#kinnporsche episode 13

[ravenpureforever]

I think the best part of KinnPorsche, and it really comes to mind with this latest episode, is that every character thinks they’re in a different genre and it’s the funniest thing watching it clash with the reality.

Kinn is just living his best rom-com life where he falls for his sassy but kind assistant bodyguard that he can no longer live with out.

Porsche is basically a YA novel where he falls for his sexy morally ambiguous love interest who’s secretly sweet but *gasp* his past has come to haunt him!

Pete thinks he’s in a dark psychological thriller where he must battle his inner demons and brooding but hot captor to maintain his humanity but it threatens to over take him at any moment as he is torn between his newly found dark desires and the reputation he prides himself on.

Vegas acts like he’s in gothic bodice ripper novel where his entire world becomes the kind, empathic heroine Pete and he will do anything to keep him to himself and Pete is going to help him overcome the truama of his past with his love.

Kim sees himself in this brooding noir style detective film where he must uncover the dark past of his family but oh no he finds himself falling for the pure and sweet ingénue Chay and must wrestle with the dangerous life he leads and the mission he’s devoted himself to and the love of his life

Porchay thought he’s living his Wattpad dream life where he meets his idol and gains his respect as he tutors him and they slowly develop a sweet friendship that turns into a heartfelt romance

They really demonstrate how all the characters are protagonists of their own story, and that’s how they make their decisions, based on the assumptions on the world around them. They think they know the story their in, and that’s the role they have taken, but the tragedy and the complications of these relationships is that they aren’t in a single genre story. They’re people, achingly human people, interacting with other complex people and what is salvation for one is a damnation for the other.

They aren’t in any specific genre (you know, beyond on the whole mafia thing) and that’s where the miscommunication happens, that’s how the drama unfolds, that’s how all these different romances keep missing each other, because they’re all operating on different wavelengths based on the story they think *THEY’RE* in and not stopping to really consider the other perspective.

It’s absolutely hilarious, it’s terribly tragic, it’s utterly beautiful and performed so well by the writers and the actors.

[mousydentist]

KPTS TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY APRIL 9-10

Favorite Episode - 13

KP Anniversary Series [3/?]

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

#one of kim’s most vulnerable onscreen moments #and arguably the moment kim realized he loved porchay #so much #that he didn’t want to be lying to porchay anymore

[kinnspocketporsche]

Rewrite: Starting over

Why?

Don't think about the parallels, don't think about Pete having an actual answer this time around, don't think about how "I can't run off to anywhere" isn't just Pete choosing Vegas, it's Pete deciding to give himself no other choice. He's not just refusing to run off, he's not allowing it to be an option. Handing the rope to Vegas, all over again.

If you run now, I'm alright with that.

Don't think about Vegas being unconditionally selfless for the first time and giving Pete a way out anyway. Don't think about how this is better than all of the apologies because they're literally rewriting their lowest moment, going back and correcting all the wrongs of the past in order to move foward.

I got nothing left.

For sure don't think about this fucking line getting reused. Reframed. Don't think about the way it was originally Pete who was split open, hurt and empty, the fight drained out of him. How this was Pete with nothing left to give. Don't think about how now the fight is out of Vegas. How his will to keep taking is gone.

I don't want to be your burden. I just want to follow my heart.

Don't think about this confirmation that staying isn't just what Pete needs, what Vegas needs, it's what they both want.

From now on, you're no longer my pet. You're the most important person in my life.

Don't think about how it's so important for to them that they have this conversation in full before they even consider touching each other. Don't think about the way healing is important to them. Don't think about how KP said "Can we start all over?" and VP went ahead and did this.

Are y'all fucking??? Okay??????? Because I'm not.

[hilema]

[discluded]

wait pond hid in the bushes to film the pool scene?? I didn't know that 😭🤣

I was joking, but only the wording! I don't think there was actually a bush on the rooftop (at least from the angles they shot from)!

Friends, let's talk about the LORE of KPTS Episode 13's Pool Scene.

Basically, several memorable scenes in the series were just Pond (director/producer, and CEO of BOC whom we are judging for that right now) walking by a scene and thinking it looked beautiful and decided they were going to film a scene there.

One of them was the episode 6 bath scene. (And yes, it's possible to get the handcuffs off, I thought the same thing when I first watched. No I'm not looking it for you, find the proof yourself!)

Another one was them was the pool in the hotel suite they used as Kinn's room in the series.

tweet / translation

So yes, it was very limited staff, like all of the NC scenes.

The pool scene was entirely improvised by Mile and Apo. I'm sure the two of them discussed what they were going to do in the scene before it was shot, but improvised as in there was no specific direction. Pond told them they were going to shoot there and what the tone of the scene was.

So all the sexiness including Porsche mock pinning Kinn before Kinn slide him across the pool and railing him against the backdrop of nighttime Bangkok and Deutsche Bank was all on Mile and Apo. 😍🥰 *sighs dreamily*

Actually, since I just reblogged this old pride photo a few days ago. This is actually what I was thinking of when I reblogged it.

It was very beautiful art they made together...

There's so much to say about this, but I'll keep it short. Like all of Kinn and Porsche's sex scenes, it served narrative purpose. The physical and verbal affirmation that they loved each other and are on each other's sides before all the shit that hits the fan in the 11:30th hour.

@dancinbutterfly wrote this beautiful meta about Mile and Apo's reaction video when the two of them watched it together the first time too. I highly recommended everyone read it if they haven't!

[thatgirl4815]

Touching

Vegas will really do anything to get close to Pete, and that involves risking both of their lives grappling for a gun. Not sure what Vegas was thinking grabbing the pistol from Pete and shoving him against the pole here, but it’s clearly an instinctual move. An “I’m gonna make you listen to me!” gesture which, in hindsight, is not the best approach to take with the man you’ve repeatedly abused. Did Vegas forget that Pete left after he pushed him against the wall in a very similar fashion? See:

Their positioning in these shots is remarkably similar, which makes me think we’re meant to compare them. Vegas is caught in his own cycle of violence, and he doesn’t know how to break free of it. It makes a lot of sense, considering. He’s made a habit of torturing people, so touching/manhandling is typical for him. His father also has no problem touching him to make him listen, so Vegas subconsciously uses touch to try to make others listen as well.

So when Pete rejects that touch, it’s a huge wake-up call for him; a reminder that if he’s truly sorry, he can’t treat Pete that way anymore. It’s why the tenderness of their other touches seems so prominent--like Vegas’s kiss during the escape scene, or the way Pete gently brushes his cheek. The contrast is there to show what Vegas is capable of, though he keeps rejecting due to his own toxic habits.

[crystallinemoonlight]

Okay but Vegas & Pete both giving up when the other threatens the thing they care about most: Vegas threatened Pete's grandmother, and Pete threatened himself

[blue-grama]

KinnPorsche: Regular relationship problems with a mafia twist. We had the getting together arc (complete with no less than 3 kidnappings), the ex-boyfriend arc (just one kidnapping, I think?), and now the in-law problems arc (does attic-wifing fall under kidnapping?).

Vegas should focus more on areas where he genuinely outshines Kinn. Like cooking.

Gun's suits are fitted so tight. Ridiculous, I love it.

It stresses me out how much ramen broth gets spilled in this torture dungeon.

Tankhun's bare-chested funeral look. Porsche hiding behind his boyfriend.

Unlike his older brother, Kim is determined not to drag a Kittisawatd boy into his mafia bullshit. But he's so very very alone. 🥺

Their whole frenemy thing is so intriguing.

You two are a mess but I guess that's working for you?

I loooove the graveside scene. I'm a sucker for the whole 'meet the dead parents' trope anyway, and this was such a sweet way for Kinn to reaffirm that he's all in with Porsche, even as he knows Porsche is hiding something. Putting all that work on his trust issues into practice.

It's totally wild that this scene was pretty much improvised.

We did not get nearly enough Theerapanyakul brother solidarity in KP so I'm enjoying these crumbs.

Going FULL LAKORN with the getting shot mid-sentence. Good for them.

This incest cliffhanger was cheap and completely unneccesary, but fortunately it's also very funny.

[pastelcheckereddreams]

Hear me out, okay: Pete’s breakdown in episode 13 has a lot to do with Tankhun. 

I know!!! I don’t want to think bad of Tankhun either! Tankhun is so earnest about Pete being missing - and even perhaps reveals too much of his own sharp intuition to Porsche, because as far as Porsche knew to this point, Tankhun doesn’t keep track of anything but his dramas. Which is how it’s supposed to seem. Which brings me to the next scene with Pete: 

Allow me a little play-by-play commentary, because damnit, I can’t take Vegas’s face in episode 13. The way horror dawns across his face as Pete says, “I’ve lost my humanity. No - I never had it. I don’t exist. I have no feelings. I’m useless.” All the while forcing Vegas to hold a knife to his throat. 

It’s the way Vegas utters, “Pete.” Helplessly, like it slipped out before he even knew what he was saying. Sexy, Vegas called him. Strong. “It’s no fun if you don’t choose.” He wants to know someone chooses him. 

But Pete - “I don’t exist”, he’s not allowed to have feelings, or a choice. “I didn’t like it,” Pete whispers to himself - a confession. Private, secret. Pete asked himse, “Why didn’t I say no?” Because in his job, in his life, he’s not allowed to say no - not allowed to have a voice. And for all that Pete may have wanted Vegas, he didn’t want him - like this. No choice. No humanity.

This is Pete, unfettered. Raw. Unmasked. And Vegas can’t believe how blind he’s been. His mouth falters around silent vowels as his throat works to gasp in air. 

It’s the way they wrestle for grasp of the knife, the way Pete screams “Let go!” and Vegas backs away instantly, hands raised and voice cracking - “Pete. Pete.”

“We can start over,” he says, “Just you and me.”

But here it is, the line that wrecked me:

“Need me? For emotional projection, like a pet with no feelings?” I initially read it as protection, but the implication is the same.

There is a parallel here between Vegas and Tankhun. I can’t help but think about Pete, and Arm and Pol, and how their job is laughed off as “babysitting”. Keeping the mad former heir happy and safe, emotionally stable in a realm of escapism. Just see how distressed Tankhun is without Pete (but, my love for Tankhun angrily whispers, he is distressed for Pete - although Pete doesn’t know this).

And isn’t that what the safehouse has been for Vegas? An escape? Where he has kept Pete like a pet. And isn’t that similar to how Tankhun keeps his bodyguards? Leashed to the newest kdrama. Think forward to how Tankhun makes literal dolls of Arm and Pol, to offer at Pete’s “funeral.” 

With all that context, I keep thinking about Pete walking in, drunk, on Kinn and Porsche. He latched onto the easiest source of distraction, of emotional sedation, of relaxation for himself and Tankhun: alcohol. If he had truly had fun, he could’ve just gone to bed (and unknowingly left KinnPorsche to their semi-public sex kink). But he came back out, to talk to Porsche. To tell him of his evening. It sounds more and more desperate and lonely, the more I think about it.

So Pete feels like a glorified pet, and Pete has seen exactly how the lifespan of Vegas’s pets expire: in a cage. They are loved, but it is a desperate kind, born of anxiety. (My father had me care for them, Vegas said. All of them died, one by one.) And he just - can’t do it anymore. It was one thing, to endure emotionally. But physically? Giving himself up bodily to Vegas? It finally broke him.

[”What the heck is this?!”]

Vegas’s flinch though as Pete lashes out. God, it’s a traumafest up in here.

And then - god, Build does such a good job at displaying the pure anguish Pete feels at attacking Vegas, touch flittering over him in apology while at the same time patting him down for the handcuff key.

Because at his core, Pete cares. And Pete - Pete knows Vegas knew that. That’s why he couldn’t accept Vegas’s plea - “Okay, Pete, just - promise me you won’t leave me.” It felt like a manipulation.

But Pete finally makes a choice. He chooses himself. He chooses self-preservation. 

And he could just run, let’s not forget that. He could run. But he doesn’t. He goes back to the main family, because it’s what he knows. It’s safe. I suddenly realise how little Pete has. Bodyguard to the main family - that’s the only identity we really know. The only identity he knows.

He chooses to go back. That is the first choice Pete will make for himself. 

The second will come much later - when he chooses his heart over his duty. Vegas was right, when he said his tattoo was a joke. It was just another shackle. Maybe he could get it replaced. I’m sure Vegas or Porsche know a guy.

The important point is: Pete chooses what his heart wants. And despite knowing all his flaws, he chooses Vegas anyway. Because he’s seen the good in him. 

“It’s no fun if you don’t choose.” You’re right, Pete thinks. And I choose you. 

...

But I can’t just leave it there. I have to circle back to Tankhun, because I can’t smear him like that. Honestly, I think Tankhun hides a lot from his bodyguards. Pete, unable to see the depths of him, feels toyed with. But Arm - I think Arm gets it. We see in the final episode, Arm and Tankhun have developed a toy together. It’s fun, it’s explosive, it’s unhinged yet makes an impact. Arm can see Tankhun for who he really is: the former heir, with all his faculties and training, burdened by trauma but not shackled by it. Not since Porsche came along. But ultimately, I think it’s a side of himself Tankhun only feels safe allowing his family to see, lest the minor family come for him again. 

“He’s nosy,” Tankhun tells Porchay about Kim. “He gets that from me.”

Kim certainly is nosy. Conspiracy-theorist pinboard nosy. Tracking a dozen leads at a time nosy. He got that from Tankhun. 

Let that sink in. 

Then remember again, how Tankhun worried for Pete, and went to Kinn and Porsche - and Porsche - to air his worries. He only lets family see beyond his mask.

Again and again, I keep seeing these small signs: Porsche is family now. 

[ravenpureforever]

So I know we all joke about Porchay living his best Wattpad life, myself included, but I think we all kind of ignore how Kim just never dissuaded him from that notion and how we find that genre dissonance between Porsche & Kim’s view (and often our audience view) of Chay and how he actually acts, and we’re all sleeping on the mini character arc he’s gotten over the course of the series.

Porsche and Kim don’t want Chay to get caught up in the mafia world, and they both seem to view him in the same lense: he’s innoncent, sweet, incorruptible.

But Chay has fucking balls man, and he’s a lot more resilient than people give him credit for. He also ignores red flags like he’s color blind. We don’t get to see much of him, but the glimpses we do get show there is so much more beneath the surface.

First:

Man grew up with Porsche & a dead beat Uncle, you telling me he didn’t see some shit growing up? No matter how well Porsche protected him, Chay is the one dressing his wounds when he comes back from fighting, Chay still hears the loan sharks coming for his Uncle, he’s growing up watching his older brother as really the only source of income for his household. And he can’t do anything about it. Watching episode 1, when Chay asks Porsche to let him get a job and help out, it feels like they’ve had this conversation before, it feels resigned, it feels like a final quiet plea of “we’ve talked about this before, but please, please, please just consider it.” But Porsche says no, I’m going to take care of it and I can’t help but think of the impact that has, of watching the person he loves most get beat down again and again and not being able to do anything about it. I feel like Chay probably grew up being the peacekeeper, the one trying to keep the waters calm. Its clear he knows he’s his brother’s world, that his brother has done so much to keep him sheltered and happy, and I can think of Porsche teaching Chay manners, teaching him ideals of being kind to others and Chay just internalizing it and deciding “ah yes, so this is my role in the family, this is how I can help my brother.” Chay probably felt a lot of pressure, no matter how unintentionally and how unconditionally Porsche loves him, to be a reason why his brother is doing all of this, he’s probably hyper aware of how he’s Porsche’s motivation, that everything his brother does is for him. That does things to your self-worth, to how you view yourself. I get the feeling hasn’t had any agency over his own life before, he’s always been the princess locked in the tower, aware of the war but not allowed to participate. His happily ever has been chosen and now he just has to see it through.

Then literally overnight, he wakes up and his Uncle has vanished, and his brother has left with just a fairly suspicious note about pursuing his dream that’ll completely be able to fully support Chay. His entire way of living has transformed, and now he’s completely alone. He went from princess locked in a tower as a war rages on to a Queen of a decimated kingdom. He can not grieve, he can only have faith and move forward.

This is also how I realized Chay has practically been designed to ignore all red flags and interpret them as something else.

Enter Kim, stage right. Enter Chay’s wattpad fantasy come to life, also stage right.

When Chay meets Kim, he is someone who has literally nothing to lose throwing himself out there. My boy literally just recites an encyclopedia knowledge of “Wik, sir, you are my hyper fixation” all in the hopes of getting that T-shirt. And it works! His idol signs his T-shirt, he gets to talk to his idol, he has been rewarded for putting himself out there!

So go big or go home right? He might as well try asking for a tutor when asked if there’s anything he wants. And he’s shot down. No big deal, he moves on and has merch thats going to be the envy of the Wik fandom.

But then his idol calls him, and says he’ll tutor him. Wik remembered him, remembered his request, and then proceeded to hunt down a way to get Chay’s phone number and call him personally in order to tell him he’s decided to he’s going to help him get into the his dream department that he himself is apart of.

Its easy to view Chay from Kim’s perspective, as an excitable fanboy with a crush, but we forget how Kim looks from Chay’s perspective. So lets look on how everything seems from Chay’s perspective.

Chay put himself out there, made a decision solely for himself and what he wants and now his idol wants to tutor him. He’s been actively rewarded twice now, by the same person, for asserting what he wants and trying to get it. He’s gotten his cake and is eating it too. He has a celebrity crush like most people get, only his celebrity crush is now making the effort to genuinely get to know him. 

Wik tells Chay his name is Kim, he’s being open and vulnerable to Chay, and he’s trusting him with his identity. Kim asks about his brother, even though Chay didn’t tell him, red flag to any normal person citing he saw Chay’s screensaver and made an assumption. Kim is taking an interest in his life, he notices little details about him, and is asking to here more about the coolest person in the world, his brother and even noticed how much Chay loves Porsche that he wants Chay to write a song about it! He even trusts Chay enough to ask for his phone when Kim’s phone has died, even though that’ll mean there’s important numbers in Chay’s call history, and he trusts that Chay won’t take advantage of them!

And maybe Chay starts to fall a bit in love with Kim. Not Wik, but Kim, who’s a little bit insecure, a little bit awkward, but is making all this effort for Chay.

For Chay, it isn’t anything manipulative or suspicious, he’s becoming friends Kim, they’re sharing information about themselves, they’re bonding now, and he’s been shown that if he pushes, Kim will stay. Chay is all alone now, he has to take care of himself, but if he makes an effort and keeps putting himself out there, if he makes his wants known, Kim comes to him. Kim trusts him, and as long as Chay takes the initiative, he also makes the effort to bond with Chay.

Then Porsche comes back! Chay isn’t alone anymore, and they’re happy and safe and Porsche isn’t getting beat up! And then Porsche once again immediately leaves without a word and few days later you get the first call you’ve gotten from him since he left the first time and now he’s back at work and doesn’t know when he’ll be back again. He’s all alone, and his brother has seem to get a new life that once again Chay’s not allowed to be apart of.

But then Kim shows up at his house! And Chay immediately throws his brother under the bus in a desperate bid to keep Kim’s good opinion of him, once again, gotta admire the sheer balls and audacity of that move. Then Kim gifts him one of his guitars! Porsche do you understand how easily your brother could be taken advantage of do you? Sure he almost gets the heart attack of Kim discovering his shrine, but what teenager doesn’t have posters on the wall of his favorite singer? Maybe it’s weird that he wants Chay to go get the food for them both, but he could have an important phone call to make, he could be nervous going out in public where people could recognize him! Then when he gets back Kim asks him about his love life! Kim ruffles his hair! Kim tells him to write a love song!

Kim is checking off all the boxes of my crush likes me back.

So when Kim ghosts him a little, Chay makes the obvious conclusion. Show up at his house and sing him the love song he wrote! He’s been shown time, and time again that if he reaches out to Kim, Kim will eventually grab his hand. Kim has shown to be awkward and a little of unsure of himself around Chay, but relaxes when Chay takes the initiative. So Chay does what’s always worked. With literally no fear or anxiety whatsoever.

And with episode 13, we see how close they were getting. We see how they went out to places together, romantically or platonically, and they took pictures together! They were friends, they were close, they had a level of trust and bonding and vulnerability for Chay to take photos with Kim and leave them around his house for Kim to find!

So Chay once again has nothing left to lose, and shoots his final shot and confesses to Kim. And Kim kisses him! They hug! Kim may or may not have come home with him that night but at some point in they’re relationship post confession, they fall asleep cuddling on the couch.

And Chay and Porsche are very similar. They fall in love quickly, they become very devoted and loyal to that love, and they are honest about it. Chay and Porsche are both the first ones to say I love you, but while Porsche doesn’t ask for a reply, Chay does. Because Kim has shown time and time again that Chay needs to take the initiative. So he asks Kim: I love you, do you love me?

But he stops at that and lets Kim take his time. Because that’s the song and dance their courtship has been taking, Chay flirts, Chay pushes forward and then Kim comes to meet him the rest of the way.

Chay is living in a Wattpad fantasy: he meets his idol crush, his idol crush becomes fascinated with him, he sees the real human behind his idol crush’s persona and falls in love with the awkward, sweet person underneath, he confesses his love and the feeling is mutual! And all of this seems to be fate, like this perfect love story and the happy ending he actually wants. He’s practically gotten into his dream department with the boy of his dreams who loves him back.

He’s confirming it is all real, and letting Kim know that it’s all real on his end.

And then he gets fucking kidnapped. And then he gets indisputable proof that his brother has been lying to him this entire time, and he was kidnapped because of that secret life his brother was lying about it.

The ultimatum may seem harsh, but it makes sense when you see it from Chay’s perspective. He probably feels essentially abandoned by his brother for the past two months, and he’s understandably pissed about everything thats happened in the last 48 hours or so. His brother can be part of his life and they can go back to the way things were, but Chay can’t be a part of his life if his brother is in the mafia, and its true. Porsche has spent all this time telling Chay he wants him to get into a good school and get a good job and be surrounded by good people with a good social life. You can’t have that in the mafia, and Chay knows that. So from Chay’s perspective, his brother has basically just been a complete hypocrite to everything his brother taught him.

And while Porsche has been shown the type of person to be willing to throw away his morals and beliefs when it comes to the people he loves, Chay isn’t. His entire life has been surrounded on those ideals of being a good, kind person who lives a good life. And he’s understandably terrified of the thought of losing his brother and truly being on his own. He’s basically lost his only emotional support system for two months, and if his brother dies, he loses him for good.

So Chay says him or me, because in his mind either way he could lose his brother, but this is Chay making his own decision, this is Chay fighting back and reminding Porsche that see you hurt makes me hurt too. This ultimatum reminds Porsche that his actions have conquenses on Chay too, and it shows how Chay has grown up in his absence. Chay in episode one was willing to just bow his head and listen to what his brother, but Chay in episode 10 is willing to speak out, he’s no longer willing to be simply passive in his brother’s plans for him.

In the end, he and Porsche communicate, and we get a taste of how Chay is, like Porsche, willing to throw away his ideals because he loves someone. But now he’s been dragged into a completely unfamiliar world, he’s truly been into a different kingdom where he doesn’t have any of the power or agency he’s gotten used to having in Porsche’s absence.

And then its revealed the love of his life is part of the mafia, and he’s just gotta sit there and pretend like nothings wrong.

Side note: while it’s absolutely hilarious that absolutely nobody learned about the KimChay romance, it also makes a lot of sense. Rule number one of Wattpad romance: You NEVER tell your overprotective brother your in love or dating or got dumped. You NEVER let your big brother know about your love life. Rule number two of Wattpad romance: When dating a celebrity, you NEVER leave a hint that any fans could pick up on. You ALWAYS need to keep the relationship a secret for as long as humanly possible. Chay thinks he knows what genre he’s in, and he’s being smart about it.

So Chay goes to confront him. Like doesn’t even hesitate, just shows up like bitch you better explain yourself. Because that’s what he does, only this time he does it out of anger, not out of love.

And Kim tells him that his entire reality was a lie. When Chay breaks down crying, it’s not just because Kim dumped him, though that had to hurt, its because that means their entire friendship, all the kindness and effort Kim showed him, all the time they spent together, all the moments Chay thought were sweet, thought they were bonding and falling mutually in love was a complete and utter lie. He’s just been made a fool, and his entire life has been completely transformed and he has no control over any of it.

So he spirals and self destructs. Him ditching the interview may seem dumb and like he’s throwing everything Porsche worked for away, but think about it. Everything about this interview is going to reminder of Kim and how he betrayed Chay’s love and trust. This interview is a reminder of how his brother threw away his own life for Chay to have a future their parents would be proud of, despite his protests. This interview is an embodiment of Chay’s own lack of control in his own life, it has become a symbol of his pain.

Everything in Chay’s life has fallen apart and now he has to pick up the pieces and find his place in the new world he’s in.

So he tries to take back that lost control and ditches the interview. He does the stereotypical new haircut new me era. He goes out drinking with friends. Chay can’t talk to Porsche about any of this, he can’t be honest with friends about any of this. He doesn’t have any real support system in his life right now, and he’s falling apart. For the past two months he’s been in charge of his life for the first time, only for it to be yanked away and everything he knows to disappear. He wants to get that control back, but he has no clue how, and he has no one to help him. So he makes some dumbass decisions, but its not just because of Kim, it’s because desperately grappling for a sense of agency in a world that keeps stripping him of it.

And then Kim comes back into his life, and in Chay’s perspective, tries to take away his agency again and toy with his emotions. “You said you don’t care about me, but here you are caring about me,” and it makes him angry. So in episode 13, he tries to cut Kim off, he ignores his calls and blocks his number to assert his control of their relationship.

And then his agency and control is once again taken when Porsche wakes him up and (presumably) drops him off at Yok’s and (probably) doesn’t tell about anything that happens.

His Wattpad dream life romance has fallen apart, he’s had to leave his old life completely behind, and now he’s left in the ashes trying to figure put who he is and where he stands in this situation, trying to be his own person without anyone there to help him.

Conclusion: I think Chay is someone who strives to be kind and polite, and like Porsche wants to see the best in people, but he’s also incredibly brave and put into the position where he’s really making his own decisions for the first time in his life. He’s frustrated, he’s unsure, he’s making mistakes and fumbling around, but he’s a young adult finally trying to take control of his life after everything has been ripped out underneath him, and I think that side of him could be explored to.

I think Chay is the type of person who’s sweet and respectful, but when push comes to shove, he’s shown to be a no nonsense kind of person who isn’t afraid to backdown. He’ll listen, he’ll comprise, but Chay has a lot more of a spine and a no fear attitude than people give him credit for, but right now he’s desperately trying to assert his agency in a narrative that keeps taking it from him, and its causing him to self destruct.

I’m genuinely excited to see where his arc from passive princess in tower to living a self-insert life to currently self destructive extensional crisis ends up. We’ve only gotten a few scenes with him, but they’ve shown so much of a character arc that I feel people are sleeping on.

[cetacean]

[anotherblblog]

Those Polaroids makes me think there was a whole ass concurrent season of KimPorchay airing and BoC didn’t air it lmaooo

[kinnspocketporsche]

I keep coming back to this note that Porsche left.

Note: "I need to find an answer." (Episode 13)

Kinn: "I'll find every answer for you." (Episode 12)

Did Porsche pull words from Kinn as a reassurance that he does love and trust him, even though he's keeping a secret? Even though he left?

Like saying "you promised me answers, but I need you to let me find them myself."

Note: "I'll come back soon." (Episode 13)

Kinn: "No matter what happens, you must return to me." // "When you're done, return it to me. The gun, and yourself." (Episode 7)

It feels too similar to be a coincidence, doesn't it? Am I reading into translated dialogue way too much?

Is Porsche finally learning the art of subtlety, after living in Kinn's world all this time? Is it finally clicking? I love the idea that he's been picking up on Kinn's messages this whole episode and now he's sending one back.

Note: "Love you." (Episode 13)

Porsche + Kinn: "I love you." // "I love you, too." (Episode 13)

To me it feels like Porsche has been deliberately building this consistency, this reassurance for Kinn. It feels very intentional that in a three sentence note, I can find three potential callbacks to previous dialogue. Rule of three, anyone?

Telling Kinn that even though he's keeping secrets, he's not like Tawan. When Porsche said "I love you," he meant it.

[hilema]

Run him like a blade To and through the heart

[slytherinsjennie]

I feel like Vegas' "dont leave me Pete" is more as in "please dont kill yourself" rather than "dont physically leave the house" if you know what I mean?