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Best friend!JJ who is so completely and utterly in love with you. You’re everything to him
Best friend!JJ who shows up late at night when you call him scared, saying there’s a man following you while you walk your dog
Best friend!JJ who has mini packets of sour patch kids and singular jolly ranchers scattered around the chateau and the boat incase your blood sugar drops
Best friend!JJ who helps you wash your hair when you’re at your worst
Best friend!JJ whose heart drops every time you stumble over the first of the chateau’s porch
Best friend!JJ whose camera roll is filled with pictures of you and you only
Best friend!JJ who holds your hand when you get in and off the boat
Best friend!JJ who gets into your bed with grabby hands while saying any and everything in strange voices to cheer you up
Best friend!JJ who you giggle with late at night at absolutely nothing, promising to be quiet and stop laughing (you both know that neither of you will be able to stop laughing until someone falls asleep)
Best friend!JJ who purposely breaths into your ear so you turn around and pout
Best friend!JJ who constantly falls but acts like it didn’t happen because it makes you laugh
Best friend!JJ who does the dishes because you cooked
Best friend!JJ you cleans your glasses with his shirt for you
Best friend!JJ who kisses your forehead goodnight
Best friend!JJ who gives you a knowing smile when you lie about drinking the last soda in the fridge (hiding the can behind your back)
Best friend!JJ who pulls at strands of your hair when he wants your attention
Best friend!JJ who doesn’t think he can survive a day without you. Whose heart only beats for you. Who has only imagined the moment he finally confesses his feeling for you a million times
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randomoutsiders · 4 months
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JJ and his gf that’s just a cat in a human’s body <33
Not in some weird furry way, just as in she’s almost always napping, frequently hangry, lives and breathes cuddles, has short bursts of hyperactivity and clumsiness followed by laziness, kind of a ditz but very wise, very introverted unless she’s around her friends (and JJ)
lowk a black cat x golden retriever archetype because we all know JJ’s a golden retriever🫶
the sun, paired with the lack of shade, has forced perspiration to coat every limb, clinging, in its clingy nature, to every nook and cranny of what should not be clammy. light is escaping behind the shoreline, and you're still grumpy, cheek smooshing into jj's bare knee from your seat on the boat's floor. fatigue is weighing down your lids, but you're determined in your consciousness. a gentle hand smooths over your drying hair, and you peer up at the blond with tired eyes. "are we almost there?"
jj smiles, smoothing out the wrinkle between your brows with the pad of his thumb. "almost. you tired?"
you shake your head, but betray your denial with a knuckling at your irises. "here," he offers, retracting his warm embrace to ruffle through his tote at his right, soon finding a granola bar in its opening. "you swam a lot today, hm?"
you nod against his thigh, accepting the snack with a docile smile. "how'd you know?"
his cheeks dimple. "i was right there with ya, cupcake."
your eyes roll and the wrapper crinkles when you rip it apart for the tasty treat inside. "you're practically shaking right now. are you gonna go back in the water?" a splash echoes behind you before john b resurfaces and bark sounds soon after.
jj's features disappear when he turns over the back of the boat to find his friend, and you squeeze at his knee. "go," you muffle around a mouthful of oats. "i'll be fine. sleeping, maybe, but fine."
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erule · 1 year
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Do I look like I care? | jj maybank
Pairing: JJ Maybank x fem!Kook!reader
Summary: you ask JJ to dance with you at the Midsummer, but things don’t go as planned.
Warnings: jealous!JJ, established relationship, fluff
Word count: 1.1K
A/N: hi! I loved 1x05, so here’s something about it. Hope you like it. Enjoy! x
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It’s a hot Sunday afternoon, you’re on your boat with JJ, who’s smoking with his sunglasses on. You were talking about the Midsummer dance, since you’re a Kook and your family wants you to go there. Topper offered to be your partner and you agreed, since your boyfriend, a Pogue, can’t participate. Still, you hoped that JJ would have said something about it, moved by jealousy perhaps or the desire to make you happy, but he just seemed unconcerned.
“So, you’re telling me that you’re not even a little bit jealous of Topper?”
He shrugs, breathing out some smoke.
“Do I look like I would be jealous of somebody like Topper?”
“You certainly look like somebody who wouldn’t come to the dance with me,” you reply, testily.
“Babe, you just have to tell me. One word and I do whatever you like. If you want me to be there, I’ll be there,” he says with a smile.
You’re suddenly suspicious: it’s true, JJ would always agree to do something with you, especially dangerous things, but this time it feels like a trap. You’re now sure he’s trying to hide his protectiveness towards you, so you try to push him over the edge.
“Are you sure, J? I mean, you should wear a suit, maybe even pretend to be a waiter to be there and dance with me, something that you don’t even like to do, in front of my parents and the other Kooks. It’s not really your cup of tea,” you say, observing every muscle of your boyfriend. He still seems really calm, but you see a jolt in his hand, while he’s putting out his cigarette. Oh, he’s so jealous. You got him!
“Do I look like I care?” He asks you with effrontery.
You shake your head.
“I think that you’re gonna handle it perfectly,” you answer, giving him a peck on the lips.
Tonight’s the night. You’re wearing your best dress, JJ sent you a text telling you that the plan is still in motion with John B. You’re a little bit nervous: you don’t like pushing JJ’s buttons, but this is important to you and you don’t want to be there with somebody who’s not your boyfriend. This is also the only way to have him there, since your parents don’t approve your relationship with him for obvious reasons. You just hope that they won’t see him or, at least, that they’ll just let him be. Speaking of your parents, they’re calling out your name right now.
Ten minutes later, you’re there with Topper, but you don’t see JJ nearby. You’re turning around too often, so Topper starts getting suspicious about it.
“Is everything okay? Is somebody following you or something?” He jokes.
“What?”
His voice is so irritating, you can’t believe that your parents would love to have him as your boyfriend instead of JJ.
“You’re acting weird, please stop,” he whispers to your ear, while smiling to the people in the room.
“And you’re acting like my father,” you say, then you leave his embrace and go away.
This is not going as planned: JJ is nowhere to be seen and your parents already look lost, because you just left Topper’s side. You breathe out, hoping that Sarah or Kie will appear soon next to you.
“Hey, I’m sorry about earlier,” you hear Topper’s voice behind you. You sigh.
“Topper, you’re a good guy, but…”
“I also forgot to mention that you look really beautiful, tonight,” he adds.
“And this is my time to interfere. Hi Topper, please leave my girl alone, she already has a boyfriend,” JJ says and when you turn around, you see him with some empty glasses on a tray.
“Who made you work here?” Topper asks, surprised.
“Do you work for the police?” JJ replies, shaking his head. “Come on, go away, she saved all of her dances just for me, so you can bore someone else”.
You burst out laughing and Topper mustn't like it, because he runs away livid with rage, probably to call Rafe and his other friends to kick JJ out, but you don't care: he's finally here. JJ leaves the silver plate so he can dance with you.
“You were jealous,” you say, while he’s holding your waist.
“No, I told you: I don’t care”.
“You’re such a liar,” you reply, a smirk on your face.
“Whatever,” he says.
Then he leans down to mutter these words in your ear: "But if you thought I wanted to be the only one to lay a hand on you, you were completely right."
Shivers get down your spine, when you hear his hoarse voice. You didn't even realize you closed your eyes. Now you just feel the heat of JJ's body against yours as you slow dance, the cool air rushing up your ankles. This could be the best moment of your life.
If it weren't for JJ who’s now pulling you away, because Rafe and Topper are chasing you. You run off to the beach, your parents yelling after you, while you laugh and feel free, taking off your heels for more comfort. He takes off his bow tie, throwing it behind him. Luckily your boat is nearby, so you two get on that and hide in the cabin, hoping that the others have not seen you, because you are protected by the darkness of the night. JJ’s still trying to catch his breath, while you’re chuckling.
“What?”
“I’m just thinking about Topper’s face when you appeared,” you answer and he laughs.
“He’s so irritating”.
“Right?”
“He never had a chance with you anyway,” JJ says.
You give him a sly look.
“Why? ‘Cause it’s always been you?”
“No, ‘cause you’re obviously better than him. You’re way out of my league too, honestly. Sometimes I even wonder why you’re with me. You’re better than everybody,” he answers and your heart melts.
You cup his face, your hands caressing his warm skin. His eyes are so blue, they seem the ocean and you’d like to swim into them. He’s holding his breath, as if he’s waiting for you to break up with him right here, right now. But you’re not gonna do that.
“You underestimate yourself, babe. I’m lucky to have you by my side, my knight in shining armor,” you say. “Also, you should put on these elegant clothes more often”.
“Oh, is it?” He asks, his lips on yours.
“Yeah,” you answer with a smile, before he kisses you. “Admit that you were jealous!”
“I was jealous, okay?” JJ squeals, exasperated. “Now let me kiss you!”
You knew it.
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kinokomoonshine · 9 months
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I do this certain thing that is very JJ Maybank and Eddie Munsons codded - sometimes I lean in and grab a persons face pretending to go kiss their cheek when I actually bite it or lick it.
And I bet that JJ and Eds would do the same and laugh at your reaction.
Sometimes, my friends clean it on me or chase me trying to lick me back, and I think that would happen between you too as well.
It doesn't matter who licked or bited who first. It's probably forgotten by now with you sitting on top of him making out, but as soon as you break for air, he feels something wet on his cheek, and you're no longer on his lap, but running away from him laughing letting out a "I WON!"
And he's now trying to catch you and manhandle you back to where you were with a soft sigh, "you little minx..."
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rafesmuse · 20 days
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jj maybank’s hot and confident baddie!gf hcs ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
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navigation . outfits . masterlist . rafe version .
ꨄ︎ this man is head over heels for you, kissing the ground you walk on type of energy. golden retriever & black cat couple. his friends frequently joke that you wear the pants in the relationship but he doesn’t care about anyone’s opinion— he feels like the luckiest man alive. “i’m her bitch? hell yeah i am.”
ꨄ︎ he feels so proud when you stick up for him, especially against the kooks. he’s ready to fight anyone that disrespects him but before he gets the chance, you’re already putting them in their place. he proudly watches you with the biggest smile on his face, letting you do your thing. “that’s my girl.”
ꨄ︎ doesn’t mind being submissive for you in the bedroom. calls you ‘mommy’ sometimes and lets you take control whenever you want to— it’s so fucking hot to him. he loves it when you praise him while you’re rocking your hips back and forth on his cock, whispering in his ear what a good boy he is.
ꨄ︎ he’s completely obsessed with you. always taking candid pictures of you and setting them as his lockscreen. his instagram page is filled with you as well, whether it’s the two of you together or just you alone. he’s literally your biggest fan and hypeman. “turn your head juuuust a bit to the left mamas, need to get that highlighter on camera.”
ꨄ︎ this man does anything for you. and with anything i mean anything. you ask for it and he will get it, no matter what. “oh, you think that puppy is cute? alright, ma’am. gimme three… maybe four working days and a puppy will be delivered right to your door step.” “j, that’s not wha-“ “sssh, just lemme make my girl happy.”
ꨄ︎ poor baby gets so sad when you get attention from men. he refuses to talk to you for an hour and will pout and sulk all day with his arms crossed. “he totally wanted to fuck you babe” “don’t be stupid, he was the goddamn waiter!” “so? doesn’t mean he didn’t wanna fuck you. did you see the way he looked at you when he served us those burgers?!”
ꨄ︎ you’re very protective of him and you make sure luke won’t ever lay a finger on jj again. jj spends most of his time at your house because he feels so at ease there, but if he needs to grab something from his house, you always go with him. if it escalates, you will have jj’s back before it gets out of hand. "listen, 'cause I'm only gonna say it once. touch him again and you're gonna be in big fucking trouble, got it?”
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cherienymphe · 1 year
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So, without spoiling this story, can we have a head cannon for dark JJ? What are some of his actions and behaviors?
• jealousy manifests in constant smothering
• doesn't want to be like his dad so resorts to manipulation
• guilt tripping
• will purposely have an accident with his bike or while surfing just to keep your attention
• will sew discord in your relationship
• convince you that whoever you're with is lying or not completely truthful
• will make sure he's the shoulder you cry on
• won't purposely get you drunk but won't discourage you either
• will absolutely get you high though and convince you that high sex is the best sex
• will touch you while you're under the influence. Gradually at first. Fingers grazing over you until your reluctance turns to slight begging, pushing your hips towards his hand
• likes to corner you in the hot tub
• anytime you want him to leave he's conveniently having a bad episode and thinking about his dad
• will milk that until the cow is dry, you hear me?
• won't threaten you but will pull out his gun on whoever is interested in you
• will happily scare all of your suitors away
• will put it in your head that he's the only one who cares about you
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byronlc · 2 months
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Cats or dogs? (headcanons for my muses)
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Rafe Cameron: likes dogs, but was never allowed to have one because Sarah was allergic and Ward didn’t trust his son with a pet
Barry: cats
JJ Maybank: dogs
Trevor Anderson: doesn’t care about either (cat person)
Ryan Atwood: dogs
James Rennie: dogs
Dale Barbara: dogs
Zach Dempsey: cats and dogs
Zach MacLaren: is a puppy dog himself
Luke Riordan: dogs
Chase Collins: cats (and spiders)
Carlisle Cullen: dogs naturally fear him, cats respect him
Liam/Angel: dogs naturally hate him, cats tolerate him and he respects them
Grayson Maxwell Parker: is afraid of both cats and dogs, but they love him
Warren Anderson: dogs, owns one
Henry J. Cooper: cats
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andvenuscried · 11 months
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NAVIGATION.
masterlist is below <3
MOST RECENT WORKS!
✮ toxic!anakin hc’s :)
✮ modern!anakin as your professor and your boyfriend
GET TO KNOW ME!
about me!
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✮ avatar.
CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:
✎ jake sully, tonowari (the iconic dilf duo lmao), neteyam, lo’ak
✮ genshin impact.
CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:
✎ all male characters EXCEPT for underage male characters (big zhongli fan here btw. zhongli asks might get done faster. hahah. totally not biased)
✮ spiderverse universe.
CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:
✎ spider noir, miguel o’hara (SMASH), peter b parker
✮ star wars.
CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:
✎ anakin skywalker (my fav red flag!), hayden christensen (idc that there is a 10+ year age gap. would be his controversially young girlfriend IN A HEARTBEAT.)
✮ outer banks.
CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:
✎ rafe cameron (he’s so MWAH), jj maybank (love of my life. literally.) john b, topper (red flag asshole but still smash), kelce
request box is currently OPENED.
(send me requests pls!!)
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other fandoms coming soon…
✮ criminal minds! (spencer reid, aaron hotchner)
✮ the walking dead! (rick grimes and daryl dixon)
✮ bridgerton! (the bridgerton brothers, young!king george)
< enjoy your stay!! >
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"We're not selling the Twinkie!"
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echobx · 6 days
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i would die for some prompts right now
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steddiemunsington · 1 year
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hi yes hello it's me (again) i hope you're doing well
I've been procrastinating watching s3 so can i please have some more bby jj hcs?
lots of love <3
<3 hello again!! i haven't watched either jkhbff but yes i always have baby jj hcs ready
he gets so grumpy when hes hungry. after a full day of swimming and surfing theyre all leaving the beach and hes like >:( and the pogues are like?? what happened you were just having fun but then kie takes them to her family's restaurant and he gets some food in his tummy and he's a happy baby again
some nights he can't sleep without a hand rubbing his back or someone playing in his hair
has nightmares about his dad and wakes up crying, but luckily his bee and/or bubba are usually there to console him
macaroni and cheese is one of his favorite foods when regressed. also loves goldfish snacks
he and john b are def bluey kids (they love trying out aussie accents)
he probably has dinosaur toys and will make them roar n stuff
brings ALL of his plushies to cuddle with in the hammock
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JJ Maybank Masterlist
🍋Concepts🍋:
JJ's favorite place
JJ proposing
JJ changing his habits
JJ's first child
JJ in timeout
🍋Blurbs🍋:
Best Friend!jj
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randomoutsiders · 4 months
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j.m dialogues
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casual dominance
throat fucking
corruption kink with kook!reader (anotha) (anotha)
angry sex with kook!reader
blowjobs in the back of the twinkie
fingerfucking in the twinkie with the clan unknowing
daddy kink
oral while the others sleep
doggy style
jj is such a good dad (anotha)
enemies to lovers
hot tub sex
new girl in town
jj fucks shy!reader
jj teaches kook!reader how to smoke
housewife!jj helps student!reader
meeting his daughter
pregnant!reader gets all the affection
fucking you on the boat with everyone else inside
choking
john b. walks in
pregnancy sex
ghostface!jj (p2) (p3)
jj kisses pregnant!reader's belly
jj talks virgin!reader through her first time
jj loves his loving girlfriend
hand kink
jj gets too drunk
jj doesn't think you'll need a condom (p2)
dumbification (anotha)
reader has nipple piercings
knife kink
negative pregnancy test
family meeting & fingering
friends to lovers
kook!reader is scared of this new world she's in
size kink (anotha)
teasing mechanic!jj
fucking promiscuous!reader dumb
aftercare with sub!reader
aftercare with insecure!reader
cameron!deaf!reader (p2)
safeword
mean!jj x innocent!reader
height difference (a different one)
thigh riding + pee desperation
brattamer!jj
reader has adhd
after a long day
gun kink
comfort
tell me how my dick tastes
routlege!reader is very motherly
jj still likes the flowers
asmr video
jj just wants alone time but the kids aren't having it
maybank!toddler!reader gets married
pee desperation (belly pressing)
sunscreen application
begging for a baby
jj is still whiney when he's a dom
competition (+ rafe)
toddler!sister!reader just wants to help
reading jj to sleep
nightmares on poguelandia
handholding during sex
toddler!sister has a crush on pope
toddler!sister is spoiled
smoking for the insomnia
jj's hair is too long
playing nurse
routledge!reader sneaks out
jj sets up movie night
another fight with his dad
lessons
black cat + golden retriever
blue bedsheets
there's tangled clothing
body worship
reader has body acne
reader is john b's girlfriend
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erule · 1 year
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Ghost from your past | jj maybank
Pairing: JJ Maybank x fem!reader
Summary: you were in a relationship with JJ before something very huge happened, but you don’t remember anything. When you come back after a while, you fall in love with him again.
Warnings: memory loss trope, mention of a car accident and injuries, mention of people being half naked but they’re not ever really naked, fluff, angst, sexual tension (no smut/implied smut)
Word count: 4.5K
A/N: hi! I just finished s3 and I needed to write something about JJ. And let me tell you, that after a lot of months of being away, it felt good! Hope you like it. Enjoy! x
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It's the longing. It's the constant thinking about her that hurts you. It's that feeling of envy you get when you watch John B kiss Sarah and feel ashamed, because you should be happy for your best friend. It's the desire to go back to when it was just you, her and John B lying on your sofa, the one on the porch, on summer evenings when your father was at the pub and they kept you company. You pointed to a star and said it had a certain name, then Y/N asked if it was true and John B laughed because he knew you were lying, even if with conviction. Then, in that little space between John B falling asleep and your father staggering up the street from the pub, you could play a bit of a jerk with her. Now you regret it: you could have kissed her, instead of always talking. What's the point of telling yourself that you have certain feelings, if you don't even have the time to show them? Many things had happened in one year and now you seem to have forgotten them all, one by one. They were clouded by your head, so you don't have to go over them, always one by one.
It's the longing. It's in the stare you give to some random girls on the street, the ones that look like her. But they're never her. Not because they're different people, just because they can't be her. Her parents made her leave. You don't blame them, they took the right decision for her. Getting her away from this place was probably the best thing to do after what happened. Snatching it right out of your hands, somehow causing you to bleed out, that was the worst part, but again, you're adamant that they did it right. If you had enough money, you probably would have left too. Indeed, for sure. You would have brought John B with you to look for her. Sure, maybe the others too, since after all they had known her. Sarah would have liked her too, especially since she too had abandoned the comfortable Kook life to be with you. She had tried to get you into hers, but you just couldn't live with her, with her parents, to wear those clean and elegant clothes. She was part of you, but those clothes didn't belong to your personality. So she shook her head that day, gave you a curled-lip smile and said, "You're such an idiot, JJ Maybank, to give up this rich life just for your stupid morals". Then you shrugged your shoulders, took her in your arms and answered her: "What can I say? I'm a romantic, I love danger too much to be able to live without it". And she had laughed. Nothing had made sense since that laugh. You realized that living without her wasn't an option anymore, so you gave in, after years of you and her hanging around, after she made her feelings for you clear, after you yelled at her that you weren't a someone you could build something with because you only knew how to destroy everything you touched. You kissed her. You fell into her web or maybe you just gave in to your own feelings.
And then, well, sure, you're not wrong, are you, JJ? You had destroyed the only beautiful thing that life had wanted to give you.
You pass in front of her house as always. Usually her parents have dinner in the kitchen and you see the lights on, but tonight it's all off. You don't pay too much attention to it, because it has happened on other days for some special occasion, like her mother's birthday or their anniversary. You wonder if she still hears from them, wherever she is. Wherever you would like to be too.
You walk down the street with your hands buried in your pockets, staring at your dusty, time-worn shoes. Since today would be her birthday, you've decided to wear the good clothes, the ones her family gave you. Your family who, incidentally, have always subtly hated you, but you only came to know about it at the end. “Last Day” isn't the last day you saw her, as you spied her getting on the plane as she left, but it's the one you spoke to her parents about the last time. Instinctively, your fingers touch the ring you wear around your neck, hanging from a silver chain that she gave you. Sometimes you wish you could afford to buy that plane ticket just so you could see her, even if it would hurt your heart.
When you arrive at the beach bonfire, you immediately notice John B and Pope chatting with a couple of red glasses in their hands. Sarah and Kiara are probably refilling their glasses somewhere, but you can't see them around. You raise a hand in greeting, then approach them. A little further are Rafe and Topper with their other Kook friends staying laughing and joking amiably, but to you they just look despicable as usual.
“JJ!” A voice behind you calls you. You turn around and see Kiara greeting you, Sarah next to her and another girl next to her who threatens to run into you.
"Damn, sorry!" She says to you, risking to slip, but you hold her by offering her your arms to hold on, while the content that was just before her in her glass soils your shirt.
You think her voice sounded strangely familiar, while in a room of your mind you're screaming because she ruined your new clothes. You're about to tell her, just to be polite, that you don't mind, especially since she's friends with Kiara and Sarah, but your voice dies in your throat when you look up. She's still staring at your chest, you don't know why, but you're looking at her.
It's not possible. You tell yourself it's not possible at all, because it's a small island and there are at least three people having a birthday today, not just her, but the party must be for her. So why didn't the others tell you? Why did John B arrange for you to meet her, unprepared? You repeat to yourself that it's not possible, because she was studying elsewhere, she was no longer part of this place, this place that stole everything from her: you, her memory, almost her life. Oh no, it hurts too much to look into her eyes right now, as she smiles at you and says something you don't understand, while she doesn't even recognize you. Maybe this hurts you more than anything else.
"What is your name? Come by my house later, I'll wash your clothes. I'm so sorry, really! I'm Y/N, the birthday girl,” she says, her words bursting out of her mouth and confusing you even more.
John B comes up beside you quickly, he puts a hand on your shoulder and tells Y/N your name is JJ. Your name is JJ and you're still in love with her: these are the only certainties you have.
“Are you sure you haven't met before? Did you fight? JJ looks like he just saw a ghost!” Sarah jokes, but Kiara's shocked expression supports her thesis. "Y/N, you told me you didn't even know who it was".
"But it is so! I don't know any of you guys, sorry. I went to school with Topper and Rafe. And then I would remember a guy like that,” Y/N lets slip.
"As well as?" John B asks, grinning.
Y/N swallows, embarrassed.
"Well, cute".
At that point, something inside you awakens and you wear the careless mask on your face again. You kiss the back of her hand, then wink.
“Nice to meet you, Y/N. You've already risked falling at my feet, I'd say you've been clear about your feelings for me,” you joke, but those words are like a stab in the center of your chest.
She raises an eyebrow, but she's smiling.
“Cheeky and likable – a great combination, I would say”.
“Y/N, there you are! Stop wasting time with these Pogues and come talk to us again,” Rafe says, putting his arm around your shoulders and you begin to feel a flame leap from within.
“Isn't it among the duties of a birthday girl to talk to all the guests? It would be rude to leave now,” you say and Rafe glares at you.
“He's right,” Kiara snaps in quickly and Pope, who has just arrived, nods, even though he probably doesn't even know what you're talking about.
“See you later, Rafe,” you say then, walking with the others.
You stay behind with Kiara and Sarah to ask them how they met her, but John B yanks you through another door.
“JJ, I didn't know she was back, I swear!” He whispers and you sigh.
"Yeah, well, me neither! I nearly had a heart attack when I saw her".
“I noticed,” John B. chuckles. “What are you going to do now?”
“I won't tell her anything, John B. Hopefully, she'll be alone for the summer and then she'll be back where she came from. Trust me, it's better for her to know nothing".
“JJ, you're my best friend and I'm tired of watching you suffer. I think she would like to know that you were her boyfriend."
“I screwed her up with one of my usual stupid plans. I don't think she would want to know that, instead,” you retort. John B sighs.
"As you like".
You all gather near a rock, a few meters from the sea, managing to hear the roar of the waves loud and clear in your ears. You used to love hearing Y/N's voice, but then you forgot it and now you can't even remember what timbre it had.
“What is that thing she has around his neck?” You hear her ask Kiara and she laughs.
“That necklace? It's a gift from his ex, an older girl he was with a while ago."
"Really? JJ, you never told me about this!” Sarah exclaims. "I wish I'd known her."
You give her a perfunctory smile as you pretend to accidentally slip your elbow in the ribs of John B, who is laughing.
“John B always says he looks like a widower because of that ring around his neck,” adds Pope.
“John B is not nice at all, I don't even know why I'm friends with him,” you say, narrowing your eyes. "Anyway, we were together for a year, then it ended badly and now I've been single for a year."
“Would you like to apply?” John B asks and you glare at him.
“I don't think I've started off on the right foot,” Y/N says, nodding at your clothes.
“Oh, these? Forget it, I don't need it anyway,” you say and start undoing the buttons of your shirt.
“JJ, what are you doing?” Kiara asks, surprised.
“I'm going to take a bath,” you answer simply. You take off your shoes, then your pants and finally your shirt. The necklace stays with you, though: you never leave that one. It would be like leaving her.
You throw yourself into the sea and you finally feel free. The others follow suit, even Y/N. Once upon a time you would have hugged her and said: "Don't worry, I'll protect you from sea urchins" and she would have laughed, so you could have filled your ears with her laughter, but now you're not allowed to.
You still remember the escalators, when you went down them in reverse as you watched her approach the airport gate. You stopped on a step and climbed it until you were out of sight of her, hoping you never hit the ground. But then you got there on land and you had to let her go. John B told you you shouldn't have made that sacrifice, but you thought you'd do anything for her.
“Come to my house, later,” you hear her voice in your ear and shivers run up your back, even run down your spine. You turn around, a little intrigued and a little confused. “It's not a date, I just want to wash your clothes that I soiled you. My parents are still at the restaurant where we celebrated my birthday. I'll clean it up for you and then you go home, I promise,” she smiles at you and for a moment her gaze is so genuine you think she recognizes you, but a moment after you say yes, she's already walking up to Sarah.
You would have liked a different ending, it's true, but even just seeing her again makes you recover some oxygen and you're too selfish to be able to give up on her again.
“What did she tell you?” John B asks you.
“You know John B, curiosity killed the cat,” you say, before jokingly shoving him head underwater, ears muffled and a lump in his throat. If he knew you felt like this all the time since she's been gone, maybe he'd help but tease you so much, even though you know he does it because he loves you.
You enter Y/N's house barefoot, your shirt undone around your waist and your sand-stained shoes in your hands. You are fearful, because Y/N's parents weren't very kind to you last time, indeed not at all, and it scares you to enter here, as if you could see them jumping on you from the walls at any moment. You look around warily, noting that this house has remained the same since you left, giving up everything. A part he still curses himself for it, but it was for the best given what happened next. What probably would have happened anyway.
You get to the bathroom, start undressing again, but seeing Y/N turn around to give you your space makes you laugh heartily.
“You just saw me half naked, there's nothing you haven't seen by now,” you say and Y/N shakes a hand, still turned, as if to say no, he won't turn.
“It's not the same: before it was like you were in a swimsuit, now you would be in underwear. I don't want to be inappropriate."
“Y/N, only your integrity is inappropriate here. You can also look at me,” you say.
Look at me, always look at me.
“There are some of my father's clothes on the washing machine, put them on; then when you're done you tell me and I start the washing machine. I'm going to go change for a while too,” Y/N replies, heading into her room.
She changes you quickly, always afraid that her parents will come and find you half naked with their daughter, then put your clothes in the washing machine. You leave the bathroom, walk down the corridor and stop in front of her half-closed door. You start to knock, just to let her know you've changed, but you stop when you see her trying to undo the dress by herself through the looking glass. You would like to help her, but you freeze on the spot: you didn't know how much you missed being able to touch her until now, as if it were a primordial need you forgot about and which has only now surfaced. You swallow a ton of saliva while you see her undo the zipper, then you turn abruptly: it would be inappropriate to look at her now and you giggle thinking about the words she used just now.
Y/N comes out of the room in pajamas a minute later and smiles to see her father's clothes fit loose on you. She then throws her clothes into the washing machine and starts it off.
“Are you sure we have enough time before your parents get back?”
“No, but just in case you'll hide in the closet,” she replies.
"You're joking, aren't you?"
She bites her lip, a gleam of amusement in her eyes.
"Maybe not".
But you don't have to lock yourself in the closet at the end, because the two hours pass quietly and smoothly. You chatted with her like in the old days, savoring every word, every minute together, every time you could touch her hand or shoulder without apologizing.
You change quickly, again, then greet her at the back door, lest her parents might see you through the front door. You look at her thinking that you still have at least three months to be next to her, which is still more than you ever thought you could, but it seems to have wasted too much time already.
“Hey, JJ,” she says and you turn to face her.
"Yes?"
“Your face has looked familiar to me all evening. Are you sure we've never seen each other before?"
You swallow slowly, pondering whether it might not be better to confess the whole truth at this point, but then you pull back again.
"No. Trust me, I would remember you".
She smiles at you, head cocked to one side.
"Careful, your girlfriend might be jealous".
You slowly approach her, who remains motionless staring at you, almost frightened, so you raise your palms in surrender. You see her shoulders relax, then you leave a kiss on her cheek, her lips lingering on her skin that still tastes like salt.
"Then we might as well give her something to really be jealous about, don't you think?" You tell her with a grin, then say goodbye for real and walk away.
***
It's been two months. You've laughed with her, joked with her, talked to her, but she still doesn't seem to remember anything about you. Doctors said it could happen, but her memory has not returned. At this point, according to John B, it is better to create new memories and you agree. It would be so much better if she didn't come back to her house in a month and even better if you weren't aware that her parents hate you, but that's okay, she's here, so everything looks better anyway. Her parents know she's seeing you again, you saw their contemptuous looks at the door when you picked her up the other night, but they haven't said anything. But you know it, oh if you know it! You know they would like to see you disappear from her life forever. If only you weren't so in love with her, you already would have.
“JJ, hey, what are you thinking about?” She asks you and you come back to reality.
“The fact that the Big Dipper is clearly visible in the sky tonight,” you lie and she immediately looks at the place your finger is pointing.
"But you are sure? I do not see it!" She exclaims and you laugh. "You're a liar!"
She jostles you playfully, so you hug her and keep laughing until you notice her father looking at you from the window. You immediately move away from her, your hands in your pockets and your eyes fixed on your shoes. She notices your sudden change right away and turns to see her father staring at you.
“JJ…”
"No, don't tell him anything, it's fine."
“No, that's not good! We weren't doing anything wrong,” you retort. "Besides, I don't understand why you always defend them."
You can't tell her. You can't tell her about how they threatened you during "The Last Day", you can't tell her about the flowers you had to throw away running down the stairs, you can't tell her that when you think about it, your left cheekbone still hurts, what it was hurt against the window of the Twinkie when you braked hard. You can't do this to her.
"They…"
“If you feed me one more of your lies, JJ, I swear I…”
“Y/N, come home,” your father says, at the doorway.
She looks at you as if she's begging you to fight, to tell her she has to stay with you, but you remain silent. And yet, a part of you is happy, because she finally recognizes that look in your eyes, the look of longing, as if it were a mirror of yours.
Maybe there is still hope and you think about this as you walk away.
You're mentally going over your shopping list as you fill the inflatable pool with water when Y/N arrives. She's carrying a blanket, a couple of bags and she’s wearing a bathing suit.
"What are you doing here?" you ask her. "Did we have a date, by any chance?"
“First you flirt with me,” she begins, leaving the blanket on the floor, “then you defend my parents,” she continues, leaving everything else too, “and in the end you think you can get away with disappearing for a whole day? No, now we're going to settle this once and for all".
You raise an eyebrow as you reach over to open the envelopes: a few beers, some water, plenty of food, and a couple of shirts his father's size. She practically did the shopping for you!
“Did you rob a supermarket, by any chance?”
“No, just my house. I want to help you, JJ. I know things are bad for you and you live alone, Sarah told me. It's not true that your father works abroad: he's gone,” you say. You look at her with sadness mixed with anger, because you know that now he will start feeling pity for you, new ones and it was the last thing you wanted. “I'm really sorry and I don't want you to feel embarrassed about me, but I can't help but help you if I can. I would do it with anyone, you know."
“What did you want to talk to me about?” You ask, changing the subject. She notices it, but she doesn't flinch.
Grab a beer, then enter the small pool and she does the same shortly after. She stares intently into your eyes, as if she’s deciding how to introduce the topic.
“You're burning my retinas, Y/N. What is happening?"
Y/N blows the air out, then puts the beer on the grass.
“I never asked you anything, JJ, because it didn't feel right. Before we weren't even friends, then the line got thinner and thinner and my mind got clouded, because my feelings for you have changed. I would like to understand what we are, but I don't want to scare you, although maybe now I have, because I'm a person who talks too much,” she says, ruffling her hair. "Sorry, I just wanted to ask what happened with that girl, because every time I lean in to kiss you, it seems to me that you're thinking about her".
For a moment, her words catch you off guard, then you compose yourself. If she noticed it in two months, maybe everyone else noticed it in a year too. Maybe even her parents.
"When did you try to kiss me?" You ask, throat dry and voice hoarse.
"You really never noticed?" She asks, chuckling. “Every time I've gotten this close to you,” she replies, walking the short distance to you in the pool where she's practically on her knees due to how small it is. Her lips seem to exhale the last breath that chokes in the middle of her throat, while her nose brushes yours. Your heart is beating like a pneumatic hammer in your chest, it seems to you that your ribcage could burst at any moment, while her hand goes up your arm, up to your neck, up to your jaw, cheek, chin. Every fiber of your body cries out for just one kiss to die in from her, but she doesn't touch you, not where you want to.
“What are we doing?” You ask, but your voice begs her to cancel that distance, to surrender to you, so you can avoid saying that it's all your fault, for once.
“You tell me,” she replies. “I do what you want”.
You swallow, tense.
“Oh, to Hell with it!” You exclaim and drag her with you to Hell.
You kiss her passionately, your hands all over her body, but then stop on the back of her neck, as you deepen your knowledge of her, as if you didn't know who she was, as if you didn't know that seeing her leave broke your heart and that it he'll do it again, even if he doesn't want to, as if I don't know every inch of his body or soul. It's a fire that's finally burning inside you now, after keeping it at bay for far too long.
And then you hug her. You hold her close to you, her lips pressed into the crook of her neck and you feel her trembling in your arms. You only realize you're strangely wet on her shoulder when she lets out a sob.
“What happened to me?” She asks you and it's like taking a cold shower in the middle of winter.
“So you know,” you say, but yours seems more like a question.
“You have a scar on your cheekbone. Sarah told me you got it while falling and I would have believed it, except I have one too, on her forearm, but I don't remember how I got it,” she confesses. You shake your head, as if begging her not to ask you to do this, not to ask you to hurt her on purpose. But she continues: “I'm the older girl, aren't I JJ? I have the ring in the jewelry box in my room. My parents won't tell me the truth, but I need to know: why did we break up? Did we have an accident? What happened?"
You sigh, then stroke her arm. You don't want to tell her the truth, but you have to: now it's time to know.
“We had an accident. I was driving the Twinkie and you were sitting next to me. We ended up in the hospital, you woke up after me. I was bringing you flowers for your awakening, but your parents intercepted me before I could enter your room, before you even actually opened your eyes. Your mother told me to get out of your life,” you say and see her contrite expression on her face. “So when the doctors said you didn't remember anything from senior year, I jumped at the chance and ran. But they were right, Y/N, I had to leave you alone. I wanted to do it now too, but I was selfish. But I promise you that when you get back there, I won't..."
“I'm not going back there,” she cuts you off abruptly, with pride in her eyes. "JJ, I remember you."
You shake your head, confused.
"What?"
“Memories came back a while ago, but I needed to know about my parents, so I didn't tell you anything. I’m sorry. I remembered everything when you said you saw the Big Dipper,” he says, smiling.
You run a hand over his face, not even knowing what to feel. You should be relieved, yet you feel scared.
“What will happen now?” You ask.
She takes your necklace in her hands, playing with the ring.
“You're no longer a widower, JJ,” she says and you smile at her, feeling her throat choke with her tears.
"And your parents?"
“They'll get over it. Besides, what can I do if I fell at your feet?”
You burst out laughing, then you kissed her again.
“Do you remember what you told me the day of the accident?” She asks you.
“That I loved you,” you reply and she nods.
“This memory I can see as clearly as I see you now. It's not over until it's over."
You stroke her cheek, then hug her again, happy in the knowledge that it's not the last time this time.
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thewistlingbadger · 1 year
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JJ reeks of t boy swag
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rafesmuse · 5 months
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And how do you think jj maybank would act in the relationship with that Kook girl?
- xoxo, Anonymous's Step-Mom
soooo caring oh my god. takes care of you like you’re a porcelain doll. always makes sure you’re okay, because he knows you aren’t used to the wild life he and the other pogues have.
“you okay, sweet girl? are you hurt?” “j, I’m fine” “you can tell me if-“ “j! I said i’m fine!” “sorry mamas, just checkin’”
he would also joke a lot about you being his sugar mommy since you buy everything for him, which he hates by the way but he can’t stop you. you already got your card out before he even realises, giving him everything he wants or need.
“damn. can’t believe i got my own sugar mommy” “stop it j, i’m your girlfriend that just likes taking care of you” “exactly. you’re the mommy that’s got the sugar!”
very protective. whenever a guy looks at you he immediately slides his arm around your waist and keeps you close to him. is wary of every guy that even looks your way.
all daydreams
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