#irrationalfears

[liberalsarecool]

MAGA is not based in reality. #IrrationalFear

[beautifulsole818]

Lees who can fall asleep with their bare feet outside of a blanket, you’re braver than me 😫 #noway #notevenwhenimhomealone #irrationalfear

[csolarstormhealthjournal]

I should have gotten OCD treatment in 1999. But I didn't, because I didn't ask for help, and otherwise my parents weren't looking. I had a reputation for being "overdramatic". Trying to medicalize everything. I asked for a psychiatrist when I was really little because I was scared of spiders. In retrospect, that's pretty familiar to how other people with OCD on /ocd Reddit can be.

My parents didn't really believe in therapy, and got caught up in the "antidepressants are turning everyone into zombies" movement, which is ironic since one of them depended on a therapist their whole teenage life.

I'm talking about this because whenever I'm really dealing with disassociation from triggers, I go back and I add a little bit to this study "timeline" where I use memories of shows I watched and connect them to memories I had of the ocd to see if I can sort of chart the trajectory of it. This has been really rewarding, and helped me reach a sort of clarity about what happened.

First I researched Digimon premieres, and then mapped that compared to when my parents took me out of homeschooling. From this, I gathered I left in 1999, right before the show started. As the show went on, it's pretty obvious Digimon fueled my religious OCD and gave me some vocabulary for my invasive thoughts. I mean, they literally fought the devil. And then nine other variations of other devils. I learned about Revelations from Digimon.

This is not to say Digimon "caused" it. Religion is just an outlet. Being lonely and full of anxiety is what caused it. But also maybe it's good for kids to have cartoons that aren't thinly veiled Christian power ballads? I'm kinda envious that I didn't have Steven Universe and the Owl House when I was a kid.

The other day though I tried mapping another series onto the timeline: Animorphs, because that's something I was reading at the same time my OCD started. That was the first book series I really got into, and I loved it. However, if you're familiar with it, it is a very intense series about war, trauma, and also paranoia fuel. The alien invaders in the series are Yeerks - a race of slugs that can crawl into people's ears and control them unbeknownst to everyone else. It turns out, people with OCD are pretty sensitive to a concept like slugs crawling in your ear and taking control of your body. Shocking, right? So I searched "Animorphs OCD" and I found this.

This guy actually WAS diagnosed with OCD in 1999. And to my discomfort...he did a lot of the same stuff I did. You know, like closing his earlobe when he sleeps...exactly like I did...do...did.

He slept without a blanket so it would be easier to escape if there was a fire. Rather than sleep without a blanket, I always parked my wheelchair in just the right way, every night, to make sure my parents could reach me if there was a fire and they had to carry me out of the house. I kept pencils away from my nightstand in case I'd accidentally stab myself in my sleep. I didn't wear necklaces to bed, oh no, strangulation risk. And of course, I checked for spiders every night, including in my pillowcase. I warned them that I was scared of spiders!

(Thankfully I'm better with them now. At least during the day, then I can appreciate their beauty. At night...that's an issue.)

They never put two and two together, and if they did, I'm not even sure what would have happened. I might have purposefully convinced them I was okay. I was too embarrassed about what I was experiencing to ask for help, and when I did, I was too vague about it for them to push further, and they were very hands-off parents about that kind of stuff anyway. Wanted me to develop on my own and so on.

So um, if anyone's reading this and has OCD but you don't think it's worth a diagnosis or you're too embarrassed to tell someone...I mean, do that, please. If you wait it can get more complex and harder to treat - not in every case though, but don't risk it. I mostly got past my religious ocd and now I have a more science themed variant of the same ideas, just using psychology and fiction to make me feel threatened about tricks trying to control me. And that's harder, more unique than what I had originally. So try and see a therapist sooner than later. Or if you're not up for that, just try a forum. Something. Thanks.

[roquesox]

i don't know who needs to here this, but just know that the way you feel is valid.

even if you feel overwhelmed by nothing but anxiety and know it's not an outer thing bothering you, the way you feel is valid. . .and don't let anyone tell you it's not!

[dave0dd]

"Ir(Rational) Fears" OUT NOW! ON SPOTIFY, APPLE MUSIC, YOUTUBE AND EVERYWHERE ELSE!!! So sorry for letting my tumblr get dusty y'all. Have been so much more active on insta. Hope you'll listen and tell me what ya think!!! 😭💙💙💙💙💙

[lois201891]

I have a huge! Fear of the dentist and after avoiding it for fat to long I finally went 😁 It want near as bad as what I had assumed it would be. #dentist #terrified #scaredofdentist #irrationalfears #biggirlpanties #notthatbad #gladiwent https://www.instagram.com/p/CCHC9KXD1MsD7diBBPaUCd69sLi1kLAltAAaMw0/?igshid=1laslmqcpe1a0

[blayxe]

I will never forget about that time i was 5 or 6 and i remember a horror film was on tv where a ginger possesed doll was electrocuting a man and there was a little boy screaming at the doll to stop.... Thus sprouted my fear of horror films ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

[growninhaiti]

Making new friends on this beautiful morning. Fun Fact: 99% of Haitians have an irrational fear of frogs. If you ever want to see a grown man jump and scream, this is the key 🐸😅 ・・・ #growninhaiti #frog #amphibian #biodiversity #gardenfriends #garden #haiti #ayiti #irrationalfears #scareahaitian #halloween #foodforest #agroforestry https://www.instagram.com/p/B3PKs_kl-8c/?igshid=14dom7hw0w9v

[thecpdiary]

Irrational fears & SPD

Having Sensory Processing Disorder (“SPD”) means I deal with anxiety and fear, fear that can sometimes be irrational, particularly when it comes to illness.

That doesn’t mean I’m irrational it just means my fears are. It’s important we’re given as much time as we need to work through our fears. Anxiety caused by fears seep into our everyday lives.

When it comes to anxiety, it’s important parents recognise the importance of figuring out triggers and why certain issues become triggers. Each child will have different triggers, but it is important they have coping strategies.

Not knowing I had Autism (Asperger’s) as a child, meant I continued to struggle mentally and emotionally, and coupled with bad thoughts, my anxiety and fear was continual. With SPD we need to be prepared for all eventualities.

Having that just knowing feel is soothing and reassuring, fear when not knowing at all. Not knowing increases the severity of a reaction. Children must be ready to anticipate each issue as it presents. With SPD it’s easy for us to get caught out.

Because I have SPD, new circumstances increase my anxiety and that creates irrational fears: irrational fears where I simply fail to cope.

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[etportantlaviecontinue]

Recently I remembered something from my childhood...

We were talking about TV shows we watched as a kid at lunch. We them moved on to talking about irrational fears we have, washing machines, pancakes, the koolaid man, you know, the usual stuff. Then I remembered that when I was six, my parents told me about what communism was. I then watched Lazytown and realized it was a communist government. My mom turned it on. I was to scared to watch, she asked why, and I responded with, “Lazytown is a Communist agenda. I will not support that. I’m no commie, mommy.”

[brehliemaryann-blog1]

Recovery Thoughts: Day 312 of 362

The fact that a year ago I was afraid of avocado makes we want to both laugh and cry and the same time.

[harriscountypl]

[ianscott360]

Friday The 13th 2019. #fridaythe13th #friday13th #fridaythethirteenth #bst #britishstandardtime #superstition #superstisions #irrationalfears #irrationalfear #fearoffridaythe13th #triskaidekaphobia #τρεισκαίδεκα https://www.instagram.com/p/B2WfndiB6aB/?igshid=4f152s3qk1q7

[newwaveswimbuoy]

Credit to @kellyoutdoors : It’s pretty funny how I can swim miles in the sound at night, but after 20 minutes of swimming in Lake Oconee I was pretty convinced I was being followed by water moccasins and alligators. In my defense I have been chased by both. posted on Instagram - http://bit.ly/2OWGovO

[jrm-poetofficklehearts]

Irrational fear #fears #anxiety #irrational #irrationalfears #writingcommunity #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #jrmwrites #writing #thoughts #words #observation #writinginspiration #donotletfearin #conqueryourfears https://www.instagram.com/p/BtIvBvxFKf8/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zvyzrdic9yoe

[emilyjleyland]

The winning team! I faced all my irrational sports day fears and ended up having a blast! #4N #4networking #networking #sportsday #irrationalfears #charity #charityevent #sportsevent #sisters #business #fpr #fresh #FreshPerspective #mcr #manchester #manchesterfund #welovemanchester #welovemanchesterfund (at Hough End Leisure Centre)