#isnt everyones second or third either

[piratefishmama]

I beg of you, start a new paragraph when someone new starts talking.

It makes anyones writing far easier to follow.

[claitea]

just one of those nights again (thought about n so hard i started Physically feeling sad like theres a weight on my chest)

[tgcg]

bad mouther, hole master

TG: kissing with tongue is gross as hell

CG: COME THE FUCK OFF IT.

TG: what

CG: I'M SAYING SHUT UP.

TG: oh

CG: IT'S NOT THAT WEIRD. IT'S LIKE THE NATURAL PROGRESSION OF REGULAR KISSING TO EVENTUALLY INCLUDE THAT. IF YOU HAD ANY SEMBLANCE OF ROMANCE GHOSTING THROUGH THE DEVOLVING REMNANTS OF YOUR THINKPAN YOU'D APPRECIATE WHAT IT BRINGS TO THE NUTRITION PLATFORM OF ANY CONSENTING CONCUPISCENT RELATIONSHIP!

TG: youre talking about it like its a goddamn military weapon or some shit

TG: some kinda scientific fuckin method to fondle a dudes mouth with your own mouth thats

TG: thats gross

TG: this isnt supposed to be a debate before fuckin congress on the pros and cons of getting your mack on

TG: its i would say a reasonably personal thing to react about and thats just my reaction man you dont gotta arbitrate it

TG: and like why the hell do they have to linger on it so long in these movies do they really want me to immerse myself in people necking each other that much

TG: roll the sounds around in my earholes like im swilling a fine fuckin wine

TG: well my professional opinion is that shit tastes and sounds mad gross and tbh i havent seen a single movie where it was close to being any kind of necessary

TG: its just a cringy waste of everyones time

CG: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, AND I DISAGREE WITH EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT OF YOUR IGNORANCE GASH, YOU LUMP OF TIGHT-LIPPED CLUELESSNESS.

TG: did you just homestar me

CG: FOR THE SAKE OF ARGUMENT, SINCE YOU'RE APPARENTLY DESPERATE TO START SHIT WITH ME RIGHT NOW: HAVE YOU EVER EVEN DONE IT?

TG: hell no

CG: THANK YOU FOR PROVING MY POINT.

TG: proving your point--

TG: bro have uh

TG: have YOU???

CG: EXCUSE ME? HAVE I WHAT?

TG: come on

TG: i walked into this stupid conversation with a fucking shovel and by god am i digging myself a damn hole big and wide enough for every dave across time to squeeze in so i might as well get cosy in this shit before we all start collectively shoving dirt in our mouths

TG: bet your ass im taking you down with me though

TG: grab your spade and get digging man

CG: GRAB MY WHAT????????

TG: just tell me

CG: ???????!!!!!!!!

TG: karkat

CG: NO!

TG: f-

CG: WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!!!!! WHAT PART OF "SHUT UP" DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND????

TG: wait no

TG: oh my god dude

TG: you can spin that shit all you want but you can do it the hell away from me

TG: i do not need to be hip to your weirdo foursquare fantasies

TG: patently not my business

CG: STOP RIGHT THERE. JUST SHUT IT. I AM PUTTING US OUT OF OUR MISERY RIGHT NOW. I AM CONDUCTING AN ACT OF MERCY ON THIS INSANE FUCKING CONVERSATION AND YOU ARE GOING TO ZIP YOUR LIPS AND TAKE IT.

CG: HERE IT IS: YOUR SINGLE OPPORTUNITY TO PRETEND YOU NEVER SAID THAT TO ME. I AM GOING TO FORGET YOU MADE A COMPLETE MOCKERY OF ME AND MY CULTURE THIS ONE TIME. AND LET YOU CONTINUE TO DIG YOUR STUPID, SHITTY HOLE.

CG: AND DAVE, I AM BEGGING YOU NOT TO WASTE IT.

CG: TO ANSWER YOUR SHOCKINGLY INAPPROPRIATE QUESTION, NO I HAVE NOT DONE IT.

CG: WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK.

CG: HAPPY?

TG: ……..

TG: way to defuse the situation solid work

TG: real gold star effort grabbin that lit wick and blowing on it

TG: ok first of all you asked me first so dont act like im the one being a weirdo about this

TG: second of all i didnt mean it like that and you know it

TG: THIRD of all what the hell was the point of engaging the knightly theatrics then if you cant even verify that shit

CG: WELL FUCK, SORRY DAVE! I GUESS I'M JUST A FUCKING ROMANCE ENTHUSIAST! I GUESS I GIVE A MAJOR SHIT ABOUT THE THING YOU'RE OPENLY MOCKING TO MY FACE! IS THAT SO IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO WRAP YOUR THOUGHT SPONGE AROUND?

CG: AND IT WAS COMPLETELY REASONABLE FOR ME TO ASK YOU THAT, YOU CONGEALED FETID NOOKSTAIN! MY STATUS ON THE MATTER HAS LITERALLY NOTHING TO DO WITH THE POINT EITHER OF US IS TRYING TO MAKE.

CG: TRY TO KEEP YOUR NUGBONE FROM CAVING IN ON ITSELF WHEN I DROP THIS BOMBSHELL: I'M ALLOWED TO HAVE OPINIONS ON THINGS I ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT, EVEN IF I HAVEN'T DONE THEM! I DON'T JUST GO TROUNCING THE FUCK ABOUT LOBBING MY UNFOUNDED OPINIONS AT PEOPLE LIKE I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ANYTHING. UNLIKE SOMEONE WHO MAY OR MAY NOT BE INVOLVED IN THIS CONVERSATION WE'RE HAVING RIGHT NOW!

TG: youre

CG: I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU BY THE WAY. THE SOMEONE IS YOU.

TG: oh gimme a break

TG: bro youre going apeshit over something you havent even done

TG: you know what that sounds like to me it sounds like an overcompensating fake fan who doesnt get any

TG: you heard of troll napoleon complex

CG: AT LEAST I ACTUALLY FORMED MY OPINION BASED ON CAREFUL CONSIDERATION --

TG: -- oh yeah i bet huh

CG: -- INSTEAD OF JUST BANKING ON NUBJERK --

TG: -- not a real thing you just said

CG: -- REACTIONS AND WRINKLING MY SNIFF NUB AT ANY SIGNS OF GENUINE PHYSICAL INTIMACY!

TG: stop saying nub

CG: YOU EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED BULGEWAD

TG: not too much worse than being a perpetual fountain of emotional diarrhea

CG: DON'T YOU DARE.

CG: DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO USE THAT AS A "GOTCHA", YOU--… YOU! FUCK!

TG: dude did you actually run out of insults

TG: okay this is getting concerning

TG: youre the international dude of verbal dunks

TG: that can not be happening

CG: AAGHRJRGHJRGRHJAGHRJGRHJAGRHJRGRHJRGRHRJR

TG: you cant run out of em youre like the ultimate peddler of hate

CG: YOU DON'T THINK I'M CRITICALLY AWARE OF THE HOOFBEASTSHIT I'M SPEWING NIGH FUCKING CONSTANTLY?! I AM PAINFULLY COGNIZANT OF HOW MORONIC EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS!!!!

TG: feel like ive done some damage here

CG: ESPECIALLY MYSELF!

TG: alright bud time to calm down

CG: YOU CALM DOWN!!!!

TG: okay whatever!

CG: WHATEVER!!!!!!!!

TG: jeez

…

TG: here

…

CG: UGH.

TG: yeah

TG: really glad stuff like this happens in private

CG: YEAH. SAME HERE.

CG: JEGUS, CAN WE GO BACK TO BEFORE WE HAD THIS CONVERSATION? I DON'T ASK YOU MANY FAVORS, SO SURELY YOUR SLURRY OF ILL-DEFINED TIME POWERS CAN ALLOW YOU TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

CG: JUST LIKE, WIPE THAT WHOLE THING OFF THE SLATE.

CG: LET'S START OVER. SAY, FIVE MINUTES AGO. HOW DOES THAT SOUND?

TG: what conversation?

CG: OKAY, GOTCHA.

[kitthefoxkin]

tw// discussion of genitals, zoophilia, harassment, transphobia, and sexual topics

has anyone else seen the controversy over species affirming packers? its been all over my feed and i have a lot of thoughts about it. the person that originally made them is actually my mutual on tiktok (where this whole thing originated) and i honestly think its not that big of a deal 😭

for context, a user named cyrusbarks on tiktok asked if anyone was interested in him making species affirming packers for alterhumans. a bunch of people were, so he made them and posted about it. they're sewn by hand with fabric and stuffing. they're not excessively detailed. since then, a LOT of people have been accusing him of being a zoophile and a predator because of this, which is insane to me.

first of all, packing isnt sexual and never has been. the only reason people think it's sexual is because it's genital related, which is just not correct. genitals arent sexual, and wanting species affirming gear isn't either. its no different from human packers made for trans folks already. but for some reason, people think that this specifically has sexual intent, despite not being usable in any sexual context.

second, a BUNCH of people have been misgendering him. Cyrus uses he/him and bark/barks pronouns and everyone ive seen talking about it has referred to him as They or She, both of which are misgendering. one person i was talking to literally said that he deserved to be misgendered. their exact words were "if someone's being odd... they don't deserve respect". i don't think i have to explain why this is an absurd thing to say.

third, people have been coming at ME for defending him, coming to my tiktok page calling me a zoophile. this is not only incorrect, but so, so hurtful. i love my pets so much, and being accused of being attracted to them is absolutely disgusting. my cat has gotten me through the worst times in my life, and people are implying that im abusing them because of my opinions on a stupid online controversy. its absurd.

my first mistake was expecting maturity and nuance on tiktok, i think. if you have any differing opinions or viewpoints, please please message or comment!!! i do genuinely want to discuss this topic and understand other people's viewpoints, as i feel very strongly about this. please just be respectful-- if you're just going to insult me, im not going to engage in conversation.

thank you for reading friends!

[solariex]

Animation Vs Addiction: how this could go REALLY well, or REALLY horribly

a ramble on the upcoming episode

PLEASE NOTE: i am not an expert on addictions, nor storytelling or writing, these are just my thoughts! you are free to your own opinion, take what you want, leave what you don't. also note, im writing this at midnight, excuse any typos or anything of the like.

so, to put it bluntly, i feel as if everyone is worried for how this episode is going to go, and that concern is rightfully valid !! topics like this, if not handled with the care they ensue, can go really horribly, and considering a majority of Alan's youtube fanbase is primarily children, this could leave either a positive or bad impression to them.

with things like these, there's the fine balance of "informative" and entertainment. arguably, steering too much one way or another could result in this not doing too well, in terms of the takeaway. id even like to argue that this steering too much towards informative could even be bad. lets start with that first.

WHY IS LEANING MORE ONE WAY THAN THE OTHER BAD?:

TOO ENTERTAINING: this one is the more "obvious" of how this could be bad, if the video is more in favor of being entertaining, the main takeaway wont be anything actually sustainable, blue's addiction will continue to be a running gag, and the younger audience will see it as a silly thing. this is one of the worst case scenarios

TOO IMFORMATIVE: now, you may be wondering, "why is being too informative bad ??", and it all boils down to what the audience's takeaway will be, after the video. being informative ISNT bad, but with how alan's channel is set up thus far, with storytelling animations, if its, lets say just facts on a screen, the information will be useful !! but you'll leave the video just thinking "wow, i just know facts". you won't leave with anything to make you think, or any actual connection, because the information was handed to you on a silver platter, you wont reflect on an actual story of why addiction is bad, to give you that perspective to think about. you'd just have the top 10 reasons you see when you google "why is addiction harmful??" our brains learn by doing, and experiences, even others, even in storytelling, make you empathize and connect with the character, and arguably, can be more effective than being told facts straight up. this is a reason why myths and fairytales exist, to teach a lesson without spoon feeding it.

SO, IF TOO ENTERTAINING, AND TOO INFORMATIVE IS BAD, WHATS THE BALANCE ??:

like i mentioned near the end of "too informative", the animation, for it to work well, needs to give a perspective, not facts

perspective will make the audience THINK, therefore learn, "oh, THIS is bad", showing rather than telling will help the audience make their own conclusions instead of spoon feeding it to them, which is what most of alan's channel has done with storytelling anyways.

arguably, green's influencer arc can be a decent example of this

it didn't tell you, "be careful of social media addiction" rather it showed the slow progression of green, being influenced, and how it slowly tore him apart from his friends and eventually started messing with his own wellbeing and how he ended up isolating himself, in order to prioritize content

i wouldn't say it perfectly fits the balance between informative & educational, as of how it ended with the third episode, but it definitely struck close in my opinion, at least for the second episode.

and thus, your takeaway from that is, "wow, that sucks for green, this is because he got addicted to social media !!" rather than just being told that. you got to learn alongside green as to the actual effects that can have.

ASIDE FROM THAT, WHAT ARE OTHER CONCERNS ABOUT HOW THIS COULD BE HANDLED ??

my other main concern is how its been treated in the past with the jokes, and how that might affect this upcoming video. can they turn around and turn it into a serious thing? absolutely that's possible, and there's no telling that netherwarts will even be involved in this video, it could be something entirely different, as this community post explains, blue is arguably prone to addiction in other ways than just netherwart, so it wouldn't be completely unordinary if it wasn't involved here.

HOWEVER, in my personal opinion, netherwarts or not, i do feel like however this video may go, if it resolves with blue overcoming addiction (as it most likely will), i do have the concern that blue would have this arc, and then the channel would go right back to including the netherwart addiction gag as a joke, as if the video didn't happen. does this mean i think blue shouldn't touch netherwarts after this? no, but i do feel as if there should be SOME difference in their intake of them after this, or else its just an arc for blue's character, that repeats as if it didn't happen, just for gags.

SO, HOW COULD THIS GO WELL, AFTER EXPLAINING ALL THE "WHAT-IFS" ??

if done right, this video could go well, and spread awareness, alongside expanding on blue's character. i think its great that Alan and his team are willing to tackle topics like this, and they have shown that they're able to do so, similar to green's influencer arc. i am hesitant on how it will be handled, but not in a way as to where i doubt the team's ability to portray this, moreso just due to how delicate a topic like this can be

but, overall, if they balance entertainment & education, and really implement this into blue's character instead of returning to a full force gag afterwards, i feel like it could be a good video :)) once again, these are my thoughts, my opinions, your free to your own & free to disagree with my points and ideas take what you want from this, leave what you dont !! :))

[vaguesxrrow]

charles rowland relationship hcs

a/n: i dont know if ghosts can change their outfits but i choose to believe so bc wouldnt we all like to see him dressed up ? also i wrote this so quickly, the dbd brainrot is REAL

tags: gender neutral reader

what being in a relationship with charles rowland would be like...

- charles will greet you with a bouquet of your favourite flowers plus some other species with specific meanings (he consulted niko on that!) on a first date

- if he plucked them from someone's garden or 'borrowed' them from a flower shop thennn it's for a good cause so...

- on a second or third or more, he'll show up with a mixtape he made for you - it definitely worked on girls back in the 80s AND present day

- he always has amazing style but you bet he made an extra extra effort to look nice for you !

- if you're arranging future dates he'll secretly want to coordinate outfits bc he thinks it's super cute

- when suggesting it he'll be kind of shy

- "y'know, it'd be brill if we tried to, like, wear similar things to match..."

- will kiss you when you agree

- if you wear jewelry he'll get you lots

- oh and matching jewelry for the two of you ofc

- him grabbing your hand and spinning you into a kiss

- charles is a nickname kinda guyy .. probably not 'baby' or anything but something original he came up with himself (bc he's so proud of the dead boy detectives name)

- likes it when you call him handsome or pretty boy

- when you kiss he'll hold your face gently

- likes when you pull him in by his clothes

- heat of the moment kisses give him the most thrill, like after an investigation nearly gone wrong

- when you're walking together he'll have an arm over your shoulder or around your waist

- when cuddling: prefers being the big spoon but if you wanna kind of just sprawl over each other he doesnt mind that either

- he'll scratch your scalp or massage you or something to help you fall asleep

- he himself doesnt need sleep but he'll lay down next to you and close his eyes so it isnt weird that you have someone staring at you while you try to fall asleep

- but once you're asleep he's obviously gonna admire you because this boy thinks you're drop dead gorgeous (no pun intended)

- top love language is quality time but obviously he's gonna be expressing his love for you in any way he can

- on special occasions like birthdays or anniversaries he'll make a heartfelt speech and give you a thoughtful gift

- you're guaranteed to like any and all gifts he gives you

- charles frequently consults the others on if they think you'll like something

- edwin: YES charles, for the millionth time i am SURE they will appreciate the gift

- charles: yeah, BUT do you think this will be better-

- when gift-obtaining, he does it on impulse and THEN goes to ask the rest of the crew but he knows you very well so obviously everyone knows you'll like it

- anything you give him he will treasure forever and keep in a box

[non-plutonian-druid]

[ID: Several sets of drawings from the TUA Paranatural au, drawn in a style resembling Paranatural's.

The first are two drawings ofLila as an adult; one in casual clothes and short partially bleached hair from season one; and the other in a commission-style suit with two long braids.

The second is a very sketchy comic. Klaus asks, "You're MARRIED??? To a WOMAN?" and then continues, "Wait Five, are you straight??" Five, looking disgruntled, replies, "Oh my fucking god Klaus." Later, Five lies on the floor and googles "Are you still straight if your wife is a centipede."

The third is a pair of drawings of the Handler harassing Five; the first ten years before the second. In the first, Five is a teenager and the Handler has long hair and is wearing a suit. She is pinching his cheek. In the second, Five is an adult and the Handler now has short hair and is wearing a gown. She is booping his nose.

The last is a set of drawings of @sharkneto's oc's from his series Holding It Together; Sarah, Amanda, and Rob. Sarah is checking her phone, Amanda is holding a piece of chalk, and Rob looks spooked and is saying "...Ghosts?" End ID.]

i call this the Paranatural Au: Dubiously Canonical Edition

aka over the course of drawing this au ive accumulated stuff that isnt super canonical, or is out of date, or is just. too dumb. to really post on its own, so i decided to toss them all together in one go!

the ID is long so the context is going under the cut

the adult lila designs are from when i wasn't sure what exactly i was going to do with her, whether she would be a kid or an adult. Now that i've decided she's twelve like most of the rest of the cast, this design is noncanonical but i do still think it was fun!

five being harassed by the handler isnt *precisely* noncanonical, but in the absence of the crazy assassin skills/wanting to kill her combo, she probably wouldn't be as fixated on him. Like, thats not a hyper successful assassin she can match wits with, thats a teenager. who gives a shit about teenagers.

The idea behind her outfits is that ten years ago the handler wasn't as high up so she had to wear a suit jacket like everyone else, but now that shes been promoted a few times she can wear whatever she wants.

the comic is a really stupid idea i had the other day that i decided to make into reality because i have infinite power to make any image i want. it's really dumb tho. also ftr my five is always aroace, but if he weren't aroace then being attracted to a sapient centipede monster with no human features is. Not straight. its not gay or bi tho either it's.... Something Else Other Than That.

also, i drew sharkneto's ocs because, once again, i have infinite power to make any image a reality. i havent decided yet if theyre canon, but if they are, then amanda teaches physics (i guess this is a middle school? so actually shes probably just a general science teacher lmao. but her year focuses on physics), sarah is a professor at a nearby college, and rob is the school counselor. (sorry guys yall are demoted, but its just because this is effectively a middle school au). also, none of them can see ghosts but are aware they exist, although i did kick around the idea of one of them developing that ability later (not rob). unless sharkneto has notes about all that lol

[stardustedseas]

wintersentry x reader where you three take turns reading a book out loud to each other, like a couple pages per person before switching.

wintersentry x reader where you and bob try showing bucky different video games and he acts all disinterested but then completely crushes you both first try and youre left sitting there like the pikachu meme while bucky says that was fun and walks away to make lunch like nothing happned

wintersentry x reader where you and bucky softly bully bob for being a florida man before you and bob turn around to tease bucky for being an old man, ofc after which bob and bucky gotta gang up on you about something too lmao (yelena gets both you and bobs asses about having daddy issues whenever she catches you two simping for bucky, you two are watching him make breakfast with barely controlled lust and yelena just skins you both alive with a comment lmfaooooo)

wintersentry x reader where date nights one again include regebaiting walker and watching crappy tv while cuddle piled

wintersentry x reader where sometimes bucky feels like he shouldn't be dating you two, like hes far past his prime while you two are just starting it, like he should leave you two alone and let you live your best lives without all his baggage. neither bob nor you let that type of thinking go very far though, the second either of you see those pretty ocean blue eyes turn into a tsunami, you are quick to quell the storm you know its brewing inside his head. bucky isn't just some add on, he isnt a plus one or third wheel, the relationship you three have is complex and strong and hearts so deeply intertwined that the loss of one would absolutely destroy the other two

wintersentry x reader where you and bucky do the same for bob, when the void inside of him starts to feel too encompassing and like theres a gaping wound in his chest where his heat should be, youre both quickly there to help fill it with love. not just to keep another incident from happening, but because you love him so fucking much, its torture seeing someone as amazing as him suffer so unfairly from his own mind. they are both there for you in a heartbeat as well, they intimately know what its like to have a voice in your ear telling you horrible things and they never want you to go through it alone

wintersentry x reader where the bed situation can be kinda a pain at first, it definitely takes time and probably an alaskan king size bed to fit all three of you and find a sleeping rhythm, but when you do? the nightly routine is the most cherished part of your days. you all take turns being the middle, sometimes it just depends on who is having a shit day, but often you three make a schedule, like bucky, then bob then you and repeat. sometimes you guys will switch it up in the middle of the night or just become an incomprehensible pile of limbs if the world all becomes too much for everyone. and if one person just isnt in the mood for cuddles? the other two never take it to heart. its not uncommon you have too wriggle away from the two men because it feels like you are a hornet in the middle of a death swarm of bees being cooked alive LMAO they both run hot asf so sometimes it can become literal unbearable. your shared room def has the best ac money can buy. blanket politics are never an issue

you and bob are always stealing buckys clothes, even if they don't fit you, you are still at least taking that goddamn red henley and using it as a pillow to nap. bob is often seen walking around in shirts that are very obviously not his.

you all have color coded tooth brushes btw bucky has a pretty sky blue, bobs a soft sunshine yellow and yours a welcoming green. you have matching custom mugs as well, probs a gift from alexi that bucky rolled his eyes at but gets Pissed if any of the other thunderbolts use it.

⬆️the last thing you see before bucky atomizes walker for using his mug

[frenchkanna1808]

So after being in school alone with my thought, i wondered the question no one dared to ask, what is my friends daily account activity? Do they really hold up as dailies? How much dailies account even in there? Did brody cause 9/11? All those questions went trough my brain like wildfire, and after a very long 15 seconds of thinking i too the harduous task of finding every single daily accounts and using the power of MATH to see their overall activity.

so follow me on my little rambling as i see the RISE and FALL of the yttd daily community

So lets say some ground rule, when i mean activity i mean that the blog has posted adn actual daily blog post and not just talked or respounded to asks, so for example brocoli respounds to asks but he didn't post a daily since a certain time. Rule understood, okay okay.

First part of this task was to fin every single daily blogs and look their last posts, and this was the longest part for sure.

forget my very bad typos this was written in a moment of euphoria. What we can see from this is that there is 1 billion blogs actually but also that a ton of those blogs are in fact desactivated. THose which are classified as today are actually yesterday post i just was very lazy to change it.

Second phase was to put them all in different categories on a exel sheet to see the overal proportions and see the average of month since a last daily was posted.

as we can see there is no joke 53 FUCKING DAILY ACCOUNTS. But more importrantly about 16 of those accounts are either gone and dissapeared out of the face of the earth or they are simply stated as inactive by the daily in question. The second largest numbers are didn't post in 8 months and 4 months.

third part was to make a graphical illustration of my point, so i made a camembert.

so yeah i'm not gonna do a big study but its pretty clear that if we only consider daily accounts who posted today or this month as actual dailies then we can consider all the others as inactive dailies.

What was the point of this you might say? Well i wanted to prove my theories, first off most of those daily accounts were in fact born from the brody genesis, so when brody created his daily keiji account. It became a popular idea and everyone impulsively created accounts. The thing is that having a daily account is not some funny bussiness its extremely tiring and extremly difficult, and since most of the yttd community on tumblr are teens to young adults, we mostly have school to deal with. So keeping up with pace is pretty much impossible. Second my guess was that honestly all daily accounts would burn out in two months, and i was kinda right. Yes the graph seems to show that they lasted longuer, but actually, this doesnt count the time of inactivity in betwens or the long breaks. Most account burned out after 1 or 2 months which is pretty logical. LIke dailyshinai/rune burned out in two month for example.

I think the overral if we did a competion winners would be @rekofan101 who posted for a year straight and just terminated being a daily on their own account and janice/ @daily-dose-of-bucket who despite longs breaks are still posting. The dailies had an immense rise at one point but the fall was even harder slowly has the accounts and trend started to burn out. As someone who is on a dailies account i will say out of the maybe 30 blogs on it only lik 8 are actually active and only 1 post regularly.

This is isnt' at all a judgement or anything but its an interresting depictions of how waves of trends affect certains populations.

Tho if i had to give advices to make a daily account it would be:

-make it a weekly, more time better results last longuer

-don't do it alone perhaps do it with a friend and alternate betwen one another

-if you have adhd, a job, memory issues or overall issues that will make it evn more difficult for you to make an account a daily, i would consider not doing it, instead perhaps just do a regular fan account like me

But anyway thank for reading my useless unemployed friend rambling and keep doing what you love!

[autisticlalna]

the Corundum Conundrum

good morning everyone. we are experiencing.

This timeline... these people... it is all happening as it should but at what cost This wouldn't happen the way it does if it wasn't intended by [REDACTED]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OKAY. NOT R.C. THIS TIME. EPIC. there's been instances before of Sapphire talking in Galactic on tumblr, although the initial post was in the Skyblock Kingdoms tag--

I forgot - they do not know do they... i am sorry to the ones who observe

COOL. OKAY. not R.C., but.. not Sapphire either! secret third thing???

We changed, you know me

...huh. not R.C., not Sapphire, but we know them.

there's been direct contact with various Rubys. obviously Cherruby, but also Rue, Sapphire (pre-SBK), R.C., and... someone else?

Have you ever met them?

..okay, so we haven't met Wanderer's Ruby yet. not officially, anyway. we know they exist, we know they're dead, and there was theorization that those messages from after the clip was posted were from them, but past that everything is a big question mark.

I wish i could tell, i do! but it isnt the time for it just yet

so... we know which Ruby this isn't. how many other Rubys are on the table?

not shown: Ruby reacted with a checkmark to Ace's message. WHICH IS... FASCINATING... AS THE LOCAL GUY WHO HAS BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT NAVIGATOR'S DEAL IS... but as usual thats its own cluster🔔. the relevant part here is, no, Navigator's Ruby is accounted for.

SURE WAS. (Ruby clarified that they forgot and had to ask, but i will gladly take any opportunity to start vibrating about HCYT again and the implications of having a Ruby involved.)

I like that one

WE HAVE A NAME! Corundum! which as a fun side note was a name suggested for Sapphire early on if i recall correctly, as well as one of the various "Co-" words when false-fullnaming Ruby (Rubidium Corundum).

...royal we, huh?

i'm pulling up the R.C. post again.

what’s interesting is that, in other instances of R.C. speaking to the viewers so far, they’ve referred to themselves as plural– “we”. this includes in the most recent video that started all this: the hidden messages include “This was the only one we could save”, and the description says “We are not sure of their location”. however, here we’re speaking to an individual, or at least someone speaking on behalf of themself and not as representative of the assumed greater whole. “I am always watching”. “Do not tell about my existence”.

at the time, we were assuming the second communication was R.C. due to the encounter earlier that day, as well as their appearance in chat when Solar was trying to cause a distraction for Rue.

i keep going back to what Corundum said: we changed, you know me. as usual, i'm made of red string, but i do feel like that establishes that we've definitely talked to Corundum before. it's just a matter of where. they're like Sapphire in that they're able to breach the fourth wall, but at this point we've been using Sapph as our benchmark because we don't have many other "awakened" (for lack of a better term) Rubys to compare with. i mean, there's tRuby, but he barely knows what's going on and is busy being used as Sapphire's conduit.

in short: oh, god, we have another galactic-speaking time god to keep track of.

[evalevaeva]

okay um sieun delusions... i heard this is a common experience for students who are class toppers in high school. once they get into an iv league school or a rly fancy high class school they're no longer special and gifted and smart cause EVERYONE is like that

so sieun goes to one of those universities and its his first time being in a school where... ppl are taking it seriously lmaoo. and he starts to notice that there's one student who is always just 1 rank above him. no matter what rank sieun got whether it was 10 or 2 yn is always right above him so he starts to notice her AND BOY GETS A LIL CRUSHY CRUSH HE DOES 😓

literally just make it fluffy or ill kill u

gifted | yeon sieun

- in which yeon sieun gets into seoul national university.

(LETS GOO SOMETHINGTHAT ISNT SOB WORTHY @slytherinshua i did it)

Sieun had done it. He'd gotten past all the bullying and the hardships and decided to throw away his past in Byuksan Middle School and Eunjang High School. He'd gotten into Seoul National University with a special scholarship given to the top 1% of the entire student body, taking the examinations in each region.

Sieun was used to being the only student who focused on his work and got good grades. University came as a shock to him as he stood in front of the noticeboard, the glass the only thing standing between him and the piece of paper. He wasn't first. He wasn't second either. He was in tenth place for the freshmens diagnostics test. Sieun couldn't believe it, as he turned to walk away from the crowd of students trying to find their names on the lower ranks. The Yeon Sieun had gotten tenth place in a test. The last time that happened, it wasn't pleasant. The name above his wasn't an unknown one. He had heard your name back when he was in high school, at cram school. He had never crossed paths with you, so he had never seen the use in interacting with you.

The boy could feel the sweat sticking his hair to his forehead. The students in Seoul National University were no joke, and it didn't take a genius to realise that. Every student had notebooks, textbooks, and most importantly, coffee. Sieun had never liked coffee, but feeling the lack of sleep every day caused him to become a crippling caffein addict.

No matter what he did, it seemed like one name could not leave his side (on results slip, of course). If Sieun was in nineteenth place，she would be in eighteenth place. If he was third, she was second. If he was sixth, she'd be fifth. It seemed as if they were binded together through the world of academics, and that caught Sieun's attention.

"The concept of biochemistry isn't something hard, everyone. Now, let's go onto sample questions," The professor spoke as the sound of pages flipping echoed throughout the lecture hall. Sieun flipped open his practice book as he read the question, his eyes widening slightly as he read the question. It definitely wasn't something easy.

"Which of the following are included in the types of glycolipids? N-acetylgalactosamine, N-acetylglucosamine, Xylose, or Cerebrosides?" The professor asked as he switched the slideshow to a practice question from the practice book.

The lecture hall was practically silent as students opened their guide books, worried as they realised that their confusion could lead to their downfall in their first year of university.

One hand was raised as Sieun turned to look at the girl who had her hand raised on the other side of the auditorium. She sat up straight as her hand was in the air confidently. She had a small smile on her face as she waited for the professor to call on her.

"Ah, one of our top students! y/n, what do you think the answer is?" The professor called out to the girl as she lowered her hand and spoke.

"Cerebrosides, they are a group of glycosphingolipids, which are the subgroup of glycolipids." The girl answered as the professor clicked on the slideshow to reveal the answer to indeed be Cerebrosides.

Sieun scribbled your name on the top right corner of the page as he rested his cheek on his palm, looking at the writing as he sighed to himself.

That was the first time you caught his eye. It wasn't something he could suppress for long. Sieun caught himself sneaking as many glances at you as he could without getting caught. He'd pretend to cough, just so he could turn in your direction to look at you or take a different route just to see you leaving the hall to the library.

You were always at the library. Similarly to the other students, you would mug till the late hours of the night.

You had your head on the table as you heard a light thud next to you, making you turn to the right to see a cup of coffee on the desk. You sat up straight to see Sieun sitting at the seat next to you, his lips in a thin line but his eyes betrayed him as he watched you, curious to see your reaction.

"Is this... for me?" You asked the doe-eyed boy as he nodded, turning to his books but his attention still on you.

"You seem tired today. You didn't get your usual coffee so I got it for you," Sieun said as you felt a pink hue engulf your cheeks as you looked away from the boy, coughing softly as you whispered with a smile, "Thank you".

That was the first time he felt his heart jump. Screw that, maybe free fall off a cliff? That feeling had him sitting at his desk at home, hand on his chest as he smiled to himself, giggling like a high school lover.

Sieun used every brain cell he had available from that day onwards to have a reason to talk to you. He'd drop his book, and you'd appear from around the corner, crouching down to help him pick it up. He'd buy you coffee every few weeks to the point that it becomes a routine.

"Yeon Sieun, second place." Sieun had grown accustomed to never being in first place. Instead, a smile grew on his face as he saw the name in first place, it was you. Sieun waited under the shade as he saw you and your group of friends at the noticeboard, reading the results as you turned away from the crowd and jumped up and down, excitement emitting from you.

"First! First again! It all paid off! Entering summer break on the best note ever!" You yelled as Sieun felt his cheeks hurting from how hard he was smiling at your antics.

"Sieun! Good to see you," you greeted the boy as you pulled out the chair to take a seat next to him in the library. Sieun gave you a small smile as you took out your books, placing them onto the desk as you began mindlessly mugging through the night.

Sieun raised his arms as he stretched, hearing a click from his shoulders as he turned to check on you, seeing your head on the table as you slept.

Sieun packed his stuff as he tapped you on the shoulder, making you jolt awake from your sleep.

"Sieun...?" you mumbled as sieun picked up the books from under your arms，packing them into your bag as he put your bag on his shoulder, surprising you.

"You seem very sleepy, I'll send you home. Don't go home so late next time, and don't stay up too late. You're getting eyebags and...you'll make me worried, " Sieun said as you got up and pushed the chair into the table, following him as you both walked to the bus stop.

There was an awkward silence until you decided to ask him a question, "Sieun, why did you start talking to me? I mean, it's not strange, seeing as we're taking the same course...".

Sieun stopped in his tracks as he calculated in his head the chances of you rejecting him at that moment. 33.3 in a 100.

"It's because I like you." Sieun admitted as if it was a passing comment. You turned to look at him, eyes wide as you tilted your head in confusion.

"You're serious? You actually like me?" You ask him, trying to find a hint of humour in his voice, but his voice was anything but humorous.

"I can't see a day in my life without you from now on. Will you give me the honour of being the one by your side till the end?" Sieun asked as you couldn't help but look into his eyes that seemed to hold every inch of the universe in them.

That was the day that Sieun was no longer alone in his life.

Every day seemed to be filled with you. He'd pick you up from your apartment and cook you breakfast, sit with you in the lecture hall, buy you your coffee, go out for dinner, and finally, send you home safely.

Sieun would help you prepare for practical examinations while you helped him prepare for theoretical examinations, the both of you were the most envied CC.

CC, Campus Couple. Sieun wouldn't have thought he'd have someone to accompany him, but somehow, you were gifted, right to him.

[tasty-arsenic]

Double life,, 2!!!!!!!

I was bored and decided to re-roll double life soulmates and see if i could think of anything fun with these new pairs

so i took the double life cast plus Skizz, Lizzie, Mumbo and Gem because i wanted to include everyone

(i know that Gem was only in one session but we had an odd number and shes a lifer to me)

the pairs generated was

Joel and Lizzie (im not kidding)

Skizz and Mumbo

Pearl and Tango (it rolled Pearl and Scott first but i didnt want any doubles so i rerolled it)

Ren and Grian

Cleo and Etho (omg theyre back together...)

Scar and Bdubs

Jimmy and Scott (flower husbands,,,,)

Impulse and Martyn

Gem and BigB

now theres some absolute gems in this

first things first, the true soulmates: Joel and Lizzie

they were the first thing i rolled and it was so perfect omg,,,,,, obviously they are the power couple, the girlboss malewife. very chaotic duo and possibly a bit dangerous

next up: Skizz and Mumbo

now because those two dont interaact like at all from my knowledge i cant say much for sure, but i feel like the two of them would make a very fun team. with Skizz's impulsiveness and Mumbos redstone abilities i feel they could do some very fun stuff. I dont think theyd get very far but theyre here for a fun time, not a long time

Pearl and Tango

this one is kinda interesting. we have established that Pearl is crazy, we know that, but Tango is too just in a completely different way. Pearl doesnt beat around the bush much, she there and you know it. while Tango often works in the back seat in the middle of some crazy plot like Dare to Flare, Bet your life, or bringing a warden to the surface. combine these two and youd get some fun results.

Ren and Grian

first thing that came to mind: the dramatics. Grian is the known war starter and Ren is known roleplayer, do i need to make it obvious??? they would be SO fun to watch. Just by thinking about im upset that this isnt already a thing, god. I feel their shenanigans would be on par with the Bad Boys.

Cleo and Etho

if limited life taught us anything its that these two = divorce and im so here for that. this feels as if it be Cloe + Martyn Version 2. and considering and Etho on his own is a bit more pathetic then Martyn it would be very pitiful to watch. Cleo would be out girlbossing(as they do) and Etho would be struggling to do much, that or Etho would be also fine on his own but i think itd be better if he were a little pathetic yk

Scar and Bdubs

these two are impulsive idiots and would do nothing but enable each other and im so here for it. they would go on a million different mini mission in a single session. youd get whiplash from watching them. but i feel like this would make them either very dangerous or not threatening at all. who knows

Jimmy and Scott

flower husbands. what more do i have to say? Scott would be the pro player that he is while jimmy does nothing but get himself killed. theyd make an okay team is third life is anything to go by. i feel Scotts skills at the game and Jimmy's lack of would just balence themselves out a bit. who knows, maybe Jimmy would be the second one to die with a soulmate like Scott

Impulse and Martyn

a southlanders duo! these two were hilarious back in last life and they would be again. theyd make a pretty decent team i think. I mean these two were top two in limited life. theyd be a good mix of shenanigans and actual decent plays, a very good balance i think

and last but not least Gem and BigB

now this ones a thinker because Gem was only ever in one session of the game and did not once interact with BigB(if im remembering correctly) but going on assumptions i think these two would make a great team. first of all i think theyd be semi-wholesome. with Gems cottagecore vibes and BigBs general BigB-ness i think theyd be very cute. but also quite dangerous. Gem is a known PvPer (GeminiSlay!) and BigB makes his own good plays fairly often as well. Otherall very cute, but threatening team

this was a fun thinking exercise

and i want to hear your thoughts in the notes!!!!!

[sleep-token-confessions]

hiii, im the anon asking about the whole morse code being presented in the unofficial ST discord server and seeing people being pissy about it!! im sure theres gonna be more comments added to that post, but i just wanted to clear a few things up since i made a few mistakes on my post

first, i said that i saw both Tumblr and twitter being mad that the puzzles are being hosted on the discord server, when it reality it was mainly twitter to noones surprise lol. english isnt my first language so i put them on the same standards, what i saw on tumblr was people either asking second hand info because they refuse to go in the server for xyz reasons or people just. saying that they wont go in the server for zyx reasons. that was my mistake, idk how to word things a lot of the time lol

second, i wholeheartedly Agree with everyone that feel for the poor mods dealing with a 62000 filled discord server when they had like. idk, 1000? 3000?

BUT. i have seen Very Few people claiming that the RCA people didnt warn the mods, and unless you can prove by saying "oh i talked to one of the mods" or something along those lines, i probably wont take your word for it. when the QR codes were shown by a RCA member on the server, mods were Quick to dm them and then warned the server that the member was legit and what was happening was real. hell, even yesterday when the puzzle channel opened, the first thing mods said was that the links posted in the server were real.

*my* personal opinion is that i think its unlikely that RCA didnt warn the mods about sharing the sever link via insta stories. if mods were warned or werent, i Still think it wouldve been a chaotic mess, its literally Thousands of people joining a fan server, theyre gonna scramble to keep things intact even if they thought they were prepared

third and lastly, i saw a tag on the og ask of mine saying that the moderation when it comes to sexualization feels a bit puritan, and im just gonna say i kinda agree with the person who said that. on one hand, yea vessel has Absolutely grinded on his mic stand, sat on top of a laid down iii, certain songs sound/have sexual undertones, and vessel literally has his titties out since the start. on the Other hand, i get why mods delete Any type of sexualization. personally i wouldnt get rilled up over Will Ramos posting "SEX" on his insta story with the sax solo of Emergence playing in the background, or fans reacting with 👀 to a picture of vessel they found hot. but unfortunately, people dont just find the members hot and move on, most of them find them hot and are Loud about it, to the point where other have to Beg people to stop verbally harassing them during rituals

anyways, thats all. to those that responded with personal experiences with the server, or refuse to join because its a huge server and can make you feel overwhelmed, super fair and understandable! and to those that said you wont be joining because you dont like/have discord, Also super fair and understandable! in the end, people can do and think whatever they want forever, i just wanted to vent out my confusion with people (mainly on twitter) calling the server a "toxic cringy mess" with like. no elaborations

thank you again to those who responded, i probably wont send another ask related to this since i dont want ST Confessions to turn into ST Arguments About One Specific Topic lmao. thats all, bye bye, hope yall have nice days :]

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[comfortabletogether]

akane,teruya,kanade,hibiki and nikei (seperate) w/ a f!s/o who acts like/is similar to charlie morningstar,from hazbin hotel? like s/os family has high/decent social standing,but isnt entirely respected,believes theres good in everyone,is highly optimistic,but also rly stubborn,ect.

thank you for the request!! I appreciate the support!!

Sorry I’m advance but i ended up loosing a lot of momentum while writing this along with the fact that I didn’t actually love Hazbin Hotel. I didn’t have enough energy to do Hibiki and Nikei. I also didn’t exactly know what to write for them either. My apologies for dw I’ll probably write a part 2 when my requests open again!!

WARNING: SPOILERS; KANADE; MENTIONS OF KINJO

~ Mod Haruhiko ✈️

Akane Taira

🫧 Akane treasures your optimistic, go-getter attitude. She feels inspired by it, and whatever project you are working on she’ll be there for support, as you will always be to her. 

🫧 She has seen some of the horrors the world has to offer, from a nasty orphanage that caught on fire to the mistreatment she’s gotten working as a maid. Akane feels slightly protective over you because of your naive.

🫧 You and Yuki are a lot alike in Akane’s eyes, wanting to help solve almost everyone’s problems. And she’ll be there with the two of you, and she will often remind you that you aren’t responsible for everyone’s wellbeing.

🫧 In this vile killing game, your optimism and persistence is one of the only things that truly keep her going. In a situation that has so much blood spilt she looks up to you.

🫧 Although Akane feels lucky to be able to spend time with you, she gets really scared when you hang out with other people except Yuki for some reason. But she’s terrified someone will take your naive and trusting nature for granted.

🫧 Akane loves you so dearly, you are a beacon of life and hope in her life. Her way to finally love someone and have that be reciprocated.

Kanade Otonokoji

🎵 Kanade enjoys your cheerful attitude she finds it funny at first wondering how long it would take for you to break. because nobody could really be that nice and wonderful, right?

🎵 You worked were a graphic designer who helped create Melody Rythme’s posters for their charity concerts. And despite Hibiki being constantly her puppet Kanade was quickly growing bored. That’s when she realized that she valued you as a person as well, and immediately assumed you out.

🎵 Kanade became possessive and protective over you, wanting you to only help her. You were so kind and wonderful why would you want to waste your energy on someone irrelevant when you could be helping her? Don’t you want to help your girlfriend after her sister pushed her over?

🎵 Kanade typically uses your naive nature against you. She loves you and she doesn’t understand how to love without manipulation. But if someone else tries to attempt to manipulate you, Kanade will go apeshit on them. Because how dare they?? That’s Kanade’s job

🎵 But being around you makes Kanade feel like she is improving as a person more. That she’s becoming a better person for example she hasn’t killed anyone in almost half a year. She loves that you are changing her for the better.

🎵 Kanade probably writes all the love songs on her and Hibiki’s albums, and they are all about you and the stuff you and Kanade had done together. For example one of the tracks is your name backwards and it’s a bunch of imagery of a gorgeous girl. (Same vibes as Jolene but gay).

Teruya Otori

💴 When Kinjo brings you in to work for the intelligence Team on the Kisaragi foundation, Teruya was a bit skeptical. Especially after Utsuro had told them that the police force had fallen into despair but Kinjo reassured them that you were a trusted ally.

💴 Apparently you had also been related to Kinjo, being second or third cousins but still if Kinjo trusted you, then Teruya would too.

💴 The first thing he noticed was how different you were to Kinjo, especially in your beliefs. While the two of you are both headstrong and stubborn, you believe that even the worst of people should be able to have a second chance. That is probably what drew him towards you the most.

💴 He had experienced firsthand the horrors of this world, and therefore he is very protective over you. You are too easily trusting and that could lead to a situation similar to one’s he has seen in the past.

💴 Due to your stubbornness though, it’s very common that you and Keisuke or Tsurugi would get into fights and the talk palm tree will often have to physically separate you and them. He’s always proud of you for standing up for what you believe in and Teruya might end up developing your beliefs.

💴 Teruya is really entrapped by your kind and pleasant nature, and that you want to help people in need and trust me Teruya is in plenty of need of emotional support. After that Killing Game— he is so messed up. 

[plaexus]

I am not gonna try to convince anyone of jmj being real bc honestly what do we know and beyond, the people that have doubts, what would take for them to be convinced they are real!? They won’t come out given the industry they’re in and their current A lister status so anything else can be written off as either not solid enough or fanservice. If they were to playfully call eo girlfriend no one would believe them, everyone would assume they are trolling. They wont post pics kissing or doing anything like that so honestly what would make believers believe? Even if they were to be confirmed to be living together, spotted holding hands, etc etc, everything could be explained away by long term friends and members… like you wont ever get explicit confirmation.

At the end of the day, we will never know, but it all comes down to how each one of us understands and looks at friendships, relationships, flirtations and crushes. Jmj might do sth that for sb is incredibly lover coded bc they only do that with their so, but for others is bestie coded, bc they do it with their bffs. That doesn’t negate anyone’s experience, everyone perceives them differently.

Jm is a playful and affectionate person and ofc she’s gonna show those traits with other people that she’s close to as well. So yea she’ll hold other girls’ waist, however what to me is telling is the shyness and awkwardness that sometimes comes along with jiminjeong’s skinship in public. You’ll never see jm second guess so much with aeri or ning or other female idols she’s close with (ry i guess).

https://x.com/_bluustar/status/1918279134276722982?s=46 moments like these are also pretty much jmj exclusive territory and i agree with that anon, the vibes that jmj emit when they do live vs other duos are very telling bc there’s only one that makes you feel you are third wheeling and we all know which one it is.

Also only talking about jm isnt fair, it’s a two person thing and there is little doubt in my mind mj favors jm the most. https://x.com/whtkmj/status/1917589525137850788?s=46 look at how adorably she gets nervous when jm teases her or how she searches for skin contact while being playful. Jm is the only member she’s posted on her ig, and she’s done very intentional things (like saying she will never get tired of blue while mentioning jm, posting her back to back when everyone was talking about the 2yu collab, going on weverse and responding to a random fan saying she liked karina too…), not to mention her so very obvious puppy crush on jm when they were rookies and how “jealous “ she got when she didn’t have her full attention…

Obviously none of this will help you be convinced they are real, but trust they have the least platonic relationship ever possible. I have no idea what labels they have with eo, but the way they look at eo, flirt, behave with one another leaves me very little doubt that there are feelings beyond deep appreciation as friends.

yeah, we'll never know the full extent of their bond. and ultimately, it doesn't matter what the truth is. we should be able to enjoy (and be respectful about) shipping them no matter what. i ship jmj not because of any particular piece of "evidence" we have of them, but because of the constellation of overt and subtle ways we see them just care for each other. because of that, when we don't get a particular form of affection from them (e.g. lovestagrams or them mentioning each other on bubble or wevere), i have a whole lot of other things to anchor my shipping on (e.g. tender and charged gazes, the mutual downbadism, etc.). i think hinging one's evaluation of jmj's bond on any single specific thing is a disservice to how great of a ship they are. people would say "oh they're not all that" or that they're fs or whatever when there are dry spells. but real jmj fans get them because of the greater picture painted by their entire history together (known to us)

[trickstarbrave]

hiiii we're back at it again

this isnt edited yet. so. im posting it here for now.

omegaverse au 2: electric boogaloo (this is what i named this document. im not joking). it was originally just supposed to be an excuse for nerevar and voryn to be horny and fucking while on in a cart. but then my brain got carried away with politics and then got angst involved and now we're here.

this is 1 part. i think about 1/3rd if i had to guess. thankfully this part is smutty and fun for the most part. second part will be most of the angst, third part will be the reunion

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It was hot as they traveled from Balmora after selling off some items. At least selling Dwemer crafts and metal was good for profit to keep House Dagoth afloat--otherwise it would be hard to make due, even with specialty goods like carmine from those little red beetles they farmed. Nix meat and ash yams could only go so far to feed a people, after all. Even still, House Dagoth wasn’t very big due to the low resources. 

Nerevar prodded the Nix-ox to keep moving after it took a drink, the beast chittering angrily at him.

“Yeah yeah,” Nerevar scoffed. “I don’t wanna walk either, big guy.” He grabbed the tunic he was wearing, wiping the sweat from his brow. 

His shirt had been torn to shreds by a cliff racer, but luckily Voryn gave him one of his spare undershirts. He was prepared to go without a shirt, but Voryn reminded him of the last time he got horribly sunburnt, so he complied, glad that he had from how harshly the sun was beating down. Nerevar inhaled the soft, spicy scent from the fabric as he wiped his face, the scent of his own body mixing with it. 

A lot of alphas smelled off-putting to him. Either too strong, too musky, or just plain gross for seemingly no reason. Voryn though… Nerevar had to admit he did smell pretty nice. Something comforting and nostalgic about the scent of his skin and pheromones. There was a bit of incense that clung to his skin and all of his clothes, as well as a spiced quality to his pheromones. Just the slightest hint of musk too, and not to mention it mingled well with Nerevar’s scent which was like citrus and herbs--fresh, bright, and bold. 

It was nice to inhale, though he hoped it didn’t make him seem weird to admit it. He’s heard it was common for omegas to enjoy the scents of those close to them. Typically young children were scented regularly by family members, but since Nerevar’s grandparents and parents were dead and his uncle gone, Nerevar had adjusted to being without it. Only Voryn really scented him when they were kids, nuzzling against him affectionately to ensure Nerevar smelled like the rest of House Dagoth rather than an outsider. 

It brought back fond memories. As much as Voryn’s scent had changed from when they were younger, there was something nostalgic about it that tickled at his chest. 

“We’ll be stopping soon to make camp.” Voryn announced from the cart he was in. It was still afternoon, but it made sense. If they didn’t stop here for the day, they would have to make camp closer to the swampy, wet area of the bitter coast. And finding a decent place to camp there for a whole caravan when everyone was exhausted and annoyed was a pain in the ass. 

Nerevar was thankful for it though; he was beginning to get exhausted. Normally he did better on caravan trips, able to march for hours at a time due to his high stamina, but right now he was getting… Exhausted. Maybe it was the heat getting to him, or maybe he just wore himself out the day before. 

Another hour, and Voryn stopped them at a good place with solid ground. Everyone began the annoying task of making camp in the afternoon, sun glaring in their eyes. Their lord’s tent came first, before everyone else’s, Voryn then read in the shade watching them pitch the rest.

Fuck, now Nerevar was hungry too… Irritably hungry. He had eaten enough for breakfast and lunch, why was he starving? He groaned, dipping into his dried rations early, before curling up in his own tent kept close to Voryn’s. Normally he helped everyone else set up, but he was too tired right now, eager to just get out of the sun. 

He laid on his bedroll, tossing and turning. As the sun set, he knew he should give a few prayers to Azura, maybe even crawl out to grab a bite to eat and see who was on guard duty for the night, but… 

He was so uncomfortable. He felt exposed, hot, and miserable as he tossed and turned, his skin starting to burn. At some points he ended up dozing off to sleep, before waking up covered in sweat and his body jerking.

“Nerevar?” Voryn asked, climbing into the tent after night finally fell. “You didn’t come out for dinner--” Nerevar could barely crack open his eyes to look at Voryn, taking in the other’s flushed, shocked expression. Before Nerevar could ask though, Voryn shyly averted his eyes, covering his mouth slightly. 

“I… You’re…” He mumbled under his breath.

“What?” Nerevar asked, irritated. Usually he tried to watch his tone when they were on caravan trips; it made the others act out thinking they could smart mouth their young lord like Nerevar did. 

“I didn’t think… You went into heat.” He muttered, still unable to meet Nerevar’s eyes.

Nerevar was frozen at that sentence, turning it over in his head.

He wasn’t--right? He couldn’t be. He wasn’t due for a couple more months. He just had it.

“But I just went into heat a month ago.” Planning around his job as caravan guard was tricky for that reason. Luckily, Voryn typically went into ruts around the same time, so they tended to stay home together. “I’m not--”

Nerevar could feel how sluggish his body was though. He was hungry, but too restless to crawl out and get a bite to eat. Not to mention he felt exposed--he could curl up in his bedroll to feel more secure, but his body felt much too warm. 

“... Shit.” Nerevar swore under his breath. He was fully going into heat--not any of that faux heat netchshit some omegas went through either. And he wasn’t even near his room so he could feel safe and secure. He was on a caravan trip, exposed, some of the other canvasari complete strangers who would be able to smell him…

Nerevar felt nauseous at that, his hunger vanishing as he suddenly got the urge to flee into the wilderness. He’d rather that cliff racer had ripped him to pieces than one of those smug, piece of shit alphas he didn’t know hold him down and try to mate with him--

“Shh…” Voryn approached cautiously, gingerly stroking at his arm. Nerevar stiffened at the contact. He usually disliked anyone touching him in heat, and he’d never had Voryn nearby when he went into one before. It’s not that he didn’t trust Voryn as his closest friend--he did very much--but it was still a foreign feeling to his body. They were kept apart during heats and ruts, like all young adults and teenagers. Not to mention, he knew Voryn was uncharacteristically aggressive in ruts. “It’s alright. I’ll help you.”

“How are you going to help me?” Nerevar asked, ready to dismiss the idea entirely. 

“I’ve been told spending a heat with an alpha, even when traveling, helps alleviate the worst symptoms.” Voryn explained, trying to keep his voice level. 

“If I spend my heat with you, you’re going to go into a rut.” Nerevar scoffed. Again, Voryn was aggressive in a rut: destroying furniture, punching and burning his brothers, breaking windows, screaming… Getting in a fight with Voryn while feeling so vulnerable was the last thing Nerevar wanted. 

“It’s either that or you’ll have to deal with it alone.” Voryn’s brow was furrowed in more concern than irritation, at least. “And I don’t want those s’wits that got brought along grabbing you as they please, trying to make you their omega.” 

Nerevar shivered at the tone Voryn used, feeling his heart beating faster. It sounded almost possessive, and so very welcomed when his thoughts were slowly getting muddled. 

“... I don’t want that either.” Nerevar admitted softly. He didn’t want any alphas looking at him and making snide remarks, or worse--openly trying to court him or take him by force. “I don’t want that, I’m just…”

“I know it will still be uncomfortable and awkward,” Voryn’s tone was soft and soothing, “But I want to help you, Neht.”

Nerevar closed his eyes as Voryn stroked his hair, sighing shakily. 

“Your family will be furious, won’t they…?” Voryn’s brothers would want to rip him limb from limb when they found out Voryn spent a rut with Nerevar of all people.

“Let them throw a fit.” Voryn dismissed it. “I’ll take responsibility. Besides, it’s not as though I’d be the first person to spend a rut with someone without mating with them.” That was true; however ‘taboo’ it was, it was fairly commonplace for nobles to spend heats or ruts with servants from time to time and take the edge off. As angry as they’d be, Voryn wouldn’t be doing something outside the norm they couldn’t just sweep under the rug.

“... Would you be alright with it?” Nerevar asked softly, turning to nuzzle into Voryn’s hand, letting the other caress his face and scent him properly. 

“Of course,” Voryn smiled. “It might be uncomfortable at first, but,” Voryn glanced back at the entrance of Nerevar’s tent suspiciously. “I want to keep you safe.”

Nerevar took a deep breath, sitting up, and wrapping an arm around Voryn. 

“Thanks,” 

--

Voryn had ordered the others to take down Nerevar’s tent. He gave the excuse that Nerevar was feeling ill and Voryn would be tending to him, but Nerevar could see the skepticism in their glances. The other canvasari knew what was really going on by the scent coming off of Nerevar, and while they took the tent down they complained all the while that of course they would have an omega going into heat near them but that it would be Nerevar of all people. Stubborn, headstrong Nerevar who got spoiled rotten by Voryn. And of course they wouldn’t even get to ‘enjoy’ it, muttering to themselves that Voryn and Nerevar were probably already fucking before this. 

It disgusted Nerevar, making his whole body itch to hear them muttering and complaining as they took the tent down. Nerevar was currently laying on his own bedroll, various bags and a few cushions from the cart Voryn rode in as a makeshift nest around him, with Voryn’s bedroll on the other side. 

Nerevar didn’t know how you were supposed to start this sort of thing. He imagined most omegas only really climbed into bed with an alpha like this for sex, and Nerevar was at a loss. Did he just lay down and go to sleep? He still felt far too restless…

“Ah…” Nerevar gasped softly as Voryn climbed in beside him after grabbing Nerevar a plate of food, setting it aside before starting to scent him. It felt…

Nice. Comfortable. He closed his eyes, the heat in his body settling into a warm, fuzzy feeling. 

“I don’t want them enjoying your scent,” Voryn whispered. “So let me just…” He trailed off, nuzzling gently against Nerevar, as Nerevar let himself be surrounded by that musky, spicy scent all over again. 

In turn, Nerevar couldn’t help but nuzzle back, his hands clenching and unclenching at Voryn’s robes. 

“You smell nice…” Nerevar muttered.

“I’ve been told smelling an alpha helps with heat.” Voryn replied back softly. Not to mention, Nerevar was in fact thankful it would cover up his own scent. He got nauseous imagining what those bastards were doing with his tent that smelled like an omega in heat. He was likely going to burn it and buy a new one rather than even consider what disgusting things they could get up to.

“Relax…” Voryn whispered. “I’ve got you. They can’t hurt you.” Nerevar disliked how this up close he couldn’t hide his pheromones from showing his displeasure. Usually he was good at suppressing it, keeping it hidden for the most part, but in heat with Voryn literally breathing down his neck? Impossible.

“I just… Was making a mental note to buy a new tent.” Nerevar muttered. “I don’t want to think about what they might do with it…” Voryn growled at that, tightening his hold. Nerevar knew instinctively the sound should have frightened him—omegas were jumpy and defensive while in heat, after all—but for some reason it… Didn’t. 

Again, it seemed almost possessive. Like Nerevar was desirable. Like Nerevar was his.

Nerevar bit the inside of his cheek, pushing those thoughts aside. Voryn was just getting territorial; that was normal for alphas. He’d known Nerevar since they were children and Nerevar was his guard. It wasn’t about wanting to mate, that Voryn already made clear, but just protecting someone close to him. In a way it was possessive, but not in a romantic or sexual sense. He just didn’t want anyone attacking and forcibly mating with someone in his ‘pack’ so to speak.

“Your scent is so much more reactive like this…” Voryn whispered, before nuzzling against a scent gland. “Not to mention sweet…”

“That’s… Normal for being in heat.” Nerevar whispered, his hips squirming slightly. His neck was sensitive too—and didn’t Voryn know the fucking taboo not to go poking around an omega’s neck, especially when they were in heat? Then again, Nerevar should really push him away; he disliked alphas even looking at his neck to see if he was bonded or not, but for some reason Voryn was…different. “Ah…” Voryn gave one soft, experimental lick, earning a soft gasp and shudder from Nerevar, before he finally sat up.

“You should eat.” Voryn brought the food over now. It was just saltrice porridge, common on the road, with some spices, though it also had ash yam bread alongside it. Voryn dipped the bread in, scooping some of the porridge with it, and brought it up to Nerevar’s face.

Voryn was trying to feed him like mated pairs fed each other. Nerevar’s cheeks and ears went red as he realized it, before shutting his eyes tightly, before shoving the thoughts aside. That couldn’t be it. Voryn was just—he was just worried, that’s all. Not to mention he probably didn’t even know about that behavior and this was ignorant to the implications.

“Neht, even if you aren’t hungry you should—“ Voryn went to scold him, before Nerevar leaned in and took a bite, making Voryn smile warmly. The porridge was mostly lukewarm by now, but delicious from how hungry Nerevar was. “That’s it… Good boy.” Voryn stroked his hair as he fed Nerevar, the scent starting to make him feel lightheaded and fuzzy again. His thoughts were so cloudy in fact he wasn’t thinking right, going in to lick Voryn’s fingers after he finished the bread, earning a soft moan before Voryn tried to cover it with a chuckle. Nerevar took the remaining bowl and spoon, eating on his own and trying to force the feeling down, but Voryn continued to affectionately stroke his hair. 

--

When they got back on the road, Nerevar rode in the cart Voryn was in. It was an enclosed space, so already a big improvement from having to walk out in the open, an idea that made his skin crawl. Voryn set up the interior nicely--cushions and Nerevar and Voryn’s respective travel packs and bedrolls creating a nice little nest. 

Comfortable. It was, despite everything, very, very comfortable. Nerevar had slept surprisingly well for both being in heat and not being in his own room, lying comfortably in Voryn’s arms.

There was, however, one thing he hadn’t anticipated being such a problem. Nerevar knew mating season came with a heightened sense of arousal, but he thought that he could ignore it for the few days it would take to make it back to Kogoruhn, especially since he would be spending so much time with Voryn. All he had to do was not masturbate for a few days, that was all--it wasn’t impossible for him to go a few days without touching himself before, so it should be fine now.

Except it wasn’t. 

Nerevar’s hips shifted around often as the cart gently rocked, squirming slightly. All he could think about for a good while now was his cunt. He tried distracting himself, thinking about sparing or battle or even fighting that cliff racer earlier, but his thoughts kept coming back to sex. Even with Voryn laying beside him, one arm wrapped around his waist, Nerevar couldn’t control his mind. 

“You seem restless.” Voryn said softly right by his ear, and Nerevar gasped, his hips bucking forward on instinct.

“I’m just--” Nerevar didn’t know how to explain it without humiliating himself. “It’s… I’m in heat…” He covered his own mouth as Voryn nuzzled into his neck again, muffling the gasps and moans coming from his throat. 

“You’re aroused?” Voryn asked, equally soft, and Nerevar nodded.

“I know I shouldn’t,” Nerevar looked for excuses, hips still squirming as Voryn rubbed slow, soothing circles on his stomach, “It’s just--”

“It’s normal.” Nerevar could hear the smile in Voryn’s voice, despite not being able to see his expression behind him. “Go ahead, I won’t mind.” A strange sensation came over Nerevar as he shuddered hearing that, a hot rush going through his body, his arousal only intensifying. 

Was it alright? Were they crossing a line? Nerevar didn’t know where that line might be, honestly. He and Voryn had known each other for so long and shared so much--food, beds, clothes, drinks… When they were the age of majority they both drank together for the first time, making the foolhardy mistake of choosing sujamma and getting a bit too enthusiastic in their efforts to one up each other, admitting so many things while drunk before passing out in bed together that they barely even remembered any of them come morning. Those moments Nerevar didn’t find particularly sexual at the time, but were they that much more different to where he was right now?

Then again, perhaps Nerevar should have seen it coming. Voryn was obviously expecting it and had offered to share Nerevar’s heat with him. Nerevar should have known there was the possibility of the need arising. 

His hand unlaced his trousers, diving in past his undergarments, slowly working his way down as he shifted to almost but not quite on his back. Voryn’s hand shifted upward to give Nerevar’s arm some room in turn, still unphased, as Nerevar’s other hand stayed over his mouth to muffle any sounds.

Finally, his fingers were greeted by wet, slick flesh, a soft groan falling from his lips. He was wetter than he thought, leaking slick. He didn’t expect to be so aroused without even touching himself--was it because an alpha was nearby?

His fingers slipped inside, moving in and out slowly, the slick sound muffled by the fabric of his trousers. They felt good, but he was honestly missing the fullness of the toys he had back home. A nice, polished wood one with a large knot at the base was his favorite when he was in heat, giving himself a feeling of fullness he enjoyed even if he was just mindlessly playing with his cock while furiously reading a smutty novel. But more importantly, he found it harder to get off with the situation he was in--it was difficult to really get lost in the fantasies he normally got off to when someone was close by and watching him. He groaned in displeasure, feeling frustrated, until Voryn leaned close to his ear again.

“Good boy.” Voryn whispered, and Nerevar’s fingers moved much faster, his breathing quickening as pure arousal raced in his veins. His body suddenly felt so much more sensitive, soft moans now being muffled by his hand as his eyes fluttered shut. 

“Oh,” Voryn’s lips gently brushed against his ear as he spoke this time, making it twitch as Nerevar gave a needy whine, “You sound so wet…” Nerevar raised his leg slightly so he could finger himself faster. “Nice and wet for me, aren’t you?”

Fuck. He was jacking off to Voryn right now, wasn’t he? This wasn’t just masturbation with Voryn nearby--Voryn was actively getting him off, whispering in his ear. And the worst part was Nerevar was so turned on, his body responding well to the sweet sound of Voryn’s voice in his ear. He was even imagining Voryn touching him now, imagining Voryn’s fingers slipping in and out of him, Voryn’s hand muffling the moans spilling from Nerevar’s lips as he touched him however he pleased--

“Such a sweet scent when you’re aroused like this…” Voryn groaned into his neck, shifting his hips in a way that had Nerevar gasping again. He could feel Voryn’s cock pressed against his ass--confirmation Voryn was aroused too. Aroused by Nerevar. “Can you get off like this?” Voryn asked, his voice still so sweet, “Or do you need me to touch you?”

At the offer, Nerevar couldn’t even think it over. His hand came away from his mouth just enough to pant out the answer. “Touch me.” He pleaded, urgency in his voice, as Voryn’s hand snaked its way down Nerevar’s body and into his pants. “Ah--yes,” Nerevar moaned sweetly, before Voryn’s hand covered his mouth. 

Nerevar felt dizzy being touched like this. Completely at the mercy of Voryn, the mer he trusted more than anything, the mer he trusted with his very life. His thoughts were completely muddled, eyes rolled back as his legs twitched, his hips squirming, all reacting to the movement of Voryn’s long fingers sliding in and out of him.

“Gods, you’re soaked.” Voryn moaned softly now himself, hips gently rocking against Nerevar’s ass. “So wet for me Neht, ready to take my cock, aren’t you?” Nerevar nodded furiously, before Voryn shifted his other hand, sliding two fingers past Nerevar’s mouth. “Gods, the mouth on you too--” Voryn groaned as Nerevar eagerly sucked and rolled his tongue around the digits, moaning obscenely, though at a volume that it would be hard to hear outside the cart. 

“When we get to the next town I’m buying birth control,” Voryn whispered, a promise, though there was a desperation in his voice. “I need to be inside you. I need to,” Nerevar could get drunk off that edge in his voice honestly--off the knowledge that he was desired. He wanted it so badly too, he wanted Voryn to be inside him already, fucking him to completion. It would be even more intense than his fingers, so much more fulfilling as Voryn knotted him just like his body wanted, pumped him full of seed--

His body shuddered as the thought crossed his mind, trembling from his orgasm, his leg twitching as a low noise was pulled from his throat. He could picture it so clearly--Voryn’s knot pressed perfectly inside him, sealing every drop of seed inside Nerevar’s cunt in the desperate hope it took. It was such a satisfying orgasm too, bliss washing over him. 

“Good boy,” Voryn praised him again, his breathing heavy. “So good for me, aren’t you Neht…” He pulled his fingers out of Nerevar’s mouth first, letting the other pant, before almost reluctantly sliding his fingers out of Nerevar’s cunt. 

It was only a few moments until Nerevar shifted, turning to face Voryn, his hands going to Voryn’s robes. 

“Your turn,” Nerevar whispered dangerously close to Voryn’s lips, feeling every hot pant fan over his mouth. It didn’t take long to undo Voryn’s robes enough to slip his hand past the layers of fabric to the hard length he felt earlier grinding against him. 

“Neht,” Voryn whispered, a type of reverence in his voice. His eyes rolled back slightly, before black eyelashes fluttered as his eyes fell shut, his lips wet, “Nerevar…” It sounded almost like a hymn, a prayer falling from his lips, as Nerevar stroked slowly and lightly at first, learning what movements Voryn liked best. His cock was hard in Nerevar’s hand, and Nerevar rolled his palm around the head to slather it with precum to make the glide easier, Voryn’s hips rocking in time with his movements. 

“You like that?” Nerevar asked against Voryn’s mouth, before Voryn nipped at his lower lip, earning a soft keen from Nerevar. “Fuck…” He could feel Voryn’s canines almost nick him, and he became hyper aware of his own neck, the thought crossing his mind at how it would feel to have someone actually bite and claim him. “Fuck, I can feel your knot swelling up…” An alpha’s didn’t always form, as he’d been told, but it was more common in ruts. Still, he couldn’t believe it was swelling up just from Nerevar’s hand. “You want to knot me, don’t you?” 

“Yes,” Voryn was holding him tightly now, panting furiously. “I want to fuck you, knot you, fill you with my seed…” Voryn’s hips were thrusting in earnest now, fucking Nerevar’s hand. “I want you, I want you Neht, I want you so badly--”

Nerevar kissed him before he got any louder, alerting everyone to what they were doing. No doubt the other canvasari expected them to be fucking, but Nerevar didn’t want them hearing it. One of them might try and ruin the fucking moment, after all, loudly banging at them to knock it off, or might use it against them. Or, maybe Nerevar was just feeling possessive himself, wanting to be the only person who got to hear Voryn begging and pleading for him like this. 

Still, Voryn kissed him with a passion, his tongue eagerly exploring Nerevar’s mouth, gliding against his own. The kiss was messy, wet, as Voryn clung to him tighter and tighter…

“Neht!” Voryn broke the kiss with a loud hiss, his own hand moving down to pump Nerevar’s even faster, until finally he held it there, knot swelling, and came with a low moan. 

“Yes…” He groaned, ropes of cum shooting out into Nerevar’s hand and onto his clothes. “Yes, Neht…” 

“There we go…” Nerevar smiled softly, pressing soft, feather-light kisses to his cheeks. “Better?”

“Much better…” Voryn pulled him into an embrace again, nuzzling against him. “Mm… I’ll change your clothes in a few moments…” Nerevar chuckled at that, though he had to admit he kind of enjoyed Voryn making a mess of him. “Let me… Enjoy this.” 

--

Nerevar adjusted faster to their new dynamic than he thought. Maybe it was the haze of his heat making his head feel so fuzzy, but he was enjoying the newfound affection they shared. Kisses became commonplace, as was touching, nuzzling, cuddling. Even Voryn touching his neck was more welcomed than anything else, Nerevar leaning into it. 

Voryn was true to his word. They stopped at a small town, at least one with an apothecary, and Voryn ventured out of the cart to pick up several days worth of birth control potions. 

He hadn’t thought about having sex with Voryn before this. The thought crossed his mind once or twice, he supposed, but never seriously and more so as a jest. But now it seemed almost natural, their bodies falling into place with ease. 

At first, the sex was perfect. Passionate, all encompassing, mind numbing pleasure that left his body tingling. But they still had a few more days on the road back to Kogoruhn, and every orgasm took the edge off a little less. It was still as passionate as before, though every time was a little bit more desperate, something inside him craving more. Something was off and incomplete. It wasn’t quite enough--not nearly enough for him. 

Was it that they weren’t back at Kogoruhn yet? Possibly. His body was no doubt longing for the comfort and security of home, his back on Voryn’s bed, surrounded by pillows and blankets that smelled so perfectly like Voryn…

Or maybe it was the fact it was more emotionally taxing than Nerevar realized. This was just for convenience, after all. It wasn’t supposed to have any meaning behind it, just spending Nerevar’s unexpected heat together so travel would be easier. Spending a heat with an alpha was supposed to make it more bearable, and the other shitty canvasari wouldn’t pull anything if Nerevar was always by Voryn’s side, after all. 

But there was an ever nagging thought in his mind: this wasn’t going to last forever. This was a temporary solution to an out of the blue problem. For all he had adjusted to kissing Voryn, of stroking Voryn’s hair, of being fed by Voryn, of dressing and undressing each other and basking in each other’s warmth, he couldn’t enjoy this forever. They would arrive at Kogoruhn in only a couple of days after all--a day and a half if they were fast, as they were right on the edge of House Redoran’s territory as far as he could tell. And Nerevar already knew how it would play out when they arrived: Voryn’s brothers would kick up a fuss, Voryn would excuse it as necessary for traveling, and Nerevar would slink back to his room to spend the rest of his heat alone as always. Though, it was unusual that Voryn’s rut wasn’t as destructive as usual; Nerevar had worried about it initially, but Voryn was strangely calm, even able to go into town and buy a few things with relative ease, though he didn’t like it. Before, Voryn was so irritable and antsy he would fight just about anyone, but he was oddly attentive and sweet like this. Maybe they would be willing to let Nerevar and Voryn spend the rest of the time together, until it passed.

Afterwards though, there would be nothing else like this between them. And something inside Nerevar ached at the thought. 

“So tight…” Voryn moaned, fucking him from behind in the cart again. “Always so tight wrapped around my cock, aren’t you?” 

“You’re huge, that’s why…” Nerevar groaned into the cushion under him, his hips in the air. “Gods, even only half formed your knot is as big as the toy’s I have back home~” It felt so good, pumping in and out of him like that, the amount of slick his body was pouring out enough to make the glide relatively easy. 

“You like it, don’t you?” Voryn asked with a cocky tone. “I can tell just how much you like it, how much your body needs me…” He gave a sharper thrust, his tone shifting to demanding. “Tell me, Neht.” 

“Yes…” Nerevar groaned as Voryn grinded his hips forward, Nerevar’s legs trembling. “Yes, I love how big it is… I love how full I feel with your cock in me…” Nerevar gave a choked moan now, barely able to focus on keeping his voice down. He had to bury his face in fabric to muffle the sounds escaping him. “I love it when you knot me too, when you fill me to the brim~” Gods did he love the sensation. He was tired of feeling so very, very empty when he was in heat, and the feeling of being full of Voryn’s seed, his knot in place, Nerevar’s body locking around it in a desperate attempt to ensure conception as his body orgasmed non-stop-- “Please,” Nerevar pleaded, “Knot me, breed me, fill me up again~!” 

Voryn growled loudly at that, leaning over Nerevar’s body, nuzzling into his hair and neck, before licking at a scent gland. 

“You’re mine.” Voryn growled low, “All mine, Neht.” Nerevar tilted his head, his body growing all the more pliant at the possessive tone, before his body tensed, realization crashing over him. He brought a hand up, clamping it over his neck, just as Voryn went to bite down sharply. 

“Fuck!” Nerevar swore. It was hard enough to draw blood, but not enough to break his fingers thankfully. However, Voryn was displeased with that, growling aggressively, his pheromones heightening in rage. 

“W-wait until we’re back at Kogoruhn!” Nerevar quickly excused his actions, keeping his hand protectively over his neck. “Not here… Not like this…” Voryn’s hips didn’t stop thrusting, in fact seeming to get all the faster, his knot catching more and more on Nerevar’s entrance. “Please…”

“Nerevar…!” Voryn groaned loudly, before driving his knot in one last time, cumming inside him. 

The rush of heat of Voryn’s seed was quickly followed by his own orgasm, his body clamping down and milking his cock. If it wasn’t for the potions, Nerevar knew he’d be pregnant right now. It seemed impossible not to, not with how well his body was taking it, locking into place every time Voryn knotted him without fail. 

“Yes…” Nerevar groaned, another wave of pleasure washing over him, “Gods, yes…” Nerevar didn’t know how he’d be able to go back to just masturbating after this--after the pleasure he never knew could be so intense. 

After most of the pleasure died down, Nerevar’s legs feeling weak, Voryn pulled them to lay side by side, still connected, now nuzzling against Nerevar affectionately. 

“... Thank you for stopping me.” Voryn rubbed Nerevar’s hand apologetically, casting a quick healing spell on it. Nerevar hummed in response, thankful Voryn was thinking logically once more rather than his thoughts clouded by pure instinct. Nerevar knew it wasn’t his fault; he almost lost himself in the sensation too, all but ready and willing to accept it. 

“I don’t want to claim you here, like this.” Voryn continued, his voice soft and gentle as he held Nerevar’s hand now with a tenderness that had his heart aching. “Not in a fucking cart on the road… I want to do it properly, back at home.” 

Again, something inside Nerevar was aching at the knowledge they couldn’t. Especially not in the impenetrable walls of Kogoruhn. 

Nerevar wasn’t ignorant. He wasn’t the first commoner to lay with a noble, and he won’t be the last. A noble taking a mate was a very important, careful decision, not really left up to the individual in question but instead an agreement between houses and families. Even more important was the mate an heir to a Great House like Voryn was supposed to take, a careful attention to detail paid to every potential mate before they were so much as introduced, the whole council involved with planning the prospective partners. Already the council, including Voryn’s mother, were discussing omegas and betas that would be beneficial potential mates to introduce Voryn to, in hope there would be a good match between them. Chimer could take many spouses, but the children of a mated pair were given special importance, after all.

Nerevar, meanwhile, knew he wasn’t on that list and wouldn’t even be considered for it. He never dared to even dream of such a thing. Despite receiving an education alongside Voryn, he was Voryn’s playmate, not equal. Nerevar was a half-blood chimer, after all, sharing the blood of the nords who brutally subjugated him, and born in a small mining town belonging to House Mora. He was only really allowed to be so close to Voryn when they were younger and up until now because Morvani Dagoth loved spoiling Voryn. Morvani never took a mate officially a far as anyone knew, but there was a rumor that Voryn and Araynys’ father was her mate, which would explain why she loved spoiling them in particular, and it was only natural for many to name a child of a mated bond as your heir. 

For those that dared to take a mate without the consent of their families and house, it was well known and documented what would happen. The mated bond was swiftly and forcibly severed with magic, and the former mate exiled from the territory in shame. And that was if they were lucky. If the noblemer was particularly hostile to it, the council typically took every precaution to prevent it from happening again by killing their former lover, eliminating the risk entirely. 

Nerevar knew what would happen if Voryn even dared to try. It would be nothing good, potentially the end of his own life. Yet it was getting harder and harder to deny the pull, like a magnet pulling him in. It was getting impossible to deny this, whatever the hell it was, and that was what terrified him the most. Wherever the road they were walking down led to was bloodshed and heartbreak. 

He wasn’t allowed to want it. He knew he wasn’t allowed to and why, but despite all logical reasoning, his body was denying that reality. His body needed this like he needed water to drink and air to breathe, but there was no way of it possibly coming true. To even attempt it would mean never seeing voryn again, either in life or in death.

Nerevar wondered if voryn understood their circumstances. He had to know, didn't he? Voryn was smart. He was intelligent. He couldn't be ignorant to the reality of their lives and station. Perhaps Voryn only said he would mate with nerevar back and Kogoruhn simply to placate him. That, despite his own instinct running rampant, he knew better. He knew they couldn't, but it was Nerevar who first blurted out that they should wait until they arrived in Kogoruhn, so Voryn was under the impression Nerevar was the one expecting it. After all, if he refused right now rather than delayed it, Nerevar might not stop him the next time. He might instead selfishly let Voryn claim him and try to cling to him despite knowing it would mean his own end.

Nerevar didn't know what he preferred. Voryn being ignorant, or Voryn simply lying to him to placate him.