#life decisions

[free-my-mindd]

[your-heart-is-a-treasure]

Be mindful. Be grateful. Be positive. Be true. Be kind.

[halltastic]

Contemplating Salad 🤔

[findingher]

So, what is the biggest misconception people have of you?

Anon, this was difficult... I´m a very affectionate, caring person to be around, so most people get surprised when they see this highly practical way of taking life decisions, sometimes even a cold behavior. But truth is, I get emotional, I suffer, but then I realize it is what it is. Things happen, people take decisions, if it´s out of your control, let it go, move on. Right?

[ast-chan]

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Persist

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I've been in the basement so long,

I've ignored the light

Peaking from the gap beneath the door.

The stairs have seemed so daunting-

Every step creaking,

Splintering off into the darkness below.

If I am to fall through,

Is there a bottom to catch me?

I chose a rung near the top,

To rest in the dim light.

It warms my pale skin in lines,

My body aching from lingering there.

But the wood has scraped and scarred my frame,

Parts of me have frozen over.

Move towards the door,

See what kind of light waits beyond it-

Or fall to the abyss below.

What is better?

To know the pain of these broken stairs

Until I am nothing more than an echo-

Or the unknown?

x

[edenfenixblogs]

Man it’s so good to be near family.

It’s giving me some pretty strong feelings and making me reassess a lot of aspects of my life.

Sometimes I feel like those who love me most live farthest from me.

I live in a great city but feel so alone. There’s so much to do but it’s all so hard to get to and very few people to do any of it with who I’m close to. Everything is so expensive.

But mostly, I feel like everyone in my city just tolerates me. And only one person in my actual daily life is actually there for me during this horrific, terrifying time.

People back home are literally begging me to move back and they all keep asking me to do things at every free moment. People want to spend time with me here—family and friends. People are generally overjoyed to see me here. My sister and parents are here. My bff might move back here.

When I have kids I’d want them to be surrounded by this community. What community do I have in my city? One person who I truly feel close to and otherwise a group of people who seem to just tolerate my presence. It’s…exhausting and upsetting and I don’t like missing so much of my little cousins’ lives.

The things I’ve wanted have changed so much. I moved to the city in because it was the only city where I could do what I wanted career wise. But the career has adapted and so has my goal of how I want to participate in it. But I can’t shake the feeling that it looks like I’m giving up.

It’s stupid and I shouldn’t care—especially because it’s not true—but I moved away with big plans and big goals and if I move back I will be doing so without having achieved those goals. But my goals have changed. I know more now. I can be the kind of creative person I want to be anywhere.

I also love my independence in my city. But man… the things that make it worth living there keep disappearing.

Idk. I have a lot to think about. But right now, it’s hard to see any future in my current city.

[lons-world]

It's easy to look back and question decisions you have made in the past, but it's unfair to punish yourself for them. You can't blame yourself for not knowing back then what you know now, and the truth is you made each decision for a reason based on how you were feeling at the time. As we grow up, we learn and we evolve. Maybe the person you are now would have done things differently back then, or maybe you are the person you are now because of the decisions made back then. Trust your journey, it's all going to make sense soon.

[free-my-mindd]

Deep down you know when it’s time to start a new chapter in your life.

[necrocities]

Since asks/dms aren't open, message for @entropy-sea-system below.

Still feel weird about making a post post, so I'll put this under a cut

Re: tags on this post and college

I don't know how much it'll mean, but specifically about how the medical field and doctors can be seen.

I want to say how valuable it can be to see other disabled people in this field. You don't have to be a shining star in a corrupt field to mean something to patients. It's valuable in itself to see someone who may understand or at least be less harsh on us due to mutual chronic struggles.

So, with this being a largely stressful factor, I hope I can ease that a bit. Other docs and their corruption, or the corruption of the medical system, don't make you automatically lesser for going into it. Even if vague people across the internet would be judgemental, they're not the ones coming into your office.

And if they do, they're asking for help regardless. So they'll have to swallow their indignity a bit.

I think I'm seeing that being an aspect of this stressor. The difference of online vs offline interactions. It's something that gets me as well. And hey. Shitty people are out there, but in such smaller quantities. Your average patient is there for help, and I swear it'll be ok.

I spent a lot of time in various medical facilities growing up, not just hospitals, and some people just won't click with their physician. But they don't go home with you at night. So they'll move on if the interaction isn't ideal. But those who do come to you again and again, they're looking for insight, to be taken seriously, and a shoulder to lean on. That line of professionalism helps on that end, I think.

It's normal for patients to find docs who keep a straight face, those who are expressive, and so many different mannerisms, but they understand at the end of the day that professionalism is a layer that demands respect.

Not in an authoritarian way either. But to know, they'll have to be respectful and work with you, not against you, to have an easier time sorting out medical issues.

Ah, ended up writing quite a bit. But I knew I had plenty to say, so I hope the words mean something.

[supercriminalbean]

Yooo serious question!!!

How do people figure out what they wanna do in their future? Like how do I decide what career I wanna do? Please send me help?

[chamberlinfamilyfarms]

[rosengeist]

Hi y’all! I have some positive personal news, but it will require some intensive decision making on my part, and it will be a hard choice I need to make soon.

I will be writing up a pros and cons list for each of my choices. If you are interested, and have time/insight into graduate programs, especially in the medical field/adjacent fields, please DM me. My hope is to have this typed up as an organized word document by Monday evening at the latest.

March 1st will be when I need to make a big financial commitment.

[jjaazsstuff]

part of my girlhood that i hate is collapsing at 4 am because i don’t know if my future is going to turn out the way that i want 😭😭😭😭