#kanika lawton

[typewriter-worries]

It's world poetry day so here are some of my favorite poems:

Failing and Flying by Jack Gilbert

What the Living Do by Marie Howe

Night Walk by Franz Wright

Crossword by Lloyd Schwartz

The Great Fires by Jack Gilbert

Love Train by Tomás Q. Morín

Divorced Fathers and Pizza Crusts by Mark Halliday

Perhaps the World Ends Here by Joy Harjo

in another string of the multiverse, perhaps by Michaella Batten

acknowledgments by Danez Smith

Death Wish by Josh Alex Baker

San Francisco by Richard Brautigan

How to Watch Your Brother Die by Michael Lassell

You Are the Penultimate Love of My Life by Rebecca Hazelton

On Political(ized) Life by Kanika Lawton

All the Dead Boys Look Like Me by Christopher Soto

It Was the Animals by Natalie Diaz

In Time by W.S. Merwin

It Is Maybe Time to Admit That Michael Jordan Definitely Pushed Off by Hanif Abdurraqib

Dear Life by Maya C. Popa

I Could Touch It by Ellen Bass

To The Young Who Want To Die by Gwendolyn Brooks

Accident Report in the Tall, Tall Weeds by Ada Limón

[sicknessinmotion]

your god, my god – sean glatch // kanika lawton // katie maria // anne carson // karl ove knausgaard.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

"And I am still / to blame for that night. Why do my hands still feel like blood?"

Kanika Lawton, Hot Mess, "Vagabond City"

[dysphoresque]

[healerking]

Everything I do is out of love; which means I am constantly splitting myself in half, which means I am both the knife and the waiting flesh, urging myself to be gentle, breaking apart instead. It was Butler who said misrecognition lies at the heart of the scene of address, meaning even when I do not respond to the calls, even when I shrug off their wandering hands, even when I cut off my own ears, it was meant for me: dyke crawling from acid tongue, Asian bitch from leering mouth. No one asks what you really are before grinding you into dirt — I taste like rancid blood. I taste like the earth set aflame. I say I love you as if that will protect me; once I folded myself into your arms and everything went quiet. I always walk behind men who feel like my father — my hands know anger but they’ve been cut to the bone. I wonder what it’s like to be a body left alone; I don’t mean to be bitter, but I’ve been chewing on rotten fruit since birth, turning myself pulp before they can tear me to shreds. The nurses didn’t believe my mother was my mother. Perhaps my face was too pink with new skin, or maybe soft rage. Or maybe unbridled sorrow. I didn’t come screaming into the world — The cord around my neck made sure of that.

Kanika Lawton, “On Political(ized) Life”

[sentientsky]

Kanika Lawton, “Girl as Burning,” Wildfire Heart

petition for crowley to fistfight god in s3

[tubborucho]

Tubbo and Badboyhalo – To teach is to learn

This one has not a lot to do with canon and everything to do with a faint AU in my head I can’t stop mulling over. So yeah, a bit OOC. But I wanted to make it c:

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credits:

1. https://pin.it/51VnYzw

•=•What are you asking•=•

2. Quote by Louise Glück

3. https://pin.it/4hPLYSI

4. “Places I’ve Taken My Body” Molly McCully Brown

5. Pink Floyd – The Final Cut

6. https://pin.it/e0deI5Y

7. Quote by Sylvia Plath

8. https://pin.it/66Z1qm0

9. https://pin.it/sjwLM4S

•=•What I will teach you•=•

10. “A Self-Portrait In Letters” Anne Sexton

11. Quote by Stephen King

12. https://pin.it/3h66DI5

13. The Green Knight (2021)

14. https://pin.it/1GFid8J

15. https://pin.it/41v0qZI

16. “Eating Snake” Margaret Atwood

17. “The Queen of the Damned” Anne Rice

18. https://pin.it/4gHV6RX

19. “South and West” Joan Didion

•=•What you will learn•=•

20. https://pin.it/2M9Mp3j

21. Quote by Fyodor Dostoevsky

22. Quote by Warsan Shire

23. “2 Truths and a Lie” Angelia Lowes

24. https://pin.it/3YNHTFG

25. “A Living Chattel” Anton Chekhov

26. https://pin.it/4dh3MCR

27. Quote by Eric LaRocca

28. @.cultof-aphrodite

29. https://pin.it/6HVZFin

•=•What I will realize as well•=•

30. Quote by Kurt Vonnegut

31. Japanese Breakfast – Boyish

32. “Caffeine, Pt.1” Sean Glatch

33. “My Own Deep Soul”

34. https://pin.it/2BZfYgO

35. https://pin.it/6qmkxyC

36. “Hot Mess” Kanika Lawton

37. https://pin.it/4Fwh6jy

38. https://pin.it/7chb5vs

39. Quote by Anne Sexton

[star-girlfriend]

will you still love me if it turns out i’m insane?

matsuyama_miyabi tumblr // elana dykewomon notes for a magazine, sinister wisdom #36 // boygenius we’re in love, the record // unknown // kanika lawton Girl as Burning, wildfire heart // fromshivi on Instagram // alexandra levasseur dancer II // boygenius me & my dog

[lilbirdblu]

q!Charlie & q!Mariana, on grief and guilt

four plays by euripides, anne carson | half light, frank bidart | romance or the end, elaine kahn | google search results | black leopard, red wolf, marlon james | this is how you lose the time war, amal el-mohtar and max gladstone | unknown | c.s. lewis | undertale + unknown | hot mess, kanika lawton | unknown | a house in nebraska, ethel cain | the moving target, w.s. merwin | remember me, coco | letters to vera, vladimir nabokov

qsmp web weaves

[guulabii]

on fathers,

when sylvia path wrote "there is your dead father who is somwhere in you," and when nicola yoon wrote "growing up and seeing your parents' flaws is like losing your religion, i don't believe in god anymore, i don't believe in my father either", and when blythe baird wrote, "half daughter, half apology, all fire and the wrong kind of love", and when key ballah wrote "your father could have been kinder, he could have been gentler, he could have held his tongue and his fists", and when katie maria wrote "my head spins and i am back in my childhood home where love doesn't exist", and when annie ernaux wrote "i am still searching for my father's love in all the corners of the world", and when clementine von radics wrote "every time a man yells, you are seven years old again and he is packing that suitcase, once more picking you up by the neck, teaching you obedience, to be soft like the belly of a fish exposed to a knife", and when amatullah bourdon wrote, "'you were my father', he wanted to say, 'so why couldn't you be my father?"' and when kanika lawton wrote, "i always walk behind men who feel like my father", and when desireé dallagiacomo wrote "and i think that's what a father is- a blade that never stops cutting", and when catherine lacy wrote, "if you're raised with an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house, you will find him even when he is not there and if one day you find that there is no angry man in your house- well, you will go find one and invite him in!" and when augustin gómez-arcos wrote, "the word 'father' rotted in my mouth",

[the-feral-gremlin]

Sun bleach flies by Ethel Cain // Lullabies for Little Criminals by Heather O’Neill// The brother Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoyevsky// the civil war by Anne sexton // girl as burning by Kanika Lawton //??

[typewriter-worries]

On Political(ized) Life, Kanika Lawton

[ Text ID: I say I love you as if that will / protect me; once I folded myself into your arms and / everything went quiet. ]

[the-ghost-bird]

Instinct; I'm sick of the chase but I'm hungry for blood.

Adam Raised A Cain by Bruce Springsteen | Excerpt from letter to Bill Bufford by Martha Gellhorn | In The Dream House by Carmen Maria Machado | Starvation by Maya Angelou | Plainwater by Anne Carson | Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente I Belovéd; Slaughterhouse by Yves Olade | The Stream Of Life by Clarice Lispector | I Used To Be A Hole In The Ground by Katie Maria | A Dowry Of Blood by S. T. Gibson | Dennis Lehane from Shutter Island | Judas Goat by Gabrielle Bates | Stratis The Sailor Among The Agapathi by George Seferis | The Third Hour Of The Night by Frank Bidart | White Oleander by Janet Fish | Not A Girl by Ashe Vernon | Blasphemies At The 5th Street Station by S. Osborn | The Civil War By Anne Sexton | Girl As Burning by Kanika Lawton | Wishbone by Richard Silken | via @itsmeyirah

[asoftepiloguemylove]

ON BLOOD

Kanika Lawton, Vagabond City / Jen Mazza Peripety Project / Herakles Euripides (tr. Anne Carson) / unknown / Ama Asantewa Diaka Woman, Eat Me Whole / Erin Slaughter The Sorrow Festival / Jen Mazza Peripety Project

[druidgroves]

musings of the lone wanderer - florence gallagher

revelations 21:6, kjv / catherynne m. valente, deathless / sensitive, unknown / silas denver melvin, grit: a poetry collection / sylvia plath, the unabrigded journals of sylvia plath / kaveh akbar, pilgrim bell: poems; forfeiting my mystique / ada limón, the echo sounder / nicola yoon, the sun is also a star / kanika lawton, girl as burning, wildfire heart / user @/ojibwa / undertale / revelations 21:6, niv

[caseyscartwright]

I always walk behind men who feel like my father — my hands know anger but they’ve been cut to the bone. I wonder what it’s like to be a body left alone; I don’t mean to be bitter, but I’ve been chewing on rotten fruit since birth, turning myself pulp before they can tear me to shreds. -Kanika Lawton