#just had the worst nap of my life btw <3

[safetyobstacles]

starting o segredo na floresta now, im either gonna finish this in a week or its gonna take months good luck me

update - i love joui

joui, its a little cloudy out, roll for sanity. joe, you stubbed your toe, roll sanity. joui did you just frown???????? roll a sanity test with disadvantage. that was cool joui, you gain 1 sanity. just kidding somewhere in the netherlands a child tripped and scraped their knee, you lose 10 sanity.

i think im going to put my updates under the cut instead of spamming posts B) beware of spoil

UPDATE

if cellbit takes liz or thiago from me ill never forgive him

this bar has to be its own paranormal entity, thiago would have died if the gun had a bullet in it and cristopher nearly got knifed to death in their first fight loll

EP 2

npc thiago about to be the most useless mf ever i swear if he dies to a stray ant or something ill cry just put him in a box for safe keeping

what would i do without the mental image of joui dropkicking every monster he sees

liz why are you finger painting with the ooze monsters remains and why did it give you 1 hp ?????? NEVERMIND

EP 3

RACCOON bro has 8 health but he sure is happy

faz um teste de sanidade

when i said thiago was gonna die to an ant i didnt actually mean kill him with giant spiders

cristopher no please dont climb a tree these are spiders they can climb nah bro cristopher is dead af im gonna miss him. bro cellbit just kill him already bros dead 2 hp

damn

ep 4

at this rate luba doesnt even need to roll sanity we all know hes gonna fail anyways joui's having the worst two days of his life

jesus christ i just woke up i cant handle this shit cesar's punching a hole in my itty bitty heart bones

please stop talking about leticio's cacetinho

EP 5 how long is too long for a tumblr post btw

the starting soon screen replaced cris with arthur notlikethis

cellbit is far too happy about them going to this house i hate it i hate it

i would like for them to leave a casa now :))) they got gregório time to go :) DAMN JOUI JUST GOT STEAMROLLED BY THAT ZOMBIE ROLLED A 99 VS CELLS 1 jesus christ thiago LOL NO WAY GREGÓRIO IS DEAD AF bro was just taking a nap in the car and this is what he gets

that was horribly stressful its 3 am how am i supposed to sleep after that

to be fair, if i was rodolfo and liz didnt use the tazer, i would have just dragged gregório in front of arthur and killed him in right in front of his face soo...

ROLLED 100 LOOOOOOOOOOOOL a caverna

COOL GUY ALERT HOPE HE DOESNT KILL BRULIO HAHAhahaaa

EP 6 I HAVE GREAT ANXIETY THIS MESTRE GUY IS ABOUT TO KILL HALF THE SQUAD

luba i know youve been rolling absolute dog shit the last 5 episodes but this one really counts buddy brulio :(

most stressful hour of youtube ive ever sat through i cant believe they all lived

A PORTA FORTE

EP 7 im so glad they're going back to the house im so happy ive never wanted anything else this is great nothing could go wrong in this house nothing

7 episodes in and ive just now realised that he keeps talking about circles and spirals and those have significance with a certain element and now i want them to leave carpazinha go back home forget this ever happened

undressing with the homies in the haunted basement next to a dead old man

not thiago canonically talking to a bookshelf after complaining about joui's whispering to his shotgun

THIS GRAVE IS SO COMPLICATEDDDD I BET ITS FUCKING EMPTY THEYRE ARGUING ABOUT HOW TO "knock out" AN OLD LADY AND ITS PROBABLY JUST WORMS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE GRAVEEE

this whole graveyard scene has me in tears thiago staring at nothing while they try to get him to unmute, old guy on the phone, joui picking up the old lady i just laughed so hard i feel ill

the one time joui doesnt fail a roll he loses 6 SANITY?? 8 SANITY?????????????? SENHORA VOCE TA BEM????? YOU JUST CHOKED HER OUT JOUI WAIT SHES GONNA DIE??????????? SHES GOING TO DIE???????????? THE GASOLINE IN THE MOUTH??

grounded from the shotgun for 1 week

EP 8

Thiago's pants are still fucked up from last episode btw

about to have a tpk over alchohol poisoning

if cesar survives this campaign hes gonna put as many points possible into forgery

a caverna im goign fuckign crazy the god of tdeath pr spomething is in this cave theyre gonna walk inside trip on a pebble and get eaten by hundreds of tiny cave beetles

Victor is absolutely about to get his face eated by a spider and/or be swallowed by the cave

ok but santo berço looks kinda cool like i would live there

EP 9 he just (re?)released osnf merch but i refuse to be spoiled by absolutely anything ive done so well i will not be tainted by cesar's really cool green on black long sleeve

wait i love the gatekeeper its a shame this town is probably a hallucination and theyre all actually slowly dying in the middle of the forest GIANT COWS I LOVE THE GIANT COWS WITH REGULAR SIZED HEADS

????????????????????????????????FELPS??????????????????????

buttery butter

thiago this is why you should have quit smoking

?????FELPS?????????

EP 10 so if thiago hadnt used the lighter would felps still be alive, probably just would have died later B)

bro joui has got to buy new dice this is crazy

this is gonna be the average 2 star motel experience BRO JUST DABBED ON CESAR liz is about to get bodied by the hallway ghosts this is just like a regular motel HUH UHHHHHHH

no joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy

mom i want to go home i dont want to stay in santo berço anymore jesus christ

EP 11 how am i supposed to just start the next episode after that i think the mental image of brulio beating arthurs skull in is burned into my brain space

sandwich sandwich

i love the giant cows so much i want one GIANT CHICKEN LAY GIANT EGG I LOVE THE GIANT CHICKEN intimidating the human sized pig

EP 12 still thinking about how cellbit thought new zealand was so close to europe, he was so sure of it that he was making me unsure of where i knew new zealand was

both times thiago was played by cellbit some horrific shit happened so with arthur being an npc this episode im prepared for the worst also this starting soon screen is fucking wicked

are you telling me joui's max sanity is now 12 bros been losing it for so long hes stuck like this joui is the "damn, you live like this?" meme

CELLBO ROLEPLAYED TOO HARD HIS HEADSET JOINED AS AN ENEMY AND BEAT HIS SETUP

"that sounds like a book title" bro let the intrusive thought win

baby nidere

no way the cow has been suffering this whole time ill cry

theyre about to rp their way into an angry medieval mob when they get found with the body of the dead gatekeeper B) does santo berço have dungeons, bc if they do thats where theyll be sleeping tonight nvm the gatekeeper has demons inside him sorry joui HUh no way they killed the gatekeeper dude wtf

EP 13 chat's a bit excited to go in the cave guys if anyone reads this what am i supposed to do once i finish this season. what do you mean i just have to go onto desconjuração. what do you mean i have to leave this story behind. please let me keep all the characters in this one.

THE CAVE MAP IS COOOOOOL THE LIGHT MOVES WITH THE MINER everyone struggling to flip their characters 5 mins into the cave made me laugh so hard i had to pause to breathe

I LOVE MOLES DUDE THEYRE SO COOL ok but i dont love this many moles BRO I LOVE MOTHS TOO THIS IS AWESOME wait no i hate bats THIS MOTH IS SUFFERINGGGGG

THE SUCC hes about to kill them all with the Succ out of spite thiago never mock one of cellbit's monsters again ARTHUR ZIUM

door door door door door door door door door door the gatekeeper is alive???

ih arthur nah dude let go of cesar :(((((((((((( gotta hand it to arthur hes survived two of these situations now get it, hand it to him, CAUSE HE LOST HIS FUCKING ARM WTF HIS ARM DETATCH LIKE A LEGO sorry i vote we still kill the gatekeeper just in case just to be safe

EP 14 did cellbit have a past traumatic experience with a vacuum is that why he created the Succ

agatha?????? bro agatha's life sucked big pp

every time cellbit says hes excited for something i grow more afraid

if they kill and eat the gatekeeper would he also taste delicious just wondering

i think i might know the reason why 12 sanity joui has a funky grey form but 55 sanity thiago doesnt, but maybe im crazy nevermind thiago had the funky grey within him this whole time wait does that mean hes gonna die if santo berço dies DAMN

joui just really wants to see thiago naked also hes just blatantly stealing arthur's knife he really is losing all his sanity that was possibly the most unconvincing "nada" ive ever heard

EP 15 before i start a new episode i always go to the vod on twitch and watch the memes first so i can go "hehe" for five minutes, and then go "oh no" for the next 4 hours

hypothetically, if joui managed to get the symbol on him before anyone noticed would he have just lost all 12 of his sanity and gone mad cuz that would have been crazy :,)

this is it cellbit is finally going to kill npc thiago joui is so very happy about his shotgun i thought maybe he was getting better but hes whispering to it again

alright whats up with cellbit and the outwards opening doors because i swear i have never seen a door that opens out instead of in, are all the doors like that in his home these doors are made to have creatures attack from inside ih i just checked like 3 times to make sure i was on the right episode lmaoooo

"pobre martha" DAAAAAAMN MARIANA ICE COLD

one buff woman vs all 3 equipe kelvin who will win (1 woman) crazy that equipe kelvin managed to accomplish what took our group 9 episodes to get to lool they even got the leticio cacetinho dlc, but they did skip the spider boss fight and the entire house level

THE BLACKSMITH IS MIGUEL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

EP 16 the joui, liz, and arthur cosplay look like theyre going to a nice dinner meanwhile thiago, kenan, and cesar just look homeless

idk if thiago's making it out of this one :,) maybe we just take thiago's weapons its not like he can do much to help anyways kenan wants to skin him listen brother i dont think thats gonna work im at the 52 min mark and cellbit is acting sus af the blacksmith is about to appear and stomp them all or something

joui would roll a 99 and nearly knife cesar and liz is trying so hard not to metagame her way to the explosive backpack loving how trigger happy joui is right now go on guys give him more explosives what the worst that could happen

is kenan also a wellspring do they have to kill him cuz thats gonna be kind of awkward and on that note since thiago has the symbol on him does that make him a wellspring too ill cry i will cry

NOT JOUI APOLOGIZING FOR LYING ABOUT HIS SAMURAI ANCESTRY

damn that scene between joui, liz, and thiago was the best in the entire season

i would like to take this moment before they all get swallowed alive by some horrible sludge tentacle monster to proclaim my absolute hatred of Santo Berço. I know i said at the end of episode 8 that i thought it looked cool but im over it ive moved past that point in my life i hate Santo Berço

BIG GOOEY MEATBALL

"the people are happy here!" says the blacksmith as he currently has 5 people forcefully locked up for decades that have gone mad with probably no way of ever regaining their sanity i just realised miguel and the old blacksmith fucked so hard they had a kid

final boss aboutta come crawling out of the meatball please stop trying to skin thiago the symbol isnt gonna come off

THAT WAS SICK AF THEYRE ALL DEAD AS HELL

???????????????????? "kenan you have one last sane move before i take your character and throw him off a cliff"

:(

post i made after i finished osnf (made like 3 days later because i was so so so so so so so so so so sad)

https://www.tumblr.com/safetyobstacles/739056899257942016/i-finished-osnf-after-almost-2-months-and-you-know?source=share

[taeyamayang]

hola hola~ i love your 1k event idea!!

could you do ran haitani w/ 2, 35, 3?

thanksies 🥹

a/n: hellooo ofc!! that cute little emoji tho omg,, thanks for joining the event and i hope you like this! btw your numbers are tragically aligned, if that makes sense lol anyway here we gooo

• ran haitani; established relationship

• "If memories made us who we are, who are you when you lose them all?"

• hurt/angst ending

--

waiting is an arduous job. you are not the most patient person one could know but it is all that you can do right now.

a huge fraction of ran's life was spent on a rather perilous path but ever since he had slid a ring on your finger, he changed drastically. he was more mature, more careful, all for the sake of your safety. he promised, alongside loving you until your last breath, that he will be a husband you can be proud of.

but one night, when the sun is long tucked behind the moon, ran comes up to you with an expression hard to read.

"what's wrong?" you ask when he suddenly bends his knees infront of you, arms crossed on your shared bed at your side where you lie with his head lowered.

he utters apologies repeatedly without meeting your gaze. at the moment you cupped his face to lift it, tears begin to roll down his cheeks.

"tell me what's wrong." your soft hushed voice echoes in the silent night.

"my brother, h-he's got into trouble. i promised to you that i'll live a honest life but i can't let him be. i know who did it to him. it's an old foe from back in the day." he chokes on words, eyes meeting you. "(y/n), i don't know what to do."

you knew from that point that you are left to one choice. you can't be selfish by holding him back. rindou is the only family he has before he met and married you.

albeit, little did you know that the decision you were about to make will lead to your worst nightmare. apparently, harming rindou is a way for the gang to lure ran out of his cave. his brother is just the first part of their long-plotted revenge on him.

days after he left your home to meet ends with the gang members, a civilian found him lying unconscious in one of the small alleys of Tokyo. he was bathed in his blood, barely recognizable with the amount of bruises and cuts on his face and body. once his identity was uncovered, you were summoned to the hospital.

the severe concussion caused him to knock unconcscious. now, all you can do is to wait for him to wake up. the doctors said that if the stranger was a minute late into finding him, it will only take a miracle to save him.

hence, you spend your days and nights waiting for him. closely watching his face for a miniscule muscle movement or anything that can tell you that he is alive apart from the machine attached to him.

then on one ordinary day, when you were fast drifted to sleep next to him your head lowered to the space next to his torso and your intertwined hands, his eyelids unravels slowly. he groggily blinks as his vision adjusts to the lighting in the room. you are awaken from nap when you feel his fingers twitch. your head whips to his direction and you see him staring at the ceiling.

"ran! you're awake!" you stutter-scream, cupping your mouth in surprise. tears threaten to roll down from your lids as you peer at the person you love the most.

you bring your hands back to his but as soon as he feels your touch, he winces. he peers at you with a scowl on his face. when you attempt to close the gap between the two of you, he looks at you with a disgusted expression.

"who are you?"

masterlist | tr.list

[sunghun]

enhypen when their s/o still sleeps with a nightlight

requested; no

warnings; none? i think??

note; this is short and completely self indulgent lol. shout out to my fellow nightlight users.

희승 | heeseung;

so

tonight was the big night

the night that your boyfriend would be sleeping over at your house for the first time

and you were kinda nervous

for multiple reasons

but the biggest one being that you weren’t sure how he would react to you still sleeping with a nightlight

like would he be bothered by it?

would he make fun of you??

would this be the end of your relationship???

#y/nprofessionaloverthinker

but turns out you had nothing to worry about

because he's just like . so chill about it

"oh you still sleep with a nightlight? cool."

he might ask if there's any specific reason you still have one

but it's just bc he's curious

overall just very sweet and would never complain about it

always makes sure you never forget it <33

제이 | jay;

"hey babe, what's this?"

you were spending the night over at jay's place

and while you were unpacking your stuff he noticed It

"oh...uh...it's just my ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗˡᶦᵍʰᵗ"

low-key finds it really cute??

won't tell u that tho

*dying on the inside from softness*

"oh okay."

would always make sure that you have it if you guys were spending the night somewhere else

"toothpaste? check."

"pillows? check."

"y/n's nightlight? check."

would also Always make sure to have lightbulbs on hand

just in case the one in there died

and if it ever broke

he'd get you a new super deluxe one by the end of the day

"it's a three-in-one, humidifier, diffuser, and nightlight!!"

pls he's so sweet

제이크 | jake;

finds it really cute

but unlike jay he WILL tell you

“you sleep with a nightlight??”

“……yes.”

“omg baby that’s so cute!!”

is like a million times more whipped for you now

will always make sure to plug it in/turn it on for you before getting into bed

somehow i see him getting so used to it that eventually it’s weird for him to go sleep without one

would probably buy one for himself with the excuse of it being for you

“this way you won’t have to keep bringing yours back and forth!”

sure jake

no but if you ever have trouble sleeping

or get scared even with it on

he would be the sweetest bf ever 😭

cuddles you to sleep :((

“it’s okay sweetheart, i’ve got you”

crying … sobbing, even.

성훈 | sunghoon;

okay

as much as i for some reason love to write sunghoon as like .

the bad boy jerk boyfriend or smth

idk

in reality i feel like, similar to heeseung, he wouldn’t really care??

like he might tease you a little bit at first

but he never goes too far with it

“aww, does my baby still need a nightlight? how cute~”

if anyone else teases you about it tho

oof

may their souls rest in peace ✌️

one of his friends once commented on how he didn’t know they made nightlights for adults

the death stare from sunghoon was enough to make them retract that real quick

and he’ll defs reassure you that it doesn’t bother him at all if you ever get insecure about it 💕💕

someone get me a sunghoon

선우 | sunoo;

bestie he’d probably sleep with one too 😭😭

like

he’s spending the night at your place for the first time

and he goes to plug his in

but there’s already one there??

probs thinks that you somehow found out he slept with one

so u got one for him

and later when you’re cuddling he’ll be like

“btw thanks for getting the nightlight for me babe”

and you’re just like

“huh . ?”

“sunoo that’s mine.”

kinda hyped to find out you both sleep with them??

*excitedly showing you his avengers themed one*

insert you two bonding over nightlights <33

will 10000% buy couple nightlights for the two of you

y’all are so cute no one can even make fun of you

정원 | jungwon;

so kind abt it <3

“i hope you don’t mind but uh….i still sleep with a nightlight…”

“😲 oh. okay!”

if you still sleep with one bc you’re afraid of the dark he’ll probably try to help you overcome ur fear

lots of cuddles and soft reassurances :(

“it’s okay baby i’m right here, and we can always turn the light back on.”

cuddles you so tight you may have to tell him to turn it back a notch

“jungwonie, sweetie, love of my life?”

“yes honey??”

“i can’t breathe.”

buuuttt

if your light is just like a comfort thing he’ll let u be <3

if for some reason he’s unable to sleep bc of it he’ll just use an eye mask.

because your comfort is more important to him than his own :((

i’m so soft for this boy i think i need help

니키 | niki;

definitely teases you about it

but unlike sunghoon he might not know when to stop :(

so you start trying to sleep without it

bc you don’t want to bother him

or be made fun of any longer :((

key word: trying

so when you meet up that weekend

well

let’s just say only getting like an hour of sleep each night has left you looking a little….

rough™️

“woah babe. you look like you got attacked by a mob of angry raccoons what happened 🤨🤨”

“i got rid of my nightlight…. since i didn’t want it to bother you when you slept over. and ya know. nightlights are for babies anyways, like you said.”

yeah he feels like the worst boyfriend after that

takes you to the nearest store that sells them and buys you a new one

and then brings you home to take a nap with him

but when you see him plugging the new nightlight in

you’re just like ???

“niki it’s the middle of the afternoon, it’s still light outside i don’t need it n-“

“shhh. it’s nappy time now y/n be quiet.”

never complains about it or makes fun of you again <3

[princess-of-inarizaki]

Hi love, pretty sure you're requests are open (if not just ignore this) n e ways what about Inarizaki with manager who's like intimidating (i've been told i am intimidating lol) and very sarcastic, much Tsukishima Kei vibez cuz that's basically me😃

Just like how would our boys react, very curious and take your time btw don't have to rush it, do it whenever you feel like :D

Oh my gosh Nat, it's literally my honour to write this for you. You can request anything, anytime, and you'll be a top priority (ily<3)

Inarizaki with a tsukkishima-ish manager.

Specially dedicated to @sunasthing <3

So first of all, if you think that's gonna stop the boys from simping over you, you've got it wrong 😖🖐️

The boys would literally take it as a challenge to get your softer nature out, especially Atsumu.

I GENUINELY think he'd find it really hot whenever you snap back at him, or tell him off. (maybe he's like Nishinoya and Tanaka in that sense 🙄)

Constantly pesters you, and although you don't give him a reply often (because he's annoying as fuck), if you ever acknowledge him slightly, he WILL flirt with you.

Beware tho, even if he comes off as flirty and charismatic, he's literally just a dorky small baby and genuinely wants your attention because he thinks you're the coolest person ever.

And if you're ever nice to him, you can best bet he'll replay that moment in his mind before sleeping EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT.

Y/n, earlier that day: don't get hurt. I don't want to have to deal with anyone on this team being injured

Atsumu at 3 a.m: s-she cares about me 🥺🥺

I think Osamu would vibe really well with you. He's not annoying, he's really really chill, and he has a pretty sharp tongue himself.

Judges people as an attempt to make you laugh, and he sees it as a personal victory if he can get you to crack a smile or smirk. He just doesn't make a big deal about it, unlike his twin xD

Osamu: y/n look at that guy. he's totally crushing on his brother's best friend, could he not be more obvious about it??

Y/n: *cracks a smirk* yeah, it does seem so.

Osamu, internally: ✨v i c t o r y i s s w e e t✨

He also cooks for you pretty often, and even if you protest against accepting it, you'll usually find a bento hidden in your locker or bag.

He knows you might not accept it straight, so he finds other ways to get it to you. Osamu actually thinks of you as a cooler sister that he says "he'd trade Atsumu for"

In general, the twins are the life of Inarizaki and although they're sometimes annoying, they mean well and it's plain to see that they love you.

Kita loves how smart and analytical you are. I've said this before, I'll say it again— Kita thinks brains are sexy 😤

Especially when you call the team to give your insights about their opponents, or give them ideas on how to improve their play, Kita is literally there like “I'm so glad she's ours”

Because you would be a dangerous asset to other teams, and Kita is the most thankful that you're with them.

He's also a really good leader and although the two of you don't have heart-to-hearts or conversations like the twins, you know he'll ALWAYS be there for you.

Like once, it was raining and practice was cancelled, so you decided to wait in school until the rain subsided (because you didn't want to get wet), and our sweet Kita searched for you in every single classroom until the finally found you and walked you home. That's just the dynamic you had with him

He also often checks up on you, even when it's unrelated to volleyball. Have you done your homework? have you ate breakfast this morning? although you're usually sarcastic with the twins and most of the other members of the team, you can't bring yourself to do so with Kita.

The respect you guys have for each other is unmatched and that's probably why you're such a golden duo in Inarizaki. The leader and the analytical manager.

And now Suna. I think Suna would be the member you have the deepest bond with. you truly allow him to see who you are inside, and he does the same. You guys really just click.

It started with him complaining about Atsumu, and slowly progressed into you letting Suna be the only member to have physical contact with you, but only when the others aren't looking.

Sometimes, if you guys are the only two people in the gym, he'll nap on your lap or lean on your shoulder.

If you didn't already know, like everyone else in Inarizaki, he has a crush on you 😖🖐️ like damn you thought Atsumu had it bad? nah, Suna has it the worst.

He literally asks his little sister to let him practice braiding her hair, just so he'll be perfect when he someday asks to do yours.

But he always chickens out because he's scared you'll say no 😭😭 he's internally very shy, okay? 🥺🥺

He's literally your best friend. You guys have study sessions together, anime nights, literally anything, he's right there with you. The rest of the team are literally not aware of how close the two of you are.

Until one day, Atsumu tries daring you to kiss Suna on the forehead, and instead of flat-out refusing (like you've done before when he's dared you to kiss him, or Akagi) you shrug and gently kiss Suna on the forehead, causing Suna to smile and ruffle your hair.

The rest of the team is just shocked.

Atsumu: what is this FUCKERY?? is y/n literally WILLINGLY touching someone ??¿¿

Y/n and Suna: *smirks*

Atsumu, close to tears: okay

But the rest of the team soon accept you and Suna have a pretty special bond, and that you're genuinely softer when it comes to him.

You don't snap at him much, and as they've noticed, Suna has started being more brave about leaning on your shoulder or sleeping on your lap.

Of course, the rest of the team (with the exception of Kita) is jealous. But hey, they just don't have Suna's charm, okay? xD

You make Suna want to try harder, and he's way more motivated to give it his all in every single game. Mostly because he wants you to be proud of him.

He definitely has a nickname for you, but he will only use it when he's sure you guys are alone. And in return, you call him "Rin" which makes his heart flutter 🥺🥺

KAHDKSS I TOOK SO LONG WITH THE SUNA ONE PLEASE IM TURNING BOTH OF US INTO EVEN BIGGER SUNA SIMPS (as if we weren't already xD)

Now onto Aran !! Aran is a softie who (like Kita) respects you a great deal. He'll fend Atsumu and Osamu off if he senses you aren't having a great day.

He's also pretty good at giving you your space but he checks up on you every once in a while if anyone is bothering you.

Although he's shy about it, Aran actually comes to you when he doesn't understand a homework question. You're super smart and he knows you won't make him feel bad about not knowing.

And it makes you feel happy to know he trusts you, so you help him as best as you can. It's a little secret of yours that the other members don't know about.

It especially lights your day up when he gets a good grade and whispers a silent "thank you" to you in class.

In return, will help you with anything you ask for. No questions asked.

And now, last but not least, sunshine Akagi!! I think he's a total Hinata Shoyo, so he might annoy you a bit at first because of his bright personality.

But deep down inside, you love how easily he gets people to smile and slowly find yourself warming up to him.

And Akagi is really determined to get you to smile (at least once a day) so he cracks the corniest jokes or makes puns.

It has become a thing between the two of you, where Akagi tells you a joke a day, and you rate it out of ten.

Gone are the days when you found him annoying. And now, even if you won't tell him outright— you really do think he's one of the brightest people in your life.

Additional headcanons

CHEERING YOU UP— whenever you feel quieter than usual, or a bit more sarcastic, the boys immediately know something is wrong and rush over to make you feel okay. Literally, it's almost like they've abandoned practice. And eventhough you tell them to get back to it, they refuse to leave until you're feeling better. Suna usually gives you a hug and kisses your forehead, whilst Akagi cracks jokes. Then, (and eventhough you protest) Atsumu lists off all the things you should love about yourself, whilst Osamu buys you ice cream (food is, after all, the best cure for anything). Aran is literally ready to HUNT the person who affected your mood down, and kill them, whilst Kita is literally just holding him back and making sure things don't go overboard. Even if you aren't fully cheered up by then, you'd have laughed a whole lot and know how much they care for you, so honestly... how could you stay sad?

REACTING TO YOU TELLING THEM OFF— Suna is literally just meh about it. He can't take you seriously because he's a dork who thinks he's not included in the list of "idiots" (but no Suna, u mf, you ARE included -_-). Atsumu thinks it's hot 👀 (as I mentioned above), Akagi is genuinely upset/ready to sob and vows to do better. Kita is proud of you for telling them off before he could do it (Kita is not included in the "idiots". How could he? he's PERFECT 🖐️). Osamu and Aran have similar reactions, because they end up apologizing and try to change tactics and do better.

HOW THEY'D ACT WHEN YOU START DATING SUNA— (because this is honestly inevitable, wbk 😭❤️). Atsumu would be jealous. Petty and would call Suna "pretty boy" every chance he gets. Leave him, im sure he'll get over it 🥺🥺 Osamu is pretty jealous too, but he'll never show it and focuses instead on your happiness. Kita approves, and honestly thinks you're a good influence on Suna. Aran is protective of you, and would literally gun Suna down if he ever hurt you (but he won't. Suna loves you, he'd literally jump down a cliff before ever hurting you 😤🖐️) and Akagi is cheerful as before, but extra glad because you seem to smile a bit more often (and Akagi loves your smile).

I took a lot of effort on this <3 hope you like it, bae !! Taglist— @dai-tsukki-desu @sunasthing @k-sakusa-old @tilli-san

[chas111291]

She was my best friend, my hero, my mom.

SATURDAY JULY 24th exactly two weeks ago from today. I wake up to a hot southern sunny day like any other day I call my mother like every morning to tell her I'm stopping by before arriving to work later that evening she tells me okay and that she loved me she was going to lay down for a short nap I'm sitting with my wife while lacing my boots my for work getting ready to head out I get a phone call from my aunt (moms sister) she's frantic screams yours moms not breathing my heart took a nose dive straight to the pit of my stomach I scream to call 911 and don’t stop CPR boots still half way laced me and wife hop in our she only lives bout 3 mins up the road from me so I high tail over there the ambulance was pulling her out while continuing cpr they say headed to the hospital follow us and side note the cop that pulled me off to the side to mention “its a good sign they are taking her to the hospital” I mean sure he meant well but fuck false hope right now I got to get to my mom. So me the wife and my aunt arrive at the hospital in record time we mask up rush in and get the info from them we are told to wait outside we comply. No more than two minutes later a lady comes out no in uniform just a hospital staff badge I knew it wasn’t long she was back there for them to have news already I knew the news was going to be bad. I grabbed my aunt's hand and ushered our way thru the doors. I tell her to say it just say it tell me to my surprise the lady started tearing up before I could react the doctors now come out to tell me Hes sorry for my lose and that they did everything they could in the tiny what 5 mins they had her whatever sure thank you anyways he confirms and what seems like a bad dream everything's falling away from me all around I lose all feeling in my legs brace my back against the cold hospital wall and slowly collapse. My wife lets out a noise of heartbreak and my aunt is I think in shock? They tell me to come tell her goodbye or do our last goodbye whatever I couldn’t physically walk into the room the confusion the questions the agony why is this happening I was coming to see u mom what happen? I went into the room I found the strength somewhere God only knows I sit there with her with my back turned I couldn’t bare to look at her my heart was completely broken. People say heartbreak sometimes hurts physically and I never could relate but they day I understood I got it that day it hurt like hell. Meanwhile my aunt gets a phone call. I'm the youngest (29) out of moms two girls my sister (34) calls and the worse time possible on speaker I head the operator say the usual automated voice recording “ you have a collect call from an inmate at the correctionally blah blah blah my siters been in prison for the past few years old fines recovering addict she's turned her life around me and mom were so proud of all she has accomplished and the changes she had made thus far release date was august 16th so close, eh? It angered me to my soul my mom had been looking forward to that day for a while she was so close I just was anger I was anger at god I was anger at the doctors I was anger at the world anyways my aunt tells her what's happening and she falls silent for what seem like forever and replied with you're lying and messing me stop don’t I cried for her I knew it was going to break my sister she had always feared something would happen while she was away putting her past behind her I just never really thought it would happen anyways she talks to my aunt my wife comes to my side tells me to kiss my mom bye and tell her that I loved her I sit there staring into what seem like nothing then I thought back to just a day ago me and mom had a conversation on her front porch swing and every time I was stressed or just needing advice my mom would reassure me I was okay the best advice I could ever receive and she ended that convo that day like always a hug and I saying she always said to me “you got this” with a smile so back to the hospital room I stood up gave my wife a half grin put  my shoulders back and stood tall kissed my mom's forehead and whisper near her “i got this” and left. That was the worse day of my life I lost my dad back in 2015 I took it pretty hard but this felt different my mom taught me everything I know how to brush my hair how to tuck my baby dolls in as a child I felt emptiness and confusion. She was just fine I never would have thought I would've been there that day going thru the suddenness of everything happening. Honestly the death of my mom and how sudden it was without no warning no nothing has been the hardest part for me emotionally and mental. My dad always taught his two girls work hard for what you got and appreciate it especially the small things don’t take shit from no one and make a good life for self. I work a trucking job my wife works for a nonprofit animal clinic for helping animals. We’ve moved back to my hometown state Mississippi from her home state California talk about a culture shock for her moving here btw lol she's amazing shout out to Tumblr btw for giving us that chance of our paths meeting and finding a love in one another. Okay back to the story I've always worked hard it hasn’t been easy it hasn't been good day after good I've seen some real bad days and vice versa I've never used a GoFundMe hell I didn’t even really know what it was until my wife explained it to me. I live pay check to pay check but I got everything I could ever ask for and a lovely home to come home to. I was just completely blown away when the funeral home gave me a final price I cried and I cried some more I didn't know what I was going to do my sister wasn’t exactly in a big way to help until the 16th when she was released. So I'm taking my time out of today to tell the story of the worst day of my life my best friend my mother my hero and the day I lost her forever. If you still have your parents believe let them hug you even longer than they already, do I'm lost and I'm asking for just the smallest donation of whatever anything will help at the point and I'm already up about $800 out of $4000 for the total cost of putting my mother to rest she wanted to cremated so on the day my sisters get out Aug. 16th is the day I have arranged for her funeral and all services that I got the quote for because I'll be damned, I was letting her miss that. Thank you. I will link my GoFundMe and even if I don’t get anything thank you for taking the time to read and allowing me to open up and talk about it. God knows it's going to be a long hard journey, but hey I GOT THIS.

.https://gofund.me/3f0a19e5 <--- link for donations. thank you.

[kortsitron]

Hardest mission

Relationships: Steve Rogers × Male! Reader { Platonic }

AU: None

Warnings: Agnst, Hurt/Comfort, Mention of death

BTW: Please imagine in your hero suit something that would hide your face/part of face ( example - Bucky's mask from Captain America: The Winter Soldier )

Summary: You had the worst mission in his life and after it you have a mental breakdown. Steve finds out that you're not okay and tries to cheer you up.

[A/N]

I decided to try and make new "introducing to oneshot template". It might change pretty quickly, so don't be surprised. And please don't judge names, I had no idea which names I should choose XD

Enjoy! 💞

"What do you think you were doing!?" (H/n) yelled, standing in the middle of the hospital room, at afternoon. He was with his two cousins: Andrew and Casey. Both of them, got hurted while (Y/N) was on his mission. "Just because you found that I'm (h/n), don't means that you can go and watch me doing my job! What could happen if he saw you? He could kill you!" (Y/N) frowned and sat down trying to calm his nerves.

"We didn't mean to bother you." Casey said a they looked down embarrassed. "You're a hero, it's hard not to watch you fight." (Y/N) sighed irritated.

"Don't be mad, it's going to be the last time." Andrew added, not understanding seriousness of the situation. "We only got a few cuts. Everything is fine." He said as he sat back.

"It's have to be the last time. I don't want to see you near me while I'm fighting." Male stood up and went to the went then opened it. "Your parents will be here soon and you're going to tell them what happened." He groaned before jumping out of the window, running to the Avengers Tower. After a few minutes, (h/n) finally arrived and took of the mask from his face. The first person he meet was James Buchanan Barnes.

"'Sup (N/N). How was the mission?" Bucky greeted a male with smile on his face. (Y/N) glanced at him and rolled his eyes.

"It was umm... Fine I guess." He answered and crossed his arms.

"If you're in the mood you can go with me to spend some time with others. It's movie night." He chuckled.

"I won't go. I'm exhausted, I would to take a bath and spend some time alone." James nodded.

"Alright. Have a good night, pal." He said as he went to the other, while (Y/N) went to his room. When the door automatically closed behind him, he sat on the floor and begun to sob. The mission, thinking about death of people he cared about broke him instantly. His cousin and their parents were the only people that he had a contract with.

(Y/N)'s parents died around 8 years ago and after that his uncle and aunt took care of him. Because of the fact the grew up with his cousin, he became really protective when it came to them.

(Y/N) was extremely afraid of losing them.

After his cousins accidentally found out that he is (h/n), everything changed. Whenever they saw him in action, they could stop themselves from trying to came as close as it was possible to place of the fight. It was dangerous and it made (Y/N) afraid that something can happen to them. He just couldn't imagine Andrew and Casey being in hospital, fighting for their lives.

Male continued to cry, as he tries to mute himself by putting his hand on his lips. He didn't needed avengers to ask what happened. He didn't wanted to talk about how stressed he was sometimes. He thought it was okay. Keeping things to himself was fine in his opinion, even if he sometimes had enough.

(Y/N) went to the the bed, laid on it and glanced at the ceiling, letting the tears go down his red cheeks.

As the night went, after an 3 hours that (Y/N) in his room, taking a few naps and crying, he felt like going out of his room.

He changed from his suit to shirt and shorts. He made his way to kitchen to get some water. Male hoped that no one is going to meet him. He looked terrible and felt terrible.

Nobody was there at the moment. (Y/N) sighed happily and took a glass. As soon as he took it, the light was on and hit his eyes.

"Shit!" He murmured, rubbing his eyes, trying to adjust them to light.

"Language, (L/N)." The voice chuckled, watching (Y/N)'s movement. "Thought you're going to join sooner or earlier, but it looks like I was wrong." Blond haired male smiled.

"Didn't felt like it." He looked at Steve with puffy eyes. "Please don't ask, I'm fine, alright?"

"So this is the reason? Let me guess, last mission?" Steve rised his brow and crossed his arms, waiting for the answer. (Y/N) looked down and sat on the table.

"(Y/N), look at me and tell what is going on." He rested his hand against the table, taping with fingertips. (Y/N) begun to break.

"Alright. My cousins found out that I'm (h/n) and on the last mission they got injured a little bit. It's not the first time and I'm scared that something can happen to them." His voice broke a few times while talking and his eyes teared up. "I can't lose them." He whispered and sighed.

Steve sat in front of him, put his fingers under his chin to make him look into his perfect blue eyes. "Why didn't you say anything?"

"Why would I bother you?" Soldier shaked his head. "I-I mean, you have other things to do."

"I might have other things to do, but if I can help you with your problems, I would love to do that." He took (Y/N)'s hand and caressed it with his thumb. "You need a break."

"I guess I do." (Y/N) stood up, and looked at Steve, embarrassed. "Steve, wanna um... cuddle?" Steve chuckled and stood up as well.

"Of course."

[elysicndrcvm]

━♡ guess the 23 YEAR OLD FEBRUARY baby just arrived to dallyeog! it makes sense, because CHU EUNHA is just as BEDAZZLING as the month of FEBRUARY. wait, why do they remind me of JACOB BAE? beyond that, they seemed JOYOUS and SAVVY upon first glance. i heard someone say they’re sort of DELICATE and QUIXOTIC though. i hope they get acquainted here in COMPLEX 1 / APARTMENT 0215 / FLOOR 3 ; HE seem(s) to have a lot going on with HIS job as a PATISSERIE OWNER/NUTRITIONAL SCIENCE STUDENT. ( ez, 21, she/they, gmt. )

     well hey there !! im ez but you fellow dallyeogers can call me ezzy, i have been in dallyeog before so some may remember me as having someone v different to my new bb i bring u now, i joined before with miss tam carmen !! anygays i return with this lil angel who i am all ‘ i say that’s my baby and i’m proud ’ over already even tho i literally came up with him like two days ago. you can find his pinboard here ( which btw i fuckeN love like he’s so aesthetic to me u go king ) and i made him a lil playlist which u can vibe to here. you can learn more about him under the cut but he’s a super soft-hearted gentle dove of a muse and quite...simple for me ?? sdhdh that’s not the right wording but U GET IT djjflg he isn’t super full of angst or trauma he’s just kinda viBIN livin his best life so that’s fun !! but ye without further ado: 

so as u kno from his app he owns a patisserie, it’s his lil babey and he is very dedicated to his craft and makin sure all his ideas for the place and the baked goods he sells are like rlly quirky and avant-garde. like he is so passionate about it u dont even KNOW, he tries to make sure most of the stuff on his menu is something like fun and new u wouldn’t get at just any old patisserie or cafe and that it’s super varied and also kinda aesthetic af? the place is very like trendy. it’s called patisserie d’elysian cause ya know he’s an extra biTCHH and proud.

he has three pupperino’s. all as adorable as each other, snickerdoodle is his golden lab and often ppl shorten it down to snickers, butterscotch is his dapple daschund pup, shortens the name to scotchie often. toulouse is his fancy toy poodle boi, shortens the name down as toto. if u are on the shortened name basis with his pups then u can consider urself one of his close pals. 

he’s actually adopted by his aunt but she raised him like she was his mother so that is what he considers her, she’s on his mother’s side but they are half-siblings. in terms of first name reasoning as well she just liked eunha as a name and didn’t even think about how it is traditionally for a female, she liked that it meant gift from heaven so it stuck. his father is still around, he’s just quite elderly so it felt like a better living situation for him to be raised primarily by his auntie. unfortunately his mother has passed on but no tragic story, she just went peacefully in old age. 

he dyes his hair quite often, it’s currently like a really pastel blue with black streaks consistently throughout like lil ones so it looks super cool. but he’s also had it be a more electric blue, lilac, and a duck egg kinda faded silvery blue. it’s naturally dark brunette. has brown eyes kind of a hazel hue. 

his style is kinda androgynous ig?? he just lives for soft retro fashion, lots of color in his wardrobe but also lots of tapered short and t-shirt fits frequented, sweater vests, rolled up jeans, high skater boi socks, soft jumpers with shirts, shirts in bright colours or satiny texture worn over plain white t-shirts, cardigans, pastel denim jackets, jeans with printed patterns on like clouds, flowers etc, favors yellow and blues. sometimes does eye makeup, occasionally wears heels bc he’s a baddie or super heeled boots/chunky shoes. 

obsessed with music, can play violin and guitar. he’s a big mitski and rina sawayama fanatic, likes anything that sounds peaceful or calming or has like a good fun vibe to it. also likes the trademark gay icons like carly rae jepsen, lorde, etc. he’s not ashamed. obsessed with mamma mia movies. but also likes rap which is rlly funny cause its like the bad bitch female rappers only and like he’ll listen to it while arranging his sock drawer or making his bed or something ajdjdj it’s like hype anthems for being a baddie and a hoe and he’s just doing his night sleepy routine adkfkf. 

showers, blankets, music, baked goods especially bagels are his happy places. 

very much a sensitive lil romanticist, falls in ‘love’ like five times a day, he just likes to giggle and smile around pretty people and admire the artwork hnghdh, he’s like yeARNS though ya know?? like he’s all i will flirt by making prolonged eye contact, i made you a playlist, this song makes me think of you etc. it’s either memes as flirting with him or elaborate love letters u never know what ur gonna get akdkd. 

awful sense of humour, loves his friends more than anything on earth except his pups, would fully live in a huge house of just like his pups and all his closest buds for all eternity. likes fruits way too much, enjoys puns about fruits way too much. milkshakes, sushi, orange hues and bus rides are some of his absolute favorite simple pleasures of life. clouds, flowers, salt lamps, the sunrise over the sea, skateboarding, fresh soda, teddy bears, busy street markets, parasols, fish tanks with exotic fish, sorbet, bike riding, polaroids, record players, rain at night against floor to ceiling windows with a fresh steaming pot of tea on the desk beside it and warm fresh sheets from the laundry on his bed, ponds, skateboarding. all little joys in life that give him like the biggest pleasure dopamine hit in the world. 

his cousin actually owns a florists so he has flowers just littering his apartment like a lot and it just looks like he has ten million suitors from the late eighteenth century attempting to court him but no all these flowers are from him to him or worse from his aunt djfjg she sends him some for valentines every valentines, pls help him, pls send him flowers. 

studies nutritional science and he fucken hates it. do not ask him shit cause he doesn’t KNOW OKAY? he doesn’t understand it either. he took it because he needed something to go alongside the passion for baking that was a real ‘qualification’/job so that is the only reason he’s doing it. no point doing a baking degree after all when he’s already a baker with a business, he’s super young still he gotta keep his prospects open. so YAH. he’d rather be doing culinary arts but eh. nutritional science sounded better and more logic based. the real miracle is he still gets top grades all the time even tho he spends his life like wtf am i even doing is this even legit akdkdk. school is the worst thing in the world for him watch his mood instantly deflate the second its brought up. 

despite being a quixotic, he’s a lil afraid of intimacy. like oh god does he love it, those small touches and acts of affection u kno? the subtle things that normally go unnoticed, eye contact, brushing of hands, linking of little fingers, rubbing a thumb, kissing eyelids or foreheads or palms or shoulders in little gentle pecks, back massages and rubs or finger tracing patterns absent-minded, shoulder massages, laying your head on someone’s shoulder or on their lap, knocking knees together, exchanging a small glance only the two of you get before bursting into laughter, smiling into kisses, napping together, having blankets placed over you warm and fresh, or towels put ready like it, someone making you something they know you like a lot. that’s his sHIT. but like he’s terrified still, someone skimming their fingers on his skin makes his breath hitch like he’s a scandalized and alarmingly aroused victorian woman sjdjd. he’s literally still a virgin, he hasn’t even had his first kiss okay my baby is delicate be gentle with him akdkd but he still LIKES PASSION AIGHT kfkf. 

real soft spoken, honey tinted voice like i shit u not this boy talks like he’s an angel sent from heavens above to guide you to the paradisaical garden of eden or some shit akdkd. ur gonna fall in love with eunha’s voice before u even fall in love with any other part of him like his adorable beaming smile or stunning eyes akdkf. 

has dance parties around his room when getting ready in the morning, listens to bella’s lullaby unironically yes from twilight yes u heard right, bit of a himbo streak sometimes in his obliviousness djfjf. quite silently subtly funny actually much like jacob himself. 

he is gay, afraid of driving, cannot do math, blanks out often and he is valid for all of those things. has a collection of cartoon and disney animal movie dvds. has a dream notebook. always has blue painted nails in some kinda shade. 

does not enjoy turning in assignments bc he is scared he’ll fail, avoids looking at his grades for weeks after they’re released and hates knowing that they’re out. 

cannot dance, dances often. collects vintage stuff esp clothes and mostly sweaters. likes midnight trips to corner stores and fields where he can just lay and look at the stars. makes friends rlly easily but has super bad performance anxiety. cannot ever have a messy room like even the tiniest bit messy. even like clothes being stacked on a chair instead of away. 

bakes peanut butter, banana and choc chip muffins (they r called monkey bites normally) whenever he’s super stressed. if u want to cheer him up when he’s anxious or stressed then u should give him french lavender honey, chia seeds and caramelized pear on toast/bagel. it is his comfort food. he fancii when he needs a pick me up. treat urself and all that. 

[1zashreena1]

Quarantine- New Ranch Flavor! -5

18+, m/f, technically OCxDiego Jimenez [Power]

Summary: Princess is stranded in NYC with her Murder Panther for the duration of the quarantine. As a high risk patient she has no choice but to isolate as much as possible. Simulated domesticity ensues. Princess texts a running commentary to her bff Lisa.

WARNINGS: Ridiculous descriptions and ‘the code is more like guidelines’ outlook on grammar. Is it OOC if the character was given essentially zero development in canon???

No actual smut, nasty ass snack foods, plus size insecurity, unprotected sex, feels are icky, plus size woman+fit man, bad boys with too much money and not enough impulse control, secondary OCs, excessive swearing (???), illegal business dealings… I mean, its DIEGO

A/N: Princess took on a life of her own and has essentially become an OC. There are infrequent mentions of her description (specifically as plus size) and her actual name in later pieces (its Bicki). She started as self-insert so she looks like me (plus size, white, short, blue eyes, curly hair). If that is not your thing, I totally understand. And do not feel obligated to read this, I will not be offended!

I’m not a fan of “plot” so be aware that most of this series is just meandering through their relationship, angst-fluff-smut whiplash style. But with dick jokes.

TAGLIST: @chelsfic​ @symbiont13​ @nicke0115​ @bunnykjm​ @rosee-sensuelle​ @girlpornparadise​ @mandoplease​ @heresathreebee​ @xxsteph-enrixx​ @jetiikad​ @joalsglasses​ @mutantcookiesecrets​ @demoncatstone​ @squidlywiddly87​

Please let me know if you would like to be tagged.

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Thursday 11:22am

From Princess

Day 1 and I literally have an ice pack on my pussy and

Hold on he’s not wearing pants again gtg

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Friday 9:49am

From Princess

Video chatting with sister when Diego walks past in the background… shirtless.

She put her phone down (my entire screen was just ceiling) and I could hear her crying. Hung up after 10 min

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Friday 10:14pm

From Princess

He sucks ass at Jenga and its adorable

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Saturday 11:49am

From Princess

I was provided a to-do list for the day.

It's just his name

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Sunday 1:32pm

From Princess

We have sorted every liquid in the penthouse into 2 categories:

Potential Lube

Definitely Not Lube

Except we’re arguing about ranch dressing

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Sunday 2:17pm

From Princess

Update: Ranch went into the Not Lube category because it “smells nasty when it gets warm” This fact was previously unknown to me and I was afraid to ask for more details

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Monday 8:40am

From Princess

Morning announcements include the fact that 8:37 is the earliest he has ever gotten up

I’m worried about losing my job. Diego advises me to apply to Dyson because I “never lose suction”

Am I offended or proud of myself?  It’s not even 9am

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Tuesday 1:12am

From Princess

This is the most weed I have ever consumed in my life (I know, not a high bar) Why is he hanging upside down off the couch making motorboat noises??

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Tuesday 1:14am

From Princess

Ahh. He was composing a poem about my tits

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Tuesday 2:49am

From Princess

The railing up the stairs to the bedroom does not in fact support my weight. Pole dance competition is OFF

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Tuesday 2:57am

From Princess

You know that thing you do with my bras? Where you put it on like a headband and it makes mickey mouse ears?

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Wednesday 11:17am

From Princess

Julio required to give 10 min warning prior to arrival so Diego can take off his pants

Yes you read that right

Freak

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Wednesday 11:19am

From Princess

Yes you do so know who Julio is. Big, round, only wears ivory/eggshell/off white/ThisIsMy 2ndWedding  colored blazers. Jeez Lisa you're not old enough for dementia yet girl

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Wednesday 12:52pm

From Princess

I have played myself. Just ate an entire cheesesteak while being a cockwarmer

Turns out I’m the freak

Julio present and accounted for

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Thursday 9:37am

From Princess

He’s crunching  a bowl of something via spoon. I ask what it is. Crushed cheez-its and mayonnaise. What in the actual fuck this man is a literal monster

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Thursday 12:10pm

From Princess

Edible body paint works on windows. Had to sit on his shoulders but this is the largest ‘FUCK’ I have ever written. Very proud

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Thursday 12:22pm

From Princess

Bottom half of the ‘C’ has transferred onto my ass. But 7 orgasms. Pick your battles

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Thursday 11:47pm

From Princess

Tried a pickled habanero. He’s still face down in the rug crying with laughter. It’s been 10 min dude come on

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Friday 10:12am

From Princess

Me: Why are you so heavy?

Diego: I keep eating you

Me: High five

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Friday 3:17pm

From Princess

He’s trying to “conduct business” via 3 cellphones. Would offer my tablet but I’m too pretty for prison. Gonna take a nap

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Friday 4:41pm

From Princess

Pants are forbidden in the bedroom. We’re just making the rules up as we go I see

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Saturday 9:59am

From Princess

He’s sitting in the corner of the window walls staring dejectedly outside. I hear the tiniest forlorn whisper “THOSE people are outside”

Too cute--must blow---BRB

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Saturday 1:32pm

From Princess

Angry texting. Muttering “No I can’t go outside and no you can’t come in here. Bitch…. No no, delete delete delete”

Me:  Where is your sister anyway? LA?

Him: Very Squinty Eyes

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Saturday 9:22pm

From Princess

My ass is stuck in the kitchen sink. While he was very helpful getting me in here he is of no assistance getting me out.

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Saturday 11:46pm

From Princess

Apparently ‘douchecanoe twatwaffle jerkface’ is the most hilarious insult he has ever heard. My brilliance is unparalleled

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Sunday 5:51am

From Princess

Me: Hey what’s the worst thing you’ve ever put in your mouth?

Him outrageously offended: I’m not answering that!

Him:  ... you first

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Sunday 7:12pm

From Princess

Is it a legit massage if he has to pause in the middle to jack off?

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Monday 11:06am

From Princess

Ordered groceries via Amazon Prime drone delivery. Sitting on the rooftop patio wrapped up together in a ginormous blankie waiting.

Does this count as a date?

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Monday 1:13pm

From Princess

Drone arrived. I lost my shit. Coolest thing ever. He’s frantically ordering more stuff because I haven’t looked this ecstatic since the time he rubbed my feet then went down on me for 2 hrs

Hold up change of plans

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Monday 2:28pm

From Princess

stubble burn on bottom of feet :-/

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Monday 6:44pm

From Princess

We can both fit in the jacuzzi tub. Almost drowned when his phone rang and we both spazzed out

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Tuesday 10:10am

From Princess

Today’s formal edict: He will only be referring to himself in the 3rd person. I am required to do as told. Should not be this turned on

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Tuesday 11:58am

From Princess

Watching him try to answer calls like this is a level of hilarity I could not have predicted

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Tuesday 1:53pm

From Princess

He gave me a crash course in chem. Still don’t know anything but it was hot as hell

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Tuesday 2:57pm

From Princess

Despite all evidence to the contrary I’m a Good Girl. Did as I was told. Got rewarded. 13 times

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Tuesday 5:33pm

From Princess

Unlocked a tiny piece of tragic backstory*™: He’s never been to a zoo   :-(

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Wednesday 11:24am

From Princess

Julio and Bastian brought 4 pizzas. Currently eating them individually sitting in a giant square in the living room SOCIAL DISTANCING

Like he wasn’t inside me 10 min ago wtf

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Wednesday 11:25am

From Princess

Yes cute driver Bastian. Btw you are barking up the wrong tree girl. His favorite animal is bears lol

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Wednesday 12:39pm

From Princess

Garlic butter: lube or no? Round table discussion happening.

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Wednesday 1:19pm

From Princess

I won in favor of No

Me: slams hands down on table

Me: HAVE YOU EVER HAD A YEAST INFECTION???

All men present:   :-[

                             :-[

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Wednesday 1:32pm

From Princess

Diego: puts garlic butter cup in the empty box and slides the whole mess off table to the floor without breaking eye contact. My sugar daddy is truly a murder panther

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Wednesday 3:49pm

From Princess

Flipping channels (he only has 5000) when he comes downstairs from the bedroom wearing Ginormous Blankie as cape.

Him: Can we do the thing again?

Me: Gotta be way more specific babe

Him: Flaps blankie like wings and gives me puppy dog eyes

Him: You know. Thing. On the roof. ...please?

Did

Did he just ask me to cuddle???

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Wednesday 5:58pm

From Princess

Can confirm roof cuddles.  He fell asleep with his face mashed into my neck-shoulder after watching sunset. Every time I move he whimpers and squeezes tighter. I don't know what is happening but it kinda hurts in my chest

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Wednesday 9:12pm

From Princess

Me: You know those girls you send away when I come up? There's one that sorta begrudgingly likes me?

Him, stuffing a 2nd Oreo into his mouth(there's already a whole 1 in there)

Him: Frahnthessga?

Me: Yeah! Can I fuck her?

….I should worry about my job again pretty sure Murder Panther Sugar Daddy is dead

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Wednesday 10:48pm

From Princess

We splintered the plexiglass-divider-shower-wall thingy. His solution was to just hold all 215lbs of me up in the air and finish. I have no words

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Thursday 4:12am

From Princess

I can hear him on the phone downstairs listing names. I don't know these people. I'm going in the bathroom to run water so I can't hear anything else

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Thursday 9:02am

From Princess

I slept thru a breakfast meeting. There's a laptop  and a box of 1 doz Boston cream donuts labeled PRINCESS on the bar counter. He's watching news with Julio + Bastian on the couch. Odd but ok I got fave donuts so whatevs

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Thursday 9:17am

From Princess

On 3rd donut when I catch him staring. Can only see from eyes up bc he's peering at me over back of the couch. Have inadvertently activated Horny Murder Panther mode via accidental slutty licking of cream filling. 

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Thursday 11:40am

From Princess

Me: I don't like avocado

Diego: bitch what the fuck 

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Thursday 12:10pm

From Princess

He asked what the deal was with white people and meatloaf. I requested clarification on food or music. He's confused it's fucking adorable

BUT NOW I HAVE TO EXPLAIN THE ENTIRE GENRE OF CLASSIC ROCK

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Thursday 2:14pm

From Princess

I'm making a meatloaf for dinner. Also brownies. TV is still on???

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Thursday 4:24pm

From Princess

Found a big round can of guava paste in the back of the fridge. He's spoon feeding it to me while watching me make meatloaf

Diego: I did not realize you were so… domesticated

Me, no brain to mouth filter: Yeah well gettin dicked down 3x a day will do that to a girl

Please send hitman asap 

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Thursday 5:10pm

From Princess

He just turned TV off. Local news was listing all major crimes in NYC today. Last story was 6 bodies found inside meat plant freezer, execution style kills with "on-site" equipment. When I whisper Dafuq??  he distractedly mutters 'captive bolt pistol'  

He's texting again

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Thursday 5:39pm

From Princess

I kinda wanna come home now

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Thursday 7:48pm

From Princess

I have converted another person to meatloaf lover (food not music)

On 3rd brownie when he declares: I am never letting you leave again. Mine now

Look up from rolling my eyes to receive Super Intense I Can See Into Your Soul Diego Stare

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Thursday 9:50pm

From Princess

He's looking for a scary movie via voice command on remote. Other hand is on my foot. I can't even see my foot. What is the actual purpose of hands that big?? What is the evolutionary goal to this endgame? ?? Why am I wet just thinking about a    h a n d    ?????

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Friday 12:34am

From Princess

Con: This asshole is delighted to learn that I don't like scary movies

Pro: Hiding my face in his chest means I fucking feel the rumble when he laughs at me. I think I'm developing a heart condition. Hurts again.

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Friday 1:40am

From Princess

He's rubbing his face all over my stomach. I don't like this. Sir why. Please it's literally the least attractive part of me

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Friday 2:11am

From Princess

He likes it…? I don't see. How does. But it's.

No

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Friday 3:47am

From Princess

He's asleep on my stomach after spending 40 min declaring his love for belly

I'm crying and I can't stop. My whole chest hurts. What is this. Is this the most long game prank ever. There's no way he's for real. I'm afraid. Do you think I should try to escape?? Please you know I'm not easily frightened but I just. Please text back I need my BFF

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Friday 7:18am

From Princess

Woke up in bed alone and naked. Gonna grab a shirt and handle this. I can't just ignore it. This is probably a bad idea but I can't just let it go. If you don't hear back from me by noon call my parents. I love you

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Friday 11:38am

From Princess

Halfway down the stairs 3 dudes I don't know come out of the office, Diego and Julio follow. They take 1 look at me and launch into laughter and some rude fucking spanish. I'm rusty but I know fucking "fat bitch" tyvm. Diego picks this mf up by the throat and throws him into the elevator. Drags the other 2 in and... no one has come back since

Been locked in the bathroom. I'm afraid to hear anything

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Friday 1:48pm

From Princess

Relocated to closet earlier. Reading. I'm 2 chapters in and I don't even remember the title. Gonna take an ativan. Hands are shaking

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Friday 2:27pm

From Princess

You know what? I don't even care. Like as long as it's never directed at me I just don't care.

It's too late I'm in too deep. I don't know if I can even come home after this. I'm not who everyone thinks I am. I don't know who I am. I'm turning the phone off now I'm sorry but I just need everything to stop for a while

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Friday 7:48pm

From Princess

I'm ok, sorry for the dramatics. Woke up still in the closet corner but under Ginormous Blankie and can hear shower running. Decide it's time to put my big girl panties on and march in there. No I did not learn from the last time. Standby

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Friday 9:22pm

From Princess

We're good.

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Friday 11:49pm

From Princess

Ok. Marched into bathroom, launched into speech: I'm sorry but I did not know anyone was here. You have to leave me a note or something. Please tell me I did not ruin anything

Him, still in shower: Get your ass in here.

It was a literal growl

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Friday 11:50pm

From Princess

Apparently that guy had been fucking up small time and Diego was waiting for him to fuck up big time. I will never see all 3 of them again (No do not ask)Yes it was frustrating but not mad at me. Ok a little because his sister hired that guy and now he has to explain the dude's ...disappearance. Without mentioning me. No one can know about me I am a "liability"

Um ouch..? I think?? Chest pain again

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Friday 11:51pm

From Princess

He's been asleep, I'm just staring at the ceiling. Demanded I let him prove that he would never put hands on me that I don't want. I thought he was gonna cry. I did start crying but said yes. Not gentle per se, but definitely ...emotional? Like soft sex. Slow soft sex but with emotions?? I'm lost

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Friday 11:54pm

From Princess

Please tell me no. Talk me out of this. Tell me I'm fucknuts and I need to just come home and be reasonable and sensible. You know when you stand at a ledge and a little voice tells you Just jump. Do it. Go

Do I want all in? Can I do this? I should not do this. I should not care about him. Especially like this. I just. When I'm not here this is all I think about. No one else makes me feel this way

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Friday 11:56pm

From Princess

I'm hysterical right? This will go away if I just sleep. I can't stop looking at him. Touching his face, hair. Ever since the Kitchen Blowup (after the first fight??is it a fight if you're not technically in a relationship?) he's been different. Careful?? Like he really listened to me and heard. I can see him trying. Like reining in his knee jerk reactions and stopping to think before he says stuff to me. What am I supposed to do?

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Friday 11:59pm

From Princess

I want to trust him. I want to be spoiled and fucked senseless and all the giggles and private planes and shopping sprees and sleeping in til noon. But what about the other side? Constantly looking over my shoulder? Worrying that he might not come home from whatever the fuck he's out doing? The other actual supermodel hot women??? I'm not naive.

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Saturday 12:10am

From Princess

I just need to turn this off. Shut it down. Cut off emotions and just fuck. I can't do this and I can't have him for keeps. So it's time to be realistic. After this shitty quarantine ends I'll take whatever cash he wants to give me and go home. I can move if I have to. It's not hard to change your name these days. This whole nightmare will be the hilarious rumors in my future nursing home

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Saturday 4:44am

From Princess

Got up at like 350 for the bathroom. When I crawled back into bed he yanked me backwards to be smashed into/under him. Buried face into my hair and ordered:

Stop

Leaving

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Saturday 9:10am

From Princess

Woke up alone. Gathered shirt. Did surveillance from top of stairs. Music blasting. Bastian and Diego are working out. I had to sit down for a while

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Saturday 9:40am

From Princess

Finally made it down the stairs. Eating donuts while watching live action porn

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Saturday 10:27am

From Princess

Show's over. Diego announces he is going to shower with a wink. I am staying on this barstool with my donuts. I am determined

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Saturday 10:38am

From Princess

Sharing donuts with Bastian. He is staring at me

Me: ...wut?

Bastian: You know I haven't driven Franchesca anywhere in 4 months

I don't know how long I've been sitting here staring at this half eaten donut but Bastian is gone

Shower still running

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Saturday 1:36pm

From Princess

Slut level 7: Shower blowjob

Realized I have to wash my hair now. He demands to do it??

Diego: How much fucking conditioner is this going to take?

Me drooling blissfully: Uhhh... please not that word right now

...I literally heard Horny Murder Panther transition happen.

He did not touch anything but my head. Came via voice command. How the fuck

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Saturday 1:39pm

From Princess

Then it was Round 2 still dripping wet in the bed. No idea how he recovered that fast not looking gift horse in the mouth.  Haha   Horse

Also slow soft again? Does this mean something?? I feel like I'm missing some key piece of info. Never had a dude like kiss all over my face and stroke my hair. What is this gentle?? Don't like the whole looking into my eyes thing

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Saturday 3:02pm

From Princess

Received an assignment. Was trying to budget for next month (on my new laptop! Whole Microsoft office package!! SPREADSHEETS!!!)

Instructed to help fix what I fucked up…?

It's resumes. He wants me to look at resumes.   Um

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Saturday 4:12pm

From Princess

We traded laptops. I picked 3 resumes for 'warehouse labor'  This is fucking surreal

Got my laptop back and… all the internet tabs were closed?? I was paying all my bills dude wtf. His phone rings but before he walks off tells me the title will be mailed to me. ?????

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Saturday 4:47pm

From Princess

He's still in the office on the phone. I'm in the closet in shock. He paid my loans. He paid my Loans. He Paid My Fucking Loans OFF

CAR

STUDENT LOANS

$$$$$   30,000  $$$$$

THIRTY GRAND

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Saturday 4:52pm

From Princess

No you can't have him if I don't want him!! Fuck you

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Saturday 5:32pm

From Princess

Bastian came back, left a big box on the counter, said "This is for you honey" and left again. Diego still in the office.

...should I open it or wait for him to come out??

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Saturday 5:36pm

From Princess

Fuck it. I'm opening this shit

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Saturday 5:42pm

From Princess

It's a very large Brahmin bag.

Holy fuck its gorgeous 

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Saturday 5:47pm

From Princess

You know what? You Know What?

IT'S KITCHEN BLOWUP 2.0 TIME

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Sunday 8:42am

From Princess

I think we're ok? I actually uh, accidentally recorded um… everything-ish. And I might send it to you later. But right now things are kinda wobbly and I just wanna enjoy everything while I can. I'll check back in later. We're going to bed now

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Sunday 1:58pm

From Princess

Woke up to 1 gigantic hand stroking down my back. 2nd hand stuffed up my pussy to the knuckle. Villain voice directly into left ear. Memory hazy after that

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Sunday 3:01pm

From Princess

Do Oreos in bed at 3pm count as breakfast? My hips hurt

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Sunday 6:40pm

From Princess

Ok we all know I'm very much A Freak. Trysexual if you will. Only way to know you don't like it is to try it right? So anal. Never really worked. Great in theory really unpleasant in practice.

Turns out others were trying to insert the wrong appendage. Related: I fucking love beards

e v e r y w h e r e

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Sunday 10:40pm

From Princess

Yes I know you wanna know about KITCHEN BLOWUP 2.0, someday I'll tell you about v.1. It's complicated. There are feels. I can't take the vague, wishy washy, up in the air status. So it went kinda like this

Me: You want to "keep" me? Wtf does that even mean?? And how, via purchasing me??? Don't get me wrong, I like being spoiled. I'm not an idiot. But you don't even know me

He looked like I stabbed him. It was horrible

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Sunday 10:42pm

From Princess

So I laid it all out: I lived in my car for a while in my 20s. Escaped an abusive ex after 8 yrs. Survived cancer at 26. Did 2 rounds of trade school just to be scraping by at like $15 an hour. That you just paid off like it was nothing. You try to protect me from you and your life. But you have no idea what I've already survived.

So here's the deal: You wanna keep me?? Then I get to keep you.

But it's everything. If I can't have everything then I don't want anything. And if it can't be ONLY me then I gotta go. I'm not a back up plan or a convenience.

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Sunday 10:50pm

From Princess

At this point I'm scream-crying, gesticulating like I'm hysterical. He's collapsed on the floor at my feet looking like I just killed his dog. Only makes me worse. I'm demanding an answer right fucking now. This is a disaster.

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Sunday 10:54pm

From Princess

He starts yelling about how he can't keep me if I'm dead. This isn't a fucking game and I'm just like Do I look like I'm playing right now?!?

Lisa, he was crying. Just kept repeating "She's right. She's fucking right. That bitch is right."

Head in his hands sobbing.

I couldn't. 

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Sunday 10:59pm

From Princess

So I got down on my knees in front of him and reached for his hands. Just like the first blowup. I was terrified because he's obviously not in control and like I don't know the things he does but I Know. And the PTSD from ex… but I finally got him to look at me and asked him to just Tell Me.

And he did.

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Monday 12:04am

From Princess

If you had told me that night in the club that any of this would happen. That this man was capable of everything these past 10 months have brought. I would've taken you to the hospital myself.

He collapsed on me and was just begging me "Don't go don't go. Please stay. Stay just for now. Please. No one else no one."  I have a lot to consider. Probably gonna be quiet for a few days. I'll text you when things calm down. He's asleep on my chest right now

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Monday 12:10am

From Princess

I mean 10 months...how many weekends have I been up here? 12? 16? And only twice did I reach out first and ask. I have stuff here. You saw the closet section. Every time I arrive there's coke and ketchup in the fridge. My face wash and toothbrush and a huge bottle of gel in the bathroom. Last time here he gave me the safe combo???

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Monday 12:14am

From Princess

YES THE SODA JFC

I mean, I've never seen ...other… in the fridge. I don't think it needs to be refrigerated???

I Don't Know Okay

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Monday 6:40am

From Princess

Woke up around 5 and he was just staring at me from like 2 inches away. He left once he realized I was awake. I didn't follow. He still hasn't come back to bed yet. Should I go find him?

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Monday 11:38am

From Princess

Found him on the couch. Coffee table covered in vast array of firearms. Did not realize there were so many in this penthouse. Little uncomfortable. But I'm a fast learner with good mechanical skills so now I can do gun stuff. Please don't ask me about it

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Monday 11:41am

From Princess

Ok yesss. We had the stupid movie cliche moment of big tough guy stands behind damsel to teach some physical skill. Gawd.

...yeah doing it feels better than watching. You happy now???

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Monday 2:28pm

From Princess

Mood swing. He declared vengeance on behalf of his closet. I have worn too many shirts. This cannot continue. ????? Stay tuned

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Monday 2:59pm

From Princess

This man runs the largest distribution enterprise in the western hemisphere.

Currently stuck in one of my $6 tank tops from Target. 

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Monday 4:17pm

From Princess

I'm out a tank top. And a thong. Go ahead and just think about that

...But I'm still wearing one of his shirts :-D

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Monday 5:48pm

From Princess

Instead of admitting defeat he decided to forcibly remove the shirt from me. Since I have to be difficult, I ran. If this place wasn't soundproof there would be so many police here.

What level of fucked up is it to enjoy screaming No!, while struggling, not less than 3 sec prior to orgasm??

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Monday 5:52pm

From Princess

The scale only goes to 10. You don't gotta be a bitch. Damn

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Monday 8:17pm

From Princess

14 days will be up this Thursday. But they're talking about extending it, really bad here. I'm scared. Gonna try a drink, maybe ativan because I'm starting to freak out.

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Monday 9:57pm

From Princess

Watching the news and I just sorta came unglued.  Diego not really a soft/gentle guy (obvs) but once I got thru a blubber-cry explanation of immuno-compromised and cancer treatment I got full lap cuddles. I want this every time I'm upset. Warm and solid and big hands and soft nuzzles and scratchy velvet cheek kisses. Feel so tiny and safe

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Monday 11:40pm

From Princess

Think I'm fukced up. Everything feels good. Petting all the things

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Monday 11:44pm

From Princess

I'm fiiiiine. One drink. Once ativan. Thats it

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Monday 11:49pm

From Princess

Omgod ill be fine it's good donot call me

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Monday 11:55pm

From Princess

What are fiddlesticks? Like the worrd not a instrument accessory?why do we say that

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Tuesday 7:42am

From Princess

Holy shit I slept so good. I looked back thru the texts. Wtf was I doing?? I don't remember any of this

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Tuesday 8:32am

From Princess

He's giving me that all teeth smile. I'm very suspicious. And surprisingly not horny?? Am I dying?

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Tuesday 9:46am

From Princess

Have been informed that I was very adorable last night. I'm afraid to learn his definition of adorable

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Tuesday 10:12am

From Princess

Omg he has 3 hours of video

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Tuesday 11:17am

From Princess

I spent 45 min yelling about Pluto planet status being revoked and the kilogram definition being forever altered. He was very invested in the 2nd part. Legit academic discussion

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Tuesday 11:49am

From Princess

Next part: I decided to make a fried egg sandwich. He started recording like a cooking show. I almost lit my hair on fire.

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Tuesday 11:57am

From Princess

Oh I see where everything went wrong. I had 1 drink and 1 ativan. Then I finished his drink. Then I drank his replacement. Why tf did he let me do that??

"You were so cute! How could I say no to this face, bonita?"

...I will remember that

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Tuesday 12:13pm

From Princess

Apparently we exchanged playlists. This is not good

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Tuesday 12:28pm

From Princess

Omg I revealed the Murder Panther Sugar Daddy title. Oh fuck. Shit shit shit

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Tuesday 12:42pm

From Princess

I spent 40 min petting him all over while listing everything I liked and why. He is going to be insufferable for forever after this

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Tuesday 1:22pm

From Princess

Lisa. Lisa. Holy shit. He said we made a porno. I laughed. He fucking narrated an opening to it. I am dying  I am going to die   I am dead

Him, offscreen: Diego and Bicki make a Porno!

Me, onscreen, twerking on the bed in lace bra

Me: eeeeeeeeeeeeeee ASS AND TITTIES!!!

Diego pops into shot, giggling: Pretty Princess Pussy!!

The whole thing just dissolved into shaky blur and us laughing hysterically

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Tuesday 1:24pm

From Princess

No I'm not sharing it. What is wrONG WITH YOU??????

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Tuesday 3:44pm

From Princess

It… did not go the way I thought it would. And apparently he had not watched it either because we were both surprised.

That. Was not sex. Seeing the soft slow with emotions from the outside was pretty damning.

That was lovemaking

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Tuesday 6:32pm

From Princess

I'm locked in the bathroom. Everything is fucked.

I just… I just hid my face and said "I want to go home." Like a fucking coward hiding behind my hair, I took off upstairs and now I'm here. It's been a long time. I'm still alone

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Tuesday 6:39pm

From Princess

No shit Sherlock, I know I have intimacy issues.

Men don't love me. Sure I'm fun to fuck for a while. But they don't take a poor fat girl home. Come on, you've seen it firsthand. Clearly, since here I still am by myself

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Tuesday 6:42pm

From Princess

I don't know what I was thinking. I don't belong here. Guess I'll just ride out the last 2 days then come home

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Tuesday 6:45pm

From Princess

I think Julio is here. I can hear their voices but can't make out the words

Oh no his sister is here. They're yelling in Spanish, I can't catch any of it

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Tuesday 10:14pm

From Princess

They screamed for a while, then she finally left. Been silent ever since. I don't know if he's still here

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Tuesday 10:40pm

From Princess

He's definitely still here. There's a tantrum going on

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Wednesday 12:32am

From Princess

Fell asleep in the closet corner again. Except when I woke up he was wedged in there with me

Me: … um

Diego: I think I see why you do this

Then he went to sleep on me

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Wednesday 5:48am

From Princess

Have been talking since 3. Still in the closet.

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Wednesday 7:10am

From Princess

I'm coming home when this is over. I need some time and space to think. 

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Wednesday 7:12am

From Princess

Is that even the right term? Do you 'break up' with a sugar daddy???? 

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Wednesday 7:13am

From Princess

NO I WANT TO KEEP HIM

BITCH I WILL STAB YOU

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Wednesday 7:16am

From Princess

Gonna shower and go to bed. You mention that last text and I literally will stab you. BFF or not

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Wednesday 4:40pm

From Princess

Just listened to an hour of descriptions of Mexico.

I am… tempted

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Wednesday 6:54pm

From Princess

I'm flying home Friday, they just lifted the travel ban here.

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Wednesday 6:59pm

From Princess

No, no one is happy here. We're both clingy disasters today

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Wednesday 7:17pm

From Princess

Went downstairs. It's a war zone. We came back upstairs 

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Thursday 6:19am

From Princess

Couldn't sleep so I'm packing. Diego is watching me from the bed with the biggest, saddest puppy dog eyes in existence.

Effect kinda ruined because I can see his bare ass

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Thursday 6:22am

From Princess

Why would you ask me that? You know he's an exhibitionist 

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Thursday 6:23am

From Princess

I can't decide if you're the Best or the Worst BFF ever. Gawd

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Thursday 6:25am

From Princess

...IMAGE LOADING…

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Thursday 6:27am

From Princess

Yeah. You see my dilemma now???

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Thursday 6:28am

From Princess

Yes I bite it! What is wrong with you today???

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Thursday 6:43pm

From Princess

He spent entire day attached to me. I..??? What do I do with a clingy cartel boss drug lord?? Its too much

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Friday 8:52am

From Princess

I'm on the plane. He rode here with me. Looked so… broken. Feel like a monster. But I'm scared

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Friday 1:45pm

From Princess

Lisa. LISA. LISA.

I'm home but but he. Omg

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Friday 2:38pm

From Princess

There's a tiny stuffed panther in my bag with a note:  I just want to be with you

My very own Tiny Murder Panther 

[thechosenburrito]

Intro to Love: 1.2-Clinic Crashers

Word Count: 1,016

Description:

Xochi makes a new friend on her way to grab some food but things take a terrifying turn

Author’s Note:

I reread each of these chapters before I post them here.  This was written over a month ago and I feel like I’ve already improved a little!

Warnings:

Mention of Blood

/* I will take this time to mention that this series is meant to be a bit on the darker side where injuries and swearing and even death will be fairly common as the series progresses so proceed at your own risk*/

Previous Chapter: 1.1-Free on Sunday

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I'm infamous for my sleep schedule, or lack thereof.  I've always been more of a night person.  During summer break, I'd stay up until the sun came up, go to sleep, and wake up at 4 pm.  I thought it was a good system even though it essentially made me nocturnal.  A nocturnal lifestyle didn't really lend itself to a college lifestyle.  It meant I ended up sleeping for 2-3 hours a night and taking coma-like naps.  I'm a pro napper.  I can nap for 5 hours straight.  That might actually be something to be concerned about.  I'll put a pin in that.

The moment just after waking up is the best part of sleeping, just before you remember who you are.  It's followed by the worst part of waking up: remembering everything that's wrong with your life.

When I woke up from my nap, after my regular dose of existential crisis, I rolled out of bed.  I checked my phone and, yep, my notifications are bone dry.  Actually, there was one, from an account I didn't recognize.

(C): hey this is carson. still on for sunday?

I quickly shot off a reply.

(X): yeah. noon right?

(C): yup

(X): cool. I'm probably gonna at least start it tonight

My stomach growled.  What did I eat for breakfast? Oh yeah, I came back to my dorm and instantly went to sleep.

(X): after I grab something to eat lol

(C): cool.  I can make a document and share it with you so we can both work on it

I must've struck gold.

(X): yeah that would be great

(C): alright I shared it.

(C): ok practice is starting.  see you sunday

(X): ok. see you then. I live at Kathrine hall btw

(C): I know lol

(C): I live on the second floor

I instantly went into panic mode.  I shot out of bed and started to pace a little.  We lived in the same building!?!? How did I not notice !?!?  I started going back through my memories, tearing through my mental filing cabinets.  I check his profile and his feed.  Looking at the pictures, it hit me.  He was the guy a couple of rows down from me in my Physics lecture,  the bench behind me in my Biology lab, and, worst of all, he sat two people down from me in my Chemistry lecture.  This guy is gonna think I'm either not paying attention or don't care about the world around me at all.

I quickly replied something to save my skin.

(X): I'm kidding lol I know

(C): ok suuuurreeee lmao

(C): ok gotta go.  see you saturday

(X): bye

I tossed my phone on my bed and started getting dressed to grab lunch.  I pulled a flannel over my t-shirt, grabbed my wallet, put on some headphones, and headed for the dining hall.

The hair was hot and thick.  It sat on you, crushing your chest.  I passed a couple of runners and wondered how they could even go faster than a brisk walk when they were practically breathing hot soup.

I was trying to cross the street when a large white van whizzed past me so close I could feel the air move out of the way.  I jumped back and fell onto the sidewalk behind me.  A sharp pain shot through my wrist.  

"WATCH IT ASSHOLE!" screamed a voice from behind me.

A girl came around and offered me a hand.

"Are you ok - OH YOU'RE BLEEDING!"

"Huh?"

I looked at my wrist and sure enough and I had partially grated it on the sidewalk.  Blood was dripping all down my arm.  I quickly grabbed it and just ended up getting blood everywhere.

"Yeah.  I'm bleeding alright.  I should probably go home and clean this up." I said as I forced a small smile.

I tried making a fist and winced.

"Ow!"

"Ok no.  You're going to the clinic and getting that looked at," she helped me up with my good wrist.  "Come on.  I'll walk you to the clinic."

"Oh no!  It's ok!  I can make it!" I replied quickly.

"Too late.  I'm already walking you." She started walking ahead of me and gestured for me to follow.

"Let's go"

I sighed and followed her.

"I think I've seen you in Bio Lecture.  Dr. Vargas right?" she asked.

"Yeah.  9 am? Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays?"

"Yep!  I'm Sarah!  You should sit next to me on Monday....you might need help taking notes.".   She gestured to my still bleeding hand.

"Nice to meet you.  I'm Xochi.  That would help." I said, giving a pained thumbs up.

We weren't too far from the clinic when we saw the white car that almost hit me pull up to the clinic.

"Hey, that's the guy that almost hit you!" She started running towards the clinic.  "Hey! Stop!"

The second-hand embarrassment at the mere thought of her confronting the driver was just too much.  

"Uh! You don't have to do that!"

I made an attempt to chase after her, but I was never really a runner in high school or ever.  

The white car stopped and a figure stumbled out onto the sidewalk.  He took a few steps towards the front door of the clinic before crumpling to his hands and knees.  The car sped off.  I tried to catch the plate numbers but it didn't even have any.

I did my best to catch up with Sarah.  She tried to help him up, but his legs were shaking too much.  She helped him onto his side and I finally caught up and got a good look at him.  He had greasy black hair and dirty glasses.  His eyes were wide and glossy looking.  He was taking short shallow breaths and his lips were moving as if he were trying to speak.  He smelled like he hadn't showered in weeks.

I felt a panic coming.

"HELP!" I yelled, my voice shaking. "SOMEBODY PLEASE! WE NEED HELP"

A few nurses came out to see what was going on and instantly swarmed him.

"Call 911!"

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A/N:

So it’s getting a little intense for Xochi.  This definitely isn’t the end of her troubles.

[carolinesbookworld]

tagged by @kabeswaters and @swellwriting <3

on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? 0

describe yourself in a hashtag? very similar to @fortisfiliae #stressedanddepressed

if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? Harrison Osterfield

if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? prepare for disaster

what’s one thing people don’t know about you? um...idk my boyfriend knows basically everything about me sooooooo

what’s your wake up ritual? wake up, turn off alarm (bc with this at-home learning stuff i’ve been waking up like literally 1 min before my alarm goes off???), text good morning to my bf, snapchat, discord bc moonlit fam talks allll night, tumblr, get out of bed, wash face, get dressed, coffee and breakfast it’s very specific

what’s your go to bed ritual? wash glasses and face bc my skin is soo oily by the end of the day so you best believe my glasses be needing washing everyday, shower, say goodnight to fam, text bf for like 15 mins or until he says goodnight, turn alarm on, plug in phone, go to sleep

what’s your favorite time of day? morning but specifically from 7:30 until 9  

your go to for having a good laugh? FRIENDS as in the show

dream country to visit? Australia bc my dad once got to hold a baby koala there and i wanna do that so bad

what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? so my family moved before my sophomore year so me and my bff started trying to surprise each other whenever one of us came to visit and the weekend of my birthday, she skypes me as she’s walking around what i thought was her house and then i start hearing an echo and next thing i know she’s standing in the doorway of my room and that was pretty much the best surprise ever

heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers converse

vintage or new? new but i love vintage aesthetic i just couldn’t live with it

who do you want to write your obituary? karli @swellwriting bc she is my brain twin and i would be mocking her horrible grammar and spelling from my grave and we would both get a good laugh about it in the afterlife

style icon? the mom i babysit for haha she’s like one of my best friends tho which sounds really weird but it’s true

what are three things you cannot live without? books, dogs, days that are exactly 65 degrees

what’s one ingredient you put in everything? um idk chocolate??

what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? Sarah J. Maas, Eddie Redmayne, my boyfriend bc i haven’t had dinner with him for 47 days

what’s your biggest fear in life? losing the people i love...and spiders

window or aisle seat? window bc aisle makes me anxious that i’m in people’s way

what’s your current tv obsession? the cw’s nancy drew it’s so good please go watch it

favorite app? instagram, discord, or tumblr, depends on my mood

secret talent? um idk i can draw very realistic portraits of people when i take the time to

most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? okay so technically this wasn’t me who did it but i was part of the adventure. when me and my boyfriend were just “friends” ie. liked each other and knew we liked each other but were too scared to admit it. anyway, we had this elaborate plan to shave our youth group leader’s head if we were able to bring in a certain amount of food for the food drive during vbs week. so yeah we spent like three days planning the whole thing out and then decided to go price shopping at walmart with all of our younger siblings bc we needed supervision or something lol to see how many individual things of food we could buy with $20 each we ended up just getting like 20 huge boxes of ramen and then his sister ended up throwing up so we took her home and then went back to church where my car was parked but instead of turning to get to church my boyfriend decides to go straight through the stop light (it was green okay) and spontaneously drive up into the foothills. well we get to the top of the foothills and we’re at the lake and we all get out to look at the city and my boyfriend claims that we need to document this moment so he takes a selfie with all of us and we somehow ended up right next to each other in it and i only found this out like three months ago (this happened back in june) that he only took the picture because he wanted one of us together in case we didn’t start dating lol so sweet and yeah, that was a very long story but i needed context instead of just saying “yeah we drove up a mountain”

how would you define yourself in three words? loyal, anxious, passionate

favorite piece of clothing you own? this dark coral dress that makes my eyes and hair look really pretty

a must have clothing item that everyone should have? a hoodie

a superpower you would want? i want to be able to project my thoughts into someone else’s mind bc i’m so bad at explaining stuff sometimes especially when it comes to how i feel

what’s inspiring you in life right now? ACOTAR series by Sarah J. Maas, highly recommend

best piece of advice you’ve received? opening up to more than one person is important because if you lose that person then you’ve lost all your support

best advice you’d give your teenage self? the friends who have stuck around this long are the ones you want to hang onto and the ones that you need are the ones you don’t always see

a book everyone should read? The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

what would you like to be remembered for? being a crazy dog mama

how do you define beauty? confidence in yourself and not caring what others think about you

what do you love most about your body? my metabolism

best way to take a rest/decompress? open a window to feel the breeze and listen to Islands by Hey Ocean! which is so calming to me

favorite place to view art? nature or tumblr

if your life was a song, what would the title be? we’re going with a fob/p!atd theme here and calling it “depression screwed me over so i screwed it back and ended up worse off”

if you could master one instrument, what would it be? piano

if you had a tattoo, where would it be? probably on my forearm or by my left hip

dolphins or koalas? koalas did i mention that i want to hold a baby koala

what’s an animal that represents you? great dane puppy ie. very excitable but will also take a four hour nap when tired

best gift you’ve ever received? my best friend made this photo collage for me when i moved that is hanging in my room and it has a bunch of pictures of me and her over the years and i just love it

best gift you’ve given? for christmas i gave my boyfriend a hammock and the bookshelf addition of clue, two things he had no idea i would remember him mentioning and his face was priceless. also i made my mom a cake for her birthday this year and she was so happy and said it made her feel very special <3

what’s your favorite board game? clue or ticket to ride (specifically nordic countries)

what’s your favorite color? currently a pale turquoise

least favorite color? any shade of light brown

diamond or pearls? diamonds

drugstore makeup or designer? drugstore bc i don’t wear makeup enough to validate buying designer, also i don’t really care

pilates or yoga? yoga

coffee or tea? coffee coffee coffee coffee coffee coffee coffee coffee cof-

what’s the weirdest word in the english language? palindrome is wild because it means a word spelled the same way forwards and backwards but it itself is not one such word

dark chocolate or milk chocolate? milk

stairs or elevators? stairs

summer or winter? summer but like, only june

you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? panera mac n cheese

a dessert you don’t like? red velvet cake which btw is not red-colored chocolate cake as many would have you believe

a skill you’re working on mastering? writing

best thing to happen to you today? i got to put all of my new plants in my windowsill and i named one of them (its name is albert in case you were wondering)

worst thing to happen to you today? idk today’s been pretty good as far as quarantine goes

best compliment you’ve ever received? my boyfriend calls me beautiful all the time and he always reminds me that that is describing looks and personality

favorite smell? coffee or my boyfriend’s sweatshirt for the week after i steal it

hugs or kisses? can i choose both?? depends on my mood mostly but i guess hugs if i just had to pick one

if you made a documentary, would it be about? literally anything relating to the mcu

last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? a court of wings and ruin by sjm

lipstick or lipgloss? lipstick

sweet or savory? sweet

girl crush? literally any female in the teen wolf cast

how do you know you’re in love? hahahaha haha what's love

a song you can listen to on repeat? we fall apart by we as human or uma thurman by fob

if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? idk my boyfriend probably, this is something we have discussed in depth

what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? for life to go back to normal

tagging @finnofamerica @woakiees @beskarjedi @outerlacy @swanimagines hahahahaha have funnnnn this took me an hour to answer

[d-devorak]

Hey !! Can i have some soft hcs for the main 6 taking care of mc after they had a breakdown please, i have not had a good night ☹️

Man this one was tough because I feel as though most of them would have similar reactions but I did my best to balance it out and switch things up

Asra:

-They would be talking to you in a voice as sweet and welcoming as a fucking angel (Not saying they don’t always sound like one), whispering to you about how everything is over now, you’re safe, he’s there to protect you, etc

-Rather than rushing into asking what happened, they would wait until they were positive you were alright now and slowly ease you into opening up, encouraging you softly to talk to them

-After clearing the reason you had a breakdown, they would carry you downstairs to make you both tea, draping you in a massive blanket on one of the many pillow piles that littered the shop/home

-If you were hungry, they’d make you your favorite meal, no matter how much effort it took or how late it was. He wants you to feel as good and comfortable as possible afterwards, especially if this was a very frequent occurrence that you have breakdowns

-He’d sit with you and pull you into his chest once you were done with your tea and meal, (They’d be encouraging you to eat or drink if you were refusing to, and if you still refused they would attempt to feed you themselves. That fails? Y’all go straight to cuddling) falling back onto the bed of pillows with you in their arms.

-Would proceed to ask you if there’s anything else you want to talk about, if you say yes he’ll listen to every word carefully, rubbing circles in your arms with their thumb

-11/10 would use a relaxing spell on you of sort to calm your nerves and help you fall asleep just in case you’d be too stressed from the after math

-”I’m here for you MC. I’ll always be there to protect you. I’ll always be there for you when you need me.”

Nadia:

-Shocked!!

-Probably just walked into your shared bedroom and saw you huddled on the bed, breathing heavily so she KNEW something happened

-At your side immediately, slowly resting the weight of her hand on your shoulder, ensuring you’re entirely comfortable with this gesture beforehand in case you’d be touch sensitive (In the bad way!)

-When she sees you’re alright with this, she’ll sit beside you and start caressing your arm, maneuvering between rubbing your back

-She’ll ask you if there’s anything you need, and whatever it is you respond with that she can’t personally give you right then and there, she calls for a servant to immediately bring you whatever it is you request

-She cares about you so much, she’s so worried at this point about what caused your breakdown

-If you’re still crying or have tears on your face she’ll pull you into her lap and kiss them away before asking if you wish to talk about what upset you

-She listens to your every word as though her life depends on it, feeling guilty for not being there earlier, although it couldn’t have been helped

-”My darling, it’s all over now, you’re safe, you’re alright. I’m here now. I’ll keep you safe from all that harms you.”

Bonus: If it had anything to do with Lucio she would go and personally beat his ass, and by that I mean she’d give him the hardest bitch slap across the face. Big power move from best wifey.

Julian:

-Oh no he panics himself when he sees you

-But he collects himself as quickly as possible and tries not to assume the worst (He’ll consider the possibilities it was his doing but he doesn’t dwell on the chances)

-Rushes to your side, tearing his gloves off and tossing them to the side (because skin to skin contact ykno?), carefully grabbing your face and cupping your cheeks, having the most concerned look on his face

-He would realize he may be coming on a bit too strong and could possibly cause you to panic, so he would loosen his grip a tad, sighing heavily to calm his own nerves before asking you what happened

-After discovering you had a break down (He suspected it from your watery eyes) he would sit beside you and pull you close, instantly growing very protective of you, treating you as though you were a piece of fragile glass in his arms

-Would pet your head and gently play with your hair, being so careful to not accidently pull your hair or tug at a knot to not (heheh, knot and not) disturb the peace as he tries to comfort you

-He’d tell you stories and try to crack jokes if you were okay with it, hell he’d even sing if you wanted him to, he just wants to make sure you’re alright after the fact and will do whatever he can in his power to make sure you’re as good as always later on

-He’ll ask you if you need anything constantly and if you’re alright over the time you spend in his grasp, to the point it gets annoying, but it’s okay because he’s cute

-If you ask, he’ll go run a bath for you two, feeling kinda dumb for not thinking about it before

-You’re obviously on his lap (no wink wink this time folks) and he’ll wash your hair for you while he has the advantage

Portia:

-Sweet baby girl rushes to your aid immediately!!

-Throws her arms around you and instantly holds you close to her, no matter how much taller you may be than her, do not underestimate this girl when she’s worried about her love

-Profusely kissing your face, asking what happened in between smooches

-Without a doubt will tear up upon being informed you had a breakdown, feeling as though she should’ve been home from work earlier, but she eventually shrugs the thought off since she’s here now!

-She’ll lay down so you can use her titties as a pillow and will play with your hair so so much, telling you how amazing and lovely and deserving you are to try and lift your mood

-Nap time on the titties

-When you both wake up she cooks you both dinner n you two eat out in the garden and cuddle afterwards, she’ll ask you how you’re feeling and if there’s anything else you need while she’s at it

-”That’s it, I’m taking the day off tomorrow to tend to you, and there’s nothing you can do that’ll stop me!”

Muriel:

-Oh dear, oh boy, he’s so shocked at first to see you laying by the fire and sniffling

-He knows something bad must’ve happened because Inanna is curled up with you and looks quite concerned herself

-Calmly (quickly) walks over to you and scoops you up, plopping down by the fire and holding you in his arms (even if you’re the same height as him, he’ll manage), rocking back and forth at an easy pace carefully

-Asks you what’s wrong while brushing your hair away from your face to look you in the eyes, feeling his heart break a little at the sight of your distressed expression

-Instantly kisses your forehead and whispers about how much he loves you and will keep you safe when he finds out you had a break down

-God he might even cry, he’s so worried about you 

-He asks what caused your break down, but reminds you that you don’t have to tell him if you don’t feel like it (Although he’ll still be pretty worried if you didn’t, he’ll still try to comfort you regardless)

-Offers to go sit with the chickens and star gaze to calm you down, Inanna without  doubt joining you both

-”….Are you feeling better?”

Lucio:

-Oh my god

-Oh my GOD

-When he sees you curled up on his bed he immediately freaks out, sprinting to the bed and scooping you up (careful not to scratch you with his prosthetic claws)

-Seeing the love of his life so distraught is enough to make him tear up alone, profusely asking you what’s wrong and if anyone did something to you

-After he relaxes himself (as best as he can, he’s still a mess) he proceeds to, calmly, ask you what happened

-Feels his heart stop for a second when you tell him

-Asks you what caused it because he’s ready to crack a whole ass sword out on anyone who hurt his precious MC (if someone is in fact involved)

-Calls for Mercedes and Melchior to come over and cuddle with you both on your shared bed, slipping off the sharp plates from his prosthetic so that he can rub your back

-Will get you WHATEVER you ask for, if he can’t deliver personally he gets a servant to comply with your requests

-Kisses the top of your head, and if you look up at him he’ll give you a very sweet, loving, chaste kiss on the lips this time

-Btw you get to lay on his gorgeous man titties

-If you need a distraction he’ll tell you battle stories, even tell one or two embarrassing ones of his youth regardless of insecurities

-Man he just wants you to be okay and will do anything to ensure you’re totally alright

-Before you pass out on top of him he’ll whisper “I love you MC”

Ngl this is PRETTY shit but alright 😎

[let-sanji-say-fuck]

Hello there! Welcome around :) I don't know how to call you yet, but you'll probably be Sanji around here! Since you're all fresh, why not starting with a headcanon? Law and Zoro dealing with their fem s/o who has an incontrollable fear of blood? These boys are always covered with it... So I wonder how they would deal with it! Thanks a lot, and all the best luck for your blog!

Hello Miho, dear! It’ll be my pleasure! I have very scarce reference on blood phobia, but I really hope it did your request justice! Thanks a lot for the best wishes, I’ll sure be blessed if I get this much support from you guys

Trafalgar Law

He totally gives her the “are you fucking kidding me?” look when she tells him about her absolutely conventional fear, pen twirling from one finger to the next as he decides whether he should just continue to fill up her health form or make her change her mind about joining his crew, because piracy and blood phobia don’t go well together.

Moreover, the Heart Pirates and blood phobia definitely don’t go well together. This man moves around his lab with very large splotches of red on his coat and gloves. Law usually doesn’t let anyone into his sterilized sanctuary, but this girl is absolutely banned from the very first day. How is he supposed to deal with a possible collapse when he’s covered in what caused it?

Law tends to go a little overboard in his battles and, while his fruit saves his s/o from the terrifying sight of blood showers, he doesn’t get the same courtesy that his enemies do. Deep cuts, a busted lip, bloody nose, several bullet holes… He comes out pretty beat up,and absolutely doesn’t need a screech to add to his pounding headache, no matter how horrifying he knows he looks. He just ends up forbidding her from partaking in battles as well.

He’s the kind of guy who walks around with a mini first aid kit, which comes in handy for those occasions when his s/o gets a cut or a mini wound. If he’s close by, he’s going to treat and band aid it with impressive, swift hands before she can see the smallest drop of blood.

Law actually doesn’t really like that he has to go the extra mile to ensure that she doesn’t wobble or, in a worst case scenario, have a panic attack at the sight of blood. It might sound selfish, but it’s actually just because he has learnt to live with blood as if it was a second skin thanks to his profession, both as a pirate captain and as a surgeon. 

He always ends up denying that this bothers him, especially to her. She has apologized for all the extra work she has put him through for the sake of her comfort, several times, but Law brushes it off as something unimportant. He doesn’t want her to feel upset for something that isn’t even her fault, Law wouldn’t be doing any of this if he didn’t care.

The more time he spends next to her, the easier it is to dismiss the idea of a long distance relationship. At first he thought that it would be better for everyone’s health to just ensure a happy life for her in a small, peaceful island, but he has never had the guts to suggest abandoning her like that. When he becomes her s/o, Law immediately discards the idea.

When he decides that there’s no way she’s going to leave his crew, Law starts to seriously suggest some kind of therapy to get rid of her fear. It’s just the little things, such as asking her to not look away when she sees a small cut, until it becomes too much. He’s mindful of how much it drains her. 

The usual blood tests he runs on his crew also become milestones in this path they’re walking together, because every time she can handle the sight of blood a little better, Law always makes sure to let her know how proud he is of her. He has a nice storage of sweet goodies stacked up to gain some glucose after the removal of blood, so he decides to take some time off his busy schedule to have some snacks with her.

The last step after the very long progress is placing his heart on her hands – quite literally. Law knows that she’s scared, and won’t do this until after they have both thoroughly agreed on it, but they know they have come a long way when she doesn’t do much more than freeze a little when the heavy and warm cube that kept his beating heart was placed on her palm. Perhaps it was just knowing that it took Law a lot of trust to go this far for her, but the sight of the small waves of blood going from one ventricle to another as the organ throbbed calmly… it didn’t terrify her that much.

Roronoa Zoro

Zoro honestly doesn’t understand why the hell she started to scream when he came back from the island with a terribly beaten up arm, bruised and bloody. Looking back now, he still doesn’t see the big deal in it, but he does feel kind of bad for screaming at her to shut up. He will just admit it was the pain snapping, not him.

He just can’t help but disregard and even understimate her fear. Blood is the most natural thing in the world in his books and his thick skull really can’t fit in the idea of it being as frightening as she feels it is. It’s nothing personal, he just has this attitute towards most phobias because he’s nearly fearless and can’t really relate.

At first he’s most likely going to get really annoyed if she “overreacts”, and won’t do much to help her if he comes back with half an ear off or cuts all over his chest. It’s not like she’s being forced to see him in that state, she can totally just ignore him and the thick blood dripping with every step he took, and Zoro expects her to do just that. 

One way to easily notice that he has become her s/o and that he cares about her is that he won’t ask her to stop crying over spilled blood, like he used to. He does his damn best to stop himself from snapping at her because he doesn’t want to upset her anymore than she is; he knows she’s having it rough enough already. Still pretty terrible at comforting, but gives the best, warm hugs to bring her back if she gets too lost in her fear.

Quite overprotective, and this trait is just enhanced by the fact that he feels that his s/o can never be truly safe if she is unable to make a potential threat bleed. This is why he usually asks her to stay onboard. He knows it’s difficult to protect her when she can’t see blood, so even staying by her side while exploring the town is risky. However, he’s totally confident in his ability to knock some weak punks unconscious without having anyone shed blood.

Zoro is the kind of lover who tries too hard, but occasionally fails just as hard. If his s/o gets a small injury, he’s next to her within the next few seconds, but he’s also struggling with the sticky band aids. He still tries to curse in his lowest voice because he doesn’t want to startle her and make the situation worse – how bad could a cut get?! Pretty bad, if we’re talking about Zoro, but he has the best intentions only, really.

As sadistic and weird as it sounds, he kind of enjoys the taste of blood so, instead of treating a cut with the complex doctor stuff, he’d rather just suck it clean, like the old school guy he is. Her red face and nervous breathing tells him that the cure is worse than the disease itself, though. He tries, but he’s really a mess.

Zoro is kind of better at supporting from the sidelines, honestly. One very sweet example is that everytime his lover gets out of Chopper’s office feeling upset because of a blood test, he’s always waiting for her outside to carry her to the crow’s nest for a well-deserved nap.

Her context gives him the BEST excuse to push that perverted cook over the railing. Of course Zoro’s not going to let Sanji near his s/o when there’s the risk of her seeing a nosebleed. He doesn’t usually need an excuse to kick Snooj away, but this one works perfectly because Sanji respects his s/o’s and will actually stay away from her and, subsequently, from Zoro.

His ideas involving some kind of progress to help her overcome her fear would be too blunt to put into practice. He kind of believes that exposing his s/o to a bag of blood (that Chopper won’t lend him) while embracing her and helping her calm down before its presence is a good idea. Knowing this, it’s really not a surprise that she still fears blood with a passion, but it’s not that much of a problem when her lover tries his best to protect her from it.

[marshmallowprotection]

hello, may i ask for a matchup? im an introverted 5'2 girl with the motto "enjoy the good, endure the bad. expect for the worst, hope for the best." im a leo and intp. quiet and dismissive at first, but loud and talkative once you get to know me. can be a bit sarcastic and unthinkingly rough with my words though.honest and blunt most of the time, and been told that i don't know how to lie. can be a bit weird and quirky at times, ive been told. 1/? 💝✨

i like to think that im a self-aware person though. i can be lazy, insecure and self-deprecating, but im working on them to be a more self-assured person. while i can be understanding, i also have a bit of a temper that i try to control and end up walking away before i get too worked up. im sensitive and easily cry, but id desperately deny that lol. im pretty good at academics and getting good grades, and i unfortunately die a little bit inside if i dont meet my own high standards. 2/? 💝✨

i like to read and write stories, despite the fact that i never get to finish any of them. i tend to daydream a lot due to so many ideas and thoughts in my head at times. i also like to draw as a hobby, but like how i am in writing, i refuse to show it to someone unless i think it’s absolutely perfect or someone i am comfortable with. anyway, i like passionate people, perhaps because i feel like i lack that. 3/? 💝✨

i like openminded and simply kind people. i dont like condescending people and being controlled and bossed around. with people im close to, i can work being in comfortable silence for long periods of time, or could talk for hours, depending on our moods. my love language is spending time together, and i prefer initiating physical contact rather than receiving it. as you can see i also talk and write a lot of words XD hope thats fine with ya 4/4 💝✨

btw, i love your matchups, i think your writing’s great! 4+¼ 💝✨

I match you with… 

V! 

You’re the kind of person that’s ruled by their heart, not their mind. You don’t think, you act first most of the time. You’re aware of this and while you know that you have some oddities compared to others, you can only do so much about it. You’re just very much somebody that lives by their feelings, be they the good ones or the bad ones at the time. You’re just very genuine. You keep it real with others when you’re close to them and even when you’re just trying to get to know them better then you do. 

That’s why it seems so likely that somebody so passionate about others would wind up being drawn to someone like Jihyun, who tends to be more withdrawn and submissive. Even when his health is much better then it was in the past few years, he still tends to listen to others and enjoy doing whatever they want from him if it means that he can help. He’s gotten better about not overextending himself but that doesn’t mean that he won’t jump onto the fire to do something for you. He knows how sincere you are, and even though you’re ruled by your worries and feelings, he knows that you so wholeheartedly care about everything. He’s never really had someone be so upset for him before in his life and he finds himself surprised by you often. You don’t go easy on him but you don’t go too hard on him either. You care, but you don’t inflict that pain onto others. 

You see in his eyes the passionate devotion that you’ve dreamt of. He worships you, but not so much that he’s beneath you. That was the problem in his first relationship, and he’s realized that he needs to be more open and concise with his feelings. You respect the same kind of comfort that he does. He wants nothing more than to sit around with you, work, read, chat, nap, anything that you want to do. Quiet time is perfect… just existing in the same space as you without any worries is enough to warm his heart. 

He’s finally letting himself enjoy his real passion in life, and he would like that for you as well. V would gently support you to open up and keep working hard on your writing so that you can not only get better for yourself but so that you can share that talent with the world and the ones that you care about. If you read to him, he’s putty in your hands. 

[askthesecreepydumbasses]

can you do an fic (preferably long if you have time♥️) about y/n being bullied and keeping it a secret from toby for a l o n g time and one day he accidently sees bruises and finds out what happens? and have his reaction ?

Hey hey! I'm. super bad at judging whether fics are long or not, but here's what I made! -Kenshi (btw i haven't written in,,,, forever and this is mobile so my apologies if this is -3 quality)

~*~

Toby paced around his room, lost in thought as he tried to remember everything  he had ever done with the love of his life. It had been almost two years since the first date, and he wanted to make it special, but had no idea what to do. Re-creating a first date was to cliche, and so were all the other ideas he had come up with. Then there was the fear of if you were planning something, and it was just too much. Good thing he could hear the door opening, exactly on cue with when you usually got home from school, because lord knows how a hug from you would calm him.

“Ohhhhh Y/N! Where areeee youuu?” Toby called out, joy evident in his voice as he jogged over to you, entrapping you in a hug the second your bag was down. Now, many people make jokes about how Toby is a bit unintelligent when it comes to social cues, but anyone could tell the way you tensed up, winced and narrowed your eyes when he squeezed you, and while this one wasn too odd, it was worth noting that you only gave him a brief, feather light touch that could be barely called a hug. He pulled back and narrowed his eyes, checking you up and down for any injuries.

“Is everything okay? I know you dont always care much for super tight hugs, but that was... weirder than normal. Do you have anything you need to talk about?” The question was more than an invitation for you, a beg for you to jump into his arms and cry about everything that was bothering you, he even tilted his head to make it seem more open, so... why weren't you running to him?

“Oh, no, I'm okay Toby, nothings wrong. Thank you for asking though. How was your day?” You have a small half smile and attempted to change the topic to some lighter small talk as you picked up your bag from where you had dropped it to properly receive Toby. This attempt was not lost on your boyfriend, but at the moment, he decided to just go with it. He had heard it was best to just leave people be and ty to get them to open up slowly, and besides, what if there wasn't an issue? How stupid would he look, pestering you for nothing?

And so the next hour or two was spent like that, small talk and nothing more, with both of you trying to hide the truth.

~*~

The two of you sat on Toby's bed, having decided to take a nap before dinner, since there was nothing else to do, and both of you could use the rest. Toby had changed out of his jeans and into a pair of shorts, and, due to his insistence, you had changed into one of Toby's shirts, a short sleeve, with him claiming you wouldn't get could if you were “wrapped in my loving embrace, darling.” and being too drowsy to protest you agreed, and crawled into bed with Toby, who just smiled and layers down with you, holding one of your hands beneath the covers, a small smile adorning his face as he drifted off with you, not that it would last long.

You see, after about half an hours of rest, Toby was jolted awake, cold from the lack of covers, as they were all wrapped around your form which... shouldn't have been thrashing was much as it was. You were shaking, and your face had contoured into a grimace, kicking and pushing, it was no wonder you had taken the blankets, what with how your limbs were flailing. A sad sigh escaped from Toby as he went to tale you into his arms, just to flinch back and gasp as he caught sit of your arms. They were absolutely covered in bruises, dark yellows, blues and purples, even a bit of green making a spotted pattern on them. He decided not to wake you yet, gently lifting your shirt up so your stomach was revealed and tearing up a bit at the sight. The bruises only got worse, a bit of blood from broken skin scabbed onto you, and knowing your home situation, there was only one logical explanation, and that was that this had to be happening at school.

 He gently slid off the bed, changed into his work clothes and exited the room. Toby sent a quick text to Jeff, asking the man to meet up with him, and a different message to EJ, requesting that the trainee doctor watch over you, and patch you up while he was gone. Bottling up his feelings, Toby grabbed his old hatchets, figuring that for a job like this, these people deserved a name brand death.

~*~ While you weren't quite sure how EJ knew you needed medical help, you weren't sure whether you should complain or not. Yes, this was probably the best course of action, but god, the cream he was putting on those bruises hurt so bad, it wouldn't be a stretch to say that they were worse than getting the bruises! (Ok, maybe that was a lie, but still, you get the idea) Worst of all, you had no clue where Toby was, and in that moment, he was all you really wanted to see. Maybe you two were just so close that you had a subconscious dra wto one another, but for the second time that day, you two were reunited just at the perfect moment.

Toby entered the room just as EJ finished wrapping some ace bandages around  your arms, in order to make sure it wouldn't get wiped off, and to remind you you had bandages on and needed to take care of your injuries. EJ looked at Toby and gave him a small nod, trying to signal that Y/N was okay, and that he'd give the two of you some space. Toby thanked him and closed the door when the other boy was out. 

He stood there and looked at you for a moment, before walking up to you, taking both of your hands in his, and pulling you back onto a siting position on the bed with him, forehead gently pressed against yours. His fingers rubbed over your knuckles for a moment, sitting there in silence before he started to speak.

“Y/N, I love you so much. I can unders if you were scared, but you shouldn't have to be. None of what happened is your fault, and you are never alone, there is and always will be a number of people you can talk to, you are so precious and so loved, no one deserves to go through what you went through.

You two would spend a few minutes more quietly talking, before agreeing to go get some food. When you were both full, you would return and Toby would try his hardest to do whatever you needed to in order to recover, be it sit in silence and agree to discuss later, talk right there and then, or anything else, there's no denying it was perfect.

~*~

Toby would be very upset, but wouldn't get all breaking things mad, he would be quietly fuming, all business as he went and dealt with the issue, before ultimately returning to you, putting your needs and happiness before his own pain for you.

~*~ 

So sorry if I messed up what you wanted Anon! I'm not sure if this is long enough, but hopefully even if it isn't, you still enjoy! Let me know if there's anything you want changed!

[dean-bluesteel-winchester-spnfam]

Shareable questions. All of them.

👽   Do you believe in aliens?Not in the aliens everybody else seems to believe in with UFO’s and all that crap.

👽👽   If so, what do you think they look like?They look like normal people, because... you know what. Ask Cas. He is practically an alien.

🤡   Do you have any phobias?Yeah. Snakes? Ugh. Spiders? Ugh!! Planes? UGH. (But it’s so funny the emoji for this one is clown. Perfect for Sammy.)

💀   What is your favourite thing to do?I... I have no idea. Maybe watching western movies with Cas? I never thought about this before, because normally there is just stuff that I have to do. Kissing Cas is for sure in my top 3 as well.

☕   Name the tastiest hot beverage.Ugh, you can’t tell anyone but I enjoy hot vanilla milk. I mean coffee. It’s totally just plain coffee.

🥛   Name the tastiest cold beverage.Beer.

😇   What do you believe is your most angelic quality?ANGELIC QUALITY. I don’t have one. Seriously, I don’t think I can ever be somthing as angelic.

👹   What do you believe is your most devilish quality?That I don’t wait to pull my trigger. I killed people before. Hell, I torture monsters all the time. I’m not any better than them.

🧜‍♀️   If you could be any mythical creature, what would you be and why?Mythical, well most of them are actually real, but whatever. ( Normally I’d say angel? But you know, not really worthy - so lets go with a monster.)I think being a mermaid would be cool? All day in the water, the other hot merpeople. Yeah I think that would be nice.

😻   Describe the sweetest moment you have had with a pet.The sweetest. When I was like 16 we stopped in a small town for a hunt. It took Dad almost 6 weeks to find the vampire, so Sammy and I had to go to school there. It was horrible. While Sammy of course had lots of friends, I didn’t. I skipped a lot of classes and waited outside for Sammy and there was the cute little dog living with an old man right next to the school. I petted him every time I waited and he ... was so happy to see me everyday.Sometimes I would even share my breakfast with him or walk with him, when his owner was too tired. God this was ages ago, but I was heartbroken, when we left that town.So never getting a pet again. Hurts just like hell, when they leave.

🌎   What is your most far-fetched ‘bucket list’ item?I don’t think there is one? Nothing is really far-fetched in my life. But I’d like to have a swimming pool.

🤔   Describe the most influential person in your life.Well he is not really from this world, but he always fights for the things he loved. He was born as a solider, but learned what it means to have a free will and there is no one else, who loves this unconditional.

🤯   Do you have a mental illness?Pretty sure, yeah. PTSD definitely. Maybe depression, too. I have panic attacks at night (when nobody sees them). Anxiety and stuff. I got it all.

🦄   If you could shape-shift into an animal at any time, what would it be and why?Huh, great question. Maybe a dog, I kinda was one before and it was kinda fun you know. Have an owner and all, must be nice.

🍣   Are you a sushi connoisseur?No ew. Why would I eat sushi when I can have burgers?

🤓   Do you consider yourself a nerd?Mhh. While I do call Sam and Cas a nerd all the time, I can admit that MAYBE I’m one too. Probably more of geek, but whatever. Maybe it already makes me a nerd saying that.

📆   Have you set goals for your life? Or are you just living life in the moment?I do have set goals, but I feel like I have to just live my life, since I could easily die any day. So maybe that are just wishes and not really goals. I take the days as it comes.

📆📆   If you have made goals, name a few.Wishes. They are wishes. I would love to be married (so close!!) and would like to have a big family one day. Get some kids, get some nieces and nephews. Maybe get all my friends back. Imagine Bobby babysitting my kids or Charlie teaching them how to cheat in games.

📆📆📆   If you’re living life in the moment, explain away.Ugh I explained it above. Hunter = big chance of dying. Again.

🤩   Name a famous celebrity you dream of meeting.I wish I could meet Led Zeppelin.

🌙   Are you a moon or sun person?Sun probably, but I do love them moon as well.

🚀   If you could travel back in time to any era, where would it be?I wish I would’ve gotten this question years back, because then I would’ve said, when the Cowboys were still a big thing. But honestly? That was just a big disappointment. I didn’t like the whiskey, I looked stupid and people hated me there. So no traveling back, thank you.

🚀🚀   What kind of life would you want in this era?Well I just wished it would’ve been as awesome as I always thought. Me being the cool sherriff and getting hot chicks. (Or Cas, but lets be honest. They’d kill us)

🦕   Do you wish dinosaurs existed in our modern world?Holy shit YES.

🦕🦕   If so, would you want a dino pet?  Name the kind.I would love a dino pet!! Uhm... give me a triceratops.

🎃   Name your favourite holiday.I hate them all, but christmas was nice, when Mom was still alive.

😊   What do you believe is your most redeeming quality?That I never give up?

😴   Do you get enough sleep?No. Normally I get my four - five hours and I always say that’s fine, but it’s not. Seriously I wish I could sleep more. But you know, nightmares, hunting and all that crap. Maybe I should start with naps again.

🏈   Are you a sport enthusiast?Yes! While I hate to move my own ass, I love sports. Wrestling is amazing. (and yes that counts).

🦂   Describe your best friend.Oh easy. Big blue eyes, dark wild hair. Tilts his head way too often and can’t wink properly. Smiles so rare but so beautiful. Wants to help everyone and loves the nature. Has the biggest heart and gets hurt too often.

🥑   Fruits or veggies?Fruits.

🤞   If you could snap your fingers like Thanos from The Avengers, what would you make happen?Tha. Bring Iron Man back? No uhm, I’d kill every monster on earth. Make it peaceful.

😎   Do you consider yourself a cool kid or a total square?I wish I was a cool kid.

🍭   Do you have a sweet tooth?Yeah! Nothing better than some chocolate or pie, but it’s not as bad as Gabriel’s.

🏥   Do hospitals freak you out?Not really. I mean I don’t like them, but I’m so often in one, it kinda gets boring.

🍕   What’s the best pizza topping?Meatlover.

🧘‍♀️   When was the last time you did something just for you?Can’t remember.

🎣   Have you ever been fishing?Yeah a lot. Dad took me already when I was a kid.

👶   Do you want to have children someday?Yes. As soon as we are ready.

🥔   Name your favourite form of the potato.There is no favorite. I love them all.

🌵   Do you have a green thumb?Not at all. Glad Cas has.

🐩   If you have one, name your dream dog(s).Small ones... that don’t remember me of hellhounds?

🍂   Winter, spring, summer or fall?Summer and spring. I hate hunting in the winter or fall, but then again it gives me an excuse to hide into even more flannels.

🐳   Does the ocean freak you out or entice you?Entice me.

🐚   Ever been scuba-diving or deep-sea fishing?Nope! but Scuba-diving sounds amazing.

📸   Do you take a lot of photos?Ehhh I never really did, because why would I? Now I take pictures of Cas or Sam all the time. They hate it.

🎵   Name your three favourite artists/bands.Led Zeppelin, Motorhead, Metallica.

🎵🎵   What about your three favourite genres?Rock, Rock and Rock.

🎸   Can you play an instrument(s)?Never had the time, but I would love to play the guitar.

🔬   What was the best class in high school?P.E. I wanted to be a cheerleader, but couldn’t for obvious reasons.

🔬🔬   What about the worst class?Every other class. I was bad at everything.

🕹   Name the video game you have wasted the most time playing.Never played one.

🕹🕹   Name your favourite video game.I don’t think I even know one.

🔪   Do you have an interest in serial killers or do they just freak you out?Ohh Sammy boy has some real interest about serial killers! Holy shit. I don’t care mostly.

🦗   Do bugs give you the heebie-jeebies?Yes. God there was one time Sammy and I were caged in with a milliion of bugs and NOPE. Never again.

🎱   Confess the last wish you made on a magic 8 ball.Please let Cas love me back.

😑   Describe the most annoying thing ever.I’m so easily annoyed. You ever hunted some asshole ghost completely wet because he threw you into a pool? Fucking annoying to walk back to Baby for three miles in wet clothes. But also small things, when nobody listens to you. When there is a mess in my kitchen. When people assume stuff without knowing me.

☺   Describe the greatest thing ever.Waking up late and cuddling more into the warm sheets, while Cas tightens his arms around me. I love to pretend to be still asleep, just to see what he does.

🏠   Growing up, how was your home life?It was hell. I was practically an adult at the age of six. I mean I love Sammy more than myself (which is not hard btw) and I would take care of him anytime, but I never had... friends or fun and all that jazz.

😜   Are you silly or serious?Silly. But I can be serious if needed.

🥩   Steaks: Well-done, medium-rare, or still mooing?Medium-rare. But lets be honest, I eat every kind.

🍄   In your opinion, are mushrooms tasty little morsels or just a dirty fungus?Ew. I wouldn’t know, I don’t eat that stuff.

🥑   Best way to eat an avocado?To not eat it. :)

⛪   Are you spiritual?Haha, I have no idea how to answer that one.

⛪🕌   If so, describe your beliefs.Well?!?! I obviously believe in everything.

🍔   Burgers or dogs?Does that question imply, people eating dogs is a normal thing? Burgers.

😤   Describe something that gets under your skin.Unfairness.

🧟‍♀️   Do you think the world will end in zombies?Apparently it does, because that is just what happened.

🐉   Is there a dragon you chase?Yes.

🥞   In your personal opinion, should food be free to everyone?YES. Seriously.

🐍   What animal are you scared of, if any?Spiders and snakes. @anangelamuse-castiel-spnfam

[majdalenaska]

Up in the air aka glorified waitress

Today it’s been exactly two years since I officially started my cabin crew journey and working for Norwegian Air, hence I‘ve decided to start a blog. Let’s see how it goes..

Below I describe my 6 days‘ trip down route. I hope you will enjoy it a bit and get a little glimpse into my flying world.

I’m talking to a young girl in the elevator; she looks at me in my uniform and says: „Wow, you are a cabin crew? Well, in fact she meant to say : „ Wow you are so lucky, you get to travel the whole world“!

That made me smile, but deep down I thought, hmm that’s a bit of  an overstatement.

No, really, many of my friends have a bit biased ideas about this world of flying and what it really feels like to work on a plane. Initially, I was very naive as well, not having a clue as to how I was going to feel on board, how I was going to interact with passengers from different countries and cultures who speak languages that I might not understand. What it is like  meeting a different crew every single flight - a bunch of folks who you have never met before, and  having to pretend you are proficient enough to provide excellent customer service.

No one can prepare you for the actual flight and being on board. The jetlagg, the anxiety, stress and fatique but with time it all goes away and you get used to it, somehow.

But, on the other hand, who can say they’ve had a steak for dinner in one of the most famous restaurant in Buenos Aires and danced Tango with one of the locals? Or who gets to experience flying in the skies at 39 000 ft every week using a Dreamliner 787 as their office? And  getting paid for all the traveling around the world? To sum it up all, I’d say my life is kinda up and down, literally.

This week I’ve had a 6 days‘ trip: London-New York-Madrid-New York-Madrid-London, sounds awful, doesn’t it? It is kind of an odd pattern but since we cover the workload of other bases, we have to be ready anytime for anything. This is aviation! Sometimes you never know where you could be flying next.

28.8./ 8:20 CET- London Gatwick            

         I meet my crew at Costa coffee at Gatwick and first introductions can begin. There are over 800 crews in Norwegian, so in most cases you will see everyone for the first time, and there is a little chance that you will be flying with someone you’ve already met before. I really appreciate when I see someone I’ve worked with on my previous flights, so there is a slight possibility. I’m feeling a bit awkward, I don’t seem to know anyone. I am not keen on small talk but there is no other choice. The flight crew aren‘t looking very happy today but maybe a smile from  cabin crew will cheer them up.

Together we are headed on board and in the forward cabin (PREMIUM) we have a quick briefing before the flight. Our senior assigns positions of the door which we are responsible for. Together we talk through all emergency questions and also discuss first aid topics. The Captain provides us with information regarding turbulences and the flight time, which is the only information everyone’s been waiting for. I’m feeling tired, didn’t have a good night’s sleep , but once the meal service starts, I am ready to go. The flight runs relatively smoothly, we do have an enormous bunch of orders though, which is not ideal, if there are only 8 cabin crew in total. Flights, especially to NYC, are ridicilously busy sometimes.

   We finish the service and half the crew can hit the crew rest, which is located at the rear of the cabin. It’s my turn so I can get myself into the little bunk, close my eyes trying to get some rest;this is so far the best part of the flight. If anyone of my readers has ever flown on a Boeing 787 before - please keep reading. You can find the lavatories on the other side of the crew rest and if you see the sign CABIN CREW ONLY , please stay away, this is definitely not a lavatory. You might wonder why I mention this, but 99% of our passengers do try to open our doors and fail miserably.

Anyway, we get to New York city around 1 PM local time (18.00 CET), and since this airport is one of the busiest airports out there we sometimes spend around 45 minutes taxing to the gate and waiting and waiting… (the worst part of a flight)

15:30 local time/ 20 : 30 CET – New York City

Two hours later, we finally reach our hotel in Manhattan; the whole journey from the airport can take up to 1 hour. But we stay in a hotel in Manhattan, so no one complains really. Everyone gets to their rooms and we talk about what to do later. We plan a rooftop bar in Brooklyn, but it starts raining, bummer. I take a shower and a short nap, since later I plan on going to Whole Foods with one of my colleagues. Shouldn’t have done that; after waking up I feel so drained that I am only capable of going downstairs for a pizza at the corner.

The pizza tastes delicious though and I put a Netflix on, unwind and relax. At 8 o´clock I can’t keep my eyes open anymore and I fall asleep. At 2 am I wake up and lie around in bed till 5 am. Thank you jet lag! Being an experienced flight attendant, however, I do have my morning routine. I do a bit of yoga, meditate and head for the coast to have a jog, which works perfect for jetlagg issues. You usually need a buddy who will drag you out of the bed, though. This time I pulled it off on my own!

It really feels amazing to be jogging along the Hudson river at 7 am, passing thrilled New Yorkers with their dogs and strollers, thinking about how awesome it might be to actually live here. After a while, I sit on a bench, listen to music and admire the views over Manhattan and get carried away. I come for a run here every single morning.

   Back at the hotel, I go downstairs to have breakfast and meet the rest of my crew. A big breakfast makes me  tired once again, so no big plans for today, I’m afraid. But maybe  I could manage some shopping in Century 21 and a lunch in Whole foods? ( BTW This place is awesome, just don’t get too carried away, otherwise you’ll be crying at the till.) Later we fly back to Madrid and I desperately long for a good night’s sleep. Tough luck, though.

I play a meditation video to calm me down but it’s pointless.

   29.8/21:15 local time( 02:15 CET)- New York City

It’s not ideal to start your flight at 3 am European time, as you can imagine. Anyway, in the world of flight attendants you get used to anything…anything at all. One hour on a bus to the airport, one hour taxing to the gate…man, I am drained. I am sitting on my jumpseat about 50 minutes and there are 3 passengers sitting opposite  me.( Cabin crew  must smile no matter what, so wakey wakey Magdalena!) Luckily all  the passengers are asleep so I can relax. The flight is stress and turbulence free and it only takes  6 hours and 30 minutes,yay. Well, sometimes it is rather enjoyable. Although every flight is utterly different, to be honest. Fatique, arguments with passengers, arguments with  crew, fainting passengers, drunk passengers…take your pick. But, hooray, today no one has vomitted on me and I haven‘t spilled any drinks on anyone. Not yet, at least.

30.8/14:35 local time - Madrid

We are thrilled arriving in Madrid. My idea of the upcoming days looks like this: The sun, the pool and chill. I leave my uniform in the hotel room and in the evening I meet my colleagues from Hungary and Poland. Together we set off towards the center of Madrid. The plan is to stroll around the city and get some Tapas and Sangria. We are lucky enough to be guided by one of our colleagues who is local in Madrid.

He shows us a few places of interests. I am mainly excited by the beautiful park called Cuarttel de la Montana, which gives you a stunning view over the city. We can‘t possibly finish our evening in Madrid without visiting the local Chocolateria San Gines, where the best Churros is made. The next day we explore the shopping mall next door, and spend a great time relaxing at the pool and regaining energy for the upcoming night flight.

31.8./18:25 local time

All bags packed and prepared, I am headed down to the lobby to meet my crew. We are flying back to New York City, which I am not really keen on, due to my poor sleep on the  East Coast. Interestingly, lately I‘ve preferred flying to the West coast of USA where I don’t have a major issue with jetlagg and sleep.( Though it only took  a year and half to get used to all those time differences, haha.)  We have a nice flight, the only trouble being  that almost 80% of all passengers are Spanish speaking, so we send our only Spanish speaking colleague L. everywhere we can. L. is not that excited about the situation. We have a small issue with a passenger who  refuses to give up on her own meal with nuts. Unfortunately for her, we have a passenger on board, who is allergic to nuts and hence it’s strictly forbidden to be eating anything containing nuts. But Mrs. B. is not happy about that and complains that she only eats foods that are vegan, gluten free an organic and we can’t really provide that from our snack bar, according to her. I try my best explaining and offering something else but in the end I have to call my senior. We bribe her with a freshly made coffee which is the only thing  she is willing to consume. Anyway, at the end of the flight. Mrs. B opens up her own meal box risking an anaphylactic shock for the poor passenger. Fortunately, nothing happens and her meal doesn‘t trigger an allergic reaction. It really feels  utterly frustrating that although we do our best to explain the seriousness of the situation, Mrs. B. ignores everything we say and put the life of a co - passenger at a risk. I think it is outrageous  how some people are so ignorant and arrogant. Yet, there‘s so much more a cabin crew can come up against  and have to deal with.( I just can‘t really stress enough the  importance of  working on yourself, your resiliance and patience, to be able to face all those kinds of challenges without ever losing your head and nerve.)

Another situation comes up with a lady  complaining about not getting a seat in exit row , where she can hang up a bassinet for her baby during the flight. Since she only speaks spanish, my colleague L.  apologizes to her saying that they must have made a mistake at the check in desk and she will have to take another seat unfortunately.

Service is taking ages and is not pleasant at all, no one can understand me, but eventually I am good to go with Vino Bianco and Vino Rosso. Spanish is not that difficult after all.

We get to the Manhattan hotel at  around 1 am in the morning, which is 6 am European time. Having an alcoholic beverage goes aside and I am only focused on my beautiful bed on 23rd floor. I am so tired  I would happily stay in that cosy warm bed until tomorrow’s pick up. But I forget I am at East coast so I am up at 6.30 heading for  breakfast. I don’t feel like running today, apologies Hudson river. After breakfast I feel drowsy again, I roll in the bed and put on some Netflix. I get my lunch in Preta Manger nearby and go back to my hotel room. You‘re thinking right, jetlagg is not an easy beast sometimes.

1.9 /21.15 local tme- 02.15 CET- New York

Here comes the very last working flight of this pattern and we are going back to Madrid, yay, feels like Dejavu. On the way to the JFK airport everyone falls asleep since it takes about an hour to get there and it is quite late in the evening. What is the best thing about night flights? Almost every passenger is fast asleep before the take off, awesome! We have a quiet time in both galleys and  the flight only takes 6,5 hours, which is a big plus of NYC flights. Compared it with Buenos Aires, which is about 13 hours from London Gatwick, a bit of a  difference, eh?

2.9. /12:59 CET – Madrid

We’ve arrived in Madrid but our flight back to London Gatwick is due in 5 hours. We are lucky enough to  have our hotel booked for us so we can refresh and relax for a bit. We don’t operate this flight- it is called DEADHEADING, which means, that we fly as passengers in our civil clothes. We get to Gatwick around 7.30 in the evening and everything seems great. There wasn’t any delay, no baggage was lost, everything is as should be.  Around 10 o’clock in the evening I get home and order a pizza and a beer from Deliveroo. Unpacking my suitcase can wait till tomorrow - I fall into my cosy bed and I am not getting out of it for the next 12 hours.