesn't even know it exists

5) nanny ogg - probably can't say it but i know lots of people both on here and on there would give her full permission

6) vetinari - can say it, wouldn't refer to anyone other than himself and drumknott by it not out of kindness but out of saving it as a privilege

7) sam vimes - probably can say it, would only use it as a word for actual cigarettes

8) moist von lipwig - can't say it, only vaguely knows what it is because he's heard one of his employees got fired for saying it

#discworld #although rincewind probably have taught him about it we all know he would just forget everything aside from the fact he should #react negatively to it #dont ask me why im so rude to ridcully i just hate him im sorry #he emits so much straight man energy even when dreamily sighing over a sports coach he should lowkey have his privilege taken away /j #99.999% of wizards can say it actually but are either too socially inept to know about it or too socially inept to use it towards anyone #twoflower is mildly unaware of both fwords and likes to keep it that way #silly little thoughts #cw slurs

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piplupod · 3 months

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feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

#part of me wonders if going to the centre is helping or hurting more #but i think it's definitely helping more. however it is definitely also hurting/making some things worse #i just wish I could be operating at the same level as most of society #and i feel so egotistical when I talk abt this #but like. why am i always so fucking aware of every single thing going on #and everyone else is just painfully oblivious #I AM USING HYPERBOLE. ITS NOT EVERYONE. i know im not the only person ever lmao #when i got my autism diagnosis i thought oh good okay so THIS is why im such a freak #and now I've met so many other autistic ppl irl and um. no. no thats definitely not it still.#yes its probably part of it but im also just. so fucking traumatized i guess idk. i hate this so much #i just want to be the same and fit in and not be analyzing everything and be able to actually speak my mind #and not be so kind and polite and respectful all the time and be able to say shitty stupid things without thinking anything of it #im so tired of being the only one who seems to care so much about everyone else's comfort and feelings #but also at the same time i would hate if i acted like everyone else bc i know how shitty it makes people feel #and people are always so happy to see me because I am useful and make them feel good and comfortable and heard #and that matters. that means a lot to people i think. but also I am not a person. i am a tool.#and I'd really like to be a person #i somehow feel like im operating at a higher level/awareness than almost everyone irl and also way below everyone at the same time #like im so hyperaware of everyone else more than most ppl but im also so socially inept sometimes. and just... idk how to be a person.#i dont know i just want to not be like this. its so lonely and tiring and i want to matter to people #i want them to like me for more than just what I'm able to do for them. I want to be liked for Me i guess. but Me isnt likeable maybe #Me is uncomfortable for people. Me is a trembling cornered prey animal with a longing to tell stories but is too afraid to do anything #and so Me just exists in a hollow shell made out of people-pleasing and fawning and mirroring everyone around them #and then i get lonelier and more isolated and nothing really changes. but every time i try to crack open the shell a little it goes badly #like i genuinely dont think its my paranoia. i think it is not Safe for Me to exist properly.#i am too sensitive probably! but it does very much feel like a raw wound that peope jab aggressively at when i open up a little!#boy howdy i sound like such a wuss. i mean i probably am one fjfkdl #i just feel like I keep trying to fix things and improve and try new things and nothing ever really works well #my counsellors have always commented on how impressed they are at my willingness to try things #and its like ?? yeah ! ofc i am going to try things! maybe that will be smth that finally helps!

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swagging-back-to · 3 months

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not sorry. i extend very little sympathy and patience towards tras who are underage, and the only ones who do get said sympathy are TIFs. but again. it's MICROSCOPIC levels of sympathy.

#i was also a tra as a minor (~10yo to 14yo)#and yet i never said even half the shit a lot of these kids are spewing with their whole chests.#i never hated on terfs; made rape jokes; made death threats.#I barely ever even argued with terfs bc i AGREED WITH THEM even as a tra. the only thing i disagreed on was how they went about it #(i felt like they were 'too mean'. now that i am a radfem i see we arent mean enough.)#i never in my life shared countless anti terf memes. never had a DNI.#never spammed terf tags and spaces.#never sent hate anons.#so yeah #i do genuinely judge kids who do this because i WAS ALSO A CHILD and i NEVER did this shit even at the height of the trans ideology #worming its way into the government and law.#people need to understand that children can and SHOULD have morals. just like adults.#you shouldnt need to be told 'hey this is bad' to know thats bad. if you have morals then you simply just know.#i tried to go vegan my entire life. would refuse to eat animals even when i was 4 years old. went officially vegan at 11 when i realized i #wouldnt die without animal protein (and even if i did i was sick of funding animal murder)#no one NEEDED to tell me to do that.#my morals simply did not agree with killing and eating other living beings.#so kids who are willing to do all this shit? yeah. thats ust a reflection of their innate morals. not even joking here either.#i work with kids.#i know how downright cruel they can be and not just in a 'im socially inept and have no filter yet'#but intentionally cruel.#intentionally heinous. and tiktok exposure only makes it so much worse.#so yeah if you are a minor and i go on your account and i see dozens of terf-hate posts?#i AM judging you and i feel zero sympathy for anything coming your way #and i do genuinely hope they wither away in shame and regret when they get older #I didnt even do any of this shit and yet i still feel ashamed and remorseful for the stupid tra shit i spewed (mostly about how #sex and gender arent the same. that was the HEIGHT of my trans rights activism. that's barely 1% of what these kids are saying.)#like i understand where theyre coming from and i get why theyd buy into the trans cult; but that does NOT excuse their behavior.#rudefem

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skully-bones · 3 months

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i wish i was better at writing in a non-academic sense

#i have a vague concept on a book id love to write and i just. dont know how.#writing a book has been on my bucket list for forever #im just too mechanical and socially inept so dialogue is especially hard

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mellomadness · 6 months

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sometimes I wonder if I should take a gender studies class just so I can bitch every day about how an imaginary boyfriend is often seen as a requirement for a woman to feel safe enough to have fun at a club, or the idea that an imaginary person with a fake “claim” over me has more influence over predatory men than my own voice saying “No, I’m not interested, get lost”

#venting #hnnnnng the double standard is really really making my teeth hurt recently #(in that I’m grinding my jaw at the mere thought of this particular breed of injustice)#I honestly miss going out with my friends. I miss going to bars and clubs and enjoying the night #but I wanna go with my friends and leave my boyfriend at home for once #he gets to go out and enjoy himself all the time with his friends and they never even have to deal with unwanted flirtation #meanwhile I go out in a tshirt and jeans and get fucking catcalled or flirted with just fucking getting groceries #and it’s not a narrative on beauty or anything. it’s about men’s perception of women #specifically predatory men and men who don’t realize they’re BEING predatory #perhaps it’s because I’ve been going to this fucking gamer school for far too long #and I’ve interacted with so many socially inept/incel men from there #who don’t know what no means or dont take women seriously when they do say no #or they literally cannot read between the lines of a woman politely declining their advances #‘but she was being so nice to me’ yeah bc if she wasn’t you’d either call her a bitch or try to force her anyway #anyway. I’m angry #im tired of living in fear of morons #I’m tired of not being able to go out on a Tuesday night and just walk the town with my friends #specifically my femme friends #we should be at the club!! instead we’re trying to make sure the group is like a school of fish so we’re less of a target #and like. I could talk about this on twt or reddit but. cmon. let’s be real here #MelloMoans #really does feel like we’re going backwards when it comes to gender equality and feminism #especially with the influx of the whole sigma male/high value male bullshit #I understand how it came to be I really do but that plus the whole pick me girl thing is just another toxic view of gender identity #and all it has resulted in on both sides is a wider degree of separation between the genders #therefore allowing both extremes to dehumanize every one that doesn’t identify as sigma male or not like other girls YET AGAIN #(and therefore also opens up the door for dehumanizing lgbtq+ folks but. let’s be real. that hasn’t really gone away yet :/

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july-19th-club · 1 year

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cool texts to receive: five in a row from my brother, research engineer who hasn't read fiction in over a year, gushing over the titles in the copy of "the wind's twelve quarters" he borrowed from me. one small step for metals and polymers tester, one giant step for ursula nation

uncool texts to receive: one from my amorous neighbor, who wants to know my work schedule . if the four months of ignoring you or shutting you down didn't get the point across -

#im going to have to Do Something about the amorous neighbor sooner or later #but the thing is that he is probably not being creepy on purpose. it complicates matters bc i dont think hes like Aware of that #like socially he is not very ept. hes more on the inept side of the scale. but after a certain point that's not an excuse #nor a reassurance #my brother however is really enjoying le guin so far. he's only read the titles . says hes just rolling them around in his brain #his favorite title is 'Vaster Than Empires And More Slow' which is an excellent choice. one of the titles ever #it always reminds me of one of those old-school trek titles that i love #the world is hollow and i have touched the sky. etc #he said he didnt want anything too heavy tho so i started him out on april in paris

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rabbithaver · 1 year

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i do not want to be alive

#im such a burden on everyone and i just. i wish i had never been born #i make everything worse. im annoying and socially inept and frustrating and just. not a good person at all?#in the past ive been really awful to people who didnt deserve it. i regret it so much #they have to live with the things i said and how i treated them and i can never undo any of it. so i should suffer too #it's fair. it's punishment. i need to be miserable because if i am not then im getting away with it #terin.odt

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kay-claire · 1 year

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I'm just. so fucking lonely. And I spend so much of my time thinking about how lonely I am and wishing I had friends I could hang out with, and trying desperately to meet new people. But I also don't know how to go from meeting to people to being friends with those people.

#yes i have talked to a therapist about this #but sometimes i think i shouldn't try and make new friends because obviously all my old friendships ended for a reason #and maybe i shouldn't inflict myself on other people #maybe im just a terrible person but im too socially inept to realise it

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thekillersareeatingtheflesh · 1 year

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being alloaro is such a deeply fucking lonely experience.

#alloromantics dont get it. aspec spaces tend to be dominated by aces (both allo and aro) with very little attention for alloaros #trying to find the kind of partnership i want sounds like a goddamn nightmare.#and im too socially inept for hookups. like can i get a fucking BREAK?

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curiositykilledtheradiostar · 1 year

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I mean, what's a little codependent friendship between two queer teens, am I right?

#IM FAR TOO AUTISTIC AND SOCIALLY INEPT TO BE THE THERAPIST FRIEND SEND HELP #wikihow how to be reassuring to your friend having a meltdown when you have -2 social skill #curio chatter

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