#me to my gf: I need you to dnd-check this

[ivyontheholodeck]

Holga: You can always trust Ed to wear his heart on his sleeve.

Xenk, concerned: That is a strategically foolish and physiologically difficult location to keep one’s heart. Is he perhaps undead?

[sampsonstorm-critical]

Alright, so ive got something to point out about Vivs writing in HB. Almost all of the antagonists are BITCHY "conventonally perfect looking"Women. I just realized this.

Examples

- Verosika Mayday

- Mother Martha

- Stella

- Queen Bee

- The 13 year old girls at the camp...again "13 YEAR OLD GIRLS"

- NOTE - most men are NOT antagonists unless they are related to the characters like Crimson or Pieman. The only antagonist there who is a "conventially attractive" male is Striker.

- NOTE - all the female characters especially, in HB are shallow, one sided, cardboard cutouts. (so are the males, but at least they have "interesting" backstories. The women antagonists are also being made fun of for having adictions. As someone who has a mother who abused me because of alcohol abuse, (i still love her and care about her, and she still loves and cares about me, shes the only one whos ever helped me in my family and will give you the shirt off her back) and has a father who was just diagnosed woth liver failure, this IS NOT A JOKE. Like alright, you wanna have your characters IN CHARACTER insult somone that way. Fine. That is fine, because you are establishing a character. But if you are going to take your story or tour characters serious in any sense of the word, you need to adress said character flaws, and give the insulter consequences.

- NOTE - the show is RIFE with sexism. Like daaamn. The amount of time i hear someone called "Tits" or "Tittyhaver" , or the amount of times i see the show just shitting on women is appalling, and dude. Like im not a "feminist". I have plenty of Male Ocs. In fact i have more men than women for personal reasons. (Said personal reason are below. )

SPONTANIOUS BACKSTORY ON ME AND AN OLD COWRITTER- (im trans/butch and i improv my stories with my fiance. its how we build the foundation and the details of our stories. Once upon a time ago, i had a male cowritter who was ....um.....well, a male vivziepop. He would have his characters molest the female characters as a joke, make them make racist, sexist, ableist jokes and remarks, but then the characters would get no consequences and wouldnt grow. He had a female oc who was a sexual assault victim but of course was also a bad ass fem fatale with her tits out and a "she got her sexxy back" attitude. And all of his male characters were sad uwu boys who always had their gf wifus explaining to the characters why they were just "troubled" Sound familiar? Ive worked with this exact type of cowritter, type of writter Vivzipop is. It wasnt fun. And what sucks, is, the comedy was great. We had alot of great laughs, i wont lie. But the problem at the end of the day was my cowritter just wasnt mature, and lacked the life experience or just didnt care about how to handle the content he wanted to create. He just wanted an imaginary playground to play in and truely live vicariously through his ocs. Now hes playing dnd everyday, after he abandoned his real life and his real friends because real life got too hard. )

NOTE - Vivzie, the amount of incest related jokes and implications are concerning at this point. I mean the show is 18 plus, right? Well the first "sex scene" we get and its an incest joke, IN FRONT OF CHILDREN, DONE BY WHAT THE CHILDREN PERCEIVE TO BE CHILDREN. that IS NOT funny! (i was also sexually groomed by two friends fathers, one who engaged in oncestual abuse to both his kids!) NOT FUNNY MAN. Not at all. Oh not to mention Barbie Wire. Damn talk about a serious disappointment.

NOTE - Also can we adress that Asmodeus seems to be black coded and hes a lustful demon, whos dressed like a pimp... And Vortex, the only pther black characters is a Hell hound, litterally a being who was kept in a cage until "adopted" or thrown out!

CONCLUSION - Theres is SO MUCH more, but Spindlehorse NEEDS to "think before they act!" and watch what theyre putting out there. They need to check their scripts, check their drafts, and check their final product BEFORE putting animated trash tv out in the open. Kids are watching this. Granted theyre not supposed to. But theyr ARE watching. You know how many kids (teens) are gonna get into relationships and think that this is ok? That abuse is ok, it just quirky. Spindlehorse is going to create a whole new generation of traumatized, confused, and toxic young people (im 26!) and i cant believe im saying this; The FCC was created so people like Vivian Madrano cant release grabage media like this, and expose young people who cant actually grasp the sensitive content, to its toxic after effects.

I WAS A FAN. I was so excited for Hazbin when the pilot dropped. It was a little shakey but what indie pilot wasnt back then? I liked the first season of Helluva. Some of the episodes were a miss like Spring Broken (sexual assault and addiction is not a joke) and the Cherub Episode. But the first episode was a good set up, again other than the "ill fuck you and your wife" joke. Loo Loo land came too early. We didnt know Stolas long enough or Octavia. Season 2 is BAD. The writting is bad. Characters are BAD. Direction is BAD. And by that i mean, the dialoge is horrid, the characters are poorly written and their traits are not being kept up with or are being missed or sidetracked for pLoT rEaSoNs, yuck. The direction? there is no direction. The pitch bible was BAD too. The only thing i liked about season 2 was the Moxxy mafia backstory flashback. It was ACTUALLY sinister and the mood hit for once. It was good. A flash of what the show could have been. Aaaaand they ruined it with bouncing dicks....yaaaay...

Also for anyone who wants to call me a homophobe. IM A BUTCH LESBIAN IN A 10 year HAPPY common law relationship. My best friend is NB and i have a LESBIAN SISTER. so fuck off and just accept the fact. The show in its entirety is just bad. It had potential, but because the writters behind the scenes are just immature, insensitive, hollywood wannabe, jackasses the show will never get to where it couldve gone. It went the opposite way. And its sad. Its sad that THIS is the prime example for adult animated show writting. Talk about a bad impression in the community of art, animation, and for young aspiring artist who have actual talent and who truely came from nothing. This isnt a rags to riches story. This is a selfish privlaged girl got money handed to her and she squandered it completely all while making indie artists "look like a fucking joke" (am i right Vagie?) I want Hazbin to be good. I want it to be SO BAD. Im hoping it will be with some studio oversight. ....but im doubtful.

Anyway! Hope you enjoyed my angry rant! GNight 😊

[hearts-4scoopstroop]

Unfair Advantage

gif is not mine!!

Pairing - Eddie Munson/gn!reader

Warnings - fluff, established relationship, probably incorrect dnd rules and whatever, like i found a random monster on a dnd website, y/d/n mean ur dnd name, not proofread, I might've referred to the reader as she or he once, sorry!

Summary - Eddie gives you an 'unfair advantage' in dnd because ur his gf. This is set during the night on the show with Erica, but the dnd campaign story is different

WC - 690

"When you see what has happened to Gareth the Great and Lady Applejack, you know you have to decide what to do quickly and wisely." Eddie says. "You all devise a plan."

He signals for you to discuss. Huddling close together like sports players, Dustin begins:

"We need to split up. Me, Jeff, and Mike will go stand guard, and Y/n, you go fight Alhoon."

"Ok," you say. "But if I need help will one of you guys step in? Please?"

"I will, Y/n." Mike says.

"Alright, then let's do this."

You turn back to Eddie with the others.

"Me, Jeff, and Mike will stand guard and Y/d/n will be fight Alhoon." Dustin says.

Eddie raises an eyebrow at you, not in a condescending way, but more in a 'are you okay with this' way. You smile back at him to answer his concerns.

"Ok, perfect. Y/d/n, since you're the one fighting I'll be asking you the most questions. Everyone take a seat."

"Y/d/n, you'll be using the D4 to fight Alhoon."

You saw Dustin raise his eyebrow from the corner of your eye.

"Now, what do you want to do for your first attack?"

"I want to cast a vertigo spell on him."

"Ok, you can go ahead and roll the die."

You roll a 2, your accuracy number.

Eddie smiles.

"Alhoon begins to spin around, almost drunkenly, tipping off balance every once in a while. This effect will last for five minutes."

"I'll create a portal, 7 feet in diameter. And I'll lead him into it." You said, taking what Eddie said earlier into heart and thinking as quickly and wisely as you could.

"And once he's in the portal?"

"I'll shut it."

"Are you sure? That will take a lot of magic slots, and you'll have to do an arcana check."

"I'm okay with that. I'll do the arcana check.

You roll the dice, and to your surprise you get the lowest number you could get while still passing the check.

"Yes!" You exclaim to yourself.

"Alright take my magic slots." You say almost recklessly.

"Now that Alhoon is stuck in the portal y/d/n created, you are all free to leave the dungeon, and help Rosalie at the infirmary! This also concludes our session for the night, considering it is nine.

Everyone gets up to leave, celebrating the fact that Alhoon was defeated, despite how skeptical they were of the D4 you were 'allowed' to use.

You hear Eddie begin to pack up the dnd set, and decide to help him.

"Thanks for letting me use the D4, Eds, but I'm pretty sure everyone could tell you were giving me an unfair advantage."

"Oh, I wouldn't call it unfair, it's the DM's girlfriend advantage."

You chuckle to yourself.

"I bet we can stay here longer, why don't we just sit down for a while?" Eddie asks you.

"Ok," you say reluctantly. You wanted to, but you weren't sure how safe it would be. "But if the lights go off and we're locked in here for the night I will not hesitate to murder you."

"We won't get locked innn, I'm sure they check the rooms where clubs are being held every night." Eddie said slumping back into his chair, and flicking his wrist, dismissing your comment.

"Come sit down." He says, patting his thigh.

You walk over and sit on his lap, straddling his waist.

He reaches out and holds your face in his hands, smiling gently, his aura shifting from his over the top 'DM mode' as you liked to call it, to his gentle 'boyfriend mode'.

Before you could think or say anything else, Eddie was bringing your face closer to his, placing his lips atop yours. Your lips began to move in harmony with his, slow and sensual in the best way possible.

Breaking you apart, he rests his forehead on yours.

You can feel the brush of his lips on yours as he says:

"I don't care if I set you up to succeed, your fast thinking skills were amazing up there, sweetheart. I'm sure I couldn't have thought that fast and made a smart choice like yours."

"Thank you, babe." You said, not bothering to argue with him about how fast he could think. He was a DM, and that was practically their whole job.

[sad-sad-detective]

Hello there! There have been no questions for a long time…We need to fix it!

1)About the sore point. How is the work on the new chapters going? I'M NOT PUSHING OFC NOT, but...you know. Live and wait.

2)How did you find out about DnD? Can you call it your hobby? How long do your parties last?

3)What are your favorite bands besides Ghost?(if you haven't asked about it yet)

Hello, hey!💜 Why, I'm always glad to talk, you can send me asks anytime! Just saying lol

1) Well, right now I have about 2/3 of chapter 6 of "Home to the flames" ready. I keep saying to myself "I have to finish it this month", but you know how it is. Chapter 9 of "Rainbow" is about 1/3 - it is Aether-centric, and the big guy's gonna have a lot on his plate. Some events and decisions from previous chapters are gonna play their part too. But! But I have a small treat for you guys. I've finished a companion piece to "Hot streams will fork and divide" and now I'm just waiting for my beta to finish checking it. The story may be a little weird though… you'll see.

2) I learned about TTRPGs in general back in high school. You know, if you are a geek teen, you'll find out about them sooner or later. But, well… Sometime in 2021 my friend mentioned that she and her gf want to try playing DnD and asked if I wanted to join. I didn't feel interested at that particular moment, but as time went, and my friends told me about their characters and the storyline they were playing, my curiousity about it grew stronger! So, I think it's my new hobby now along with writing and drawing. Our parties last about 4-5 hours (including small breaks for stretching our legs or having a snack) because we are SOCIAL FIENDS. Honestly, I love it. Besides, our DM came up with kind of detective/horror story, so the characters spend a lot of time interacting with witnesses, looking for clues etc.

3) The list is gonna be long! I'm a big fan of Bebopovsky and his music (you may want to look up "Bebopovsky and The Orkestry Podyezdov", if you're interested, it's his dark jazz project)! Always in my playlists: Kaizers Orchestra, Timber Timbre, Glass Animals, Sleep Token, The Raveonettes, Spiritual Front, Morphine, The Kills, Black Sabbath, Type O'Negative, The 69 Eyes. A recent discovery which I highly recommend is Curse of Cain. These guys are pretty cool, and the band lore is interesting. What else… Ulterior? They are fun, if you like post-punk, and have this… I don't know how to describe it… raw feeling about them.

[kimarisgundam]

My character trying to keep her crap together and not go apeshit and commit PvP murder:

One day. One day I will lose my crap, and my character will lose her crap because of me. And I will shoot our party's Rockerboy in his sleep. I'M GONNA RANT

Don't try me. You gave me the keys to your apartment cos we are chooms (thanks for letting me stash my err... Samurai merch in your house!)

I will come over when you're asleep.

And I'll make it look like you unalived yourself.

I'm just so annoyed at my friend sometimes. What she's doing is really in character But does she have to be sooo in character?

I know this is Cyberpunk not DnD, but does she need to lean into her character's flawed personality so much?

Everytime my Netrunner and her Rockerboy take one step forward in their friendship, he will do sometimes that will bazooka blast their friendship back 5 steps

Me and the Solo are trying to fix your pathetic excuse of a love life. You cycle through 3 girlfriends a month cos you can't be faithful. You don't think that there's something wrong with you???

We genuinely thought our Rockerboy was serious about his latest ex, so instead of doing a role side gig for eddies, we went on an "adventure" to find his ex and ask her to come back

Everything was going great. I felt good cos I'm finally doing something nice for my choom, since he's always the one doing nice stuff for me. I wanted to repay him for sharing his "dream" via that Braindance with me >:T

Our Solo was so keen to help too cos he's our party's baby and he idolises our Rockerboy. Our Solo is the only one who still believes dreams can come true in Night City. Do you have to screw up in front of him everyday?

I can't believe I got his ex to come back and he cheated on her?? And he tried to deny it but I caught his lie cos I passed the check and I bugged him >:T

Like dude, why do you have to undermine everything I do for you. I bribe to get you out of prison, you bomb a Militech truck the next day. I get your ex to come back, you cheat on her the next day

And this gonk has the audacity to say "I never asked you to bring her back, I don't even like her". Ok. Then why did you date her omg?!

You like her right?! Isn't this why you showed up to our group's job drunk?? Isn't it cos you're upset she left you?! I keep asking you what's wrong but you won't tell me >:U ! If I'm really your best friend, you'd tell me >:U

I know you are capable of being nice cos you do things that genuinely warms my Netrunner's ice cold heart sometimes. CAN YOU PUT THAT EFFORT INTO YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR GF. Why am I fixing everything for you??

And don't frigging come at me with your "corps are bad. You are bad for working for suits" nonsense when you are just as big of a mess as me >:U

And yeah, maybe my character has a crush on our party's suit. Can you don't ruin that for me?! Can you just stick to ruining your own love life?!

I swear if this was irl I will drop this friend. No way my best friend is like this irl. I can't deal with this. I bet my friend is enjoying driving me over the edge with her character >:U

[rhokisb]

Dragonlance Session 6 Results

Writing DnD Campaign notes/story is so much different from just writing. Every time I think I've planned for everything, I am proven wrong.

Our session started with trying to get all the players together again. One of the missing party members was in a room next to where they woke up. He's a bard so I said, "A familiar tune underscores the yelling coming from the room to your left." 3 PCs go to the room, 2 ask to go chill with BlipBlup, an NPC my PCs love. The three who find the missing member, well he wants to wait for them to be back before he says what happened. 3 PCs chase after missing 2, while found (A) stays in the room. Alriiiight.

1 of the 3 walks into a shop where the person working there actually saved them as a child. They listen to the story, purchase rope and a grappling hook and leave. Wicked aha.

The 2 who left with the NPC, they go to a blacksmith to dull some daggers so they can continue to teach BlipBlup how to juggle. BlipBlup asks if they can teach him to fight so he can stop being a burden. 1 of them teaches him archery and gives him their short bow. BlipBlup is super happy and tells them he's gonna be the hero of the city one day, "just you watch".

They eventually are found by the 3, so then all 5 plus BlipBlup are back together again. As they go back to where their missing friend was it was TIME TO INTRODUCE A NEW PLAYER (which would have worked better if friend had gone with them but he wanted to stay). Insert mishmash of what happened to A while introducing new player B. Admittedly could have been organized better but I didn't expect A to want to stay in a random ass room.

All 7 PCs and BlipBlup talk to the king of the ruined city who tells them about a secret tunnel under the dragons lair. Oh yeah BTW this is the BBEG of the campaign so far, 1 Ancient Black Dragon. Cool, they head off over there. While walking they all agree that when they beat the dragon they're GONNA TELL THE KING BLIPBLUP DID IT SO HE CAN BE A HERO. *my heart*

They get to the Dragon. Epic fight. There was plot armor for this fight. I whisper on roll20 to ONE PLAYER that a God is whispering in their ear to hit the dragon with their staff. They say...

And attempt to just keep fighting the dragon. After some COAXING (PC was drunk irl so it was more me shouting YOU WILL 100% DIE) they do it.

Dragon is killed instantly; PC who hit the dragon disappears, but the cave they're in begins to collapse. Insert DEX checks to avoid falling rocks here. Chaos. They watch the city they just left be crushed knowing a large number of the new friends they just made are probably dead. BlipBlup is shrieking in terror to the point one of them needs to carry him.

They get out and as more survivors make their way from the destruction the party finds their PC who killed it beneath a statue in a temple. She gets a new mission and they rest above the ruins of the city for the evening.

DURING WHICH TIME: one of them makes BlipBlup a crown out of broken iron chains, one of them polishes it and gives him a "How to Be a King for Dummies 101" lesson AND makes a new emblem for the city they just destroyed, one of them attempts to find him a BF/GF (we stan representation so he provided options) both of which refuse (their entire city and all of their friends and family just died 2 hours ago bro) so he gets a rock and draws a smiley face on it and presents it as BlipBlups partner. Also gives him a childhood trinket. Another PC gives BlipBlup his short sword, a set of fine clothes, and the insignia of the secret order they're a part of.

THEN THEY ALL DECLARE BLIPBLUP THE NEW KING OF THE GULLY DWARVES AND JUST LEAVE HIM STANDING THERE WEARING HIS CROWN AND CARRYING EVERYTHING THEY JUST GAVE HIM. *my heart again because they love him*

They didn't want the session to end so they end up traveling for 3 days back to their hometown which has been destroyed, get into a bar fight, and immediately are captured by the invading army of Draconians.

But WAIT: when they killed the dragon I gave them one opportunity to search the hoarde during the collapse. On the road they found out what they pulled. One of them pulled a cloak of invisibility.

So at the start of next session, 6 of the 7 are prisoners and one of them is running around like Harry in God damn Hogwarts in an invisibility cloak.

You can never predict your PCs. Don't even try.

[cdstories-uwu]

Dungeons and drag!

Ever since I was young I had such an affinity for dungeons and dragons. I began playing when I was around 10 and followed it through the years up until 5e.

Naturally the more you play dnd, the more creative you get with your builds. At the beginning of 2020, I would make my first female character to play. I had played in many games when men played as women and vice versa, but I always would shy away at the thought.

Her name was Tiffany, and she was a young human wizard. I made her around my age and made her more on the heavy side. When it came to to play her at the table, I was hesitant and shy, something other people were surprised to see. I found it very hard to role play as a girl as it was something so different to me. Was I supposed to act natural, what really was the difference between a man and a woman?

As I looked online to see if any struggled with the same issue I did, I came upon a message board discussing method acting. Method acting seeks to encourage sincere and expressive performances through identifying with, understanding, and experiencing a character's inner motivation and emotions. I wondered to myself “could sharing the same experiences with Tiffany make me better at role playing her?”

I began to think to myself, “what experiences could I share with her?” Since she was from a fantasy world and could cast magic, it seemed like nothing at first. But then I realized, maybe I could try to look a bit more like her. I decided to let my hair grow out as I continued to play her. It didn’t seem to help that much, so I went on to incorporate more and more of her look into my appearance.

One day in October, I emailed that looking like her more is a good start, but I would have to do more. It was then a wild thought crossed my mind, “what if I dressed like her”

I bought a wizards outfit that was rather gender neutral. It was blue and yellow just like hers, but it needed more to be complete. My mind had a very embarrassing thought as I looked myself in her outfit. What type of underwear does she wear? I had never really thought about it before, but if I wanted to be accurate I would have to right?

I thought about it for a while, not being sure as to what she would wear. I thought maybe I should just go out and look at some and pick whatever feels right?

I went to the mall a couple of towns over. I knew where I’d have to start my search, but was pretty embarrassed. I paced around and in front of the Victoria’s Secret there for a while. Trying to work up the courage to go in.

When I finally did go in, I kept my head down and moved quickly, I was very embarrassed and wanted to be in there as little as possible. I ran up to the drawers and picked out the first yellow pair I could see form the top and went straight to the check out counter.

As I strafed through the store, a woman cut me off and asked if I needed any help, I didn’t really look at her and just “no thanks”. She got my attention again to point out that you save money by buying five pairs, rather than just one. I didn’t want to seem suspicious so I turned around and thanked her. She told me they all had to come from the same counter tho; and she walked me back over.

It was dreadfully embarrassing to walk back, and on top of that, she wouldn’t quit asking questions. Asking if I knew what size she was And what she liked. I just pretend that I had a gf and that she would be the same size as me; but that backfired as the lady told me that the sizes on the top are only mediums and wouldn’t fit.

Now I had to put them back, bend down and dig through a drawer of panties. Of course me being in an embarrassed panic, I was going through the wrong size drawer when the lady stopped me again. She offered to help me pick some out and I panicked and said yes. She grabbed five in different colors, and luckily she grabbed a yellow and blue that would match the outfit. I quickly purchased them and left.

I got home and immediately went to try them on, I figured I’d start with the yellow pair. As I pulled them out of the bag, I was immediately blushing and embarrassed. I hadn’t even noticed, the drawer the lady was pulling them out of was full of panties that had writing in them. The only yellow panties I own have in big bold capital letters on them saying “ PINK GIRLS HAVE MORE FUN”

Plan b, the blue panties were even worse. My face got bright right as I looked at the back of the blue panties “YOUR BOYFRIEND LIKES ME BETTER” I sat there completely embarrassed. I couldn’t wear these even if they fit. They’re just too embarrassing and the other pairs weren’t any better.

I decided that since no one was gonna see it, I could try them on under the outfit anyway. I flipped a coin because I truly couldn’t decide between the yellow and the blue. I decided heads would be yellow and blue would be tails. As I lived my hand to check the coin, I had a bit of a shock. The outcome was heads, so it means I was going to wear the yellow, but as I saw the result I felt disappointed inside. I had a wave of panic rush over me, parented it I didn’t know what it meant. But deep down I knew in the moment and could only admit it later. Something about the blue panties excited me.

I had to be honest with myself and ask the hardest question I’ve ever been asked. Why was I disappointed about the coin flip. Well really the coin had nothing to do with it, why was I disappointed I didn’t get to wear the blue panties. Why did I want to wear them?

It wasn’t about the color, as both matched. It wasn’t about the style as they were both hipster panties. I sat and thought about all of the differences between the two pairs. I had to accept the fact that the only real difference between the two was the writing on the butt.

Now I was in a real state of panic. What did this mean? This wasn’t about dnd anymore, bow I was questioning myself. The yellow panties with “PINK GIRLS HAVE MORE FUN” seemed less fun to me than the blue ones that said “YOUR BOYFRIEND LIKES ME BETTER”

Why did I like the blues one writing more? Was it because it implied I was gay? When I said that to myself, I felt my cock stiffen harder than it ever had before. In a wave of blind hormones I reject the coin toss and put on the blue panties.

As I slid them on my cock throbbed against the fabric making a huge bulge. I turned around in the mirror and read the text in my head, “YOUR BOYFRIEND LIKES ME BETTER”. Almost immediately I stuck my hand in the front of the panties and touched my hard cock. It felt so amazing like it never had before.

What do you think? Should I make a part two? Let me know in the comments!

[skyguy-snips]

Chapter 1: The Captain

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Chapter 2

note: im very dfubk dnd its dsarurday night im so sorry pls enjoy chapter the new book!!!! ilysm. i'll edit/spellcheck inthe morning. srry lmao im genuinelu very drunk and my gf is trying so sober me up..... its barely working haha sorry anyways i hope you enjoy!! xoxo

note update: i am simply unwell this morning and it’s no ones fault but my own. send your thoughts and prayers lmao

Hurtling through space, Skylar let out a string of curses. She stumbled to the side, slamming into the wall as Tech took another harsh turn to avoid the shots coming from behind them. They had finally gotten that damn lizard thing, only for the previous owners to chase them from the surface.

Omega and Wrecker were in the main hold with the cargo, Echo and Tech in the cockpit and Hunter at the rear guns. Skylar stumbled again as a blast hit the ship, falling into the back of one of the cockpit chairs.

“How much longer until we’re in hyperspace, Tech?” Hunter shouted, firing the guns.

“That depends on when Echo plans on getting the drive back online,” Tech snarked, glancing at Echo.

“I’m working on it!” Echo yelled. Skylar just huffed, already done with their arguing. She watched them work for a few seconds before turning back to the main hold to check on Omega. She was unsteady as explosions rocked the ship, and she watched as Omega pulled the safety bar over her head and Wrecker tried to secure the creature next to her in its crate.

“I don’t think Ruby likes this very much,” Omega said. Skylar dropped into the seat across from her, a confused look on her face.

“You named that thing?” Skylar asked as Wrecker sat down in the seat next to her.

“What’s with these guys?” Wrecker shouted, his hands gripping the safety bar.

“Well we did steal from them,” Omega said. The lizard hissed from it’s cage, and Skylar flinched.

“Technically, the Rhokai stole the lizard first,” Tech called from the cockpit. Skylar shared a look with Wrecker, rolling her eyes. “We are merely intercepting it.”

“They don’t see it that way,” Hunter said, continuing to return fire. A rough blast rocked the ship, the lizard’s cage dropping to the floor and the door flying open. It immediately crawled towards Wrecker, who started yelling.

“It’s loose, it’s loose!”

The creature crawled up his leg, heading straight for his head as he jumped up from his seat.

“Get it off, get it off, get it off,” he shouted, running around in the small area. Omega and Skylar both jumped out of their seats, trying to calm him down.

“Stay calm. You’re scaring her,” Omega said, trying to grab the creature without being whacked by Wrecker’s flailing limbs. He ran clear to the cockpit, slamming into the back of one of the seats and falling backwards.

The creature went flying back into the hold, and Omega grabbed the crate from the floor. Skylar moved to block it’s possible escape route to the cockpit.

“Hyperdrive’s online!” Echo shouted, just as Omega dropped the crate over the creature, trapping it.

“Got it!” she shouted. Skylar grabbed onto her, knowing the jump to hyperspace would throw the small girl otherwise. Tech slammed the lever forward, and the stars blurred around them.

Skylar let out a sigh of relief, leaning down to help Omega close the crate and lock it properly. She made sure Omega was alright, and then she moved to help Wrecker off of the floor.

“You alright, big guy?” she asked, smirking at him. He rubbed his head, an embarrassed look on his face.

“Don’t be mean, Sky. That thing was attacking me!” he whined, pointing accusingly at the crate.

“Uh huh. Whatever you say,” she replied, patting his shoulder as she walked out of the cockpit. She passed Hunter, who nodded at her questioning look: He was alright.

She sat down next to Omega, smiling as she watched the girl peer into the crate to get a better look at the creature, ‘Ruby’.

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When they arrived at Cid’s, Echo placed the crate on the counter for Cid to look at.

“That’s one strange lookin’ lizard,” she mumbled, straightening back up to look at the group.

“What’s your client want it for?” Echo asked.

“Maybe it’s a pet. Maybe he wants to turn it into a stew. Don’t know, don’t care,” Cid replied. Omega’s face fell a bit at the idea of Ruby being turned into a stew.

“As long as you get paid,” Hunter finished as Cid turned to walk away.

“Now you’re catching on,” she replied, her back still facing them. “And guess what? That means you get paid too. Bring the lizard in the back.”

Skylar moved to stand by Hunter, nudging him with her shoulder. He glanced at her before turning his eyes to watch Echo and Tech head towards the office. They started following them, but Hunter paused, glancing at a few people along the far wall. She went to ask him what was wrong but they were interrupted.

“Hunter?” Omega called. They both turned around, finding Omega and Wrecker. The girl looked up at Wrecker, gesturing towards them with her thumb.

“What are you two up to?” Skylar asked, the hand not holding her helmet resting on her hip.

“The mission’s over. Can we go?” Wrecker asked, Omega giving them a blinding smile.

“Again?” Hunter sighed.

“It’s a tradition,” Wrecker said, Omega nodding along. These two were trouble, that Skylar was sure of. “It makes the kid happy.” Omega leveled Wrecker with a frown.

“Uh huh. The kid,” Hunter said. They just looked at him, sweet and manipulative smiles on their faces.

“Don’t take long,” Hunter sighed, turning to walk back to the office. Skylar couldn’t help but grin, knowing Hunter had the biggest soft spot for his brothers and Omega. The two cheered, jumping up and down before running from the bar. Skylar followed Hunter, glancing back toward the group of people along the far wall.

They entered the office, Cid tapping away on her datapad.

“All right, here’s your cut,” she said, handing Hunter a handful of credits.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. You said the job paid three times this,” Hunter argued.

“For me, not for you,” Cid said.

“And just how is this a mutually beneficial arrangement?” Echo asked, clearly frustrated.

“You’re breathin’, aren’t you?” was Cid’s reply, just angering them further. “Rather generous considering the debt you owe me.”

“What debt?” Skylar asked. Cid tossed the datapad onto the desk, and Skylar picked it up and scanned through the itemized list.

“Docking fees, port charges, gear, fuel, rations, and 20 cartons of Mantell Mix?” she read off. Cid didn’t reply, crossing her arms and leaning back in her chair. Tech took the datapad from her, reading it for himself while the other three glanced at each other.

“Now, I like you, but I’m not running a charity here. You need a big score for us to be square,” she said, pointing her staff at them.

“Like what?” Echo asked.

“Like retrieving that tactical droid, but you bungled that op,” she said, frowning. “I suggest you figure something out before you see my ugly side.”

“That’s not her ugly side?” Tech murmured, glancing at Skylar next to him. She elbowed his stomach where the armor didn’t cover, a small ‘oof’ leaving his mouth.

“What was that, goggles?” Cid asked, leaning closer to him. The argument was cut short, however, by the sound of blaster fire coming from the bar. They all turned on instinct, hands pulling out their blasters. They took off running, pausing in the doorway to the bar with their blasters aimed.

They saw two patrons go running for the exit, a cloaked figure standing by the far wall with a blaster in their hand. They sat the blaster on the edge of the table, their face obscured by their hood. However, a flash of blue and white caught Skylar’s eye, and her breath caught in her throat.

No. It couldn’t possibly be. It was just her mind playing tricks on her, there was no way this person was a trooper, let alone would she be lucky enough for them to be from the 501st. Not after what happened.

Cid shoved past them, angry for the disturbance.

“Hey, what’s going on in here?” she asked, nudging Hunter aside. “Who are you?”

She gestured towards the cloaked individual with her staff, their head turning to look at them. They stepped forward, and everyone’s hands warily held their blasters. The person reached up towards their hood, and all of the air left Skylar’s lungs.

Blue and white plastoid armor. She would recognize those tally marks anywhere.

He removed his hood, looking at them with an unreadable expression. Skylar felt Echo tense beside her, his arm lowering his blaster immediately.

“... Rex?”

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[nexyra]

So there were a few likes about my post on DnD... meaning you get to know about our dumb shenanigans and my weird children

Starting with... the current campaign and the band of misfits that make up our party !

Rani Mankana (my OC)

Non-binary, They/She/He, 20 yo Human Ranger, Chaotic Neutral ESTP 7w8 8w9 4w5

Feral gremlin, bread-winner & problem child all at once

- Do whatever they want - Animals are better than humans - Left their village with absolutely no plan and have been fighting for 2 months with glorified gardening tools - Will try to punch you if you get in the way of their fun, but will also kill people who are being an ass to you - Knows nothing but constantly asking questions - Will take 98% of what you say literally - When people wallow & mope about not knowing what to do next, they scream until you get up and *try* something - Has known someone for 1 day and will decide that they're *theirs* now bc they're interesting - Main goal : catch them all (aka becoming friends with enough animals to create a travelling zoo) - Will die for you. Actually no, they have too much stuff to do & see to die so, will most likely kill for you

Lysora Dul'rik

Cis Man, He, ~28 yo Human Fighter/Warlock, Neutral Good ENFJ 3w2 7w6 1w2

Polite truth-seeker, smiling through the pain 7d/7

- Seems well-adjusted, actually dying inside - Constantly gets his worldview upturned by shocking revelations - Noble education & background, notably good at politics & social niceties - Great sense of responsabilities when it comes to protecting the party. TOO great, chill not everything is your fault - Likes to have some fun and get people together - Will die if you don't like him - Flirting is a great therapy method - Tendency to obsess over knowledge, not allowed to stay in a library unsupervised anymore - Very social, will ask for a random passerby name if he asked them a question. - Will die for you. But too busy to die for himself.

Ayla Jaym

Cis Woman, She, Lesbian, 25 yo Human-Werewolf Warlock/Barbarian, Loyal Good INFP 6w7 4w3 1w2

Lesbian disaster, social butterfly but having a hard time rn

- How nearly killing your gf affects your mental health : the story - "When I said I wanted a life like in the books I meant a fun heroic tale with a happy ending, not a 1000-pages tragedy." - Weapons nerd, yield a magic blue axe 3x her size - Any convo will end up with you questioning the meaning of your existence even though she just wanted to ask if you had a sister - Friends good and women pretty. - Born into the trading city of Offonsa where the only law is "don't steal" : somehow got out with a much more refined moral compass (to Rani's despair) - The plot can't catch up if I just avoid it - Will project her issues onto you so bad, you're gonna hope to never be on watch duty with her again - Will probably kill you on a full moon, but swears she didn't mean to

Balthazar Glowbrook

Cis Man, He, 38 yo Half-Orc Bloodhunter, True Neutral ISTP 9w1 5w6 4w3

The edgy grandpa, likely to explode at any given time bc of his experiments

- Thought that living alone in a cave for 10 years was a perfectly reasonable answer to being disappointed in humanity - And only left it when some random woman came find him only to get murdered during the night - Very knowledgeable, very smart but the party has only 1 braincell to share and it's usually Rani's - Awkwardness 100/10, will ramble and bury himself in the ground if left alone, do not trust with diplomatic lies - "Ayla is precious and I'd protect her with my life". Ayla transforms into a werewolf. Balthazar who's part of an organization tasked with killing werewolves : *surprised pikachu face* - Looks responsible. If left alone for more than 5 minutes, will create dubious alchemy potions and end up with chicken wings. - Looks like he could kill you but actually wouldn't. - B.O.O.K.S

Neldëaurë Ramëldis

Cis Man, He, 49 yo (16) Elf Wizard, Neutral Good INTP 6w5 9w1 2w1

The competent nerd, who feels the need to apologize for his very existence

- NEEEEERD - Nerd who collects the other nerds and gets shipped with all of them - "Hey you could pour soup in my lap and I'll probably apologize to you." - Constantly trying to make himself useful - Don't ever mention magical concepts if you're not ready to answer EVERY SINGLE ONE of his questions. He WILL ask you about the impact on portal on the links between plans. - Master at creating new ways to use his spells - The only one with a plan, takes everything in strides - "Okay give me 1 night and I'll uproot my entire life to join you and your dubious organization" - Even though he was part of a much more legal, legit & international organization - Will die if you so much as push him

All art done by Yamika - D&D Adventures That's my best friend pls check her out & give love, she the best and I love her with my whole heart !!!

[dreamsicledream]

DND story time: How i derailed my own campaign

leSo I’m the dm of a rather great dnd session with some cool friends. First for this story i need to introduce you to some key concepts. ------

The world: The setting takes place on one continent ruled by a dragon lord. The dragon lord was once part of a group of four dragon “deities” that represented the elements and kept the magic of the land in check. However the Dragon Lord, aleris the red, captured a god to drain of its power. With this new found power he crushed the other dragon rulers one by one instilling chaos across the land as he twisted every part of the society to his own. The sea dragon, in his last resort hid on the coastal lands using his magic to keep the dragon lord aleris from the sea and the coasts so his reign couldn’t spread. Once however the dragon lord was strong enough, he came to kill the sea dragon who had been a thorn in his side for too long. He murdered the sea dragon in front of the sea dragon’s son then ripped the boy’s eye out so that the heir to the sea dragon’s position would never forget that he could never stand against him. 

  However five years after the mutilation of the sea dragon heir, a woman... the daughter of aleris , Lustria gathered a group of adventurers to end her father’s reign.

---------  The characters:

Lustria - aleris’s daughter. Hates her father. Desperately trying to get freedom from him by murdering him. 

Percy - Justicar played by Kez. Hes flirtacious and a bit overly confident. Maybe a bit racist to fish folk. He was tortured and experimented on by the dragon lord as a child. He escaped with the help of Lustria though and seems to be in love with her. 

Luci - Fish, folk song hero, and lesbian. Luci was raised to work as one of the dragon lord’s soldiers but she eventually found her freedom. Now shes joining the group as part of the murder team. Shes got a cute southern gf

Yuuta - Wizard they kidnapped allure -   a  tiefling who joined them. Shes a warlock. Her god has a grudge  against the Dragon Lord 

New  additions for this session Wolmae - drunk who w andered in off the street

Cleric - Death dude man?

------   The party enter the catacombs beneath a city after discovering that the Dragon lord had been turning people into souless husks for his army. The first room they defeat easily. Now they loot a few things like normal and they think they can keep going. So now they enter a hall after freeing some people, they come face to face with two husks.     Immediately Luci falls to charm person, becoming the person she was when the dragon lord. Percy attacks her but then she hits him back hard. Of course it isn’t long before the dragon lord gets into Percys head controlling him... the party’s two tanks are being controlled and there is two very squishy mages behind them. Yuuta trying to save his own skin casts sleep on Percy to break the control. Then after casting sleep Yuuta slaps percy to wake him up.  at this point most of the damage is due to Luci being under the dragon lord’s control... then the husk starts casting one of the spells he had prepared. The already wounded party is all almost killed. The party decides to book it. they abandon the catacombs and the city traumatized. However on my plans i had intended them to win. They lost... badly. Morale was low in character. Out of character everyone was eatting up the twist. Whats worse is when they returned to their base, they found Lustria barely alive because she had sacrificed herself to cause a distraction so they might succeed.   Luci is reliving the trauma of the dragon lord controlling and abusing her. Percy is desperately trying to save his love interest. The cleric is lecturing about how all death has a purpose to Yuuta who found out one of his parents was tortured in the catacombs. It only gets worse. this poor wizard they kidnapped finds out that his life is a lie... he thought he was human but hes not and his other parent is allure’s diety. The party splinters. Luci and Yuuta leave. Percy is trying to nurse Lustria back to life.... but then it hits me and the rest of the party.

 The child they had taken in... the son of the sea dragon was now trapped in the city alone and it was filled with the dragon lord’s soldiers. They had now a short time before he might die and a majorly injured group. They lost one of their main quests... because i homebrewed the monsters too high level. However it was the most emotionally intense moment we had. Everyone wonders how things will go and honestly i don’t know and im the dm. 

[cryscries]

Character intros! For my capstone project/ comic Craven :)

All of these are still in the design and concept stages but more or less this is what I nailed for the designs (excluding sam). These are from my look book series which is why they look spiffy but in their actual universe where they are struggling college students you know they be lookin like a hot mess and when they initially start they are 18/ 19 years old in their second year of college

The order is the same as above :D

Kailani “Kai” Rivers - half black / half hawaiian

Practicing wiccan from her father’s side. Film major. In a committed relationship with Mia Tram for half a year. She is head strong but very compassionate. Her dream is to direct musicals/ plays and to continue doing work with Mia in the future. They are currently roommates in the same apartment complex as Leo.

Leonardo “Leo” Mori - Half filipino / half japanese

Digital Art major and supernatural enthusiast. Leo is shy and awkward but when you get to know him he warms up to you. He loves conspiracy theories and believes in the paranormal. His best friend is Sam and he has a very noticeable crush.

Mia Tram- Vietnamese American

Vocal performance & acting major. Mia is really fashionable and is very outgoing and passionate about music. Her goal is to perform one of her gf’s plays / musicals and continue to work together. Her fave musical is Rent.

Taemin “Tae” Park - Korean American

Game development/ computer science major. Taemin is sarcastic but a compassionate friend when you get to know him. He loves dnd and often hosts games for his friends. When Taemin came out as trans Leo was the second to know, Tae’s twin sister was the first.

Samuel “Sam” Carson - White/ Native American

((OG belongs to @inflomora-art​ but was so sweet to let me include him in my capstone because originally the cast was just supposed to be him and Leo on adventures :D))

Doesn’t go to school but works freelance in photography as well as part time in a brick and mortar shop. His best friend is Leo and other than having a just as noticeable crush he is interested in cryptids. He drove to the small town of craven from montana and is known as a “mysterious outsider.”

Wallace “Wally” Oliver - white (British/ Scottish decent)

Film Major. Plays baseball for the Craven Ravens (they kinda suck). He comes off as a jerk but is really a sweet guy who needs better friends. After meeting the group he tries to be a better person. He has a slight crush on Kailani but admires her work mostly.

These are my characters and i hope to make them official and introduce them in my story :’) I love all of them and I can’t wait for them to hunt ghosts!

Basically for my thesis I wanted to focus on representation and and diversity in storytelling. As of lately I’ve been seeing a lot of graphic novels touching on topics such as identity, sexuality, ect. books like The Prince’s Dressmaker, Taproot, Nimona, and OMG Check Please have a fun and charming story as well as wonderful representation. For my senior year I really wanted to try and do that too so this school year I hope to  prove to myself I can make this happen and hoping to grow as an artist and person.

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

I low-key wish there was a dating app that had a test ranking system similar to okc, but I wish it would include a personality test, test on love languages, and any psychological stuff that could detect someone's attachment style and trauma too.

Because me and Taty had a 97% or 95% rate and she was the nicest girl I ever dated or been involved with, the only thing was she close to asexual without even knowing because of her lupus, she was practically treated, belittled, and talked to like a child because she still was technically under her Grandmother's roof and care, like she said 2mths in that she would even move with her grandma if she moved, because Taty can't really get a job because of her lupus. It practically controls her whole life, her mood, her attachment to me and later unattached because her lupus started to get bad and her depression kicked in more. She was always either slow to know things or hardheaded to where she thought she knew everything she needed to know, as if she just didn't have to do it because she didn't wanna do it. Especially if it were something as important as making her doctors appointment, her mom did that. And homework so she could get her GED, she didn't really care about that either. Just her friends and family 1st, her dogs, her cats, her obnoxiously, controlling sack of shit personality of a pig that lived in the house in her grandfather's room, with which he had the hay box and dirty ol mattress he slept on in there. It was basically his litter box....and he didn't give a fuck if you were walking by or going into the kitchen, he would block the walkway and then snort at you all loud like how dare you disturb my slumber. They treated him like a king and let him get away with everything just because he was a pig, as if he didn't know any better....and I'm starting to think maybe thats how her family treated her all these years. That she could get away with anything just because she had lupus. They thought it was ok. Even i noticed that her friends tend to not only baby her, but keep her in a submissive state where they control everything they do together and Taty saw nothing wrong with it. Even when they were playing dnd, I noticed that her main leader friend, considered the mom of the group, practically had her bf control the board, so she or one of his liking could win. Like last minute switchups, last minute rules...oh you can't do that, you got swamped by the bats or something...and taty would just except her losses. "You died" and she would say "what, oh, darn"

YOU IDDIOOOTTT SHEE CLOWNEDDD YOU.

But I would ask her babe, how did you lose?

And she would say, "I guess I just didn't do..."

And then slightly chuckle.

And then her leader friend, the mom of the group would laugh about it with her bf, rubbing it in.

I think their dnd game was not made to be fair. That's the main reason why I didn't want to play. Because they were gonna just jump me in without telling me all the rules and how to play. When practically the game's been already rigged. The bf chooses the outcome. And me being the newbie, you're gonna teach me the way so that I can't win, can't overthrow, so you can clown me too like you did your own friend, my gf. Now ex.

Nah, I'm good. Yall have fun jokingly tryna make each other submit and joke about each other's vulnerabilities. Because I don't care how long you've known somebody, if I see some shady shit and then you just take it, go la-di-da who cares, and I'm watching this shit go down, I'm gonna say something. Cause 1, friends don't do that. They shouldn't bring up your mother being an abandoning person at the dinner table in front of everybody, and she shouldn't keep beating you up about not having a job yet and she knows you've been struggling because not many people hire you if you have an illness that cancels your plans every so often. And I don't like the fact that she kisses up about it after, if somebody was to call her out, and then she does it again.

Like your friends, aren't all that supportive and as positive as she says she's being, its actually rubbing the wrong way into unsolicited advice, when she really needs to check herself and wonder why she likes poking into other people shit, when she hasn't even cleaned up her own shit 🤔

Like I'm glad I never revealed anything as personal about me to her friends, because Lord knows I would have had to check her if she brought it up later to the table to discuss as if my personal background was made the TMZ news to discuss. Like bitch I didn't ask for your fucking opinion, why don't you talk to your bf, I mean husband, about the reason why you needed to get a gf less than a year after yall got married.

Sex ain't good enough for ya? Or are you only 40% into dick, 60% into females? Because her ass was even telling everybody about how big my boobs were the 1st night I met this chick and then she says I'm just joking, haha, don't listen to me.

With her lying ass 🤣 wtf is wrong with your friends Taty. I hope you have fun being her lil bitch, cause she gonna try to control you too. Probably not even thinking that, Taty doesn't even have sex with her gf like that or touch her....hmmmm maybe she'll like me and fuck me better?

Yup, dumbass. Taty's extremely low libido comes from her lupus, trauma, and fear around being a child and being emotionally intimate with men in her family who have hurt her. Didn't find that out till later, but it explains alot why it felt she was always tryna distract herself from her problems with just stuff to do, and hanging out with her friends. But we only had those few grownup discussions about what's been going on and why she's been feeling distant or emotionally numb around certain things. I practically had to squeeze it out of her, cause I don't like accepting answers like idk. No, fucking talk. Don't leave me guessing or having to figure out wtf is going on, having me all stressed out, emotional, petty, and confused because yo crazy ass don't wanna fucking talk to me.

And I hate being ignored. Send me my fucking hoodie back 😤 i sent you yours back, paid $10 in shipping, and even after I just told you about what happened to me with my mom. Right after you said oh,no sorry about what happened. Then next day asking for your hoodie back. You don't give a fuck about me and it shows. Even during the relationship, you put me last.

Fuck off and send me my shit. Everytime I ask you, you say oh, I forgot. Even when you asked me the 1st time to meet up with you, I went to the spot and you forgot. Said you slept in, like a lazy fuck. And you want me to jump up and do like you ask, go all the way to your mother's house and you can't even do the same for me. Fuck you.

And even when I tried to even be friends with you after, you wanted to be petty and bring up yo dumbass, Junie b Jones, looking tinker bell on crap, looking friend, whose marriage you practically begged me to help you buy a gift for and go see it....that you two are together, and you're her side chick??

Wtf is wrong with you, bro. Have a great fucking life 🖕 I'm buying me an even better MSU hoodie, because I'm alumni... and that hoodie yo dumbass probably got dog fur all fucking over it since yall never clean the house, vacuum, and clean the nasty, dirty dishes with real antibacterial soap, not shampoo. Fur all over the mf house, except grandma room because she got enough sense to actually clean her room and her ass with a towel. I couldn't believe this bitch had the nerve to know that I was coming over and didn't even take a bath for 2-3 days and I didn't find out until after I ate her out on her dog fur covered bed. I'm so glad we didn't have sex after that one and only time because yo nasty ass could had me licking dirty pussy and dog fur. And the shit was gamey and sweaty. I got so tired of saying "that's ok" knowing good and damn well I needed her to correct her actions cause I kept getting pissed.

I ain't shutting my mouth no more. And no i don't have to settle

[byeoujison]

august 2018

August is still fairly clear to me but i want to include it for context.

We finalized plans to move in to our first apartment, and my roommate (now my girlfriend) moved up there and started a job at jc penney (a job she ended up hating for good reason). I was still living at my dad’s house in Tacoma, and made frequent trips up to Bellingham to move my stuff in to my new room. The first trip I took up there had been in July, and the second trip was in the beginning of August, where I picked up GF’s friend H from the hospital and we drove up together and listed the names of all the US presidents and talked about them. I was glad to have such a long-winded conversation topic because im not good at making casual conversation. While up there, we met up with our friend J and their friend M and went to Haggen and got supplies for smores, then went to teddy bear cove and made smores with a lighter because we couldnt have a firepit. The sun began to set, that sunset lives in my memory brighter than anything that happened that day. We walked down to the water and I swan in the freezing bay, the sun made the water look golden and hazy. A group of guys sat up on the cliff and sang, i don’t remember what they were singing but it was nice. I swam farther than anyone else did, all the way past the cliffs and into the open water. I felt like i was floating through the air, like nothing else in life mattered than that single moment. I had friends, I had an apartment, I had a promising academic career, I had everything i could’ve wanted and I was swimming in the sunset. it got dark, and we could faintly see the bioluminescent bacteria in the water. It got cold, we talked for a little while, we went home and dried off. i left Bellingham and dropped H off at home in seattle.

i went to the interactive introverts concert in seattle at the moore theatre. I was older than a lot of people there - not including parents - but not so old as to be uncool, i got a lot of admiring looks from teens, i felt so cool. i wore black boots and my witchy hat and sunglasses (not inside). i remember being at the concert, i remember wishing i had brought earplugs, as the crowd was very very loud. dan and phil’s voices were high-pitched in my ears the whole time. im so glad i got to see them in person, they saved me in high school (more about them later).

I worked at a retail store back then, but i have very little memory of actually working. I would eat the little packets of gummy bears my boss had on the shelf when no one else was around. I remember being the last person there every night I worked, as i was the only part timer that knew how to close the shop. I got through those last few weeks happily knowing i’d never have to work there again.

i went back to bellingham. J and GF and I played the sims 4 in GF’s room, we made our DND characters. We ate poutine and drank wine at J’s house. I think we watched a movie?

I suddenly felt the need for it to be fall. You know the feeling you had on the first day of school as kid, where you were old enough to know fall had begun but young enough to not know when it started? As I’ve gotten older, my mind has anticipated this feeling earlier and earlier, to the point where mid-august my brain tells me it’s time for autumn. I sat in my dad’s living room while he and his girlfriend N (now his second wife, technically my stepmom) rearranged the furniture.

I was participating the HK Week for the bou/eibu fandom. it was the first time I felt comfortable posting fanfiction online, and it’s still the only fandom i’ve written for. I wrote fanfiction on the couch while burning an autumnal candle.

we went to rattlesnake lake (me, my dad, and N), it was foggy and cold, we brought our dog. I want to go back, but now that we live in Oregon it’s very far away. Maybe i can ask to go there this thanksgiving or christmas if i visit one of my parents. We went to a waterfall too, which one was it?

I had my last day of work, and my boss insisted she throw a party for me. I had to go back to the store later that week. My mom worked for my boss’ husband at the time at a uhaul distribution office, they were having a barbecue and asked me to come. I said yes. I needed to get my car serviced and that was the only day I could do it. how was i ok with being so busy that day. I drove out to my mom’s work. I talked with her coworkers, her office felt fake. like they didn’t actually work there. I helped my mom with the BBQ and we ate meat and corn and other things I dont remember. (later my mom would quit that job because her checks kept bouncing). then I drove out to my old workplace. I didn’t realize how big this party would be, but everyone from the building was there, some even got me presents. a woman who sold tupperware gave ma a catalogue and told me to pick out anything i wanted. one of my favorite coworkers got me a slow-cooker recipe book that i still use. i don’t know why they were so nice to me - i offered nothing of value to their company or their lives - that’s not me talking down on myself, it’s the truth. But now thinking about it - if I had the opportunity to gift a young college student something that would make their life a little easier, hell yes i would do it. I suppose they were all trying to invest in my future as if it were their own. i went to the car dealership with a trunk full of presents, they offered me a vacuum and i told them to work around the presents. I like being at the dealership. Something about being in a waiting room when your car is being serviced is comforting. You are literally only responsible for sitting quietly and waiting - maybe it reminds me of being a kid.

i packed up my furniture in the back of my dad’s truck on the last day of august. i moved in to my new apartment on september 1st, and the card tower of happiness i’d built felt its first breeze.

-Mitchie, Oct 29 2020, 10:14AM

[quadratic-shipping]

Kay, new icon is Vriska’s dice cause the gradient was lame, and every Vriska blog halfway to sunday has already had every photo of her face as their icon twice. It also works cause of yknow liking dnd and stuff. one thing I really liked about my last vriska pic one was the negative space made it feel like it popped and I feel like this one has sort of the same thing going for it. Wow, it can be that deep. I’m just rambling cause it’s 3am and yet again I have stayed up this long. I can;t wait til it’s winter again so I can force myself back into a normal sleep schedule. I stayed up all night a couple nights ago, and that gave me one decent night of sleep so I might just try that again tonight. Rest put under the readmore because it’s irrelevant and sleep deprived rambling I wouldn’t dare subject my beautiful followers and browsers to.

While I’m here, posting a late night thing no one will see or interact with; thank god; I was cleaning and I came across one of those neck warmer things that legit just a tube you pull up your face to keep your nose from freezing off because Canada Winters, I never can use them because I always fog up my glasses, and I just wanted to say that Niqabi gals with glasses are so brave? Legit if I had to deal with my glasses fogging up I’d die, I’d rather lose my nose to frostbite than fog them up (like I go outside enough loll) so for them to deal with that everyday is like, legendary. I mean, I guess if you were pretty antisocial you wouldn’t have to deal with it much but still, point totally stands. 

While we’re on the positivity train? Lesbians? y’all really like Vriska HUH? Thank you for interacting, I appreciate, yall are so valid. I’m torn between “You have good taste” jokes and “Yall will just like anything w/ vriska in it” and either way it takes too strong a stance on my own content to feel good about it. Obvs goes the same way for all the NB and Trans ppl interacting, yall are also Excellent and I appreciate yall. Obvs I’m cis so I don’t have any real godtier takes or anything abt. gender, but reading your guyss stuff is excellent please keep making it.

Uh sexuality update; Still labelling as bi, IDK if I really want to date men tho, before I actually and FINALLY get a taste of the other side; please; because I feel like the problem with my relationships re; dudes is just that I can’t just be myself, I’m just 900000% in my own head about it and not even like; trying to be idealized, idk whats going on I just have a hard time connecting w/ them and it’s defo my fault so idk bro. IDK it’s fun to have crushes but dating is BORING from my very limited experience with only guys which is why a gf would be excellent. Or girl aligned partner. I feel like maybe what I’m attracted to is like, femininity, not necessarily femmes or women. IDK bruh it’s weird. doesn’t help I can’t even figure out how to get and keep friends LOLLL it’s 3am. Sorry

Honestly before I started vrisrose posting I felt so useless yknow cause in the vriska circles there are a lot of intelligent people who understand canon better and are overall smarter and better spoken so I just felt like everything I had to say was just old hat and not very interesting. But the thing I like about VrisRose is no one else is talking about it as frequently ( I was searching the tag and my blog came up in the recco’s for blogs up top and I was very happy) so I feel like, hey, this is my niche. That one engineer of useless inventions quote: The best way to become top of your field is to specialize:, I jsut love rarepairs so much! I think it’s such a great way to approach character analysis because no one exists in a vaccum so seeing peoples interactions and what people like is so fun!!!! I say, invalidating all my personal issues lollll

CHARACTER ANALYSIS! FUCK TALKING ABOUT INTERACTIONS OR ACTIONS ON THEIR OWN OR THOUGHTS OR HC’S, I STAND BY MY ONE TAAKO ‘vriska did nothing wrong’ QUOTE; Trying to understand what characters morals, and their opinions on certain things by analyzing their opinions and interactions in canon is 500x more productive seeming to me than other things. Like, say taako’s thoughts about vriska, V and Lucretia are p similar actions wise, and he was pissed at her but that was mostly cause of the personal connections, when it doesn’t affect him Taako doesn’t seem to have any moral objections to any of the icky moral stuff; think robot planet or whatevs where they were gonna genocide the place and lup was like no and that was like the only reason he didn’t I’m pretty sure, I’m not too big brained on taako or adventurezone either so don’t take my word; So I think that Taak’s would be chill with Vriska. Another thing? The Lucretia thing was like, giving up which Taako is not ok with and Vriska thigns were about not giving up so I do legit think he would be totally coool with her, even if she were real, unless obvs she hurt one of the seven bird red robe people and their new friends.

ISN;T THAT SUCH A FUN METHOD OF CHARACTER ANALYSIS? I’m not drunk or in an altered state just tired enthusiastic and with a lot of pent up thoughts. Speaking of which, this song just came on it’s “Slowdance with you” by the Marcus Hedges Trend Orchestra and it is SOOOOO good, it’s on a vrisrezi playlist I put on bc I’m rereading song of the pyre because it was vriska day and it’s super good soo so good. It’s on loop now, legit best

Quick detours before I lay out some more hs thoughts; 

Overwatch:

-Ben “Captainplanet” came out w/ a new article and I LOVE IT so much and I want hhis job so bad I wanna get into stats so much ahhh  please so good it’s giving me a , this is crude but it’s the best way I can phrase it, a math erection. I love math so much <33333333

-The Shock, my faves, are doing well and I’m happy for them! I hope they go 7-0, I believe in them! I’m lying I am so fucking nervous for literally every match they have they’re gonna 2-5 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Why am I so INVESTED? They technically could take first spot but that’s require titan’s to lose every match left and the shock to 7-0, but the thing is I thought that I wanted that but 

-then I watched the titans london match today, and I HATED the thought of titans losing. And losing so hard to other teams too, and I didn’t realize this but I think I do actually kinda like the titans?The thought of them not being a great team makes me sad. I think it’s like I really like them and shock as rivals, yknow, stage one and two, then this upcoming map? If Titans aren’t still Good in this meta it just sorta makes their rivalry not fun. Kismesis vibes is what I’m gonna say cause I’m TRASSSHHHHH pls stop my terrible hands from typing also if I ever saw actual ship stuff I would kill whoever made it. Like I’m not gonna check their socials or anything but if they’ve got a match against most teams I’d probs root for them. The Wolf section today was so funny lollll

-I think I might hate the London Spitfire. I have literally no reason to? I think all the players are good and I like them as people and I would never actively hate on them? But I’m like. Really mean to them in my head. I was so satisfied seeing htem lose to Florida, and Titans like IDK? Also they’re hella overrated so anticlutch jfc. Hate the franchise, love the players if that makes sense. IDK WHYYYYYYYYYYY

-Also I’m gonna miss tomorrows shock match and I’m so scared rip.

Misc: 

-Tripped backwards and somehow upturned my moms glass scale and it fell on my foot, that shit hurted.

-Oh My God I’m Projecting a million different things right now because I feel like this will not have an audience if you see this I’m begging you please don’t interact I’d die of embarassment keep the fact you’ve seen this a secret from me

HS:

-JFC song of the pyre is an excellent fic, I wish it would ever get updated it’s so fucking good guys

-I need to read more vrisrezi long form

-Non-sgrub vrisrezi is best vrisrezi

-My ideal Vrisrezi au would be like HS canon, diverge into non-sgrub and they completely fall out of touch, Killing Eve season 1, then Song of the Pyre. THAT is what I want.

-Killing eve season one and two would be an even BETTER VRISROSE AU AHHHHHH

-I once read a very good trollstuck rose but it was an eri-rose ship so basically what I want is that persons troll rose but paired with vriska. For how much I blog about it I’ve read very little vrisrose fic but almost everything I know comes from this fic. . Oh uh this is not the erirose fic that I read w trollstuck although it does unfortunately have erirose but I can excuse it when the vrisrose is this Excellent

Alright I’ve run out of hyper juice, have a nice night, sorry for posting thisssss

bye

[synthaphone]

i’m actively screwing myself over, like, all of the time

under the cut is a thing here for mostly my own reference because i need to actually write down what i need to do so that i can start doing it

it is also here as a starting point to being more transparent with people i’m working for (i need to contact these people directly, but if they see this before i message them, they’ll at least know that i haven’t forgotten them/i’m not waiting for them to forget or something). 

if i do owe you something on here, please do not feel guilty about stressing me out, this is my own dang fault and i want to try and figure this shit out and get it finished, because if i can do that then my whole life will get monumentally better by like, a MASSIVE margin, i can’t even fathom having the weight of this stuff off of my shoulders and i should use that as motivation to power me through this stuff

anyway

stuff i gotta do:

SCHOOL:

GROUP PROJECT

character sheet for group project

get out sketchbook to double check the design

open a new photoshop document

draw the thing (include construction guides)

put thing in google drive

text group to let them know i put the thing in there

read the textbook chapters i didn’t read

look up which chapters we’re supposed to read

check to see when the assignment that requires the reading is due

SENIOR PROJECT 1

update my trello page and my checkpoints

open the checkpoints sheet, for the love of god why don’t you do this

clean up character sheets

make the orbs on orbo more dimensional, add in one more angle to view orbo from, increase the size of the height chart, dress it up to look more professional

take existing character sheet for zookeeper and fix it up

finish the backgrounds

give ash the folders i made for the backgrounds

potentially just loan them your thumb drive so that it’s better organized?? or make a google drive for that

make color scripts and give these to them for each scene

COMPILE NEW ANIMATIC for presentation next class

put the images for the AfterEffects file into my thumb drive so that i can actually use the file WITH IMAGES while at school 

WORLD MYTHOLOGY

dude you’re fuckin’ failing world mythology, i mean i know that this is the class you decided to prioritize last but holy god you could at least TRY to get a passing grade so that your parents don’t have to pay for you to take the class AGAIN over the summer

check upcoming deadlines

post in the thread before sunday night

read the chapters for world mythology and watch any talks or episodes of black mirror the professor inevitably wants us to watch

make the post

comment on 3 other people’s posts

start putting together paper (paper due tuesday 11:95 pm)

find sources

cite sources in MLA

make sure paper is formatted correctly this time because you thought it was the first time but it wasn’t

GENERAL SCHOOL

check your e-mail because your world mythology professor is worried about you and wants you to make a counseling appointment for next wednesday at 2 PM

ASK SOMEBODY ABOUT INTERNSHIPS because i gotta look for those

do this before my father finds out that i lost my scholarships due to my GPA falling too low because i keep failing classes because i can’t make myself write papers anymore 

OTHER STUFF:

AYWAS:

you’re gonna get another sketch list at some point this week, probably monday??

cat sketch that has taken you way, way too long to start

contact commissioner about sketch to apologize for radio silence and offer it to them for free or something because dear god (its not that hard to do, i could be doing it now instead of making this list but i’m so overwhelmed by all the other shit i have to do that i just haven’t started)

contact other commissioner about sketch that it’s been MONTHS since you said you’d do it

apologize and ask if they’re still interested, offer it to them for free since dear GOD (again, it doesn’t take me long to do sketches??? why haven’t i started these)

contact person about animation you owe them that you haven’t gotten past half of a rough pass of

i don’t know how to apologize to this person

i am very afraid

COMMISSIONS for moya

more sketches for their xaoc since it came back 22%

attic dragon colorations for the plbc they put in ages ago that’s just waiting for predicts

finish plush quolgarian

add more plushies

shade

send to them for approval and make any necessary fixes

color

finish squid scc coloration

finish blocking in base colors and then send it to them for feedback

finish coloring it

send them the crumb pet sketches you did ages ago

2 COLORATIONS FOR COMMISSIONER- 

witch cat

finish basing the colors and send to them for approval

finish 

moth dog (i think)

base the colors and send them for approval

finish basing and coloring the pet for the sketch basing contest before February ends

BASIC LIVING SHIT

eat regularly

eat healthier, find some dang vegetables you like and actually remember to eat them

bathe regularly

do the goddamn dishes regularly

wash that FUCKING SHRIMP PAN that’s been in the sink for 2 weeks

get work done before dnd tomorrow

gotta visit the cat boarding place to make sure my gfs cousins cat is doing okay there, since we discovered that she’s too loud and needy for us to illegally house in our apartment while he is away

these are the things i have to do

now that i have made this, i need to find a way to organize it so that i can see what things are most urgent...

[mybookisbad]

ABOUT ME

camilla

she/her

melbourne, australia

high school student and five foot one child

ok i ran out of things to say

basically about my wips:

cursed queen. although is sort of second chronologically, it’s my main wip at the moment and it stands alone from my other ones so I’m putting it first! del and her brother merrin end up in the forests of the faeries after a disastrous mission to save their struggling village. del meets the moonlight faeries, the good guys, but merrin has to be saved from the evil faerie queen kaliannisse by kieran, a human boy who is kaliannisse’s adopted (stolen) “son”. the whole cast must band together to defeat the evil faeries, but secrets will be revealed, things will go wrong and I will be stretching this series out to three books. (fall from grace is a novella attached to this series.)

valkrya. this is my oldest wip, around since I was about 11 years old. obviously, it’s changed a lot since then. the fantastical country of valkrya has entered a period of world war. the story follows the four princesses of valkrya as they try to survive in these dark times. recently crowned queen luna struggles to keep her country together, second-eldest angelica heads off to war and youngest daughters aquilla and inferna each join forces with a foreign diplomat to investigate mysterious goings on and go on dangerous missions in the name of their country. romance, crime, and war. probably NA, not YA.

deus. now, this one is a real work in progress. I don’t have much aside from the characters, but here’s what you need to know: god is dead and has been reborn into six different children, who have now reached the age of seventeen. those kids are royal twins aleksander and helen, healer eve, former priestess valeria, animal carer jay and a mysterious kidnapped prince. together, they’re going to have to bring down the biggest baddie of them all - that guy who killed god in the first place.

there’s also the second death of sorrow fair, which is a bizarre high fantasy experimental thing I came up with one day and haven’t been able to shake since. to summarise basically - an angel-like being named sorrow fair is asked by a goddess to enter the “underworld” below the mortal world, where everything that is evil resides, to retrieve the soul of a good, non-evil woman who entered underworld of her own choice, just cause (she and the goddess are gfs also I should mention that). sorrow fair decides to take on this impossible task. she’ll meet plenty of characters down in the underworld, including a disaster bisexual prince and the very badass lesbian woman in question.

I also have some other wips on the go that you can actually read on wattpad as I write them! there are two currently up, with more in the works. I have a lot of love for these wips (which should be a little bit obvious seeing as I actually have the confidence to post them djskjskjk) and it really means a lot to me for people to check them out!

BODYGUARD. all caps -  spicy, I know. there isn’t much of a reason for it being like that, it just is. but onto the story! this wip is a modern/bodyguard trope au of valkrya, focussing on aquilla and marise and their relationship. to say it in short terms, it’s a wlw romance with a heap of fluff, a heap of drama, and a heap of politics I don’t know nearly enough about to be writing!

a murder of crows. a fic about my precious dnd oc corva! it’s romantic, tragic and includes themes of mental health and recovery. it’s sort of on hold in the sense that I haven’t been posting chapters, but once I do post one chapter it will be on a regular update schedule again.