#like i was a kid! but i wasnt! i didn't appreciate it at the time! i want it back! i can change!
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gripped by the fact i'll never be as young as i was and i am forever changed by the things i know now that i didn't know then and the things i care about now that used to never cross my mind and i know ill continue to change and learn new things and look back with similar eyes but i will never be as wide eyed as i was before and that hurts my stomach
#like before i knew what technically a good typeface is#where everything i do now must be perfect ect#like i was a kid! but i wasnt! i didn't appreciate it at the time! i want it back! i can change!#eris: text
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“HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE—
cyno, thoma, neuvilette, alhaitham, diluc, kaeya
what type of relationships you have with the genshin men? a serious relationship, situationship, fwb etc.
a/n: i rewrote this sm times cus i wasnt happy with how it turned out

SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP—
cyno
✧ ok i see him as such an amazing lover tbh
✧ would want to become a dad bc he thinks dad jokes are the next step towardsa higher level of comedic excellency
✧ tighnari begs you not to let this man have a child
✧ but despite knowing his job could endanger you, he trusts in your ability to protect yourself
✧ would randomly buy you trinkets that remind him of you bc hes usually away for so long
✧ he keeps a little box of momentos that he snagged from dates with you. it consists of things like tickets from events you both went to and seashells from the time you both went to the beach.
✧ will not shut up about invocation tcg
✧ almost went insane when you jokingly told him you didn't want to play invocation tcg with him
✧ when you do silly things he joins you without question
you laid down your living room floor with your hands outstretched towards the ceiling. you shut your eyes as you soaked in the feeling of the ceiling fan gently blowing wind. you heard a pair of footsteps approaching, eventually stopping next to you. you pry your eyes open to see cyno looming over you. "what are you doing?" he asked, gesturing to your limp figure. you prop yourself up on your elbows and stared back at cyno, "i wanted to feel like a leaf." you replied. cyno stared at you for a moment, before walking towards the windows. he reels the curtains back and shoves the window panels open, allowing a gush of wind in. intrigued, you stand up and watched as cyno began making his way back to you. "what are you doing?" you question cyno who was standing behind you now. cyno reaches under your arms and swiftly lifts you up, earning a shriek from you. "pretending that i'm a tree."
neuvilette
✧ probably a little busy for a relationship but tries to make it work
✧ i feel like befriending the melusines is a easy way into his heart lol
✧ you had a small interaction with neuvilette one day, probably bumping into him and he helped you onto your feet
✧ the melusines saw this and their minds started PLOTTING
✧ they bothered you and neuvilette every hour of the day for 2 months straight about a 'blind date'
✧ when you both finally agreed (the melusines lied to both of you that the other had agreed to get you to agree) you almost passed out when you realised who he was
✧ it worked out though, because now you're in his kitchen throwing apples at his head
✧ he gives out amazing advice too
✧ ah, what a man
standing at the entrance of the cafe, the melusines snicker and giggle. they nudge your calves, signalling you to enter. hesitantly, you step foot into the quiet cafe. you looked around, trying to find the guy the melusines have been trying to set you up with for the past 2 months. you nervously searched, looking for a man who was sitting by himself. when your eyes landed on a secluded seat by the windows, you almost fainted. with languid footsteps, you walked towards neuvilette, who had noticed you when you walked in. neuvilette stood and pulled out your seat, "have a seat," you gave him a small smile as he settled back in next to you. "i remember you, i bumped into you a few months back," neuvilette said, eyebrows raised in amusement. that's when an epiphany hit the both of you, "oh." he mumbled. "that's why the melusines kept pestering me," you giggled, taking note of a few colourful animal ears poking out from the nearby window. "well, let's at least entertain their wishes for a little." neuvilette nods at your request, flipping open the menu.
thoma
✧ 10/10 lover boy
✧ he wants a established relationship
✧ when he first confessed he was a MESS
✧ dreams of settling down with kids in inazuma with his lover.
✧ i feel like he would appreciate scenic dates more than dinners and shopping dates.
✧ he wants children in the future
✧ SUCH A FAMILY MAN
✧ he gets insecure about not being good enough for his s/o
✧ but he tries his best to build a future w you!
the streets of inazuma were lively and full of colour, the evening sun settling in the background. your footsteps blended in seamlessly with thoma's, with your hand laid comfortably in his callous palms. "ow-" a quiet voice rang behind you and thoma. shuffling is heard as you turn to see a child laying face down on the concrete pavement. releasing your hold on thoma, you stepped closer to the boy. soft hazel eyes looked back at your own, glistening in the light. a smile etched itself onto your face as you extend a hand towards the boy, he hesitantly takes it as you gently lift him onto his feet. "are you okay?" you ask. the boy shyly nods, a wince escapes his lips just as quickly. glancing down at his limped foot, a small gash on his knee starts bleeding. with swift movements, you grab a napkin to gently dab at his wound. spectating from behind was an awestruck thoma, something felt so comforting about the interaction. without a silver of doubt and unequivocally, "she is the one."
SITUATIONSHIP—
alhaitham
✧ this is a hill i will forever die on
✧ he's so rational.. would make a pros and cons list about dating
✧ definitely tells you "sorry, i love you but this will never work. you need someone who can be there for you."
✧ he thinks that with his work and your life, it would clash and create conflict
✧ whenever you argue about
✧ everyone has no idea what is going on, tighnari and cyno thinks he's dumb and kaveh thinks you're dumb
✧ kaveh doesn't understand why you stay with a prick like alhaitham
✧ he truly likes you but his heart will forever lie in his love for his study and craft.
✧ he wouldn't tell you to wait for him because he's calculated the optimal time for dating and it's undefined
✧ sadly, he will never have enough time for another lover
alhaitham's embrace flushed against your weary skin. his room sat too silent yet too loud. the only sound you heard was the gentle beating of althaitham's heavy heart. his hands cradles your own, "i don't understand why you keep distancing yourself," a raspy whisper falls from your lips. alhatham instinctively draws your body closer to his own, his face moves towards the valley of your neck. feathery light touches grazes your forearm. "this was what i was worried about. you would be unhappy with how absent i am," the words hang coarsely in the air, cold to the touch but burning in your heart. you breathed in sharply. “this is why a relationship would be a bad idea.”
anger rose in your throat, “that's different. you're absent now because you're choosing to avoid me. you’re being selfish.” breaking free from his embrace, you turn and pin your fiery eyes against his emerald ones. however, he could only reply with a solemn look, “the probability this will turn out well is zero,” he replied. alhaitham knows how probability works, it can never truly be zero, but it can also never be ensured that this would turn out well. alhaitham is just a man that wouldn't take that risk.
diluc
✧ this man has no time for lovers (and way too traumatised)
✧ but does the occasional fancy date
✧ the type to leave you hanging for 3 business days
✧ makes it up to you by buying flowers after realising his mistake
✧ all in all he doesnt see this as a long term thing, so dont get too disappointed
✧ but he also can't take the feeling of losing you because he can't stomach the idea of losing someone he loves
✧ it's a hot and cold goose chase
✧ you'll be a happy for a week then he ghosts you for another week
curling in the comfort of your couch, you sulkily wolf down a bag of snacks. it has been officially 72 hours since the last time you heard back from diluc. the red headed man had disappeared without a word three days ago. after a night out, with a promise to pick you up the next day. it has been well over the decided time, and diluc is once again, a no show! a loud knock is heard against your door, there's a silent pause before another loud bang was heard. you pull your weight and drag yourself to the door. in front, diluc stood, a rare display of panic in his eyes, a bouquet of flowers clumsily clasped between his arm. you slant against the door frame, disappointed eyes stare back at his. "im so sorry, i just got so caught up on works and," he uncharacteristically fumbles over his words, guilt eats away at him as he eyes your sunken and tired eyes. you nod, looking at your feet. "i figured," there's a moment of ghostly silence. diluc hesitantly reaches forward, lightly resting his palm on your shoulder, testing the waters. when you don't push him away, firm arms wrap around your head, pulling you into his chest. a chaste kiss on your forehead, diluc gently rubs your back, "i'll make it up. i promise."
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS—
kaeya
✧ bsfr this man is too traumatised for love but would chase the adrenaline of it
✧ he doesn't want something a hassling as a situationship, no strings attached!
✧ he's still really cordial with you tho, treats you well
✧ buthonestly.. don’t get too attached or expect much, mans has been through the wringer of life
✧ lisa suspects something going on between you two but has no evidence to prove it
✧ amber just thinks you both are secretly dating
the feeling of kaeya’s rough arms clinging to your abdomen shakes you awake, suddenly realising that you’re wound up in his bed. again. the movement makes the male beside you stir, he groggily props himself up on his elbows, rubbing his temples, “morning, y/n. slept well?” a grin spreads across his face as he grabs and pulls you back onto the mattress. “great, actually. dreamt about monstadt without kaeya alberich,” you joke. kaeya rolled his eyes, gently punching your shoulder. “how awfully boring, who would accompany you to insufferable events then?” kaeya teases, poking at your sides. despite how domestic it all felt, deep down you both knew that by 12pm, these memories would slip into another void along with the other many escapades.
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top 10 long-term psychiatric lockdown facility patients:
#1. "DJ B-Rad": severely hyperactive autistic 11 year old. Looked and acted like some sort of elf. Would only respond to DJ B-Rad. Spoke and conversed pretty much exclusively in outbursts of classic youtube poop quotes. The other kids thought he was schizophrenic but I understood him and appreciated the humor he brought to what was often a quite dour situation. The place held I think 30 kids at a time– 10 per wing, divided by the risk-level associated with their interactions/how much care they needed. I was in the "low risk" section... in a room beside DJ B-Rad. He would frequently beatbox while partaking in the enjoyment of punching or hitting himself. Not in a depressive or self-haming way, nor in a "the voices made me do it" way. He just seemed to genuinely enjoy it. #1 because I have never met someone with such jouissance before or since. (and also because I wanted to start this off on a high note.)
#2. really charismatic stylish fat girl, maybe 15 or 16, who told everyone she was autistic. all professionals dissuaded her from mentioning it since that didn't seem to be her problem and really she didn't seem to have any beyond claiming to be autistic for no appparent reason. It became clear very quickly that she was self diagnosed and had her autism refuted by every professional she had come across. Regardless– she didn't seem to know why she was there either. She genuinely came across as normal, confident, well-adjusted, healthy family life, so why was she there? I had a bit of a crush on her and she had lesbian moms so i kept my fingers crossed that she would self diagnose herself as some flavor of kweer. I didn't think too hard about it back then because in all honesty I hadnt the faintest idea of what autistic even meant and no one seemed able to give me a straight answer. In hindsight... my conspiracy theory is that her moms initially took her to a psychologist because she kept telling people she was super autistic and back then that sort of claim carried massive weight (non zero chance tumblr played a part in her autism proclamation, but she was way ahead of the curve seeing as this was like... early 2012. in canada. I wasnt really online back then so idk when this sort of thing started to pick up steam but judging by how 2013 unfolded im gonna guess that it was right about then...) so maybe they thought she was like having some sort of very pressing identity issues or psychosis maybe muchausen and decided to ship her off without delay... A genuinely normal girl adamant on having a disability that was considered (especially back then. especially after DJ B-Rad.) debilitating must have seemed so insane..... until suddenly it wasn't lol (even normies I know nowadays say things like "everyone is a little autistic") . She arrived a few weeks before my graduation and at that point almost all of the people I spent my time with were gone and the place was full of randos who I otherwise didn't gaf about which meant I was able to spend more time getting to get to know her, trying to understand why she was there and what autism meant. Unfortunately, her timing could not have been worse. No one had time to entertain her autism claims. She had arrived almost immediately after the grand spergfest that was DJ B-Rad's graduation dinner. the bar was high. If you were gonna be calling yourself autistic, you were gonna have to prove it. She didn't seem at all bothered, nor deterred, nor invalidated by the professionals refusing to entertain the idea of her being even slightly on the spectrum... she was certain they were just ableist. During group therapy, when trying to get to the bottom of things, the "why" of her stay here, what issues she may have been dealing with, anything really... There didn't seem to be an answer. She most often took on a supportive role for others that came across as slightly tone deaf because she was trying to tell trauma patients to just keep their chin up and stay positive... which on paper could be possibly bad faith interpreted as "socially autistic" but no it more so came across as out of touch, as one of the rare patients who didnt have a background involving trauma, poverty, neglect, mental illness, etc. But to be honest, most people seemed to appreciate just having a truly unbothered, kind, and optimistic peer around– her intentions were, at the very least, pure. And for someone with low-level munchhausen, it didn't seem as though she was doing it for attention, nor did she fake any symptoms, or do anything really beyond say "i am autistic" and continue on with her day which I'm sure was extra confusing for the professionals dealing with her to wrap their heads around at the time.
#3. The Escape Artist: 14, caring and emotionally intelligent when she let her guard down, but typically quite guarded. Screwed up from her life on the rez. Always kept it real– I had some of my best discussions about life in general with her. By the time I got there, she had taken on a sort of mythical status as the unapproachable girl who had almost escaped the facility, and as a result had her stay extended "indefinitely". The minimum (and typical) stay was 4 months... by the time I arrived, she had been there for over 6 months, and she was still there when I "graduated" 4 months later. The story was that not long into her stay, she was being led back inside with the rest of the herd following a highly-supervised game of soccer in the fenced-off field attached to the back of the facility. To get outside at any time, you have to go through two (or 3) sets of locked doors. Beyond that... I mean, this place is in the middle of nowhere. This isn't some city psych ward shit. But security wasn't as tight as the staff let on. She had been plotting and waiting for a chance to escape for weeks– it was almost all she thought about. As the crowd was ushered along, distractions and misbehaving children were plentiful. While the staff were suddenly very wrapped up in dealing with whatever pressing issue had begun occurring, she realized that the door behind them had not closed properly. She somehow slipped out unseen, and managed to get a 10 minute head start before they realized she had vanished. She had run out the back, climbed the fence, hurt herself in doing so, but booked it down the highway regardless. She was in the middle of attempting to board a bus at one of its very few stops between this nowhere-place and the nearby city, when suddenly she was tackled down by staff who had been frantically driving around looking for her. Every kid there joked about plotting their escape– so of course she was a legend for having gotten that far. However, her response was always to roll her eyes at anyone who even joked about it: "Dont be stupid. Just do your 4 months. It passes like nothing." While she tended to be withdrawn from other patients, she had close relationships with all the staff there- including the ones who caught her- and often admitted that she wasn't sure anymore what she would do if they told her that it was her turn to graduate. Her entire support system was there. She didn't want to leave. At some point the program director decided she was making good progress and tried to push her on the path of the family reintigration stage. First time she went out for a brief day-pass type visit with her family, she stabbed herself in the stomach. Spent some time in an actual hospital. Upon her return, she played it cool and acted like it was no big deal, even tried to warp it into a badass thing while she showed us her stitches. But we all knew it was fucked up and that the next group therapy everyone was gonna have to sit back and give her the front and center even though she wanted to brush it off. She otherwise did seem happy to be back, even as she was placed back on "indefinitely stay" status. She was one of few I kept in touch with... which became very difficult very fast as she proceeded to dissappear for months and then years at a time, with the only indications of what's going on being people posting to her fb page asking if she's out of jail yet.
#4. Future Millenial Cringe Tiktok Star: 17, Baddie of the low-risk wing. She always had the most useful insight to offer during group-therapy (split by sex– sorry4tangent but of course as a fresh ftm I asked to get put into the "boys" group– was talked out of it by a staff member who assured me that it was an absolute shitshow in there and that yeah I could go down that road and maybe succeed but I would 100% regret it. I talked to some of the guys who told me it was just 2 hours of total retardation and anger outbursts often leading to physical fights and restraint-room utilization, all to the soundtrack of DJ B-Rad yelling "Pizza Time!" "PINGAS" "You Must Die" "Sos" etc. lol)... I always admired her maturity, level-headedness, and ability to tell off the dipshit dudes there in such a way that the staff had her back, and I often asked her how tf to handle this shit while maintaining my sanity. She was certain that you don't, but that's alright– comes with the territory– and if your sanity is reliant on being kept in here then you're not going to know how to cope on the ouside– she frequently said that hating it there and wanting to leave was a good thing (as you could imagine, her and Escapee had a strained relationship, and while Escapee would directly bring these things up with her, she saw the topic as dead on arrival since she was there solely for herself and knew it, and kept form boundaries between herself and other patients, which isnt to say she didnt engage with others but I could tell she was... I guess just way more self aware than the rest of us, likely due to her being the oldest one there), but sometimes people challenged this idea by positing that she was just saying that to justify her negativity, since it "wasn't that bad" there. She assured them that it wasn't normal to be locked up in a psychiatric facility, and that not treating it like a vacation wasn't a failure on her part– she was there putting in hard work to sort her shit out, and thought that it was a waste to just sit around waiting for it to be over. Oh also staff low-key knew she had snuck a phone onto the wing but didn't care really, because she was a model patient (phone was snuck in during her "family reintigration" period nearing the end of her stay, where the program gives patient families the opportunity to visit and go out for the day– and more rarely but sometimes even overnight, depending on the patient. All of this was pretty rare tho because kids often came from idgaf-families)... not much else to say except she was dope and it's weird seeing her getting dunked on online for calling herself clumsy in a tiktok. She once ran for some political position while also being open about the fact that she was a stripper. She almost got voted in too (small town politics moment)I honestly wish she had because she has always seemed very intelligent and driven...
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i feel like itd be even funnier if the toman WAGs were friends with WAGs from other/rival gangs lmao. like hanmas gf and emma get along so well they invite eachother over and draken and hanma are like um.? babe. and i feel like if hakkai got a gf it would be cute if she was obsessed with mitsuyas partner the same way he does with mitsuya. btw im the partner yuzuha doesnt wanna introduce! were keeping it lowkey ❤️
Before 2nd gen toman i think tenjiku!ran and tenjiku!hanma's gfs met at a meeting. It was a last minute one held by izana when ran was out dating and he had to rush over with her bc he had no choice he wasnt gonna leave her there all alone especially at times like this when gang wars are all over the place. Hanma did the same too and his gf still had her helmet on when arriving. Just standing there awkwardly with her windshield up and she's looking at ran's gf. Just two girls waiting for each other to smile first. The guys don't like each other but they do agree that their gfs should not be listening in on this. So they let them stick together ONCE and it keeps happening even after tenjiku is disbanded and the guys are in rival gangs and they hate it so damn much bc their gfs r such good friends who wouldnt stop shoving instagram photos of the other couple in their face. The girls tell them to not fuck up each other's faces too much bc "his gf is gonna be sad. imagine my feelings too when u come home looking like shit" and it makes them beat each other's ass harder lol
I feel like takeomi's baby mama is not on talking terms with the others as much. As in they're not as close. She doesn't always read messages since she's always so busy but when everyone gathers every once in a while she always appreciates help looking after her kid(s). Like when mitsuya brings his sisters over to accompany her own or when emma would offer to carry her kid with the other gfs gushing over their cuteness while she ate or just taking a breather
Hakkai and mitsuya's partners are soooo cute with each other. They go on double dates all the time but their partners are always holding each other's hands. The guys once made eye contact when following behind their partners at a shopping district and their eyes went lower and lower and they end up staring at each other's hands and hakkai just flinched. He obsesses over mitsuya okay but today it just made him. Move away a little. 😭 just two guys ig 😭
Hello yuzuha's partner :>>>>>>>>> just so u know we're a very busy body bunch 🙈
Extra: tokyo revengers x windbreaker (i hc in my prev that togame jo met with the s62 gen in juvie and it wasn't pleasant at all)
Togame jo's gf is friends with rindou's gf. They didn't meet through their boyfriends nor did they know their boyfriends knew each other. The girls met at a shared event between universities and he would always hear about the other girl through their own by her name. Rindou comes to pick his girlfriend up after class and she's chatting with a girl he recognises at the gate. He nods and waits with the two bc his girlfriend said that her friend's boyfriend is almost here, just to make sure that she leaves safely, and then a familiar guy waddles over, both boring holes into each others eyes ("this guy's still alive?") ... gets closer ... and he stands next to ... "Oh! Hi! Okay, your boyfriend's here. We'll get going too. See you!"
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Just imagine the vein bulging on each guy's foreheads
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A/n: WKWKWKKW, HERES ANOTHER CURLY X READER. I LUV HIM SM. Cuz what if you and him had a daughter? And literally took her into the tulpar?
Curly x fem!Reader
Warnings: none, just its bitsy angst on the end.
“Careful, sweetie,” Curly said, crouching next to her as she lined up her magnetic building blocks on the floor. “You’re gonna trip me on my way to work.”
Your five-year-old giggled, clutching one of the blocks to her chest. “Sorry, Daddy! I’m making a house.”
Curly grinned, his warm brown eyes sparkling with affection. “Well, it’s a very nice house. Just keep it out of the hallway, okay?”
Bringing your daughter aboard the Tulpar had been a controversial decision, one that had sparked more than a few arguments among the crew.
“You really think it’s a good idea?” Marcus, who's one of the guards, (before going on to the ship( had asked when you first brought it up. “Space isn’t exactly kid-friendly.”
“She’s not just any kid,” you had argued. “She’s our kid. Curly and I know how to keep her safe, and honestly, the Tulpar is better than leaving her behind on Earth. At least here, we know what’s happening around her.”
Life on the Tulpar might not have been perfect, but it was safer, more stable.
Initially, the crew had been skeptical. Anya had to say something about it. “What if something goes wrong? How are we supposed to focus on our jobs if we’re constantly worried about a kid running around?”
But over time, your daughter’s presence softened even the most hardened crewmates (Jimmy Lol)
Jimmy... Didn't really enjoy the company of his best friends daughter, his basically an uncle now... But when he got called 'uncle'... A small smile would appear on his face.
Daisuke, ever the gentle soul, quickly became her favorite babysitter. He had a knack for making paper cranes out of old reports, which never failed to make her squeal with delight. He would let him play on his gameboy really. Would play tag w/ your daughter.
“I think she likes me more than you two,” he joked one evening.
“She just likes that you’re a pushover,” you teased, though you appreciated his help.
Anya would teach her how to do some simple first aid.
“She’s got a good eye for detail,” Anya admitted one day, ruffling your daughter’s hair. “Might make a decent nurse one day.”
You and Curly alternated shifts, ensuring one of you was always with your daughter.
Swansea would go instantly soft, cuz your daughter reminds him his own children! Maybe 2nd best being a babysitter, he keeps warning your daughter to not get any closer to the utility room... And your daughter would ask: "why not?" "Because i said so"
One day, during a quiet moment in the cockpit, your daughter climbed onto Curly’s lap, staring out at the stars.
“Daddy, why are the stars so far away?” she asked, her tiny voice filled with wonder.
Curly wrapped his arms around her, resting his chin on her head. “Because that’s just how space works. But you know what? Even if they’re far away, they’re still beautiful. Just like you.”
You couldn’t help but smile at the sight.
That night, as you tucked your daughter into bed, Curly leaned against the doorframe, watching with a soft smile.
“Do you think we made the right choice?” he asked quietly once she was asleep.
You stood and crossed the room to him, slipping your arms around his waist. “Bringing her here was the best decision we could’ve made. She’s safe, she’s happy, and she’s growing up surrounded by people who care about her. What more could we ask for?”
Curly kissed your forehead, his embrace warm and comforting. “I just want her to have the best life we can give her. Even if it’s a little unconventional.”
You smiled up at him. “She’s got us. That’s all she needs.”
All she needs...? Yeah... Isolating her from the world is that it? Maybe... It wasnt a great idea...
A/n: WOOHOO! Daisuke would be the best babysitter for your child. I just know it really :) Please support me through ko-fi
#curly x reader#mouthwashing#mouthwashing angst#mouthwashing x reader#daisuke mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#captain curly x reader#curly mouthwashing
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yup thats right folks. its my monthly jay analysis post.
But now!!! Its about Prime Empire.
Ok guys look. Prime Empire is a terrible focus season. Jay had absolutely no character development and no power development. Nada. Nothin. Its just a “focus season” because he came up with the plan to make the villain good again and had more lines than usual (plus his little “abandoned” speech.)
HOWEVER!!! The Prime Empire shorts do say something. So, as we know, the Wildbrain seasons tend to poopoo on Jay’s character and boil him down to the funny cowardice character who is the weakest of the team. But something the shorts do attest to is the fact that Jay is STILL a ninja! The MOMENT he went into Prime Empire and saw something unjust he stood up to it. He tried to warn people. His desire to protect people goes beyond his job its his identity.
(i'm so sorry for the crappy captions. Youtube's gonna youtube.)And like the meme I posted earlier, he handled himself pretty darn well without the others. He didn't even complain about being alone. He accepted his situation pretty quickly and was already starting to fight against Unagami before the ninja found their way in. (Which you could argue could be because he is experienced with the situation in Skybound.)
And about the League…everyone makes fun of it but i beg yall to think about it for a hot moment. Who all was in Prime Empire?
Thats right. Kids.
When Jay fights the red visors in the shorts, you see the squeals of a bunch of players once they recognize him. Its very childlike and you have to realize that these people are just avatars.
All the people we saw get sucked into the game were kids. Of course theyd flock behind a ninja! And Jay had no problem taking them in and entertaining them and keeping them safe because that was his job! And they all dressed up like him and acted like him because he was their idol!!! And Jay wasnt complaining lol.
Jay acts all unsure of himself most of the time, but Skybound and Prime Empire make it canon that he is a great leader! And an even greater ninja! Sure, compared to Cole he's not as strong. Compared to Nya his personality might not stick out. His power isn't focused on like it is with Kai and Zane...and he isn't the main character chosen one like Lloyd. But these small scenes in his focus seasons remind us that he still was chosen to protect people and is very gosh darn good at it!
I mean, look at him kick red visor butt without even an OUNCE of a complaint about being without powers. (WHILE LOOKING LIKE A SOPPING WET CAT THIS MAN) But yeah appreciate this fight scene please.
Anyways, Jay doesn't get enough credit as a ninja. We forget he was trained for longer than Kai, has one of the most dangerous and powerful elements, is the reason the team can handle intense situations without freaking out, is the master of not one--but TWO chained weapons (known to be one of the most difficult types to master!), and is the ENTIRE REASON THE BOUNTY FLIES??? without ever being acknowledged for any of these! Cut him some slack guys he's awesome. Prime Empire does him so so so dirty.
#this one is REALLLY LONG FELLAS#good luck#hopefully it makes sense#i just really love this man#and these shorts#ninjago jay#jay walker#ninjago#ninjago thoughts#ninjago analysis#sharkanalysis
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Starving treycay enjoyer here!
I need to know more about their relationship in your au. Why they broke up, how they met... Idk, anything about them will be highly appreciated, Ty!
anon you and i are some of the few in this fandom w impeccable taste.
putting this under the cut bc theres a loooot
they met bc cater was traveling through the garden kingdom for the first time and stopped at trey's bakery (it was still run by his parents at that point). trey had lived in the GK his whole life so was very interested in cater's travels and all the places he's been. cater invited trey to come over to wherever he was keeping his suitcase house at the time to see all the stuff that he's collected from his travels and they become friends. they start dating maybe after a year of knowing each other?
they broke up bc cater could never find the confidence to truly be vulnerable around trey, and he found it really hard to date someone and still try to mask his depression (along w his other issues). like, he desperately needed to be able to talk to trey and show him his true self, but was also terrified if he showed that to trey, trey wouldnt like what he saw. this was really caters issue he needed to overcome (he shoudlve either gotten therapy or not been dating) but trey wasnt innocent either. he 100% knew of caters issues but never really took the initiative to try and get cater to open up, not bc he didnt care, he just. felt like it was easier to not talk about it. he's fine w bottling up his own trauma so it didn't seem like it was that big of a problem (denial).
what cater really needed was someone who would show him that same vulnerability and really make him realize it's ok to show that side of yourself to someone you trust (and also not expect trey to read his mind). and trey needed a push to understand that a relationship is more than a friendship w kissing, it requires you to actually take an active role and put yourself in uncomfortable situations sometimes.
cater was letting all these feelings build up w no release, and so instead of talking to trey he felt it was better to just break up. trey really didnt put up any fight, just kind of shrugged and said "if that's what you want" (trey was also in the middle of taking over the bakery from his parents at this time so he was dealing w a lot more than usual) so that in caters mind was more than enough to feel confident in his decision. so yeah it was both their faults and they still majorly pine for each other.
also the BIGGEST victim in all of this is cay cay the carrot. he sprouted out of the ground while trey and cater were dating and cater jokingly named him cay cay and pretended he was like their kid. he is basically a child of divorce
nobody really knows the true details of their breakup and riddle and trey didnt really start reconnecting until afterwards. so riddle isnt really friends w cater, they are acquainted but riddle is under the impression cater just used trey for some fling so naturally he is pretty skeptical of him (cater is aware of this, he awkwardly tries to pretend everything is cool). but there would be some plot where they are forced to spend time together and their friendship really evolves bc i love love love cayrid friendship i have so many thoughts on them. cater never felt like he could talk to trey but riddle actually opens up to cater (whether willingly or in a moment of anger) and cater feels brave enough to talk about some of his own issues. riddle also tells cater he can call him by his first name (he usually goes by garden prince).
riddle learns more about what actually happened between them and offers a lot of insight (as best he can being a royal prince deprived of a childhood) to them separately. riddle's friendship w both is a major factor in them becoming friends again and actually feeling comfortable w each other (they are unaware he was playing both sides). eventually the whole HL gang is hanging out together often enough that it's like trey and cater are dating again. and then after a lot of honest conversation they agree to give it another try. (also this is all happening across multiple seasons while A+D still remain the overall focus of the show and the others slowly start getting their own branching plotlines)
their happy ending is cater making the decision to sell his suitcase and find an apartment in the garden kingdom (or close by). the final treycater scene would be trey helping cater move in. they have to go through like a hundred boxes of all the stuff cater has collected while he decides what to keep and what to throw out (he wants to keep all of it). he starts working with trey in his bakery and finally builds a life in which he is not always wandering.
#this is starting to get real huh#im extremely normal about them#treycater#trekei#treycay#trey clover#cater diamond#twst at#ask me about platonic cayrid i fucjing dare you#ask#anon
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Squirrel Girl Drabble
Squirrel Girl x Platonic!reader (GN)
Summary: drabble of friendship with my favorite superhero ever
Warnings- Chipmunk Hunk (hes a warning in my heart)
Word count: 963 … it was supposed to be a lot shorter idk how it got this long ;-;
Authors Note- for my pookie wookie
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“Yeah, yeah, here,” you sigh exasperatedly. However, the grin on your face couldn't be hidden for long as you pulled out the small Tupperware of mixed nuts: almonds, cashews, some peanuts, and the rare few macadamias.
Doreen Green was beyond ecstatic as you quickly slid the container towards her. As she popped open the lid, a small squeal of excitement was enough to let you know she appreciated it.
“It’s mostly almonds, though. My mom bought some flavored ones from the store the other day.” You tell her with a chuckle, pointing towards the few nuts that were encrusted with a sugary shell. They were blueberry flavored, one of your favorites, but Doreen didn't care for them.
“Eugh! She should know better! Who, in their right mind, would defile the natural beauty and simplicity of the almond!” Doreen chirps, shaking her head with reverent displeasure as she picks out the 5 or 6 flavored nuts. She passed them back over to you, which you would happily eat.
“Well, she gets them for me, Dor,” you remind her with a chuckle, rolling your eyes as the sounds of the lunch room grow louder. “Though, she’d probably gladly pack extra just for you.”
Being friends with THE Doreen Green was perfectly fine. It was being friends with Squirrel Girl that was the interesting part. Doreen just hummed in acknowledgment as she munched on the nuts, her opened book bag shuffled slightly as a small squirrel peaked its nose out just a smidge.
Tippy Toe knew better than to be seen during the school day, though the talk of nuts stirred her from her hiding spot. She was nestled between a thick math book, a clean change of gym clothes, and the empty bag that had once contained trail mix. Her little pink nose twitched expectantly as Doreen slid over a single peanut discreetly. Although, a squirrel with a pink bow around her neck would be the least weird thing this school has seen…
Living in New York with the Avengers running amok made fire drills and earthquake practices seem like nothing. But “kid goes crazy and makes mutant robots to destroy the school and now for some reason, Iron Man is blasting down the door of your math class in the middle of a test (which you studied really really hard for) and telling you to leave” THAT was an exciting safety drill!
Anyways, the three of you sat in a comfortable silence for a while, you ate the sandwich your mom had lovingly packed, and Doreen shared the nuts with Tippy. You offered the squirrel one of the flavored nuts, but she was even more of a nut purest than Dor was!
“I have that stupid group project for english due- and obviously im doing all of the work for the slideshow-” you had been telling Doreen, mind swimming with assignments and quizzes that were upcoming.
“Doreen!” a voice called out, interrupting your ranting to your friend. The voice belonged to none other than Tomas Lara-Perez. Or, as you had recently learned, another mutant superhero who went by Chimpmunk Hunk.
You teased him for the name relentlessly… and it was the only time ever Doreen didnt join you in teasing a friend. Her crush on the boy was painfully obvious.
Doreen had already perked up, probably knowing he was close by much sooner than you did. She turned to look at Tomas, her brows pulled into a look of confusion.
“...yes?” she slowly asked, both of you noting how out of breath and worried Tomas looked, “What’s wrong? What happened?”
Tomas sucked in a deep breath, “Some of the squirrels were sniffin’ out something sketchy,” he explaines in a hushed voice. It wasnt like anyone in the cafeteria would be listening to them, let alone care. In fact, being seen as the weird kids who thought they could talk to New York Squirrels was really not the worst title to own.
Tomas’ words caused Tippy-Toe to squeak out to Doreen, who looked even more concerned now.
You just silently observed, not having any abilities yourself, you always just enjoyed watching from the sidelines. Helping out here and there if you could.
“Does New York need Squirrel Girl?” You jokingly ask, a smile pulling on your lips as you wipe your hands off. Your question was rhetorcal, obviously New York ALWAYS needed her, wether the city actually knew it or not.
Doreen shoots you an apologetic smile, muttering a remorseful apology as she stands up and gets her stuff in order. Tomas was already backing up and glancing to the doors out of the lunchroom. He also says something about being sorry he had to steal Doreen away, but you brush him off.
“Go on,” You chuckle, waving them away with a grin, “Go save the city, hopefully I’ll see you in English.”
“Oh, dont worry!” Doreen reples with her classic smile, front two teeth protuding just a bit more over her lower lip, “I wouldn’t dream of leaving you all alone in that class.”
She was telling the truth, she’d never lie to you, after all. You giver her one last wave goodbye, pulling put your phone as you check local police radios. Tomas had helped you get the stuff installed so you could still join along with what they did while you were in classes. It seemed that Doreen was going to be dealing with a small gang of boys who were terrorizing the squirrels in the park.
There was obviously a bit more to it than just that. Doreens squirrels could handle some nobody ruffians on their own… you were just excited to here all about the amazing adventure later today in English.
Speaking of… you had a slide show to finish.
#avengers#squirrel#squirrel girl#doreen green#x reader#gn reader#avengers x reader#avengers x male reader#squirrel girl x reader#chipmunk hunk
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I have like. Such extensive backstory HCs for Grim and Gnarly and I just never talk about it. They just live in my head. I think abt them almost as much as I think abt Allan, I like them a Lot.
I had developed Grim's backstory pretty heavily but not Gnarly's, so I've been thinking abt his.
My take on him is that he had insanely shitty parents who did not like or care for him. He left at 16 and couch surfed. His first job was at a butcher shop. The owner, Butcher John, was very gruff, kind of rude and standoffish, but he really did take Gnarly in. This guy in the few years Gnarly worked there was more of a dad to him than his actual dad ever was. Neither of them were ever comfortable with Gnarly calling him that, and neither were ever comfortable talking about feelings, trauma etc. All Gnarly knows is that Butcher John went through something similar as a kid.
Something about Gnarly is he is genuinely smart. But no one ever expects this from him. He has dyslexia and some trouble reading and teachers and especially his parents always assumed that meant he was Stupid. He's not!! But he grew up thinking this so he never really tried, because what was the point ?? And in high school he really embraced the "Cool guy, doesnt care about anything" image. He also was really averse to doing anything seen as non-masculine. Gnarly always grew up more into boys than girls(And later figured out he didn't like girls at all, he just felt like he had to) and his parents were Not happy about that, to say the least.
But this also led to him not embracing things he liked that didn't fit that mold. Until his idol and basically adopted dad came home with a guy. Gnarly genuinely had no idea Butcher John was queer. He was the most masculine person Gnarly knew, ever. When he was told "I'm not doing any of this to be masculine. I'm just doin it because I like it." it really hit him. So he started letting himself doing things seen as nerdy, like reading. He found out he loves reading historical fiction and non-fiction, as well as fantasy. He started taking piano lessons, too, in addition to guitar lessons.
Even though he felt more self confident, he still was convinced he wouldn't be smart enough to get into college. But he did- on scholarship. This led to him feeling like he was taking it away from someone else, dealing w imposter syndrome, before John encouraged him(Along with John's now husband! Also named John. Which is why the OG John is referred to as Butcher John.)
Even though Gnarly never refers to him as his dad or anything, he keeps in close contact with him even as an adult. The only time he ever saw Butcher John cry was when Gnarly called him, after being able to escape Hell. Until Griddle happened and Gnarly introduced Griddle to the Johns- that also made Butcher John cry.
Fun fact: Nowadays, Butcher John is a vegan. He doesn't regret being a butcher, considering he always used every part of the animal (His husband is a taxidermist! Its how they met.) and always modeled and taught Gnarly respect for nature. But when he wasnt able to verify exactly where the meat was coming from anymore after farms stopped being local, he closed his shop and went vegan. Hes a little preachy about it, but Gnarly know its out of a deep respect for animals. (Though vegan, John is fine with using vintage animal product clothes such as leather.)
Gnarly still hunts, and is as far as vegan as you can get, esp since deer are insanely overpopulated near Meep City. But respect for nature is a big thing for him, which is why he loves taking camping trips with Gristle- and once Griddle and Gnasty are old enough, them too!!
He still struggles heavily with anxiety, self doubt and imposter syndrome. But he has a family now, which is more than he ever had as a kid.
Also, when he found out his dad kicked the bucket, he came home to Gristle and Grim throwing him a surprise party to celebrate, which Gnarly appreciated SO much. Fuck that guy !!
I need to design The Johns since they're important figures in Gnarly's life. They're like. The opposite of Grim's mom.
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i wanna thank you for, what i guess i’ll call your “curl confidence”. what i mean by this is, thank you for always being so proud of your curly hair as well as drawing curly hair in general so much. growing up as someone with VERY curly hair naturally, i loved my hair, but i felt ashamed of it because it was different from everyone else’s hair and i even got made fun of for my natural hair unfortunately. in current times, seeing you be so open about your curls (as well as other artists too) has been really inspiring and it helped me see the good in my hair again too :) i hope you take this as a good thing to hear and not a stressful thing, but, even though i’m not much younger than you, you are such a great role model luvu. you’re inspiring on so many levels, you’ve been doing so many great things as you’ve grown through the past years, you’re a great, kind, and funny person, and you just have this energy that’s so welcoming and encouraging, i’ll always thank you for that. 🙏💚⭐️
this post is gen about to make me start crying man ;_; im gonna go on a lil yap post so im sorry </3
i always grew around girls who were yk. WHITE and had straight hair, so in mid school, all i knew is that it puffed up and i didn't like it and i liked it straight because it made me ""prettier"", then one day when i went to PR with my family, my mom used this cream in my hair and suddenly it was defined to ALL hell, and i never realized i had curly hair until like months after that, and eventually i started digging into "curly hair" products to use
let me tell you, it took many haircuts/trims and many products to truly have my hair the way it is now. and even with my hair as it is, i can't do many things like other people because it damages my curls, and knowing how hard i worked to make it come out the way it is, i just dont want to undo all that hard work my HS self put in to get it to how it is now
seeing messages like this really does warm my heart, because it truly makes me remember when i would draw myself and try to portray myself as those other girls when that just wasnt who i was or what i looked like, and it makes me feel so heartwarmed being able to be that representation that y'all needed to feel confident in that stuff, because it's something i needed as a kid as well, im so grateful to have such a loving community and this post really speaks to me :'( thank you so much man i appreciate y'all so fuckin much
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(Hi, I seen your recent post, I hope you get to feeling better. Mental health is serious, I’m glad you’re so strong to take care of yourself. Much love, and please take care of yourself. This community cares about you and loves you. Prayers and love, -Natalie)
Any trigger warnings I can think of for my rant. TW hospitals, weird doctors, suicidal thoughts and self harming thoughts mentioned, brief mention of..SA? Dunno if it counts, but just creepy. Brief mention of phych wards. Lemme know if I missed any triggers
Thank you. I really appreciate it, it's really nice. Hope you don't mind me using this reply to just vent a bit about stupid fucking healthcare, because what the fuck?
Went in, like "heyy.. I am having self harm and suicidal thoughts,"
and they were all, o"h that's so bad we are so glad you came in, that's the right thing to do."
Cue One and a half hours in the waiting room, finally get a room, two more hours in the room. Finally get seen by a nurse, she was nice and actually listened.
Another 40 minutes, doctor finally gets to us, takes all my physical stuff. He seems to have an obsession on checking my breathing despite me coming in for mental issues.
He then fucking puts his stethoscope all over my chest, under my shirt over it, and straight up lifts up my bra without asking or warning and just starts feeling there.
Then we get told, nothing physically wrong, wait for mental health team video call.
2 more fucking hours it's now one am. We get the call. Guy is Indian with a heavy accent. I don't have an issue with his race, but have auditory processing disorder, and he is hard to understand, but there's no way to ask for another worker without sounding racist.
This bloody dude, asks the usual questions and whatnot. Then goes on and unprompted 40 FUCKING MINUTE RANT ABOUT HOW, HE DOESN'T WANNA PUT SOMEONE AS YOUNG AS ME ON DRUGS. I kid you not 40 fucking minutes, didn't let us get a word in, just going on about how, I'm so young, and I'll get addicted to anti depressants.
Keep in mind, we didn't even mention meds!
And then, despite me saying multiple times I feel worse then I came in, he says that, well you are free to go. Come back if you feel worse.
If I feel worse?! Bitch I feel worse then when I came in!
But obviously can't say that, so came back home with my mum, she bought me ice cream, so at least there's that.
But then apparently I have an appointment with cahms. I have litterally only heard horror storys about them. Not only that, it sounds like I am gonna have the same therapist my fucking old foster sibling had. Who was horrid.
Straight up told my sister she couldn't be autistic because she wasnt a boy. Like wha? She made my foster siblings mental health worse.
But I can't refuse treatment, or I get a fucking ward. And just ahhh!
But at least I have my phone I guess.
So uh feel free to send asks, I could use the pick me up.
At least I'm not in America so it didn't cost us.
Also I promise I'm safe, I'm not gonna do anything to my self In case y'all were worried.
Sorry for any mistakes, and if it sounds really pissy, its 3am, I'm exhausted and just ehhh.
Love y'all!
#call of duty#asksoap#cod#soap#john#Lol#Hospitals and medical sucks#Fuck the health care system#I'm so fucking tired
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hi i’m that one person who was upset about a sonadow sex joke you made. let me preface by saying i’m not here to argue or scare you but to apologize.
you don’t have to respond to this at ALL i just saw your blog name and felt guilty for hurting you.
im sorry about upsetting you and reacting the way i did. i still think its eugh and everything. but i just get upset when people make jokes about that with characters previously stated to be minors because of personal trauma and people sexualizing me as a kid and just morals in general. of course i know that i can’t control how people enjoy their stuff, and i know it’s going to exist regardless. but i want to at least know if who im interacting with is someone i don’t want to talk to due to being a proshipper or whatever stuff like that.
i wasn’t trying to ‘cancel’ you or anything. i was upset and said something in the moment. i’m sorry. i should have just unfollowed and moved on. i should’ve saw the human i knew behind the screen but what i could only think of was a random person i didn’t know. i’m really sorry.
well, anon, i accept your apology. but also i dont. so let's take this one by one, okay?
first of all. you're still wrong, and i'm still angry.
it wasnt a "sex joke", i was commenting on a uquiz someone else made, because i found the sheer fact that sonadow of all ships was included in that quiz to be really funny. not to mention, the uquiz was based on statistics from ao3, and i guessed the correct answer by just knowing how shipping culture works. i thought this was funny. you know, people are allowed to find suggestive humor funny, even if you're uncomfortable with it, anon.
but i'll humor you. lets say i was doing the things i got accused of doing. big deal. i don't think you're wrong for being upset, much less for being uncomfortable, but one: could've settled this over dms, two: not everyone is you. not everyone is uncomfortable. not everyone cares so much. i didn't give that joke more than two seconds of thought, you clearly did, and i don't think you're wrong for that, i think it wasn't my problem.
secondly, and this will sound horrible, but (like i said) your discomfort isn't something i (the people running that oc poll, and my followers, by the way) needed to know about. i hear you, anon, and i'm sorry that all that happened to you. i understand the discomfort. but, like i said, we could've settled this in private, you could've at least told me which mutual you were, and no one else had to know.
third: i am not a proshipper, and i don't appreciate that you're still calling me gross, by the way. this isn't an apology if you're not accepting you were wrong. i'll humor you again and say that i was doing what you say i was doing: it is not that serious to me, and i don't like being called gross for something that is just plain, morally neutral weird (not good, not bad, neutral weird)
and fourth: thank you for at least recognizing what you should've done. however you didn't do that. from what i understand, based on what happened shortly after your anon, you went to the person running that sonic oc poll (which, whatever, i was losing anyway), and you lied about what i was doing to get me kicked out. good on you for realizing that was wrong. but you know, i'm still angry. im banned from many fandom events now because you couldn't just unfollow me. so i'm glad you realized it was wrong, i accept your apology, but i'm still very much angry with you.
i'm glad you're sorry, i'm glad you're recognizing i'm a human being (okay?) and i'm glad you at least tried to apologize. don't call me gross, apologize for real, and next time don't do this to someone through tumblr anon over whats essentially a common ocurrence on the sonic fandom, and every other fandom
(by the way, even if we weren't mutuals, you shouldnt do something like this to "a random person you don't know" either, but what do i know right? and "because of my trauma" isn't an excuse, because by that logic you also generated trauma in me, because now i'm fucking paranoid about everything i fucking post. i can thank you for that.)
have a nice day.
by the way
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its been a year now, since my dad died. i think in many ways i grieved before it ever happened, and in many others, i havent even started. it feels like its been too easy to adapt into a life without him around, without his laughter, telling him about my work day (and him being genuinely interested), his help with all my diy projects, without popping my head round the study door as he was inevitably playing free cell or something on his computer again (instead of what my mum actually wanted him to be doing). i feel like in a lot of ways i learnt more about him after he died than i did while he was here- about the man he was before, anyway. i wonder about how life would have been different if he didn't have cancer, or at least not for so long. i remember doing rock climbing with him as a kid, going on long walks over welsh hills, but i also remember how that largely stopped, and how it feels like it coincided with his diagnosis. i wonder if id have appreciated it more if it continued into my teens. hearing about all the things he did in his youth, his work with getting kids into the outdoors, the way he would pay out of pocket for kids expeditions if they couldnt afford it, it makes me feel so proud of him and also feel a desperate longing to have known that man more. maybe nothing would have been different, anyway. maybe things changed when he moved, before i was even born, i guess ill never really know, he never really talked about it properly to me, not the stories ive heard over the last year. i think thats been my dominant thought through this. i think so much of my last year has been supporting my mother, though this and with her own health issues, i havent had time to stop and think of much else. ive just had to keep going as though nothings changed. i think maybe its been too easy to adapt into a life where hes not here. i sometimes worry im doing this wrong; when other people talk about how hard it is. i think its been too easy. too easy to close up the spaces he occupied. too easy to forget the exact tone of his voice. and yet sometimes its so hard too. we did a seder this year and it wasnt the same without him. i think that was, more than anything, the moment where i missed him. it wont ever be the same ever again. nothings ever going to be the same ever again, but im glad hes not suffering anymore. those last few weeks were the hardest thing i think i will ever do. but i still miss him so so much. i wish it hadnt gone this way. im glad i got 12 years at least. im glad he got to see me grow up. i think, despite everything, he was proud of where i ended up, even if it wasnt what he probably wanted for me. i hope he was. i wish i could talk to him just one more time.
#ok im going to bed now#this is mostly just train of thought im sorry#i assume nobody will read it anyway its just. grieving#nyxtalks#writing this has been the first time i cried about this since right after#ended it abruptly bc im about to start sobbing#whyyy does the bit abt work n my life get to me more than the rest. lol
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Alright since my power went out and I missed the rest of the episode, I finally watched it on Hulu. I didn't blog my reactions because 1, it wasn't live anymore so it wouldn't be "live blogging" and 2, my Hulu account doesn't give commercials so I was always immediately thrown into the next scene with no time to process what I was seeing. So I'm going straight into my "Echo's Essays".
That being said, holy fuck this episode was a rollercoaster. Uhh... 6.5/10. I'm going off of what's fresh in my mind so these might be in reverse order.
Buckle up, this is another long one.
Starting off, the fire in Bobby and Athena's place. Once again, I need to say to everyone that if they made it so Amir started the fire, we are going to have a problem and I'm tanking the last episodes rating from a 10 to a 2, and this episode from a 6.5 to a 4. No if's and's or but's about it.
I'm so glad Athena's okay, but fuck, Bobby's in the hospital. I've also chosen to ignore the promos because with how it looked, it makes it seem like he's on a breathing tube and his heart stops when for all we know, his heart could've stopped when he got there and he's fine for the rest of the episode, just resting.
Holy fuck, Bobby's dad tho? The way he was in Bobby's dream making them both drinks (so glad they didn't make Bobby relapse) and the way he brought out the gift Bobby made him as a kid but the twisted way he said "It's a book of all the people you've failed to save!" and how he was the first one? DUDE!!!! 😭 That was so messed up! I love the storytelling but it was still messed up 😭😭😭 But also amazing?? The thing that symbolized life and heroism being the thing that killed his father (also the alcohol), but the twisted version that symbolized death and failure (plus his dad) being the thing that saved Bobby (and Athena's) life.
Bravo 👏👏👏
Next we have Kim dressing up as Shannon and having the talk with Eddie. That was... Something. When she first showed up, I thought Eddie was dreaming. I mean, he was sleeping on the couch (not saying anything about that), and "woke up" to her knocking on the door. Plus her looking like Shannon, I thought, "Oh, this is a dream." AND THEN IT WASNT???
While I appreciate the fact that Eddie had the opportunity to "say what he wanted to say" to "Shannon", I was also uncomfortable? Eddie's known Kim for how long?? And she finally finds out she looks and sounds like Eddie's dead wife, (btw, I'm glad they didn't drag that plot point on for too long. Buck had a talk with Eddie about it and next scene we get with him he's showing Kim pics of Shannon. I was pleasantly surprised) and that that's why they're seeing each other, and she decides to dress up like Shannon, EVEN GOT A DIFFERENT HAIR STYLE, and talk to him???????
That's... Weird! LIKE REALLY FUCKING WEIRD DUDE!!!
You're seeing this man who seems interested in you, you aren't officially boy/girlfriends but you're going on dates and spending time together, you then find out the whole reason he was interested in you is because you look like his dead wife who he has unresolved issues with and he's clearly not okay about it, and you decide to change your hair so it looks like hers, wear clothes AND JEWELRY that looks similar to hers, and then talk to him pretending to be his dead wife and gaslighting him when he tells you to stop????
What the actual fuck????
Like, I guess I get it? You want to give him the closure he never got with Shannon, but that's not up to you??? That's between him and his therapist!
That whole thing would've been better if it really was just a dream. Literally keep the scene exactly the same, you can even have "Shannon" saying the exact same things, maybe add a couple sentences here or there to prove it's really Shannon, but it's a dream that Eddie's having while he's sleeping.
Ryan Guzman's acting was incredible in this scene, but it was unfortunately undercut by the undefined amount of ICK that washed over me when I realized he wasn't dreaming and Kim was doing dead wife cosplay. The ick isn't even justified! I would've still felt icky if that's what the show did to get rid of Marisol (get fucked) but at least something else good would've come of it. INSTEAD!!! They decided to make the ick even more prominent by having Christopher there too!
WHAT THE FUCK GUYS????
The only way they could've salvaged that was either make the conversation a dream, or have Marisol walk in alone, that way the good would've outweighed the bad. But what they did was have the worse thing happen in both scenarios!!! WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU BRING CHRISTOPHER INTO THAT??? And before you say "Oh Marisol didn't know that was happening when she was bringing him home"- Shut the fuck up, I'm talking to the writers.
WRITERS!!! WHY THE ACTUAL
FUCK
DID YOU MAKE CHRISTOPHER COME HOME TO THAT?!?!?
After going through losing his mom, surviving a freaking tsunami, all the therapy he went through, being mad at his mom for leaving, and finding comfort in the letter she left him, WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM???
I started off feeling uncomfortable but now I'm pissed off.
EVEN GIVING HIM THE LINE "Mom?" SO THE AUDIENCE MAKES SURE TO ACKNOWLEDGE HES THERE IS SO MESSED UP!!!
What do you expect is going to happen next? Eddie tries to explain to his son why he was in their house holding onto a woman who looks and sounds exactly like his dead mother??? How can you explain that???? He's a kid! Yeah he's gotten older and is more mature BUT HE'S STILL A KID!!! NO KID SHOULD HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT!!! FUCK, NO ONE, REGARDLESS OF AGE, SHOULD HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT!!!!
That was... Horrible? Disgusting? Unnecessary? Yes to all, and I'm moving on before this part gets any longer.
Speaking of kids, fuck that councilwoman for interfering with Mara getting officially adopted! Yeah, your son died because Hen didn't treat him, but say it with me everyone:
HE REFUSED CARE!!!!
You can be mad at Hen all you want for being active captain when that happened, but destroy her work life not her personal life! Mara is a troubled child who needs a home and the woman saw how happy she was with Hen, Karen, and Denny. If you wanna be pissed at Hen, BE PISSED AT HEN!!! Don't bring children into it!
And don't say "the guy who died was her child". The guy who died was a grown ass man, I'm talking about literal children. No matter how much he acted like a child, he was still a grown adult capable of drinking and driving. How do you logic that you're gonna hurt a woman you hold in mind responsible for the death of your grown ass son, and look at a little girl who's got nothing to do with anything except being excited about being adopted and think "I'm gonna rob this small child of a loving home and family and ruin her life! That'll show that woman that I really mean business!"
LEAVE THE KIDS OUT OF IT!!!!!!!
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*sigh*
Anyway, moving on.
Um... I appreciate Athena reaching out to someone to help Bobby, but I don't think that should've been Amir. Athena saying Bobby's on a tightrope and falling in one direction because of Amir, shouldn't you have gotten someone to tip him in the other direction? The person who caused him to tip in the first place whether intentionally or not shouldn't have been anywhere near him. The episode even accents this by having Amir go to their house, see all of their happy pictures (which was hard to watch by the way), and say he has to leave. Since he's now said to both Bobby and Athena to stay away from him/out of his life, if the writers try to make them go after him again to apologize, don't. Just send him a letter with the word "Sorry." written on it. Leave that man alone please.
...Do I have anything else to say? I think that just about covers everything important, at least that I can think of off the top of my head. Strong mixed emotions with this one guys... I'm worried about the next episode.
See you next week ✌️
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You know what??? Post NRC Pirate Treasure content bc now I want to prove u wrong for not loving Kalim enough >:[
- Jeanne becomes the captain of her own ship, but in a legal way (unsure what job she would have) merely because if she wants a relationship with Kalim she can't continue being a pirate even using something as a front as her parents do
- Everytime Jeanne travels to other countries Kalim misses her way too much. My boy is having the worst time of his life until she comes back
- he asks for her hand before she goes on yet another trip because he's tired of having to be separated from her all the time
- they start sailing together and Kalim manages his family's business from afar and Jeanne serves as not only his wife but as his personal body guard
- once they have their first kid Jeanne calls it quit on sailing every day because she wants to raise their kid on one specific place, so she officially moves to the Scalding Sands with Kalim
- Jeanne and Kalim biologically have 2 kids (twins) and Kalim found 2 kids in need to a home one day who happened to be siblings and ended up convincing Jeanne to adopt them
- Kalim is the first of of the two to die when they grow old because Jeanne has fae genes; but she doesn't stay alive for too long after he's gone
- their kids are probably twisted from the homeless kids in Aladdin and Wendy and the other boys from Peter Pan
THERE. HAPPY NOW?
very.
TTHIS IS SO CUTE <33 i appreciate that jeanne didn't stopped doing what she likes but she also understood she needed to settle down <33
AKJEWMIOX2JERIOX43MJ ALSO KALIM MUSTVE FELT SO SAD WHEN SHE WASNT AROUND :((( LIKE COME BACK BABY THE KID MISSES YOU (he is the kid/j)
PIRATE TREASURE I MISSED YOUU
WAA I MISSED THEM AS DANGEROUSLY YOURS CONTENT- I NOW NEED TO REREAD IT.
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ok so first things first, i loooove gatwa's doctor so much already. if nothing else, i love the masterclass in acting he's putting on, his expressiveness is so impressive. he brings a very fun energy to the role
the church on ruby road has me feeling a bit mixed as well. the plot was kind of meh, and i didn't like how in the alternate universe ruby's mum was just so mean without her. it didn't make sense. like what makes ruby so special, hm 🤨 what's this one white blond baby got that all the other babies in the world don't 🤨 i know the point was to show how much ruby meant to her mum, but like. there are other ways to do it than have a complete 180 in characterization.
i'm honestly not super interested in the mystery of ruby's parentage (which apparently seems like it will be a huge thing unless they're just making stuff up to fake us out, in which case, good on them). but i don't want it to be some big reveal i'm sorry 😩 especially not because if it is, people will bend over backwards to say how great storytelling it is when they'd never say that if moffat did a plot like this. i hadn't even considered the possibility really, when i'd first watched it, i thought it's just not that deep, but maybe i'm wrong. the people who are theorizing that ruby is rose and tentoo's daughter are sooo funny though like
ur only saying that because she's blond and we all know nobody on this show can be blond without being related to The Blond(tm) 🙄
that literally means they abandoned their kid. yes. such good parents 😫
i also feel like we didn't....really get to know ruby that well? i'll reserve judgement to give them more time obviously, and millie seems very green (not a judgement on her, and she and ncuti seem to have a lot of fun energy together) so there's still time and there's a lot of time in general for the stories to get going, and it had to do double duty as a christmas special and an intro episode for both new doctor and new companion so like, my feelings may also change with time. anyways those are my thots for now
yesss i was sold on gatwa very quickly i just hope he doesn't become 10th doctor rehash number 2345932853845 i am so tired. give him something new. also praying him and ruby don't have a romance angle there were a couple of moments in CORR i was like. GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT AGAIN.
CORR plot being meh i agreeee but also xmas specials plot is a lot of times like a wafer and as someone who watched it quite roasted ngl i kinda appreciated it 😂
YEAH omhg tho with ruby disappearing and her mum (i want to say carla??) completely changing as a person??? i get that the point was supposed to be like one little change can make such an impact etc etc as well. but also i was just like. .... ok but what about the other kids wasnt good enuf ???? maybe i'm a cynic lol. but fr have another MORE kids on the wall bc she's trying to fill a gap she doesn't know is from what !!!! IMAGINE.... especially with it being sort of set up as a doctor/companions parallel oh my god
nooo oh my god i know what you mean about rubys parents i like that theyre setting it up as a counter to 13s "it doesn't matter i'm good as i am my past doesnt define me" etc. but i really want it to not be interesting. i want her parents to just be like. normal people who had to make a hard choice lol. oh my god. i just realised. we're gonna go thru a fucking rey star wars arc with her im gonna lose it byee... imagine she ends the series like "im ruby doctor" :) i would quit watching.
but yeah 100% it's gonna be a big thing. atm i dont care but i guess we'll see and hope they do something interesting with it.... prayers she's an alien tbf
rose and tentoo would be terrible parents tbf i said what i said.
YEAH i know what you mean i feel like that about gatwa too i think its hard making the first intro for both an xmas special because it has to be kinda silly and rompy so you cant rlly get too into the grit of the characters?? still reserving judgement on them both, but its taken me a while to warm up to like. everyone in dr who since bill--- wait i take that back i loved bel in flux from like her first scene but she's not a doc or companion.
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