if you can can you write s comfort headcannon with fem or nb reader who hates themselves to the point they refuse to look at themselves in the mirror?? (Thinking about vil and/or malleus tbh but any characters are fine) feel free to refuse!
Vil and Malleus with an S/O who can't look at themselves in a mirror because of how they hate themselves
a/n: Thank you for sending in the request! I do love some good comfort with a side of angst so this was nice for me to write! If you're similar to the S/O in this story I do hope this could provide some form of comfort to you!
Warnings: Self deprecating speak(from S/O's end),
Gn!Reader
Characters: Vil Schoenheit (710 words), Malleus Draconia (
Vil Schoenheit
Ever since the two of you started dating, Vil has made sure he compliments you at least once a day.
Doesn’t matter the time he will once a day without fail give you at least one compliment.
From telling you your hair looks nice to you did good on a test.
It’s rare he repeats the same compliment once so you’re surprised with something new everyday.
In the Pomefiore dorm, not only are there mirrors in almost every room.
The floors and walls are polished so well that you could see yourself in it
And you hated it.
It was hard to find a room where you didn't have to feel your own reflection in the room with you.
Vil wouldn’t pick up on it immediately, but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t pick up on it soon
After the first or second time though he’d notice how you would avoid the rooms with mirrors
Even the ones without you wouldn’t look at the shining tile floor.
When you would be in his room you wouldn’t even towards his vanity, and none of this sat right with him
Once or twice when he would re-enter a washroom you were just in he would see a towel draped over the mirror
After that he knew he couldn’t let this just dwindle forever, he’d have to bring it up to you.
What was going on in his darling sweet potatoes head to make them cover every reflective surface they see?
So Vil one day while he was helping you on a skin care routine, and you had insisted on keeping your back to the vanity across the room
Vil saw this as a good time as any to bring it up. He furrowed his brows with a small frown and looked at you,
“Sweet Potato.. Is there a reason you are so adamant on never looking in a mirror..?”
You could feel your breath hitch as his question left his lips.
you did tell him about your true thoughts the fact you couldn’t look at yourself because of the hate you felt towards yourself
About how you couldn’t bear the thought even.
Vil would listen and let you spill your heart out even if you cry.
He’d gladly hold you or touch you as you cried if you needed the comfort but won’t force you if not.
He knows this is a vulnerable moment for you and he doesn’t want to make it worse
Once you have spilled your feelings to him he’d look almost saddened by your confession.
“Oh darling… You’re beautiful… in every faction…”
He partly feels as if he hadn’t been telling you how he sees you as the most beautiful person in all of the Twisted Wonderland
He’d let you cry but he silently promises to himself that he would make sure you’d be able to look yourself in a mirror, and he’d help in anyway he could
How could his dear sweet potato see themselves as anything less than perfect?
After the confession from your end on how you felt about yourself Vil made sure that you knew he meant every words of his affirmations and complements
Vil would also work with you on looking in the mirror
He wouldn't push you to far as he understands that this whole process will take time
Every time you would enter his room if it was a bad day as much as he’d like to leave it uncovered, he would cover his vanity
He wouldn’t want to worsen your mood that's the last thing he’d want to do
If you’re able to look into the mirror at least once and be able to smile at yourself, even if it’s teary eyed and for only a moment
He will be so proud of you and he will make sure you know.
Wrapping his arms loosely around your neck and resting his forehead on your shoulder as he stood behind you, and you sat in the vanity chair.
That one look you were able to do and not have a look of disgust or disappointment was more than enough for him
“You’ve done so well sweet potato… I love you so much… so please love yourself as much as I do…”
Malleus Draconia
Luckily (or more like sadly given the situation) Malleus dorm doesn't have that many mirrors.
They mostly just have very large and tall windows that can be reflective once freshly cleaned
but for the most part it was easy to avoid your reflection when it came to that dorm at least
In Ramshackle though the mirror, even if dusty, still reflects your features well
So with the extra cloth you covered every mirror in the dorm.
Malleus I believe that Malleus prefers the atmosphere of the Ramshackle dorm
Not to mention his beloved child of man was there so what was not to love about the place you called home?
He never really noticed the lack of mirrors until one day he saw you hiding one that had been uncovered
Then he started to become curious
It had gotten so bad that the mirror in your room that according to Grim "They have really weird dreams about" was moved out of the room and into a spare.
Malleus tried to talk to you about it "Child of man? Why is it your dorm has such a lack of mirrors?"
You'd brush it off saying that a majority of the mirrors were far beyond broken
But if you thought he wouldn't see the way you became anxious at the question and answered as if you had rehearsed it
you'd be gravely mistaken
He'd then be acutely aware of how you acted around mirrors, how you'd do everything in your power not to face them
Every time he'd look back on the times he'd frown. Why couldn't his child of man face themselves?
He even did a bit of an investigation and found all mirrors intact and fine
so he brought it up to you one day during one of your late night walks you took
You had stumbled across a small lake but you didn't look at it's beautiful reflective surface
"My dear..? Why do you never look at yourself?"
The question was sudden and took you back with a twinge of fear making its way through you.
You looked aside ashamed and pressed your lips in a thin line as you mumbled a response the feeling of tears pricking at your eyes
Malleus was taken aback, how... how could you see yourself in such a light..?
The silence was deafening and Malleus slowly reached out to you grazing your arm with his fingers
You pulled away looking anywhere to avoid his sympathetic gaze
"My dear, you have helped so many, done feats no other could dream of, and all the while captured my heart... how can you see yourself as any less than brilliant..?"
His voice was laced with pain, how could he let this go on for so long and not do something?
Malleus then made a personal vow to himself, 'even if it takes an eternity, he will have you see yourself the same way he sees you'
He would stay by your side, if you show even the slightest bit of insecurity
"My dear have I told you how wonderful you look today?"
"You are doing so well, you should take a break!"
Similar like Vil his sayings and compliments he'd barely repeats and if he does another on is coming up right after to assure you there's plenty more he loves about you
He's now acutely aware of every little thing you say about yourself and if something is even slightly self deprecating, even if it's a joke..
"Don't say that, it was one test child of man, there are plenty more to come. All things considered you didn't do as bad as you may think, some people (he's talking about Ace and Deuce/hj) barely got anything right."
He's now your personal coach helping you in some subjects, slowly building your confidence
The one day on your walk you come across the same lake and you looked at the lake, at your own reflection.
Granted you were only pointing out some flowers floating on the water, but when you looked over at Malleus it was as if you had done a heroic act
even if you didn't bring attention to yourself, or it still hurt to do, in his eyes it was progress.
The last time you were here you couldn't look at the lake in fear of seeing yourself staring back at you
This was progress, progress the two of you had worked so hard to come to
He smiled and pulled you gently and mumbled a small string of words
"I'm so proud of you my dear..."
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I've been doing that... uhh since May 11 or so 💀 and I finally finished all chapters... since I knew I should finish it before publishing the first chapter. I couldn't finish before Silver's Birthday... sadly.
English is not my first language, but I'll try to make it as readable as possible☆
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Part 2
AO3 Link for all chapters
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Let's head to the World of Dreams
Everyone at the palace was on edge, fear in their faces while scarily walking through the walls of the palace. If they were lucky enough they wouldn't cross paths with their prince.
Malleus was restless, someone has cursed Yuu to eternal slumber, just like the princess from the tale. Of course, with a proclamation of eternal love sealing it with a kiss would have suffice; the story where the draconic fae kisses the human he oh-so-much love and wakes her up with a true love kiss.
They could marry, Yuu finally admitting she loved him just as much as he loved her, they could have a family and rule for eternity.
If only his kiss would have worked.
No, Yuu didn't love him, and wouldn't love him after he had kidnapped her, sometimes too delusional to notice his obsessive behavior.
That sleeping curse was naught but a blessing to Yuu who's been dreaming for the day to finally be free.
"I'm not her true love..." Malleus' expression was unchanging, but Lilia knew better, he had known the prince since he was inside the egg, his pride, sadness, despair, and many other emotions were hidden inside his gem-like eyes. The smaller fae sighed while looking at the sleeping human on the bed. The most peaceful expression he had seen her make after she was forced to come with them to the Valley of Thorns.
Whoever cursed the object of obsession of Malleus surely was brave. This was not something that Lilia would have expected, not the sleeping curse at least.
“Well, well, worry not, Malleus.” Lilia smiled as if trying to calm him down.
Amusement was surely what he is truly hiding, but now is not the time for such emotions. “We just need to find her true love!” He exclaimed as if it were the most obvious thing, which it was, but Malleus having to think that someone else have to touch, to kiss Yuu was painful, a torture on its own. His displeased expression was quickly ignored as Lilia turned to the two young retainers that were at the door this whole time.
Sebek was offended and saddened with the situation, having to see his master so heartbroken, how dare that lowly human not accept his love!? If only she knew how lucky she was.
“Sebek, Silver, do you guys have someone in mind?” Lilia raised his hand to his chin, waiting for them to answer.
“We should check her previous classmates.” Sebek said confidentially, Yuu didn’t go out of her room other than when Malleus allowed it, which wasn’t often. Nor did she interact with anyone outside his group of knights, his possessiveness would never allow Yuu interacting with just anyone.
“That won’t do much.” Lilia said. “It would be a little suspicious to have us asking for her months later after her disappearance.”
The four of them stayed quiet, looking at the sleeping girl and then at each other, looking for ideas.
“For now, let’s gather information about the culprit and about the person she likes.” He clapped his hands once again with his distinctive smile.
Sebek said standing straight “Let’s start with the first year students, they were close.” Malleus nods as if just remembered that fact.
Both Malleus and Lilia looked between Silver and Sebek. Lilia’s eyes linger on Silver a little bit longer.
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She was walking through the halls and gardens of NRC, enjoying her moments alone before she’s forced to be part of her friend’s antics, or even of the headmaster himself. While looking around she found a sleeping figure under a tree, birds and squirrels surrounding him as if he were a prince from a fairy tale, the ones that were told in her original world.
Yuu didn’t move after looking at his face, she had seen many other students who were stunning, but there was something about this young one that made her breath get caught on her chest. Maybe it was his silver hair, or the way the animals around him made him look as a divine entity, or perhaps his handsome face.
Didn’t have time to continue her path because one of the little birds was nizzing to his face and woke him up. His sleepy eyes looked at her eyes for the first time and Yuu couldn’t help but mutter out loud her thoughts:
“ You are the most beautiful man I’ve seen. ”
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Oh, how much Malleus hates this, but if it was for his future queen, he will do an exception, only for her sake. Looking at Yuu’s sleeping form and not being able to hear her voice or even her eyes was a destiny worse than death.
He might have known, deep down Malleus probably knew Yuu didn’t love him after everything that happened. He could be a little delusional when it comes to her, but the way her eyes changed every time he went to see her –in comparison to when they first met– it was something that pained him. However, seen Yuu having her life, to not being able to be by her side as he had hoped to… he couldn’t resist the possessive urges that came to him every time he saw her in the presence of someone else.
Well, deep down he was hopeful that his child of man would have understood and accepted before this… outcome. But this is still fine! Because the moment he finds and forces her to wake up, Malleus' only concern would be getting rid of her true love, perhaps that way she would look at him.
“Wouldn’t it be better if you tell her you are her true love instead?” Lilia asked, always giving ideas, somehow knowing what Malleus was thinking. Whether Lilia was having fun or was trying to calm the dragon’s wrath, was something none but Lilia knew. The dragon fae’s eyes brightened for a moment, it was something that he could do, she would trust him, won’t she?
“I’m sure her stubborn personality will falter.” A knowing expression crossed the ancient fae’s eyes. Yuu wouldn’t suspect they brought her true love to wake her up, and Yuu has been captive inside the palace’s walls for months by now, her hope to escape must be wavering by now, if she were awake .
“Malleus,” Lilia closes his eyes and rub Malleu’s back and shoulders, as always, with a serene expression. “Worry not, we will wake her.” his eyes darkened for a moment before continuing with his fatherly words, this action went unnoticed by the dragon fae who only nodded, still worried about finding his human’s true love.
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