#in unmedicated hell.....

[lostacelonnie]

My apologies for taking. So long to respond time literally slipped away from me. I simply thought school festivals were fake & made up. Can confirm snake bites are cool & i hope you can get them. My tattoo wasnt fully healed yet so its now mostly done & i have to return next month to finish it. For real it was raining here last week & now its like. Sunny & nice & im like. Pick a lane weather. The autism sure does affect. A whole lot & i wish it would like. Do less. Yeah sparkle like. Makes seele cracked. Or anyone really. Thanks! I havent maxed her talents yet but like. I now have all 3 versions of mei & am stoked. Robin actually sings during her ult ive heard which is cool as hell & i wanna try for her maybe? Still undecided but i know people who want boothill. The triple su drops gave me basically nothing for archeron & i am. Salty. I need to build pela & welt but also i have. So little time. Adventurine is actually a solid shielder but like. Idk. I dont have clara on main so im uncertain on his usage when i have so many others to work on. & genshin is taking my time more for arlecchino funds. I wish the game was that nice to me for clara i even have her light cone but not her. Best part of archeron in sim universe easy. Skipping so much bullshit. I finally was able to get ratio up to clear swarm & do gold & gears which i enjoy way more. Ah yeah that is her best set from what ive heard & both of them seem to hate giving me good pieces for her. So im operating on a weird mix until i get good stuff. Scuffed but works. Have you heard her line for joining a team with black swan yet? Ive uh. Been on a trinity of genshin star rail & ai the somnium files trying to like. Actually beat games in my backlog. Bartender event was so fun im glad they are doin solid on the events like the potion makin event for genshin was pretty good. Sorry for throwin off the equilibrium immediately its been. A time.

HI I AM ALSO VERY VERY SORRY...... i was in croatia for 2 weeks + school Got Me..... i am back though. AND YEAH REAL AS HELL i like unironically thought that was something made up for television. but it Is really great that they exist irl. tons tons tons of fun to work on it and then see the result hehehehe...... and thankies!!!!! i will defo in the future. and hey its been around a month so!!!! hows your tattoo!!!!!! also if i may ask what is it Of...... AND REAL LIKE. make up your damn mind. today especially was a weird day cos its cloudy but SO hot out. and godddd yeah. me when the neurodivergence makes my neurons divergent. but at least i get back on my meds Soon...... hopefully....... i have an appointment at least. and oh nice!!!! i am unfortunately seeleless but maybe i will get sparkle......... one day......... saving for firefly right now tho. shes so cool i love her. AND ALSO ISNT IS SOOO COOL THAT SHE IS ACTUALLY CANONICALLY MEI. its so cool its so cool. scratched my brain just right. tho i actually havent finished the trailblaze mission yet bc i failed the second dominicus fight JSHD. cos of the forced tb in the party. hell on penacony. and yeah she does!!!!! also how did your pulls go??? good luck if you havent gotten her yet. i wanted boothill before i found out that firefly is right next patch so. Rerun perhaps. AND YEAH SAME like. What was even the point. i need to get my bailu built better first tho..... Augh. one must imagine star rail players happy. I NEED TO BUILD PELA TOOOOOO and im unfortunately weltless But im planning to get him from the 300 on standard since i still havent hit that. somehow. and ahhhh yeah thats fair, tbf my clara team is just pulled together by. March 7th. but she does her damn job so who am i to complain!! and oh good luck with arlecchino!!!! i cant play genshin anymore, fortunately or not, but i Did get back into arknights recently so. theres that. and auugh i have the same with gepard [yes lightcone, no him]. AND YEAH SHE REALLY DOES MAKE SU EASY. god i love her. and hey congrats!!! yeah i like g&g more as well even if it does not like me. but ah what can you do....... also running chars on scuffed gear is just like. A canon experience i feel. and Yes i have......... augh. and ooh nice!!!! havent heard of the third one i think?? and yeah bartender event Was a lot of fun. also DONT WORRY AB IT as you can see. am Very Late as well.

[lisathegoodgirl]

This is your annual reminder to paint your nails black, cvt your hair with a razor and listen to my chemical romance

[00fairylights00]

Hypersomnolence

Haha funny story, I was diagnosed with a sleep disorder in November after struggling with it unknowingly for give or take 18 months. Turns out I’m not crazy and falling asleep against your will multiple times a day is actually not a good or normal thing.

So permit me to write the puppet like a sap as I need this right now lol. Yes these are in fact all things I experienced but I am medicated for them now hooray!

One task, that was all you’d managed to get through today. You felt sick and heavy, opting to sit on the cold ground before your body made you, it was a battle to stay awake as sleep attacked you again.

It was only early afternoon and you’d struggled through your one task of sweeping, you were certain everyone at the hotel thought you to be lazy, even if they’d all told you otherwise.

You’d been sick like this for a long time, long before the petrification disease or the puppet frenzy, both events having a negative effect on the way you’d usually manage your symptoms. 

And while you appreciated the sanctity you’d been spared at Hotel Krat, the nagging feeling of needing to repay Lady Antonia for her kindness was not helping your case.

You sat with your head in your hands, slipping in and out of consciousness, losing the battle again. Usually, Polendina would find you, send you to your room to rest and that would be it for the day, once you were in bed you found it hard to do much of anything else. Which you supposed was good for your body but it made your emotional well-being an absolute wreck.

Lady Antonia had asked you time and time again to be kinder to yourself, to feel accomplished of the things you could do and that you were welcome here no matter how sick you were, and she would know a thing or two about being sick.

But, you had a bad habit of being nasty to yourself, and with your sleep-related illness only seeming to get worse you couldn’t remember the last time you’d spoken kindly to yourself.

You felt like shit.

A hand at your shoulder, delicate and tender shook you but it didn’t do much to rouse you. Your vision swam uncomfortably through the gaps in your fingers, your head being too heavy to lift up. Hands grasped your wrists, pulling gently to reveal your face that was then taken into those same hands, one soft and warm, the other firm and cold.

With the weight of your head now being supported by P’s hands you could somewhat force yourself to look at him. His expression was unreadable, as always, but his presence was a balm to your spiralling thoughts.

The friendship of Geppetto’s Puppet had been good for you, P didn’t care how tired you were he was just happy to see you, he didn’t expect anything but your presence and that was something you could give freely, tired or not.

He tilted his head in question to what you assumed to be your position on the floor, slumped over rather uncomfortably.

“It just came on, I had to sit down,” you mumbled, he seemed to frown, getting down on one knee and shifting you against him to pick you up.

With you cradled to his chest, he ascended the stairs. You burrowed down against his chest, relishing in how nice it was to be looked after. 

It was almost like the trip up to your room didn’t happen, one moment you were snug to P’s chest, the next you were under your sheets and propped up against the headboard. P took it upon himself to remove his shoes and coat and sit on the opposite side of the bed to keep you company.

“Sleepy?” P asked innocently, you nodded trying desperately to suppress another yawn. 

“I-“ he started, a thoughtful look crossing his face, “-want to help. How do I help?”

He gently took your hand in his own, his thumb rubbing over your knuckles. The astounding amount of care he treated you with was sure to tear you apart in the best ways, making your exhausted mind spin.

“Just stay here with me for a bit,” You laid your head on his shoulder, “I think that’ll help.”

“Okay.”

He mimicked you, resting his head on top of yours, pulling the sheets further up your lap. Doing what he could to keep you comfortable, a concept he was still trying to grasp.

“Thank you P,” you mumbled, snuggling closer, “love you.”

He pressed a gentle kiss to your head, nose buried in your hair, “I love you too.”

[icantspellthings]

This is sinful behaviour....I need to confess to a priest and maybe drink holy water....anyways ENJOY THE GIF(T)S hohoho

Bonus santa lmao

[duvet-detectives]

Y’all. Being unmedicated SUCKS but despite that

Thoughts on MegaOpLita absolutely debouched sex but in the club. Like. Kink Night in Blurrs bar and it’s just. Elita and Optimus spit roasting Megatron. While a few people watch on because it would be a fucking sight

Elita has his valve and Optimus has his mouth. Optimus not even having to roll his hips because Elita is railing Megatron so hard he’s being pushed onto Optimus spike. Want him clawing at Optimus spike trying to get closer while Elita pulls him back and forth on her spike.

Think the people watching should be goading Elita on- or telling Megatron he can take more (Megatron is into the whole situation so much it’s making his engine rev so hard)

I think a Flo Milli song should be playing in the back. Or some horrible Skillex shit Jazz put on

Looks at all of you like I’m a bug and you’re about to step on me. Anyways. I need to start posting on AO3 again Jesus Christ

[chekovbeforeyouwrekovyourself]

Nothing qualifies me more as an armandaniel shipper than my OCD, my cPTSD, my female hysteria (pmdd), my alcoholism (1 year and some change sober baybee), and all the terrible things that have happened to me throughout my life.

[homeofhousechickens]

I rather tumblr use a silly check mark gimmick to make some money rather then other more invasive ways tbh I LIKE tumblr, I do like posting here but its no secret this site is hemorrhaging money and they need to make money back so i think lashing out at people who buy the silly checkmark for the lols shouldnt be clowned on so much just because they choose to spend some extra income they have in that way especially if it allows me to continue to use this site.

[syn4k]

[doctorwyvern]

oh god i’m gonna be behind for gum gum week just like how i was for mudd week aren’t i

I STILL HAVE MUDD WEEK WIPS ON MY COMPUTER TOO ARGH!!

[monty-glasses-roxy]

I came to a realisation...

Incorporating the costumes from The Mimic and the Epilogues... Can very easily place Monty's character earlier in the timeline than literally all the others. Like you have an alligator costume in The Mimic. What's to say that's not one of the original versions of Monty? What's to say he isn't a nostalgia character with a revamp to appeal to the new audiences?

Obviously, I'm gonna play around with this. I'd vaguely had it in my head before but oh wow am I gonna play around with this among all the other character possibilities created by these costumes existing. And I want to release Rosie Porkchop on an attempted murder spree but that's neither here nor there....

Point is? Monty as a character could be old as balls, just like the alligator species itself. I just think that's neat!

[idiopathicsmile]

disproportionately touched that people i knew in middle school and high school are pre-ordering my book. like i was the worst possible version of myself back then, why in the world would you want to read anything i wrote based on that, fucking bless you

[sistersofsilver]

okay so i'm actually fascinated by the new(?) incantation bones of burnished bronze. i can work with this. i can cook with the narrative presented with this. once i get the fate fabric. but i can. i can cook with this where did cthoniccompanions joke post about icarus with moly overflowing his pockets go i know we talked about it i can cook with this-

[lisathegoodgirl]

Tw d3@th, sü!ćîd3

One of my favourite things to do is romanticize my own death. I pretend the people i love would think

"If only we had paid more attention to what she was saying"

"If only we had seen the signs"

"If only we had spent more time with her"

If only we spoke with her doctor"

If only we made time to catch up"

"If only we noticed when she started to slip away"

"If only we returned her messages"

"If only we noticed when the light went from her eyes"

"If only we noticed the change in her, when she decided to end it"

The truth is that they won't poor through your belongings for answers or finally listen to that song you sent them. Denial will be a welcome friend "she's at peace now". They won't lose a wink of sleep trying to understand you.

#words by me

[lottieurl]

i feel so insanely exhausted it's actually crazy like i think i need to sleep for a week

[crimeronan]

tumblr keeps reccing me posts i made in 2013, many of which are all-caps missives being really mad about some strawman troll of the week, and i'm like. girl. how did you have enough energy to give a fuck about any of this.

[ultimateinferno]

Looking back I think one of the biggest things that got me through uni was that Canvas had calendars that showed when assignments were due and actually let me plan out what tf I was going to do without feeling overwhelmed.

Well... that and being a tutor/TA/lab assistant letting me work on homework during my shifts. Those two things really pushed uni from being agonizing to doable.