#life crisis

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from shame is a girl’s second skin.

[text id: what are memories of childhood if not quicksand? swallowing you whole.]

[she-writes-stupid-things2301]

The adhd urge to impulsively clean your room when life is falling apart! yeah I don't understand it either but will i do it!? you bet!

[frances-and-the-moon]

Should I go back to a country that offers me no job prospects (Iceland) but that I know well and I lived there 2+ years even though it's cold & it's hard to live there

or should I look for something else in another European country bc I don't want to live in Italy (but all the job offers until now were terrible)

or should I move to Sydney where my friend lives and where I can go to the beach after work but I have the 6 month visa limitation & Idk the laws well and it's very far and I'm going to be alone there too??

[ladyriddle1]

I thought I was getting better. I honestly did. But now I'm laying in bed trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me and why I'm never enough.💔

- ladyriddle1💫

[icarusgirl]

I bought the book “a little life” I’m gonna ruin more my shitty life🤭

[sitp-recs]

i’m going through life crisis so i need to ask! have you ever read anything of the sort with draco and harry? time to project myself into it 😤

Hi anon! I’m sorry things have been rough ❤️‍🩹I’m sending hugs and hoping you find comfort in these reads. I choose to understand “life crisis” as a broader term including all kinds of crisis we go through as adults 🥲 hope these work for you!

Poor Unfortunate Souls by DoubleApple (2019, E, 19k)

Draco is a potioneer. Harry is trying to save his sex-challenged marriage. Everything is a mess, but at least there's an octopus in the lobby.

Vale Sanare by RurouniHime (2011, M, 23k)

Draco’s world gains a new component just when he thought he’d sorted everything out.

A Year in Training by Omi_Ohmy (2013, M, 25k)

Harry is finally living his dream and training as an Auror, but nothing seems to be going right: he’s just so angry all the time. And Draco Malfoy’s presence on the programme really isn’t helping with that, either.

War Wounds by SilentAuror (2007, E, 30k)

Some wounds take longer to recover from than others. HP/DM, with background HP/GW. Themes of alcoholism, love triangles, and dubious fidelity.

Holly and Hawthorn, Thistle and Thyme by bryoneybrynn (2015, T, 31k)

After the war, Harry can’t shake the feeling that something is very wrong with him and he has a terrible feeling he knows what that “something” might be. He has a terrible feeling Malfoy might know, too.

He Who Must Not Be Normal by lettered (2013, E, 41k)

Potter has fame and fortune and posh clothes and all he wants is a simple life. Draco has a flat and a cat and a steady job and all he wants is a complicated life. Which makes you think this story has something exciting like body-swapping, but it doesn’t.

REVOLVEVLOVER by firethesound and zeitgeistic (2014, E, 46k)

The work Harry does is justifiable. It’s justice. He works for his country, and his country is a republic—the magical side, anyway. It’s not laudable work, it’s not work he’s proud of, but it’s necessary work. Harry has always taken the necessary jobs that no one else has the stomach for.

Here's The Pencil, Make It Work by ignatiustrout (2013, M, 49k)

Harry thinks "Why is Malfoy working in a coffee shop in muggle London?" is a much simpler question than, "Are you going to accept that auror offer and, if you don't, what will you do?"

Chocolate and Pastry by agentmoppet (2018, E, 50k)

When Pansy bets Draco that there is no chance he and Harry could carry out a genuine romantic relationship, he and Harry form a plan. But as their fake relationship progresses, Draco sees a side of Harry he never expected.

Meet Me at Midnight by @the-starryknight (2022, T, 57k)

Harry was beginning to wonder if he’d ever make anything again when Malfoy stormed through the door of Harry’s furniture shop. Now Harry’s got an impossible Ministry commission to finish, and even less energy than ever to deal with his elusive muse. That is, until he stumbles upon the surreal and beautiful world of a mysterious fae creature…

Modern Love by tackytiger (2020, E, 61k)

Harry Potter, of all people, knows that life isn’t always fair. And no one gets to be happy all of the time. But surely there’s something more—something better—than a rubbish Ministry job, and a lonely old house, and that feeling that everyone out there is doing a better job of living than Harry is.

The Arrangement series by RurouniHime (2012, E, 72k)

It's worked for years. Why change it now?

Running on Air by eleventy7 (2014, T, 75k)

Draco Malfoy has been missing for three years. Harry is assigned the cold case and finds himself slowly falling in love with the memories he collects.

Super Rich Kids by trishjames (2020, E, 81k)

Draco Malfoy has become disillusioned by the glitz and glamour of the scandalous lives of the Post-Second Wizarding War Pureblood Elite. Enter: one existential crisis, one group of thieving cynical friends, and several terrible, terrible decisions.

Balance, Imperfect by bixgirl1 (2017, E, 91k)

When Harry sustains an injury in the line of work, he no longer knows how to navigate the life he loved, and finds help and solace from the most unexpected source.

I Am Not Who I Became by mab_di (2019, E, 93k)

Draco left England after the trials and has travelled the world meeting wizards and Muggles from different cultures and with vastly different relationships to magic, each other, and the natural world. Now he's a fisherman in Finland on commercial vessels..

Little Deaths and How to Avoid Them (or Draco Malfoy's Guide to Stop Dying and Start Living Instead) by nerakrose (2018, T, 96k)

Malfoy is way too interested in coroner reports for somebody who's definitely not looking for ways to die, Harry wants to be friends with him, and Ginny wants to break up with Harry.

Way Down We Go by xiaq (2019, T, 109k)

In which Harry and Draco both run away from their pasts and conveniently choose to hide in the same tiny American town. It's super.

Nor All That Glisters by sweet_s0rr0w (2021, E, 110k)

Lonely and frustrated on house arrest, with no prospects for the future, Draco begins brewing Felix Felicis in an attempt to improve his lot. Just in the short term, of course. He isn’t a total idiot.

Turn by Saras_Girl (2013, E, 306k)

One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.

[fatimaamerbilal]

fatima aamer bilal, from moony moonless sky.

[text id: please be kind to me, dear self.]

[bestregardstoself]

I just want you here

[gramarobin]

[joytri]

2023 in a month and I'm still processing 2020...

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from her garden yearns more for visitors than water.

[text id: if there's something that loathes me more than my very being, it's my yearning. / i am yearning / in its most disgusting form.]

[itxchimeoww]

[nastyacitrus]

A few years ago I thought life was perfect. There were so many events, so many opportunities and so much love swirling around me and my friends that I thought it would always be like this. But it soon ended. Gradually, I, my friends, my family, my country and in general the whole world plunged first into apathy, then into fear, and then into hysteria. “Is this really so?”, my acquaintance sometimes asks me, “Aren’t you transferring your own problems to the rest of the world? We’re completely fine here, hey”. No, it's not okay, buddy. People go crazy, people do terrible things, people ruin their lives. There are diseases and wars all over the world. People are losing their homes and their families. A huge amount of just and groundless hatred is growing. Nothing will ever be the same again. And that's a fact. Very sad, sad, but indelible. It is a fact.

And also, the fact is that my wonderful past life turned into dust, along with how the smiles on the faces of family and friends disappeared.

The fact is that I no longer feel alive, I can't afford to dream big, imagining a happy future life.

The fact is that I am lonely. The people who made up my happiness and my peace, the people who were my friends, my family and my meaning in life, are gone. Gone, left, emigrated, died or abandoned me. It doesn't matter. I'm lonely, depressed, broken, I'm scattered in pieces all over the world.

I feel like I'm getting back to normal. Daily journal entries help me, I feel the importance of each day, I feel the importance of daily posts on social networks and small rituals at home. Gradually, what I consistently do: read, even if there is no strength or desire, draw, through laziness and boredom, go to meetings with friends, interrupting the cycle of apathy and hysteria, cook food and clean the apartment, despite the fact that I have only one desire - to lie on the bed and scroll through the news feed, starting new hobbies such as knitting, sewing and candle making, when I don’t even have the strength to just stand and talk, gradually this all returns me to a more or less normal state . Yes, I can handle it. It didn't take me a month or a year, but I'm still trying not to give up. I'm still trying to live. I struggle with laziness and hatred. I struggle with apathy and irritability. I fight the urge to give up and let myself disappear, dissolving into dust in space.

[frances-and-the-moon]

Has anybody started a new career in another country relatively late (32) who can give me any piece of advice about that? I'd love to hear some stories ❤️

[ladyriddle1]

Nadie lo nota, pero estoy verdaderamente destrozada por dentro, y sigo con una puta sonrisa, todos los días finjiendo que estoy bien, mientras lo único que quiero hacer es llorar, y aún así sigo con el miedo de que si me ven fijo a los ojos, se den cuenta de que ya no tengo alma, simplemente estoy muerta por dentro.💔

- ladyriddle1💫

[pretty-lonely-world]

I made this auto portrait kinda because I'm sick of making po rn art for a living. It's getting really hard for me cause I feel like I'm not doing a good thing with my life and other's lives... My clients are always happy with my work and it's great but what is the meaning of my life ? Nevermind, I need to eat, pay taxes, pay for the bills ect.