The Calling could have been such a good arc with Laurance, if it wasn't just an excuse to write him off the show.
Give me Laurance whose nightmares begin to get worse. Give me Laurance who starts hallucinating. Laurance who goes silent cause he can't tell when a real person or a hallucination is talking to him. Laurance who begins to stare too much cuz he can't tell who is or isn't real. Laurance who wakes up screaming. Laurance who won't tell anyone cuz he's fought so hard for so long and it turns out everyone was right about him in the beginning. He's a monster and he can't escape it. Give me Laurance who leaves in the middle of the night cause he fears himself too much to stay
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Fever
A fic based on @cinnamontoastcroonch ‘s take on Cadenza’s perspective during Laurance’s de-Shadow Knighttaion induced fever, but from Aphmau’s perspective
Aka: Laurance has a really bad fever, hallucinations a bit and everyone is panicking
CW: Sickfic, fever whump, thoughts of death, mention of hallucinations
At first she didn’t notice. She’d nodded off sitting in the rickety wooden armchair next to Laurance’s bed. Her arm was beginning to fall asleep as she rested her head on it, when suddenly she heard the soft rustling of sheets. Her head shot up to see his face, scrunched in agony, beads of sweat running down his pale skin. His eyes fluttered open hardly half way, hot tears falling to his ears. His breaths quickened and all she could hear was a pathetic whine escaping from his soul. Aphmau was willing herself not to panic. Not yet. She could tell he was hurting, she needed to comfort him, make him feel ok.
“No, no no. Shh shh. It’s alright. You’re ok Laurance. I’m here. I’m right here. I got you.” Despite her best efforts, her voice broke a bit and she became chocked up. She hoped he didn’t notice. Aphmau raised a hand to his cheek to verify a fever. Oh gods he’s burning up. This is bad. She wiped some tears from his cheek as she stood, rushing off to the basin on the window sill. She dunked a rag in the cool water and rung it out before returning to Laurance and placing it on his forehead and eyes. A sudden gasp fell from his mouth as he tipped his head away from the sudden attack of cold. “I know, I’m sorry, but you’re burning up! We need to cool you down.” Aphmau could not keep her voice from wavering, she was beginning to panic.
Aphmau grasped Laurance’s clammy hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze. He seemed to calm a bit after that, Aphmau thought maybe he’d be able to sleep now. But after a while, Laurance spoke softly. “Why’s.. he here..? He- Aph I-“ Before she could do any more, he attempted to sit up. A long groan escaped him before he collapsed back into bed. “Laurance!” he was shaking, shivering maybe. Aphmau needed help, she didn’t know what else she could do for him. Her magicks hadn’t been working, no matter how hard she tried.
Aphmau let down Laurance’s hand and ran to the door, though before she could open it, Garroth stepped in. “Garroth! Garroth, he woke up! Laurance woke up! But,” she was talking a mile a minute, “but he’s out again. Shaking! I need to find Cadenza! I don’t know what else to do!” Before Garroth could even get a word in, Aphmau was gone, the door bouncing closed behind her.
“Cadenza! Cadenza I need you!” Cadenza set down the flowers she planned on buying and turned around, a look of fear on her face. “…Is it Laurance or Eseryt?” Aphmau could tell by the look on her face that she was dreading the answer. Aphmau took a moment to catch her breath, “He woke up. Bad fever, asking weird questions. Cadenza he needs you.”
Cadenza wasted no time, practically running to his bedside. When they arrived he was awake; shaking, looking around the room wildly, on the verge of tears. Garroth practically had to hold him down to keep him in bed. Cadenza went to Laurance, taking his hand and speaking quiet words to him that Aphmau couldn’t fully make out.
“D’you see him?” Laurance sounded so weak. He looked so weak. Aphmau had never seen him like this. Not even after he returned from the Nether. At least then he was more aware, less delirious. “Who, Laurance?” “…Joh.”
Aphmau’s heart dropped into her stomach. She could tell that everyone’s did. Garroth stepped back, finger nails digging into his crossed arms. Cadenza’s eyes widened, a hand going to her mouth to stifle a sob. Aphmau was in shock. All she could do was stand and watch this unfold. Is this really happening? Is Laurance…Oh gods..
“Laur. Joh’s… He’s.. He’s not here.” Aphmau could hear the lump forming in Cadenza’s throat, as the pain of one forming in her own made itself known.
“Caddy… I.. Are they here for me.?” he paused a bit longer than anyone would hope for, “Am I… Dying?” His voice was so small, too small. Weak and hoarse and filled with fear and pain. He starred into the void, eyes glazing over and unfocused.
Garroth turned to face the wall, unable to bare the sight of Laurance like this any longer. Aphmau could no longer keep the sob from escaping her throat, though she managed to stifle the tears.
Cadenza squeezed her eyes as a tear rolled down her red cheek before resting her other hand atop of Laurance’s. “Of course not. You still have so much ahead of you Laurance. So much. You have yet to even meet your daughter. Remember? Lina?” Laurance didn’t answer, only closing his eyes as he slowly gave a single nod, a barely visible smile resting on his cracked lips.
At that Aphmau came back to his side, opposite of Cadenza. She leaned over and gave him a long kiss on the forehead. She didn’t know what else she could do. She just got him back and now she might lose him again? This time permanently? Gods no, please. He doesn’t deserve this, he never did.
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Hope you enjoyed that and that your heart is shattered :D
It’s ok he pulls through. They just don’t know that.
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