#ltlyc

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Hello hello. I barely use tumblr but when I saw you had one I just had to run here to let you know how amazing your writing is. I’ve read almost everything you’ve written and the only reason I haven’t absolutely devoured all of them is because life is unfortunately always lifing, so not much time on my hands.

But you’re sooooo good.

My two current faves have to be Shyin’ away and ltlyc. Ltlyc was the first goyuu fic that made me really stan them. The characterisations were such chef kisses I’m convinced you’re actually the one who gave Gege the idea for their characters 😌.

Shyin’ away introduced the age swap flavour I didn’t know I was in love with? The way you expertly managed to keep their personalities as canon as possible while still exploring their new dynamic was extraordinary. I hope to be half as good at writing someday.

I just wanted to show my appreciation, even though words fail to really convey what I really feel. Keep being awesome!

As for my question….. I guess for ltlyc. I’ve reread it like 4 times now and I’ve always wondered when their first time could have possibly been. Maybe it’s such an irrelevant question 🙈 but I just got so invested in their relationship and see that as such a sweet important milestone. Also because Gojo was so hell bent on treasuring Yuuji and taking his time I always wondered if their first time was right after saving Yuuji from prison realm? Also who initiated it? Thank you ❤️

Hello!!! 😍 Thank you so so much! I'm so glad you liked my fics! Ugh the lofe lifing thing is TOO real like please I just wanna be about goyuu 🪦🪦

I'm really so happy to hear you like Shyin' so much. I have so enjoyed writing that fic, and I'm relieved goyuu still feel in character. If I *had* been the one to create them JJK would have had a different ending believe me 🥸🥸

Ooo a ltlyc question! And a good one. Hmm 🤔🫣 I hadn't thought about it but looking back I think they didn't go 'all the way' before the prison realm because Yuuji says when he's being sealed away that it's his first time to say I love you and I just kind of get the vibe that he would have included that confession during his super special first time that they would have had.

From where Yuuji is standing his life us kind of a fairy tale: an orphan betrothed to the handsome prince and taken in to be raised by his rich family etc etc so I think like canon Yuuji a lot of his ideals for his relationship would have been based on story tropes if that makes sense.

Their actual first time would have been a really emotional maybe frantic kind of thing after the prison realm, where the just needed to feel and be with each other. It would have been more about the act of being together than the magical ✨️ first time✨️ it might have been otherwise.

Anyway I hope this makes sense!! Thank you soooo much again!! I hadn't thought about that fic in a while so this was fun!

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Happy Monday everyone 🖤 #selfie #LTLYC #selflove #Galaxy #snapchat #imfellingmyself #gayboy #mcallen #mcallen #instagay #Pisces #guy #gay #pride #Latino #Monday

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When I said I'd write more GoYuu this isn't what I had in mind but here we are.

The horny fic ltlyc Gojo was so desperate for. Forgive me.

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To the last anon! I don't wanna spam everyone with dynamic chat because I talk a LOT but you are so valid. Message me if you want I am pretty awkward but entirely harmless!

As far as ltlyc I absolutely meant to imply they switch, and enthusiastically! You're telling me Gojo wouldn't want Yuuji in every single way? It's just not realistic!

I love you!! ❤️

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Eyy here's another little bit I wrote to kind of flesh out the between stage when I was trying to figure out who Gojo and Yuuji would be in 2023.

ao3 user dickidsjnl left a nice review wanting to see more about this period of their lives so I thought I'd go ahead and post it here 🥰🥰🙏🙏

Disclaimer, it is just as rough as the previous little snippet but here you go. 🪦

Yuuji comes back to him in a rush of blood and torn flesh, the Prison Realm ripped wide open around him. He spills to the ground, lies motionless in the gore and rotted corpses like something stillborn for a moment that stretches endlessly, infinite.

Gojo can't make himself move, can't breathe. His heart doesn't beat. He is too late, and the reality of an existence without Yuuji unmakes him, severs his last tenuous ties to sanity. If this is the end he will take the world with him.

And then the sensations - the lights and the sounds and the reality of a whole wide world around him again and all at once - assault vulnerable senses and Yuuji sucks in a wet, choked breath and begins to scream.

Gojo drops to his knees beside him, hands hovering and mind static. He's never hesitated to touch Yuuji before but now he can't move, terrified to make whatever is happening worse. Brown eyes stare blindly up at him, shaking hands a shield between them. There's blood on Yuuji's face.

To his Six Eyes, Yuuji is a black-green miasma of foreign cursed energy, hateful and dark. He's overflowing, a tempest in a teapot, porcelain cracking under the pressure. In moments all of that energy will explode outwards with a devastating force and shatter its vessel with it.

He won't let that happen. Yuuji is returned to him. Gojo will not allow him to be taken again.

Hesitation forgotten, he gathers Yuuji into his arms and between one breath and the next they're in the sky, far over the school where nothing and no one can touch them. The air is biting cold and Yuuji clings to him and wails, overwhelmed by the sensation after such a long deprivation.

"I'm here now Yuuji," he says, voice slow and firm. "I'm here but you have to let go of the curses." Yuuji shakes his head, face hidden in Gojo's shoulder, but he’s hearing him. He's reacting to him. "Let go, Yuuji. I'm here. Just let them go. It will be okay."

He presses his lips to Yuuji’s head and closes his eyes, tries to visualize feeding Yuuji his cursed energy, imagines filling Yuuji from his toes to the ends of his hair. This is the way things are meant to be.

"Let go of it Yuuji. Let me in."

Yuuji tears the lid off of the teapot.

The cursed energy engulfs them immediately, a howling maelstrom, violent. It’s tangible enough for Gojo to feel it, to recognize the curses Yuuji had stolen it from. Patchface. Mt. Fuji-Head. Kenjaku itself.

Gojo killed them, each and every one, but they've lingered, tormenting Yuuji in his isolation for months that formed years in the same way malignant cells metastasize into cancer.

Yuuji’s tears are hot on his skin, his lips open against his throat. His cries are beginning to curve around the edges, trying to shape Gojo’s name.

All this time, Gojo has been burning, a being of rage, incandescent. The anger is deeper than his bones, molten where his marrow should be, the kind of all-consuming fury that leaves behind only ash, only madness. A devastating wildfire with a single purpose.

His cursed energy flares around him, incinerates every remaining trace of the malignant curses and then roves further, seeking any hint of a threat, any signs of life nearby. Nobody will threaten Yuuji, not ever again.

Gojo will wipe out every sentient being on the planet to keep Yuuji from harm..

His power is just beginning to brush against others, far below, when Yuuji’s voice brings him abruptly back to himself. Clarity returns in a single, decisive blow that leaves him disoriented for a moment. Yuuji says his name again.

“I’m here,” Gojo says, and it’s a reminder to himself as much as it is to Yuuji. He’s here, and Yuuji’s here. They’re together again. The people in the school beneath him helped him to save Yuuji. Those that stood against him are already long dead, no corpses left to rot. There is no threat left.

“...hurts,” Yuuji tells him, his voice small. “‘s too much.”

Gojo hums softly, more a vibration in his chest than any real sound, and adjusts the barrier of Infinity around them, warps reality until even sound waves can’t reach them. The howl of the wind dies away, leaves them in a bubble of perfect, still silence. The only sound is Yuuji’s wet, uneven breathing and the thunk thunk of their twin heartbeats.

He can hear Yuuji’s heartbeat. Nothing has ever been more beautiful.

They stay like that for a long, long time, Yuuji trembling in Gojo’s arms, gradually steadying his breathing to match Gojo’s carefully controlled breaths. He strokes his hand over Yuuji’s broad back in slow, firm strokes, feels the heat of him, the shift of powerful muscle under dirty fabric. He’s so solid, and Gojo can’t stop touching him, wouldn’t be able to if his life depended on it. He will never be able to stop touching Yuuji again.

Eventually, Yuuji lifts his head. He’s more aware now when he meets Gojo’s gaze, his eyes hazy but present. There are gouges on his face, harsh wounds at the corner of his mouth and over his brow. They’re deep, their edges ragged tears, and blood spills from them in sluggish sheets to mingle with his tears and paint his face in scarlet smears like a grotesque mask.

He is the most incredible thing Gojo has seen in all his life. He is beautiful, perfect; he is real.

“Tell me what you need,” Gojo says, voice whisper soft.

Yuuji’s lip trembles. He licks at it, doesn’t seem to notice the taste of his own blood.

“Take me home? Wanna go home.”

“Okay,” Gojo says quietly. “Okay.” He curls his hand around the back of Yuuji’s head, gently guides him forward to tuck him against Gojo’s chest again, against his heart.

He takes Yuuji home.

[j-c-nth]

anytime Gojo breaks my plot he just fills it in by being horny sorry chapter 3 will be like it is all I have is the illusion of control 🙏

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The last part of asking for these chains is going to be as long as the first two combined. Should I split it up and post it as two separate chapters? Or are the unbalanced chapters okay? As a reader I don't care myself but I know some people do.

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Here's how big bro Choso can still win.

Same disclaimer as all the others: Just rough notes for myself for the interim between ltlyc and the marriage stuff.

Choso is not an idiot. He is beginning to recognize that he's been played for a fool, though.

He feels it first in the confrontation with the Six Eyes, a sensation as intense as it is familiar: one of his brothers is at the very edge of death.

It fades. The Prison Realm is sealed. The Six Eyes is not.

After, Choso will chalk it up to his own proximity to that terrible, unstoppable rage. He doesn't know how he survived the utter destruction that was wrought upon the station and every creature in it, only that he did.

He resumes following the being called Geto only for lack of other options. His purpose is gone, locked away with the child that had murdered his brothers.

The two of them survive by cowering in tunnels and ruined buildings like rats. There is no plan, no future. Sukuna's vessel is trapped and the Six Eyes is free, tearing the world apart in his madness.

Even if Choso knew where his other brothers were being kept, to grant them bodies now would be to murder them himself.

So for now, he hides.

He passes the time by sleeping. His new shell does not have the needs of a true human but in the darkness of unconsciousness he cannot feel the gaping absence of his brothers. He stays that way for hours, for days. As long and often as he can.

The flash comes to him again in his dreams. The sensation of death reaching for something vital to him wrenches him back to wakefulness on a scream.

Do something! every instinct demands. His strange human heart is clawing up his throat, choking him.

Do something do something dosomethingdosomeTHING-

It stops.

His ears ring, an echo of cries that aren't his own. He can feel it now, deep in his chest, where the parts that are him live in a body that still feels foreign.

A connection.

The tie is tenuous, born and ripped into being without finesse or care. It is different, somehow, from the eight who came before, but Choso cannot mistake this for anything but what it is:

Choso has a brother. A new one, fresh and tender and alone in a way the other paintings had never been, able to sense each other even in their solitude.

And with him comes a truth, fundamental and inexorable. A purpose.

His brother needs - Choso - is needed.

It takes two more flashes for suspicion to give way to absolute certainty. His brother is sealed within the Prison Realm. Several other pieces slot into place alongside this revelation. About the origins of Sukuna’s vessel. About his brothers. About his own creation.

Kamo Noritoshi - the brain - Kenjaku - keeps the prison close to himself, clings to it like a ward, like a talisman against the unleashed wrath of the Six Eyes. Behind unblinking eyes, his brother struggles for his life.

Choso has been told enough about the Prison Realm to know this truth of it - the only danger there lurks in the prisoner’s own mind. The threat to Yuuji is himself.

There isn’t much time left.

The problem, as it always has been, as it always will be, damn him, is the Six Eyes.

In the world above, he is drowning Japan in blood. The elder sorcerers are dead, as are any who openly defied his decision to cleanse their society of what he has deemed rotten, unworthy. He has brought even his own clan to the brink of extinction, slaughtered his family in their ancestral home without remorse or mercy.

Japan has never had fewer sorcerers. It has never had fewer curses, either.

Choso believes he can get the Prison Realm away from Kenjaku but how can he safely deliver it to Gojo Satoru?

There is no chance the madman won’t recognize him from the curses' attempt to seal him. Perhaps he could get close enough to speak to him if he uses the Prison Realm as a shield, but he isn’t naive. Only shock had saved Kenjaku that first time, down in the station.

That shock has shattered into insanity. The grief Choso had seen on the man’s too-pale face had burned away into a savage, irrational fury that continued to rage, unchecked.

The flashes continue. The intervals between them shrink and shrink until Choso can feel his brother’s struggle every week.

His brother. Yuuji.

Yuuji, who is so strong and so brave. Who had taken the Six Eyes’ fate as his own without hesitation or fear. Who had loved, who is loved.

Yuuji, who Choso loves. Who Choso wants desperately to know.

There is no safe way to approach the Six Eyes. That will not change with time. It is a risk he will have to take, and now. The only thing he can be sure of is that Yuuji does not have the luxury of waiting for him.

If Yuuji can be fearless then Choso can be too.

To save him, he will be brave. He will put his life on the line. That is the role of an elder brother.

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After the last chapter of ltlyc I decided to re-read the whole fic to further break my heart and see those tidbits of foreshadowing I missed and I hope you know this is the only thing I’m going to be thinking about for the next week.

That tidbit in the very first part of the first chapter “He wishes Yuuji would leave him and never come back and never go to anyone else either” has got me screaming and crying!! Like Satoru you are going to get your wish and you will hate it forever 😭😭😭 All that time in the beginning spent trying to distance himself from Yuuji!! All of the things unsaid!! All the times Satoru thought he’d have more time with Yuuji!! Genuinely the weight of all that grief has got me insane. I know it’s so toxic of me but genuinely hope Satoru never recovers and is devastated by the loss of Yuuji forever 😜

Especially because he pretty much got rid of all possible ways to get Yuuji out of the prison realm awe man he’s gotta be beating himself up for that. I just imagine Gojo keeping the cube close at all times, looking at photos and that video of Yuuji wishing he could go back 😭 I can’t imagine Kenny would be able to keep the cube from Satoru. Now that Yuuji’s in the cube and Kenny’s plan to subdue him failed there’s just no way to me that Satoru wouldn’t go scorched earth to get that cube, Suguru meat suit or not.

I def have more to say and I’ll probably send you another ask but I just wanna say your fic has broken my heart and driven me insane thank you so much 💖

Answer under the break to avoid spoiling for anyone that hasn't finished !

I am so blown away you took the time to go back and reread 🥺 Gojo you fool you utter fucking buffoon be careful what you wish for because it will haunt you for the rest of your LIFE. And then he was so sure over and over that the world would bow to his whims and give him everything he wanted just because he wanted it and the entire time I'm just like stop stop you're wasting time you don't have especially when he was the one to acknowledge that his betrothal to Yuuji would lead to the utter ruin of them all.

He absolutely definitely 100% never gets over it. He won't let himself. Yuuji is an integral part of who he is to give that up would be to dig out his own eyes he just isn't capable of it. RiP buddy and honestly RiP everyone else cause you know he's making this the world's problem.

I do almost think it ends up more sinister than him just toting around the Prison Realm being sad. If he encountered two items in his lifetime that could nullify techniques why can't there be more? Whether the people who create those items are willing or not, whatever the price for them is....Gojo is someone who would defy the laws of gods, man, and physics if they get in his way. 🪦🙏

Thank you so much for your ask I've been screaming inside about this fic for months you have no idea!

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Thought I'd be clever and wait to post the last chapter, titled "Next Thursday" on Thursday but the suffering of WAITING for Thursday is more than I expected.

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Hi! I recently got into the jjk fandom and soon after found your ltlyc goyuu betrothal au and I must say I am so invested with your work. I’ve re-read everything you’ve posted so far at least 3 times (and counting cuz I just love it that much). I love it so much that out of Ao3 i had to hunt down your tumblr for any ltlyc crumbs. Respectfully, I would like to ask if you will be adding any more to the series? I’m so curious about the gravity of gojo wrecking havoc and how Choso is #best brother awardee. Again, I love your work and wish you the best! May your creative juices flow more

Wow! It's still so wild to me that anyone would read my story once, much less multiple times. It means so much to me that something I put so much of my time and energy into could bring anyone else happiness thank you sooo much for letting me know! I am humbly offering you my heart on a platter. 💕💕🍳🍳

Rest of the answer under the cut 'cause I cannot be brief so sorry.

As far as adding more to the world, to be HONEST asking for it wasn't ever really meant to be and ltlyc was supposed to end when Yuuji went into the box. But I spent so much time (Over half a year) thinking about this version of Gojo and this version of Yuuji and we really really didn't get to see much of them interacting, especially with Yuuji as an adult. Sooo I wrote the second part to explore that and kind of hand-waived all the shit in between, 100% self indulgent and entirely for myself. 😳 I shared it when I realized how much of it there would be and it's been so nice to see everyone enjoying it!

All of that to say I honestly don't think I could do justice to a rescue and recovery arc which is what would rightfully have gone in between the two if I had actually had any intentions of writing asking for it. I'm so sorry to disappoint!

I do however have some other snippets that I'm happy to share once the last chapter is up. Thank you for your interest!! 🙏❤️

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havent read the chapter yet but i DID catch up on ur update posts. WHY FIGHT THE M/E RATING. let them be horn knee !!!! also u r saving my entire month w the update *sends hug*

Bro I'm over here beating Gojo with a stick telling him leave room for T rating jesus and Yuuji comes flying in with the unstoppable sex drive of a twenty year old that has Gojo Satoru wrapped around him on the daily and the whole thing nearly went up in flames 🤕

I didn't want to change the rating though in case that excluded some people who have been enjoying the story up to now so I had to reign it in.

That said I did wake up at 5 am a few Sundays ago absolutely possessed by a one shot idea where Gojo realizes like a fist to the face that oh yeah he does wanna hit that actually so maybe after this last section of ltlyc I can bring that into the world ��

Thank you for your kind message! I hope you enjoy chapter 3!

[j-c-nth]

Hello, how are you? I just want to ask will you be updating Itlyc soon? I love this story so much that I keep rereading everything you post about it and been stalking your page to see if you post anything about them haha

Wow! This is so respectful and so nice and to be honest I kind of needed the reminder that there are people out there waiting to see what happens with the boys!

I changed my work schedule so I've been feeling pretty drained creatively and mentally and haven't had much chance to write as a result. But I got this ask last night and I went to bed thinking about it and I woke up this morning feeling inspired and actually managed to bang out about a thousand words before my shift. That's huge, so thank you so much!

Stressed out rambling and slight spoiler if you haven't read chapter 2 of bind us under the cut but I just kinda wanted to get it out to someone sorryyyy.

Screaming, crying, losing my mind because Gojo was NOT supposed to successfully propose to Yuuji at the end of chapter 2! But then he went for it and he did it so well and I didn't have the heart to cut all that out but it also kind of scrapped all my plans for part 3. Tonally it was supposed to be like, him getting frustrated and a little doubtful of himself and trying to cope with that but that's all out the window now so I've pretty much had to plan the entire thing from scratch.

I have been seriously debating just calling the whole story complete since them getting officially for realsies engaged was sort of the goal of the entire story but I do still wanna explore the two of them together and how they interact so part 3 is coming together to just be Yuuji and Gojo: scenes of domesticity. Anyway I hope it's worth the wait. Thank you again I hope you have a great day!

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really LOVE learn to love your chains, and i recently read the snippet about yuuji's first moments after the prison realm that you posted on here, just because i a) missed the main fic so much and b) was curious about the emotional aftermath of the prison realm. like woah. there's so much potential for hurt/comfort it is INSANE. i also noticed that even though it's from gojo's pov he refers to himself as ...gojo, instead of satoru. and then i went back to the main fic and noticed the same! is there any reason for that or just habit ? ps. your writing is out of this world

I'm obsessed with you please marry me 🥺

But really thank you sooo much! I have spent so many hours wallowing in the angst potential of immediately post-box Yuuji. The overstimulation, the clingyness, the refusal to sleep because I've had this dream before 'Toru I'm so so afraid to wake up...😭😭 Yuuji suffering and Gojo desperately trying to pull the shattered pieces of himself back together so he can try to keep Yuuji together is something that can be so personal.

And I think Gojo just felt right! But you might notice that in ltlyc prior to Suguru’s defection he DID refer to himself as Satoru. I think that everything that happened with Suguru had such a powerful and lasting impact on him that his life and even his sense of self were divided into Before and After. The person he became after is the man who had to grow up, take a stance, and become the person to shoulder the responsibilities of being the Strongest.

This is such a long answer to a simple question but I was so happy to see your ask. Thank you 🙏🙏

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