#like i don't even know it and honestly itd be kinda funny if he just forgot it too

[afoolandathief]

concept: A trans fae becomes very concerned when someone who knows their dead name comes back into their life, thinking the name still has power over them, only to realize it no longer does

this thrilling discovery is short-lived when they realize they've been very loose with who knows their actual name under this prior misconception

[gold-rhine]

Honestly I don’t get why hoyoverse decided to make Yae bully like all of the characters. Like with Ei it’s fine since it’s an (presumably) immortal character trolling of even more so immortal disaster friend but she like basically force-femmes Gorou which is weird, creepy, and not at all funny, normally Thoma’s line about her isn’t too bad in a vacuum but with how she treats Gorou it’s kinda not good. Of course there’s how she treated Scaramouche when he was basically just born. I didn’t actually know the Sara bit but that’s another strike against her.

It only really works when the character either a. Doesn’t realize they’re being messed with ala Itto or b. She’s battling wits with someone ala Kokomi.

They could’ve made her a tricksy girlboss without making her an utter dick

gorou force-femme thing is obv kink bait, so i dont even hold it against her. its marketing. its less about gorou and more for the subs self-insert to imagine her doing it to them, like lisa mommy bait with electrocution punishment on the side. i dont think its like, well done, but its playful and wink wink nudge nudge enough that like, whatever man.

everything else is kinda yeah. no one is getting off on that, thats just on her. and i don't think its wrong to write cruel petty characters, but the narrative doesn't really address it bc we need to keep her likable bc marketing again.

itd be much more interesting if we actually got into all toxic implication of being possessive ei's pet who immediately tries to remove anyone who can take raiden's attention, to the point of preferring raiden sitting isolated in a room for 500 years and country going into civil war, but yae is raiden's one and only friend and sooooo special

[choccy-milky]

Hi Darling! First of all.. OMG I REALLYYY REALLYYYY LOVE YOUR FIC ♥️♥️♥️! I've been a silent reader for too long and this is the first time I came to the surface to thank you for this amazing fic and art that you've made.

I also have gathered my courage to ask you this. But headcanonically (if that's even a word but wtv 😭) in your fic world. Did Sebastian ever court or interested in someone before Clora? I had a wild thought that he was into someone and had courted them but wouldn't last long because he had to take care of Anne and this lass he courted was tired of his rambling about Anne this and Anne that. Sebastian decided that they should end things because not appreciating Anne means not appreciating him.

And when he dated Clora. He met her again. She desperately wants him back and apologises (She does have another intention though). He declines because he's already ill with her and is now crazy in love with our darling Clora. He chooses not to tell Clora about this. But I wonder what happened if Clora knows tho.

ANYWAY! THANK YOU FOR READING MY LONG ASS WILD THOUGHTS BUT I AM AN ANGST GIRL IN THIS ANGST LIFE. 😭😭😭💙💙💙

AW THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME💖💖IM GLAD TO HEAR IT💖💖 AND OK its funny you bring this up bc i actually planned for sebastian to have a bit of an internal monologue in my most recent chap about the girls he's had a crush on (before clora--omg... B.C), but i ended up cutting it out because it was part of a deleted scene. but no seb has never actually dated/courted anyone before clora, tho he defs did have crushes....but if he WAS with another girl before clora....🤔🤔hmm🤔🤔 i guess it would depend when in their relationship clora found out? if it was at the beginning when clora was still really shy/nervous/self conscious, it would obviously make her even moreso, and she would have compared herself and wondered if she was good enough and if she was doing things right. and i feel like that early in the relationship, if that other girl DID come back and try and get with seb, clora might actually be worried they'd get together again, esp if she ever saw them talking (kinda like the lawley situation, but in reverse BAHA) if it was NOW though and clora just suddenly found out....LMAOO oh boy. she'd obvs be like why did u never tell me, and itd go something like this: seb: "it was brief enough that i didn't see any point in mentioning it--we hadn't even snogged." clora: "well, it just so happens that i was with a boy before you, too. but we hadn't snogged either, so by your logic, i guess you don't care." seb: ".........." seb: "........alright, point proven." (and then seb would be all worried and confirm that she hadnt actually been with anyone before him/that she was just messing with him, and shed be like LMAO YES IT WAS JUST FOR ARGUMANTS SAKE OBVS) anyway clora might be sad for a bit but she'd get over it pretty quick, since she knows seb is so devoted to her/hed make it a point to be a huge simp for her to show her he has no leftover feelings for anyone else LOL (like how he was after the relic incident & during her period) honestly its just hard to make clora jealous in the first place, bc seb is such a mega simp for her LMFAO. and aS HE SHOULD BE!!!👇🧎‍♂️

[vigilvntes]

okay so I posted about this on my acc but, could you imagine vig saves a teenager, probably around 18, and now BOOM she wants to be his apprentice and he just kinda adopts her and now kinda has a younger sister who just really looks up to him and treats him with so much respect and love and vig? oh he adores her, someone who doesn't treat what he says as a joke and always considered his feelings? not to mention finally having a healthy sibling relationship. It's just all super cute and wholesome and they love each other sm

NO BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS THE OTHER DAY AND LOSINB MY FUCKING MIND BC ITD BE SO CUTE LIKE!!!!!!! GIVE ME THE SIBLING TYPE BOND!!!!!!!!!!!!

like i can imagine he saves her and adrian asks if she's okay but then honestly just plans to move on but she's like woah. you're cool as FUCK. and she gushes about all of the different moves he did when he defended her and he's surprised to know that she knows quite a bit about fighting but she doesn't know HOW to fight. and like just imagine her going out at night trying to find him again because she wants to talk to him and ask him questions and he teaches her a few moves but eventually he's like "look i'll just give you my phone number because you're really young and i don't want you out on the streets every night looking for me because it's dangerous so please just stay at home and text me with any questions you have i'm begging you". and imagine her texting him like all of the time just random stuff she finds funny as well as genuine questions bc she's kinda already latched on to him as a big brother type even though she hasn't even seen his face before???

and then one night he's out on patrol and he hears fighting coming from somewhere so he rushes to find wtf is going on and he sees that it's someone in a mask, and they're beating the ever loving fuck out of rhe guy and he's like wait a sec who the fuck is this??????? and then when they've knocked rhe guy out they rip the mask straight from their head and it's HER and she'd be literally vibrating with excitement because she WON and vigilante was there to see her win and he goes to high five her but she fully hugs him and :(( then he spends rhe next few minutes praising and critiquing her and giving her pointers. he's not overly thrilled that she's doing this because she's young and he doesn't want her to be in danger but he can't help but be impressed?? and i NEVER think he'd be the type to be like "you should stop doing this" like he would never want to STOP her, so instead he helps her and they become a lil duo.

i'm not sure how the adrian face reveal would go i have multiple different scenarios in my head so we're just gonna go with one here. but like he's walking home from his late shift at fennel fields and he hears some commotion and he can't resist like he cwnt physically resist so he heads in that direction and he finds his lil buddy fully outnumbered and injured so he pulls out a knife (let's be honest he keeps one in his uniform) and he just goes fucking ham because how dare they hurt her and also why the fuck is she taking on these guys alone???? he wins, obviously, and afterwards he just rushes over to her and pulls her into the biggest, tightest hug and he's like "do not do that again without me do you hear me" like he's all protective older brother mode™️, he doesn't yell but he's very stern with her. and she doesn't even question who it is bc she knows it's vig just from the way he fought and she just breaks down and apologises but he's like "no no no i'm not angry with you i'm angry with them you did so good omg no don't cry please don't cry i'm sorry don't cry" and they just sit on the floor and talk and eventually he's like "i'm adrian btw" and she just hugs him again

i think with the whole butterfly thing she'd be super distrusting of the 11th street kids, not because adrian seems to be dedicating more time to them (but also this) but because they just don't seem to care about him or his well-being??? like the pinky toe thing and then the adebayo prison thing??? she would hate it so much because they're basically just using him to do what needs to be done and she knows he's worth more than that and it pisses her off that he's doing it for peacemaker??? she doesn't wanna lose him already. like imagine her following them on a mission like she steals adrian's car or something and just follows them and watches in the shadows jusg in case something bad happens and in the end she steps in and ends up saving adrian from a butterfly and he's like "WTF I HAD THAT UNDER CONTROL I WAS JUST ABOUT TO FINISH HIM OFF AND IT WAS GONNA BE SO FUCKING COOL" and she's like "dude you got knocked on your ass YOU'RE WELCOME???" and they bicker back and forth for a bit until he's like wait what the fuck wHY ARE YOU HERE??? and she explains that it's because she doesn't fucking trust them (the exact same reasons why he followed peacemaker into the mission) and he's like ok i get that but you need to go home right now we'll talk about this later??? and there would be such a stand off. harcourt pulls a gun on her, she pulls a gun on harcourt, adrian pulls a gun on harcourt, chris pulls a gun on her and adrian while adebayo jusg kinda points hers between everyone bc wtf is going on??? and they're all just stood there like who the fuck is this why is she here and adrian is just like . sighs. she's kinda my little sister but not actually my sister but she might as well be and she doesn't trust you guys but can you please be nice to her because she's like eighteen but she could probably kick your asses so don't test her. like even though she's young and adrian is super protective i just know he'd never underestimate her or make her think that he's trying to underestimate her

and like, she just gets him??? everyone else ignores his feelings and his comments but she GETS him and she's always considerate. like the whole pinky toe thing she'd be like "omg but you can't walk without your pinky???" and he'd be like "well that's what i thought but it turns out..." and if he tells her about his day and about something chris said i know she'd be like "that's not very nice, adrian. friends don't treat each other that way" and like imagine how pissed off she'd get that he does all of these things for chris and he just sees him as an annoyance??? like chris doesn't appreciate him??? and maybe it's because adrian never really opens up to chris, he's idolising him rather than trying to be a friend but it still pisses her off.

and they'd find each other SO funny like can you imagine the banter. adrian is used to weird looks and side eyed glances whenever he makes a comment that he finds fucking hilarious so the first time he says something kinda outta pocket and she just agrees with him and says something equally outta pocket it's like wow. ok. she just like me fr. and she'd just understand him and his train of thought?? like his mind is racing a million miles per minute but sO IS HERS so she's always following along with him and whenever he's rambling she just joins in bc she gets him and she gets what he's talking about (the 11th street kids just watching in horror like oh my god there's two of them). he could say the most random shit but she would just KNOW what he means??? and imagine if she ended up joining the butterfly mission they would be a fucking nightmare for murn in debriefs between them both raising their hands to ask stupid shit and then bickering between themselves or with chris and harcourt it woukd take at least an extra half hour to get through it.

and after the whole cow thing if she got inJURED DO NOT EVEN GET ME STARTED THEY WOULD HAVE TO PRY HIM AWAY FROM HER HOSPITAL BED AND BACK TO HIS OWN KICKING AND FUCKING SCREAMING. everytime he goes back into his own room he'd be right back by her side again. they'd have to lock the windows and the doors to keep him in. and when she wakes up he'd just start crying because he thought he lost her and then she'd cry and ughsksjdjd cue him doing everything for her until she recovers

ok i'm gonna stop this hear bc this was not meant to be so long but oh my god im screaming i'm crying i'm shaking i'm throwing up thanks for giving me an excuse to post my thoughts on this

[batsgetscensored]

Leon experiencing Tom being exceedingly Irish.

-Tom and him arguing and Leon just hearing the man mutter "yer such a pain in me hole." "Usually yes, but you enjoy a bit of pain, don't you sweetheart?"

-"sure look, yer being a right cute hoor." "What-???"

-"c'mere till I tell ya- god loves a tryer not a chancer, but this shitehead got 'imself caught out... so I rang 'im half-four. Not a dickie-bird." "What DOES IT ALL MEAN"

Honestly Leon RARELY knows what Tom is even saying in these moments but he always chuckles when he hears comments like "ask me bullocks" because he learned what that meant and just... yeah he finds it kinda funny.

Also to note quickly the examples of shit I said is stuff I've heard from some of my family and I'm still kinda lost on what it all fucking meant and thought itd be funny to imagine Tom saying this shit to Leon who is like "wtf"

[needs-to-stop-looking-at-valves]

Character review! (12/12)

Colossus Rhodes!!;

Im...not gonna lie i didn't even know this bitch had a name. I mean, name me a bitch who could remember his name? I mean hes a one trick pony. First time he surprised us, then...eh. hes just boring.

Verdict:1/10. Hes just...so fucking boring. Take him home if you want?? All i gotta say is why?? Name ONE bitch who's horny for him. I'll wait.

Meltdown's dumb fucking oc's!!;

I don't care what you guys say, this is what they should be called. They fucking suck. God i hate them. They can get fucked by Fanzone's damn feet but can take on Grimlock? Bullshit.

Verdict:0/10. Just...don't. Dont.

Nanosec!!;

I?? Think he was my favorite human villian? He wasn't too complicated. He was just some guy who needed money, and Megatron made something out of it. He's kinda funny, he's a dumbfuck, hes US if we got super speed. Plus i kinda REALLY ship him with Slow-mo? And honestly? His simplicity makes him a GOOD character. I appreciate him.

Verdict:7/10. Take him home if you want?? Your parents are gonna think hes some punk. But he's just a guy. Probably lives off fucking ramen noodles and wants enough cash for a tv and some pizza.

Professor Princess!!;

She's such a 'feminist'. Shes the bitch who'd have a bake sale for equality, charge boys $1 and girls 75 cents. Shes annoying. They never explain HOW shes a professor?? Shes like 5?? What are you professor of? Fucking potty training?? Whatever powdered sugar can do better.

Verdict:3/10. Itd be 0, but...the voice actress kept bringing me back. Im not gonna comment on taking her home because thats FUCKED and anyone who complains about it is gonna get blocked. Seriously.

Headmaster!!;

Ugh god. Hes the guy on call of duty telling you he fucked your mom last night. He's just...annoying. weird buff goth, and his invention wasn't that creative in my book, and it DID make Dirtboss. But at least thanks to him Optimus got to punch Sentinel.

Verdict:4/10. Don't take him home. You guys deserve more than this.

Master diaster!!;

Was available for only one episode. Ill say one thing, dudes got good colors. Red is such a magical color. He works with it. He's also got a neato role, which was interesting enough for a one time baddie. I think i just....really don't like his face.

Verdict:6/10. Chances are he doesn't wanna meet your folks, since he's doing illegal shit. Plus lets face it you'd only hit that for money.

Slowmo!!;

This dame is EVERYTHING! The bee's knees, the cats pajamas! From the way she talks, to her looks, to how she interacted with Nanosec. Shes got a nice dialect, a pleasant speech, talking fit for the papers (im trying shut up) and is overall just a neato character? I liked having her around. It was a shame they didn't bring her in more. A disappointment, a travesty, unfair.

Verdict:7/10. Bring her home, shes a catch, the top fish, a total dame who takes things slow.

Powel!!;

He proves you can't trust a bitch with a Mullet. He just...sucks. its his clear intentions though, so hes...good? At sucking?? He's just that bitch in class that deserves nothing but has EVERYTHING. It sucks.

Verdict:2/10. Don't take him home. He'll just take your house and build a sweat shop on it.

[karak9]

Another stupid long post about how I don't know my own fucking gender

This is honestly just copied and pasted from a yt comment I made on an older vid and I figured I'd share it here bc tumblr loves this shit I guess lol. God damn I've been questioning my gender for so long and ik rn im prob not still in the best position to be thinking about deep life shit like where I am mentally and im dealing with a lot in my life and also very insecure about potentially being trans bc a lot of my friends don't seem like they would be very accepting and my bf is only really into girls. I asked him how he would feel if I was nonbinary or looked like a boy and he just said he wasn't totally sure but he's only attracted to girls :c he's the sweetest bf in existence and im honestly so afraid of losing him, so aside from obviously not wanting to deal with all the other trans shit, I definitely hope im not trans bc I don't wanna lose him. Anyways, ill start with my childhood I guess. I was always super tomboyish. My older sisters (im the youngest sibling btw) were always p tomboyish so maybe I kinda got it from them but I kinda felt like I was more tomboyish than them? I felt like I was the most boyish girl I knew, like even meeting other tomboy girls in elementary school I felt like I couldn't really relate to them or like they couldnt relate to me enough idk. I also remember once making up a song about being like so tomboyish that I was basically a boy or something along those lines and sang it to my best friend at the time who I copied like all the fkin time (it honestly wasnt healthy lmao I didn't have good parents, also I think I started making up songs bc she did that and I wanted to like impress her), but she thought it was stupid and weird so I just forgot about it and moved on. I was embarrassed to even enjoy playing with dolls or play dress up games online and was determined to play masculine games like runescape (even tho I ended up doing girly shit in runescape anyways lmao) and considered myself one of the guys. In 5th grade when I started needing to wear a bra I absolutely didn't want to, tho some girls in my class thought it was weird I didn't wear a bra when they found out and that made me more insecure about it, but since then I've p much only worn sports bras. I have bought some more normal bras bc I wanted to look attractive in them for my SO or whatever but I still highly prefer my sports bras and can't stand wearing the other ones unless I have to bc my sports bras aren't clean lmfao. I always hated talking about genitalia and breasts n shit but that could just be bc of how I was raised and how my family was always so strict and such radical Christians and anything sex related was a sin, idk if its dysphoria or not. I've never rlly liked my chest and hated showing cleavage like so god damn much and still do but maybe that's the same thing or maybe I just want smaller boobs and that's it idk??? Like I'd want to appear to have a completely flat chest at least, idk if I'd want to actually like have a guy chest or not? Also huge issue with ppl seeing me naked or touching my boobs but again idk if that's gender related or just a normal issue I have. Tho I had a friend in high school (a girl, a very weird lewd girl) who would occasionally grope my chest randomly and it wasn't a huge issue but kinda made me uncomfortable and more aware of my chest. I really like when I wear big hoodies or when I lean over so my shirt kinda poofs out and it looks like I have a flat chest underneath. Though im not super uncomfortable with my boobs, like normally ill want nothing to do with them but I don't mind my SO touching them especially if they're really into it. I wouldn't say im rlly dysphoric about between my legs either, like yeah I think its weird and I hate monthlies and stuff but I think that's normal. I think if i woke up one day and had a dick I would be fine with it, I'd prob even enjoy it tbh lmao. I once had a dream that i was, well, a male dog like,,, ya know, with a female dog, and not to sound weird af (hey we were both dogs ok) but I think i kinda enjoyed it? I don't really remember any other dreams where I remember actually having a dick or feeling it but I've had several dreams as a male person, but p much all of them were like, I was seeing through a character's eyes or smth, not really that I was a guy, so idk if that's normal. I have the same dreams about being other girl characters, I'd say its split about 50/50. Because of this game community im in, a lot of ppl assume im a guy, and a lot of people still think im a guy and I haven't really bothered to correct them but idk if I find it more enjoyable bc its funny or if I enjoy not being referred to as female for once. I'll admit I feel most comfortable referred to as they/them, like without a doubt, if I could go by only 1 set of pronouns for the rest of my life it would be they/them. But ik that's not enough to call myself trans. I definitely wouldn't want to be 100% male. Like if I imagine myself as a grown man vs a grown woman id prob choose to be a woman. I don't like my voice but I think that's mostly just bc I sound 10 years younger than I actually am, and wouldn't really want a deep/masculine voice. Like a "tomboy" voice would be fine if that makes sense? I don't want facial hair or want to have a masculine body, I like that I have curves and soft skin and small hands. Personally I like my hair long bc its soft and people love it, but sometimes I kinda wish I had short hair and could pass as a boy. Like I'd wanna be a typical cute kpop boy ngl lmfao. I like the whole cute androgynous/feminine boy look and wish I could pull it off. Tho I also like really girly things sometimes and am okay being seen as a girl, i just want to be cute and attractive. Ik whether im trans or not I like being a mix of feminine and masculine, tho I admit in the past I've been kinda insecure bc I used to be super sure I was nb and thought me liking girly things and wanting to still havd long hair and wear girly clothes made me seem like "not trans enough" or whatever. But i guess here I am questioning myself again anyways. If I am nb, it sucks that ill never really be able to be openly myself and all but I've accepted by now that I kinda have to pick a binary and choose what I want to be seen as for the rest of my life, and im ok with being female. There are some things I dont like about my body whether they're really gender related or not but I can't afford to transition and wouldn't like most of the effects of T and am afraid of surgery and not sure I want top surgery enough to ever get it anyways, but I think if we lived in a perfect world and I could magically change my body at will and I wasnt afraid of judgment or being unattractive or whatever, I'd probably want to look androgynous and itd be cool to be able to change my genitalia at will lmao. If I had to choose 1 genitalia over the over I honestly have no idea what I'd choose but I have no desire to ever get bottom surgery, at the same time tho I honestly wanna someday get surgery or w/e to never be able to get pregnant. I just could not handle pregnancy or giving birth and I don't even like babies and breast feeding sounds awful so if I ever have kids they will be adopted 100% and most likely be older and like not newborn babies lmfao, babies are honestly so weird to me and they stink and cry and they're so fragile and im so afraid of like dropping them when I hold them lmao. But I like my nieces and nephews and I like being the cool aunt (is there a gender neutral version of aunt/uncle?) who lets them use my art supplies and helps them do fun stuff even if I get tired of them sometimes lol. Idk if that's gender related either but yeah I guess. This if kind of a more recent thing but I often say I'd make a great bf kinda as a joke bc of how I am in relationships like being the stereotypical sweet bf type who makes things for their partner a lot and wants to be their knight in shining armor and their protector and all that, but again prob not rlly trans related lmao just thought I'd throw that out there I guess. So when I was 17 was when I really started getting into trans stuff, prior to that I mostly just learned from my parents that trans ppl were "against god" and all that bs, and eventually started realizing lgbt+ isn't as bad as my family said and later realized I was bi. But anyways I met an agender person online when i was 17ish and I'd never heard it before and thought it was really interesting and asked them how you know you're agender bc after hearing their explanation of it i thought it described how I felt, but ofc they weren't transmed and just described it as being like a deep feeling or whatever and since then i started calling myself agender (and switched between a few labels but basically nonbinary) until my transmed friend told me I was ridiculous and that I wasn't trans, and honestly he was a huge dick but im a huge pushover lmao and I thought well he's trans so he must know what he's talking about, and though I felt discouraged about it I stopped calling myself nonbinary. Then I began questioning it again after not too long and basically since then I've been questioning my gender off and on. I'm now 22 and god I fucking hope im cis but also I feel like a part of me doesn't want to be cis if that makes sense?? Idk if that's because I don't like being a girl for some weird deep reason I don't know about despite being pretty sure I've gotten a lot of my feelings and their reasons behind them figured out, or if it's because I am trans and dont want to force myself to pretend im a girl 100% forever. At the very least, whatever the fuck my gender is, I want to continue going by they\them wherever I can and pretending to be a boy to strangers online and I'd love to cosplay male characters and bind and occasionally just dress masculine for the hell of it and probably wear sports bras for the rest of my life. I feel like in a way I cang possibly be trans because I can live with all of those things and be fairly comfortable still being seen as female for the rest of my life. But idk, I have bpd and other mental shit so sometimes im not great with my feelings (tho I do try really hard to identify all of my feelings/emotions and stuff) but at the same time bpd can cause weird identity shit so maybe its just a weird mix of a bunch of crap and im not actually trans but just weird and tomboyish enough to question my gender for 5 years and still be unsure. Also I know a lot of ppl suggest talking to a therapist/psychologist/whatever professional and trust me I would love to but I can't currently and am unsure when ill be able to bc they're expensive and I live in the middle of fucking nowhere so finding a decent therapist around where I live rn is going to be very difficult. Also, I have fucking crippling social anxiety lmao like I'd be so afraid to open up about this stuff even to a professional. So if anyone could suggest anything online that could help that would be amazing