Haruhi Suzumiya and Experiences Growing up ND
I think the reason Haruhi Suzumiya resonates with me so much is that she captures something unique about being an adolescent/young woman and growing up with autism + adhd.
By the time I was around 9 or 10, I too, was totally dismissive towards “normal” people. This feeling sprouted from the realization that there was something “off” or “uncanny valley” feeling about me as a 9 year old girl, but it started a barrage of existential questions that would follow me forever. While Haruhi’s big shift in perspective came from her nihilistic realization that her place in the universe was impossibly small and insignificant, I think that can mirror becoming conscious of your neurodivergence—when I got my diagnoses, I felt incredibly isolated and small, trying to navigate life in a sea of neurotypical people and all the people who experienced neurodivergence in a different way from me.
I was pretty bad with empathizing and being considerate of others’ feelings through most of high school too, mostly because I was awful with social cues due to autism, though maybe most kids are. Still, being bossy, possessive, and selfish were probably my biggest flaws. I think Haruhi captures how awful that can be for other people.
Yet, as a woman there’s this implicit expectation that you’re supposed to be more socially delicate and conscious. This caused my family a huge amount of grief when I was growing up. Not to mention, not being interested in typical “girl” things or even popular shows/media made it hard to relate to other people on the basis of things instead of perspective too.
So when I first got into Haruhi, I felt like it Got Me; there’s something incredibly human about doing a ton of random, different, grandiose things in an attempt to find meaning or satisfaction in an existence that feels so exceedingly lonely at times, and something pleasant about watching a group of friends struggle to that end together :)
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What do you think would happen when Tails introduces Sails Mangey and Nine to mints?
Oooh good question!
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Sails:
Honestly, since we don't know all that much about No Place, I like to think that mints are still a thing, just the kind of thing that Sails has to sneak on the ship and can only get once in a while. So whenever he was able to get them before, he kind of had to ration em out.
That also being said, I think it would be funny if the mints in no place don't look like the ones Tails offers to Sails. So at first Sails hesitates to eat it, although he has no reason to distrust Tails, so he does try it. I can see Sails sort of commenting his thoughts aloud on how it tastes, but ultimately he probably tries to sneak some mints off of Tails.
Although Tails is pretty much like "You can just ask. I've got a bunch"
So whenever Sails visits from No Place he lets Tails and the others try the mints from No Place, and he uh takes a good amount of Tails' mints back to No Place with him
However, if Sails has never tried any mints before, I think he'd become hooked pretty quickly (still explain the taste out loud you know) and end up trying to snatch some before Tails is like "Hey, just ask and you can have as much as you want"
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Mangey:
Hohoho boy
While there's at least a decent chance Mangey has just straight up eaten mint plants before, I think he would become pretty hooked as well. In my head, I think he'd keep begging for more after Tails initially gives him one to try, and it gets so out of hand that Tails, Sails, and Nine have to consciously keep mints out of sight and locked up.
But before they realize how bad Mangey gets about them, Tails gives him like a tin or a small bag of mints he can take with him, and Mangey can't even make them last a day. He is in the presence of mints, he snacks on mints.
Just cause they hide em and lock em up doesn't mean that Mangey doesn't find them or that he's never allowed to have them. I think sometimes when Sails is playing that game with Mangey where he's working on something and Mangey plays assistant, they often use mints as something in exchange for helping when they're not exhanging kisses.
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Nine:
While we know more about New Yoke than we do about most of the other shatterspaces, like with Sails I'd like to think Nine has had mints before. In this case, since nothing really grows within the city, I like to think that occasionally New Yoke will get mints in as an import.
Essentially, I think Nine used to see the resistance handing them out once in a blue moon after a successful raid or would see them sold on shady street corners and alleyways. He always tries to limit the contact he makes with people and the city itself, but he kind of had to to be able to get the matierals to create his equipment and have enough food to survive. So he managed to get ahold of a small handful out of curiosity.
It was too much of a pain to get ahold of more, so even though he liked them quite a bit, he almost never was able to get ahold of any.
With that all being said, I can see Nine sort of marveling for a moment how easy it was for Tails to get ahold of so many mints before remembering that green hill and Tails' world is much more plentiful than the city of New Yoke. I think after trying them when Tails offers, he's reminded just how good they are.
That being said, though, I think Nine would pretend that he likes them but of course has restraint, unlike the other two. So he would only take the one small bag or tin when Tails offered to give them more mints. Other times Tails offers, I think he starts out as begrudging but does eventually accept the gift of mints whenever Tails offers some.
If Mangey eats em like candy and Sails is always taking a large stash with him, though, even though he acts like he has more self control and is more normal about mints than them, that is a lie. After taking the first bag/tin back to The Grim with him, he starts figuring out how create a constant lifetime supply of mints there. He doesn't eat them like candy when he does accomplish this, but he still does eat mints about as often as I think Tails does. That's all to say that sometimes mints are just something he eats a couple of when he's bored, when his breath smells bad, occasionally when he needs to make deals with Mangey, as a special little treat when he feels down/accomplished something, and when he hasn't eaten in a while but needs to keep working, so he needs to trick his stomach into thinking its not starving by letting mints dissolve in his mouth.
In the event Nine has never had them before though, I'd think he'd still make a visual expression of enjoying the first one he tries, but he'd still try to be modest and seem "normal" about them by only taking one tin/bag of mints before he ultimately figures out how to keep a constant stash in The Grim like Tails does in his many labs
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Thanks for the question, anon! If you have any other questions about them or their relationship(s), feel free to shoot me another ask🥰
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I’m evolving…
Here’s my Spotify Wrapped if anyone is interested (I’m not adding pictures other than the conclusion, I’ll just write it out in text):
I listened to 21 genres
1. Rock
2. Vocaloid
3. pov: indie
4. Pop
5. Pixel
My song taste is most similar to Savannah, Florida, USA (because Spotify said how they like MCR, Will Wood, and IDKHBTFM)
I played 769 songs this year
My top songs were:
1. Vampires Will Never Hurt You by My Chemical Romance (played 35 times)
2. Absinthe by I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
3. Freak on a Leash by Korn
4. Dead! by My Chemical Romance
5. The End. by My Chemical Romance
I listened to Spotify music for 9,272 minutes (6 days) with the highest day coming out to 363 minutes (6.05 hours) and was in the top 33% of listeners worldwide
I listened to 397 artists this year
My top artist was Muse (as you saw up top, I’m keeping up the trend) and was a top 1% fan who spent 1,401 minutes (23.35 hours) listening to them with the song I listened to the most by them being Futurism (2001)
My other top artists were:
2. MCR
3. Korn
4. Pierce the Veil
5. Ghost
I now conclude this by letting you know that I’m going to Spotify’s HQ and finding the person who didn’t pay their overworked employees who created this… “design” (I just wanna talk…)
Top 100 incoming, so brace yourself! Turn back before it’s too late!
1. Vampires Will Never Hurt You (by MCR)
2. Absinthe (by I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME)
3. Freak on a Leash (by Korn)
4. Dead! (by MCR)
5. The End. (by MCR)
6. System of a Down (by SOAD)
7. Young Girl A (by Siinamota)
8. Futurism (by Muse)
9. Demolition Lovers (by MCR)
10. Rolling Girl (by wowaka)
11. Moonchild (by Fields of the Nephilim)
12. Sunburn (by Muse)
13. You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us (by MCR)
14. Duality (by Slipknot)
15. Death of an Executioner (by Pierce the Veil)
16. Pretty Rave Girl (by S3RL)
17. Freakin’ Freak (by Dot Dot Curve)
18. 2econd 2ight 2eer (that was fun, goodbye.) (by Will Wood)
19. King for a Day (by Pierce the Veil)
20. This Ain’t a Scene, It’s an Arms Race (by FOB)
21. Dragula (by Rob Zombie)
22. The Second Law: Unsustainable (by Muse)
23. I Can’t Decide (by Scissor Sisters)
24. Venom (by Kairikibear)
25. As the World Caves In (by Matt Maltese)
26. Muscle Museum (by Muse)
27. The Only Hope for Me is You (by MCR)
28. Ga (ft. Hatsune Miku) (by Utsu-P)
29. girl’s a liar (by witted)
30. Neutron Star Collision (Love Is Forever) (by Muse)
31. I / Me / Myself (by Will Wood)
32. It’s Not a Fashion Statement, It’s a Deathwish (by MCR)
33. Got the Life (by Korn)
34. Screenager (2001) (by Muse)
35. People Are Strange (The Doors)
36. The Foundations of Decay (by MCR)
37. Redesign Your Logo (Bonus Track) (by Lemon Demon)
38. Creep (by Radiohead)
39. You Know My Name (by Chris Cornell)
40. This is How I Disappear (by MCR)
41. Ruler of Everything (by Tally Hall)
42. Eighth Wonder (by Lemon Demon)
43. Virtual Insanity - Remastered (by Jamiroquai)
44. Planetary (GO!) (by MCR)
45. Lost One’s Weeping (by Neru)
46. Newly Edgy Idols (by Mitchie M)
47. Take Me to Church (by Hozier)
48. Hang ‘Em High (by MCR)
49. Hurt (by NIN)
50. Starman - 2012 Remaster (by David Bowie)
51. Escape (by Muse)
52. Give ‘Em Hell, Kid (by MCR)
53. Dead Bodies Everywhere (by Korn)
54. Because You’re Here (by PinocchioP)
55. Setting Yourself Up For Sarcasm (by Get Started)
56. BUG (by Kairikibear)
57. Twist (by Korn)
58. Mama (by MCR)
59. Witch Image (by Ghost)
60. DARLING DANCE (by Kairikibear)
61. Freely Tomorrow (by Mitchie M)
62. Sleep (by MCR)
63. Press Play Walk Away (by S3RL & SynthWulf)
64. Hysteria (by Muse)
65. Babooshka - 2018 Remaster (by Kate Bush)
66. Party Poison (by MCR)
67. Law-Evading Rock (by Neru)
68. Meltdown (by iroha(sasaki))
69. Du hast (by Rammstein)
70. Micro Cuts - XX Anniversary RemiXX (2021) (by Muse)
71. Acid (by Ghost Town)
72. Hurt (by Johnny Cash)
73. Living Dead Girl (by Rob Zombie)
74. White Rabbit (by Jefferson Airplane)
75. Bad Romance (by Lady Gaga, covered by Artist Vs Poet)
76. KING (by Kanaria)
77. ‘Cause I’m a Liar (Kokichi Oma Fan Song) (by Mcki Robyns-P)
78. Showtime Ruler (by Karasuyasabou, covered by Kino Hina, Machico, Hirose Daisuke, and Toki Shunichi)
79. Little Kandi Raver 2012 (by S3RL)
80. Poi Poi Poi Popoi Poi Popi (by Ayaman Japan)
81. Thank You for the Venom (by MCR)
82. Points of Authority (by Linkin Park)
83. Love Me, Love Me, Love Me (by Kikuo)
84. Death city (by 6arelyhuman, syris)
85. GouZinZanGoku (by DEVILOOF)
86. Hurt (Quiet) (by NIN)
87. Dead Star (by Muse)
88. Blind (by Korn)
89. Absolution (by Ghost)
90. Savior (by Rise Against)
91. Unintended (by Muse)
92. My R (by WADATAKEAKI KurageP)
93. Caramelldanse (by Caramell)
94. I’m Not Okay (I Promise) (by MCR)
95. Endlessly (by Muse)
96. Johnny Johnny (by Danny Gonzalez)
97. Cirice (by Ghost)
98. I Never Told You What I Do For a Living (by MCR)
99. Momento Mori: the most important thing in the world (by Will Wood)
100. I’m Sorry, I’m Sorry (by Kikuo)
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