#jess’s fave anon

[daydadahlias]

Omg do you have any fave sex work AUs? I love those too! Doesn’t matter which fandom.

ok if you're saying it doesn't matter which fandom I am in fact going to direct you to my literal holy grail: Filthy Lucre. this was THE fic for 16 yo Jess. and honestly it still holds up as one of my fave fics of all time.

[panelshowsource]

alex talked about that recently in this interview! [rubs hands together like a mischievous little shrimp] i hope we see it one day heh

hehehe it was a fun task! we've NEVER seen alex play such a character during a task like that — he's received cuddles and made demands and eaten meals, but this was next level Alex Acting — so that was really fun!

lucy talking incessantly about alex's legs but mans also got his long sparkly toes

i think people are too quick to call this or that iconic, but ngl the second i saw this final image...it's practically a horror movie poster...PERFECT

can you imagine greg davies being your drama teacher and then he quits to become a comedian and the next day you see him on tv as Massive Greg hand feeding a man with no teeth who is pretending to be a tortoise

honestly if that's the one that haunts you i'd say you got off pretty easy, i scrub my eyes with concrete mix every night to try and forget ass sandwich and yet... but hey at least when he hurt his hand he finally had an excuse for that stupid bandage he wears hahaha

she was being so sincere and he was Such A Little Shit 😭

you know what i was binging some simon stuff as well, since it was his birthday, and ran across this again after all these years!

aw anon i'm so glad ♡

moooost of my fave episodes are like ~2005–2015ish? probably the nostalgia!

21.01 with jess hynes bc she is an icon to me

21.05 love seeing simon and miquita together

21.07 with martin freeman

22.02 with stephen fucking fry YES

22.04 was crazy like conchords-era rhys darby was there (i LOVED flight of the conchords lmao) and then johnny vegas and danny dyer next to each other? what a lineup

22.12 with josh groban, omid, martin freeman, heston is an ALL-TIME CLASSIC

i LOVE the guest-hosted episodes with martin freeman, rhod gilbert, frankie boyle (especially 24.12 with miles jupp and professor green), jack dee, alex horne, kathy burke, and johnny vegas

23.12 doctor who special HANDS DOWN

24.02 it's hilarious how respectable catherine tate is offset by how ridiculous catherine tate is

25.06 when greg hosted with frankie boyle, h was there just being h, holly walsh angel, it was a riot

john barrowman is also extremely iconic on buzzcocks, probably most so on 19.05 but also when he hosted 25.12

there are tons of older episodes from the lamarr era that i love — bob mortimer is so funny on this series especially on sean's team, 12.05 when jimmy and claudia were with phill, fun to see ian dury on 5.01, and so on — but these above are some of my personal all-time faves!

aw i really appreciate the rec! first i would like to say i looked it up on youtube and stumbled across the american version and holy shit the dude who hosted brainsurge on nickelodeon is hosting that and WOW my brain would have died never having remembered he existed if i hadn't seen him just now — so that was very weird. ANYWAYS i'll check it out!

imo it didn't start with ben miller...rob is always like this... sometimes when the pod episodes are shorter (less than 10min? does he do that anymore), you can tell some of the bullshit is edited around, but now that they're longer-form conversations he is dominating every episode. i'm certainly no rob hater, but it's really unsurprising to me because facts are facts — rob is self-involved, extremely concerned about being seen and being heard, incredibly pouty if not outrightly bitter when he's not recognised, when fame/success doesn't chase him, when he's getting less from life than he believes he deserves. there are aspects of rob in the trip that aren't far from reality, if you see what i mean. rob is, honestly, quite showbiz. don't get me wrong, he's funny, affable, talented, we love him! but he's not a stellar podcast host because he doesn't have the attention span to let someone else have a moment. have a story. put something on the table. there are definitely times i give him the benefit of the doubt and assume he's trying to form a connection by sharing a related experience/feeling/whatever, but other times he's just being self-involved, pivoting the convo, and it is what it is. it's too bad when we don't always get lengthy, insightful content for someone we love — like miles, let's say — and when we finally do rob isn't doing his part; i felt that way about the dara episode. i don't think rob means any malice, it's just how he is...+ a dash of being a middle-aged white man in showbiz...

i got this one yesterday...

...and i'm going to dedicate it to you<3

and frankly sign me up for the woz/vcm experience i am happy to be a little tomato in that flapjack sandwich

you guys are really sweet, it makes me smile ♡ i don't know why some days the trolling can really get to you and other days you forget it in a couple blinks... i feel like i've been having some bad days. last week i saw something on my own dash with thousands of notes outright mocking me and i haven't really recovered from the uncomfortableness/just general hurt feelings. i want be better about letting those things go, but i also think a holiday break will do me good. anyways, thank you for always enjoying the blog and taking the time to be so kind ♡

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[dearest-painter]

I’m just thinking of 42!Miles,Aaron,Miguel,Jess and Peter B working together and getting a little overwhelmed in a fight then 42!Miles just yells for anomaly O’Hara!Reader’s name next thing they know there opponents are falling to the floor either dead or knocked out. Like I mean anomaly O’Hara!Reader doesn’t hold back when there family(42!Miles and Aaron) are in trouble. Like I mean they have there claws out and biting people.

(May you please make this either a one-shot or headcanon? If not that’s ok I enjoy your work)

Thank you Anon!

TW/CW:Yandere behavior, unhealthy behavior, unhealthy relationship, abusive relationship, abusive behavior, Reader kills someone, someone dies, DEATH, a fight, a few cuss words, Reader is OVERPROTECTIVE of their adoptive family, this is earth-42 so everyone is the 42 morales I’m just not adding it now, sorry if this isn’t what you really wanted I tried to make it make sense, tell me if I need to add anything

Summary:When family calls you answer, no matter where or what your doing you come to them. As long as your family says your name you’ll always be there for them because that’s what family does for each other, be there whenever needed…

Miles was doing his usual job as prowler and you were outside with Uncle Aaron as he didn’t need help. Rio was texting you as she was nervous but you calmed your mother until you heard “Y/N!” You left your phone and immediately rushed to Miles’s area. Miles was dealing with someone much more difficult then he can ever deal with and they came out of no where. “Awww calling for back up little prowler? I thought you were stronger then this” he hated it when they mocked him but the guy got a good hit on him and he injured his leg.

He can still walk but it hurts a lot. “Fuck you” That’s all Miles said, he knew you were on your way as he heard the clicking you made for echolocation so all he needs to do is keep the guy distracted. He kept moving around pissing the guy off but he needed you there. “STOP MOVING BRAT! JUST LET ME KI-“ he didn’t get to finish…they never get to finish their words when he yells for you. When he yells for you they have a few moments to live before you arrive.

There you were stabbing the guy over and over until the guys fave was only stab wounds. You immediately went to Miles. “You might need to take a break, the injury isn’t bad but not good to walk on” “I can deal with that..sorry for worrying you” “it’s what we siblings do, worry each other. Now let’s go home to mom, she made our favorite” he smiled as you threw his arm over his shoulder and held him for support.

He let out a chuckle, he knew mom was going to get on his ass but she’d be happy he returned home alive. She never approved of this lifestyle but it’s an easy way to get money since mom became the only income since dad died so he wanted to help. “Damn he got you good” Uncle Aaron chuckled as he unlocked the door. “Surprised me that’s all” “mhm sure, that’s totally true” you all chuckled as you got in the car. You wrapped and patched his injured leg, he leaned on your shoulder deciding to take a nap.

This is what family is, being there for each other no matter what happens. Family is where you feel safe and comfortable and this is his family, he loves his family. He and you will always make sure this family is protected as long as either of you are alive.

[malka-lisitsa]

Positivity anon here! Could I ask you to shout out to your five fave blogs? Just to make someone smile today and let them know you love their blog! Maybe even say a little about why!

Positivity Anon

Good I was hoping I'd get it on Katherine too.

TWO TIMES THE SHOUT OUT POWER!

Gonna shout out to people I don't shout out to AS MUCH as others i have before <3 but keep in mind I have a lot of amazing blogs on my follow list.

@klaeus / @elenaes Kiki I adore you more than I have the words to say. The bond we've grown between our muses across several accounts is near and dear to me and I'm so glad that we're friends. Thank you for knowing I'm an elitist bitch and loving me anyway <3

@deceptivemorals I shout out to your Nadia a lot but not your Elijah NEARLY ENOUGH. I Adore him Katherine adores him. I love the dynamic threads we have and I genuinely adore screaming back and fourth in DM's over their relationship. But also much love to your Nadia we both know how much I adore her, and AMARA TOO!!!

@ofvalor King is responsible for my signature PSD and also for the flawless portrayal of SO MANY AMAZING MUSES. Canon and OC- my doot if you don't follow you sure as shit need to fix that rn <3

@loyaltylanced JESS. JESSSSSSSS. Theres a reason your name rhymes with YES and its because you have all of mine. ALL OF MY YES. Portrayal, muse choice, mun? All of my Yes. Amazing 10/10 no notes.

@langdhon AVA- I adore you to the ends of the earth (and since its not flat we know that means endlessly <3) Every muse you pick up is just flawless. Midas touch but make it portrayals and grumpy angsty bois(tm). I'm so glad we met and became friends.

BONUS: @ladamedemartel I simply can't imagine my dash without Jules and Rory on it. Flawless portrayal for such an amazing muse. Truly iconic. We adore a bad bitch in this house and we have two on this blog to celebrate- mun AND muse <3

And none for Gretchen Wieners goodbye.

[webheadedhero]

Positivity anon here! Could I ask you to shout out to your five fave blogs? Just to make someone smile today and let them know you love their blog! Maybe even say a little about why!

you mean I have to narrow all of these great people down to five? can't do it jfaskl;jfd. okay uh lemme try and there's no way i'm gonna do five so some will be multiple for the same character.

@redhead-reporter & @watsonjackpot are both fantastic mj's, I will never get tired of seeing them on my dash and I love how they've brought mj to life in separate and unique ways. still staying true to their core characteristics, and being diehard petermj enthusiasts doesn't hurt either. they're both so kind and fun to talk to. legit i've talked to each of them about everything from comics to just shooting the shit, shaye and I obvs are both trashy reality show fans. they both have so much love to give when it comes to mj and you're missing out if you aren't following<3

@revenantinflames - jess is someone I've written with for such a long time and you can feel the love she has for johnny pour out in her writing. the way she knows just about everything about him in his comic run is insane, like actual expert in anything fantastic four related and top tier person. she's so sweet and fun to chit chat with, she's always interested in how you're doing and what's going on with you. you don't just feel like following number 326<3

@fightwing - kayla is so freaking kind and fun to plot with and just write with, she's so happy to talk and yell about your favorite characters with you!! also she's so accommodating like will make verses and figure out ways to fit nightwing into different universes simply to try and write with you. very quality writing partner<3

@biitchcakes - the jess-pert on spider-woman fjklasj. no but aurora is so kind and outgoing and so easy to plot and talk to. also so freaking knowledgeable on jess and it's crazy how she'll pull this inspiration from her comics?? and tbh I don't know too much about jess apart from seeing her in some stuff with pete (knowing they're obviously besties) but she's made me a (bigger) jess fan tbh. I didn't know how dorky and cute jess could be so it was so fun jfaslkdjf now gonna have to read more of her earlier stuff.<3

@malka-lisitsa - novi has a huge amount of love for katherine and understanding of her character. and i might be biased cause katherine is my favorite character from tvd but the way that you could pick anything she's written in a reply and ask her "why did she react like that?" and you'll get an explanation. it isn't just something from nothing. she's also a blast to talk to and plot with, very kind and thoughtful person 10/10 would recommend<3

[milogreer]

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[gregoftom]

I am finally getting round to reading the scripts and I am soooo !!!!! about how many more Greg scenes there were meant to be early in s1 and how he was really intended to be so prominent in the story (which makes sense that he’s somewhat jesse’s self insert) like at the hostel or calling his mum or buying shoes etc and in the original pilot script his character intro was after Logan and BEFORE Kendall like huuuuuhhh

there’s not much point to this message other than just to say I feel so validated re greg as my fave character bc I feel like more recently ppl have been dismissing him as unecessary/irrelevant or just a side note / foil to tomshiv but reading the scripts rlly makes u see how important his character is early in the show as the sympathetic audience proxy that is often shown in direct comparison to the Roy sibs (esp in the first ep that Logan openly says he likes Greg for the exact reason he doesn’t like his kids ie he’s actually fighting his way in from the ground up) like he’s literally the hook to get viewers into the show he’s a rlly important character ahhhh

ahhhhh anon!! yeah for real it sucks so much that SO much was cut for greg bc not only is it important for him as a character, but for others too like ewan, logan as you’ve mentioned here, tom. imo regardless of how much was cut from the show re: the scripts, i still feel like greg is an important and interesting character like, there’s a reason he became a fan favourite. the lack of content for him only really became an issue in s4, but i think personally that’s a general issue for many characters or hell, any character apart from the siblings. greg got the worst of it along with gerri imo and we got more focus on fucking. hugo? than gerri? smh.

anyway, greg is a main character also, like, he’s literally on posters w the sibs lmfao, not only season 4 but earlier too. the four siblings, logan, tom and greg. they’re the main characters. tom also got assblasted with the less focus gun, although not as much as others. having said all this i’m sad that you feel you have to be validated for greg to be your favourite like, you don’t need to have a reason my friend! even IF greg was irrelevant [which he isn’t he’s integral to the plot in several ways, even to the precious siblings [affectionate, i like the sibs too i just get tired of the passes they get over everyone else]] you don’t. need. to justify your enjoyment of him lmao??? no one does. if a character resonates with you, they just do. many a time is there a side or small character part with no content or little focus that someone might like, and that’s absolutely fine, if not frustrating haha. but for some reason mfs feel the need to point out constantly how greg is pointless and it’s Weirdo behaviour to like him and why would you and the show would be the same without him [i’ve seen this take which. lmfao] so it’s like. it makes greglovers feel the need to have to reason why he’s their fave.

i mean i could give you tonnes of reasons as to why he is important as a character but my main reason for liking him is i just fucking do. the end. checkmate atheists.

[toxicanonymity]

It's Halloween anon 🎃🔧 I saw the anon who wanted a Joelkemon theme song so I came up with this (it's beyond stupid but I had fun writing it 😂listen to the actual theme song first)

I wanna be the biggest slut

Like no one ever was

To cuck them all is my real test

To fuck them is my cause

I will go to the brothel, boo

Searching for a Joel

Night walks, stepdad, thighs out too

So they can fill my hoooles

[Chorus]

Joelkemon!

(Gotta fuck 'em all) On a dirty beddddd

Joelkemon!

Giving Raider some painful head

Oh, you're gonna cry

And watch Jesse/Jack jerk off and die

(Gotta fuck 'em all) A cock so true

Lincoln Joel I'm looking at you! [he's my fave🥰]

You slap me and I'll fuck you (Ooh, ooh)

Joelkémon! (Gotta fuck 'em all)

Gotta fuck 'em all

Yeah....

Slow 👏 Clap 👏 💀💀💀 And in the opening credits they would each stop what they're doing when their name comes up 90s style.

Thighs out is putting on sunscreen in a deck chair then lays back and lowers his shades at you with a raise of his eyebrows.

Raider is fluffing the dirty mattress then stands back, admires his work, and gives you a thumbs up.

Lincoln is picking apples off a tree, then turns around, casually tosses an apple and catches it.

Night walks finishes rolling a joint then lights it and slowly nods as he exhales.

Speakeasy is fucking someone and right as he comes the camera freezes on his face (Halloween Anon).

Stepdad closes his computer and spins around in his chair to smile with his hand casually on his thigh (@fan-fiction-floozy)

[cloud-somersault]

Spanish speaking anon with more songs recommendations!

I have now found more spanish songs that go with our gay monkeys!

“Dueles” by Jesse & Joy

“Bugambilia” by Nasa Histoires

“Vivir Sin Ti” by Nico Play

“Fantasmas” by Humbe

In english I found these:

“Arms Unfolding” by dodie

“Never Love an Anchor” by The Crane Wives

“Can’t Catch Me Now” by Olivia Rodrigo

“Movement” by Hozier (this one reminds me of chapter 12)

“Something in the Orange” by Zach Bryan

I know most of this songs are kind of sad but I can’t help it! The angst of the boys just calls to me lmao. I’ll probably find more of the spanish songs since those almost always talk about lost love or something like that.

Hope you enjoy them!

Aw, thank you!! I've listened to a few of these and I'll plant to listen to the rest over this weekend!! I love song recommendations. I'll put a heart next to my faves!! I'll link to them here so other people can listen, too!

“Dueles” by Jesse & Joy (sobbing...past shadowpeach...save me)

“Bugambilia” by Nasa Histoires 💕 (PURPLE FLOWERS FOR MAC!)

“Vivir Sin Ti” by Nico Play 💕 (Sad Wukong vibes, let's go)

“Fantasmas” by Humbe (We are just. in these angsty Wukong vibes)

“Arms Unfolding” by dodie 💕(THE PERFECT EPILOGUE SONG)

“Never Love an Anchor” by The Crane Wives

“Can’t Catch Me Now” by Olivia Rodrigo

“Movement” by Hozier (You are right! chapter 12 vibes)

“Something in the Orange” by Zach Bryan 💕(sad wukong vibes strike again 😭)

Thanks for all these recommendations! Hopefully all the links work 😅

[bropunzeling]

For director's commentary, anything you care to share for marriage bets, please and thank you! (They reach such breathtaking heights of stupidity, god I love them.)

ty anon! i love these absolute losers too. for you, the section from the spain chapter (my fave chapter 😊) where matthew says he's leaving calgary:

They settle up the tab, then start on their walk back to the hotel. As they walk, they stay close enough together that their elbows bump every other step [i loved writing the constant physical contact in this section. it does a lot of things: show you what kind of person leon is (demonstrative!); get at their increasing comfort with each other; it's also like, when you're with someone long distance, you do get more touchy feely than normal (or at least that was really the case in my experience!)], while Leon tells him more about his childhood, about where he grew up. Matthew comes away with only a hazy impression of Cologne itself, but a much clearer one of Leon’s family. Learning to skate surrounded by his dad’s teammates. Having Kim send him song suggestions when he got homesick as a teenager in Saskatchewan. Cooking lessons with his mom, most of which went badly, but a few things turned out okay.

Mostly, Matthew can see how much Leon likes them. Even though he must only get to see them for snatches of time, a few weeks a year. [i love the family/distance/loneliness themes in this fic a lot and i especially love it as a form of common ground for them to start building a real relationship. i may have said before but there was some post-trade quote from daryl sutter about matthew seeming lonely/spending all his time at the rink that really really informed this fic and the themes, and having the compare/contrast with leon was a nice like, foundational thing to build on]

“You must miss them,” Matthew says during a break in Leon’s recollections, as they wait for a crosswalk light to turn.

“I…” Leon trails off, then shrugs. “I mean, it’s been hard,” he says. “Pretty much always, but especially with—you know.”

“Yeah,” Matthew says. He does know. Even though there was only half the distance between himself and his own family, he knows. [they have more in common than they think! they can relate to each other!] He looks at the light on the other side of the street, focusing on the red man stopping them from stepping onto empty pavement. [spent [redacted] amount of time looking up spanish crosswalk signals like do they ALSO have the little red man in the hat?] “Do you ever think about moving back? Being closer?”

“And give up NHL hockey?” Leon clicks his tongue as he shakes his head. “No way. I want to play with guys at my level, you know?” [trade offs and what you'll do for what you want - another eternal theme in the jess bropunzeling catalog]

“No, no, I know,” Matthew says quickly. “But if that wasn’t an issue? Would you?”

This time, Leon sighs. “I don’t know,” he finally says. “Maybe.” [leon is lonely too!!!! when i was restarting this fic again (i had finished approximately the first two chapters and then took a 6 months hiatus for girl!leon reasons) and trying to figure out the flow, figuring out this aspect of leon's characterization for the fic really unlocked somrthing for me, because i needed a reason for them to want to continue besides sexual attraction, and once this hit me i was like duh!!! he's lonely, and this flirtation/connection to matthew is assuaging that loneliness]

The light turns. They start crossing. Matthew does his best not to stagger as all the drinks they’ve been having catch up with him.

Once they’ve crossed the street, Leon clears his throat. Matthew looks over at him, but Leon’s looking ahead. “It’s like,” he says, frowning in concentration. “Edmonton is good, right? Like, the guys, Connor and Ryan and Tyson and everyone—they’re great. The best.” [i was writing this around the time tyson barrie got traded and leon was SO SAD in his depression beige ensemble that i was like more tyson! it all needs more tyson!which then led to another fave scene of leon drunk dialing matthew from darnell's wedding] Matthew thinks about interrupting, saying something about his own impressions of Oilers past and present, but that would ruin the moment, and he doesn’t want to ruin it. “And I’ve been—it’s been good, the team, and everything. But.” Leon shrugs. “It’s not a good town to be alone in.” [no shade to the city of edmonton but there is not enough sunlight in the winter imo] [also like. being a pillar of the team in THAT town and not having someone else who gets it and can support you (without being a teammate, who would only be intimately tied to your struggle/unable to see things from the outside)? it would suck! i think!]

Matthew should say something. He doesn’t know what. He settles for swaying closer to Leon, for bringing them back into contact again. [touch touch touch] Judging by the way Leon doesn’t move away, that’s enough.

“So,” Leon says. “I don’t know. If there was an option to play closer to home… maybe.”

Matthew nods. Puts one foot carefully in front of the other, trying not to trip and stumble. Walking down the sidewalk, in a city he’s never been to before and may never visit again, his shoulder brushing against Leon’s with every other step, he has that soap bubble feeling again of suspension, impermanence. Like he’s somewhere where none of the rules matter, where he can say the things he’s been thinking about for weeks and they won’t become real yet. [i just like this paragraph a lot! that feeling of being somewhere unreal because it's late and you're drunk and sharing big secrets]

Things like: “I’m leaving.”

There’s a pause. Then, Leon says, in a tone Matthew doesn’t think he could decipher even if he were sober, “You’re leaving here early?” [poor leon is panicking so bad here and trying so hard not to show it]

Matthew shakes his head, hard enough that his vision spins. “No, no, not here. I mean—I’m leaving Calgary.” [also tipsy conversations are great for those little moments of miscommunication because the drunk mind really does make those leaps, so you can believably have people say one thing and have it interpreted another way without it being obnoxious]

Leon exhales, hard. “Oh.”

Another pause. Matthew looks up at where the palm trees are swaying and the stars are beginning to blink into appearance; stops when he starts to get dizzy. Fuck, they drank a lot tonight. When he stumbles, something catches him before he can eat it on the pavement. Leon’s hand, warm around his elbow. [TOUCH TOUCH TOUCH also like, leon just thrives in supportive boyfriend mode. he wants to be Supportive Boyfriend Leon so bad.] That makes it easier to explain. “I wasn’t—I’ve been thinking about it for a while. Most of this season, to be honest. But I wanted to get through the playoffs first. Wanted to—we were good, me and Johnny, and Lindy, and Marky. Solid. We could’ve—but we didn’t. And then I was—it’s really sucked, the last couple years. Not being able to go home, or see my family, or do anything, you know? All I have in Calgary is hockey, and we didn’t measure up.” He shrugs. Leon keeps holding on, which is—nice. “So. I’m gonna leave.”

They take a few more steps in silence. When Leon speaks, it’s very quiet. “Do you know where you’re going to go?”

Matthew shrugs again. “Not sure yet. East, probably. Tampa. Florida. Carolina. Maybe even St. Louis. I haven’t decided.” [catch me spending so much time reading that article in the athletic about how the trade went down just to inform this one paragraph]

Leon hums. Matthew imagines he can feel it, from somewhere deep in Leon’s chest traveling down his arm and up Matthew’s, until it finds a home in his ribs. [is this a little flowery? maybe, but i like it so it stayed] “It’ll be different. Not playing against you as much.”

That startles a laugh out of Matthew. “Yeah, I’m sure you’ll hate it. Battle of Alberta is going to be way more boring.” [flirt flirt flirt. in all seriousness though, i like this as a tension break, obviously, but also like - leon expressing something he means (bc he's very straightforward) and matthew treating it lightly/as an opportunity for a joke/to break the tension is just a nice way to demonstrate how they're far apart, still, in how they understand their relationship to each other. but also flirt flirt flirt]

“Maybe that’ll be nice,” Leon says lightly. “I could do with fewer bruises.” [you love the bruises you horny freaks]

“Come on, don’t lie. You’re gonna miss having me there.” Matthew grins, then feels it fade as what he’s said sinks in. Leon knows now. Leon could tell—someone. “Fuck, now you’ll have an advantage. I don’t even know why I’m telling you this.” He stops talking, squinting at the streetlights. “Why am I telling you this?” [i love this beat too! matthew tells leon his secrets almost without meaning to bc acknowledge it or not they trust each other now]

Leon’s hand tightens around his elbow, then loosens again. “I don’t know. Because I’m your husband, I guess?” [trying so hard to seem casual but he is sosososo not casual]

“Not a good one,” Matthew says, unable to stop himself from teasing.

“Hey.” On his next step, Leon bangs his shoulder straight into Matthew’s, hard enough to nearly send him off the sidewalk and into the street. [flirty! and yet again - physical contact bc theyre together and can do that now] The only reason he doesn’t fall over is because of Leon’s grip on his arm. “This trip was my idea, wasn’t it?”

“Yeah, because you were an asshole to me,” Matthew points out as he rights himself. [matthew is gonna milk that as much as he can lol] “It’s gonna take more than a nice vacation to make up for that.”

“Yeah?” Now Leon’s hand is sliding, traveling down to Matthew’s wrist, and then further, to wrap around his palm. [i love people holding hands bc i am a sap] “What else do I have to do, then?”

Matthew hums as loudly and obnoxiously as possible, [it is so important to me that they are both so obnoxious even when having important romantic moments] flexing his hand, testing Leon’s grip. “I’ll think about it.”

Leon laughs, but doesn’t let go. “You do that.”

“I will.” Matthew nods. “Gonna give you a—fuck, what’s the word. Fair shot.”

“That’s generous.”

“I’m a generous guy.” [i love banter!!!! for a romcom to romcom there must be banter!!!!! it's why the questions and the spain sequence were so fun to write]

“Even if it might help me win?” [OK so ORIGINALLY i did not have this line or the next exchange in my first draft, bc one of the things i was trying to do in this whole second half of the fic (from leon's apology up until leon's attempt to actually propose) was have you, the reader, and matthew, the pov character, just -- forget about the bet. it needed to seem and feel realer and realer, because what was happening between them was turning into a real relationship with a true sense of connection and honesty and sincerity, so (a) you get where leon is coming from with the proposal (bc his feelings are real! it's real to him! it has been for months! he thinks matthew would say yes!) and (b) MATTHEW can suddenly remember the bet and react so so badly because he wants that sincerity so much and thinks it was never there, and then you get him telling leon he won the bet and it all comes crashing down :)

the point being: i didn't have this and then my beta was like are you gonna bring up the bet??? because i keep forgetting there's a bet, and i was like okay i am maybe doing my job too well, we can have ONE more mention before the build up in chapters 7 and 8]

It takes a moment for the chirp to register. When it does, there’s a second where Matthew’s not sure what to say. He keeps forgetting about that part, the part where it’s a competition. There’s something about being here that’s made it slip his mind. [and this is why my beta was right bc then i can point to my own tricks hohoho] The wine, maybe, or the weather. Or Leon’s fingers, warm around Matthew’s hand. [also i just like these two sentences. hand holding!]

“Even then,” Matthew says. Adds, “But you’re not gonna win.” [competitive freaks in love :)]

Leon’s laugh is startled, pleased. Or at least, Matthew thinks it is. He’s pretty sure. “We’ll see about that.” [and he DOES win. he's a great husband :)]

[imjustwritingg]

The burzeks stans are absolutely a bunch of hypocrites.

With their faves and with their own behavior.

1. They think Kim and Adam are two angels and morally superior. Wrong, they are still cops...

2. They only care about Kevin when he is the best friend (remember how mad they were at Kevin during the season 8 finale? And Adam never apologized. Anyway)

3. They only care about Mak if she is good for ship content.

4. They don't care about the horrible things Voight do because they think he loves Kim like a daughter. What a fuck up logic.

5. They have everything and they're still jealous of Upstead.

6. They're jealous of Trasse too I'm sure.

7. They believe they're the moral police here and on Twitter. They say stupid shit and then play the victim when they're call out.

8. They're friends with that nasty group obsessed with Jesse and/or SB. People who said horrible things about Tracy.

9. They never call out the gross behavior of their own.

10. Or their faves, like their questionable vacation choices. Not as long she talks about Burzek of course.

11. They attack Reem but they love Paddy.

12. They can't stand that some people don't like Burzek and so they leave stupid anons on people asks.

13. They know the show is shit right now and their ship couldn't save it. They kissed Gwen's ass because they thought she would never touch them until...

14. Last night episode and now they're crying about cruelty. All because delete scenes... but we are the ones who always exaggerate, right?

Ugh.

This isn't publishable for obvious reasons but yeah, they're a horrible fandom with a second best ship and I hope the hiatus is long.

Oh, I’m posting this one. Not one damn lie was uttered. Go aawwwwf Anon.

[permanentreverie]

i’m not that anon but i’m jumping in because TWENTY ONE PILOTS 😭😭💙 it’s so funny, my interest in them will wane and then they’ll release something new and i’ll feel just like the teenager i was who fell in love with their music. 🥹

SOOO real of you for loving trench so much, same same 🤝 midwest indigo and navigating are ALSO my faves on the new album!! that and overcompensate 💃🏻

holding on to you has always been MY song tho, i really can’t describe what it means to me

omg hi jess 🥰🥰

their songs are just so good aren’t they?? it’s truly almost a genre all of its own, the concepts they have for their albums are so incredibly good!! i can’t believe i forgot holding onto you that song is AMAZING!

[daydadahlias]

Hey Jess! Sorry for the unclear ask yesterday, as I accidentally left the actual question I had out… So, basically I noticed (from what I’ve read so far) that you usually write about a pair getting together as the main storyline, and I wondered if you prefer that over writing established relationships, that you often only have in the background. You can definitely elaborate about this too.

Also, I’m quite the omnivore when it comes to fics, so no worries about me filtering stuff (of course I have my preferences, but it’s not like I’m gonna go “eww, Luke..! 🤮 Ignore” 😜) or blocking you.

hi anon, welcome back <3 thank you for explaining!! now I understand what you mean and my answer for this will be far briefer lol.

I definitely on the whole prefer to write fics where the main pairing are not yet together and that's what the narrative is ultimately building toward. I'm a Plot-First kind of girlie (as in, I really love planning plots and writing them) and it is really hard to make a fleshed-out and interesting plot about a pre-established relationship. The only fic that I have that really has a plot and is pre-established is my leaked sex tape fic (it's one of my faves I've ever written tho!! <3).

other than that outlier, if I write a pre-established relationship fic, it tends to just be pwp or a little one-shot (which isn't a bad thing but, I don't write those as much as I write plotted fics, I think, bc plotted fics are more fun for me). it's hard to keep the momentum going w/ established relationships and I don't really like writing fluff so it's hard to do that too. I would struggle writing a fic over 10k that's pre-established relationship and what I really love doing is writing longer stories so that's why most of mine are unestablished and build to getting together :)

also, dw !! you'll find a different completely valid reason to block me im sure <3

[coldflasher]

Joe flr character bingo? 👀

sorry anon i was outside in the garden planting raspberry bushes. anyway this is SUCH a good one and I am kinda mad there are so few squares I can tick off for Joe bc i genuinely love him but not like That

Joe is such a comfort character for me in a very diff way. he makes my daddy issues go brrrrr cos THIS is a dad. THE dad of all time. if i could pick any dad ever to have instead of mine i think i'd pick him.

I think he's so fucking funny first of all. it's my fave thing to put him in a fic and just. mess with him. im poking him with a stick. im watching his blood pressure go up. i'm making him deal with leonard snart and he's about to explode every time they're in a room together. i just. have so many affectionate feelings for him and his seething hatred of this man. and the earth 2 version where he's exactly like that but to BARRY? iconic. no notes. rip earth 2 joe you were a bitch and i miss you sm

THAT BEING SAID there are things about him that make me go "you should have faced more consequences for that. go sit in a corner and think about what you've done." namely bullying iris out of being a cop (acab etc. etc. but still shitty of him), the whole thing where he was like BARRY, WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK MY PERMISSION TO MARRY IRIS (and iris AGREED 🤮🤮🤮 who the fuck was in charge of the writers' room that day, i just wanna talk), the fact that he can be overbearing and controlling of his kids and very jaded in a lot of ways... idk he's a flawed character and every character needs some negative aspects so none of these things affect my love for him but sometimes i am shaking my head in disapproval...

as for canon. this is true of everything but MAN did they drop the ball with him towards the end... i get why they had joe quit ccpd given the political situation at the time and i support that 100% but first of all, having a Black character go "hey the police force in my city is inherently corrupt and i can no longer be complicit in its enforcement" (true and correct) while their white hero just does not acknowledge that corruption and continues to work for the same establishment completely uncritically was... perhaps not sending the message they intended... i mean it's honestly almost funny cos that is very much a reflection of the actual systems but. maybe they could have thought about that one a bit more...

and they really should have given joe something else to do cos he ended up sorta directionless after that. in fairness i know jesse l martin has back problems so i think them having him sitting down chilling at home as a stay at home dad was perhaps borne of necessity in a lot of ways but they defo could have done more interesting things with the character. im not OPPOSED to sahd joe but it does seem like a bit of a waste cos it would just be like. every episode joe shows up for a pep talk then goes back to being the full-time stay at home parent for a child we literally never see except one time when a window explodes in her face, which brings me to my NEXT point---

writing joe out with LITERALLY like 8 eps to go? stupid. again i respect that jesse l martin had HAD it with this show (tbf who hadnt by this point) and he wanted out, of course he had every right to do that, but purely based on the context of the show, i hate that they had him leave central city like that and move so far away when we were so close to the finish line. HAAATE it. the show was basically on life support from that point on. it was possibly worse than when we lost cisco. joe was the heart of it, man. it just wasn't the same :(

but yes I LOVE JOE, he is the only fictional dad i respect and i love ruining his life

[lcstinfantasy]

Positivity anon here! Could I ask you to shout out to your five fave blogs? Just to make someone smile today and let them know you love their blog! Maybe even say a little about why!

positivity nonnie!!

asdfghjkl this is so cute and i love it!

@nanlanmo ; hil, my wife, my love!!!! i swear the world aligned and brought us together. you are the most loving person i have ever met. no matter what you always hold so much love and it's hard not to feel the same when you talk about it. you have such a light to you that just brightens up people's days. you made me (as well as dakota) fall in love with jess. you're writing is incredible and beautiful and i'm just obsessed with you. i love youuuu

@frxgmcnts; THE LOML, got going on 6 years strong and i will forever be grateful for you. you have been the best friend, always leaning an ear when needing to vent. loving all of my insane plot ideas and character. each of out 100+ ships has the biggest part of my heart. each one is so well thought out and planned, you're writing is beautiful, captivating and i'm just 😍😍 i love you a million times around

@houseofwisteria my other wife, my baby, my forever and ever -- between the over all vibes of you and the overall vibes of your blog -- you are the epitome of your alias. you are always so bright, loving, sweet. ready for action and anything i thought at you. our ships are some of my dearest because they're just so perfect (even when flawed and sad lol). your writing shows just how much you love your characters. i love you i love you i love you.

@ner0tic; my witchy sister for life!! each day that passes you help me grown and learn. i love your passion and all the voice notes. you're writing is so amazing and i tell you all the time how impressed i am by the fact that you're writing a whole ass book. you are seriously just amazing and ily

@prosperae ; my sweetie, my love. i swear to god rachel ambers is your character (as well as other). your writing caught my eye and dragged me in instantly. everything you write is so beautiful. your personality? a plus star. you know the gold star board in spongebob? you'd have the whole board? seriously you are so sweet and always down for anything and i am so lucky to call you a friend. i love youu

[blueflare7pkmn]

💥

I agree with anon, jesse is hideous. Good thing he hides behind makeup so we don't have to see his fave

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