#me and annie are literal manifestations of best colors

[goldenize]

Annie finally went through my pics and says I can post this one. (●'◡'●)

He said it’s cause he looks cool but holy shit, you pull the hood off and he looks like a friggin blue dandelion, it’s amazing how he’ll still refuse to believe he’s adorable. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

[letters-rts]

1.20.22

I’ve been asleep for two days, apparently. 

That’s what Iris says, I wouldn’t know since I’ve been, well....asleep.

What are you doing right now? Any of you? All of you? God, I hope you’re ok. I’m not sure what brought this on, maybe that I redownloaded Line? Just to have some semblance of you in my life? I was doing so good, you know. 

That’s not to say I didn’t miss you- of course I miss you. There’s no way that I couldn’t. I think about you everyday, I pray to God that you’re alive and well, I hope you’re happy and I hope you’ve moved on, and yet, I hope you haven’t. I hope you still think about me. I hope White is ok. I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. I hope you know I miss you, I hope you think I don’t though, too. 

I didn’t make a mistake- I know that. The choice I made was a fully conscious, fully aware one that I made because I know myself and I’ve seen firsthand the terror that comes from my anger, my hate. It scares me. The way that I want to annihilate anything, everything that has hurt me, the way that I want to destroy and destroy and destroy and destroy until the world around me is ashes as far as the eye can see. The way the legal consequences of literally doing something like that would be too much of a hassle, and would push me to take out my cruel intent on those I care for and love the most....emotionally, psychologically. I would drive them to insanity, I’m sure.

What in the worlds made you think I would EVER allow myself to put you through that, too, my love? You were my everything, you ARE my everything, I would still die for you, you are still my first thought in the morning and my last one before I go to sleep, and I wish I could pour out all of this love and lay it at your feet and ask you to do what you will with it-- but I can’t.

This love is tainted, and murky, and lined with the scum of something that was held rotting in my chest and you deserve so much better than that. 

I hope someday you can understand that this is what needed to be done, that this is what was for the best, but I’m not counting on it. And that’s ok.

Process the betrayal however you feel is necessary, be as livid with me as you want to be or hate me with every ounce of your being. All of that is fine, I just wish...I hope, I plead, please, please, don’t forget me.

I almost did that today, you know.

It shames me to admit it, but today I almost did forget you. The pain burning in my chest was such a sharp, searing injury that it manifested itself into a virus, the same one that almost made away with me when Annie tried to force her way into my body. It turns out, by the way, that Annie is not exactly a physical entity- she is a virus, the embodiment of one. She was created and sent by our own lovely Void to overtake me to a point where I was powerless, and then Void would be able to take over. That makes perfect sense. 

The lacerations and bruises that began to color my skin inch by inch were devastating, yes, but not as devastating as what it felt like to remember in full comprehension what it was like to be yours, to belong to all of you. I guess you were right, after all- Alices do tend to run from Wonderland, every. single. time, even if my rebellion was for more noble reasons than those normally procured. Due to the pain, I collapsed.

When I awoke in my subconscious, Iris was there, front and center in the body and taking care that all matters that I usually handled were handled as well as they could be. She’s changed a lot, by the way. You’d be proud of her, as you used to know her as Lilly. 

When I awoke, the pain was also there, soul-crushing and suffocating as always. I thought that this must be what it felt like to have your heart try to claw its way out of your chest. Iris and the others practically had to force me to wake up in my Pandora body, and then the pain intensified in my reality body and Iris could not handle it. She had to forfeit control to me, and even then, all I could do was stare numbly at a wall for hours. No tears could come out because I had none left. In the moment that I awoke in my subconscious, I was so distraught and not held by the stability that reason provides, and as a result I...I asked Iris to please, please, erase you from my memory. All of you, every single one, to scrub every clue and instance of your smile, your hands, you warmth, from my memory and my life. Be that accounts, messages, photos, you name it- I wanted it gone, forever. In the middle of doing as I requested, Iris began to think it was a bad idea to follow my whims as I was not in my right mind, and for that I am ever thankful to her. She had deleted my Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest, but my Tumblr and Line remain. I have something of you yet. I am so sorry.

It feels good to let this all out, even if I know you’ll never read it. I’ll try to get better, I thought I had taken enough time but I was off by quite a bit. I’m not even close. Hopefully this is just a depressive spell brought on by memories of all of you, but I feel these next few weeks, maybe months, will be spent with my coming in and out of awareness. Iris will be staying with me until I’m fully recovered. My illness is also the reason for my robotic way of speaking, in case you were wondering. 

It feels amazing to talk to you again, even if in a letter I will never send. There was a shift in the chilly wind that accompanied the weather this morning, one that both scared and excited me. Scared, because it felt ominous and almost threatening, as if danger was right around the corner waiting to snatch me up in the blink of an eye. Excited, though, because, well....danger usually means you, my angel, and the thought of being able to lay my eyes on your beauty and magnificence again was enough to have me looking forward to having my life in peril lol. Anything to be with you again, even if I don’t deserve it, even if it means I’ll be glared at and degraded like the villain I am, I just. I just want to see you again. Your voice is like a siren song, your eyes like pools of gold that draw in all who seek precious treasure- I wish you could see how beautiful you are, dove. How beautiful you are to me, to all who adore you. Oh, but I wouldn’t want you to see me as I am now, so perhaps not seeing you again so soon is for the best. 

There’s a band I’ve been listening to on repeat since I woke up, it’s called The Crane Wives, I discovered them a few months ago and they’ve quickly risen to one of my favorite bands! In specific I’ve been listening to two of their songs, those being “Little Soldiers” and “Never Love an Anchor”, and they help me cope because they put so concisely what my heart is yelling. They make me feel close to you, in a sick, twisted way, but hey- I’m a sick, twisted person, you know? I’m sure it’s a side of me you never knew was there, not only because I hid it well but also because I barely knew it was there, too. I could always feel something sunless, something dreary swimming beneath the surface, jaws open and serrated teeth awaiting a moment to jump and claim their kill, but I could only ever attach it to the image of a dark mess of goo standing before me, just out of arms reach, flailing to pull me into the noxious, repulsive abomonation that was “it”, which I didn’t know was also “me”. Kardia was the only one who truly allowed me insight on what this monster really was and how it got there, and why it threatened the very life it belonged to.

“I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel.”

This is what I meant by ugly, heaven. This is what I meant by vile.

It’s funny how this letter sounds like it’s for a lover, and I guess I am just that to you, hm? A lover, because I love you, and you loved me at one point, too. 

I hope you are still my lover.

I must go now, but I will be back. I love you, and I will love you, until my breathing ceases and my heart comes to rest. 

Yours, until the sun burning in the sky ends this world for the both of us,

Alice

[kam-energy-mom]

Thoughtforms

What are thoughtforms?

Nonphysical entities which exist in either the mental or astral plane. Each entity is created from the thought. Every thought is said to generate vibrations in the aura's mental body, which assume a floating form and colors depending on the nature and intensity of the thought. There’s a belief that if enough people believe in a thoughtform that it can manifest itself itself in many ways. Like the saying you need to see it to believe it but opposite. Often times if enough people believe in something hard enough it can come true These thought-forms are usually seen by clairvoyants; and may be intuitively sensed by others.

Theosophists and clairvoyants Annie Besant and C. W. Leadbeater placed thought-forms in three classifications:

(1) the image of the thinker which is simply  the appearance of an individual in two places simultaneously

(2) an image of a material object associated with the thought

(3) an independent image expressing the inherent qualities of the thought.

A thoughtform could be used to:

Guard your property or a loved one(s)

Help you create an aura about yourself (for example you might create one that is sort of like a light that fills you with confidence, bravery, luck, etc.)

Bring you things that you might need

Ways to create a thoughtforms

Way number one:

1) Clear your mind in preparation for this process. Try to dispel any lingering negative or otherwise unconducive thoughts. Meditate, cleanse or perform a ritual of your preference that will enable you to focus.

2) Determine precisely what the thought form is meant to accomplish. Be as specific as possible.

3) Call upon your spirit guides. Tell them what you want to do and ask them to work with you. Request wisdom required to create in a positive and loving manner.

4) Construct the thought form in your mind’s eye. Be creative. With an attitude of love and reverence, visualize or imagine the form you wish it to take.

5) Input (i.e. direct towards the TF) the thoughts “love, mercy and compassion”. This ensures that frequencies of positive nature become an integral part of your creation.

6) Input its purpose or mission. Again, be very specific. As a personal example, I am working on creating a thought form that watches over my boyfriend and I as we sleep to create a sense of comfort, especially when bad dreams or night terrors arise; it is innately in the form of an unobtrusive firefly, but may take the shape of a glowing woman in white when necessary.

7) Input parameters it can work within. For example, my “dream angel” as I will call it is to stay in my bedroom, only illuminating and making friends with (understanding) any “dark” energy that encroaches. I would recommend creating thoughts form’s with limited parameters for beginners, as it tends to be easier to focus on/work with.  

8) Allot it any tools you wish it to use. Never use tools that are destructive. My dream angel is granted light, specifically from a small night light I keep in the bedroom, but also from any other source if that one is not available.

9) Input a concept along the lines of: “You are invulnerable and possess unlimited energy to accomplish your task. You have the power of the Universe to draw upon.”

10) Input: “You have infinite capacity”. Example: She has infinite capacity to shine light upon anything that causes alarm. Infinite capacity is used to assure it always has more than enough of whatever it needs to accomplish its task.

11) Input: “You have unlimited maneuverability.” This allows it to always avoid anything coming its way. Example: Though illuminating “dark” forces, she can avoid confronting/expending energy on any “light” forces.

12) Input: “You can complete your task without harm to anyone or anything.”  This is precisely part of my sentiment in asking my dream angel to illuminate dark forces, thus revealing understanding of their presence and releasing resistance to them rather than trying to “fight them off”. I believe negative experiences happen with good reason and I don’t want to shut them out completely, I just don’t want to be rattled by them.

13) Input: “Return to the nothingness from which you came once you have completed your mission”, then reiterate its purpose. Example: She will rest whenever there is no one sleeping.

A good technomancy way to create a thought form:

When you create a Thoughtform, try having it physically living inside of a flash drive containing other spells and charms that work well with what the thought form’s purpose is. Since that flash drive essentially is a thoughtform, you can add files for that thoughtform to “program” it, such as adding a picture of what it looks like, or what it’s purpose is, or really anything you associate with the thoughtform. You can also “reprogram” the thoughtform just by changing the files in the flash drive.

Another way: is to just imagine a emotion and form that emotion into a thoughtform. You really have to take these apart when you are done with them. They are made of pure emotion and can easily get out of control.

Another way:  is take a image or a shape that fits your wish. And charge and form it from there.

Another way: Use music to power and make your thoughtform. Do you have a classical song you love that makes you calm make a thoughtform while playing that song and call on to it to invoke the feeling you get from that song. Really good for when you can’t always listen to music.

Another way with friends: "Group minds" that emerge whenever a group of people concentrate on the same thought, ideas, or goals, such as a team of employees or a crowd of demonstrators. To a certain extent the group-mind possesses the group, such is seen in psychic bonding and power that coalesces in crowds, and in the synergy of a close-knit working group. Usually when the group disbands the power of the group-mind dissipates too.

Now you can create a thoughtform on accident and this is okay if it’s outlived its purpose let it go. Thoughtforms are not meant to live forever without you give it a purpose or your energy. If your thoughtform becomes mostly sentient and you don’t let it go when its use is up or give it a new purpose it can come to dislike you and try to hurt or ruin your life. Now they are thoughtform so they can’t do much but they can mess with your mind and mental health so try not to leave any thought forms around with no purpose. Now despite all the warnings you hear I do not believe that if you make it sentient things will go bad for you. Just if you leave it without purpose. You can make your thoughtform to have feelings and thought but these you have to keep a closer eye on and make sure it never feel useless. If you have to everytime you need them poof them into existence again and then send them away when you are done. It is not cruel to do this to them for you would be better off. Making them and destroying them over and over again. It would be more cruel to do other wise and just have long periods without them around.

How to destroy your thoughtform

You can take its energy and disperse it. You can program a end date when you make it. It can be a literal date or when it completes it’s task. You can program it so that if it gets to sentient it will self destruct. A another way to destroy a thought form:

1. Summon it during a waning Moon. The closer to the new Moon, the better. This is best done outside. Visualize it coming to you and hovering in the air before you.

2. Focus and visualize the energy dissipating into the ground. Say something like "you are no more!"

You may have to do this several times.

Basically get creative that’s the great thing about it if you want to do it do it. Try it and see if it works. If yall want to experiment sending some thoughtforms just tag me or others. It’s always fun trying and experimenting with thoughtform.s.

[demitgibbs]

Kelly Chameleon: An Interview with Kelly Osbourne

Osbourne rebel on being open to dating women (‘never say never’), celebs who fake gay and mom Sharon sneaking her into a drag club

Hollywood spitfire and staunch LGBT ally Kelly Osbourne is feeling tense about her first book, “There Is No F*cking Secret: Letters from a Badass Bitch.” After all, “What if I change my opinion by the time it comes out?!” she says, laughing because it’s true (Photos: Darren Tieste).

Then there’s our revealing interview, where the opinionated 32-year-old actress, singer and now author – and daughter of Ozzy and Sharon – let her candid thoughts loose on topics ranging from her sexuality (“everybody’s gay”) to her openness about dating women and her issues with celebrities who feign lesbianism for publicity. And that recent controversy over her statement regarding President Donald Trump? She admits it really got to her. Turns out, even badasses cry sometimes.

Kelly, your book, which covers your personal journey to self-acceptance, could have a positive influence on so many young people trying to find themselves.

Oh, thank you so much! It’s the most vulnerable thing I’ve done in a while, I can’t lie. I’m kind of like, oh my god, I’ve actually done this, because for the first time in my life I wanted to take my power back, and instead of people telling me who I am, I wanted to tell them.

Who are some of your favorite badass bitches?

I mean, Elton goes without sayin’. Just people who’ve made a difference in my life, like Liza Minnelli. I think Lil’ Kim. It’s anyone who just learned to be themselves and take responsibility for who they are.

When were you first aware you had an LGBT following?

I don’t remember a time in my life when I haven’t been submerged in the LGBT community. It’s the only community that, even though I shouldn’t have belonged (laughs), accepted me. It was the only world I ever really felt comfortable in, because, and I say it in my book, I don’t know what it feels like to fit in.

What do you attribute that bond to?

I think my relationship, especially with the drag community and the drag world, became so prevalent at such a young age because of Boy George, of course, and Blitz Kids and that huge movement in the U.K. I think drag queens choose how they want you to see them and they do that knowing that they’re probably going to get a lot of sh!t for it, and that’s what magic is. That’s like, “F*ck you, this is who I am,” and you can wake up every day and be whoever you want to be. I love that.

When did drag first come into your life?

It’s never NOT been in my life. I mean, my mom was calling up (a drag club) in San Francisco; I was, like, 11 or 12 and being snuck into a drag bar. It was amazing. And there was a time I went to go see Cyndi Lauper on tour when she was playing in the U.K., and she used to have, like, 20 drag queens on tour with her. I was probably about 9 or 10.

You have to understand, my favorite childhood pastime was putting my mom’s lacy underwear and bustier on over my clothes – because I wasn’t allowed to wear them any other way – and going to see “The Rocky Horror Picture Show”. “Rocky Horror Picture Show” is still, to this day, one of my favorite movies of all time. I loved the makeup. If you look really closely at the “Time Warp,” you’ll see where I get all my hair colors from. But yeah, everyone else was watching “Annie,” and I was watching “Rocky Horror Picture Show” and singing about sweet transvestites. (Laughs)

How much of your gay submergence do you credit to your mother?

It’s equally my mom AND my dad. In rock ’n’ roll, you were the outcasts back then and outcasts tend to find each other, especially in London.

How about Boy George – what was his influence on you?

I remember staring at my TV, thinking, “Is it a beautiful woman or a beautiful man? It doesn’t matter.” He was the first person to break down barriers. He single-handedly changed people’s perspective so much. And he’s such a smart man! If you ever sit down and have a conversation with him about his political views and his opinion of the gay community, he says things that are so spot on and so important because he’s lived long enough through good times and bad times to see what things really are. I love talking to him. And he has the most beautiful eyes you’ve ever looked into!

You recently wore a hat emblazoned with the words “I Am Gay.” Were you being literal?

You know my honest opinion? Everybody’s gay. It is a strictly human thing. You can’t put a gender on love.

But I know a guy – several of them, in fact – who insists he’s only into women.

Except he’s letting a guy suck his dick! If you ain’t tried it, you don’t get to tell me what you are.

Are you open to loving a woman?

I’m open to loving anybody. It’s about the person. I don’t think it’s about sexuality at all.

Your mother came out as bisexual last year. What have you learned about yourself from her regarding sexuality?

I told her, “Would you be the butch one? Come on, tell me, which one would you be?” Because whether it’s man and man, woman and woman, there’s always a masculine and feminine role. So I’m always like, “Mom, which one would you be?” And she’s like, “Oh, shut up, Kelly!”

But it’s not like I’m trying to be forward-thinking or progressive – it’s just that sexuality is a word I try not to even define the way the world defines it. It’s the person who you are sexually attracted to.

Do you not label your sexuality, then?

My whole rule is, never say never. I’ve never been in a relationship with a woman, but I don’t know that it’s not a possibility. But I also don’t like it when people claim to be gay and then not. There’s this whole generation of young Hollywood girls who can’t find love where they think it’s supposed to be, and then they come out being gay and two weeks later they have a boyfriend. It drives me nuts! I think it takes all the proactive work the LGBT community has done and sets them back. Oh, so now you’re gay? Then two weeks later: “Oh no, that was just a phase.” You don’t get to do that.

I’ll tell you who’s the worst with it: young female celebrities. And I’m like, I know you. I’ve known you pretty much since before you used to sh!t outside of a diaper. You are not gay! But I think outing somebody in that way is just as bad as outing somebody who has not come out of the closet. It’s one of those things I have to keep to myself… and it drives me f%cking crazy! I’ve marched till my feet bled for the right of equal love in the gay community, and you’re just gonna step in because it looks cool for you and now tell everybody that you’re a lesbian when you’ve never even seen another puss that’s not yours so you can get attention?

Where are we at with you having a baby with your gay best friend?

Oh, it’s inevitable. (Laughs) That’s just gonna happen. You know, I was so disappointed that I didn’t have a gay sibling. I was disappointed that I wasn’t gay even! Though I do still think that everybody’s gay, but still.

You’ve been to a lot of LGBT events: Pride with your mom, where you shut down protesters; Elton John’s wedding. What’s the most memorable gay event you’ve been a part of? 

Oh my god, that’s so hard to pick! I can’t really think of an event that’s not a gay event. When you really think about it, what major party have you ever been to that was put on by a straight person? Because I can’t think of one.

You tell me. I’m not the one going to Elton John’s birthday party.

It was really fun, actually. (Laughs)

Rub it in.

So, my favorite gay Christmas event is anything with Mariah. She just brings out the best in everyone. Everyone’s crying, being emotional.

I love that you consider a Mariah Carey Christmas concert a “gay event.”

It’s totally a gay event – I mean, have you gone?! It’s so much fun. And I love her. I went to Disneyland with Mariah and we had the best time. It was everything you’d imagine going to Disneyland with Mariah would be. A dream come true.

Late last year, while receiving the Trevor Hero Honoree Award at the Trevor Project’s TrevorLIVE Los Angeles 2016 fundraiser on Dec. 4, during part of your speech you said, “We have to give (Trump) a chance. And we do it by spreading love, not hate.” Do you believe we should still give him a chance?

I think we should give… you have to think about it. If we’re being told the truth, which we never really are, people voted for him, and at that time when I said that he hadn’t been inaugurated yet. I’ve had to stop watching TV when it comes to politics. I only watch – I think you can hear it in the back; I watch BBC News so I can get a different perspective, because in different countries they show you different things that you don’t see here. It’s a really scary time that we’re living in, and I’m not gonna pretend that it isn’t.

What scares you most?

The way that people feel totally lost, don’t feel safe. When people don’t feel safe, it manifests and comes out in evil ways. There’s a lot of evil going around right now when we were finally at a place where people were ready to love. Now people are just ready to point fingers, judge and blame.

I don’t get to vote. I’m still going through the process of citizenship in this country – if it goes through, because I don’t know how things are going to change. I do encourage people to vote, but when we went down to downtown L.A. to check out the marches after the election, I asked people, “Who did you vote for?” Nine times out of 10, people said they didn’t vote. I was so confused! Like, why are you here?

But I have to keep to myself right now because I don’t want to enter into this political cannibalism that’s going on where people say stuff and then everyone just eats you alive for your opinion. Every attempt I have made in defending the (LGBT) community I somehow manage to f#ck it up and piss everyone off. I cried over the backlash of the Donald Trump thing with my speech, because if you read my whole speech, you’d get what I was saying, but they put that one sentence in there and I was like, “You d!cks.”

How are you feeling about where we are headed regarding LGBT rights?

I don’t know – and that’s what’s scary. I mean, I’m sorry, you cannot give somebody the right to marry and then take it away from them. You can’t do that. You just cannot do that. But what I’ve learned right now, because everything is so confusing and every single day threats are made and until you fully understand what’s going on, it’s like, keep your opinion to yourself.

I’m aware that there’s gonna be a lot more to fight for in our present time. Until I know exactly what it is that I’m fighting for – everything keeps changing and one day this, one day that, and no one can figure out whose side to be on. People can only figure out how to hate, and I refuse to do that.

About the author:

As editor of Q Syndicate, the international LGBT wire service, Chris Azzopardi has interviewed a multitude of superstars, including Meryl Streep, Mariah Carey and Beyoncé. Reach him via his website at www.chris-azzopardi.com and on Twitter (@chrisazzopardi).

from Hotspots! Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.com/2017/04/27/kelly-chameleon-an-interview-with-kelly-osbourne/ from Hot Spots Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.tumblr.com/post/160059741745

[cynthiajayusa]

Kelly Chameleon: An Interview with Kelly Osbourne

Osbourne rebel on being open to dating women (‘never say never’), celebs who fake gay and mom Sharon sneaking her into a drag club

Hollywood spitfire and staunch LGBT ally Kelly Osbourne is feeling tense about her first book, “There Is No F*cking Secret: Letters from a Badass Bitch.” After all, “What if I change my opinion by the time it comes out?!” she says, laughing because it’s true (Photos: Darren Tieste).

Then there’s our revealing interview, where the opinionated 32-year-old actress, singer and now author – and daughter of Ozzy and Sharon – let her candid thoughts loose on topics ranging from her sexuality (“everybody’s gay”) to her openness about dating women and her issues with celebrities who feign lesbianism for publicity. And that recent controversy over her statement regarding President Donald Trump? She admits it really got to her. Turns out, even badasses cry sometimes.

Kelly, your book, which covers your personal journey to self-acceptance, could have a positive influence on so many young people trying to find themselves.

Oh, thank you so much! It’s the most vulnerable thing I’ve done in a while, I can’t lie. I’m kind of like, oh my god, I’ve actually done this, because for the first time in my life I wanted to take my power back, and instead of people telling me who I am, I wanted to tell them.

Who are some of your favorite badass bitches?

I mean, Elton goes without sayin’. Just people who’ve made a difference in my life, like Liza Minnelli. I think Lil’ Kim. It’s anyone who just learned to be themselves and take responsibility for who they are.

When were you first aware you had an LGBT following?

I don’t remember a time in my life when I haven’t been submerged in the LGBT community. It’s the only community that, even though I shouldn’t have belonged (laughs), accepted me. It was the only world I ever really felt comfortable in, because, and I say it in my book, I don’t know what it feels like to fit in.

What do you attribute that bond to?

I think my relationship, especially with the drag community and the drag world, became so prevalent at such a young age because of Boy George, of course, and Blitz Kids and that huge movement in the U.K. I think drag queens choose how they want you to see them and they do that knowing that they’re probably going to get a lot of sh!t for it, and that’s what magic is. That’s like, “F*ck you, this is who I am,” and you can wake up every day and be whoever you want to be. I love that.

When did drag first come into your life?

It’s never NOT been in my life. I mean, my mom was calling up (a drag club) in San Francisco; I was, like, 11 or 12 and being snuck into a drag bar. It was amazing. And there was a time I went to go see Cyndi Lauper on tour when she was playing in the U.K., and she used to have, like, 20 drag queens on tour with her. I was probably about 9 or 10.

You have to understand, my favorite childhood pastime was putting my mom’s lacy underwear and bustier on over my clothes – because I wasn’t allowed to wear them any other way – and going to see “The Rocky Horror Picture Show”. “Rocky Horror Picture Show” is still, to this day, one of my favorite movies of all time. I loved the makeup. If you look really closely at the “Time Warp,” you’ll see where I get all my hair colors from. But yeah, everyone else was watching “Annie,” and I was watching “Rocky Horror Picture Show” and singing about sweet transvestites. (Laughs)

How much of your gay submergence do you credit to your mother?

It’s equally my mom AND my dad. In rock ’n’ roll, you were the outcasts back then and outcasts tend to find each other, especially in London.

How about Boy George – what was his influence on you?

I remember staring at my TV, thinking, “Is it a beautiful woman or a beautiful man? It doesn’t matter.” He was the first person to break down barriers. He single-handedly changed people’s perspective so much. And he’s such a smart man! If you ever sit down and have a conversation with him about his political views and his opinion of the gay community, he says things that are so spot on and so important because he’s lived long enough through good times and bad times to see what things really are. I love talking to him. And he has the most beautiful eyes you’ve ever looked into!

You recently wore a hat emblazoned with the words “I Am Gay.” Were you being literal?

You know my honest opinion? Everybody’s gay. It is a strictly human thing. You can’t put a gender on love.

But I know a guy – several of them, in fact – who insists he’s only into women.

Except he’s letting a guy suck his dick! If you ain’t tried it, you don’t get to tell me what you are.

Are you open to loving a woman?

I’m open to loving anybody. It’s about the person. I don’t think it’s about sexuality at all.

Your mother came out as bisexual last year. What have you learned about yourself from her regarding sexuality?

I told her, “Would you be the butch one? Come on, tell me, which one would you be?” Because whether it’s man and man, woman and woman, there’s always a masculine and feminine role. So I’m always like, “Mom, which one would you be?” And she’s like, “Oh, shut up, Kelly!”

But it’s not like I’m trying to be forward-thinking or progressive – it’s just that sexuality is a word I try not to even define the way the world defines it. It’s the person who you are sexually attracted to.

Do you not label your sexuality, then?

My whole rule is, never say never. I’ve never been in a relationship with a woman, but I don’t know that it’s not a possibility. But I also don’t like it when people claim to be gay and then not. There’s this whole generation of young Hollywood girls who can’t find love where they think it’s supposed to be, and then they come out being gay and two weeks later they have a boyfriend. It drives me nuts! I think it takes all the proactive work the LGBT community has done and sets them back. Oh, so now you’re gay? Then two weeks later: “Oh no, that was just a phase.” You don’t get to do that.

I’ll tell you who’s the worst with it: young female celebrities. And I’m like, I know you. I’ve known you pretty much since before you used to sh!t outside of a diaper. You are not gay! But I think outing somebody in that way is just as bad as outing somebody who has not come out of the closet. It’s one of those things I have to keep to myself… and it drives me f%cking crazy! I’ve marched till my feet bled for the right of equal love in the gay community, and you’re just gonna step in because it looks cool for you and now tell everybody that you’re a lesbian when you’ve never even seen another puss that’s not yours so you can get attention?

Where are we at with you having a baby with your gay best friend?

Oh, it’s inevitable. (Laughs) That’s just gonna happen. You know, I was so disappointed that I didn’t have a gay sibling. I was disappointed that I wasn’t gay even! Though I do still think that everybody’s gay, but still.

You’ve been to a lot of LGBT events: Pride with your mom, where you shut down protesters; Elton John’s wedding. What’s the most memorable gay event you’ve been a part of? 

Oh my god, that’s so hard to pick! I can’t really think of an event that’s not a gay event. When you really think about it, what major party have you ever been to that was put on by a straight person? Because I can’t think of one.

You tell me. I’m not the one going to Elton John’s birthday party.

It was really fun, actually. (Laughs)

Rub it in.

So, my favorite gay Christmas event is anything with Mariah. She just brings out the best in everyone. Everyone’s crying, being emotional.

I love that you consider a Mariah Carey Christmas concert a “gay event.”

It’s totally a gay event – I mean, have you gone?! It’s so much fun. And I love her. I went to Disneyland with Mariah and we had the best time. It was everything you’d imagine going to Disneyland with Mariah would be. A dream come true.

Late last year, while receiving the Trevor Hero Honoree Award at the Trevor Project’s TrevorLIVE Los Angeles 2016 fundraiser on Dec. 4, during part of your speech you said, “We have to give (Trump) a chance. And we do it by spreading love, not hate.” Do you believe we should still give him a chance?

I think we should give… you have to think about it. If we’re being told the truth, which we never really are, people voted for him, and at that time when I said that he hadn’t been inaugurated yet. I’ve had to stop watching TV when it comes to politics. I only watch – I think you can hear it in the back; I watch BBC News so I can get a different perspective, because in different countries they show you different things that you don’t see here. It’s a really scary time that we’re living in, and I’m not gonna pretend that it isn’t.

What scares you most?

The way that people feel totally lost, don’t feel safe. When people don’t feel safe, it manifests and comes out in evil ways. There’s a lot of evil going around right now when we were finally at a place where people were ready to love. Now people are just ready to point fingers, judge and blame.

I don’t get to vote. I’m still going through the process of citizenship in this country – if it goes through, because I don’t know how things are going to change. I do encourage people to vote, but when we went down to downtown L.A. to check out the marches after the election, I asked people, “Who did you vote for?” Nine times out of 10, people said they didn’t vote. I was so confused! Like, why are you here?

But I have to keep to myself right now because I don’t want to enter into this political cannibalism that’s going on where people say stuff and then everyone just eats you alive for your opinion. Every attempt I have made in defending the (LGBT) community I somehow manage to f#ck it up and piss everyone off. I cried over the backlash of the Donald Trump thing with my speech, because if you read my whole speech, you’d get what I was saying, but they put that one sentence in there and I was like, “You d!cks.”

How are you feeling about where we are headed regarding LGBT rights?

I don’t know – and that’s what’s scary. I mean, I’m sorry, you cannot give somebody the right to marry and then take it away from them. You can’t do that. You just cannot do that. But what I’ve learned right now, because everything is so confusing and every single day threats are made and until you fully understand what’s going on, it’s like, keep your opinion to yourself.

I’m aware that there’s gonna be a lot more to fight for in our present time. Until I know exactly what it is that I’m fighting for – everything keeps changing and one day this, one day that, and no one can figure out whose side to be on. People can only figure out how to hate, and I refuse to do that.

About the author:

As editor of Q Syndicate, the international LGBT wire service, Chris Azzopardi has interviewed a multitude of superstars, including Meryl Streep, Mariah Carey and Beyoncé. Reach him via his website at www.chris-azzopardi.com and on Twitter (@chrisazzopardi).

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Kelly Chameleon: An Interview with Kelly Osbourne

Osbourne rebel on being open to dating women (‘never say never’), celebs who fake gay and mom Sharon sneaking her into a drag club

Hollywood spitfire and staunch LGBT ally Kelly Osbourne is feeling tense about her first book, “There Is No F*cking Secret: Letters from a Badass Bitch.” After all, “What if I change my opinion by the time it comes out?!” she says, laughing because it’s true (Photos: Darren Tieste).

Then there’s our revealing interview, where the opinionated 32-year-old actress, singer and now author – and daughter of Ozzy and Sharon – let her candid thoughts loose on topics ranging from her sexuality (“everybody’s gay”) to her openness about dating women and her issues with celebrities who feign lesbianism for publicity. And that recent controversy over her statement regarding President Donald Trump? She admits it really got to her. Turns out, even badasses cry sometimes.

Kelly, your book, which covers your personal journey to self-acceptance, could have a positive influence on so many young people trying to find themselves.

Oh, thank you so much! It’s the most vulnerable thing I’ve done in a while, I can’t lie. I’m kind of like, oh my god, I’ve actually done this, because for the first time in my life I wanted to take my power back, and instead of people telling me who I am, I wanted to tell them.

Who are some of your favorite badass bitches?

I mean, Elton goes without sayin’. Just people who’ve made a difference in my life, like Liza Minnelli. I think Lil’ Kim. It’s anyone who just learned to be themselves and take responsibility for who they are.

When were you first aware you had an LGBT following?

I don’t remember a time in my life when I haven’t been submerged in the LGBT community. It’s the only community that, even though I shouldn’t have belonged (laughs), accepted me. It was the only world I ever really felt comfortable in, because, and I say it in my book, I don’t know what it feels like to fit in.

What do you attribute that bond to?

I think my relationship, especially with the drag community and the drag world, became so prevalent at such a young age because of Boy George, of course, and Blitz Kids and that huge movement in the U.K. I think drag queens choose how they want you to see them and they do that knowing that they’re probably going to get a lot of sh!t for it, and that’s what magic is. That’s like, “F*ck you, this is who I am,” and you can wake up every day and be whoever you want to be. I love that.

When did drag first come into your life?

It’s never NOT been in my life. I mean, my mom was calling up (a drag club) in San Francisco; I was, like, 11 or 12 and being snuck into a drag bar. It was amazing. And there was a time I went to go see Cyndi Lauper on tour when she was playing in the U.K., and she used to have, like, 20 drag queens on tour with her. I was probably about 9 or 10.

You have to understand, my favorite childhood pastime was putting my mom’s lacy underwear and bustier on over my clothes – because I wasn’t allowed to wear them any other way – and going to see “The Rocky Horror Picture Show”. “Rocky Horror Picture Show” is still, to this day, one of my favorite movies of all time. I loved the makeup. If you look really closely at the “Time Warp,” you’ll see where I get all my hair colors from. But yeah, everyone else was watching “Annie,” and I was watching “Rocky Horror Picture Show” and singing about sweet transvestites. (Laughs)

How much of your gay submergence do you credit to your mother?

It’s equally my mom AND my dad. In rock ’n’ roll, you were the outcasts back then and outcasts tend to find each other, especially in London.

How about Boy George – what was his influence on you?

I remember staring at my TV, thinking, “Is it a beautiful woman or a beautiful man? It doesn’t matter.” He was the first person to break down barriers. He single-handedly changed people’s perspective so much. And he’s such a smart man! If you ever sit down and have a conversation with him about his political views and his opinion of the gay community, he says things that are so spot on and so important because he’s lived long enough through good times and bad times to see what things really are. I love talking to him. And he has the most beautiful eyes you’ve ever looked into!

You recently wore a hat emblazoned with the words “I Am Gay.” Were you being literal?

You know my honest opinion? Everybody’s gay. It is a strictly human thing. You can’t put a gender on love.

But I know a guy – several of them, in fact – who insists he’s only into women.

Except he’s letting a guy suck his dick! If you ain’t tried it, you don’t get to tell me what you are.

Are you open to loving a woman?

I’m open to loving anybody. It’s about the person. I don’t think it’s about sexuality at all.

Your mother came out as bisexual last year. What have you learned about yourself from her regarding sexuality?

I told her, “Would you be the butch one? Come on, tell me, which one would you be?” Because whether it’s man and man, woman and woman, there’s always a masculine and feminine role. So I’m always like, “Mom, which one would you be?” And she’s like, “Oh, shut up, Kelly!”

But it’s not like I’m trying to be forward-thinking or progressive – it’s just that sexuality is a word I try not to even define the way the world defines it. It’s the person who you are sexually attracted to.

Do you not label your sexuality, then?

My whole rule is, never say never. I’ve never been in a relationship with a woman, but I don’t know that it’s not a possibility. But I also don’t like it when people claim to be gay and then not. There’s this whole generation of young Hollywood girls who can’t find love where they think it’s supposed to be, and then they come out being gay and two weeks later they have a boyfriend. It drives me nuts! I think it takes all the proactive work the LGBT community has done and sets them back. Oh, so now you’re gay? Then two weeks later: “Oh no, that was just a phase.” You don’t get to do that.

I’ll tell you who’s the worst with it: young female celebrities. And I’m like, I know you. I’ve known you pretty much since before you used to sh!t outside of a diaper. You are not gay! But I think outing somebody in that way is just as bad as outing somebody who has not come out of the closet. It’s one of those things I have to keep to myself… and it drives me f%cking crazy! I’ve marched till my feet bled for the right of equal love in the gay community, and you’re just gonna step in because it looks cool for you and now tell everybody that you’re a lesbian when you’ve never even seen another puss that’s not yours so you can get attention?

Where are we at with you having a baby with your gay best friend?

Oh, it’s inevitable. (Laughs) That’s just gonna happen. You know, I was so disappointed that I didn’t have a gay sibling. I was disappointed that I wasn’t gay even! Though I do still think that everybody’s gay, but still.

You’ve been to a lot of LGBT events: Pride with your mom, where you shut down protesters; Elton John’s wedding. What’s the most memorable gay event you’ve been a part of? 

Oh my god, that’s so hard to pick! I can’t really think of an event that’s not a gay event. When you really think about it, what major party have you ever been to that was put on by a straight person? Because I can’t think of one.

You tell me. I’m not the one going to Elton John’s birthday party.

It was really fun, actually. (Laughs)

Rub it in.

So, my favorite gay Christmas event is anything with Mariah. She just brings out the best in everyone. Everyone’s crying, being emotional.

I love that you consider a Mariah Carey Christmas concert a “gay event.”

It’s totally a gay event – I mean, have you gone?! It’s so much fun. And I love her. I went to Disneyland with Mariah and we had the best time. It was everything you’d imagine going to Disneyland with Mariah would be. A dream come true.

Late last year, while receiving the Trevor Hero Honoree Award at the Trevor Project’s TrevorLIVE Los Angeles 2016 fundraiser on Dec. 4, during part of your speech you said, “We have to give (Trump) a chance. And we do it by spreading love, not hate.” Do you believe we should still give him a chance?

I think we should give… you have to think about it. If we’re being told the truth, which we never really are, people voted for him, and at that time when I said that he hadn’t been inaugurated yet. I’ve had to stop watching TV when it comes to politics. I only watch – I think you can hear it in the back; I watch BBC News so I can get a different perspective, because in different countries they show you different things that you don’t see here. It’s a really scary time that we’re living in, and I’m not gonna pretend that it isn’t.

What scares you most?

The way that people feel totally lost, don’t feel safe. When people don’t feel safe, it manifests and comes out in evil ways. There’s a lot of evil going around right now when we were finally at a place where people were ready to love. Now people are just ready to point fingers, judge and blame.

I don’t get to vote. I’m still going through the process of citizenship in this country – if it goes through, because I don’t know how things are going to change. I do encourage people to vote, but when we went down to downtown L.A. to check out the marches after the election, I asked people, “Who did you vote for?” Nine times out of 10, people said they didn’t vote. I was so confused! Like, why are you here?

But I have to keep to myself right now because I don’t want to enter into this political cannibalism that’s going on where people say stuff and then everyone just eats you alive for your opinion. Every attempt I have made in defending the (LGBT) community I somehow manage to f#ck it up and piss everyone off. I cried over the backlash of the Donald Trump thing with my speech, because if you read my whole speech, you’d get what I was saying, but they put that one sentence in there and I was like, “You d!cks.”

How are you feeling about where we are headed regarding LGBT rights?

I don’t know – and that’s what’s scary. I mean, I’m sorry, you cannot give somebody the right to marry and then take it away from them. You can’t do that. You just cannot do that. But what I’ve learned right now, because everything is so confusing and every single day threats are made and until you fully understand what’s going on, it’s like, keep your opinion to yourself.

I’m aware that there’s gonna be a lot more to fight for in our present time. Until I know exactly what it is that I’m fighting for – everything keeps changing and one day this, one day that, and no one can figure out whose side to be on. People can only figure out how to hate, and I refuse to do that.

About the author:

As editor of Q Syndicate, the international LGBT wire service, Chris Azzopardi has interviewed a multitude of superstars, including Meryl Streep, Mariah Carey and Beyoncé. Reach him via his website at www.chris-azzopardi.com and on Twitter (@chrisazzopardi).

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