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kris-mage-fics · 4 months

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I was super lucky to win a commission from @nerdferatum and can't thank Sara enough for this absolutely gorgeous art of Kyrahlise and Shery! I'm in love with it have literally cried over it three times now! I really hope folks can see some of the romance novel cover art inspiration going on here, I thought it was what Shery deserves! Also, please zoom in on the full piece, because you can't see Kyrah's adorable freckles here with how much tumblr compresses the image, and that's a damn shame. Now please excuse me while I go stare at it some more!

Edit: In my excitement, I forget to tag @shepherds-of-haven because without the game there couldn't be this beautiful drawing!

#Sara was so wonderful to work with! they took all my vague ideas and made them so much better than what I'd envisioned!#and she perfectly captured the vibe I was going for!#this is now the background on my laptop!#apologies for no image ID -- I tried to write one several times and my brain was like “I can do words but not those words”#why? idk #hopefully I can add one later #shery acquell #oc: kyrahlise niriviel #shepherds of haven #shoh #commissioned art #okay weird minor head canons about this piece incoming:#it's set a few years after the main events of the game so Shery is more confident and secure in their relationship #is Shery reading a romance novel? of course! might parts of that romance novel get reenacted in a little bit? quite likely ;)#also I imagine Kyrah's life isn't quite so chaotic and violent as it was during most of the game or before it #so she's able to take better care of her hair resulting in it being nice and fluffy!#would her hair look like that during the game? no. she travels too much and doesn't have time to take great care of it

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wizardsix · 21 days

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is it just me or is bioware spoiling way too much about the game . talking about gameplay improvements is one thing but revealing story and companion arcs seems very insecure to me bc now the mystery is gone when people play for the first time . seems like they're trying too hard to prove that their game isn't garbage after that first trailer but this is not how you do that

#show gameplay #show how side quests work #show how the levels work if it isn't 'open world'#show crafting systems show transmog and a quick demo of how companion approval looks #show us the goddamn character creator already #even just show how the lighthouse works but dont?? start companion quests??#like it makes sense now why the writers were adamant that taashs pronouns were she/her idk why they had to reveal that point of their arc #bc youre NOT supposed to know what theyre going through yet . i liked the mystery surrounding them but ok thats gone #ive never seen this happen b4 i would never promote my game or writing through spoilers youre just sabotaging yourself #luckily for most people their brains are small so they might forget anyway #but still this is a weird marketing strategy #how did larian manage to pull in so many people through a stupid bear stunt and no story spoilers #and bioware has to cry and scream about how☝️🤓solas is good actually and our companions are soso complex trust us please please please plea #and also don't get me started on the character and enemy designs . a downgrade for sure #bioware critical #um lol also its a bit weird that taash is the only nb one but this isnt the post to talk about that .#bioware making their trans rep weird yet again . all we need is for rook to ask taash invasive questions and welcome back krem dragon age

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necrotic-nephilim · 3 months

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I’m here to bother you again!!!

You don’t have to if you don’t want to but maybe dark ship bingo with timjay or brudick????

hELLO i love being bothered by you this is delightful omg thank you, i would love to

Here is JayTim, I can't believe I only got one bingo for them. Ironically I genuinely don't view Jason and Tim as family, even when I'm not shipping them, I think they're tentative allies at best and you can only brother-ify them if you're doing very generously OOC fluff, a la WFA-style. They're absolutely toxic and codependent on each other's existence, Tim wouldn't exist without Jason and Jason is Undeniably Weird about Tim, but not brothers so I can't check off the familial squares. Also, I have no idea if I've been blocked by 10+ people, but it'd be funny if I am. And funnily enough, I don't think Tim or Jason are vanilla in any capacity even when they're not fucking. Especially not Tim, that boy is Certified Weird.

and ofc BruDick I nearly blacked out the whole board because they absolutely are weird and unwell. Some of these only apply to certain AUs of BruDick (like an idea I have rattling in my skull rn with Talon!Dick) but most of it applies to them all the time. I really need to write some fucked up BruDick, it's tragic I haven't yet. Right now the two fics I'm working on are a weird JayDick and a more fluffy DamiDick, but I have Plans™ for BruDick too. They are the OG and deserve their flowers for being the most toxic mess you've ever seen.

#necrotic answerings #batcest #jaytim #brudick #i loved this so dearly ty your asks mean everything to me <3 #so do your tags on my posts you reblog i love your thoughts you Get It™#when i say timjay isn't brotherly i am mostly referencing pre-flashpoint but i don't think they're familial in the new-52 or rebirth either #i haven't read a *ton* of rebirth but knight terrors: robin was *not* brotherly and idk why ppl try to read it like that #shipping brain aside i think they can like each other in canon. get along be friends. if dc actually tried to put work into developing that #but it's not brotherly. they may both view dick as a brother. but that axis point doesn't make *them* siblings and I'll die on that hill #brudick is far more complciated because they're father/son/brothers/mentor/mentee/rivals/friends all at once #it entirely depends the comic #but i don't enjoy them as a nuclear father/son either and i think making their relationship that destroys nuance #*especially* if we're talking early pre-flashpoint or pre-crisis #it's not devoid of fatherly love but it's not defined by fatherly love either #they're complicated little guys who are barely on speaking terms half the time <3 #you can tell when i get passionate about something bc my typing style changes entirely.#talking about myself? no capitals bc i'm boring as the hate anon put #talking about the ships? all uppercase and proper grammar. we must be Professionals™#anyway i loved doing this it made me rlly Think about what dynamics i like about both ships this was delightful #of all the batcest ships i think jaytim and brudick get the trophies for Most Unwell #and damitim can clock in at third #i don't yuck anyone's yum who wants to domesticate jaytim or brudick the fluffy fics can be cute and power to you #but it's not how i fundamentally ship them and i don't have interest in writing them clean or healthy

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if-loki-was-a-fox · 7 months

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Is there like. a CW tag people use for posts that are like "if you do xyz I'm committing acts of extreme violence on you / you should explode"? Cus I often feel kinda icky about interacting with those posts and I'd like to at least be able to tag it for other people who might be more significant effected by it to filter if I ever want to reblog one of them

#like they often have good points that I want to agree with and reblog #but I'm also not convinced that a lot of my morality anxiety isn't a build up of seeing those sort of thing #like. obviously this is just a me issue about being over-sensitive (and probably needing therapy or smthn)#but I think it subconsciously makes me think that if I ever fail at being a perfect being with flawless morals and no internalized biases #then I clearly *deserve* to be murdered in my sleep because why else would everyone be saying it?#which freaking sucks but idk how to get rid of it so #just gotta work around it for now until I get get my brain held together with something stronger than paperclips and scotch tape #is this moral scrupulosity? or some kind of ocd thing?#just me rambling

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waitineedaname · 1 year

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It was dark in his room, but there was enough light for Shou to see the glint in Ritsu’s eyes. Shou was a fan of that particular look on Ritsu’s face. It usually preceded him saying something uniquely unhinged or doing something impulsive. It didn’t happen often, but when it did, Shou was always happy to be along for the ride. “I need you to help me steal a snake,” Ritsu said with the blunt, matter-of-factness he delivered all his unhinged nonsense with.

happy birthday to ritsu!!! I'm posting this while still in bed bc I'm so excited about ritsu birthday. I will never turn down an opportunity to write him doing something insane <3

#mp100 #ritsu kageyama #shou suzuki #kageyama ritsu #suzuki shou #my writing #idk why I wrote ritsu's birthday fic from shou's perspective but here we are #this isn't my BEST work bc I'm having trouble turning off fmab brain but it was still fun to write #I love my sons

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ladye-zelda · 8 months

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Guys I just thought of a really cool idea for a Zelda

One word: Galadriel

#anyways I was watching a lotr video because I can #and when the person mentioned that galadriel was wise and built up that wisdom for centuries made me think #what if we had an “immortal” zelda?#and what I really mean by “immortal” was that she had to take a few centuries to be worthy of the triforce of wisdom or something #idk just something to think about #its late so if my brain isn't working properly thats why #ladye's dumb ideas

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quarklynx · 26 days

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Casually flirting with the idea of fucking around and getting a master's degree. The time will pass anyway, right?

#lynx thinks #oh nooooooooooooooooo #nooooo i can feel the urge to be crazy and act on my hubris #ive just been talking to the grad students in the theater program and theyre taking like 9 credits a semester #and its all stuff that seems interesting or fun or at the very least useful unlike my undergrad degree #and im like... i can already sew as well as if not better than these grad students. i can for sure draw better for any designs i come up w #heck i can draw better than the current head costume designer faculty member for the university #so the little overcommitting gremlin in my brain is like ''yoi could totally do it. do it.''#and the other part of me is like ''im already so tired just from working again after needing to recover from burnout. how would i even?#so I'm sitting here Thinking about it...#a masters degree in theater might be better for finding work at a pre-existing institution than just a bachelors in art #and it might be better than a masters in art too #I'd have to stop taking commissions completely probably if i did it for the sake if time #but if i somehow got an assistantship position? then maybe?? i could do it?#oooooooh i hrm so hard y'all #its only been a week since moving and ao much is still in boxes. im only working part time but I'm tired now so much #idk if its just because my stamina levels have atrophied or what but im so. tired. these days #and by these days i mean in the last week.#maybe a week isn't long enough of a sample to work from.#im hoping my energy levels will even out a bit but with the time zone change and the fact that I'm almost 30 I'm not sure if it will?#so thats worrying #i actually kind of see why people seem to drink coffee every day now #I've definitely been eating a lot more normally since i started. both in timing and quantity #i still have projects of my own to work on i cant afford to be so eepy orz

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tjerra14 · 1 month

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cw pet injury, pet death

nothing more unnecessary than losing your 3 month old kitten to a tilted window (or your 14yo diabetic cat to hypoglycemia because for some reason you waited another three hours after finding her comatose, cold, and barely breathing in your garage, and merely covered her with a blanket. When she came in, our thermometer refused to give us a reading, she had a heartrate of 40, and a blood glucose of 0.7mmol/l.)

#usually i manage leaving work things at work just fine #but some cases just come home with me uninvited #and idk.#i'm just numb #my therapist once said that the numbness is a natural response #basically the brain protecting itself #because i had witnessed something that should've made me feel a lot of things #but it didn't. there was just nothing at all.#and well. by now i know this won't last #at some point the feeling returns #and lately it's been so much anger #i just don't get it.#what have those animals ever done to us.#aren't we supposed to take care of them? keep them safe?#isn't that what pet ownership is?#you take over the responsibility for another living being #that can't or can only partially take care of itself #then why do so many of them have to pay for their owner's carelessness and mistakes #tbf the owner of that diabetic cat seemingly hadn't received proper instructions from her usual vet #which somehow made it even worse because while i can't expect her to just magically know what to do #i can expect other vets to train people to spot disease-specific common emergencies #that's just standard procedure #don't mind me i'm just tired and disappointed and sad #i'll go and listen to music for a while. always helps

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roses-n-rads · 1 month

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Vent

#tbd #personal #i am so serious rn when I say it's a good thing im on birth control #and like on depo specifically bc that stops me from menstruating at all which keeps my moods pretty level #and honestly that's probably why my mood stabilizers work right #and also I do not need to be ovulating bc my brain already wants a baby I don't need my hormones makin that feeling worse #like bro brain dude we have genetic bullshit we do not need to pass on to a child like pls stop thinkin about being preg and havin a baby #honestly why does my libido seem to get worse the older I get isn't it supposed to be the opposite like why is that not happening #very rude of my brain and body tbh #I promised myself years ago that I would not get pregnant unless I was in a stable relationship w someone to help w preg and baby #and im not so my brain needs to stfu and leave me alone w baby thoughts #ritalks #I think the urge is getting worse bc im buying a house and my brains like that's a milestone closer to being a mom #I guess idk my brain is real rude tbh

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mieczyhale · 2 months

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my sister changed her profile pic from some pro-cop bs to trump 2024

she's got FAS and is very much a parrot (she copies what she hears around her. i.e being shit to my mom bc my dad is. he's been the biggest influence the last year as they were kinda stuck in the same room together) unintentionally so i know it's most likely that spending time around my dad when he watches the news is the culprit-

but that doesn't make me feel less angry and lowkey betrayed by it

and i can't say anything about it

#i am one of two (2) democrats in my immediate family #it was three (3) but my uncle passed a few years ago #i'm not sure where my little brother stands now but i do know he has voted republican before #bc he cried to my mom that everyone on his floor at college was hating on him and being mean and stuff #which is understandable of them. my literal brother in christ you are a black man #but i know my family can be an influence on him at times so idk if he was just voting how he was told to or what and he might have a #different / better stance now. but my other brothers (eldest aside) and my sister are just Like That #my parents too. my mom isn't stuck by political party - she's voted dem in the past - but idk where the fuck she stands currently #that's gonna be the biggest and most painful betrayal if she goes rep this year. i cant even pretend it won't be #why am i awake at 5:45 AM thinking about this?? s top #i had to cancel my doctors app. for this morning bc i can already tell it's probably gonna be a Day for my brain and i need to save my #mental effort for getting to and through work tonight #and i don't feel great #as if i needed more problems #maison speaks

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magentagalaxies · 5 months

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#fairly sure i'm in the midst of a manic episode #(specifically dysphoric mania which is basically all the frantic energy of a stereotypical manic episode #except instead of that euphoric-unstoppable feeling it's like instead the bad is barely containable)#which really sucks!! bc like i've dealt with anxiety and depression episodes throughout my life as well #and of course none of them are enjoyable to deal with they're all awful #but dysphoric mania is the worst imo like even tho i experience it the least often it's the most intense and a lil scary #but like i know i'll get through it fine it's just gonna be a bitch to deal with for however long it sticks around this time #and like the fact that i could identify it as ''dysphoric mania'' fairly early on in the episode is a good sign #and is very helpful to be like ''no this isn't how things will always be you just temporarily have bees in your brain''#and this is also the first episode i've had since realizing i experience mania bc in the past i just labeled any intense bad as ''depressio #and now i know they're different which is helpful!#anyway idk exactly why i'm posting this. i guess venting helps a little bit #and also this works as a disclaimer bc idk if my dysphoric-mania-vibes would be noticeable if i didn't say anything #but y'know if i seem a bit ''off'' this is probably the reason why. i'm getting through it and i think i'm good at managing my shit by now #but y'know sometimes my brain gets a little unbalanced and i just have to deal with it until things get back to how they should be

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hautevaux · 3 months

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I might just... Hop about and send memes tbh. So pls like this if you'd definitely like me to send you something. I might regardless 😂

#My brain really isn't working for replies hhhh #Honestly I keep feeling weird so idk if I'm gonna seize or not.#Hence why I've put Vaux in the same position #lyrieux talks bullshit ooc

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that-spider-fan-over-there · 7 months

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*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?

#hello :D so I've been missing since September- scheduled queue aside #Life was stressing me out and I needed to cool off to focus on wrapping up the year else I'd lose it #then Life got worse by Sep-Oct (y'know. horrible real life events + personal stuff + holy shit I need to learn how to Adult)#forgot my password for a while so I was mostly on Twitter and it was Not Fun (and it still isn't)#and I remembered it by the end of January where I was getting most of my shit together and was mostly on Discord with friends #who were the reason I wasn't completely losing it so if you're reading this. thank you and I love you very much <3 #but I missed being on Tumblr and the friends/moots i made. just got nervous to come back here. idk why. brain works in weird ways.#it looks like I'm justifying why I wasn't here and on one hand. yeah it's kind of an update #but it's mostly because I don't like going out and returning like stuff wasn't happening so it's really a me thing so anxiety won't spike #idk if I'm gonna go missing like that again or not but. yeah i'm still alive #(felt good to write that last phrase so maybe *something's* going right in life)#but yeah i think i'm back (not 100% because. Life) and will do a pinned. if you read all of it thank you! :D #okay i'm gonna post this now before my brain decides it's a bad idea-

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rainbownixie · 5 months

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I've been completely ignoring my original projects to focus solely on Tumblr and my fandom life and I just realized I have done nothing useful with my life and perhaps I should probably focus on writing my own things and maybe idk, study... Get a job that I truly like... Especially the writing part--

#i have this specific idea for a book that i've been meaning to write for years and i haven't done anything bc i'm scared it isn't good #or maybe people won't read it or won't want to know about it wefjbjkwe #idk man it's hard to write original stuff like where the hell do i even post it it's not like people will want to hear abt my ocs KJWJNFWLK #me when i have to actually think of what to do for a living and saying “i wanna be a writer” when i was 8 doesn't work bc #i actually have to write #or maybe i just study marketing and i stop writing forever let's see what my brain decides #sorry for the sudden vent i've been having a crisiiiiis #among other crisis. that's why i haven't been posting many fics wekjfnwjek

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mothram · 10 months

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#diana's music diary #good afternoon I'm very tired...#yesterday was okay enough.. maybe even good? Lancer was fun! Ophelia messed up really bad and now the crew is in danger!! yay!!#didn't do all that much else really... I was so exhausted and idk why... I've been so so tired lately... more than my usual eepiness...#I don't know what the exact reason is too it's like... I'm sure I got enough sleep... I had a headache and stuff too so maybe that?#well whatever... I still haven't decided on changing urls yet... today I woke up after like 3 or 4 hours of sleep so my brain is melting #spent an hour looking for a part for my coffee grinder cause I needed it for something (something that isn't coffee)#I couldn't find it so I ended up using a knife to cheat it into working... which worked well but was a little bit more messy n.n;;#I found a couple of nice things when I was looking at least!#a rarity plush an ex gave me and the jacket Sheila gave me years ago... I should clean them up they got a bit dusty from my last move...#anyway later I'm going to try to have some fun... will maybe hang out with friends or just vc with my partner... idk...#the thing I had to get up now for should be done by later at least 😊 let's keep making today good and fun even while eepy n_n;

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linalilia · 1 year

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Okay, ships... Malleyuu

Riddle x Floyd, Keqing x Ganyu, and I remember you mentioning there was a couple in milgram? I don't remember their names, all ik is the guy has blue-ish hair I think 😭

no actually i will do one for malleyuu bc this is my personal blog and i'm feeling brave enough to talk about my opinions here

listen. i LOVED malleyuu back in 2020-2021 and i still think their dynamic is adorable in theory but i really don't like what is happening to their dynamic at the moment. first of all, i'm not a fan of what's happening to malleus's character and second of all, there's just. too much malleyuu. like i'm genuinely starting to like any other yuu ships more simply bc they don't have malleus and they already sound more original to me. also i really hate how some fans are saying "but this game IS about malleyuu, malleus is your canon love interest!!!", NO THIS GAME IS ABOUT MAGIC AND SOLVING OTHER STUDENTS' PROBLEMS EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE NOT A THERAPIST. so yeah anyway rolloyuu though- *i get slapped*

my relationship with riddle x floyd is like. it sounds fun in theory but it's also kinda ehhhhhh.. like basically i want riddle to have a partner who can teach him to have fun and relax a little but also i want him to stay sane while dating that person. i guess they're like a cute fun little ship to me but i can't really see them in a serious relationship? seth x riddle supremacy 😌✨

i either absolutely love genshin ships, hate them or just don't get them at all and keqing x ganyu is the third one for me 😭 like they look very aesthetically pleasing together and i think their personalities would go together well, but i just don't really understand it? i like the fan content i see with them, but i don't think i find them interesting enough to make any content with them myself 😔

OKAY OKAY SO milgram doesn't really have any canon couples except like. those characters who had lovers before arriving there and tbh i actually thought that 0104 have some romantic elements at first because it did sound like that to me and as we know my tiny brain likes to make everything about romance. sorry mahiru kinnie things but now i think they're more like. in a platonic but very toxic and codependent relationship? they're a mother and son actually /j (or maybe not /j. idk what's going on in haruka's head anymore but i don't think he's joking) either way i would love to write a whole essay about them because something about relationships like that makes me go insane like i'm sorry 😭😭 i want to put them in a lab and study them. i want to learn more about them. i want to see what will happen to them in season 3. i think i'm okay with both platonic and romantic versions of this ship honestly like i'm a little freak okay!! i'm a little crazy!!

#I CAN'T I REALLY SAID “eh idk what to say about riddle x floyd i'm too worried about riddle's sanity”#BUT WITH 0104 I WENT “listen. i know this relationship would be very toxic irl BUT HEAR ME OUT.”#please don't judge me okay i've been like that since i was 12 😔#(there is a reason why i enjoy dynamics like that but we're not gonna talk about it here i don't want it to get too deep)#anyway yeah malleyuu is overrated i said it #lina plays ask games #edit: I TYPED SEASON 2 ACCIDENTALLY I MEAN SEASON 3 sorry my brain isn't working today

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