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starrspice · 1 year

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I get 90% of my AU ideas from early stage dreams or thoughts i have moments before drifting off to sleep

And I only tell you guys about the ones I think are really good

#there's one ive been dreaming about a lot lately #and its been done plenty of times before #but idk its just like #the one AU in my brain that isnt romantic #And instead of a self insert its ocs #and just #it hits very close to home sometimes #idk man I've been thinking about it alot #it's another of those ones where sun and moon get found and repaired post fire #idk #if anyone is super curious i might talk about it more #but its a thinly veiled protection of some of my irl concerns ig #starr stuff

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jesse-pinko · 6 months

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Every other aspect of Jesse’s trauma makes me go oh no poor blorbo :( but his relationship w his parents and thinking ab it in the context of the series aftermath actually makes me unwell… they never even knew him they only ever saw the worst in him and now they’ve had that validated by his own actions and they’ll never know how sorry he is and that he was a good kid at heart and they didn’t imagine it and they still love him but how can they have loved him if they never even knew him and only ever saw the worst in him *flatlines*

#i sometimes feel like i’m the only one here who cares ab jesse’s parents but look #i grew up upper middle class with very attentive parents who really loved me #who would also accuse me of doing really bizarre terrible shit based on nothing but me wearing too much black or reading the wrong things #the love is there but it’s conditional the love is unconditional bc you are my child but i don’t know or love you as a person #obviously jesse actually did some really bad shit but even before all that they thought of him more as a junkie than their son #not me unloading in the tags lol it just hits too close to home is all #if i ever put my parents through that shit i would have to kms sorry #breaking bad #brba #el camino #jesse pinkman #diane pinkman #adam pinkman

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frozentrash · 2 years

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About the last Buddy Daddies Episode.

A lot of people are talking about how Kazuki basically saw Rei and was like: let me fix him.

And I don't mean in a toxic way. More a let me help him get better you know?

And we LOVE that for Kazuki and Rei. They found each other when they both needed someone to be there.

But I can't stop thinking about how Rei LET HIM help him. As someone who also struggled with depression and the whole cleaning and eating and all that jazz not working, I know how hard it is to let people help you.

Rei let Kazuki clean the house.

He let him even bath him.

He let him cut his hair.

He let him cook and take care of him.

And that is so fucking hard. When I was at my lowest and in desperate need of help, it took a lot for me to let people in my house and let them help me clean the kitchen and all that.

So yes. I am very emotional about that.

I love them so so much.

#buddy daddies #the way they are healing is just fricking beautiful #rei is sometimes hitting to close to home though #i also want a kazuki in my life thank you very much #did i do that post thing right?

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shannonsketches · 1 month

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something something foils moving in opposite directions Goku's always happy to seek and fight stronger opponents because he spent most of his life being the strongest guy in the room and Vegeta wants to be the strongest/is always exhausted to find stronger opponents because he spent most of his life having to navigate his survival around the whims of the strongest guy in the universe room and so Goku has a foundation of safety and stability and so spends his time craving challenge and adventure and Vegeta has a foundation of challenge and adventure and spends his time craving safety and stability and the overlaid section of their venn diagram is that the only way they know how acquire and maintain those things is through battle

#thank you this has been the laziest media analysis post of my career #dbtag #media analysis #something something a game to goku is a threat to vegeta etc #there's a pinned thought here about how Vegeta also didn't learn about the dragon balls until he was ?? 30?? and so all loss is permanent #and goku has been familiar since he was ~12 and hasn't faced a permanent consequence since he was 10 years old and even then he got closure #sometimes I think about how Vegeta saw Trunks die and how Krillin was mad at him for reacting since they could fix it with the dragon balls #but Vegeta has very limited experience with the dragon so to him in that moment that was permanent and Trunks was Dead. Forever.#And we talked before in a 2am post about Vegeta having never experienced grief born of love and I stand by it because his feelings then wer #still very new and very odd and not something he'd accepted until that moment so it was raw power but not as powerful as it could've been #all this to say in my heart of hearts I think Vegeta deserves to retire at the end of super (if super continues) -- not as a warrior #but as an infantryman. he's a prince and now he's got his domain and his family and his planet to look after and I think he deserves #to go home and stay home and help piccolo bully gohan into training more often when goku inevitably leaves to hop the multiverse #geets wanted to take a sabbatical when Bulla was born but didn't get the chance because Freeza coming back freaked him out too much #but whether freeza gets a redemption arc or gets defeated -- Granolah's arc seemed to shift his perspective on being the strongest #and I just grips fist I just think it would be a really nice full circle for Vegeta to inherit his throne in a way he never expected and #finally get his kingdom to look after and protect in the way that he was looking forward to being king of his own planet all those years ag #Goku's got Broly and Jiren and Hit and all the others to keep him busy and happy now -- and if Freeza gets a redemption arc he'll probably #continue playing slap-ass with Goku for the rest of his life -- and Vegeta's got Gohan and Piccolo and Goten and Trunks #I just think them getting a nice bittersweet 'This is where we part ways' would be really nice for both of them because !!#They couldn't have done this without each other. They couldn't have known this kind of life was possible without each other.#So they swap lots and live happier than they ever imagined they could be #especially since Vegeta has proved to himself that he can close any gap Goku creates in progress that's not a concern anymore #And obvs the door's always open!! There's no point closing it Vegeta's tried the locks they don't work on Goku #anyway here's me putting the whole essay in the tags again #this isn't an essay as much as it is stream of consciousness tag blogging #anyway i'm too lazy to write fic or draw comics so we get ramblings instead

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shinkai-kaiju · 1 year

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if theres one thing im a huge sucker for, it's monster ecology. Monster hunter sometimes misses/goes for the rule of cool and "if the monster looks bad its probably dangerous and we should kill it NOW" and like. sometimes loses me. But sometimes they're fucking spot-on with designs and lore and ecological interactions.

#primordial malzeno is the most recent hit #caedeus is another cool one where its NOT EVIL but it has a horn growing over/into its eye making it upsetti #and once you break it off it calms down completely #not all elder dragons are evil (fatalis and amatsu dont interact) rven if theyre capable of human inteligence #they just do what is natural. Nergigante eats other elder dragons bc it has a role to fill in the ecosystem that deals with the abundant #bioenergy that elder dragons just. Have. You dont hunt female. child OR non-breeding season male mizutsunes #espinas is actually a very docile monster when it feels unthreatened.#a lot of the monsters are just. Animals eith behaviors that can sometimes be dangerous when they are irate to too close to human settlement #and there are tons of monsters that are out there thst we don't see in the gsmes bc they're not a danger to the ecosystem so theres no #reason to hunt them. even many elders mind their business until bothered #malzeno was just chillin in his territory and accidentally onliterated a kingdom he considered his duty to protect bc he got parasites thst #made him angry. He didnt mean it!! and when you help him clear it all up he just kinda. fucks back off to his home away from people!#itd just neat. ill never forgive them for xeno'jiiva ans safi'jiiva though. xeno hadnt done shit we slapped it upside its freshly hatched #head just completey unprompted #monster hunter #txt

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taliskermortem · 1 year

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look i just... dont like mew

#and tbh im not sure we're supposed to #like he has no depth to him at all #we seem to really only see him through other peoples eyes #im not sure if its on purpose but i would like to think it is #but literally every other character has had their flaws shown to us very clearly #and i dont trust people with no obvious flaws #i think part of it is personal experience #in particular that whole they are my emergency contact but i dont think im theirs line... like i felt that deeply #and not even in a romantic way... sometimes you view a friend as that importnant and close to you #and then you stop and realise no they wouldnt view you the same way #so for me that whole aspect hits a little too close to home #but even that aside #im just not sure we know anything about mew #and that makes him really hard to trust #he needs to grow some obvious flaws if he wants me to like him #only friend #ofts #only friends the series #mew

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girl-bateman · 1 month

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I can't tell if my sweet audrina is actually super well written or if I'm just obsessively compelled by it because of how deeply the story resonates

#my sweet audrina #i sometimes have to stop reading bc the book starts hitting WAY too close to home and that has never happened to me before 😭😭#i swear im not usually so sensitive when it comes to books. i mean hello american psycho is my fave book <3 #but this shit is making me legit anxious to read 😩😩#but i cant tell if vc andrews writing is better than it was in fita or if im just projecting and thus finding a deeper meaning in the story #aka is the book actually good or does it just tickle some very specific horrifying part of my psyche ?#books

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drysauce · 3 months

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truly a blessing that im not home right now or i don't what i'd do to my roommate. fucking audacity

#long story short results from the final test from water constructiona got posted #she got the 9th highest score out of all 150 people #i barely passed having 2 points over the limit and our 3rd friend was short on 3 points so she will have to retake #mind you that last girl was the one who actually put the most work into this out of us three #she actually thoroughly prepared me while i read the presentations twice and my roommate didn't do anything at all #roommate got a cheat sheet minutes before the test from some rando and just copied the answers that were there #and now is boasting how she got one of the top scores without wasting any time #got lucky okay that's life #but then on the general uni group chat one guy asked about when's the 2nd try for the test #and i response to which my roommate on our private group started a whole ass monologue #that how in the worst HE didn't pass this. he was always getting top scores from all the subject. he got a 5.0 from hydrology #well shut the fuck up he's just some guy who's a student like anyone else #it's not set in stone that he'll always have top scores because it's just fucking hard anyway can do worse sometimes even top students #maybe he was tired maybe he didn't have time to study maybe he didn't have any cheat sheets and just tried to rely on his knowledge #anything can happen and he can get any grade just like anyone can #very few things piss me off as much as people saying stuff like her #i got so heated up over this that my head started to hurt #i hate it here #this is what makes me always so damn anxious before any test #because if i fail everyone always starts asking what happened and how ME out of all people didn't pass #so now when dhe started saying this about that guy it just hit to close to home i guess #i need to go on a walk to cool down

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tinamybeloved · 1 year

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im an autistic adhd dream fan and it really makes me happy to see dream talk abt stimming type stuff and it makes me feel better about my stims too and same with when he talks about his adhd it makes me so happy and i feel Seen because its like… I do that too!!

☹️this is so cute anogie and I’m glad it makes you feel more seen

#asks #I am so very sensitive about mask (the song) for somewhat similiar reasons #like sometimes Dream does stuff that just hits so close to home

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hellhoundlair · 1 year

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venting sorry. i get emotional thinking of the media both me and my dad loved growing up and the father daughter bonds that were the highlights of those movies and tv shows to him and i feel like i failed

#my dad and i used to watch adventure time together and my dad LOVED simon and marcy and he learnt daddy why did you eat my fries on the #guitar and i used to sing it with him. and one time when i was 14 ish and severely depressed and anxious we had people over #and my dad was talking about adventure time lmao and was getting his guitar and wanted me to sing it with him and i just said NO.#because i was mad at him. and embarassed. and we never sung it together ever again. its been too long now. that window has closed.#but i wish we could #my relationships with my dad never really recovered after my teen years and its hard to talk to him.#i wish i could talk to him. we are really similar. in the bad ways too #vent #SORRY GUYS i need to find a therapist #my family just never talks abt their feelings. or when they do its when theyre angry. i dont feel like i can bring this up to them.#i just hate knowing i rejected my dad like that. he probably saw me not wanting to sing w him as very personal. not that hed ever say it #AND FUCKIN INTERSTELLAR me and my dad both loved interstellar at a time when i was -again- severely depressed and locking myself in my room #and the father and daughter go have scenes that feel very similar to things that were going on in my house at the time. where shes #baracading the door and not letting people in. it rly hit home is what im saying #and my dad loved the movie i loved it too but the family relationships in the movie were never discussed whenever we talked abt it #but for christmas one year my dad gave me a watch. like the one fuckin matthew mcconoughey give his daughter in the movie #and i wear it all the time. it makes me fuckin cry sometimes that stupid fucking watch. but it means so much.#i just wish hed talk abt his fucking feelings so i wouldnt need a watch to know my dad still loves me #also this post is about transitioning and my dad feeling like he lost that father daughter bond with me but we wont get into all that

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munch-mumbles · 6 months

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ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?'#and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.)#etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh?#and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

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kiingbiing · 10 months

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#talks #I get really sad that people don’t have splinter as their favorite #but I also understand #he’s a very very flawed parent who had to work with his circumstances and you saw him fail in some aspects #but damn that flaw is what got to me #he’s not perfect #I just appreciate him for all he did #he hits too close to home sometimes #their dynamic is too similar to me

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celestial-sapphicss · 2 years

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it's good that i already don't like jim as a guardian so i am not affected by wheather jim being homophobic in the previews is accurate or out of context, i do worry for little li ming though 😭

"but vi he's tryin-" no i have ZERO empathy and understanding for any bad guardian/parent. i don't care if you have trauma, i don't care if you're poor, i don't care about how difficult your like is, i don't care how much you love the kid but struggle to show it.

if you have to take care of a kid, you do so with love and affection and care regardless or your circumstances, which jim is not the best at, which automatically makes me dislike him as a character, no greys, only black & white.

yes you make mistakes as a parent, but you can always make it up to them, and it costs literally nothing to be kind. stop projecting your problems on your children

#vi.txt #sometimes shows hit too close to home and it hurts sksksks #thank you p'aof for depicting how frustrating it is to live in households with overbearing caretakers #yes its very real yes i still hate it #i agree with every argument of jim trying his best given his life age circumstances but those aren't reasons to condone his behaviour #just because its understandable doesn't mean its okay #because all that does is set a very dangerous precedent #there are parents who have gone through hell and a lot worse and still end up being a hundred times better and kinder #jim as a gay man should be protective of li ming because of how cruel the world is #instead of showing that same cruelty in his face in the name protection #you know all these things sound good that jim's intensions are good even if the way he conveys them isn't #but how are we forgetting that there's the mental health of a very real child at stake here who is only going to see the actions #moments like these are the ones that break you destroy you #stop making excuses for bad parenting it only makes it worse for children in abusive households to not feel guilty

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arolesbianism · 1 year

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Mizuki vc calling all besties, survive