#joshneku

[syringaledraws]

[ 2021 ]

A small kiss for the comfort

[yoshiyakiryu]

[homoeroticbetrayal]

Iconic Homoerotic Betrayal: Round 2

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Context:

Ides of March

Summary by Mean Girls (from an Anonymous Contributor)

Why should Caesar get to stomp around like a giant while the rest of us try not to get smushed under his big feet? What’s so great about Caesar? Hm? Brutus is just as cute as Caesar. Brutus is just as smart as Caesar.

People totally like Brutus just as much as they like Caesar. And when did it become okay for one person to be the boss of everybody, huh? Because that’s not what Rome is about. We should totally just stab Caesar!

Joshua/Neku

Summary by @purplelea

What if I was a jerk who decided to reject everyone because I was scared of getting attached and getting hurt, and what if I ended up in a death game where I had to learn how to put my trust in others in order to survive

What if I started to change, I started to trust others, to value their inner worlds, and then you came along as one of the people I had to learn to trust

What if you understood me better than anyone else, what if I recognised myself in you, and what if I HATED you for that, because you were everything I were, but that weren't not who I wanted to be anymore

What if you made it so hard to trust you because you were so grating and annoying and didn't deny when I accused you of killing me

What if you gave your life for me right after I learned that you weren't my murderer, what if I had spent an entire week blaming you for my death and what if you died for me before I could even apologise for that

What if I grieved you for a week while trying to fight for my life and fighting to keep trusting others despite all the hurt it kept bringing me

What if I fought my way to the end, victory and salvation so close, and what if suddenly I saw you again, giggling and telling me you were the one behind the whole thing since the very beginning

What if you told me that you were the one who killed me. That you were the one who created this death game. That you were the reason all of this ever happened. That I was nothing but a plaything in your grand scheme, that I've been your pawn since the very beginning, and all the fights I fought in order to come back to life were in fact helping you to achieve your goal of destroying my city and everyone I cared about

What if, still smiling, you gave me one last chance to save everything. A duel. A countdown. 10 seconds, one pull of the trigger, and you would be dead, my death would be avenged, my city and my friends saved

What if three weeks before that was exactly what had been asked of me, to kill someone else to save myself, and what if back then someone had to stop me from doing it

What if, pushed by how angry and hurt I was because of your betrayal, of your lies, of how you manipulated me and everyone around you, I found the strength to aim the gun at you, ready to shoot, crying but determined

But what if this time, because of everything I've been through, everything YOU put me through, I couldn't do it. Because you betrayed me, you hurt me, you did everything do I would want to pull that trigger, but everything you did also lead me to change, to start to trust others, and you're included in those others. You made me see that others' lives are worth the fight, are deep and meaningful, are something precious that shouldn't be discarded because I can't understand them

What if as you counted down to zero, I lowered my gun, and when your countdown met its end, you shot me once again, a bullet piercing my heart just like your betrayal did a few moments before.

What if after living all of this, I woke up in the middle of the city where I had been waking up at every start of every week of the death game you put me in, but this time alive and well, and I had to come to terms on how I felt towards you and the whole ordeal

What if I did come to terms, and put words on it. An entire monologue I gave to you, not even knowing if you were listening, but trusting that you would.

What if my name was Neku Sakuraba, and yours was Yoshiya Kiryu, but I could call you Joshua, seeing as I was your dear, dear Partner.

"I can't forgive you, but I trust you."

For other JoshNeku essays, see spreadsheet

[doufusoup]

my joshneku renaissance era

[kasuria]

neku deserves to be spoiled!!

[autumnustrike]

[mapsosaa]

me when consuming media:

[zyzix]

[xshinina]

I like to think that Joshua became kinda like a guardian angel to Neku and has been watching over him over his three years in Shinjuku and even after that to make sure he doesn’t get shot for a fourth time (seriusly Neku take better care), which is absolutely not at all what their relationship in canon is but let me be happy Josh dang it

[yantao-enthusiast]

protags with a flawed mindset x antags with the same mindset just more fucked up >>>>>>>>>>

[abnormallynicehere]

What if he were to just... sneak up behind him, slither his arms around his waist, and scoop his wings around him to tuck him in close and shield him like a canopy. What if, into his ear, Joshua were to croon: "My heart's on fire and the flame grows higher... So I will weather the storm. What do I care how much it may storm. I've got my love to keep me warm..." ♪ (no need to reply! joshua just wanted to say hi ❤)

(How can I not reply when the image is so soft qvq)

[syringaledraws]

[ 2021 ]

[yoshiyakiryu]

[homoeroticbetrayal]

Iconic Homoerotic Betrayal: Revival Match

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[doufusoup]

i played a round of “joshua, neku, joshneku, or hazuki” roulette on twitter and drew over some memes!

sharing here because i know there’s an audience for this kinda stuff here too

[rivie-arts]

POV: You're about to get your ass kicked

I drew this last year after finishing neotwewy to practice clean lines and to project wishful thinking I had for the ending 😭