#in another episode of: sprouttsse feels shit

[hanniejji]

my back hurts like a bitch yo help yo grandma out back hurts from carrying all these scara brainjuice

[hanniejji]

tw: subjects of cheating and toxic relationship? just me ranting

i just watched this movie where a guy keeps cheating on his girlfriend. they ended up being in an open relationship only because the girl thought it was the only way to keep the guy from totally ending it (she ends up experiencing it with another guy, didn't enjoy it but she was so desperate and hurt that she just didn't fucking care anymore). the guy suddenly feels different when he hooked up with a co-worker who's been the subject of his girlfriend's insecurities and decided to stop the open relationship thing because he, for some fucked up reason, missed the girl. out of nowhere, he proposed. you cannot imagine the way i screamed from joy and cheered when when she said "if you asked me this question a few years ago, i would've said yes" and i felt my heart burst from happiness. they broke shit up, guy tries to tell her that they could try again and that he loves her but thank fucking god the girl finally turned away from him completely.

i just realized that i've never really written anything about... cheating and y'know... things like that avkrkfk like, yes, seeing or reading about a person successfully escaping a toxic relationship and being able to choose themselves instead of the other is sooooo satisfying. but i just can't man, it just feels too close to home and every movie i watch with the same concept fills me with emotions that i never knew i'd feel from just watching that shit.

but ngl? i want to try making one 👀 only if i don't end up crying while trying to brainstorm lmao

[hanniejji]

my fucking camera lense is cracked im going to cry

[hanniejji]

i just spent 5 hours in a trip to that fucking job interview and 6 hours trip to get back home i better get fucking accepted or else i will raise hell

[hanniejji]

man i do love the idea of sleepovers in a friend's house my kind of escapism from all the shit at home but i cannot force myself to sleep in a bed that's not mine, i don't even sleep properly at home how the fuck do you think i can sleep in someone else's house?

[hanniejji]

man i would've preferred hell week in school rather than hell week in fucking regular life i wanna drop dead rn

[hanniejji]

this is the worst fucking day of my life.

[hanniejji]

had like the worst three days of this fucking month i just want to curl up and never emerge from my bed ever again

[hanniejji]

SEMI-HIATUS

[ navi ]

im sorry for not updating lmao, my brain is currently drained from all these lectures every week and all i can think of is "how the fuck am i supposed to fit all 10 lectures from 10 different subjects in my brain every week long enough for me to pass my exams?" lmao

every week is a fucking hassle with all these worksheets and lectures that i need to keep up with and if u ever catch me reblogging things in this and my reblogging accs, that's me trying to get my mind off of all the stressful things because stress eating can only do so much and my insomnia isn't getting better either (every time i sleep i wake up after 3 hours of sleep and find it hard to sleep afterwards idfk why but all i know is that i always wake up tired and drained) + home situation isn't the best right now and i got shit in my mind that i just want to forget

updates and contents are probably not gonna be as often as i want to because i'll probably only write for things that im currently motivated for, so request are sadly closed and all my recent requests are gonna be on hold because like i said, my motivation to a lot of shit is gone like my braincells

so yeah, if u see me update or post content, it's because i'm motivated only for that particular content, so i'd like it if y'all don't suddenly send in requests once u see me post one probably shitty and lame drabble or headcanon or smau dkfhsof

neways, i won't take much of your time so thanks for reading my lame excuse for going on a hiatus ig djsjfke have a good day or night yall, ily <3

[hanniejji]

yes, this acc may as well be dead lmao

[hanniejji]

it took a whole fucking day and night of raining for me to feel physically shit

[hanniejji]

why are sanitary pads so expensive, i just don't want blood stains on my bed

[hanniejji]

back aching like im 60+ in age, cramps are so horrible it makes me want to kms, my muscles are sore wtf, im shivering from cold like cat, and my knees are weak and im getting a bruise over a simple flick of my fingers on my skin

living the best life yo 😔👌🏻

[hanniejji]

guess who's not listening to class and is just.... staring blankly at her notebook 😌

[hanniejji]

told myself that i'd write as much as i can in vaca before i go back to school but... i have written nothing

[hanniejji]

school in four days, im gonna have the worst year of my life :')