#jude watson

[amarcia]

Laundry Day (in which Anakin is allergic to water)

✨🌙 ART LOG -> @404ama

[comebackali]

Obi-wan immediately after he and Siri rescue Ferus from being kidnapped: Why doesn't Ferus smile at me when I walk in a room like Anakin does? Why doesn't Ferus tease me and make snarky quips like Anakin does? I miss Anakin so much, I need to find him right now immediately, I sure do hate being separated from him.

[sith-obikin]

A happy Valentine’s Day to our favourite tragic boys!

To Obi-Wan especially who has never stopped loving his dear Anakin, despite everything💔

Book excerpts from Revenge of the Sith by Matthew Stover and The Last One Standing by Jude Watson

[padawanlost]

[Padmé] took his hand and laced her fingers through his. "I offered to go because I knew I would be safe. I knew the best Jedi in the Order would be there to protect me." [Anakin] groaned. "Now don't start flattering me." She grinned at him. "I meant Obi-Wan." He tossed a pillow at her, and she shrieked in surprise. She threw it back, and he held it suspended in the air with the Force. "Are you still trying that same trick on me?" "It's worked in the past." She lay down beside him. They faced each other, almost nose to nose. "I'll be careful," she said. "I won't leave your side," he said. "Don't," she said, drawing him close. "I don't want you to."

[Jude Watson's Secrets of the Jedi]

[skyguy8108]

[Secrets of the Jedi] Padmé and Anakin resolve their disagreement over her going on a dangerous mission

Anakin needed to talk to Padme directly. Palpatine couldn’t order her not to go. But Anakin could.

Padme’s laughter bubbled, then died when she saw he was serious. “You’re ordering me?”

“Yes. I have a right. I have more experience than you do; I’m a Jedi and I know what we could be in for. I’m also an officer in the Republic army.”

“But I’m not.” Padme continued to fold a robe she was placing in a small bag at her feet. “So thanks but no thanks, Commander.”

“It’s dangerous and unnecessary for you to go, and I won’t allow it.”

Padme turned. Her gaze was direct. Cool and composed. That always infuriated him. “I think you know well enough how your attitude angers and upsets me. I don’t respond to orders. I am a Senator. I have a duty to perform. So I am going.”

“Padme, please.” He wanted to give in to her softness, but she stood before him, ramrod straight. She wasn’t wearing her ceremonial robes, only a soft sheath down to her ankles, but she might as well be costumed in armor. He collapsed on his back on the sleep couch. “I don’t know why it’s so hard to talk to you.”

“That’s because you’re not talking to me. You’re ordering me.”

“I’m just trying to keep you safe.”

“This is not the way to do it.” He looked up. She was smiling at him. She came and sat beside him.

“I know you worry about my safety,” she said in the soft tone he loved. “I worry about yours. We live in perilous times, Anakin. We’re in the middle of a war. I’m in danger no matter where I am. We’ve both been in some kind of danger since the moment you arrived to protect me.”

“Agreed. But do you have to volunteer for it?”

She took his hand and laced her fingers through his.

“I offered to go because I knew I would be safe. I knew the best Jedi in the Order would be there to protect me.”

He groaned. “Now don’t start flattering me.”

She grinned at him. “I meant Obi-Wan.”

He tossed a pillow at her, and she shrieked in surprise. She threw it back, and he held it suspended in the air with the Force.

“Are you still trying that same trick on me?”

“It’s worked in the past.” She lay down beside him. They faced each other, almost nose to nose.

“I’ll be careful,” she said.

“I won’t leave your side,” he said.

“Don’t,” she said, drawing him close. “I don’t want you to.”

[howlljenkins]

“I never lose my focus, Obi-Wan. Or my commitment.”

Young Obi-Wan and Siri Tachi ✨

[legends-expo]

Time to take it back to 2001, with the anniversary of the release of the first Jedi Quest book, The Way of the Apprentice! Was this anyones first foray into Legends content? The series chronicled Anakin's journey as Obi-Wan's Padawan between Episodes I and II, providing some much needed context to their relationship - in fact, book seven will tell you all about the famed gundark incident!

[la-sopa]

They’ve arrived

[softpadawan]

Reading Jude Watson's The Dark Rival, the second book in the Jedi Apprentice series, and it's just. I'm howling. I haven't met an author yet who can write Qui-Gon without placing some kind of emphasis on his size:

I swear if I see the words "big man" anywhere in this book I'm going to crack open a bottle of champagne and drink the entire thing myself.

And the Quiobi vibes are off the chart. (This is from Chapter Two.)

Were they sleeping together? Was there only one "sleep-couch"? (Probably, because the Meerians don't have much wealth or fancy accommodations.)

So Qui-Gon wakes from a bad dream and goes to brood at the window while Obi-Wan pretends to be asleep but he really isn't; instead he's watching Qui-Gon and thinking about how badly he wants to be his padawan.

It's adorable. And sad. Poor little Obi-Wan, he just wants a master.

[magnusbae]

" They had tortured Anakin’s mother for a month. Just to test her resolve. Was it any wonder that Anakin had been left with such a deep, festering wound?" " He could do this for Anakin. His Padawan was dead, his brother, his son, his friend. He could give him this. A fearsome anger unleashed. Vengeance."  " He felt his anger rise, and he took pleasure in it. It was growing inside him and obliterating everything else. He wanted to be overtaken. He didn’t want to be careful. He wanted only the white heat of satisfaction." -The Last One Standing - Jude Watson

[amarcia]

@jedijune 02 Advice / Inspiration

✨🌙 ART LOG -> @404ama

(Dialogue is based on a scene from 'makanai cooking for the maiko house', very nice show btw)

[kanansdume]

I've got a lot of complicated feelings on Jude Watson's writing in Star Wars, both positive and negative, but occasionally something she writes just... hits. And this quote? This fucking HITS.

This is from Secrets of the Jedi, the novel that discusses Siri and Obi-Wan's romantic relationship that has now been de-canonized. This particular scene is after their relationship has been discovered and they're breaking up in order to remain Jedi because they've been told they cannot do both.

But the line that hits me the most is Siri saying "I was so afraid of what lay ahead that I wanted to let go of my own will" because... WOW. Wow is that Star Wars to its core. That is literally EXACTLY what Anakin and Padme do in their own relationship, Anakin in particular. It's his FEAR of the future, even one that might not even happen, that causes him to let go of his own will and do things he KNOWS are wrong just to try to prevent it. Padme ignores a lot of her own boundaries and morals and better judgment in order to be in a relationship with Anakin. She lets go of the fact that Anakin makes her uncomfortable, she lets go of the fact that Anakin straight-up claims he's a fascist, she lets go of Anakin massacring the Tuskens. If we take TCW into account, then she also lets go of Anakin's possessiveness and sexist demands as well as the fact that he SCARES her sometimes and nearly beats a man to death in order to punish her for what he believed to be a lack of fidelity on her part. She lets go of a LOT of her own will in order to love Anakin.

And Siri asks the question afterwards, is that what love is? Obi-Wan doesn't have a response, but I think the novel does have a stance on the issue. It's a little muddied by a lack of understanding of what attachment is, but I think the answer within Star Wars itself is that this ISN'T what love is. This is what love can LEAD to if you allow it to do so, and it's not an uncommon thing to happen, but this isn't actually love itself. This is what ATTACHMENT is. This is the precise definition of attachment, this fear of what MIGHT happen to something that makes you feel good that it causes you to give up your own will in order to keep it and avoid the feeling of loss. But love is selfless, love is compassion, love is about letting go of your own desires in order to prioritize someone else's happiness.

And within this exact same novel, we actually see a perfect example of this kind of love, showcased through Qui-Gon and the way he feels about Obi-Wan. They're separated partway through the story and Qui-Gon is constantly thinking about how much he misses Obi-Wan and wishes Obi-Wan were with him, but he's capable of recognizing that their mission could save many lives from being lost and that's more important than his desire to be with someone he cares about. There's a moment where Qui-Gon discovers that Obi-Wan is in some kind of danger and he has to choose between trying to rescue Obi-Wan or continuing on with his mission, he CANNOT do both. In his thoughts, he recognizes that losing Obi-Wan would be devastatingly painful, equally as painful as losing Tahl had been, but he still chooses to continue with the mission because there are TWENTY lives on the line and his love for Obi-Wan cannot cost those twenty people their lives. THIS is what love looks like, THIS is genuine selfless compassion for another person. And nothing in the novel ever condemns Qui-Gon for how he feels about Obi-Wan or indicates that he needs to change or end his relationship with Obi-Wan, but it also doesn't shy away from showing just how deeply Qui-Gon DOES care for Obi-Wan.

And while I can believe Siri and Obi-Wan's feelings for each other were genuine, it turns into a selfish attachment VERY quickly. They nearly immediately decide to start living a lie and wanting to change an entire culture just so they can have something they want, despite the fact that Siri at least says that these rules exist for a reason. Their personal happiness becomes more important than anything else momentarily. They both claim that they'll be able to do their duty still, that they'll be able to balance both, but they're also both very ready to deceive other people who care about them in order to keep this thing that makes them feel good. The hurt they are willing to cause to others is small, but it's also something that could continue to grow and snowball into something more and more selfish. What happens when they can't see each other for a really long time and start to get desperate to find a way to be together? What happens when the lies start piling up and cause misunderstandings in their other relationships? The more they cling to each other, the more willing they will be to do the next selfish thing until eventually those selfish choices stop being so small.

This is what attachment does, this is the danger of that kind of love. It's not that all love is always like this, but just that this is an incredibly common thing to happen, especially in romantic relationships. Siri and Obi-Wan literally get to the point of losing their sense of self and their own will INCREDIBLY quickly because neither of them wants to have to make a choice because they're too afraid of losing either their relationship OR their status as Jedi. But, inevitably, they HAVE to choose. They would always have had to choose, regardless of how long the lie lasted or whether it was even discovered at all.

But love does not HAVE to be like this. Love does not inevitably steal your sense of self or your willingness to make your own decisions. It is absolutely possible to have a healthy love that does none of those things and this novel 100% shows that. Just because Obi-Wan and Siri's feelings for each other are genuine does not automatically make them selfless or free of attachment. And while I have my issues with this novel and the way it handles this storyline, including the fact that I'm like 85% sure that this isn't the intended message, I really like what it says about what selfish love can do to you and the way it subtly shows what true selfless love can look like.

[tunglo]

Jude Watson for Star Wars Insider, 2001

[padawanlost]

"[Anakin] realized what was wrong, what the essential conflict within him was. To be a Jedi was to follow his feelings. But if his feelings tortured him, what was he to do with them? Grief. Guilt. Resentment. Shame. He had felt all of these things. Because of leaving his mother, because of Yaddle, because of Obi-Wan. I don't want to feel! [...] "Anakin!" He could hear Obi-Wan clearly now, his voice strained and desperate. I don't want to feel! The hook in his heart seared him, and he knew its name. It was love. The love he felt for his Master was lodged firmly within him. It was a connection that had grown from the first moment Obi-Wan had told him that he would take him and train him. He had learned one thing about love: It was besides the point. It didn't make anything smoother, or better. Most of the time, it just complicated things. Why would he want to feel again, when feeling hurt so much? Why would he want to remember Shmi with guilt as well as pleasure? Why would he want to revisit his torment over the death of Yaddle? Why would he want to take up the burden of caring what Obi-Wan thought or felt about him? Because it's right."

Jude Watson. Book 08 - The Moment of Truth

[feruslands]

"Do you see what you've done?" Anakin said, turning savagely to Ferus.

"Yes, I see what I've done," Ferus said. "Do you?"

Finally, dear friend Ferus Olin.

Software: Ai+ps

P.S. Forgive my crooked hands that I couldn't fix everything after AI)

P. S. It seems Ferus managed to look similar to the Japanese covers of the book series JQ