#internet diary

[lanasssgirl]

— you hate the heat, you got the blues, changing like the weather, oh, that's so like you 🌊⛵️🦋

[oystertongue]

[bibiville]

me after a long hard day of doing nothing

[epithalamia]

July 30, 2009 - 蓼科温泉到着

A quiet place in the mountains. There is a river flowing in front of the house, The murmur of the river is pleasant.

[xpc-web-dev]

Daily Journey : Day 1

This tumblr started with me just wanting to share my coding journey in November of last year.

No pressure of wanting likes, followers or anything like that. Just share in a safe place.

And I understand that now that has changed. Now I worry about the reach of my posts, I worry about people thinking I'm a failure and that I won't get things and likes.

And all this is useless in my life. I don't have to show anyone anything and I don't need to be liked, etc.

And I don't want that for myself.

So I thought about keeping my diary about this stage in my personal life private, as I already do with my emotions/days normally.

But I also think it might be cool to have that record here.

So, for now I'm here and overcoming my desire to start a tumblr from scratch (I always start something from scratch when I want to feel free). Now this idea is not so cool in my head. But I love seeing my old posts that I was thinking about giving up and now I'm in a better place.

Anyway:

Notes on the first day.

In general, I was very anxious, insecure because I don't know how to socialize with strangers who don't know what they're going to ask me. I need to know what is going to be said or know the subject to feel good. But it was nice and fun, they made it friendly.

We introduce ourselves in a fun way to get to know each other.

We learned more about project delivery and the like.

We had a 30m class where we talked about web introduction. Like mozilla, url, domain etc.

+++ I know that on tumblr the post photo dynamic is different, but I want to keep it standard. So I will follow my rules, because this is my account.

If you are reading this post, I wish you to be well, have discipline and consistency to achieve your goals.

Update notes:

As they leave the classes recorded, I went to watch it now and found a lot of doubts.

1. I paid attention on the recording (I don't pay attention live, maybe this will improve and maybe not)

2. I wrote down the questions

3. I researched each one and left some to ask in class because they want us to do this.

And now I'm feeling productive.

I didn't let it pile up, I did what had to be done and I'm ready for tonight's class.

I think I'll set the default of my posts for after rewatching the classes.

Have a great night, afternoon or morning.

[rinalovexo]

🎼start of my internet diary !!

[b0rderlinecompulsivenervosa]

[sewurvl]

sun 19 nov 2023,

everyone says it will help me, but i cannot seem to comprehend how losing all my independence will help me in any way. i am not allowed to close my bedroom door, nor my bathroom door. i am not allowed to have anything sharp like scissors in my room, as if i was a baby again. i am not allowed to eat on my own, and i almost can’t go out on my own.

but all of this is bullshit.

i don’t even harm myself with scissors or a cutter and i can buy whatever i want to do so anyway. i can stop eating when they’re not looking. i will not leave my door open because i’m not a baby.

all of this just makes me feel like i’m not even a person. all of a sudden i’m not the independent and mature person everyone thought i was.

all of this will just make me more sneaky, and help me find more ways to keep doing what i want.

because i do not want to recover. because things will not be better, even if i try hard. because i won’t be here for much longer. because it is a fight with myself that i’m not trying to win.

[lovelisara]

— 10 january 2024

today i had my four hour long cinematography class. it was awful, i forgot my lunch, and forgot my keys as i was leaving. our instructor spent so much time talking i was getting sick. the only highlight was a guy from my scriptwriting class recognizing me and asking if i wanted to be in his group with his friend. i’ll see him again tomorrow. always love making new friends!

3 things i’m grateful for:

friends.

books.

my water bottle.

— love, lisa.

[ex-cla-ma-tion]

still pissed that in 2018 ESPN refused to air the WFTDA champs in 2018 because they were uncomfortable with saying "Bicepsual" (a derby name) on air.

doesn't help that at the same time they were on "high alert" because their little Barstool show had been ripped off air for its misogyny and their sexist fans were upset about it.

imagine refusing to air a woman-dominated sport because of unnecessary censorship and a sexist fanbase. fucking crazy.

check out the link for the full WFTDA response to ESPN's disgrace.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

Well, this day has not been the best, to be honest; I slept a lot and had a lot of work to do and couldn’t do it all. Tomorrow I'll be better, I promise..

Journal Entry 2020

[lanasssgirl]

— driving in a mercury down to wayamaya 🐚☀️

[oystertongue]

[utterlassitude]

[Oct. 5th, 2023]

Shopping/thrifting today!

// Went out to some stores today. The weather was beautiful, not too warm not too cold and a bit sunny. I looked through the art at the thrift store and found a small painting I liked. It has a white mark on it to the right so I was thinking I might do some of my own painting on top and add a ghost there. I also looked through the home goods section and found a lovely little wall hanger for my mother to use. Last thing from the thrift store was a blue and black sweater I liked. It’s a thinner sweater so maybe I’ll get to wear it soon since it hasn’t gotten too cold!

At the other store I went to I looked through the toy section for a few moments and saw the Monster High Dolls. I used to love playing Monster High Dolls with my friends when I was a little girl. They were some of my favorite dolls I thought they were so cute and fun. I still think they are cute and fun and I miss being a little girl.

[gayblogger2002]

So . . . I found that piece in one of my diaries from 2022 lol, is kinda acid to read but i think you guys will enjoy 📖 :

25 setember 2022 - Sunday

" I tried to fit in between the straight boys in the elementary school, all the soccer and videogames bullshit, I tried to fit in between the gay boys in the high school, all the dirty secrets and family's fathers they were hooking up, when i came in my early 20s i dropped everyone and started to slowly living my sweet and blue life, reading used books i bought in the molded but comfortable thrift store next to the theater,

using dead boys clothes i bought in a second hand store next to the city ​​meat market , i still remember the first time i came there and found a cute Ferrari shirt, it was my favorite piece that day, i stopped buying in Renner and Riachuelo because the clothes were expensive and i looked like a stupid fa660t trying to look fashion, i stopped to post on Instagram, blocked all the boring and smiley influencers and started to only use Tumblr and Tik Tok,

i know i'll be a boring adult and probably never got a boyfriend but someday i believe my prince will come riding a Harley Davidson wearing a black matte helmet, anyway, just another day living through my way "

[bibiville]

I went to a music festival yesterday and the guy in front of us was so fucking hot, he was head banging the whole time and his whole energy made me rethink my taste in guys. manifesting myself my own head banger guy 🤞