#it felt ooc but that could just be me

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

[necrotic-nephilim]

for the ask game (3)

au where all robins develop a mental link after fighting some magical criminal of the week. what would they see in each other's minds? what secrets and repressed feelings do they discover? how would they deal with it?

for the ask game!

oooh, i love telepathic links that end up revealing secrets. especially with a family like the Batfam, who are usually so convinced they're good enough at reading each other to not have many secrets kept. so weird reveals are always fun

if i did this, i'd do DamiTim. just because of all the like, "deep dark feelings that are being hidden" for Robin shipping, DamiTim is the most fun for me. you expect DickTim or DickJay or JayTim, even DamiDick. but there's something that's so enjoyable about Damian having his feelings forcibly outted. not just to Tim, but to everyone. the way it'd be an active landmine none of them knowing what to say but all feeling each other's reactions. i honestly think Damian would try to punch somebody about it. (also, if you do a history of TImSteph where they've had sex, Damian would be directly linked to Steph's memories of how Tim was in bed, so that's fun as both something horrifying and enlightening just to screw with his feelings some more.) would they end up together? in my head probably, but it'd be weird and likely toxic bc how do you date someone you know inside out and know exactly what they think of all your flaws and what parts of you they obsess over. the answer is not very well but hey, the sex is good-

i think Jason *directly* feeling how everyone felt about his death would really rock him. he's heard all the apologies, but part of him isn't convinced there's truth to them. so to be crushed by Dick's *grief* over his death would be a come to jesus moment for him. but on the less fun flipside, you have him feeling how Dick feels about him *now*. because Dick doesn't really *like* Jason and deep down, sees Jason as a lost cause. that's his "deep dark secret". and Jason would feel and know that from the one person who he still wants to believe in him. i really do think Jason would have the Worst Time with all this, overwhelmed with everyone's intimate and complex feelings over his death. Jason is a very defensive person when it comes to his death and how reactionary he gets when other people make it about them, not him. so for Jason to have to constantly deal with that in his head, i truly do think he'd lash out a bit. the arguments. yelling at Dick and feeling Dick's guilt and snapping bc Dick has no right to feel guilty now. feeling that Tim viewed Jason as a failure. it's just a damaging mindspace to be in and man do i think Jason would take a While to recover.

oddly though, i think it'd be a good bonding moment for Steph and Jason. we really don't get much exploration of Steph and Jason bonding over dying. bc sure, Steph didn't actually die, but she *did* experience the social death where everyone believed she was dead and mourned her as such for a good while. she also felt *directly* responsible for her own death. a lot of blame falls on Steph for War Games (for the Doylist reasons of sexism but yk) and Jason feels responsible for his own death for walking into a trap. but unlike Jason, Steph had no suit in a case, no memorials, her name held no infamy. so i think she deserves just a bit of righteous fury about how dramatic Jason can be while she just has to move on bc hey, it's not like she *really* died. and she buries those feelings well, but not well enough to hide them from a mental link. and Jason, who hasn't really considered Steph before because he was so wrapped up in his complex over Tim, confronts those feelings with her. if anyone is going to know how he feels, it's going to be her. you could do it platonic or romantic, but i do think when Jason sinks to his lowest, she's the one who snaps him out of it, both with tough love and genuine compassion for his situation.

for the less serious crack of it all: they're all going to have far too intimate knowledge of each other's sex lives. everyone's gonna know Dick has fucked Slade. everyone's gonna know Jason has fucked Talia. in my heart, i believe Tim has slept with Anarky (Lonnie, not Ulysses) and everyone would *know* that too. absolute judgment all around. it's the spider-man meme of "wait you've done WHAT with WHO" and honestly, it gives a nice distraction for the more serious feelings. it's a palette cleanser they can default to. like when the fighting gets a little too serious and they're cutting too deep for comfort, someone's going to blurt out "well at least i didn't fuck Deathstroke." and the whole moment goes awry with laughter. bc i do think, at the end of it once they get through the worst of the angst, they'd be closer for it and self-aware of the ridiculous nature of all this. it's enlightening, in a way to see how they all felt about their time as Robin and the baggage/trauma they hold. even the ugliest feelings they hold for each other don't completely suffocate the fondness/respect.

that said, knowing the baggage/trauma. oof. i don't think Dick has ever fully opened up about his history with Mirage/Tarantula/Liu and now it's forced to sit in the open. Damian has never admitted the worst of being raised in the League. Tim hasn't fully faced the suffocating image of his dead father and his deep-seated want to kill Boomerang. all those ugly truths they stamp down bc well, either you're a vigilante or you're a well adjusted person, are out in the open now. and it's ugly and gruesome to force those thoughts to be shared. they all want to comfort each other for different reasons, while simultaneously not wanting their own trauma to be acknowledged. it'd be fun to see who'd instinctively react to whose trauma first. because it's an overwhelming rush of information, and you just naturally get pulled in certain directions. i think Damian would react to Dick's history of sexual abuse first, whereas Jason would be reacting to the murderous rage TIm is trying to fight off. Tim is reacting to just how much guilt Steph carries about War Games and all of it is very crunchy. there's so much they'd all have to talk about and it'd take days for them to address it all, between the arguments about the ugly parts. would they come out stronger for it? yes. but only if they didn't kill each other in the process. i hesitate to do a "and they come out one big happy family" ending, bc it's not very in canon, but i do think the bond of the Robin mantle is something special. even when the link is broken, they hold onto a freakish understanding of each other. they react and move in sync, can fight together without needing words. are they emotionally on the same page/have they forgiven each other for the worst of it? absolutely not. but they've got each other backs. it's a very much "if you called i'd drop everything to save you. but also we don't have it in us to hang out casually." bond, which i think is deeply underrated in fanfiction. sometimes, you can care about people but you have to do it from a distance.

[lususnatura]

okay, but just imagine your muse trusting blamore enough to let it stay at their house while they go out to have a day out with a friend or something, only to discover that... upon arriving back at their house, that all of their food is just. GONE. like, it was never there in the first place, and the fridge has been completely raided. and when they walk in the door, blamore is just eating the last of the evidence.

SO when they naturally question him as to what the hell happened... it just goes 'wellll, i didn't want to leave your house to get food because you trusted me to look over it... but i also got hungry so' JSJSJ and they just give him a look that's both concerned + a little mad because how the hell did this creature devour their whole fridge within one day 💀 LMAOOO like, i suppose this is a cautionary tale of a sort to not leave blamore alone with your fridge, because... it will eat all of your muses food

[mamorigami]

here to once again complain about ft and just the. existence of irene & being the mother of erza, which subsequently didn't matter at all after that arc ended. im scratching my head still at the prospect of giving erza an on-page mother, especially so late in the story with no build up outside the arc. idk if im making this up but i remember reading that it wasn't intentional at first, but irene ended up looking so much like erza that it was implemented in the story. i think thats dumb and stupid and boring and dumb!! fair warning that i barely acknowledge irene and erza's familial relation, any development is going be heavily canon-divergent & full of my own tweaks in regards to irene and her story..

[djsangos]

//went to the dr and all they did was take my fucking blood... again

[bloodtwin]

@rotdame the comedic timing of this ask was absolutely impeccable. i am going to answer it IC, but first i just want you to know that the notification for it popped up on my phone in the middle of me putting on a wedding for puck & @bloodyarn in the sims 4. like this was on my screen right when you sent it ↓

i was like WELL. UM. THERE IS NOW, ACTUALLY

[accirax]

After I finished watching the English Dub of Disventure Camp: All Stars Season 6, I decided to check out the Spanish dub, because I was curious how the songs would sound in the series' original language. And, as it turns out... WOW, the lyrics of every song were super different!

I understand that translating a song is even harder than translating dialogue, because you have to deal with rhymes and meter on top of the original language barrier. However, to the extent that anyone is looking at the lyrics to make predictions or character analyses, I thought it was important to see how the themes were interpreted in both languages. Thus, I made this Google Doc to compare the English lyrics with the Spanish lyrics, alongside who was singing, to prove how different the opposing sets of lyrics are.

However, please note that I am not a native Spanish speaker. I took Spanish classes for many years, but I also haven't practiced in a while, so my translations could be a little off in some places, especially when it comes to verbs and their tenses. Still, I'm pretty confident that this is mostly correct, so I thought I'd share. Hope this is useful or at least interesting to some of you!

[heycoyotegirl]

wait actually quasi-rewrite of paxton's s4 arc:

starting this off by saying that I do genuinely enjoy the "people don't like me? oh shit i have to leave immediately" plot point (slaps the top of paxton's head: this boy can fit so much adhd coding in him), though I think it should've been longer than two weeks (and maybe not Just social problems)

also I liked miss thompson and thought she and paxton were fine together, but daxton owns my heart and soul, so she's just living her best life being a sub at the school, completely unaware of paxton's existence

with that out of the way, alt paxton arc:

I think it would've been fun and sexy for there to have been some sort of swim team tryouts/meeting at ASU, where paxton could blow everyone's times out of the water (pun intended) and then have some of the people on the team dislike him specifically for the thing that made him super popular in high school, in addition to his roommate's total apathy, but that's an optional change

first major change is don't have him go straight to working at the school. I'd either have him get a job at a community pool or maybe work out some sort of deal with the coach to sometimes get access to the school pool (the latter is logistically harder, so I'll be going the community pool route for the rest of this)

as in canon, devi needs something athletic for her applications. she reaches out to paxton to ask, and he suggests the girls swim team (does their school even have a girls swim team? who knows, but I'm going to say that it exists and has openings) ((I also think it would be good for devi to do something she’s BAD at. we got a bit of that from the relay race, but it was overshadowed by her scheming re: aneesa. and that was a one-time event, compared to training to join an actual team and participate in competitions))

devi is obviously leery of the prospect but paxton reassures her that he'll be right there and wont let anything happen to her

insert fun reference to him pulling her out of the pool at ben's party and probably a joke about the role reversal from when devi tutored him

also a deeper discussion about how she became paralyzed in a pool and could've drowned (this is a show about processing and healing from trauma, so let them Talk About The Trauma. the emotional and narrative through-line of "devi loses feeling in her legs" -> "devi regains feeling in her legs because of paxton" -> "paxton rescues devi from a pool" -> "paxton helps her feel safe to swim again" do you see the Vision?)

paxton teaches her to swim again. there is a pool kiss, obviously.

and at this point we can bring eric in (preferably with less fatphobia). he's noticed that paxton has been giving devi private lessons and also wants private lessons. paxton isn't sure because, yes, he really liked helping devi, but well, he lov really likes devi. also eric is annoying

devi encourages him to give it a shot, since he's a really good teacher (aka fun parallel of them both encouraging each other and pushing each other to be their best)

like canon, paxton teaches eric and realizes, oh shit, he might actually like teaching. like, in general and not just teaching devi specifically

the coach sees how he successfully trained eric and then tells paxton about the job opening, which segues into Daxton Drama (do they breakup so he can take this job? do they try to hide their relationship while paxton works at the school, and does that bring up old insecurities for devi, or has she gotten past those? does he turn down the job and go back to school right away? and in that case do they try long distance?)

[virtuousvigil]

i'm just. so disappointed bro. i'm so angry at the way i was tricked into believing you were something you weren't and even more outraged at hearing, both directly and by proxy, the way it impacted everyone else too, and how it's continuing to impact **** all because you can't pull your selfish head out of your ass for five fucking minutes to... i don't even know? learn how to interact with others authentically? learn how to be a fucking friend? yet your demands of everyone else always run so high and so dry. because you alone are the only one who matters or can be/is good at anything, right? even though you actually just fucking suck the life out of everything, including yourself? i wish i could just forget you dude. crossing paths with you and then allowing you to do all you've done since and having any compassion towards your transgressions has proven itself to be one of the biggest regrets in my fucking life. and such a goddamn waste of time, of energy, of love that was so much more genuine that you could ever comprehend... it's conflicting and complex the way i feel about you, about what happened between us, about what i continue to hear and see in the way you hurt those around me. and i feel all this guilt and shame for 1-going back on my own word to not ever let you have the chance at fucking me up/over the way you have for nearly 8 years and 2-allowing you the chance to hurt others because i forgave you for all the unforgivable things you've done and said to me that you swore you were past and understood. yet here we are, in the same place, with you doing the same fucking things and thinking you get brownie points for just not doing it for x amount of time when the whole problem is you should never be doing it at fucking all. and it's not anywhere as goddamn difficult as you make it out to be, nor is it anything specifically about us. everyone else see it, felt it, went through it to some varying degree with you. everyone else has been or is hurting because of what you did, and apparently how you continue to interact. and i mean, do it to me. whatever. my fucking fault for giving you the chance, for being stupid enough to confuse possession and obsession for love, for overlooking the obvious signs and symbols, for being so goddamn attracted to intensity when i know what i need is consistency. but to do it to him? to her? and then now, to her? and to act so goddamn clueless like you don't know full and damn well what you're doing and how it hurts? or maybe you don't know how it hurts. because you never listen, and all you care about or know how to understand is your own suffering. it's not some fate of the stars, it's not some stamp of your past, it's not some quirky cute trait that everyone should just learn to accept and swallow. you weren't fucking outcasted. you were opposed to the healthy, authentic connections and opportunity at your very finger tips because the only thing you know how to resonate with is the chaos that gives you some sick sort of satisfaction and thrill. all you know is how to destroy things so you can continue to cry wolf. as if your own teeth aren't bared and bloodied the whole goddamn time, mouth agape with all your actions that leave everyone aghast in disgust and disappointment. and i wish so badly i didn't have to think this about you, feel this about you, but what other option have you left me? you pushed me up and up and up against that ledge then screamed in horror when finally you stepped too close and i stepped off it and fell down to the depths of release from being cornered by you and now you're acting like it's my fault that all i am is splattered on the floor, spread too thin to be put back together again. you ruined us, and all you can do is sit and try to guilt me and mirror everyone else in some fucked up attempt of god even knows what.

i've been fine about it all, truly, until yesterday. spending nearly a whole 12 hours of time and an unworldly amount of energy to make god damn sure that she wouldn't have to be alone, to endure alone, to be completely sure that she could have support. and to hear that you, with all your free time and privileges that you refuse to acknowledge as privileges just because your uncomfortable with your own shortcomings, can't even offer a genuinely supportive word or presence? that you can't even let her be the center of what is truly one of the absolute worst fucking things that anyone on earth could ever have to go through, without trying to center your own wants or "needs" or feelings? that you can't put down that narcissistic ass mirroring to even just... ask what could help, or try any authentic route of making her feel better? god. for the first time in my life, i think i truly felt hate for you. rage unlike anything i've felt since him. i was right the last time. you can never be someone safe for me. you can never be someone who sees me or cares for me. you think you do because you care about keeping me close, because you care about the things i offer and do for you. but not me. never me.

what a fucking joke. i hope nothing for you but many long years of reflection, and truly, that you find some way to get some goddamn professional help. maybe you'll change. i still hope you do, that hate is still lined with all the love i can't ever break. but if this lapse of time and this whole experience over the entire year or so has solidified anything? it's that i need you to never be anywhere fucking near me and mine. it's that you never deserve a chance to step into or around or disturb my peace ever again. it's that i deserve to waste not another fucking breath on you. and if by some chance you find this and read this? just know whatever hurt you feel from it is yours alone to carry. yours alone to absorb. because why are you even here anyways? leave me fucking be. lay whatever it is you feel about me to rest like i have laid us to rest. or don't, i guess i don't care and i know i can't change you or what you choose to do.

but i can choose to never choose you again.

the little luxury of the whole idea as "love as a choice", i suppose.

you were right when you said you didn't know how to be my friend. but you should have kept being honest instead of lying to me that you would be able to tell me that now instead of lashing out on me. i wish you would have just admitted you don't know how to be a friend full stop, that you still didn't know how to, so i could have avoided all this fucking distress and hurt. i guess i needed it to solidify my own conclusions and decisions and to fully dissolve any feelings of regret or guilt or shame in simply stepping away but god fucking damnit. i'm so pissed off you got everyone else wrapped up in your bullshit too, to any degree, and for the part i played in introducing you into their lives when all you intended to do was take and take and take.

[caspersscareschool]

I'm going to make a dumb pointless post ok i hate in the movie that they decided suddenly that donnie haaaaates hugs and physical contact no matter what and presented this like it's always been a fact of his character when in fact in the show he sought out being squished to an abnormal degree including typically unfavorable scenerios like being on a crowded subway or crushed under a large dog or compressed in a giant bird pouch which leo Specifically knew he would enjoy enough to forgive her for calling him a slur . and would kill anyone for a hug

[nuclearspring]

thinking about a timeline in which benny actually just pulls off an independent new vegas thanks to a little luck and perseverance and a sufficiently dead mailman

[lususnatura]

🎤 🎤 🎤

a song that i associate with my muse meme!

AHH, hey, ramone!! thank you for sending in this prompt :D since you sent in three of the mic's, i shall now be treating you to three songs that make me think of blamore when i hear them / that i associate with it. an explanation of why i chose them will be in the tags <3

hozier - who we are.

icehouse - crazy.

depeche mode - personal jesus.

[musemelodies]

disney: toy story 5 is happening!

me: cool. i don’t want it.

disney: we’re bringing back woody and buzz!

me: cool. i still don’t want it. also isn’t woody’s story...ya know...done?

disney: nope!

me: :I

[darabeatha]

/ I say I do not like lb6 yet I have 4 characters that appear in it as muses

[talentforlying]

none of the muses on my hellblazer multi are linked to the canon of my constantine portrayal, but i think that i am going to bring my ellie's canon divergence over here (summary post) in regards to hellblazer #104 & its ramifications in 125-128, bc that still does not sit well with me and i will be annoying about it forever. john constantine respects chantinelle in this house, even if they did still betray each other in the end; they simply have too much history for him to be so pointlessly goddamn cruel when he knows full well that she would probably have agreed to a trade of some kind instead.

[gingerschnaps]

look at how they massacred my magician...