#interlude_dream

[valeriesarkive]

Update Interlude_ dream, reality

Hey there! First of all I want to thank u all for the support and love you've given to Hard to Forget, I kinda feel overwhelmed (but in a good way, okay?). I just finished school so I will have much more time to write and as u can see, I uploaded a post giving the updates of each story (it's pinned on my wall). 'Interlude_ dream, reality' it's still on 25% of writing, but it'll be out in no time!

Click here to see the updates!

See u soon, and love u all♡.

[jiminrings]

and song recommendations to listen to while reading fs 🥺

hmmmm i think i say this for every fic of mine but whenever i write fics that have some sort of Sad Element in them, i apply almost all of my songs that r in my personal playlist!!! (read: i do not have a playlist bc i have no sort of cohesion except for liking songs on spotify n going from there)

someday i'll get it by alek olsen

end of beginning by djo

waiting room by phoebe bridgers

merry christmas mr. lawrence by ryuichi sakamoto (the thing is that this doesn't even have lyrics!!! it really just makes me emotional!!!!!)

interlude_dream, reality by agust d (same as above!!!!!!)

praise you by jordyn shellhart

wish you were by epik high

[theharrowing]

Thanks for tagging me, @btsstan12​!

Using your end of the year top 100 playlist, shuffle 10 songs:

BAD SAD AND MAD by Bibi

Cranium by Slothrust

Remember by Katie

ComE dOWn by Woosung

Party, Feel, Love by HyunA (feat. DAWN)

Sleep by Maddox

BTBT by B.I (Feat. Solja Boy, DaVita)

Daechwita by Agust D

어질어질 (Outta My Head) by JEON SOMI

HOME by BTS

Choose an artist you like and use the title of their songs to answer these as close to the truth as possible!

Name of the artist: Agust D

What is your gender: Interlude: Set me free

Describe yourself: Strange

How do you feel: What do you think?

If you could go anywhere where would it be: Moonlight

Describe your best friend: So far away

Your favorite time of the day: 140503 at Dawn

If your life was a tv show what would it be called: Interlude_dream, Reality

What is life to you: People

Relationship status: Honsool

What do you fear: The Last

tagging: @purplewhalewrites @1dsn @neoneunnajimin @random-and-out-of-context @yoongiofmine @yoongimingyu @sunshinerainbowsbts @btsgotjams27 @jessikahathaway @rapline-heaux @quirkybtsarmy @jjungkookislife and anyone else who wants to play (tag me if you do!) no pressure!

[frobisher-smythe]

🎶shuffle tag!🎶

thanks for tagging me @awistair

shuffle your library + pick ten songs, I won't upload a playlist bc my spotify is between me an god but here's the first ten songs

like crazy - jimin (as god intended)

pierre - ryn weaver

hypnotik - keys n krates

work song - hozier

live well - palace

sos - abba

simple romance - coin

inner child - bts

calgary - bon iver

interlude_dream, reality - agust d

tagging @dashuisofanubis @joysmercer @thechosenanubis and anyone else who wants to :)

[softesthobi]

i have an aes blog @09dreamreality go follow if you like ♥

[hopelessly-insane]

Happy #1000DaysWithAgusD !!!

I am personally thankful for his music for it became my refuge in my hardest time. His music is my comfort when I'm struggling with my life and I can't thank him enough for giving me hope and strength. And I'm sure I am not the only one who gain strength with your music, you have touched a lot of hearts with them I pray that you are always happy love! #1000DaysWithAgusD !

[aquagustd]

What are your top 5 music soundtracks that you would add as the theme song to your life?? ☺️

For example:

Agust D’s Interlude: Dream, Reality

My user is based off of this song. I love it so much and I know that this is Yoongi’s personal song but idk it’s so beautiful 🥹.

Another example:

Joe Hisaishi’s The Flower Garden Howl’s Moving Castle

10/10 song; Howl’s Moving Castle changed my life, so I claim this as my theme song whenever I feel the happiest 💃🏻

aww those are so sweet 🥺 soundtrack to my life ?? hm. i can only think of two atm

i talk about this song a lot on here but yeah. this is also yoongi’s personal song but i relate to it on so many levels. the lyrics explain it perfectly. “where have the fragments of my dream gone?” 🥺 how ambition can fade over the years and you slowly forget what it is that you wanted

ugh i love this song SO much. the title itself says it all. it’s sort of coming to terms with the fact that you need to sometimes allow yourself to experience weakness without feeling guilty to become a stronger person and grow 🥹 it’s also v special to me bc throughout my schooling career i was bullied and all everyone could tell me was “stop being so sensitive and stop crying for everything” that didn’t help at all 💀 and i learned myself that you have to be soft to be strong. it took a while but here i am today also i rambled a bit 🥴

ask me my top 5 anything

[blackholewound]

❤️‍🔥 for the playlist

hellooo!

in the arms of rain-HIM

don't fear the reaper-HIM

right here in my arms-HIM

bury me deep inside-HIM

without you i'm nothing-placebo

holy water-now, now

fade into you-mazzy star

magnificat in D Major,BWV 243: omnes generationes-Johann Sebastian Bach

cocoon-switchblade symphony

black swan-bts

i'm so tired-fugazi

#1 crush-garbage

bel air-lana del rey

swan lake op. 20, act II, no. 10-tchaikovsky

interlude_dream, reality-agust d

howl-florence+the machine

palace-hayley kiyoko

[raplinesmoon]

The Library Of Our Love - Tunes from the Ground Floor Café

Pairing: Kim Namjoon x GN!Reader

Summary:

From this day forth, the rules set out by the users of the study table should be:

This table shall only be populated by one Kim Namjoon and one ___, all others must ask for permission before using the premises.

Albert L. Lehringer’s word is the supreme law of the land.

The library is for learning only, not for falling in love.

Oops.

Read the full fic here! (ty again to @papillonsgf for the beautiful fic banner, I'm still obsessed)

P.S. - this contains spoilers!

A/N: hello friends! I really missed these two and the universe I created for them, so I made them a playlist! I was inspired by my dear moot Sophie (@sunshinekims) and the playlist she made for her awesome fic "The Broken Hearts Club" (check it out here), and I wanted to do a little bit of the same thing for TLOL! Fair warning, my music taste is v strange and I'm bad at picking songs, but I tried to capture the vibes as best I could!! I hope you enjoy <3

✨ 523.66: Cosmic Impact -> kingdom come by red velvet

찰나의 순간에/ 내 안을 파고든 눈빛에/ 아무도 모르게/ 감춰둔 마음을 빼앗긴 채: In just one moment/ Your eyes dig into me/ Without anyone knowing/ My hidden heart was stolen (the ult love at first sight song, I don't make the rules)

"A steady gust of wind enters through the window, and you hear something flutter. Whether it’s the pages of your open book  or the drumming of your heartbeat in your chest, you can’t begin to tell."

✨ 177.42: Ethics of friendship-> can i kick it? by logic

Can I kick it? (Yes, you can!)/ Can I kick it? (Yes, you can!)/ Can I kick it? (Yes, you can!)/Well, I'm gone, gone (lol them asking Namjoon to be library buddies)

"You blink, trying to remember the events of the past eight hours. Both of you made a brilliant team, working through the problems for the exam expertly and efficiently. Along the way, you fell deep into conversations about not only the equilibrium governing every reaction in the book but also the thin and delicate strings of matter that made up your lives thus far."

✨ 135.30: interlude_dream, Reality -> adore you by harry styles

Walk in your rainbow paradise (paradise)/ Strawberry lipstick state of mind (state of mind)/ I get so lost inside your eyes/ Would you believe it? (OC and the rose-colored filter through which they view Namjoon)

"You feel buoyant as you stand, bouncing on the balls of your feet. Exiting the library, the world seems effervescent and hazy with a new rose-colored filter, mirroring the pink of your gums as you smile brightly, ready to take on the day ahead with renewed fervor."

✨ 641.86: Just desserts -> trivia: love by rm (the man himself)

난 그냥 사람, 사람, 사람/ 넌 나의 모든 모서릴 잠식/ 나를 사랑, 사랑, 사랑/ 으로 만들어 만들어: I’m just a person, person, person/ You erode all my sharp edges/ You make me/ Into love, love, love (the inclusion is self explanatory)

"Whoever thought there should be a specific day devoted to love was the silliest person alive, in your opinion. How could they reduce a force as wonderful and as powerful, as full of tenderness and adoration, to a mere day full of hearts and flowers? Love was beyond that, it was something that could take a person and erode all their harsh lines, their straight angles, and make them soft and pliable."

✨ 165.19: Fallacies, or errors in judgment -> the only one by the black keys

You're the only one/ You're the only one/ I'm so wrapped up in a daze/ Hoping this is just a phase (OC getting shocked out of their daze by Namjoon's sudden confession)

"Not like you, who kept their heart under lock and key because how could you complain when all you’d ever loved and wanted was the man who spent every day in the wooden chair across from you?"

✨ 214.06: Theodicy -> 134340 by bts

아직 난 널 돌고 변한 건 없지만/ 사랑에 이름이 없다면/ 모든 게 변한 거야/ 넌 정말로 Eris를 찾아낸 걸까/ 말해 내가 저 달보다 못한 게 뭐야: I still revolve around you, nothing’s changed/ But if there’s no name to love/ Everything has changed/ Did you really find Eris?/ Tell me, what does the moon have that I don’t? (i just think this is a beautiful, philosophical look at regret and what went wrong)

"Theodicy. The vindication of divine goodness and providence given the existence of evil. Why bad things happen to good people. Why suffering can be justified."

✨ 616.025: Medical emergencies -> dayfly by DEAN (ft. Sulli and Rad Museum)

새빨간 핑계 뒤에 숨어/ 몇 번을 되묻고 되물어봐도/ 내가 나쁜 건지/ 아니면 내가 아픈 건지: I’m hiding behind bright red excuses/ I ask myself again and again/ Am I a bad person?/ Or am I just in pain? (the imagery in this song fits the scene beautifully)

"Rejection, you hear.

“And fucking Seolhee, she told me she was just fucking around, trying to use me to catch the attention of some other guy…”

Rejection, you hear, and your vision turns cloudy and red, like the water mixed with blood that has smeared in the sink.

“And then I was looking for you everywhere ___. I needed you, but you weren’t there. You’ve always been there.”

✨ 124.73: Teleology, or the end of things -> uhgood by RM

All I need is me/ All I need is me/ I know I know I know/ I know I know I know (OC choosing themselves and making their peace with everything)

"You turn on your heel, feeling renewed and restored, leaving him behind as the doors to the library of your love close behind you for the final time."

✨ Epilogue - 115.17: Time’s arrow -> 00:00 (Zero O'Clock) by BTS

Turn this all around/ 모든 게 새로운/ Zero O’Clock: Turn this all around/ Everything is new at/ Zero O’Clock (the epilogue is their zero o'clock)

"For the first time in many years, Namjoon doesn’t make your breath catch in your throat and your pulse begin to race, but instead fills your heart with a deep sense of fondness and contentment. Maybe this library will no longer be an archive of your longings, but an incunabulum of a fresh start."

[cupidhaos]

Starstruck! Masterlist

↳ Seventeen Social Media AU

summary: a university student and a renowned popstar encounter each other by chance one night. she thought that would be the last time they see each other, but fate had other plans

pairing: (y/n) x (joshua hong)

started: 191230

ended: 200626

Profiles (1)

Profiles (2)

Chapters:

Part 1: ++

Part 2: twilight

Part 3: new

Part 4: chaotic

Part 5: stylish

Part 6: odd front

Part 7: hi high

Part 8: so what

Part 9: uncover

Part 10: where you at

Part 11: curiosity

Part 12: perfect love

Part 13: new

Part 14: heart attack

Part 15: sweet crazy love

Part 16: colors

Part 17: one and only

Part 18: rendezvous 18.6

Part 19: ding ding dong

Part 20: puzzle

Part 21: ill be there

Part 22: egoist

Part 23: kiss later

Part 24: loonatic

Part 25: oh (yes i am)

Part 26: vivid

Part 27: around you

Part 28: sonatine

Part 29: singing in the rain

Part 30: love & live

Part 31: butterfly

Part 32: satellite

Part 33: see saw

Part 34: rosy

Part 35: one way

Part 36: my melody

Part 37: everyday i love you

Part 38: odd front

Part 39: one way

Part 40: let me in

Part 41: dal segno

Part 42: girls talk

Part 43: love & evil

Part 44: frozen

Part 45: love4eva

Part 46: starlight

Part 47: number one

Part 48: you and me together

Part 49: everyday i need you

Part 50: so curious

Part 51: rain 51db

Part 52: someday

Part 53: merry go round

Part 54: with*one

Part 55: we together

Part 56: memory

Part 57: really like you

Part 58: spaceship

Part 58.5: fiesta

Part 59: so curious

Part 60: xx

Epilogue

bonus chapters:

interlude_dream, reality

february boys talk

wedding days and surprises

[valeriesarkive]

Interlude_Dream, reality, pt. 1

✿ Sypnosis: I'm dreaming with someone I don’t know, yet I remember him when I wake up. How could that be possible? ✿ Pairing: Female reader x Jungkook ✿ Genre: Romance, fluff ✿ AU: Artsy and bohemian life ✿ Warnings: a bit of cursing ✿ Word count: 3,6k

 

 The bright sky was dimming with the entry of darkness, while the moon finally positioned itself in the middle of it. My body touches the cold sheets of my bed, approaching the warm torso of the boy who also inhabits it. His arms surround me almost as soon as our skins make contact and, sighing on the top of my head, he whispers a goodnight minutes before falling into a deep sleep. Seconds later, my eyelids slowly close because of the silence of the room.

My mind begins to wander through vague images without colors or backgrounds; one after the other before the twilight. A glowing face suddenly appears in my vision. He seemed so real. For a minute I thought that if I reached out to touch his features, it would feel as real as he looked. 

A heat flows through my body from top to the bottom and, beyond being uncomfortable, it was something as comforting as the sunlight and the breeze hitting my face after endless months of winter.

The warm wind hit my face while the rays of light embraced me equally as the boy behind my back. You could only hear the waves of the sea hitting the rocks, the birds chirping and some long distant conversations and laughs.

I would like to stay here, at this exact moment forever cuz I’ve never felt this peaceful in my entire life.

 "How about we stay here forever?" I asked, looking at him behind my shoulder.

 "You mean in this hotel room?" He answered after letting out a small laugh.

 "No, silly." I turned around to face him, without breaking the hug. “I mean living in front of the sea. What if-?” I said excitedly before stopping abruptly after averting my gaze from his.

I was afraid that what I was going to propose to him would be so crazy that he would decide to take a different path than mine. I see how his eyebrows furrow a little at my interruption. I knew he was taking his time to process my question. 

 “What if…? What were you going to say, Haewon?”

 "How about we quit our horrible jobs and come live on the beach?" I decided to finish my question after his insistence. “Imagine you and I walking on the sand while holding hands or cooking together with a view of the sea or…”

 "Yes," he cut me off before I could finish my crazy proposal.

 “What did you just say?” The surprise hit me, not fitting in my whole body, not believing his quick response, which didn't even take him a second to say yes.

 "I said yes," he laughs before planting a kiss on the top of my head.

I looked at his bunny-like teeth and his eyes shone. He had something that until today I could not fully interpret, however, with him I felt so safe and so happy that he managed to make all my misfortunes and sadness go away. They vanish just  seeing him smile. 

My eyes snap open, getting up from the bed on an impulse. It was already a routine waking up so suddenly with my heart racing like crazy and feeling shivers throughout my body, even if the blankets covered me from the wind from outside, long lines of sweat slowly ran down the sides of my face.

It felt strange to dream of him. I didn't know who he was or where I could've seen him. Maybe it was just my mind remembering ephemeral faces that I’ve seen endless times on the streets of Seoul.

I sat on the mattress, taking care not to wake up Taehyung who was already snoring. I slowly get out of bed and I walk barefoot under the usual darkness of the night of our home until I reach the secluded room that is located on the ground floor of the apartment. Tae and I specifically designated that room as our shared art studio which we could decorate to our liking.

In one click I turn up the light switch, dazzling my eyes that were already accustomed to the previous darkness. Its walls were full of poorly made strokes and brushstrokes of different colors. I let out a breathy laugh when I remembered the many times Taehyung scolded me for my careless art, which I always justify as “it’s my aesthetic.” 

I sit on the padded bench in front of the wooden table that Taehyung once helped me build. It was full of forgotten papers full of quick sketches, as well as small clay sculptures. 

I grab my sketchbook and with my left hand I draw nimbly on the white paper. The graphite of the pencil draws lines non-stop that at first were almost meaningless, but little by little they were building something that I had kept in my memories for so many nights in a row. Just minutes after finishing the hasty sketch, I noticed the detail of the diffuse face in my life.

I hold with my wet hands a bit of clay that modifies with each touch. I mold the face that I portrayed on the paper and I start sculpting his cheeks, his round nose, his big doe eyes and his thin lips, creating the face I've only seen in dreams.

As the sculpture took shape, various feelings sank deep into my heart. I felt loneliness with a strange mixture of joy or maybe it was longing and melancholy, but how?

How could I miss a stranger?

. ✧ ☁︎ ° ☽ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ .  ✧ ☁︎ ° ☽ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . 

Everything felt rare, it seemed that what I thought I was living was just a lucid dream.

Still sleepy, I move my hand over the empty space of my bed looking for Tae. I open my eyes when I don’t feel him by my side, then I cover my face with the pillow below my head and sigh. I didn't know if my exhaustion was because I was up till dawn or the accumulation of all the feelings I felt the past day drained the energy I had left. 

I get out of the comfort the bed offers me to look for Tae-Tae. I walk through the corridors of the upper floor (where only the master room could be found) and I go down the stairs that lead me to the first floor. When my boyfriend asked me to go and live with him in this huge apartment, I resided in a rented room so narrow that there was any space to walk.  

My legs led me towards the kitchen thinking that I could find him there, but I was wrong. I look around the apartment, feeling once again the void inside of me. I walk to the studio seeing him right away.  

His face was immersed in questions. As a naturally curious person, he would feel attracted to any new thing, including the head of clay of that stranger. I lean onto the door frame, glaring deeply at his reactions. His hands were holding a steaming cup of hot chocolate. Minutes passed and the man still hadn't noticed that I was looking at him. 

I've known Taehyung for seven years, we’ve been together for about five and engaged for three years. When I look back it feels like yesterday, yet at the sametime it feels like a lifetime. We met on our first day of college cuz we both studied Fine Arts at the Korea National University of Arts. When I met him, I was crushing hard on him, but never told him that until the day we got together cuz I couldn’t express my feelings properly. Naturally, he was the one who got closer to me. Since then, I always loved his passion about the things he does, as well as his enormous talent and his peculiar way of expressing when he’s around people, in such a leisurely and calm way. 

Nowadays he’s the one who inspires me to continue with my art when I want to surrender with this. He’s always been there for me. Thanks to him, I’ve had enough strength and courage to keep on doing what I love to do since I felt pressured not to fail because most of the time I found myself being forced to put aside everything I’ve done for others. 

  "What are you thinking about, Tae-Tae?" I break the silence once I approach him.

Tae is surprised to see me up at this hour, but his features quickly soften once we make eye contact.

  "Hey, I didn't see you there, honey," he gives me a warm smile as he pulls his body closer to mine to hug me. He puts one arm on my shoulder, still looking at the sculpture. 

 “Did you like it?” I glare at his expression, still immersed in questions. 

I approach the table where the finished sculpture is, looking for any imperfections due to the pressure Tae made me feel in that moment. I knew the level of detail of his work and how critical he is with the art he sees, I thought it could mean one thing. 

  "Hm?" He directs his gaze once more to my swollen face. “Nothing bad, I was thinking about how well the sculpture turned out. All the details are so meticulously done that it makes the face and expression look so real. Were you inspired by someone you saw? Because you really did a surprisingly realistic job.”

My eyes widen a little at his words. As I had already mentioned, I am a bit careless with my work so it made me feel astonished with his words. I embrace myself looking for warmth after the sudden feeling of a cold rush through my body. 

 "Do you really think so?" I ask looking at him, he says a muted yes with his head. “Well, it's actually kind of confusing, you know? Lately I’ve been dreaming with this very particular face, but I can swear that I don't know him or I’ve seen him anywhere. This was the only way to ‘catharsis’ with my dreams.”

 “You really took care of your strokes. Look,” he moves closer to the table, placing another sculpture almost the same size as the new one to one side. “The features of the new sculpture are more defined and clean, while the others are more rough and blunt, you managed to do something different from what you’re used to.”

I alternate my gaze between the sculpture and my boyfriend, obviously surprised by Tae's words because of him being such a critical person with the art he saw, I couldn't always enjoy good reviews from him. 

The man leaves the room after telling me he’s gonna prepare breakfast, following him seconds later after looking again at the sculpture of the boy of my dreams. 

. ✧ ☁︎ ° ☽ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ .  ✧ ☁︎ ° ☽ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ . ✦ ☁︎ ° ☾ .

My forehead sweats slightly at the sudden presence of Tae’s parents at our house. They were smiling innocently at us, while carrying a bottle of wine and some desserts made by his mother. Apparently, it seemed a good idea to come by surprise without any kind of short notice. 

Let’s say my reaction was not the best one and Taehyung noticed it, poking me discreetly with his elbow as a way of telling me to smile and greet them politely. He signals his parents to finally come into the house, closing the door afterwards.  

 "Honey, you haven't lost any weight, have you?" It's the first thing Tae's mother says to me when she sees me from head to toe.

 “Hello, Mrs. Kim. It is nice seeing you too,” I mutter, giving her my best smile. I bow my head as a way of greeting her before receiving the plate from her hands.

As you can see, my relationship with my mother-in-law has never been good or the one that I wished for cuz, unlike my father-in-law, she always insisted on ruining my non-existent emotional stability with her uncomfortable opinions. 

 "_____!" Unlike the lady, Mr. Kim greets me with a warm hug. “How have you been? We haven't seen you in a while," he says, patting me on the back.

 "I've been fine, what about you?" I say smiling.

 “Fine, _____, although we could be better. You know, we’re getting closer to the afterlife," he says, scratching the back of his neck.

I share a laugh with him, feeling now relaxed with his jokes. He made himself look like a very old man who can barely walk, but the truth is they both remained so young in their 60s even if some gray hairs were visible. 

 "Mother, I would have preferred if you called me informing us you were coming. We could’ve arranged something for you," Tae says, placing one of his hands on my waist.

I look at his profile, searching for a bit of peace that he offers me in moments like this. I knew Tae was just as surprised as I was, since they always let us know when they’re visiting us beforehand. I glance around, noticing that the house was not fully organized. A drop of sweat travels my tense back. 

 "Why, Taehyung? We are your parents after all. We are welcome here, right?” Mrs. Kim looks directly at me, making me understand that her last words were for me.

 “Of course you are, there is no doubt about that. Taehyung means that he would have preferred-” Tae's mom cuts me off before I can continue.

 "I, more than anyone, know what my son prefers," she says walking past me and further into the apartment. “I see you didn't have time to organize the house well, dear. Is this how they always live?” 

 "Mother," Tae warns, looking carefully at his mom. 

My insides boil while my throat hurts. I wish I could say something, but I knew that this would get me into trouble with Tae and his parents, so I rather swallow my words and continue pretending that nothing she's said so far has affected me at all.

Five years later and I still don't really understand why Tae's mom dislikes me. I had my assumptions, sure, but I would never be sure if it was just that. The first one was maybe she disliked the fact I’m older than Taehyung, something she’d already mentioned several times. Clearly making me feel uncomfortable.

Tae said nothing more than "mother" reluctantly. I knew he wouldn't dare saying anything else to stop her. I always wished for him to defend me because I felt so tired of this long term situation between us.  

 "Excuse me, I'll go fetch us some glasses for the wine," I express curtly before walking away from them.

When I reach the kitchen, I lean on the table to breathe and try to relax the tense muscles in my body. I breathe one, two, and three more times, swallowing back the tears that were about to overflow.

 “Honey, are you ok?” Tae asks behind my back.

I was so tired of pretending nothing's wrong, that his mother's words don't affect me in  any way. I was just sick of shutting up and pretending nothing ever happens.

 “You know what? I am not, Tae.” I turn around to look at him. “I'm so tired of your mom acting the same way for years, for stepping on me, for humiliating me every chance she gets. I'm exhausted from swallowing my words and carrying on as if nothing had happened. You don't know how much it hurts that you don't defend me with her, it's the least I deserve! Don't you think?” I try my best not to raise my voice and to cry, yet I failed to hold back the tears.

 “But she's still my mother, Haewon. I wouldn't be able to fight with her over something meaningless.”

 “Meaningless you say?! I'm still your fucking fiancé, Taehyung!” I cover my mouth with my hand in a failed attempt to stifle a sob.

I try to once again ignore the stinging in my throat, even if I cannot stop feeling my heart pounding hard inside my chest. I take three breaths before speaking again.

 “I'm not asking you to argue with your mom, I’m just asking you to have a little empathy with me to stop her whenever she makes me uncomfortable. You think it doesn't hurt? Of course it does and it annoys me a lot!” I ran my fingers through my hair, trying one again to calm down. 

 “_____… “ Tae tries to reach my hand, but I move it away as soon as possible.

 "Leave it, Tae," I say, walking past him. I quickly wipe the trail of tears down my cheeks.

I reach four glasses from the cupboard and, once with them in my hands I leave the kitchen walking past my boyfriend without saying anything else. I put on a small grin once I’m in the living room where my parents-in-law already settled. I take my time placing them on the coffee table while Taehyung tried opening the bottle with the corkscrew that he must’ve picked up before following me outside. I sit on one of the individual chairs when I’m done, seeing Tae pours the crimson liquid. 

I stayed silent, trying my best to hide my mixed emotions. It was evident that my body was still tense, while my attention was elsewhere beside the important conversation they were having. That was until it was drawn back by Mrs. Kim.

 “Is everything okay?” She questions, exchanging gazes with her husband and son.

 “Yes, everything’s okay,” Tae’s the only one capable of answering. 

Once her mother takes a good look at us, she gives up and opens up a new topic of conversation. I divert my attention from the discussion, not really interfering with it. The other three people in the room kept talking about how time has passed so quickly and how my boyfriend's sister's marriage is coming up.

 "When is the wedding of the two of you? Haven't set the date yet?” Tae's father asks suddenly.

My surroundings fell apart when I heard his question. The swallow I took of wine is thrown back down my throat, causing me to choke.

 “Yah, Taeyang!” His wife takes it upon herself to scold her husband. “Don't even think about bringing that topic up now…” She says, looking at Tae carefully. “It's still too early to talk about the marriage between the two of them.”

 "Early you say? They’ve been engaged for three, almost four years!” He replies while looking astonished at her. 

The silence afterwards swims between us. However, unlike them, I took it as an opportunity to breathe.

 “Okay, but…” Mrs. Kim speaks again.

 “But nothing! It's about time you’re even thinking about giving us grandsons,” Mr. Kim says, slamming his wine glass down on the middle table.

I finish my first glass of red wine and without hesitating twice, I pour myself a second. When did we go from talking about marriage to procreating children?

 "Have they talked about it yet?" Questions Mrs. Kim. Her expression distorts into one of terror as she finishes asking the question.

 “No, mother. But it's something that’ll come, isn't it, honey?” Tae turns his face to see my reaction, but I avoid his gaze.

 “I don't know, it's not something I've considered for now,” I let out my response in a weak whisper after finishing a third glass of wine.

 “What?” He questions back, feeling the hint of disappointment in his voice.

I stare at my boyfriend in a null attempt to challenge him. “No, Taehuyng, I haven't thought about having a child and I don't even know if I’d like to!” 

The four of us stayed in a silence that made me understand that no one, apart from Mrs. Kim, was expecting my answer. Having children has never been a topic that has crossed between us and I was satisfied with it because I have never been interested in procreating. However, now I see that Tae doesn't think the same as me.

 "It's getting late and I'm kinda tired. If you'll excuse me, I'll go to sleep,” I respond once I get up from the chair. I say a silent goodbye with a 90° bow before leaving the living room.

Once again, I feel my heart pounding inside my chest with the obvious trembling in my hands, so I try to focus on taking deep breaths all the way into the room. Once there, my body reaches the bed by inertia, the softness of the sheets caresses the skin of my now naked legs. I hug them so tight looking for a loophole of tranquility in that moment of so much self-intimacy.

I look at the window with its curtains that remained open, allowing me to see the infinity of street lights still on. How many people are outside their homes? Among them, how many people will it be him? In the comfort of the silence that my room offers me, I think of that boy who crosses now and then my dreams. I remember his features and his pretty eyes. I cherish the feeling of warmth that hug gave me to erase the stinging that still persisted in my throat. 

Burning, existing.

I cling to it, even knowing its null existence in my life. Who was he and why would I dream with that boy?

It hurt, in a certain way, to remember that dream because the feeling of emptiness I felt running through my veins in the morning was once again present. My heart burned.

I spend seconds, maybe minutes in complete silence reliving that dream over and over again, wanting more.

Wishing that I could see him again.

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OMG! I finally finished Interlude. I'm so happy it's finally seeing the light hahaha. It took me longer than I thought but I'm a perfectionist, so it had to be perfect.

I hope you enjoy reading this and, as you can see at the beginning, it is the first part of this series.

Before I leave, I want to thank @noshametempo for helping me always to edit all of my writings. I don't know how would I do it without u, girl.

Pls give love to it, leave a comment, a heart or share it with your friends. It'll help me out reaching for more people. Thank u and love u all♡

[daechwitas]

-- lean on me & rest sometimes; a playlist (click here)

suga’s interlude

everythingoes

blueside (outro)

song request

epilogue: young forever

mikrokosmos

tokyo

so far away

epiphany

forever rain

the last

tonight

winter bear

promise

moonchild

magic shop

2!3

scenery

sea

interlude_dream, reality

trivia: seesaw

jamais vu

[ggukieblog]

yoongi mint hair icons

don’t repost, please 🥺

like if u save 🥰

[kimtaegis]

they really put mama 2018 snippets inbetween interlude shadow and interlude_dream reality and said ✨suffer✨

[meowxyoong]

Wings x Interlude_dream, Reality

"I don't wanna be alone."

Warnings: Mention of death

This is my submission for this month's challenge from the @kgfxnet ! I was challenged to create something surrounding the "Wings" album and I immediately thought of using the short films and create my own. The dialogue is from Donnie Darko and I thought it would be interesting to mix with a song from one of the boys. Hope you like it!