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tipsydipsydo · 4 years

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Just let me love him!

Request: "hey! may i request an imagine where namjoon has a boyfriend (male transgender) and they decide to make their relationship public but maybe not all the fans being supportive / respectful of it? and namjoon rlly pissed off by the comments online and making posts to half educate them & half being shady haha thank u :("

Requested by: anonymous

Pairing: Namjoon x transgender Reader

Gender of the Reader: male

Word Count: 3k

Genre: Angst, Hurt and Comfort, Fluff

Warnings: mentions of Homophobia and Transphobia; mentions of hate towards the LGBTQ+ Community

A/N: Well... what should I say? I think I'll write every request individually without specify how long my writings would be. It really depends on my own idea for that request. This here took some time because I had to make some research and thought a lot about, how I want to write it.

That's also the reason why it ends up to be so long, because it was important for me to write that really long statement that Namjoons makes in here in the full version.

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He should have guessed it. He should have noticed it, before the vlog would be uploaded. No, he should have known it! He should have known that it'll happen when this information gets to the public.

And at the same time he should have known that there are also some black sheeps among the ARMYs.

Although the large majority is very open, liberal and supportive, there are still some people who call themselves an "Army" and "support" them, but they're also very open when they don't like something.

It could be their new outfit, their new haircut or, like now, their lifestyle and their relationships. When something deviates from their idealized image, which means that his members and he no longer correspond to the overly perfect image of that Army, they start hating.

There aren't many, but they still exist. Sadly.

And all of that just starts because of a scene and the one sentence he had said to explain it.

Yesterday he uploaded a self-made vlog on the occasion of his birthday, in which he simply wanted to take the Armys through his day and show them, how he's spending his birthday this year. Nothing "bad", right?

You two made your relationship public three months ago. Of course, after this public announcement, the excitement was big and pretty much every korean and even some international boulevard magazines as well reported about it. Who could ever have guessed that there will be a young man at the side of the world known K-Pop Idol Kim Namjoon instead of a woman??

The biggest gossip subsided after a week and since two months pretty much everything turned out to be quite normal again. Namjoon and you get a lot of encouragement and support for your relationship from the vast majority of fans, you already have an official shipping name (and Namjoon has to admit that it sounds really cute!) Beside that, fanarts of you two have been already created, based on the few couple pictures that Namjoon recently posted in their Twitter account.

However, Namjoon "only" introduced you as his boyfriend. He hadn't told the whole publicity that you were transgender and "actually biologically a woman". Why should he?

You identify yourself as a boy, just you weren't born as such, which is why you want to adapt your gender to your actual identity. It's not more than that and all that just means that you are his boyfriend, nothing else.

Joon just introduced you as his partner and not that you are female to male transgender because that has actually nothing to do with your relationship.

And then there was the thing with his birthday vlog. He had thought that this little thing wouldn't attract attention, probably because it had become so normal for him.

You brunched together in a restaurant on the day of his birthday, enjoyed the good food together and laughed a lot. Really nothing so unusual when you go out to with your partner.

This was followed by the fateful scene that has caused all of these comments now.

You two were so deep in your conversation that you completely forgot to pay attention to the time. However, you still had a doctor's appointment that day, which is why you rushed out of the restaurant in a hurry.

You just noticed it a bit too late that you'll have a doctor's appointment for your next testosterone injection on Namjoon's birthday. But you could't and didn't even want to re-arrange a new appointement because you need the renewal in a relativly regular interval.

So the vlog only showed a few seconds where you two sprint stressed but also laughing to a taxi, so that you'd somehow still belong halfway to your actual time of the appointment in the doctor's office.

When you get your injection, Joonie waits for you in the empty waiting room and explain shortly in the vlog, why this appointment is so important.

"Unfortunately, my sweetheart was born in the wrong body and to be able that he can live with his correct gender identity, he has to go to the doctor to get his dosis of testosterone."

And that was it actually. After that you went back to your shared apartement, where the boys surprised Namjoon with a little birthday party. Congratulated their leader for getting older and then unpack all the presents together. With it, the vlog was uploaded. Namjoon and the boys had given no further thought to this "new piece of information" that turned out be the reason for these controversial comments under his vlog. Simply because it's already become normal for everyone. You are a transgender, but you're just Namjoon's Boyfriend for everyone. Nothing more.

Nevertheless, some "fans" don't see it that way, they even starts questioning if it's correct to call you Namjoon's "boyfriend" because you just can't be a "real boy". After this comment all the other ones only got even more worse.

Namjoon got the opportunity to read the comments when he already was on his way to the studio. He had wondered this morning why you were so silent and inwardly at breakfast. He had ask you gently if something happed or if you're not feeling well. But you just shook your head and said that you slept badly. Namjoon doesn't ask further because he was sure, that you woulf know that you can always be completely honest with him. And Namjoon doesn't want to blame you, that you would be lying to him, so he just gives you a loving smile.

How wrong he was when he read through all these awful comments under the vlog.

The other members have seen these comments too, they're so damn furious, with what kind of words you're called in there and that some of the them wished that Namjoon would please break up with you.

They should've trained the new choreography today, but this incident is now much more important and the way how they want to deal with it. They came to the decision to make a clear statement.

Actually it's planned that Jimin make a vlive today, but they decide that Namjoon should make it instead due to the situation.

He himself is not so sure yet whether he should really do it today, the anger about these disrespectful comments is still too big and he cannot promise not to say rude things to the fans himself as well. He wants to give them a better role model than to hate each other. However, he's becoming more and more aware of the importance of publishing his vlive today.

Because you're his boyfriend and through your relationship, you get so much more attention, which unfortunately also increases the possibility of harrassing you, for what you are, a lot more. He brought you into this situation, so Namjoon also feels obliged to stand up for you and show you that he's absolutely not going to accept something like that!

In addition, it's so important to him and all the other members to show that they will accept hate and harrassing of LGBTQ+ people in no way.

It breaks Namjoon's heart when he comes home and sees your red, swollen eyes, testifying that you cried. He had tried countless times to contact you throughout the day, but you neither answered his calls nor his text messages.

The last time when you were online in the messenger was tonight. Probably when you read all these terrible comments.

"Hey baby...", Namjoon whispers softly as he comes up to you and closes his arms around your body, pressing you tightly, almost protectively against his chest.

"I know what happened. I read everything."

With these words your body begins to tremble in his arms, you press your face into the crook of his neck and a little sob comes from your lips.

Namjoon holds you, strokes his fingers gently through your hair and whispers sweet nothings into your ear to calm you down.

You take a trembling breath in and say in a broken voice: "I am so sorry that I am causing you and the others such problems..."

When these words comes over your lips, Namjoon takes your tear-streaked face in his hands and gently kisses your tears away.

"No, no, no, my love! Don't say things like that, they're absolutely not true! You are not the problem, definitely not! The problem are these people out there who just don't want to accept that not all people can’t identify with the gender they’ve been born with. Maybe because it’s just so normal and natural for them to be a girl or boy. Apparently these people cannot put themselves in your shoes, what it's like to feel like a boy or girl but stuck in the body of the opposite sex. Apparently they don't even tried to imagine what it would be like if they weren't born a what they are. How it would be to be born in a different body with their previous gender identification. You are not the problem. The problem are the people who cannot listen to you, at least to understand how debiliating this situation is for you. So instead of Jimin, I'm going to do the vlive today and I'll talk with Armys about it. I will tell them that I will not tolerate Transphobia and any other Phobias of the LGBTQ+ community at all."

Your swollen eyes snaps open and you look at Namjoon in disbelief. As you want to open your lips to ask him, if he's really sure about that because he could get even more hate for that, he already knows what you're about to say.

Before these words can leave your lips, he quickly presses his owns on yours and gives you a gentle kiss full of love.

"I want to do that, my love. I want to do this for you, for us, for our LGBTQ+ ARMYs and for all these other peoples. It's important for me to make this statement."

When you nod slowly, Namjoon released the embrace and gave you a last kiss on the lips.

Then he goes into the living room to the dining table, where his laptop is and logs in.

You go quietly to the couch and wrap yourself up in your favorite blanket. To be honest, you don't really know what to expect. Before Namjoon starts his vlive, he looks at you and forms a silent "I love you" with his lips.

"Hey guys. I know Jimin should be sitting right here infront of the screen and doing his vlive with you. However, something happened tonight that I want to talk with you about it. I think you already know, we uploaded my Birthday vlog yesterday and there are comments written which are absolutely terrible and I'm not going to accept that under any circumstances.", Namjoon starts the vlive.

Today there is no trace of his usual playful and childish behavior, which he shows so often in his vlives. He's absolutely serious.

"Some of you are asking why you just got the information now, that Y/N is transgender and why we didn't tell you right away with our relationship announcement. I decided against it for the simple reason that it doesn't matter in our relationship. Y/N doesn't identify with his biological gender, although his body may be female, he is actually a boy who unfortunately was born in the wrong body. He is a boy and therefore he is my boyfriend."

"I introduced him to you as my boyfriend, because it doesn't matter who he was before, what gender he has from birth. It should only be about who he is now, who can he be now, that he's able to be finally that person who he want to be. We should finally give these people, like Y/N, the opportunity to live in the gender identity they are, without always saying 'But you are in reality woman, right?'."

"No, not really, in reality is Y/N a man. Can we please finally give them the opportunity to live in the gender with which they identify themselves. So when they should identify with the specific genders like male and female. And if that's not the case, if you assign yourself as nonbinary, it's perfectly okay! After all, there is still so much space between these two genders! We should give all of them the opportunity to simply live the way they are."

"That's why I think, that we all should be very happy, that we can identify ourself with our biological gender! Therefore, we should help all the other people to find their right gender when their biological gender doesn't suit them! And that they're able to show themself in public."

Namjoon takes a deep breath after this long monologue and grabs to his water glass to drink a bit. While doing this, he read all the new comments that pops up. They are very different, some are positive and supportive and then there are these other comments, literally saying how he can talk such a shit. 'There are only two genders, nothing between them and everyone has to be able to identify with their own gender!'

It is precisely in this conflict that he realizes again that ignorance and the lack of will to understand each other are two of the major problems.

"As I read your comments, one thing caught my eye very clearly. We're talking too much about each other than with each other."

"I know, as a person who can identify themself fairly well with their biological gender, it's pretty hard to imagine what it would be like if it weren't. And because of that, we have to talk about it. I know that all transgender or generally all LGBTQ+ people are tired of having to explain their gender identity or their sexuality all over again and again. Having to explain, why they are the way they are now."

"But I think that it'll be the only way to remove these stereotypes and prejudices, as well as fear of 'this unknown thing' and thus all these unjustifiably phobias and racism. Just because a person cannot identify with their biological gender doesn't mean that you have to change yours too! It means, that you should simply accept and respect it! However, we should give all these people the chance to finally develop in such a way that they can really be themselves. Regardless of whether they are assign themself as male, female or no specific gender."

"There are still so many questions in the room that result from pure lack of knowledge. And that's normal, of course, we can't know everything, but we can learn something new every day. Ask each other questions, so that you have the opportunity to be able to imagine yourself into the position of an other person. So at least try to understand how the other person must feel. It's a long way but we should try to finally remove this hate that is caused by ignorance and misunderstandings."

"There are always two peoples involved in a conversation. That's why I appeal to the LGBTQ+ community to be still patient with us, even if you're already so sick of it. You must have the feeling of literally speaking against a wall... And all people who identify with their biological gender and are heterosexual, so you practically correspond to the 'ideal image' of society with it, should listen to the LGBTQ+ Community and ask questions, so that these prejudices and this hate can finally be stopped and we all are able to live peacefully together. I know, this idea is utopian, but we can still try to get as close as possible to this utopia of a peaceful coexistence of all peoples."

Namjoon takes a deep breath and closes his eyes for a moment before dropping the statement.

"And who, after my monologue, still refuses to simply ask the peoples questions when they don't understand something and still prefer to think about them in prejudices, please unfollow BTS and BigHit Entertainment."

Your eyes are round like plates and your mouth opens, want to say something, but no words comes over your lips.

In the corner of his eye, Namjoon sees how the comment section with messages literally explodes.

"I am not saying this out of pure selfishness just because I am angry and hurt. I am saying this because all members agree with this statement. We decided for this statement together."

"Of course we know, that you're still able to see all of our things, we cannot forbid you from listening to our music. But we all wanted to talk about this topic once. BTS and the Army community should be a safe space for all Armys, regardless of their gender identity or sexual orientation. We wanted to make sure that all Armys in our large community are welcome and that they'll be respected in the way they are."

"The members and me just need to know that we all can be honest with you and don't have to hide anything. That we can be sure you’re supporting us really. We just want that all peoples that follow us, are trying their best to understand each other. Of course, we all will never agree at the same point of view and that's a good thing! But we should respect each other's gender identity, sexual orientation and opinion. Because in the end we all are just humans. No more, no less."

"I would like to come to an end of this vlive for today. And for all haters out there, I'm not going to break up with Y/N. Please just respect that I love him. Exactly the way he is!"

With these words, Namjoon goes offline and closes the laptop, smiling at you softly when he comes to you on the couch.

"I love you. Please don't forget that," he whispers in your ear as he slips under the blanket and snuggles up to you.

Like I wrote it in Namjoons statement, I try my best to imagine myself into your position even when I never made these experiences (and probably never will) you had to make. That's why I'm always open to talk and listen to you, to learn new things about it!

And even when I'll never be able to understand you "really", then I'll make sure that you know that I still care for you guys, okay?

Love you 💜

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babyboy-bts · 5 years

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BTS as Littles: Separation Anxiety and Clinginess

Request: Thank youuu so much, can you do one where Bts has like separation anxiety or they are clingy and get upset when you go 💗💗

I wrote this in order of ones who would be more likely have separation anxiety to one’s who would just be clingy instead of by age.

Yoongi: Yoongi definitely feels most vulnerable in little space; thus, he heavily relies on you to make him feel secure and comfortable. Unfortunately, today, you had a doctor’s checkup, and since Yoongi was in the headspace of a two year old, he was unable to come along and was forced to stay home with Namjoon as his sitter. Due to the little’s separation anxiety, you had figured it would be best to wait until you were ready to leave to break the news to the boy. At the moment, Yoongi was curled up on the couch, cuddled into your side, drinking juice for his sippy cup as Winnie the Pooh played in the background. He was dressed in a soft footed onesie, and his stuffed turtle was close at hand. You had done everything in your power to make the boy feel as safe as possible before you had to leave. Soon, the doorbell rang throughout the house. Much to the little’s dismay, you stood up from your seat and walked toward the front of the door. Swinging it open, you found Namjoon with a smile on his face and a new pack of markers in his hand. You greeted the male before leading him down the hall to where Yoongi was resting.

“Thank you so much for doing this,” you said as you neared the living room.

“It’s no problem. I’ve been missing little Yoongi anyway,” Namjoon stated, his voice catching the little’s attention.

“Joonie?” the boy questioned, looking up at the other male with his eyebrows scrunched together in confusion. “What you doin here?”

“Hey, Sweetie, your mommy has to go to the doctor today so I’m going to watch you while she’s gone,” Namjoon answered, taking a seat next to the little only to have him scoot away.

“N-no, Mommy no leave Yoongi. Yoongi go with Mommy. Yoongi no wanna stay here,” the little began to tear up, clutching his stuffie close to his chest. “Joonie lie,” he pouted, a tear trickling from his eye.

“Baby Boy,” you sighed, leaning down so that you were eye level with the little, “Joonie’s telling the truth. Mommy has to go to the doctor, but the doctor is icky so you wouldn’t want to go with me, Kitten. Don’t worry though, Namjoon will be with you the entire time, and he will keep you safe until Mommy is back.”

“B-but if doctor’s icky then Mommy shouldn’t go,” Yoongi stuttered as his nerves continued to build.

“Sweetie, Mommy will be fine. She just needs you to stay here with Joonie, and if you’re a good boy for Joonie, once she gets back, she’ll give you so many cuddles,” you stated, running your hands through the little’s hair.

“No, Mommy don’t go,” the little wailed, throwing himself onto you and clinging tightly.

“Sh, Baby, please don’t cry. Mommy will be back before you know it,” you attempted to comfort, but the little just cried harder as his breaths became short and labored. “Sweetie, you need to calm down, or you’re going to make yourself sick,” you stated, running a hand through the little’s hair. At that moment, you spotted the pack of markers that Namjoon had brought with him. “Sweetie, look what Joonie brought for you,” you instructed, making the little glance to his side where Namjoon was still standing.

“I got you a brand new pack of markers so that you can color a pretty pictures for your mommy while she’s gone,” Namjoon stated, holding the pack out for the little to see, but Yoongi just turned his head back into your chest and continued crying.

“No want markers; only want Mommy,” he screeched. Checking the clock on the wall, you discovered that you should have left a five minutes ago. You glance at Namjoon in hopes that he will know what to do, but he looks as lost as you. Slowly, you began to separate yourself from the little— eventually disconnecting yourself completely. When Yoongi realized what had happened, he reached out to grab you again, but Namjoon had already caught him in his arms.

“Your Mommy needs to go to the doctor, and you’re going to stay here. But that’s okay, because it will only be for a short amount of time, and she’ll be back before your know it. Everything is going to be back to normal. She will be safe and give you so much love when she returns,” Namjoon stated, holding the thrashing little tightly. Heartbroken, you gathered your purse and keys, exiting the apartment after waving goodbye one last time to the males on the couch.

After your doctor’s appointment, you returned home to find Yoongi asleep on the couch, clinging to Namjoon, who was playing on his phone. Quietly, you approached the two males before lifting the little into your arms. As you cradled him against your chest, his eyes slowly began to open. When he caught a glimpse of you a sleepy smile spread across his face.

“Mommy, I missed you so much. Please, don’t ever leave Yoonie again,” he mumbles, burying his face into your chest.

“I won’t, Sweetie,” you whispered, gently rocking back and forth. You held your baby boy tightly as you said your goodbyes to Namjoon and made your way toward your shared bedroom. Yoongi was already dressed in a onesie, and although you were still wearing jeans and a blouse, you laid both of you on the bed, knowing that the little would throw a fit if you tried to separate yourself. Right now, your biggest concern was to insure that your little felt safe and comfortable.

Namjoon: “Look at my clean little baby,” you cooed, as you carried Namjoon out of the bathroom where he had just finished his bath. “You did so well for Mommy,” you praised, as the little buried his head into your shoulder. “Now, let’s get you situated; then, Mommy can take her shower as well,” you smiled, entering the living room. You gently placed Namjoon on his tummy in his make shift play pen before turning on the television and changing the channel to Disney Jr. “You wait right here while Mommy gets ready for the day then we can have a yummy breakfast together. Okay, Darling?” you informed, placing the little’s pacifier into his mouth. Unable to comprehend what you had said, Namjoon just giggled as he picked up one of his many plushies and snuggled it against his cheek. But as soon as he noticed you walking away, he lets out a loud whimper, making you turn around. “What’s wrong, Baby,” you questioned, crouching down in front of your little. Immediately, Namjoon reached his hands out toward you, tears already in his eyes. “What is it, Little One,” you questioned, picking him up out of his play pen. You quickly run through your mental check list of everything that could be the culprit of your little’s distress. “Are you hungry? How about Mommy gets you a snack, hm?” you asked, going to set the boy down, but as soon as he felt himself being lowered, Namjoon let out a loud cry, dropping his plushies in order to grab onto your shirt. “Aw, Baby, Mommy will be just a second. No need to get worked up,” you whispered, placing the little back onto the floor. Watching as you began to leave again, Namjoon let out a loud wail, his body tensing up in his panicked state. He continued to sob as the feeling of abandonment filled his body. Seeing the little’s anguished state, you immeadiately rushed over and picked him up again. “My sweet boy, please, don’t cry. Mommy’s got you,” you mumbled, slowly rocking back and forth. Between your soothing words and your body’s warmth, Namjoon’s wails are soon reduced to just sniffles. “You just wanted to be with Mommy. Is that it, Baby?” you questioned as you continued to coddle Namjoon, placing kisses in his wet hair. “How about you sit in the bathroom while Mommy gets ready?” you stated leaning down to gather a few items to entertain Namjoon as you showered. When the little felt himself being lowered, he began whimpering softly. “It’s okay, Sweetie; Mommy’s not going to leave you here,” you reassured, standing back up and balancing a blanket, a rattle, a stuffie, a pacifier, along with Namjoon in your hands. You walked into the bathroom and spread the blanket out on the floor— which proved to be a fairly difficult task with an adult in your arms—, but eventually, the blanket was laid out. Slowly, you lowered yourself onto the blanket and began to detach Namjoon from your grasps so that he was seated facing the shower. Initially, the little started to whimper from the loss of contact, but when he noticed that you were still in front of him, he calmed down. “Mommy’s going to take a shower now, but she’ll be right here so no need to get upset,” you explained, before standing up and beginning to undress. Namjoon silently chewed on his pacifier, his eyes now focused on the rattle in his hand. When he heard the water turn on, his head whipped up, and a confused expression appeared on his face when he realized you had apparently disappeared. Tears began to fill his eyes once again as he began crawling over toward the bathtub. Cautiously, he pulled back the curtain and peeked his head inside. When he caught a glimpse of you, his mood immeadiately changed, and he let out a giggle, clapping his hands together. “My baby boy is so silly,” you smiled, when you noticed little Namjoon’s chin resting on the edge of the bathtub.

Jimin: “Mommy, what are you packing for?” Jimin asked, sitting up in his bed and rubbing the sleep from his eyes. You had been attempting to silently pack a backpack full of little supplies since you had to drop Jimin off at Seokjin’s house while you were at work.

“Mommy has work today, remember? So, you’re going to be staying with Seokjin,” you explained, placing a pack of crayons into the bag.

“I don’t wanna go,” Jimin pouted, picking at the sheets anxiously.

“I’m sorry, Sweetie, but there’s really no other option,” you stated sympathetically.

“I could go to work with you,” Jimin suggested as he crawled out of bed and over to you.

“But then you’d have to do a lot of super boring paperwork instead of getting to watch cartoons,” you joked in hopes that it would convince Jimin to drop the subject.

“It’d be worth it to be with you,” the little sniffled, burying his face into your shoulder and chewing lightly on the material of your shirt.

“Aw, Darling, you’re going to have a great time with Jin. I spoke to him last night, and he said that you two were going to make chocolate chip cookies,” you explained, pulling the boy into your lap as you felt tears soaking into your shirt.

“Wanna make cookies with Mommy,” he cried. You quietly shushed his cries while gently rubbing his back.

“I know, Baby, but Mommy has to work,” you reminded once again. Yet, Jimin was still unsatisfied with this answer and continued to whimper in your arms. Eventually, he calmed down enough for you to set him beside you and to continue packing. After everything the little would need during the day was in the bag, you zipped it shut before turning toward Jimin. “Are you ready to get dressed?” you asked standing from the floor, Jimin following suit.

“I guess,” the boy mumbled around his pacifier, which he had grabbed while you were packing. “Mommy choose,” he instructed, still upset about his current circumstance. Walking toward his closet, you opened the door before pulling out a bear T-shirt and a pair of light blue shorts.

“Lift your arms up, please,” you instructed, and Jimin obeyed. You proceed to remove this little’s night shirt, only replacing it with the new one after you had placed a soft kiss on Jimin’s tummy. “You’re going to have so much fun today,” you smiled as you pulled the pair of shorts up the boy’s legs. Instead of answering, Jimin just sucked on his pacifier quicker as an attempt to calm his nerves. After you finished getting dressed, you both ate breakfast, which Jimin refused to partake in until you agreed to spoon feed him his oatmeal. Now, you were both sitting in the car outside of Jin’s apartment since Jimin refused to get out. Unable to pry the little from his seat by yourself, you had sent a text message to Jin, asking him to come down. Luckily, he responded quickly and was by your side in a few minutes.

“Hey, Buddy,” the older male greeted, leaning down to be at eye level with Jimin. “Your Mommy has to go to work, so you get to hang out with me today,” he continued, reaching in to pick the little up. As soon as Jimin felt himself being lifted out of his seat, he secured a tight hold on the handle above the door and started kicking his feet wildly, but his attempts proved futile as Jin pulled him away from the car.

“Let go of me,” the little wailed, flailing about. “Don’t wanna be without Mommy,” he continued as tears streamed down his face. “Mommy, please don’t leave me,” Jimin screamed, reaching out as a final attempt to grab ahold of you.

“Sh, Jimin calm down, please,” Jin tried to console the little in his arms, but Jimin just continued wailing for you. Knowing that the situation was just going to get worse the longer you stayed, you retrieved the little’s bag from the car before leaving it next to Jin. Blowing one final kiss to Jimin along with a sympathetic smile, you returned to the driver’s seat and began your journey to work.

Throughout the day, you worried if Jimin had calmed down at all. You knew that he struggled when it came to being separated from you for a period time, but this was the first time you two would be apart for an entire day. And things had definitely not gone as smoothly as you had hoped. Luckily, the end of your shift came quickly, and you were soon on your way back to Jin’s apartment. When you arrived, you rushed up the stairs and knocked on the door. Immeadiately, the door was swung open, and you are met with a smiling Jin with Jimin balanced on his hip. As soon as the little saw you, he reached his arms out toward you and whined.

“Mommy!” he exclaimed, as you held him tightly, his arms and legs wrapped securely around you. “Please, don’t ever leave Jimin again,” he whimpered, burying his head into your neck.

“I won’t, Darling,” you promised. “There’s no need to get upset, now. I’m not going anywhere,” you stated as you felt your little begin to cry again.

“J-just so h-happy to see M-Mommy,” Jimin stuttered, tightening his grip on you even more, as though he were worried that you were going to leave him again.

“Hey, Bud, do you want to show your mommy what we made for her today?” Jin asked as an attempt to brighten the little’s mood. Thankfully, it worked. Jimin nodded his head enthusiastically and pointed toward the dinning room, not wanting to be put down just yet. You carry the boy into the house to find a paper bag covered in drawings and stickers sitting on the dining table.

“Made you cookies,” Jimin grinned proudly.

“Thank you so much, Baby. I bet they’re delicious,” you smiled back, pressing kisses all over the boy’s face.

“You’re welcome, Mommy,” the little blushed, looking down.

After saying your goodbyes to Jin and thanking him for watching Jimin, you both returned home.

Jungkook: “Sweetie, I need to get ready for class,” you insisted, attempting to get out of your shared bed.

“No, you need to cuddle with Kookie,” Jungkook stated, successfully pulling you down onto the matress once again.

“You can cuddle with Jimin when he and Hoseok get here,” you reminded.

“Not as comfy as you,” the little replied, rolling on top of you. “Now, you’re trapped, and have to stay with me,” he smiled, placing a sloppy kiss on your cheek.

“Jungkook, I’m going to be late. Please, let me up,” you groaned as you tried to remove the clingy boy, but he remained steadfast.

“Nope,” he simply replied. The harder you tried to pry the little’s arms from around you, the tighter they seemed to get.

“If you let me up now, I’ll make you pancakes,” you bribed.

“Rather cuddle,” Jungkook shrugged, snuggling his face into your chest. “Comfy,” he mumbled, already beginning to fall asleep once again. The little’s grip gradually loosened the father he fell asleep, and eventually, you were able to slide out from his hold and stand up. Once Jungkook noticed your missing warmth, his eyes shot open and a pout appeared on his face as he began whining and squirming about.

“Mommy,” he groaned, kicking his feet against the bed, “you tricked me.” Instead of arguing with the agitated little, you just began to get dressed. Of course, Jungkook would not stand for this injustice and made it his job to convince you to stay with him. Standing up, he waddled toward you. “Mommy, pay attention to Kookie,” he whined, wrapping his arms around your waist to prevent you from removing your pajama top.

“Let Mommy get dressed; then, she will give you attention,” you stated.

“But if you get dressed, then, you’ll leave Kookie,” the little huffed, releasing his hold in order to cross his arms over his chest. You took this opportunity to remove your T-shirt and replace it with a cropped sweater. You finished getting dressed as Jungkook continued to sulk, whining that you don’t love him since you’re leaving him.

“Sweetie, you know I love you, but Mommy needs to go to class. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t have bothered to get Hoseok to watch you— would I?” you argued, grabbing your backpack from against the wall.

“I guess,” the little pouted, following behind as you exited the room.

“Now, would you like oatmeal or cereal for breakfast?” you asked.

“Don’t care,” Jungkook mumbled from his place at the dinning room table. The boy was slouched in his seat swinging his legs back and forth, clearly annoyed by not getting what he wanted.

“Oatmeal it is then,” you replied, as you removed a small pan from the cabinet, poured water into it, and placed it on the stove to boil. As the oats were cooking, the doorbell rang. Opening the front door, you are greeted by Hoseok with a smiley Jimin clinging to his side.

“Hello, Hoseok; hello, Minnie,” you smiled, allowing them to step inside. They both greeted you similarly. “Jungkook is right through here in the kitchen— he’s in a bit of a mood today,” you warned as you led the two males through the hallway. When you entered the kitchen, you walked toward Jungkook, who had his head facing the ground while sulking. “Jungkook, say hi to Uncle Hobi and Minnie,” you instructed, tilting the little’s head upward.

“No wanna,” he replied curtly, kicking the leg of the table, which caused Jimin to pout and hide behind his daddy.

“Jungkook, you’d better stop it with the attitude because I will not hesitate to spank you when I get home,” you threatened. Although Jungkook didn’t typically mind punishments (he sometimes even enjoyed them), right now, he just wanted his mommy to be happy with him and to cuddle him so he gave up his attitude and greeted the others.

“Good boy,” you grinned, kissing your little’s forehead before going to turn off the now-cooked oatmeal. Spooning it into a bowl, you added a dash of cream before topping it with sliced strawberries and placing it in front of Jungkook.

“Isn’t Mommy going to eat?” the boy asked when he noticed you were not sitting down.

“I’m just going to eat a granola bar on the way,” you informed, grabbing your bag along with said snack. “I love you very much, and I’ll see you this afternoon. Please, behave for Uncle Hobi, and play nice with Jimin,” you said, placing a kiss on the little’s lips.

“Bye bye, Mommy. I love you too,” Jungkook whimpered, waving as you left the house.

Although Jungkook missed you initially, Jimin was soon able to distract him with a game of hide and seek tag after the younger had finished eating. Thankfully, you only had morning classes that day so you were able to return home by lunch. When you walked in, you were confused by the silent atmosphere of the house.

“Jungkook?” you called, walking into the empty living room. Soon, you heard Hoseok yell “found you” and saw your little quickly run past you and onto the couch.

“Mommy!” the little cheered, reaching his arms out from the couch. “I can’t get up since I’m on base,” he explained when he saw your slightly confused face. Smiling, you walked over to the couch before sitting down and allowing Jungkook to crawl into your lap as he told you about the many rounds of hide and go seek tag he had played that morning. As soon two cuddles on the couch, Hoseok went off to find Jimin’s hiding place. Soon enough, you hear a screeching and giggling Jimin, and Hoseok reenters the room with the older little over his shoulder. Once everyone had settled down, you offered to make lunch. The entire time that you were cooking, Jungkook was by your side. Because even though he sometimes struggled to express it, the little truly adored you and wouldn’t know how to function if you left him permanently.

Taehyung: Today, Jungkook’s caregiver was throwing him a birthday party, and you and Taehyung were both invited. Unfortunately, your work schedule caused you to be unable to attend, but you had arranged to drop Taehyung off early before you had to be at work that morning. While you drove to the other little’s house, Taehyung had his arms wrapped around your upper arm the entire time.

“If you’re going to do that while I’m driving, I’m going to need you to stay still, Bug,” you informed your little, who immeadiately stopped all of his movements rather than let go of you. “Why do you seem so upset this morning? You typically love playing with other littles,” you questioned, as you turned onto a side street.

“But that’s when you’re with me,” Taehyung pouted.

“You won’t even notice I’m not there,” you stated. “You’ll be too busy playing with all of your friends. Hoseok will be there,” you reminded, knowing that your baby boy had some of his favorite adventures with the older little.

“I guess, but I’ll still miss you, Mommy,” Taehyung pouted, as he quickly wiped the tears that fell from his eyes.

“Don’t cry, Sweetie. I’ll back before you know it,” you comforted, parking the car in front of Jungkook’s house and placing a kiss on Tae’s hand.

“Not soon enough,” the little mumbled to himself. Getting out of the car, you walked toward the boy’s side, opening the door for him and helping him undo his seatbelt. “Thank you,” he smiled lightly, clearly still upset, but before you could comfort him, Jungkook had already run up to you both and had Taehyung in a tight hug.

“Hello, Tae!” he smiled brightly, squishing their cheeks together.

“Hello, Kookie, happy birthday,” Taehyung replied slightly less enthusiastically.

“Thank you!” Jungkook grinned, finally pulling back from his embrace as his caregiver jogged up toward you all.

“Jungkook, I’ve told you not to leave the house by yourself,” she scolded, but Jungkook just shrugged his shoulder in response before returning to his conversation with the other little about all the different activities he had planned for the day.

“Thank you so much for letting me drop him off,” you stated, Taehyung still hugging your arm.

“It’s no problem. Jungkook would have definitely been upset if Tae couldn’t have made it,” she explained, reaching out to ruffle the aforementioned little’s hair. Instead of grinning and giggling as he typically would, Taehyung buried his face into your shoulder and whined.

“I’m sorry about him. He’s feeling a bit clingy this morning,” you explained, as you gently rubbed your little’s back.

“That’s fine. I’m sure he’ll open up as the day goes on; he’s probably just sleepy,” Jungkook’s mommy stated.

“ I hope so,” you sighed, turning toward Taehyung. “Do you wanna go play with Kookie?” you asked the little.

“Only if Mommy comes,” he replied around his thumb which he had placed in his mouth at some point— a habit he often did when he felt nervous.

“Sweetie, you know Mommy has to go to work. Now, how about you get Jungkook’s present out of the car,” you suggested. These words immeadiately caught the younger’s attention.

“Present!” Jungkook exclaimed, rushing toward your car and peeking through the window.

“Jungkook, don’t be rude. Come back here and wait,” the boy’s caregiver reprimanded. The little groaned but obeyed, sulking back to his caregiver’s side. “I’m sorry about that. He’s super hyper this morning,” she apologized.

“It’s no problem. I understand. I would be just as excited if it were my birthday” you smiled reassuring at the previously chanstised little. He smiled back at you. “Can you please get the gift out of the car, Sweetie?” you asked, turning your attention to Taehyung. He nodded hesitantly before removing himself from your side. With his left hand still gripping your shirt, he carefully maneuvered himself to where he could open the backseat door of the car with his right hand. He soon succeeded and stretched his arm out to retrieve the wrapped Mega Bloks set from the seat. “Here you go, Kookie,” he stated, shyly holding the gift out for the other little to take.

“Thank you, Tae! It looks so cool!” Jungkook squealed, admiring the Iron Man wrapping paper.

“You’re welcome,” your little mumbled, placing his thumb back in his mouth.

Checking your phone, you realized that I was time for you to leave. “Sweetie, Mommy needs to go now. Can you give me a kiss?” you asked Taehyung, who was snuggled into your side.

“Please, stay, Mommy,” the boy whimpered, looking at you with trembling lips and teary eyes.

“Please, don’t get upset, Sweetie. You know I would love to stay with you, but I have work. So, can you be Mommy’s brave little boy and enjoy Kookie’s birthday enough for both of us?” you questioned.

“I guess,” Tae whispered, hesitantly detaching himself from your side.

“Mommy is so proud of you,” you smiled, “and if you really miss me as much as you think you are, you can call me at work, and I’ll come and pick you up.” With this suggestion, your little seemed satisfied. After giving Taehyung a quick kiss and hug, you thank Jungkook’s Mommy one last time before getting back into your car. Although you felt guilty, you knew this was the best option for your little, even if he didn’t realize it immeadiately.

After work, you arrived back at Jungkook’s house, and as you expected, Taehyung was in the backyard playing hide and go seek tag with the rest of the littles. In fact, he was so enthralled with the game, he failed to notice you approaching his hiding space. “It looks like you’re enjoying the party,” you whispered as you crouched down behind the tree that was covering the boy.

“Mommy!” he immeadiately squealed, tackling you to the ground in a hug, completely giving away his hiding place.

“Found you,” Yugyeom shouted, sprinting toward the both of you.

“Gotta go,” Taehyung said as he sprinted away, carefully dodging the other little’s grasps in order to make it to the safe table.

After another half hour, Taehyung came over to where you were talking with the other caregivers and plopped himself down on your lap. Sleepily, he placed his head on your chest, and his eyes fluttered shut. “Hello, Bug. Is this your way of telling me that you’re ready to go?” you asked, gently rubbing the little’s back. He just nodded in reply. After waking him up enough to say goodbye to all of his friends, you carried him out to the car and buckled him into the passenger seat. By the time you returned to the driver’s side, the little was already fast asleep.

Jin: This morning Jin had woken up sick. Nothing major just a cough and a runny nose, but since he was in little space, he was much more sensitive to his ailment. Unfortunately, when you looked in the medicine cabinet, you were completely out of cold medicine. Returning to the bedroom, you frowned at the scene in front of you. Jin was buried in a pile of blankets, hair sticking out everywhere, coughing into his pillow. “Aw, Sweetie,” you cooed, walking over to sit on the edge of the bed. Softly, you ran your hands through the little’s hair until his coughing fit had finished. Wrapping his arms around your waist, he pulled his head into your lap, whimpering lightly. You continue to play with his hair for a few minutes before speaking again. “We’re all out of cold medicine so Mommy’s going to need to run to the store real quick,” you explained, causing a pout to form on Jin’s lips.

“I don’t need medicine. I only need cuddles,” he insisted.

“But the medicine will make you feel so much better. I’ll only be gone for twenty minutes, and when I get back, I’ll give you cuddles,” you explained, starting to get up.

“No,” Jin whined, clinging as tightly to you as his sick and tired body would allow. “Mommy, don’t leave me,” he continued. Feeling guilty, you sat back down and attempted to reason with the little.

“How about if I fix you a warm cup of tea and put on an episode of We Bare Bears while I’m gone?” you suggested, but Jin just shook his head.

“Don’t want tea, just want Mommy,” he whimpered as his buried his head into your stomach. Sighing, you realized that there would be no way to appease the little.

“And you’ll get to spend time with Mommy, but only after you let me go to the store,” you explained, carefully moving the boy’s head to rest on the pillow again. As you stood up, Jin reached out toward you once again, but you were already out of his grasps. Once he realized his predicament, he began to get out of bed himself.

“I’m going to go with,” he insisted, letting out a string of coughs after.

“No, Baby, you’re going to stay here and rest,” you stated, picking up the boy who had already started pulling a T-shirt from his dresser.

“Wanna go with Mommy,” he whined as you placed his back into the bed and tucked him in.

“You can’t, Sweetie. Mommy’s going to the store to get the medicine, and you’re going to stay here and watch tv,” you firmly stated, turning on the television that was hung on the wall across from your bed.

“Fine,” the little huffed, “but only if you buy me cookies.”

“Of course, anything for my sick baby,” you said, turning on Netflix before selecting We Bare Bears. “Is there anything else I can get you before I leave?” you asked.

“Can you bring me Mr. Tuffy?” he questioned, and you nodded, retrieving Jin’s stuffed dog from the pile of plushies in the corner of the room.

“Thank you,” he grinned, before sneezing and wiping his nose on the blanket.

“Use a tissue, please, Baby,” you instructed, handing him the box from your nightstand.

“Okay, Mommy,” he replied.

“Good boy, now, I’ll be right back with your medicine,” you smiled, giving the little a quick kiss on the forehead before leaving the room.

When you returned from the store down the street, you began to fix Jin a cup of camomile tea with honey along with a sippy cup of water (since the little tended to be a bit younger when he was sick, you thought it would be best to give him a cup with a lid) before returning up stairs with the medicine and requested cookies. As you enter the room, you hear soft snores coming from the pile of blankets Jin is hidden under. Placing the items you brought on the nightstand, you retrieved the medication from the plastic bag and set aside the proper dosage before waking Jin.

“Sweetie, can you wake for a minute?” you whispered, moving the blankets aside and gently shaking the little’s shoulder.

“Only for Mommy,” he grinned lightly, opening his eyes.

“You’re such a good boy,” you smiled in reply. “Now, can you take your medicine for Mommy?”

Immeadiately, Jin shut his eyes again and stated, “Jinnie is asleep,” before pretending to snore.

“I guess if Jinnie’s asleep, I’ll just have to eat all these Yummy chocolate chip cookies by myself,” you dramatically sighed, but at the mention of a treat, the little instantly sits up in his bed, causing him to have a coughing fit. “Careful, Baby,” you cooed, bringing his head into your chest and patting his back until it was over. “You have to remember to take things slow until you get better,” you instructed, and Jin nodded in return. “Now, are you willing to take your medicine?” you asked.

“I guess,” Jin grumbled, “but only if I get cookies after.”

“Of course,” you chuckled. Picking up the two pills from the nightstand, you hand them to Jin before unscrewing the lid from the sippy cup (since it would be hard to take the pills with the lid still on) and keeping it in your own hand. Jin placed the pills in his mouth, and you gave him a few sip of water while keeping your free hand under his chin to catch any liquid that might fall. “Are they all the way down, or do you need some more water?” you asked.

“I don’t need anymore; they are all the way down in my tummy,” the little smiled proudly, giving his stomach a few pats.

“Good boy,” you praised. “Now, you get cookies,” you smiled, and the little clapped his hands before holding them out expectantly. Smiling to yourself, you opened the package and placed a cookie in the boy’s hands.

“Thank you,” he replied quickly before taking a bite of his reward. The rest of the morning was spent with Jin snuggled on your chest, munching on cookies while you gave him sips of tea inbetween bites.

Hoseok: Today, Hoseok along with this rest of the members had a photo shoot, and much to everyone’s dismay, he had woken up in little space. All morning you had been texting Namjoon to update him about the situation, and you both agreed that it would be better to allow him to stay little for the photo shoot rather than to force him into his big mindset. Hoseok was beyond estatic when you explained the situation to him; he loved posing and having his picture taken in little space.

“Okay, Sunshine, are you ready to get dressed?” you asked as the little finished his last bite of pancake.

“Mhm,” he responded hopping off of his chair and scurrying down the hall into the bedroom. After placing his plate in the sink, you followed behind to ensure that his outfit wasn’t too eccentric. When you entered the room, Hoseok had already put on a bright yellow T-shirt and was on the floor, struggling to put on a pair of baggy black pants.

“Do you need some help?” you offered, and the little nodded in response. Crouching down, you helped Hoseok remove his right leg— which he had in the same hole as his left leg— and place it in the correct hole. Picking him up to stand on his feet, you pulled the pants up the rest of the way before zipping and buttoning them. You then tied the colorful, chunky sneakers the little had chosen before putting on your own shoes. You handed Hoseok his crossbody bag that you had packed a small snack along with his cellphone in and picked up your own backpack.

“Why do you need that, Mommy?” Hoseok asked confused, pointing to your bag.

“Because Mommy has to go to class after she drops you off,” you explained, causing a pout to form on the previously smiling little’s face.

“Mommy’s not going to stay and watch Hobi?” the boy whimpered, starting to tear up.

“I’m sorry, Baby. I would love to, but I can’t miss class,” you explained, pulling him into a hug. Once his tears had subsided, you spoke up again. “We really need to get going if you’re going to get to your photo shoot on time,” you explained as you began to lead the little toward the front door.

“I don’t wanna go anymore,” Hoseok stated firmly, refusing to move.

“Baby, you need to go,” you informed, already picking up the fussy little into your arms. Instead of fighting, Hoseok just huffed and placed his head in the crook of your neck. You took this as a sign of acceptance of the situation, but little did you know Hoseok had other plans for once you got to the location.

The drive there was silent except for the soft Disney music that was playing and the occasional whine from Hobi. “We’re here,” you announced as you pulled into a parking space. Getting out of the car, you went over to Hoseok’s side to open the door for him. Patiently, you waited for him to step out, but he remained in his seat.

“Not getting out unless you carry me,” he stated, crossing his arms over his chest.

“Baby, I can’t carry you; we’re in public. But you can hold my hand,” you offered, sticking your hand out toward the little. Although he hesitated for a few minutes, he eventually took your hand and hopped out of the car. You proceeded to lock the car before walking into the building. As soon as you both entered, you were greeted by several managers and assistants pulling you toward the dressing room and bellowing directions at the little. The overwhelming number of people caused Hoseok to grab your upper arm with both hands and snuggle his head against your shoulder in fear. “Sh, it’s okay, Baby. No one’s going to hurt you,” you whispered just loud enough for only the little to hear. He nodded his head but kept his tight hold on you. When you entered the dressing room and Hoseok saw the familiar faces of the other members, his grip lightened, but he still refused to let go.

“There’s our little sunshine,” Namjoon greeted, a smile spread across his face. The little blushed at the nickname and gave a small grin in return.

“Are you ready to get all dressed up, Sweetie?” Jin asked, coming over to hug the boy in an attempt to get him to release you, but Hoseok just shook his head and began to subconsciously chew on your sleeve. “And why is that, Precious?” the elder asked, crouching down in order to look the little in the eye.

“Don’t wanna if Mommy’s not here,” the boy replied, around the cloth in his mouth. “Wanna go with Mommy,” he pouted.

“But what’s going to make us smile for our photos if our little Hobi isn’t here?” Taehyung asked, coming over to pinch the little’s cheek. Hoseok just gave a light shrug as he rubbed his head against your upper arm, an indication that he wanted to be petted.

“Aw, now, don’t be like that,” Jungkook interfered, pushing himself off of the couch. “We need our sunshine to brighten our day,” he stated, lifting the little into his arms and making him lose his grip on you. Immeadiately, tears started to fill the Hoseok’s eyes, and he began squirming trying to get out of the other’s grip.

“Put me down, wanna be with Momma,” the little whimpered. Seeing this as your opportunity to leave, you quickly say your goodbyes and tell Hoseok that you love him and that you will be back soon before exiting the room. Luckily, the little’s fit didn’t last too long, and he began to actually enjoy the process of preparing for the shoot— especially after getting his hair and makeup done because as he told Jimin, “It’s just like playing dress up.”

After your classes finished, you returned to the studio only to find that Hoseok was in the middle of his shoot. When he spotted you behind the photographer, he quickly waved and blew a kiss to you before smiling back at the camera. Once his session had finished, he ran toward you and embraced you in a tight hug. As you returned to the dressing room, the little began to tell you everything that he had done that day— from getting to choose which jacket he wore to eating the cupcake Yoongi had sneaked back for him. Overall, Hoseok had had a great time with the other members and would always want to have pretend photo shoots at home from then on.

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Go To Bed

❥ Namjoon x Reader

❥ Smut and Fluff

❥ Warnings — oral sex [Male Receiving] — unprotected sex — soft porn tbh

❥ Word Count — 1744

❥ a/n: it’s 12am and I just finished this — I’m hella tired so bear with me if this either has a lot of spelling errors or Is just shitty af — I tried ;—;

You rolled over on your side, eyes blurry as you tried to blink the sleep away. You glanced at the clock on your nightstand and just barely made out the numbers 3:39 am shining at you. You rolled over again, expecting to be greeted by Namjoon’s warm sleeping form. Instead you saw his side of the bed still perfectly made — he hasn’t been to bed yet.

Damnit Namjoon...again?

You sat up, rubbing the last bit of blurriness out of your eyes before swinging your legs over the side of the bed. Cool air hitting your bare skin was enough to make you feel wide awake. Your feet made soft thumps as you walked down the hall — he has to be in the living room, he would have told me if he was running to the studio. — you rounded the corner to see Namjoon sitting on the couch like you expected, laptop on his lap and headphones haphazardly hanging around his neck.

“Namjoon?” You noticed how mad the dark circles under his eyes were when he looked up — he looked utterly exhausted. “What are you doing up baby? I thought you went to bed hours ago.” His voice was gruff but he kept typing away at his laptop while making eye contact with you. “I did but I woke up and you weren’t next to me.” You felt a pout form on your lips and he chuckled.

“Sorry baby but I’m not tired.”

“But you look exhausted.”

“I had an energy drink thirty minutes ago so I’m wide awake even if I don’t look it.”

“Namjoon!”

You folded your arms over your chest, disapproval radiating off your body. “Baby I’m sorry, but I need to finish this.” You let out a huff of annoyance — you didn’t want to keep him from his work , especially if it was a deadline project, but you cared about his well being more than that. “Joonie you need to get some sleep, it’s almost 4am.” He shut his laptop and moved it to the side.

“Come here baby.” You were a sucker for him even when mad. You walked over to him with easy and settled yourself on his lap, arms instinctively coming up to wrap around his neck. “I’ll make up all our lost cuddle time soon baby I promise.” Your eyes traveled up and down his tired but handsome face. “You’ll need to make up for more than just cuddles Joonie.” Your voice was low and teasing, you couldn’t help it.

You missed him in more ways that one.

You felt his hands come up to rest on your hips, his eyes searching yours as he caught on to just exactly what you meant. “Baby do you miss me that bad?” His voice was teasing, his grip on your hips tightening. You whines a little “I miss all Of you Joonie. From your eyes…” you kissed his eyelids “to your nose” you placed a soft kiss on his nose “to your dimples.” Another soft kiss “to your lips…”

Your lips met in a soft kiss, one that was full of longing and need. But before he took the kiss any further you pulled away. “I miss your neck.” Your lips moved down to suck softly on his tanned skin, tongue darting out to sooth the places you bit. You heard him groan, hands starting to hold onto your hips with nearly bruising force now. Your teeth scraped the long column of his neck, making him shiver in pleasure.

“I missed your collarbone.” Your teeth scrape harshly on the prominent bone beneath his neck. You decorated the bare skin in what would later on be dark hickies. “Baby you planned this didn't you.” You smiled against his skin, you’d like to say you did plan it but you didn’t. “I missed your stomach.” Your words were a soft plea, he knew what you wanted and smiled. Taking off his shirt with ease to expose his tanned skin. You moved down his lap so you place soft kisses along his chest and stomach.

He used to be sorta insecure about his body — which shocked you really. He always said he wasn’t much to look at but you begged to differ. You made it your duty to show him just how much you loved his body every time you two made love. You kissed every inch of his stomach before reaching the waistband of his black sweatpants.

“I missed your hips.” You inched his sweats down slowly, kissing and sucking each space of exposed skin as the went lower and lower. You slipped them off so he was only in his boxers. “I missed your thighs.” You began sucking and kissing the soft muscles of his tanned thighs. Nuzzling your nose into the warm silky skin.

You hooked your fingers in his boxers, tugging them down slowly as you spoke. “I very unironically missed your...well you know.” You slipped his boxers off him and smirked at the sight of his cock standing fully erect, laying against his stomach — translucent precum already forming at the tip. You placed soft kisses along the underside of his member. Sucking softly on the sensitive skin.

Above you he hissed, eyes squeezing shut as you moved your lips down to the base of his dick, kissing the skin there too before moving your way up to the pink tip. Your tongue poked out to place a small kitten lick on his slit, letting the salty precum coat your tongue. “I missed the way you taste too.” You wrapped your lips around him and sucked slightly, not wanting to be too harsh right of the bat.

Your tongue danced around the tip of his member and teasingly ran over the slit. His chest was heaving already and you fought off a smile. His hand came up to run through your hair and words of praise tumbled off his lips. “Fuck baby I missed you too. So much, so fucking much. Oh my god you’re so good at this y/n.”

You took him in deeper, slowly moving down his length until you had about half of him in your mouth. You swallowed around him, howling your cheeks and sucking softly. “Shit Baby , just like that.” You relaxed your throat to take more of him in, you wanted to take him all. After a few moments your nose brushed his skin and you moaned — pleased with yourself.

“Shit baby...so good taking me like that, god you’re perfect.” You pulled back slowly until his tip was the only thing left in your mouth. “Baby ride me please, I want to feel you.” You pulled your mouth off him completely now. Eyes lidded as you took in his exhausted form. “Making me do all the work Joonie?” You were teasing off course but felt bad the second guilt began shining in his eyes.

“Joonie I’m kidding.” You placed one last kiss on his tip and stood up straight. You stretched your limbs and pulled your shirt over your head and let your breasts bounce softly against your skin before reaching down to pull of your bottoms and panties. “Damn you’re gorgeous baby.”

You smiled, crawling back into his lap and connected your lips with Namjoon’s in a heated, sweet kiss. His hands came down to hold onto your hips, guiding them easily to grind against his cock. You pulled away from him and smiled. “I love you Kim Namjoon.” His dimple popped out and you couldn’t help but notice the way his eyes sparkled. “I love you too y/n.”

You reached down and positioned his tip with your entrance and let him kiss you again, tongue dancing around each other as you slowly sunk down on him. Letting him fill you up inch by inch until you were sitting fully on his lap. “Damn this never gets old.” You buried your head into his neck and let his hips move carefully at first. Letting you feel every inch of him.

“I...Joonie…” he smiled at you, moving your head so you were forehead to forehead. His eyes bore into yours and they shone with nothing but love. His hips thrusted in and out of you at a steady pace, taking his time to feel all of you while soft whimpers left your lips.

He moved down towards your neck, biting into the sensitive skin — mimicking your own actions from earlier. You felt pure bliss washing over you with each of his thrusts

You felt the coil in your stomach tighten and clenched around him tightly. “F..ahh warn me next time y/n…” You laughed softly but it sounded more like a sob of pleasure. “Harder baby please I’m close.” He groaned and moved his hips faster.

“You’re close baby?”

“Very...shit harder Joonie please.”

“Fuck fuck fuck.”

One of his hands came up to begin rubbing vigorous circles on your clit. You could tell he was close by the way his face was contorted and that alone made your release come even faster. “Fuck Joonie…” you buried your face in his neck, eyes squeezing shut and moving your hips to met each of his thrusts.

Finally you felt your release hit you like a truck, overwhelming waves of pleasure wracking your body as you sobbed into his neck. Overstimulation already making your hips jerk as Namjoon refused to stop rubbing circle on your clit. “Aaaaaah….fuck fuck fuck.”

You felt his hips stutter and hot stripes of white painted your walls. His hips and hand stuttered until finally he stopped moving all together, entire body falling limp against the couch. You couldn’t even bring yourself to move off of him. “Thank you.” Your words were slurred and your eyes felt heavy as you listened to Namjoon’s heart rate return to normal. “Thank you baby, I just might have to do this more often if it means you’ll do this for us.”

You playfully smacked his arm and laughed. “I love you — you big smiling cute dope.” You felt the rumble of laughter against the side of your cheek and a lazy smile graced your features once more. “I love you too baby, let’s get you to bed yeah?” You hummed in response, sleep already taking over your mind — how could it not when he was so warm and comfortable.

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pxisonoak · 5 years

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ok so here is my bts experience 5/11/19 chicago day one (i wish i could be at day two is anyone looking 4 a sugar baby maybe i can do both days next year honk honk)

SO i'm in the uber on the way there with my lil cousin and i'm about to have a fucking panic attack because it's finally setting in that i'm seeing my boys. i feel so bad for our driver because i kept telling my cousin "i'm about to barf i'm about to barf i can't believe this is happening" and the car kept feeling smaller and smaller and i had to open a window for some air KDJDKSKD i was a fucking MESS. my whole body was damn shaking and i was weak af lmaooo.

i get to the venue, get inside, and as we were waiting to get water, this army was passing out handmade photo cards for free and i got a hobi one 😭😭 keeping it forever. the care and generosity. i love that girl, wherever u are.

we find our seats and my legs are weak and i feel genuinely sick and the venue was playing their music videos upon the projectors as we waited 😭 FINALLY TWENTY MINUTES LATER THEY COME ON and when i fucking tell u i was sobbing. i couldn't believe it??? i've loved them almost two years now and they're not just photos on a screen. not just videos. not just in my ears. not just... virtually in my life. they're in front of me and they're fucking real and there. i was full body sobbing i could not BELIEVE i was seeing all of them and ooooo mygod namjoon. namjoon!!!! my baby!!!!!!! whom id die for!!!!! fuck!!!

i finally got myself together after they played fire and i was like whew okay we goin ✈️✈️✈️ to get through this alive u have to remember it all without viewing it through ya cloudy tear filled eyes. remember every beat, movement, note, speech. and i did!!!

i've never lost my mind so much at a show before. i thought me seeing fifth harmony was bad but this was SOOOOO BADDDDD i LOST MY SHIT literally could not talk this morning. anyways, trivia love. trivia love. trivia love!!!!! namjoon doing trivia love jumping around in his lil robe oh my god when the piano for it first came in i literally ASCENDED 2 THE HEAVENS my soul left my goddamn body. inspo/fave boi in the universe i want to cry thinking abt it that was literally in the top 5 most beautiful moments in my life. my cousin took a video and you can hear me going absolutely batshit in the background lmaoooo

oh and euphoria was GORGEOUSSSSSS that songs means so much to me and hearing the beat drops and jungkook's high note i have no words no wordsssss 2 describe my emotions other than fuck!!!!!!

just dance was hype af and so fun and seesaw was lovely too and literally all the solos jfc and basically every song???? every song was a dream.. rapping yoongi's part in fake love and namjoon's in mic drop and singing along w joonie in trivia love and getting to do the iconique "idk nan molla" just.... chef's kiss 😗👌🏼 i have to do this again next year bc during the ending speech, tae crackhead ass let it slip they're coming back next year fnskkfdks bighit where u at collect your boy he's spilling it all

and more during the ending speech: jimin and tae said they didn't want us to catch a cold bc it was freezing out 😭 hobi was worried abt us lmao and namjoon said this is our first winter concert bc it was so cold!!! jin was chaotic as always, jimin and kook were cute as hell, and yoongi said something funny and u could hear namjoon's goofy laugh 😭 yoongi is precious and powerful all the same irl, joonie is a real ass leader.. he gives these powerful vibes and all their voices are like honey. joon kept telling us to get our phones out to make it look like stars in the crowd. tae said he had a dream about stars he was chasing, and that the view of all our lights looked just like his dream. i literally melted, they're all so sweet and they care abt us so much.

omg also anpanman was the most wholesome shit! they had a lil blowup bouncy castle slide thing on stage and they were being so goofy and carefree and playful! 💓💓💓 it added about 20 yrs to my life

mikrokosmos was a beautiful way to close the show. i full blown sobbed when they left the stage after blowing kisses to us. all the armies around me were crying too so i didn't feel like too much of a sappy idiot lmao. i miss them so bad and i wish i could be there again tonight. but mister tae spilled the beans about next year so i'm going to do it all again but double, i'm manifesting it

also trying to get back to the hotel was HELL we had three ubers cancel on us probably bc traffic jam and we were sitting on the fucking sidewalk in breezy 40 degree weather shivering for nearly an hour skdksfl but we lived we survived and now i'm almost home-home and i want to cryyyyyyyyy i wish i could be this happy every single night. best night of my life, hands down. no exaggeration. i can't wait to do it all again. i love them with every bone in my stupid body.

#personal #bts #kpop #speak yourself tour #speak yourself world tour #speak yourself chicago

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jinships-ideas · 6 years

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BTS Run 49 & 50 - The Jin Harem

This potato is back!

To make up for the lost week here’s an EXTRA long post that covers ep49 & 50!

Let’s Get it!

The incessant need for these 2 to be glued to each other’s side is a blessing to us all

Did they really have to lean into each other as they sat?

Yes, yes they did

Hobi sneakily touching Jin’s hand

You thought you were subtle but the camera still caught it~

2Seok lost in their own world

More like Hobi being lost in the food and Jin being lost in the pretty sight~

Ft. Cutie Jin’s sitting pose where his hands are on his knees which are together while his legs are apart~

Jin uwu-ing while admiring Hobi’s happy face

Hobi uwu-ing back at Jin

2Seok brings happiness

Despite sitting all the way at the opposite end, Chim somehow managed to engage Jin into the conversation

Chim even seemed to be gesturing towards Jin and set his sight on Jinnie~

Jinmin: The space between us doesn’t matter if we are still connected at heart

I laughed a little too hard at this

Jk being a brat and Jin letting him

Why are jinkook so precious?

Take note that there are plenty of food around but JK HAD to have the one Jin took a bite out of

HMMM I WONDER WHY

JK: Why eat when there’s a better use for those lips?

PROTECT THESE PUPPIES

Tae went to pass JK a glass and Jinnie thought Tae wanted to toast and brought his own glass towards Tae

But as Tae hands the glass to JK, Jin just toasts against Tae’s hand

XD HAHHAHAHA THIS MAN IS GREAT

During the actual toast, Jin’s glass only connects with Joonie’s

Sidenote: Their colored bowties make them look like comedians

Awww JK looking up to Jin

LITERALLY

NOTICE HIM ALREADY YOU FOOL!

the glass Jin is holding is actually JK’s!

He wanted to try the drink and when he was done, he put it back on the table between Yoongs and JK

But Jk shifted it back to the spot between Jin and himself

Perhaps he put it there so Jin could reach it easier if he wanted another taste?

Bangtan: The Manito Episode! JK: The Episode where Jin gave snacks as his gift!

The same episode but the associated memory is different...

Jk has a proper glass but his extra ass HAD to use the ceramic one he has...

This boy is a child

PROTECT HIM

WHAT DO YOU KNOW?

THERE’S ANOTHER CHILD BESIDE HIM!

I’m wondering if JK poured it to be a brat or for the sake of Jin...

Either way, it’s soft

It’s hard to tell who Jin was talking to as he mistakenly thought the ranking was talking about BV1...

Either way, it’s a Jinship moment

Hobi patting the slightly embarrassed Jin’s back

XD HAHAHA THIS FOOL GOT CONFUSED

Chim agreeing with Jinnie and pointing at him across the room

Distance is not enough to put a damper on Jinmin’s tenacity

YOU CAN BET YOUR ASS THAT IF IT WEREN’T FOR THEIR SITTING ARRANGEMENT, JINMIN WOULD HAVE HUGGED TF OUT OF EACH OTHER HERE

Jin being fond at the sight of a fumbling Yoongs

Bangtan reacting to Jin’s comedy

Jin loves Bangtan, Bangtan loves Jin

BTS is the ultimate jinship itself

SLY HOBI PUTTING HIS HAND ON THE WORLDWIDE SHOULDER

2Seok checking in with that skinship

They really zoom out to give us a full reaction bangtan gives when it’s Jin’s moment huh?

Ft. touchy Hobi back at it with his touchy hand~

Hobi’s hand is STILL on Jin’s shoulder

Jin hitting JK out of amusement

Touchy Jin, Touchy Hobi

AHh life is great

Jin was the only one who was super amused by Joon’s “ottogi”

I bet that isn’t the only amusing thing Jin finds about Joonie~

Ahhhh onions~

The namjin vege~

2SEOK BE GOING STRONG!!!

Touchy HOBI, BLESS YOU

Joonie quietly praising Jin’s absurd skill at the card game~

Jinnie being very amused by Tae and JK’s hilarious conversation mid-game

Jk looks proud~

Jin was VERY amused at Tae’s misfortune with the pottery

Jin you evil man, beware of a certain pup with iconic eyebrows that will be after your ass!

Hobi got the BEST position ever

Bless his hand that touched Jin

Bless his entire existence for gracing us with 2Seok and his amazing presence

Namjin imitating Yoonjin’s photo-zone fail

Staff: Who here ships Namjin? Namjin: *raises their hand* Vmin: Let’s just stuff our faces to forget the betrayal Yoongs: Hmph. Unbelievable Jk: BIIITCH WHAT? Hobi: Excuse you? What about 2Seok bitch? Jin: I ship all Jinships like an intellectual ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

???

It at least nice to see Jin can command Hobi and JK’s attention with just 1 finger

Touchy Hobi is just FEEDING us with all the 2seok now

Touchy Jin STRIKES AGAIN!

He hits Jk and JK doesn’t even respond

JK must be so used to this shit now XD

He even hits and rubs JK’s back when Tae was talking about the water park T^T

Bless Jin and his touchy hands

The understanding gazes between Namjin

Jin accurately guesses Joon’s distaste for Bungee Jumping with just 1 look~

What a dumb thing to expose

Don’t you know the production team will use that against you now?

The more you say you hate it, the more likely it is for them to use that as a future punishment...

Bangtan exposing themselves = Boo boo the fools

Ft. Jk paying attention to Jin and ONLY JIN

*inserts doo doo doo doo BGM*

STOP BEING SO DARN CUTE YOU TWO

First, they act all kiddish and then they suddenly pull this romantic ass crap

our weak hearts can’t keep up T^T

MORE PLEASE

HE CLOSED HIS EYES

TO SAVOUR THE SENSATION

FCCCCCK

JINKOOK BE AFTER OUR HEARTS

Did I say bangtan were boo boo the fools?

I was wrong

It’s us

Always has been, always will be

Jinnie grumbles about how his snack gift was thrown away by Hobi and Hobi protests XD

Awww I found it touching how Jin seemed GENUINELY TOUCHED by JK’s active nomming of his snacks

T^T his pouty lips and the head nods

T^T PROTECT THIS PURE MAN WHO JUST WANTS PEOPLE TO APPRECIATE HIS GAG GIFT

Hobi: Bitch really? In front of my salad?

(That’s right, it’s been a while but the salad meme is BACK)

Tae: Welp... I found a new target for Yeontan’s teeth Chim: *snickers* He thinks he can just touch MY man? *scoffs* be prepared to face my kicks Joon: I’m about to throw my fists Yoongs: Let’s see what this paper says! Oh it’s a certain Hoseok’s fortune! It says he is about to eat some punches thrown by yours truly! Jk: Bitch. How you dare, How you dare, How you dare!

This shows tht Jinkook was sharing their glass the whole time

and I bet a whole lot of indirect chuus happened...

Tae & Chim: *UNAMUSED ABOUT THE INDIRECT CHUUs* Joon: Really bitch? Yoongs: Can you believe those 2 shits? Hobi: Tell me about it. I’m the one sharing their love seat here...

Hobi flirting with Jin mid-award ceremony

WHO WILL BE THE WINNERS (to Jin’s heart)?

STAY TUNED

Lmao no, just read on XD for part 2 of this EXTRA long post~

Let’s begin the promised Part 2 of this post~

Let’s Get It!

Jinnie anticipates Joon’s nomination for the ‘Cute’ award...

So... You think he is cute enough for an award huh?

You’re not wrong...

But... you are also not being subtle

His amusement and Joy at seeing Joonie being nominated for ‘Best Physical’ Award

Jin: That’s right, that man’s body is A++

He could have also been teasing Joonie

Either ways, Namjin is great

Jinkook looking like identical copies

Ft. Broadass Jin making Jk look tiny in comparison

Jin cheering wholeheartedly for happy JK when he was announced as the ‘Best Physical’ Award winner!

Touchy!Jin strikes again!

We’ve missed you handsy Jin :’)

HAND ON THIGH!!!

*Screams*

HE GOES FOR THE WAIST AND BACK AFTER THE THIGH!!!

Hobi responds by reaching for Jin’s Worldwide Shoulder!

I feel like a sports commentator

Extreme! Shipping, it’s a sport

:’)))

Jin reaches for Hobi’s hand amidst their laughter

Sadly they were too excited to fully hold hands

Jin doesn’t give up and finally gets to hold Hobi’s wrist properly

I love 2seok

2Seok loves love

Love loves 2Seok

Jinkook + 2Seok

BLESS THIS FRAME

BLESS THIS SEATING ARRANGEMENT

BLESS JIN’s GENES

Jk: He’s mine~ Hobi: Excuse you! He’s MINE Jin: *sigh* it’s tough to be fabulous

Hobi, JK and Joon expressing their delight for MC Jin’s nomination!

MC JIN WAS FANTASTIC

HE DID SO GOOD!!

Hobi getting Handsy like always~

Hobi’s hand is on Jin’s thigh

I REPEAT HOBI’S HAND IS ON JIN’S THIGH

Jin is wrapping his hand around Hobi’s arm that is touching his thigh

PRAISE 2SEOK

It looked like they were gonna interlock their fingers!

If only they weren’t moving so much!

Jin doesn’t even let Hobi’s hand go...

:’)))

2Seok be doing the MOST

The softness in the way Jin looks at Hobi with his hands grabbing onto his knee

THE SOFTNESS THAT IS JIN ADMIRING HOBI TALKING

T^T

*ugly sobbing*

Jin looked towards Hobi upon hearing his name being called as the winner for the ‘MC’ Award!!

2Seok STOPPPP

MY HEART :”)

Jin actually turned to look at Yoongi immediately after Hobi hugs him

He probably thought Yoongi should have won the ‘MC’ award!

BUT YOONJIN IS SO URGHHH

Yoongi the gentleman APPROACHING JIN TO HUG HIM

YOONJIN :’))))

Jinnie escorting Yoongi, the RIGHT ‘MC’ Award winner to get his award

Joonie sneaking in some skinship with Jin with his back patting of consolment

PARK JIMIN YOU CRUEL MAN

CUTE MY ASS (kidding you’re still cute but you’re the evil cutie)

It was sooooo bratty to play that trick on Jinnie!

Poor Jinnie was so happy when he thought he won...

:(((

Chim better have hugged Jin to make up for it

Chim you are boo boo the fool

IF you wanted Jin’s attention, maybe don’t be so cruel and mean to him?

2Seok are just being too much right now...

WHEN WILL YOU LEARN THAT YOUR ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES?!!

Tae: That ass tho.... *licks lips* Joon: That muscle punk is blocking my view of the JinBooty! Jk: Awww YEAHHHH A+ view 2Seok: *can I have this dance plays in the background*

Jk and Hobi calling out Jimin for being mean

CALL THAT PUNK OUT

ISTG JIMIN BETTER HAVE BACKHUGGED THE SADNESS OUT OF JIN AFTER THE BS HE PULLED

I DEMAND A JINMIN BACKHUG AS COMPENSATION FOR MAKING JINNIE SAD

Jk the sweet child using the chance to sneak his hand towards his favourite place: Jin’s neck

Jk’s neck kink is once again proven

STOP FLIRTING FFS

(please don’t)

Flower!Jin~

2Seok reaching for each other when Hobi was nominated for the ‘Acting’ Award!

THey are so adorable with each other

(Low key confused why Jin wasn’t nominated too... Guess the crew for Bts Run has bad tastes and only thinks of reducing Jin’s efforts and talents and give him a totally predictable and no-thought-put-into-whatsoever cooking award)

‘Cooking’ Award - we all know the rightful winner

Bangtan knows it too

But couldn’t the crew have put more effort into a different award?

Even Jin was disappointed with it

(¬_¬)

The members all tried hard to hype it up by praising him and saying its an important award

But BTS Run staff... Really? Seriously? All that effort and creativity but you give Jin the ‘Cooking’ Award? (¬_¬)

Maybe try stopping with this ‘reducing Jin as only a cook/carer’ thing you guys have been doing and see his Variety sense and recognise it for once

(¬_¬)

Awww Chim must have felt bad for being insensitive to Jin the whole time

:’)))

You could tell he felt guilty XD

Just give him a hug and all will be good Chim!

Jinnie staying positive (we know he always does :’( ) and cheering Hobi on and hyping him for the same nomination~

How many times have 2Seok hugged? XD

Yoongi reaching to shake Jinnie’s hand like the gentleman he is~

Jinkook hug~

Ft. Hobi’s lingering hand on Jin~

2Seok will be the death of us this episode

Flower!Jin receiving flowers from another handsome man, Tae

:’)))

The bright way Hobi looks at Jin

SUPPORTIVE 2SEOK!!!

Tae and Chim knows what’s good looking too

Jin: *announcing his choice out of the 3 bachelors* JIMIN-SSHI! Tae: *looks into the camera like in The Office* So THIS is what betrayal feels like... Chim: ME?!! *GASP* Joon: DAFUQ? I WAS A SHOO-IN!

Tae: *still in his Top 10 anime betrayal mode* Chim: THIS BITCH PLAYED ME AND I GLADLY LET HIM Joon: Imma just turn away from the losers

Jin HAD to be petty and get his revenge on Chim huh?

Well, petty man, NO Chim HUGS for you :<

Namjin + Flowers = Good combi

2Seok just keeps going

just keeeeeeeep on going

Really 2Seok is too much

Our weak hearts are suffering from the QUALITY MOMENTS

THANK YOU

aaand they are back to being goofballs that we love and know them for

Jinnie sneaking a glance at Joonie at their nomination for ‘Best Chemistry’ Award

(Low key though, Joon’s face and Jin’s face froze for a little...)

Tae seems to be enjoying the Namjin though

2Seok, stop giving us diabetes with your sweetness and touchiness XD

WHen the staff was reading out why they gave all 3 combis the award, Joonie was just looking at his fellow nominee

Jin, however, was busy making his harem and was flirting with Chim across the room

These 2 XD Distance really doesn’t mean a thing for them~

Hobi nudges Jin to try to get his attention away from Chim~

...

Tell me it wasn’t just me that found it off

...

Chim’s slight smile as he makes eye contact with Jin

Joonie’s odd expression and tone...

I’m sensing something...

Jinnie being a kid

But... why was Joon looking at him like that?

*Theory brewing...stay tuned to find out*

Tae being adorable and matching with Jin’s kiddy actions~

Jk snickering in the corner...

Does he know something we don’t???

Jin requests Joon to hold his hand...

But Joonie pulls his hand away so quickly!

...

JK: Kids, this is why you don’t jerk off right before you have to film Hobi: STFU you are the only kid here Jimin: HAHA Hyung got caught doing the nasty Yoongs: Gross... Tae: Stop pretending to be saints y’all bunch of nasties Jin: I’m taking that you are not accepting my request to hold hands because you didn’t wash your hands... That’s disgusting Joon... Joon: BITch stop accusing me. I JUST DON’T WANT TO HOLD YOUR HAND OK?! Bangtan: Who would want to hold hands with the person who caught them rubbing one out while calling their name? Not Joon. Joon: STFU Y’ALL ARE LYING

In case you guys didn’t realize, I am just joking

But yea There was some tension there but my nasty mind goes to someone being caught jerking off by someone else and thus awkwardness ensues~

Feel free to use this to write a fic!

Matching shocked!Namjin

HAHHAHHAHAH

THeir reactions were HILARIOUS

HOBIIII HHAHAHAHAHH

FCCCCKKK

*Save me Save me*

Joon: *wants to fight the confetti pt.1* Chim+Tae: * Enjoying the pretty streamers* Yoongs: *Having a mild heart attack* Jk: *enjoying himself* Jin: *caught in the middle of an earthquake* Hobi: *wants to fight the confetti pt.2*

Yea sure Hobi, wrap Jinnie up and tie him up

Not inappropriate at all

Hobi’s got his hands firmly wrapped around Jin’s waist

Yoongi has his arm around Jin’s Worldwide shoulder and Jin holds on tight to Tae’s arm~

Tae: Another member who is trying to wrap Jin up and tie him up

Inappropriate no.2

Hobi+Chim+Joon: *glaring at Tae’s audacity*

Well, aren’t you a little close, Sir?

Yoongs softly smiling at how Tae is wrapping jin with the streamer~

Jinkook is that touchy couple that will insist they DO NOT engage in PDA put pulls stunts like this

Jk isn’t even trying to hide his neck kink with Jin anymore

Fetus!Bangtan!!!

2Seok was already strong back then huh?

The way he looks at Jin...

WHO IS CHOPPING ONIONS HUH?!

2Seok is the main pairing for this episode

HANDS DOWN THE TOUCHIEST AND SWEETEST PAIR THIS EPISODE

Edit:

TOUCHY JIN GROPES JK’s BUTT

Can’t believe I was distracted by all the 2Seok that I missed this

Thank you to the kind user who pointed this out in the comments section!!

-Edit end-

Jinkook + Shoulder + Neck + Shiba Jin + Headband Jin

*dead*

CHILDREN

FFS XD

Jin’s uwu though

:’)))

Jinmin are happy bubs that are glad to be on the same team~

Bunny!Jinmin~

Ft. Jin nudging Chim in the arm with his fingers~

THE FLUFFINESS AND CUTENESS

GAHH

If only they put the mike fuzz on their butt to make it look ike a fuzzy bunny tail...

Top 10 Anime betrayals

When Jin lied about being unable to blow a bubble with gum

Joonie look so upset XD

HUG HIM TO CHEER HIM UP JIN!

Bunny!Jinmin abandons their animal friends and goes off to enjoy their time at the amusement park~

PHEW THAT WAS A LONGASS POST

Hope you guys enjoyed it!

Until Next Time~

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btsiguess · 7 years

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This Is Just To Say (m) - 4

Summary: To say it’s unusual to have a soulmate is an understatement, and most people desperately wish to have an elegant name scrawled upon their wrist. In reality though, you’d have to say it causes much more issues than it solves.

Pairing: Yoongi/Reader (slight Namjoon/Reader; Jungkook/Reader)

Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst

Word Count: 4570

Warnings: More garbage philosophy ramblings. Me helplessly pining over Kookie, apparently.

A/N: Instead of doing my homework for philosophy I’m literally just writing fake philosophy arguments?

Chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

“You absolutely have to tell him.” Joonie said for the thousandth time that night.

“I know I have to tell him, I should’ve told him before.” You reply. “I’m not a monster… I just don’t have any self control. But really how could I? You’ve seen him.”

“I have. I get it. But the kid probably really likes you, and he’s probably just working up the courage to ask you out. He’s been so jumpy around you these past few days. He deserves to know about… your soulmate.”

You sigh wistfully as Namjoon repeats the same thing he’s been saying over and over again for the greater part of an hour. You were obviously going to tell Jungkook. You just didn’t exactly know when.

“Joonie, please can’t we talk about something else?”

Namjoon doesn’t say anything, and the uncharacteristic lack of banter between the two of you is particularly unnerving in this case. You twist around on Joon’s bed until you’re laying your head in his lap; immediately his fingers start to run through your hair. This remains the only movement in the room for quite sometime. While his hands in your hair relieves some of your stress, his pensive silence doesn't allow you to feel completely at ease.

“Joonie…” you say and he hums in response. “I was wondering if you, uh. I mean do you want to,” you run your own hands through your hair nervously as you push yourself off of his lap. Your stuttering seems to have piqued his interest, but he doesn’t press you for words, instead remaining quiet as you work up the nerve to say whatever it is you need to say.

“Joonie, do you want to see my soulmate mark?”

You hate that the room is still quiet after you ask the question. You hoped that offering up such a personal piece of yourself would alter Namjoon’s mood and while he didn’t seem quite as upset as before, he still wasn’t talking.

“If you want to share that with me, I’d love to see it.” He says finally.

You nod and feel your stomach churn. This is really happening, I’m really doing this, you think.

Your hands fiddle with the clasp of your watch, your fingers feeling too shaky and clumsy to complete the process efficiently. But eventually you manage and the watch falls off, your security blanket gone; and though you’re still fully clothed you feel more naked than you’ve ever been in front of another person.

You hold your arm out to Namjoon, and he takes it in his hands, turning it over so your wrist is unveiled to him. He reads the name in silence before reaching out to delicately brush his long fingers over it. His fingers are light as a whisper on your skin and you shiver.

“Min Yoongi.” He says finally.

“Min Yoongi…” You echo back.

“Your soulmate.”

“Yes.”

“Thank you,” he says. “For showing me this.”

You nod as he releases your hand and you hastily put the watch back on. There’s a slightly awkward silence, as if neither of you know what to do or say now that this is all real, and you suppose that’s fair even if you hate it. You’re happy you showed Namjoon, he is your best friend after all, but you’re not sure you can handle being in this room any longer. It doesn’t feel stifling, just a bit overwhelming. You tell him how you’re feeling, and he simply nods. He’s such a good friend, you think. And it’s for that reason you decide that you’re going to tell Jungkook about Min Yoongi, and you’re going to tell him now.

You bid Namjoon farewell, and he wishes you luck when you tell him where you’re going. The walk to Jungkook’s dorm feels all too short, and soon you’re knocking on the door of his single room. It takes him a bit too long to answer, and you briefly wonder if he’s even there, silently praying that he’s out so you don’t have to go through with this. But just as you’re about to leave, the door opens.

Jungkook’s face brightens when he sees you, and he shuffles aside quickly to let you into his room. He apologizes for the mess, and sheepishly offers you a seat on the bed next to him.

It’s only then that he notices the macabre look on your face and the stiffness of your back. “What is it? What’s wrong?” He asks, nervously.

“Jungkook, I have to tell you something. And I really hope it doesn’t change anything between us, but I understand if it would.” Jungkook visibly gulps at that, and if this were literally any other situation you might have found it funny and cute.

“You can tell me anything.” He says finally.

“I, uh. Jungkook, I have a soulmate.” you look down at your hands, at the walls, at the paused video game on his TV screen; you look anywhere but at the boy sitting next to you. Before he can speak, you continue, “I haven’t met them. And I honestly don’t want to. I know that might come as a surprise to you but I don’t think that it’s… I think it’s stupid, I don’t know.”

“You think you having a soulmate is stupid.” Jungkook repeats, not quite asking a question but not quite not either.

“Yeah.”

“Why? Isn’t it supposed to be this great big blessing?”

There’s that word again. Blessing.

You tell Jungkook the story you told Namjoon only a few weeks ago, you tell him about your father and mother, and you tell him about your choice to find love the natural way. To build it from the ground up and not just receive it in a flashy gift wrapped box. The whole conversation feels so heavy to you. Because it’s Jungkook. Someone you’ve slept with. A person you could see yourself falling for in an instant. A person you were sure already meant something to you, even if you weren’t quite sure what it was.

He was quiet while you spoke, and you were getting so sick of everyone being so fucking quiet. You had half expected Jungkook to yell at you, to be angry with you. To throw you out of his dorm room and his life, leaving you to run back home with your tail between your legs. But he doesn’t. He just patiently waits for you to finish your explanation.

As you speak you feel your face heat up a bit, you feel tears start leaking out of the corners of your eyes. You’re almost embarrassed by the display of emotion, until you realize that you don’t care whether Jungkook sees you a wreck over this. Because you are. You wish you could just be normal and boring and excited about your budding relationship. But instead you’re here hurting him already.

You feel selfish that you ever let it get this far. Maybe I should just become a hermit and never leave my house, you think and with that one overly-dramatic thought a sob pulls through your lips.

“Jungkook, I’m so sorry.” You say, as steadily as you can manage.

Unthinkingly, the boy pulls you into his arms. He cradles you in his lap and begins to rock you back and forth, his face buried in your hair.

“I feel selfish.” Jungkook says finally, and you pull away from him.

“You feel selfish? Why?” He gazes at you for a moment, using his thumb to gently wipe your tears away.

“I won’t lie to you, I’m not happy about this.” He says, “but if you mean what you say, if you don’t want him… well then I’ve still got a shot haven’t I?”

“Jungkook, wha-”

“I feel selfish.” He repeats, “because I don’t care if you have a soulmate. I still want you to be mine.”

Your breath catches in your throat and you’re left speechless. Jungkook gives a small chuckle at the look on your face, and you’re suddenly self conscious. You’re sure you must look a mess, your eyes all puffy and red, and he’s so close to you, what with you being wrapped up in his arms. And he feels selfish? What’s happening?

He leans towards you until his lips are just brushing yours, and he waits for a moment, allowing you to decide whether you want this or not.

You make the next move and cover his lips completely with your own. It’s the first kiss you’ve shared since you slept together and it feels better than you remember, his lips moving against your own. It’s soft and sweet, full of promise, and it leaves you reeling.

Jungkook pecks at your lips once, twice before finally pulling away and resting his forehead on yours, a soft smile playing on his lips.

“Aish. I’ve wanted to do that for days.” Jungkook says softly.

“Why didn’t you?”

“I’m not sure. I was just nervous I guess. I like you a lot, but I didn’t know if uh, you had just wanted a one time thing.”

“Oh. I, uh. No. I didn’t really want it to just be one time.” You say, barely above a whisper. Jungkook’s back stiffens slightly at your words.

“Are you kidding?” He asks, “because if you’re kidding that’s really not cool.”

“I’m not kidding.”

“Seriously, I’ll be really pissed if you--”

“Jungkook, would you like to date?” The words tumble out of your mouth before you can stop them and it shuts both of you right up.

“Would I like to date?” He repeats.

“Yeah.”

“You’re asking me if I want to date you?” You shift uncomfortably in his lap, suddenly wishing you were further from him, so the rejection wouldn’t be so mortifying.

“Yeah, it was silly, it’s--”

“Yes.” he says, “of course I want to date you, don’t be stupid.” he interrupts.

“Okay. So. That means we are dating now?”

“Yeah, I guess.” He tries to keep his face nonchalant, but it doesn’t last long. Jungkook shakes his fringe in his face and a smile breaks wide over his lips.

It’s infectious, too. And despite just having been crying, your heart suddenly feels light and airy. You can’t help but feel like you’re on a roller coaster ride, with all the ups and downs of today, but you honestly feel like at least in this moment, nothing can go wrong.

Jungkook pulls you back into a gentle kiss. It doesn’t last long, and soon he’s pulling back, smiling at the little pout on your lips.

“That was our first kiss as a couple.” He says, and you snort.

“What the fuck kind of fluffy garbage is that?” You say, but your cheeks are heating up, and you’re sure you’re beaming at his words.

Jungkook adapts a high pitched lilt to his voice, mimicking you as he speaks, “What the fuck kind of fluff--” You don’t let him finish before pulling him into another kiss. This one slightly less gentle. You nip at his bottom lip in punishment as you pull away.

“That was our second kiss as a couple.” You say.

If you hadn’t been so close, you wouldn’t have noticed the way Jungkook’s eyes darkened slightly just before he kisses you again.

He shifts to place you on the bed underneath him as the kiss continues, and your hands come up to tangle in his hair. The kiss is slow and deep, like Jungkook is taking his time with you.

By the time he pulls away you’re gasping for breath, and he shakes his head a little bit, composing himself before he speaks.

“Third.” he says, and you pull him in again.

You’re surprised by how badly you need to kiss him, to feel him against you. Your heart is pounding in your chest and you briefly wonder how anyone could expect you to miss out on this feeling, the addiction that is Jeon Jungkook, all because of the simple name scrawled across your wrist.

His mouth is wet against yours, his tongue prodding your lower lip, asking for entrance. As your mouth opens to him, you wrap your legs around his waist. One of his hands comes up to run along the underside of your thigh as it clings to him, before he gives your ass a small squeeze. You gasp into his mouth and he chuckles.

You break the kiss, for lack of air, but Jungkook kisses down your jaw to ravage your neck. The marks he had left the last time you were together had finally faded enough for you to forego a scarf in public, and if you hadn’t been so turned on by the nipping of his teeth against your skin you would’ve laughed at how quickly the scarf would be needed again.

You’re pulled out of your thoughts by Jungkook’s mouth sucking hard just below your ear, his teeth quickly following. You gasp out his name as he soothes the spot with his tongue, and you tug his hair, pulling his mouth back onto yours roughly.

Your teeth clash together a bit with the desperation of the kiss, and you can’t help but thrust your hips forward into the boy above you. The action catches Jungkook off guard, and a broken moan leaves his lips.

He breaks the kiss and rests his forehead on your, staring into your eyes as he grasps your hips and pulls them into his again. Even through your jeans and his sweats the friction still feels good, just enough to provide a little bit of relief from the tension in your core. You can feel Jungkook’s hardness against the most intimate part of you, and the feeling makes you gasp.

“Jungkook, please I want you.” you tell him, your eyes rolling back in your head a bit as he rolls his hips against yours again.

“Anything for you, babe, anything.” His hands reach down to pull at the hem of your shirt, but before he can pull it over your head, there’s a knock on the door.

“Kookie!” Taehyung calls through the door, “Let me in, I brought snacks.”

Jungkook and you scramble apart and you try desperately to smooth out his hair, which your fingers had tousled vehemently. He glances down at his lap briefly, his erection still standing tall and proud. He does his best to adjust his sweatpants to no avail.

“Sit, sit!” you tell him, “and cover up! I’ll answer the door.”

Jungkook smiles sheepishly as he does what you tell him, grasping your hand and pulling you into one last bruising kiss as you get up to open the door.

“Jungkook!” Tae yells, “I know you’re in there, loser. You don’t have any other friends, open up.”

When you do as Tae asks and pull the door open, his eyes widen.

“Y/N!” he says, “What are you doing here?”

Tae pauses for a moment before continuing, “Actually, you know what? Don’t tell me. I don’t want to know.”

“Get your mind out of the gutter, Taehyung.” you tease, “Jungkook and I were just playing video games.”

“Mmm.” Tae replies, “Those hickey’s all up your neck suggest otherwise.” You blush a deep red, and quickly move a hand to your neck, but Tae doesn’t stop there as he pushes into the room.

“Seriously, Kookie, those things are dark man. You basically bruised her. What do you have a kink for marking up your girl or something?”

Jungkook sputters momentarily, trying to find something to say. The deep scarlet of his face let’s the whole room know that yes, he definitely does have that kink.

With that knowledge, Tae just laughs and pushes Jungkook’s shoulder, forcing the younger boy to move over to accommodate him on his bed.

“Whatever, weirdo. Let’s play video games.”

You curl up on Jungkook’s other side as they play, texting Namjoon about the events of the night. He sends you just about a thousand heart emojis when you tell him that you’re officially dating Jungkook, and teasingly says you should invite him to philosophy club the following evening.

You weren’t really surprised that Jungkook had agreed to tag along with you and Namjoon, seeing as he took every opportunity he could to spend time with you when he wasn’t at baseball practice. But you were surprised that Suga had also decided to tag along, keeping good on his vaguely threatening promise from a few nights prior. You give him a little wave when you see him, and the corner of his mouth quirks up. He wore glasses tonight, and as you smiled back at him he used one long, delicate finger to push them up the bridge of his nose. You were struck by how handsome he was, your eyes following the movement of his finger. He definitely caught you too, his kind sort-of-smile becoming a full on smirk as he took in the look on your face. You looked away, embarrassed by your brazen gaze, especially since your boyfriend was standing next to you.

As your little group walked into the meeting room a few people gave you the side-eye, and Zach paused his conversation about some girl who wouldn’t hook up with him even after he bought her dinner to audibly groan. What a little fucker, you thought.

You all sat in a little cluster towards the back, and it wasn’t long before the club began.

“Okay guys,” the woman leading the group started, “today we’re going to be talking about part of the Nicomachean Ethics! Friendship.” You watch as Suga and Jungkook shift uncomfortably in their seats, not quite understanding what was going on. Namjoon, however, perks up, glancing at you with a small smile on his face. The philosophy club was in for a long night.

“I’d like you all to debate the validity and necessity of the three friendship types discussed in book VIII! Okay! Begin!” The woman finished.

The rest of the room began to talk all at once while you turned to Jungkook and Suga.

“Do you want me to tell you what they’re talking about?” You asked, and while Suga looked disdainful at your patronizing offer, Jungkook nodded gratefully.

“Okay, well the Nicomachean Ethics are just a series of books written by Aristotle. They contain his philosophy’s and they’re really important, since basically every other predominant philosopher that comes after him read it. But I don’t know, philosophy majors like to throw around lengthy titles because most of them consider intelligence as some sort of elitist club. It’s wicked lame. Anyway, what we are talking about now is Aristotle’s theory on friendship. He says that every friend you have falls into three categories: utility, pleasure, and goodness.”

The boys seem to be paying rapt attention to your words, and you’re minutely surprised. It’s not often you get to lecture two handsome men on Aristotle.

“A friendship of utility,” you continue, “is sort of like… when you’re only friends with someone to get something. It’s not necessarily negative though, I always thought of it as like, if you started a study group or something. You’re all friends but ultimately you’re in it for their knowledge. And when the study group is over, so is the friendship. A friendship of pleasure is when, well… it’s like it sounds. You’re both in it because you get some sort of pleasure being around each other, but it doesn’t go much deeper than that. It’s not like you’d call them if something bad happened, it’s really all about a mutual benefit. Aristotle says this is closer to true friendship, but still doesn’t quite get there. Lastly, and most importantly, there’s a friendship of goodness. That’s just the run of the mill, real, friendship. You’re in it together, through thick or thin, that nonsense. Does that all make sense?”

Both boys nod.

“Aristotle basically said that you’re supposed to strive to only have friendships based on goodness. That that is what makes a person moral and virtuous. But he also says that it’s not uncommon to have friendships in all three categories. So I think what she wants us to argue is--”

“Whether or not we need all three types of friendships.” Suga interrupts.

“Yeah.” you say simply.

You glance up at the conversation for the first time since it started. As usual Namjoon has taken a sort of lead, arguing furiously with Zach.

“It’s absolutely necessary,” Namjoon says, “to have friends in each category! We can’t pretend that humans are saints. Achieving total goodness or virtuousness is ridiculous. Having a friendship based in utility doesn’t make you a bad person.”

“I beg to differ, Namjoon.” Zach replied, “If we don’t hold ourselves to a higher standard, we’ll never get any better.”

“That’s true.” Suga said, surprising the whole room, which fell silent after he spoke. If this phased him, he didn’t show it, merely continuing. “While it’s definitely reasonable to have friends in each category, each person’s own internal desire should make them strive to hold only true friendships. That just makes someone a good person.”

Zach smiled wide, and Namjoon bit his lip. You could tell Joonie had a counter-argument, he always did. But Suga was new to your friend group, and none of you knew where his boundaries were. Namjoon didn’t want to start shit, and you knew it.

You frankly didn’t care about starting, or rather, continuing shit with the boy near you though, and so you spoke up -- much the the chagrin of the philosophy majors.

“A person shouldn’t live their life in an attempt to be totally virtuous.” You say, “I know it’s easy to say that, since as a society we’ve been taught to think that virtues are good and vices are bad, but it’s all about finding a solid median between the two. Aristotle said that too didn’t he? It wouldn’t be prudent to have only true friendships. The amount of effort that would take would leave little time for yourself.”

“Don’t you think you should just tighten your circle of friends then?” Suga says in return.

“That’s silly. You’d prevent yourself from opportunities and experiences if you tried to live with just friendships based in goodness. It’s not only infeasible, it’s unwise. You have to be selfish sometimes, and just because it’s not completely genuine, friendships of pleasure and utility are just as important, if we are talking about keeping a person sane and happy.”

“I feel like pushing back against the notion of having true friends is a sign of immaturity. I feel like it means you just haven’t grown up enough yet.”

Your temper flared. Suga hadn’t even defended his argument right there. He basically had said you weren’t worth debating with since what? You’re too immature?

“And I feel,” you reply, “like you’re being overly romantic, Suga. It’s not about maturity. It’s about--”

Suddenly Zach pipes up from his corner, “I like you better when you don’t talk, Y/N. You just do it to be difficult and look smarter than everyone else. Maybe you should consider shutting up, especially since you’ve finally brought a friend along that’s worth our time.”

You’re about to retort when Suga beats you to it, “Her contributions tonight have been better than anything you’ve had to say. Can you even have an argument against friendships of utility when you use terms like ‘friend zone’ unironically? Expecting a girl to sleep with you because you’re nice to her is basically a model example of a friendship of utility. Shut the fuck up, don’t speak to Y/N that way again.”

The room is silent for a moment, and all you can hear is the beating of your own heart. You’re more than shocked that Suga had stood up for you like that, and you feel your cheeks heat up slightly. Even though you two had disagreed, he had called Zach out. And while you know both Namjoon and Jungkook would’ve done the same in a heartbeat, you can’t help but feel swept away by what had happened. You briefly wonder if you would even feel as breathless if it had been anyone else. Something about the fact that it was him, someone you had only moments ago been heatedly debating with, someone with an ethereal and intimidating sort of beauty, and a personality to match, someone--

“I think you, and your little group should leave.” Zach said, pulling you out of your reverie.

“What?” You questioned, incredulously.

“You heard me,” he said, “get out.”

“Why?” Namjoon shot back, “Because Suga made you look like a total dick in front of everyone?”

“Out.” Zach bellows, his face turning an unattractive and splotchy sort of red, “And don’t come back.”

Your group shuffles out, all of you taking your sweet time because fuck those philosophy bitches. And both you and Suga throw your middle fingers up as you exit the room, laughing quietly at the matching action in the hallway.

“Hey, listen guys, I’m sorry.” Suga starts, but Namjoon interrupts.

“Don’t be. It’s been getting progressively worse lately anyway. And the fact that Zach basically came for Y/N’s life just now was the last straw. I should’ve said something… fuck man.” He turns to you, “I’m sorry I didn’t say anything.”

You smile and pull Namjoon into a half hug as you walk, “It’s okay, Joonie. I’m a big girl. And who would’ve guessed it but our very own Suga baby had my back.”

You give the boy in question a playful punch in the shoulder and he looks at you reproachfully.

“Don’t call me that.” He says simply, and you laugh.

You fall in line with Jungkook once more and he leans down to you, “Don’t call him that. I’m the only one you should call baby.”

You’re mouth opens a bit in surprise, Jungkook’s voice sounds particularly vulnerable though, and so you simply nod. As you do, you lock eyes with Suga, whose smile is fading as he examines the closeness between you and the younger boy. His eyes are unreadable though, yet captivating as he once again pushes his glasses up his nose.

The whole night has you feeling a bit weary, so you let the boys chat while you seek comfort in the warmth of Jungkook’s side. Namjoon and Suga have bonded over some hip hop group you didn’t catch the name of, and soon Namjoon was inviting you all back to his dorm to listen to music.

Suga nods quickly, and his gaze briefly darts to you. You sigh deeply and tell Namjoon that even though you love him, you’re too exhausted to deal with anymore social interaction tonight, and he just laughs in response. You watch as Suga scuffs his foot along the ground lightly, and you briefly wonder if he’s disappointed you’re not coming. Wishful thinking, you think, though wishful for what you’re not sure.

Jungkook tells Namjoon that he’ll make sure you get home safe, and Namjoon thanks him, patting his shoulder and whispering something into his ear before turning and motioning Suga to follow him. You ask Jungkook what he said after, but Jungkook just laughs.

“Honestly, it was nothing babe don’t worry about it.”

You nod quietly, shuffling into him again so yo can steal his warmth.

“Jungkook,” you say, without moving from your uspot in his side, “can I stay in your room tonight?”

A/N: Oooh sorry about interrupting that Kookie smut, damn. Also I just started school again so I want to die. I hate college (I’m lying I love it.) anyway, like usual I’d like to thank the actual love of my life @gimmesumsuga for being my beta and also tolerating my bullshit every day. Seriously I love her. Okay well! thanks for the read! I love you bye.

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btsnakeuff-blog · 6 years

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NamJin story - part 1

It was 3 am, pure darkness outside. It was time when the loud city of Seoul became quiet, for at least an hour. If you looked around you saw lights in the buildings, slowly disappearing, one by one. Night clubs were closing and the air felt like it was filled with dreams.

Only the most determined ones were still awake. One of them was in the practice room.

His name was Kim Sekojin.

His life currently contained practicing dance moves, eating in sleeping about three hours per day. He was a member of famous boy group, which was gaining a lot of attention lately. On the top of that, their comeback was just around the corner. They have already shot everything with the rest of the members, so there was a lot of pressure on all of them, but especially on Jin. He wasn’t doing so well and didn’t reach manager’s expectations.

His mind wasn’t set on the right thing. Jin was very aware of that. Everyone was scolding him and he even needed to lose some weight which was never his problem. Well, untill now.

He never felt like that before. He always thought his life goal was clear, to become successful singer whose music will be loved by people. But now all of this seemed so distant. Something interfered his routine.

At first, it was actually pretty exciting. But as time passed... Things changed. Jin wasn’t excited anymore. He was terrified. Something similar has happened to him in his teenage years, but it never went this far. He never felt like this, not so deeply.

The ‘thing’ was beautiful, at some point, as much as it was exciting. But it was also forbidden.

Ah, forbidden love, this cliché, yet so real thing. At least for Jin. He always liked melodramatic stories about star-crossed lovers, but it was so much easier to watch them from TV or get lost in them through book pages. In real life, it wasn’t something he wanted to be a part of.

When he was standing next to this person, he was feeling like he was on another planet. Wherever he was, no matter what, he only had eyes… for him. Yes, for him. Although situation was awful just by this fact that ‘he’ was someone, someone very close to him.

‘He’ was his fellow band member.

‘He’ was no other but Kim Namjoon.

RM, Joonie in his head. That was the whole awful truth. It couldn’t be worse. Still, Jin often found himself wandering if Namjoon feels the same way about him. His head kept telling him ‘nah, it’s impossible’, but his heart couldn’t whisper back a silent ‘but what if?’ As time passed by, Jin started to feel that yes, Namjoon likes him to.

He could tell by the way Namjoon looks at him. By their skinship. Of course you could say that he was doing this just for the fans. They went crazy if a new ship appeared or if the members were acting cute towards each other. But Namjoon was considerate even behind cameras. Especially lately he was hugging him a lot. He came to Jin before going to bed and randomly did something cute (like hugging, massaging, patting or bringing him coffee). Those things made Jin go crazy, but he couldn’t show it, so he acted just like other members would.

He was thinking about those sweet moments when he practiced that night. He just couldn’t do one move right, so he was very annoyed. Other members were probably already sleeping, since they had photoshoot next day.

“Just, one more hour and then you go to sleep,” Jin thought to himself. Suddenly, someone quietly knocked on the door. “Yeah,” asked Jin. The door opened. Jin, who was turned towards the mirror could see someone behind him on the doorway. His heart skipped a beat.

Dark, but kind, wide opened eyes were looking straight at him. Corners of his full lips curled into a tired smile.

“Jin,” asked Namjoon. “Still awake, huh?” He quietly closed the door behind him as Jin slowly turned to face him. He was now awkwardly standing in front of Namjoon, sweat dripping off his hair. He felt betrayed by his own body, because somehow he couldn’t move a muscle. Namjoon was looking curiously at him, then quickly smiled and made his way towards side wall. He sat down and leaned his head, resting it back on the wall. He never let his eyes of Jin. Even in this position his eyes were fixed on him.

Jin turned to the mirrors again and continued with his practice. “You’re so stiff’”, he heard from the side. Of course he was stiff, he couldn’t even think straight at this rate. He forgot the whole choreography, to be exact. “Maybe you are overworking yourself. Come to bed,” said the beautiful voice again. Jin stopped and sighed. He already knew that, but couldn’t the beautiful situation when he was alone with whit Namjoon last a little longer?

Again, he didn’t know what to do, with his head lowered and his vision focusing on the ground, with sweat dripping from his head down to his shoes. Suddenly, he felt a warm touch on his broad shoulders. Two firm hands massaged his shoulders, making his knees weak. “Hey,” said Namjoon right into his ear. “Do you have something to tell me?” Goose bumps, started to form all over Jin’s body.

I need you. Just those three words would be enough, but he oppressed the intuitions. “What do you think of me,” was what he asked instead. Namjoon raised his eyebrows at the sudden question. “You know, I mean as a dancer or singer,” Jin added. Namjoon spinned Jin around to face him. He lowered his head and their faces were only a few centimeters apart. He quickly blushed and straightened himself again. “Well, I know you’ve been distracted lately,” he said seriously yet so caringly. “We both know your skills. You are an amazing singer and you work really hard. Even now when things went a bit down, you are working even more and everyone really appreciate that. I’m sure you’ll be back on track in no time.” “But I just feel like I don’t belong into this group. You’re all multitalented and have your own very strong charms that the fans get attached to. And me? I only sing. In the background. And dance. Also in the background. I’m just the seventh member that everyone forgets!”

Jin almost screamed the last words, but he then again, caught Namjoon’s eyes. “We, members love you. You are our one and only Jin. Jin who cooks the best food to feed us. Jin who always comforts us. We are human, we can’t fit for everyone. And never compare yourself to others, especially to other idols. Just be yourself, please. You are an amazing person.”

With these comforting words Jin just couldn’t hold back tears. He started sobbing into his hands, hiding his face from his love. Namjoon wrapped his arms around Jin’s shivering body and softly hugged him. For once Jin didn’t have to be the mother which he was glad for. It felt very reassuring.

“I...,” he sobbed. He know he mustn’t. But it felt so right.

“I...” Maybe his heart won’t explode after saying this.

“I need you,” he blurted. Namjoon flinched. “Namjoon, I… I need you. Can we stay like this?” Namjoon backed off. “You mean…,” he started but Jin interrupted him. “I like you.” RM took a deep breath and looked really, really flustered. He started looking around in a sort of panic. “I,” Jin began, but this time Namjoon interrupted him. “I think it’s time for both of us to go to sleep.”

Jin panicked, realizing the deep meaning of his words. Jin felt like the room started spinning as Namjoon left. He didn’t even register pain when he collapsed on his knees.

A few minutes later when he came out of the practice room, he noticed Yoongi, moving quickly to the ground as to tie his shoelaces. “Oh, you’re up,” said Jin, trying to sound as he normally would.

“Umm…Yeah,” replied Yoongi with unusually nervous voice.

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seokluv · 7 years

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Their Reactions to Finding You Crying in the Bathtub~

Anon asked; can you please do a bts reaction to finding their s/o in bathtub crying?

HELL YE- WE NEED SOME FEELS UP IN HERE <:

Kim Namjoon

His voice is full of concern when he finds you crying in the bathtub, all alone. “Jagiya? What’s wrong? What happened?” he gets down on his knees, matching the level you’re at. You wipe away your tears, sniffling some. Namjoon’s thumb presses against your cheek, wiping the tears away. “I-It’s nothing Joonie..” you’d murmur softly, but Namjoon wasn’t leaving it at that. “What happened?” he kept asking, and finally you gave in.

“It’s just... all of the fans hate me.” you croaked, and Namjoon gave you an apologetic look. “Don’t worry about them. As long as you’re happy with me, that’s all that matters.” Namjoon hugged you close to him, petting your damp hair. “But Joonie...” you mumbled. “But nothin’ babe. I love you, you love me, we’re both happy. That’s all that matters.”

Kim Seok-jin

“Jagiya!” Jin rushed into the bathroom as soon as he heard you crying. You tried your best to hide your tears, but they just kept trailing down your cheeks. Jin knelt down, wiping your tears with his thumb. He hushed you, humming to you in a soothing manner. “Jagi... what happened?” he asked in a worried tone, and you bit your lip, hesitating. Jin looked at you, waiting for a response. When you said nothing, he hugged you tight. “Jagi, please tell me what’s wrong.” there was a pleading in his voice, and you just had to tell him.

“The way BigHit treats you... I just don’t like it, Jin. You deserve so much better than how they treat you.” you sobbed, your hands in your palms. Jin was silent. He didn’t know what to say at all. “Jagi..” he finally managed. “I’ll be fine. Please don’t worry about me.” he whispered, pulling you in for a kiss. “B-But Jin...” you tried, but he cut you off, “No. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be fine, okay? I love you.” he smiled brightly.

Min Yoongi

When Yoongi found out you were crying in the bathtub, he immediately felt like it was his fault. He tried to comfort you as best as he could, but he felt extremely guilty about it. He tangled his fingers through your hair, whispering sweet nothings in your ear. “It’ll be okay Jagi... I’m sorry.” and you frowned when he apologized. What was he sorry for? “Yoongi... why are you saying sorry?” you murmured, and he shook his head. “I-It’s nothing. I just feel like... it was my fault.” he looked away, trying his hardest not to cry.

“Yoongi... Listen to me. It wasn’t your fault. You would never make me cry, not even on accident.” you said, and Yoongi looked back at you, with sad eyes. You lifted yourself up to place your lips against his to reassure him, so he didn’t feel guilty anymore. “I love you, Yoongi. Don’t you ever forget that.” and a smile washed upon Yoongi’s lips.

Park Jimin

“(Y/N)!!” Jimin yelled as he ran into the bathroom the very second he heard you crying. He picked you up out of the tub, wrapped you in a towel and hugged you very close to his chest. ““Jagi, what happened?” his voice was filled with worry. He wanted to know who hurt you enough to make you cry. He was angry and upset simultaneously. “Why don’t the fans like me, Jimin?” you looked at him with an intense expression, tears still pricking at your eyes. Silence fell upon Jimin’s lips, unable to speak. “J-Jagiya... I don’t know. But, if ‘fans’ are hating on you, then they’re not real fans. And definitely don’t deserve to be fangirling over people like us.” he finally spoke up after a long pause. You smiled weakly, cupping his jaw with your hand, before leaning in and placing your lips against his.

“Thank you Jimin. I love you so much... I don’t know what I’d do without you.” you mumbled into the kiss, running your fingers through Jimin’s hair. “I love you too, Jagiya.”

Jung Hoseok

When Hobi saw you crying in the bathtub, he started crying. Whenever you got upset, he’d get upset as well, and vice versa. He didn’t know what to do to comfort you, so the both of you just sat there crying. You got out of the bathtub, covering yourself with a towel and held Hobi in your arms, and he held you, too.

“Jagi... I-I’m sorry. I just... get sad whenever you get sad. I can’t help it.” Hobi sniffled, as you wiped away his tears. You understood what he meant, whenever he was upset, you would get upset, too. You guys understood each other’s emotions on a very spiritual level. “I understand Hobi. It’s okay.” you murmured, hugging him tightly. “I love you (Y/N).” he whispered, as you kissed his cheek softly.

“I love you too, Hobi.”

Jeon Jeongguk

As soon as Jungkook saw you crying in the bathtub, he pulled you out, dried you off with a towel, and held you close to him while you cried. He didn’t want you to be alone, and wanted to feel your pain. He consoled you by kissing your temple lightly, nuzzling you, nibbling your ear gently, and hugging you. You couldn’t love him any more than you already did; it was impossible. Jungkook always knew what to do to cheer you up.

“I love you, Kookie. Please don’t leave me. Ever.” you murmured to him, and he smiled, “I love you too, (Y/N). I’ll never ever leave you. I need you more than anything.”

You two spent the rest of the night cuddling and watching Netflix together. There was also lots of kissing~

Kim Taehyung

When Tae walked into the bathroom and saw you crying, he got upset. He wanted to get his hands on whoever hurt you. He made you get out of the bathtub and made you get dressed. He demanded to know who hurt you, wanted to know the name, the address, the phone number, the everything. When he found out it was the fans, he started crying.

“Tae... It’s not... one person in particular. It’s a bunch of people.” you murmured, and Taehyung quirked a brow, “Who, Jagi?” “T-The fans...” you whispered, a tear rolling down your cheek. Taehyung froze. The fans? How could they hate someone as amazing as you? He tried to hold back his tears, but he just couldn’t. “J-Jagiya... Why didn’t you tell me?” “I didn’t want you to know.” you replied.

“Jagiya. Look at me.” his voice was serious. You looked at him, tears still pricking at your eyes. “If anyone is giving you a hard time, you need to let me know. You know I’ll take care of it. I’ll do anything for you.” the two of you ended up holding each other tightly, tears still streaming down your faces.

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41 Weeks and a Year

Characters: Namjoon x reader Genre: Fluff, tiny bit of angst Word count: 3473 Rating: M for language and mentions of sex

4 weeks

Namjoon finds it hard to believe. There’s two little pink lines on a stupid $9.99 stick that you had peed on ten minutes ago that has now officially changed his life forever. You’re watching him hesitantly, biting you lip as his usually acute mind tries desperately to process what this all means.

“Baby?” Namjoon blurts out in a squeak. “Small mini-me?”

You find it hard not to roll your eyes at his reaction. “Yes, Joonie. That’s what happens when two adults have unprotected sex in the broom cupboard at your Album launch party.”

It all clicks into place for him quite suddenly and Namjoon feels an overwhelming sense of accomplishment. He drops to his knees in front of you and lays his cheek again your abdomen, “My god, I’m gonna be a dad!” His beaming smile strikes you right between the eyes. “I can’t wait to tell the boys!”

You push him away with a frown. “Not yet, Joonie. It’s too early. Let’s make sure first, hmm?”

Namjoon pauses mid-text and pouts.

6 weeks

You want to kick yourself. Your words are fucking prophetic. You knew you should’ve kept your fat, unlucky mouth shut but here you were, alone in the emergency department, praying desperately as you felt another sharp cramp radiate through your pelvis.

The triage nurse is walking towards your seat with a sympathetic smile. “Is there anyone I can call for you, miss __?”

Namjoon’s on tour in Japan and you don’t want to upset him. Knowing his temperament, he would agonise over coming home versus staying to lead the boys. You shake your head at the nurse. “No, my mother’s on her way here.”

She nods and leads you into a curtained off cubical. The doctor sees you an hour later and you can barely comprehend what he’s saying as your mother clutches at your hand. He does some blood tests and wheels in an ultrasound machine.

There, in that grainy black and white screen, you see it for the first time. It’s the size of the tip of your pinky finger according to the doctor but there is a definite heartbeat that races like a horses gallop when the Doppler is turned on. The rhythmic beating fills you ears and your heart and you take a recording for Namjoon.

12 weeks

Namjoon can’t hold back the tears.

He knows he’s embarrassing himself in front of the Obstetrician but he can’t help but immediately fall in love with the small, odd creature rolling around on the ultrasound screen in front of him. It’s got four limbs, a massive head and a beautiful heartbeat which Namjoon records on his phone.

He’s holding your hand a little too tight and soaking the sleeve of your blouse but you can’t complain, it was strangely beautiful to watch this usually strong man wear his emotions so glaringly on his sleeve.

“Do you want to know the sex of the baby?” The Obstetrician asks.

“Yes.” Namjoon replies immediately but looks guiltily at you. “If that’s ok with you, honey?”

You nod, not minding in the least if Namjoon has a burning curiosity to know.

“It’s a girl.”

You’re ecstatic and there’s an overwhelming sense of amazement but Namjoon clearly feels it more intensely. He’s sobbing now and doing so in an incredibly ugly fashion. Even the Obstetrician looks concerned.

“We’re going to have a baby girl.”

Namjoon makes the recording of her heartbeat his ringtone.

“Guess we should tell the boys,” you mutter to him as he wipes the ultrasound gel off your belly.

15 weeks

Jungkook is talking to your belly again. He tells your baby girl the most incredibly inane facts about dolphins and ginseng and Justin Bieber. This is arguably the longest conversation you’ve ever heard Jungkook have with anyone.

The boys are all just as equally obsessed with your pregnancy though Yoongi will never admit to it. Jin buys endless amounts of pink clothing and Tae can’t stop shopping for toys though you’re not entirely sure they’re all for the baby. Namjoon talks about his “baby girl” like she’s a miracle of humanity and that no baby has ever been born before.

You draw the line when he starts to speculate about how she’s likely to change the human race as we know it.

Jimin’s actions are the most touching. He’s admiring in the quietest kind of way and hovers in the most inconspicuous moments. He holds your elbow when you walk down stairs and picks the boys’ meals knowing exactly what you can and cannot eat at this time. His pockets are strangely always full ginger lozenges to soothe your morning sickness and a bottle of water is never far from hand. “I can’t wait to be a dad, too.” You overhear him say to Namjoon one day.

Namjoon is currently in the corner of his studio where the boys are all gathered. “Honey, listen to this.”

He’s written a new song and the backing beat is the recording of your daughter’s heartbeat.

“I’m gonna put this on our next album.”

20 weeks

“She’s so big!”

Namjoon’s voice is annoyingly crackly over the video call. The wi-fi in his Thailand hotel room can be a bit temperamental.

You roll you eyes and try to get a look at the ultrasound screen yourself. It’s hard balancing a phone at the right angle for Namjoon since he couldn’t be here but you can understand his need to be a part of this.

“I thought you said it was a girl!” He says suddenly outraged. This shocks you into dropping the phone, craning you neck to see what Namjoon had meant.

The Obstetrician laughs patiently. “That’s the umbilical cord, Mr. Kim. Your girl is still a girl.”

Namjoon’s laugh radiates from somewhere on the floor. “Right. I knew that.”

You hum with happiness. This is the magical halfway mark and though you can’t say for sure yet, you think you feel the small fluttering movements you can see on the screen. Your morning sickness has finally passed and though your ankles swell like balloons after a long day, you feel on top of the world and the pregnancy glow has really kicked it.

“I can’t wait to come home and see her, honey.” Namjoon is emotional again. You can hear it in his voice though he’s trying hard to suppress it. “I miss her already.”

You smile though he can’t see you. “You’re not going to cry at every ultrasound are you, Joonie?”

26 weeks

“That looks good, give me a sip.” Namjoon leans over, sniffing the bottle.

You smack his hand away. “You know you’re not allowed any of this. It’s my glucose tolerance test.”

He whines and pouts adorably. “The doctor won’t know if I have a single sip.”

“But I’ll know.” The pathology nurse laughs as she finishes up with the initial blood test, pressing a bandaid to the crook of your elbow. “There’s a soda machine in the corridor if you want something sweet.”

Namjoon smiles charmingly at her, dimples and all and the pathology nurse looks a little flustered when he walks away with a kiss on your head.

“You’re a lucky girl.” She says to you as she shakes the vial of your blood.

He’s back a moment later, coke can in hand. He shares his audiobook with you and coos when you complain that the sugary drink makes you nauseous. He cradles you like a child when the third blood test makes you extra sore and piggy backs you to the car when you feel a little dizzy at the end of it all.

“I wish I could take some of this for you.” He mutters in the car when he thinks you’ve dozed off on the way home.

31 weeks

You should’ve known better than to read some of the comments online but sometimes curiosity really did kill the cat. Namjoon’s on a cleaning spree of the BTS fancafé and twitter page but even he can’t catch all the malicious things that slip through.

You honestly didn’t think you had gained that much weight but there are several unflattering pictures of you which make cows look like dainty ballerinas by comparison. There’s derision and mocking among his fans and though those comments make you angry, it’s nothing that you hadn’t endured before.

It’s the comments suggesting Namjoon deserved better that really got to you. There’s retweets from a supermodel whom had declared herself an ardent fan and the side by side comparisons were beyond unflattering. There are pictures from the award ceremony he attended last week where he had kindly posed for some selfies with her and they honestly looked like a stunning power couple.

That’s how he found you, curled up in a ball in your bed, trying to hide the tear-swollen eyes in your pillow. He knows instantly what has happened and curls up in bed next to you, drawing you into the cradle of his arms muttering profanities beneath his breath.

“She looks really good with you.” You venture after fifteen minutes of sniffling. “I can’t say I’d blame you if you were attracted to her. I mean, I would be attracted to her too if I were a guy. Why come home to this beached whale when you can have…”

Namjoon hides a smile in your hair, “but you’re my beached whale, carrying my little whale baby…”

You snort and punch him in the ribs, the only space you can find in the tight confines of his arms. “You’re meant to call me a gazelle; you’re meant to tell me that I’m still gorgeous and thin…”

“You’re not a gazelle and you’re certainly not thin but honey, these curves…” his hands stroke over your prominent baby bump and stops to cup you bum, “these curves are something I would kill for.”

The next day you wake to find all the BTS social media accounts suspended. Namjoon refers to this as a time-out for his fans until they can behave like adults.

34 weeks

It’s too early.

Namjoon doesn’t need a medical degree to know this.

He looks at your frightened features in the car next to him and tries his best not to panic but it’s hard when he thinks his baby girl is about to be born too early. He’s a smart man, he’s read not just the basic baby books but also the medical stats about premature birth. He can’t imagine seeing his tiny child being helped to breath by large sterile ventilators and being hooked up to things which feed her when she can’t breastfeed.

He wants to be your calming presence but it’s hard to when his imagination runs riot. All he can do is hold your hand and pray that Yoongi’s aggressive driving skills come to the fore today. You’re crying with the pain of the contractions next to him and when a small whimper escapes your tightly clamped lips, Namjoon feels like he’s been stabbed in the gut. He can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now and can only helplessly drag you into his arms just as Yoongi pulls up to the hospital.

Namjoon’s out of the car in a flash and while Yoongi scrambles around looking for a wheelchair, Namjoon scoops you out of the car and into his arms. He knows the way to the maternity ward like the back of his hand, having secretly drilled himself ever since he heard about how Jimin’s younger brother had been born in the hospital foyer.

His panic must’ve clearly shown on his face as he carries you through the brightly painted double doors of the maternity ward because the two midwives at the desk direct him straight into the nearest birthing room. His hair is stroked and his tears wiped away by a senior looking midwife as a young and entirely too cheerful doctor begins the examination.

He’s speaking but Namjoon can barely hear him through your whimpers of pain. His legs twitch manically up and down and he can’t seem to stop it. He’s alternately numb and panicked until he can hear his baby girl’s heartbeat again and watch the numbers light up the screen of the monitor.

“You’re not dilated, Ms. ___,”says the young doctor with a reassuring smile while he pulled off his gloves, “but we’ll keep you in for a few days of monitoring, if that’s alright with you.”

Namjoon nods frantically.

“Would you like some pain relief?” Namjoon’s head is bobbing desperately.

The morphine makes you sleepy but comfortable and Namjoon is finally relieved enough to leave your room. Yoongi is waiting at the door.

“You look like a bus hit you, dragged you down the road for a few blocks and dumped you in a country ditch.”

Yoongi always did have a way with words but Namjoon acknowledges that he’s cried a lot this pregnancy. More than you have really, if he made the effort to count the occasions.

The rest of the boys arrive twenty minutes later. Hobi has brought enough take-out to feed a small army and the doctors and midwives duck in occasionally to steal a spring roll. You’re too exhausted to eat but you’re keen for Namjoon to re-fuel since he insists on staying with you for the night. They leave an hour later when Jungkook is finished lecturing your baby on how badly behaved she has been tonight.

Namjoon stays throughout your 3 day stay. He cries again when you have another ultrasound just to be safe and beams with absurd amounts of pride when the doctor declares her a very good size for 34 weeks. You want to smack him for that because you’re going to have to push that little monster out through you vagina in a few weeks.

37 weeks

You’re in the emergency department again and you’re sure you recognize the triage nurse. She beams and waves at you even as Namjoon whimpers in pain beside you.

He’s cradling his left arm and his right foot is propped up on Jin’s bouncing leg.

“Will you sit still!” He hisses at Seokjin who only grins and waves at the fans who recognise him from across the waiting room.

“I don’t know how you managed to do this to yourself when you were only putting together the crib. Seriously Joon, you should probably have a doctor check you over while you’re here. This level of clumsiness has got to be some sort of disorder. Maybe there’s medication to fix it.”

You can tell Namjoon doesn’t appreciate the comment but vetoes retorting in favour of whimpering. You reach across him to smack Seokjin but the man has brilliant reflexes after years of dodging Jungkook’s punches.

Namjoon cries when you accidentally bump his arm.

It’s fifty minutes later when he’s had all his x-rays. He’s only got a sprained right ankle but his left shoulder is clearly dislocated. They give him some great drugs to relax him before popping his shoulder back in and Namjoon is talkative and philosophical for the rest of the evening.

You get texts from Jimin throughout this episode. He and Yoongi have finished putting together the crib and you’re secretly glad Namjoon won’t have to do it himself later.

Jin videos the whole of Namjoon’s exposition on the loneliness of palm-trees on deserted islands and puts it on twitter.

It trends worldwide for three days.

41 weeks

Namjoon’s got a new habit these past few weeks.

Since you haven’t gone into labour yet, he’s convinced that he can talk his baby girl out. It’s clearly not working.

Every part of you hurts except for your uterus but you refrain from rolling your eyes as you rest your phone on your abdomen. Namjoon’s on the other end of the line, in his studio working on their comeback album. He wants to do as much as he can before the baby comes and he becomes completely preoccupied.

“Now sweetheart, I know it’s warm and comfortable inside but you really need to come out and meet daddy. We’ve got your room all set up for you for weeks now…”

Taehyung and Jungkook had finished painting it 3 weeks ago after Namjoon had concussed himself on a paint can.

Your wayward child clearly loves her father’s voice because she chooses that moment to give you a whopping kick in the ribs, sending the phone sliding to the floor. You’re reaching to retrieve it when you accidentally wet yourself a little. At least that’s what you think happens until you realise the fluid isn’t stopping and it has now completely soaked through your underwear, your pants, the couch and was now dripping onto the carpet.

“Joon.”

“Yes, honey?” Namjoon happily continues to hum on the other end of the line.

“I think my waters broke.”

There’s a beat of silence. Then another. “I see. Well. I…”

Jimin’s voice comes next. “I’ve got him, ___. Call your midwife, I’m coming to get you.”

The trip to hospital is a blur. By the time Namjoon and the boys reach you, you’re contracting, it’s hard to walk and you fucking hate the world, especially Namjoon. You tell him so several times during the car trip to hospital and you repeatedly tell Jungkook, who’s rubbing your back, what a good little foetus he turned out to be and that his mother would be proud.

It’s quite a scene when you turn up to hospital, seven famous idols in tow but you lose six of them immediately at the door to the maternity ward. Namjoon is beside himself, pacing the floor as you strip to your birthday suit (all clothing is currently your enemy) and suck on the nitrous like it’s a lifeline.

Your world narrows down to one word when the doctor examines you and tells you you’re barely dilated.

“Epidural!”

Namjoon nods frantically and takes to hovering behind the lovely anaesthetist who calmly hands Namjoon the nitrous and suggests he takes a few puffs. He’s completely giggly and spaced out when you get the needle stuck in your back but that’s ok because sweet relief comes shortly after.

The nitrous is confiscated when the midwife returns.

It’s another arduous eight hours. The midwives and the doctors change shift before it’s time to push.

It takes another hour and a half before your baby daughter’s cries ring through the room. Namjoon cries immediately with her. He keeps his hands on her the whole time you’re getting stitched up. When she sneezes, Joon is absurdly upset that he didn’t capture it on camera. When she does it again, he’s ready and a short fifteen second video immediately goes out to family and friends. You’re inundated with calls and messages congratulating you. Namjoon is too beside himself to answer.

He thinks she absurdly adorable and tells everyone who will listen. Yoongi says she looks like an alien shot out of a space cannon. Taehyung is head over heels in love with her instantly and Jungkook holds her like she’s a unstable explosive device. She cries hysterically when Hobi and Jimin pass her between them and moments later lands in Seokjin’s slightly perturbed arms.

She looks at his face and stops crying instantly. She keeps her eyes on his face until she dozes off in his arms. Seokjin absolutely loves it. It becomes his new favourite story to tell. He tells the janitor who comes to empty the bins when they visit again the next day.

1 year later

Namjoon is an obsessively proud father. The BTS twitter account is now inundated with pictures of your smiling daughter who has her father’s dimples. Their selfies together are the stuff of retweetable legend.

Namjoon is already begging for another baby. He wants ten. You said yes…you’ll have two more and he can then find himself another wife.

When she has her first fever and is up all night, grizzly and unsettled, Namjoon holds her and rocks her until she dozes off in fitful starts. She’s up barely an hour later and Namjoon is exhausted and delirious when you suggest calling in reinforcements. Jin arrives at 04:50am, takes her in his arms and coaxes her to sleep across one very wide shoulder. Namjoon snores for the next five hours.

When she takes her first steps, Namjoon commemorates it by writing her a song. She cries endlessly when she first hears it until Jin adds his vocals to the mix. She loves it instantly. Namjoon wants to find this frustrating but can’t deny his daughter anything her little heart desires. Seokjin is it, apparently.

Namjoon is coaxing some lunch into her when you excuse yourself to the bathroom. You pee on that familiar blue stick which started it all nearly two years ago and watch as that double pink line reappears.

#BTS #bts scenarios #kpop scenarios #rap monster #rap mon #namjoon #rap monster scenarios #oneshot

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Responses to {Part 29} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^

(I have also included asks that I received before this IWSY chapter was posted ^^)

@jungshaking said: I was so hyped during work yesterday. I thought "oh yes a new chapter tonight" MULTIPLE times, but I had to remind myself each time that it was Monday 😩😭 (cont.) tbh I'm so scared that the upcoming IWSY chapter will be the last now that Yoongi is gone

Haha you poor thing! It’s coming soon so no need to wait any longer! And don’t worry, it’s not the last chapter ^^ :3

Anonymous said: WAIT HOLY SHIT IT'S TUESDAY ALREADY??????OMGGGKJSJGJGSK

IKR THIS WEEK PASSED TOO QUICKLY

Anonymous said: IT'S TUESDAY I'M EXCITED

I’m excited and nervous :(

@killingalltheflowers said: I kinda... just tried Merlot wine because of IWSY xD

Ooooh what did you think of it?

Anonymous said: I really think "I was here" by beyonce suits IWSY's last chapter

Yesssssssssss! You’re right!

Anonymous said: Not sure why but I imagined the Sine Nomine to look like a titan with grey hair (from aot)

You can imagine them to look like however you please!! I encourage that wholeheartedly heh ^^

Anonymous said: I am reaaaaady come and snatch my wig oh Saraaaa Take my heaaaaart take it all *kiss yr cute ass cheeks* --wifey anon 🐇

I hope it won’t disappoint you ^^ and yes pls give me all the kissies and cuddles~~

Anonymous said: Heheheheh it is tuesday ...... 😏😏😏

Indeed it is *wiggles brows*

@jynxy24 said: IWSY IS COMING AND IF YOU'LL PLEASE SPARE MY HEARTEU. I HAVE EXAMS AND I WANT TO PASS BEFORE I DIE. I love you, Sara!! (I'm hoping for a great chapter kukuku :3)

I hope it will spare your heart! And don’t worry my love I’m sure you will do amazingly in your exams ^^ I really hope you will think the chapter is great, I tried very hard :)

@clara-licht said: So in the end, I didn't get the univ invitation and I also didn't get the Wings Tour ticket even after waiting in the venue for hours, so I felt really shitty even until now. (I still can't listen to 2!3! or I'll break down in tears) But still, I look forward to Wednesdays because IWSY can always get my mind off these problems even if only for a while. How many more chapters do you reckon it will be? I, for one, don't want it to end but all good things will come to an end after all :')

Awh babe I’m so so sorry to hear that :/ that really sucks but don’t worry, BTS will definitely be coming back to where you live in the future and you can have another chance to see them okay? Same with the University, are you able to apply for another one? Did you get any more offers? I’m glad that IWSY can make you a little happy ^^ And I’ not 100% sure, but I suspect that next week might be the last chapter, I haven’t fully decided yet! But the final chapter will have ‘Final Chapter’ written in the title :D

@nora2bts said: Hiii! I'm sorry I don't want to be annoying or anything but I binge read "IWSU" and I reallyyyyyyy loved it a lot! I was just wondering if u were gonna post part 29 today, since I can't wait, I've been waiting for what seems an eternity! 😂😂😂 I just wanted to let u know that I really enjoyed your stories, thank you 😊 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤��❤️❤️❤️

You’re not annoying love! I do write at the top of every chapter that IWSY is posted every Tuesday evening between 9-10pm UK time and I have always stayed true to that so fear not! Thank you so much for enjoying the story my love, you’re so welcome ^^

@clara-licht said: I was listening to Spring Day when I read chapter 29 and for the first time since WT in Jakarta I can listen to the song and sing it happily instead of feeling hurt and upset, because I was so excited throughout the chapter! So thank you for that :) I can't stop smiling, gosh! I really, REALLY want to know how Jiminnie is faring. And I think I fell for Namjoon. That sweet, sweet boy 😍 Oh btw, how old are they all by now? Including Namjoon, Yoongi (had he been alive), Jin, and Hobi?

AwwwwHHHH YES! I’m glad it holds no bad memories for you now my love ^^ Thank you for reading the chapter dear :D And as for their ages, I did specify Yoongi’s was older than Taehyung in a precious chapter (I just can’t remember which chapter, sorry!) and Namjoon is University/college age so somewhere between 18-25 (I decided not to give a specific age). Unfortunately, I never specified Hoseok and Seokjin’s ages in the story but they would have been University age too :D

Anonymous said: “Not only his sun his moon and all his stars" I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE

WHAT DID I DO

@semisweetsuga said: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLO MY SWEET BABYBOY PUMPKIN SPICE CHAI LATTE WHOM I LOVE VERY MUCH

@mocking-butts said: OH MY GOD IM A SOBBING MESS BECAUSE THIS STORY IS THE BEST THING EVER I CANT WITH LIFE.PLEASE BE NEXT WEEK ALREADY

I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT THANK YOU BABY c:

@shineeshawol204 said: AHHHHHHHHHHHH (cont.) I retract my former statement of you being a BiTcH because mmm i is happy now :) much content, very pleased

YAY I’M NO LONGER THE BITCH, I CAN DIE IN PEACE c: hehe ^^ thank you doll!

@killingalltheflowers said: This. This was the cutest and most heartwarming chapter ending ever. I'm so happy I'm able to go to bed calmly and happily and fluffily for once after reading IWSY xD

It was so heartwarming I felt all floofy when I was writing a lot of it :3 I hope you have a great sleep and have nice fluffy dreams of Kookie! :3

Anonymous said: OK HOLD ON SO CHAPTER 29 WAS AMAZING and then I was just reading your responses to the questions abt chap 28 and then I saw "Don’t threaten me with a good time" and then I was all like waIT A SEC DO U LISTEN TO PANIC! LIKE ALTHOUGH IM NOT A HUGE FAN THE SONGS ARE AMAZING ٩( ᐛ )و

LISTEN I WAS AND STILL AM TRASH FOR PANIC! - AS WELL AS FALL OUT BOY AND MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE I was the definition of a myspace scene queen in my early teens but I listened to an eclectic mix of music - not just those types of bands hehe :3

@animeimmortal said: YAH. DONT LEAVE ME ON THAT 'WILL YOU MARRY ME' SHIT. GAH!. im sorry i love you ❤ buT LIKE BRUHHH i want MOrE ❤❤❤

Listen - I will always leave you hanging c: hehe I love you too! Thank you for reading the chapter as always beautiful ^^

Anonymous said: Babe, the 29th part of IWSY was absolutely amazing ;-; but i feel that the end is nearing.. I loved IWSY so much it brought me to tears and it hurts to think that so beautiful a thing would actually be coming to an end.. Your writing skills are on fleek and the story is well woven.. Thank you so much for such an incredible experience ~ ❤😭😘

The end is definitely nearing, sadly enough :c IWSY has become a real world to me for the past almost 30 weeks of my life! lol :3 I suspect that next week will be the final chapter, but I don’t know for 100% so don’t quote me on that ;D Your words about me are beautiful and I don’t deserve them, but thank you so much my love ^^

Anonymous said: Happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy!! I'm really excited about how IWSY will end! I hope it ends happily!

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows for everyone yay!!

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: tUESDAY BRO IT IS TUESDAY AND IM SCREAMING AND CRYING A LIL THIS CHAPTER WAS PURE FLUFF I LOVE LIFE I LOVE LIVING I LOVE EVERYTHING MY HEART IS SO HAPPY

IT WAS PURE FLUFF IT MADE ME SO HAPPY NOT TO HAVE TO ALMOST KILL SOMEONE OFF OR WRITE ABOUT DEATH FOR THE LAST PART OF THE CHAPTER LOL~ thank you so much cutiepie :D

Anonymous said: aaWWWWWWEEHHHH i knew this was coming >////< !! i was so glad for Y/N and Kookie until "wait.. whY IS SHE HAVING A CHILD WHEN THEY AREN'T MARRIED" xD. Keep up the good work Sara!! -holoAnon

Hahaha don’t worry it was just a little accident! Even if Jungkook were to never marry Y/N, I’m sure their relationship would still be a solid, loving and caring one ^^ for all three of them! :D thank you so much holoAnon! :D

Anonymous said: I'm so happy that Joonie is finally at peace with the notion of being a vampire, and the way Y/N told Tae about how Yoongi was happy in his own little world with Tae and their parents was so incredibly heartwarming and what made it even better was what that meant to Tae, and I just ugh. This chapter made me soft. Like Yoongi's gummy smile soft. Thank you for always writing such amazing stories.

Yes - I was excited to reveal why Namjoon was the way he was, so that everyone could understand him better. I felt that this chapter was the best time to do that as the other chapters before the ball kind of painted him in a negative light. But he always had a heart full of gold c: YOONGI’S GUMMY SMILE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING EVER HE SHOULD ALWAYS SMILE LIKE THAT :D hehe~ aww thank you so much and you’re welcome for the story dear ^^

@kookietaejimin said: hi!!! do you know how long iwsy is going to be?

Next week MIGHT be the last chapter but I don’t know yet - sorry! ^^

@the-golden-jhope said: OH MY GOD MY HEART HURTS THIS IS SO CUTE I ALMOST CRIED JUNGKOOK IS LITERALLY THE SWEETEST MAN ON EARTH

HE IS SO SWEET WE ALL DESERVE VAMPIRE PRINCES CALLED JUNGKOOK I

@mysr3 said: "Will you Marry me?"u warm n tortured my heart at the same time for this cliff hanging 😍does this mean IWSY almost over?😖Saraaa how can u managed to b more awesome n amazing than u already r hmm?😘this Ch is so touching! Luv how u mentioned Yoongi~just so sweet n meaningful gosh😍hv to find Prince Jungkook for me asap. The whole thing is well laid out, characters interaction, decisions n everything is on point since the beginning of this series. U genius Girl!Thank you so much! I love U❤️❤️❤️ (cont.) Sry ps Namjoon is such moral character n Y/N's new demeanor is goddess. Am I smelling smut coming next wk hehehe🤔😝

Warming and torturing is something I love doing :D hehe~ IWSY is almost over, yes :( But fear not! I plan on doing a spin off for Tae and Jimin in the future (maybe like 2-3 chapters) on how their relationship formed way before Y/N met Jungkook :D For those of you who love Vampire VMIN! ^^ Thank you for loving the layout and the plot - you warmed my heart in return :D I love you too and thank you so much my dear!! ;3

@adhewitt said: YAY MARRIAGE

YAY WEDDING BELLS

Anonymous said: Gaaaahhh!!! I was waiting for this 😭 I'm crying, will this be a happy ending already? -anonph13

Thank you for waiting for it my love! :3 and a happy ending certainly looks likely, doesn’t it? ^^ hehe :3 Thank you for reading!

@noceurash said: I LOVE YOU!! [sweet chapters like this make my heart so happy hghg] i hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow and i love you!!! ~~~ your writing continues to be so great and i love it. <3

I LOVE YOU TOO!! Awww I’m so happy that it make your heart happy! You’re so cute you literally said i love you twice i swear to god I live for pure lil beans like you :3 I hope you’ll have a fantastic day too!! :3

@jynxy24 said: The ending made me cry god!!!!

Awwwww I hope they were tears of happiness!!

Anonymous said: Wow. This last IWSY update was so pure and beautiful. I love it.

Thank you so much my love :3 I’m really happy that you liked it!~

@koreaisanaddiction said: great chapter. one of my theories were correct. the one about namjoon. but the one about the baby was wrong. i realized i thought about it in the eyes of human logic not vampiric. oh well better luck next time for me i guess.

Thank you for thinking it was great! And yay! one out of two isn’t bad at all heh ^^ Don’t worry dear, I’m still really happy you enjoyed it :)

Anonymous said: Is it bad that I'm actually really completely genuinely satisfied with the ending of chapter 29 of ISWY? and that it would be completely fine if you just stopped the series right there? I dunno, but the way you wrote this chapter, it doesn't make me feel the need to question anything. Sara, you ended it perfectly and now, you're turning me from a loyal maknae-line stan to a namjoon stan. That.... not many people can do. *applauds* Anyways, I love you, take care, and keep writing! <3 - army anon

Awwwww that’s so freaking sweet I CAN’T guh ~~~ I’m legit crying at your message right now, seriously :( haha OKAY I’m good~ lol Well it looks like right now there will be one more chapter to go, but I’m not completely sure or decided yet. There’s still one or two things I’d like to include to wrap things up once and for all :3 AND OMG NAMJOON SNATCHED YOU?! Uh oh..makenae line is gonna have to step up their game if they want you back :3 I love you too and thank you so much for being so kind to me always, you have no idea how happy and cheerful it makes me :)

@min-ty said: SARA OMG THE CHAPTER WAS SO GOOD I say this every week but I find it absolutely necessary that I do BUT SHOOK THANK YOU FOR BRINGING THIS STORY INTO MY LIFE

Hahahah it’s okay I will still appreciate it 100% no matter how many times you might say it! Seriously :) THANK YOU FOR READING MY STORY because it makes me so incredibly happy :) Thank you thank you thank you ^^

@ananyak26 said: OMG OMGOMG! Part 29 !!!! Yea the last line was soooo adorable!I'm fangirling right nowxD.(Obviously the chapter was good too but the last line oh god!) Great jooobbb!!

Ahhhh yes the last line! Wedding bells!! :3 hehe thank you my lovely, I’m so glad you enjoyed the chapter :3

Anonymous said: u don't know how excited i am when it comes to tuesday!!! i'm so in love w ur iwsy series that i almost literally ran home today to read chapter 29!!!! i really love your readings and please don'r ever stop writing 😢😢💜

I’m so happy that you get excited when Tuesdays come! You’re so cute hehe :D Thank you so much and don’t worry, I won’t ever stop writing! ^^

Anonymous said: IWSY lmao idek what to say anymore it's been like 6 months HAHA I've been reading since the first chapter rolled out its like watching my kid grow up HAHA thank you for writing such a good series have a good week ! -eggyook (cont.) --eggyook Forgot to say, good luck for your exams !! You can do it :)))

Ahhh thank you for sticking with the story for such a long time! And yeah I feel you, I feel like IWSY has been a huge part of my life and the world has come alive for me this entire time xD Like I’ve kind of been living there in my mind hehe^^ Thank you so much my love and I’ll try my best of my exams! I hope you have a good week too :D

@lostheretics said: petition to make a better life for namjun pls sign it for him he's just a sMol bEan istg T_T it's aLMOST ENDING!!!! or is it not............*dead af*

Awwwwh don’t worry he’ll have a good like with Y/N and the Jeon’s! And yes, it’s absolutely almost ending :(

Anonymous said: Another great chapter of IWSY but why do I feel like it is coming to an end 😢😢😢

Thank you my love! And yes you’re right - it’s coming to an end :( 30 weeks is a looooong time!

Anonymous said: ahhh bittersweet feeling about I won't stop you like everything is fine now yay and can't wait for the baby but it's gonna end soon I'm so sad

Yes I feel the same way to be honest! IWSY feels like my baby and it’s all grown up now haha c:

Anonymous said: is it just me or is part 29 shorter ??? oh my gosh I can't get enough of it T.T I honestly think after the end of the series you should gather all the chapters and make it into a story book. it's way too good!! -bunnykookie96

Hiya love! Hmmm well it’s the same length as any other chapter really :3 Possibly because it’s just drawing to an end that one might feel like it’s shorter :( I actually would really love to do that but I have no idea how lol :c Anyway, thank you so much for reading the new chapter my deary!! :3

Anonymous said: I have trust issues because of u its just too fluffy 🤔 Also do you have back dimples ? And last but not least I can smell a smut coming soon :))) --wifey anon 🐇

I guess I’ll just have to prove you wrong! :3 And yes - I do have back dimples - fun fact, they are referred to as “Dimples of Venus” heh c: I put it in because, well, I just wanted to ;D thank you so much my love and I hope you have a good day/night! :3

Anonymous said: SARA IS IT JUST ME OR YOURE QUOTING PRINCESS DIARIESNSJSJSKSJSNS

I have no idea what a princess diaries is o.o Sorry! :(

#imsarabum #i Won't Stop You #IWSY #Asks #Responses

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