#my experiences

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

Y'know, there's this gripe I've had for years that really frustrates me, and it has to do with Love, Simon and people joking about it and calling it too-pg and designed-for-straight-people and all the like. (A similar thing has happened to Heartstopper, but that's another conversation.)

I saw Love, Simon in theaters when it came out my senior year in high school. I saw it three times, once with my friends/parents on opening night, once with my brother over spring break, and once with my grandparents.

On opening night, the air in the room was electric. It was palpable. Half the heads in there were dyed various colors. Queer kids were holding hands. We were all crying and laughing and cheering as a group. My friends grabbed my hands at the part where Simon was outed and didn't let go until his parents were saying that they accepted him. My friend came out to me as non-binary. Another person in our group admitted that she had feelings for girls. It was incredible. I left shaking. This was the first mainstream queer romance movie that had ever been produced by one of the main five studios, and I know that sounds like another "first queer character from Disney" bit but you have to understand that even in 2018 this was groundbreaking. Getting to have a sweet queer rom-com where the main character was told that he got "to breathe now" after coming out meant so much to me and my friends.

But also, from a designed-for-straight-people POV (which, to be frank, it was written by a bisexual author and directed by a gay man, this was not designed for straight audiences), why is it a bad thing that it appealed to the widest possible audience? That it could make my parents and grandparents see things in a new light? My stepdad wasn't at all interested in rom-coms but he saw it with me because it was something I cared about and he hugged me when we came out of the theater. My very Catholic grandparents watched it with me and though my grandpa said he still didn't quite understand the whole 'gay thing,' all he wanted was for me to be happy and to have a happy ending like Simon did. My Nana actually cried when Simon came out and squeeze my hand when his mother told him he could breathe.

And when Martin blackmailed Simon, my mom, badass ally that she is, literally hissed "Dropkick him. Dropkick him in the balls" leading to multiple queer kids in the audience to laugh or smile. Having my parents there- the only parents, by the way, out of my group of queer and questioning friends- made multiple people realize that supportive adults were out there. That parents like those in Love, Simon do exist in real life.

When people complain about Heartstopper not being realistic or Love, Simon being too cutesy, I remember seeing Love, Simon on opening night. I remember my friend coming out and my stepdad hugging me and my mom defending us through this character. I remember the cheers that went through the audience when Bram and Simon kissed and the chatter in the foyer after the movie was over and the way that this movie made me understand that happy endings do exist.

Queer kids need happy endings. Straight people need entry points to becoming allies. Both of these things can come together in beautiful ways. They can find out about more queer culture later, but for now, let them have this. Let them all have a glimpse at a better, happier world. Let them have queer joy.

[lavender--milk]

Forgot to post these, here is a quickly coloured version of my Apollon sketch! A helpol discord server I'm in asked to use it for a banner for an Apollon ritual event, and I am so so honoured ( ´ ▽ ` )

[deadeyedfae]

I don’t know what to say about this one 😅 other than the second panel reminds me too much of Scott Pilgrim and now I’m just thinking about a trans story in that universe, like what happens when you transition? Do you get like a pop up beside you that says something like ‘HORMONE LEVELS LOW’ when you miss a dose? No I’ve just remembered I haven’t taken morning meds 😂 I better go do that!

[redheadbigshoes]

Comphet fucked me up so damn much that the huge, intense feelings I’ve always felt towards women I had a crush on I genuinely thought was only admiration, meanwhile the indifference I felt about men was mistaken for a crush.

[beautifullyscarred423]

Sex Chronicles Part 1

“I can’t stop thinkin about your pussy”. He said. As I listened to him confused.., thinkin to myself “he’s never seen, touched or felt my pussy”. Still, I entertained his thoughts.

“How is it you can’t stop thinkin about pussy you never had?”

He replies..

“The way you talk, and the way you walk, I can tell it’s good “. I laugh..

“So you’re tellin me that you can tell that my pussy .. is Wett ...and juicy as fucck..and will squeeze,..

throb ..

and squirt all over ya dick..,

based on how I talk and the way I walk..?”

“Daam “, he says... “ why you had to say it like that..? You got my dick hard as fucck right now!, that shit right there, is how I know.. Daaam!.. who says shit like that?..”

“Me”. I say. “ you talkin bout my pussy like you know her, or like y’all met before.. so I was just givin you an informal introduction.. that’s all “. “Her name is Ms. Juicy by the way.. so please.. when you address her.. make sure it’s done properly.. please and thank you kind sir “.

“Daaaam”, he says again.. “You are somethin else..” he says in a low groan.

In my mind.. smilin to myself.., I’m thinkin.. this nigga strokin his dick right now..

“Yo, I promise I’d hit every single spot.. why you playyinn tho”

I reply..

“ Behave yourself sir.. calm down.. you still don’t know her yet..or what she likes..or what she wants..”

“Tell me..” he says..”whatever you want.. whatever she wants I’ll do it for both of you!.. why you teasin me..! Daaaam!”

“ Not teasin “.. I replied.. “You.. sir.. was talking about thinkin of My pussy.. My pussy .. that you don’t know.. My pussy.. that you never smelled.. My pussy.. that you never seen.. My pussy.. that you never touched.. My pussy.. that you never felt..

So I’m tryna help you out.. I’m a fucckin lady.. so .. proper introduction, is.. always very necessary..” “You don’t even know if you’re ready for her.. already sooo anxious like Genuine.. imma need you to bring that all the way down Playboy “..

Him.. of course replies..” Whatchu mean...bae I’m fit.. gotchu.. locked and loaded “..

I’m shakin my head.. thinkin.. “these niggas crazy as hell.. but still.. I’ll play tha game “

“Sooo, you want me to finish introducing her to you.. or nah..?”

“Daaaam bae, yess.. please tell me everything I need to know “

I’m feeding off of his energy now.. and his anticipation now.. H.E.R.. Every kind of way.. is playing on my Pandora.. so it helps me to continue assisting his thoughts.

“ Patience is required.. “ I say.. “ Although she has a mind of her own.. of how Wett she gets.. connection.. presence.. and energy.. is all me.. and there’s no Go.... unless I wanna Go.. You understood that..?

“ Yess.. Bae. yess .. “ he says.. “ I understand.. my dick so hard right now.. I don’t think YOU understand..shiiit!”

“Mmmmm..” I reply.. “ Hard Dick.. is definitely a requirement..thank you for cooperating for her “.. she definitely appreciates that part “..

“ A lot of how she performs definitely depends on you.”

“ She’s either a Nun or your favorite porn star..she’ll squeeze you ohh so gently..or take your whole soul...she’ll throb .. squirt.. “. He interrupts.. in a low tone.. almost a whisper.“ Bae.., come on .., just lemme come ova.. or you can even come here..and you can jus show me what to do.. I’ll follow your directions.. prommise “. I ignore what he’s sayin.. I mean he started talking about MY pussy.. so.. I just continue..

“She is capable of giving .. as well as having multiple orgasms.. for the right one..”. “ the deeper the connection.. she gets wetter..and more energized.. hungry for more and more.. I .. will then .. will focus on how in tune.. You are with me.. I.. require eye contact and need to feel.. and know.. how you’re feeling.. what you’re feeling.. and will need you to verbally express... how you’re feeling... how she feels to you.. how .. I feel.. to you.. Silence.. is not an option..the more you say.. the more you react..the more you express.. I ..will ensure .. absolute sensual and sexual pleasure.. and desire..”

“Kissin..

Suckin..

Lickin..

Fucckin .. luvvin..

every..

Single.. inch of you..”

He’s quiet.. but his breathing is heavy.. but low..

I ask..” Have I lost you?”..

He responds in another low, gaspy like growl.. “No Bae.. I’m here.. you Fucckin me up right now..” his voice sounds weakened , low, and gaspy.

“ I want you soo Fucckin bad right now.. Fucck..”

“Mmmm”.. I say..

“ I bet you do”..

“ Question tho..”

He replies..

“ I’ll answer any questions you have.. just lemme feel you.. daam .. please..”

“ Soo.. why you haven’t made time for me before.. I mean.. “ I say , as I laugh a lil..

“ we text.. you call.. you video or whateva.. but tonight because we talking about My Pussy.. you ready for me to come ova.. or wanna come ova here.. but before that.. you always busy.. what’s that about tho for real “.

“Come on Bae.. “ he’s still has that low gaspy whisper. “ Don’t do that.. you already know how I feel about you.. my Dick on Rock even when you send me pics of that beautiful face and that pretty smile.. you know I want you.. don’t do that please.. come on .. just lemme see you tonite.. imma show you how much I want you.. and we can do whateva you want Bae.. dead serious.. I really feel like I need to see you right now..’

I let him say his piece..

I laugh again..

“Your dick still hard right now?” I ask..

“ Babe , I swear I was about to cum .. listening to you.. You and that mouthpiece.. daaam .. I felt like I was in the pussy just by what you was sayyin... I don’t know how.. but you got me feelin some type a way fa’real.. .. I’d stay in that pussy all nite.. Babe.. not goin nowhere On God!”.. you got me “

As I’m listening to how fast the bullshit flies from his mouth..

I ask another question..

“ Do you know that I’m Celibate?..”

Silence..

Call Dropped

[fluffygale]

Then we proceeded to laugh and joke about it for the next few minutes.

[protectingtulpas]

Being a young tulpa is like being a cartoon character in the pilot episode or first arc of your TV show. Your character isn't quite on the mark yet, you're not reacting the way you totally would two seasons from now, you're kinda ditzy, the creators are making some weird choices you're not totally aware of yet but you'll grow outta naturally, your hair is super slightly off model

All thru it is this surreal sorta feeling too. It's sooo hard to describe what it's like to be early in development. And shit, I'm still developing always imo, but there was somethin' different about those times. I really don't think there's any other comparable experience

[ksjanes]

We carry layers of experiences with us. They color our emotions, ideas and perceptions. To see how they have colored are world we spend hours in silence. Making room for us to feel their presence once again.

K.S. Janes

Photo taken on a climb to Chimney Rock.

[mypreciousdream968]

How does the necessity of stimming and doing stimming feel like? Would you like to share your experiences? :)

[holywizardheart]

My transit experiences💥

Jupiter is transiting your 9th house means travelling or trip somewhere. It can also mean a vacation.

Sun conjunct Ascendant at this transit you'll definitely feel confident and ambitious.

Sun conjunct Chiron transit can give several identity issues. I swear I felt lost and humiliated. It was very painful.

Saturn is transiting the 6th house you can lose weight and experience big stress.

Uranus is transiting the 11th house friends are always leaving. You can't be friends with someone forever. It's giving me a lonely vibe. Like you can easily find friends but it's also easy to lose them.

Venus is transiting your 7th house you can meet a suitable person for a relationship

Saturn is making conjunction with your natal moon can mean feeling depressed and tired. Also bottling up your emotions and not expressing them fully.

Mars is making harsh aspects with your Natal Moon can mean being hot-tempered and it's so easy to make you angry. Very very expressive with your emotions and sometimes it's hard to control them. Blowing quarrels from nowhere.

Mercury is transiting your 3rd house can mean you'll start reading something interesting. Like a book or comics.

Venus is transiting your 5th house can mean a new romance or just a fling

Mars is making harsh aspects to your natal Mercury can mean conflicts and quarrels. You can be sharp-tongued and restless with your words.

Sun is transiting your 2nd house your self-esteem increases and you feel valued. You can also dress fashionably and feel comfortable during this transit.

Saturn is making harsh aspects to your natal Venus you can expect a big issue in romance or relationship. Maybe it will be really hard to express your feelings and love

[potato-salad-uk]

I've been meaning to make this post for a while telling my experience with the new Splatoon 3 DLC Side Order. I've been having a lot of fun playing it and I just wanted to tell people my thoughts and experience.

Warning This will have some spoilers for Side Order

Color Chips

The color chip system is very fun and interesting and I like all the funny builds one can make with them with my favorite being the all drone chips. I do have one small complaint about them tho which is that some chips were for some weapons weren't in the primary or secondary color so that is making them a bit harder to collect all data from them.

Weapons

I love all the weapon chooses and that are given to us and even if I'm not good with a certain weapon I can always choose color chips that can make it easier for me to use an example of this is how I struggle with using the roller but with faster firing and faster rolling speed I can use it with ease. I have beat the game with all the weapons and I had a lot of fun doing it, non of them felt like it was too hard but also not too easy.

Story

The story for Sure Order was a bit underwhelming to say the least, it wasn't too hard to understand and the way that you unlocked the bits through Instagram like stories by Marina locked in the lockers was fun and gave me another reason to want to beat the game with every weapon just to see what was the cause for Side Order.

The World

The World of Side order was so beautiful even if there was barely any color in it it didn't feel lifeless even though all the white coral was supposed to represent coral bleaching which is a very dangerous thing that is happening. I love th music of the Order sector and the foyer with the sounds being represented by in game effect of shapes going in and out of existence which is something I can't say I've seen in games before.

Music

I was only a little disappointed that Acht aka Dedf1sh wasn't making the music for Side Order because I really enjoyed their music, but Free Association wasn't bad at all my favorite songs are Cold Storage and Je2ting. I have been a fan of electronic music for a while now and having a "game" that 90% if the songs are electronic was so cool, I even listen to the songs when I'm not playing which just makes me want to play Side Order

Characters

Pearl and Marina are so gay and it's fun to see Acht have to deal with it. Im glad that Acht didn't turn out to be a bad guy because I just love them too much, they are just such a silly goose and I want to give them head pats. Eight is there I guess having to deal with another horrible experience, seriously girl needs a break, but it was fun to know that she went on tour with Pearl and Marina that was just so cool. Smalusk is so cute especially because he wants to be so big and strong but he's just a little guy.

That's about it if you want to know anything else about my experience playing Side Order let me know I'll also up load some screen shots I took in the reblog <3

[lavender--milk]

inside of me there are 2 wolves. one wants so badly to worship like 12 different deities. the other just barely has the energy to devote to 1 😭

[theintpgirl]

I just need someone who can hug me and tell me that I'm not as worthless as I think I am

[redheadbigshoes]

Another sign of my sexuality was how I’d think it would be so much more fun if after growing up I just travelled and lived with my (female) friends instead of ending up with a man.

[neshatriumphs]

The thing that confuses me is that we know that Tumblr has protected racists and deleted Black bloggers who racists hated. We know that they've flagged trans accounts and allowed Nazis to roam free. We know that they've literally been supporting genocide. Why do people still act surprised when the entity of Tumblr, or hell, even the user is trash?

I have people here who I don't have in any other place, and a long catalog of curated content and kept memories. So, I stay here to keep that for as long as I can. But Tumblr is a site made up of and run by the people who also make our real lives a difficult environment to live in. And with every new terrible thing, there is a new wave of, "Tumblr is allowing this?"

YES. TUMBLR IS ALLOWING IT. It's okay to say, "Tumblr is not a safe space, just a space I'm used to navigating." Instead some of you will perpetuate that "Tumblr is good actually, just sometimes a bad person gets on there and is allowed to go wild. Lol." All the time. All the time bad people get on here and are allowed to go wild. It's not any better than any other site that has people on it.

Y'all have put so much useless pride in only being here and not on other sites where y'all think the stupid people are. But you're bad at even recognizing dangerous people, at best, and support dangerous people on purpose, at worst.

Tumblr is not a safe space and I'm just used to navigating it. There should be no affection left for the nature of the site. And yet, people will still say that they feel safest here. Fine. You're very privileged to be able to do that. Doesn't mean the site is safe. Just means that you are not a target of the rampart hate and hostility of Tumblr. Congratulations on your success at fitting in down at the Tumblr.

"Well why don't you go to...?" I do. I'm there too. I'm in a lot of places. And I say full chested Tumblr has not been "the best" of good or "the least" of bad. They just have had in the past an easy way of me keeping close people that I didn't have everywhere, and a way for me to tag my things I wanted to come back to and come back to them.

[airlocksandaviaries]

Parents will raise their kid on a steady diet of 70s music and 80s movies from age zero to twelve and then be surprised when their kid turns out to like 70s music and 80s movies