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#my life falling apart
kawaiidelusiontaco · 1 year
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Can I just say something.
So, I had a bit of a FU day and I came home and I had such a strong desire to cry. Like i can't explain, shits happened and stuff. but that person didn't deserve me to cry because of them, so I listened to 1D . 1D is the only thing that can stop me from crying and bring me back to a calm state. AND THEN when I calm down I see this ::::::::::
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CAN I JUST, CAN I JUST
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AND THIS IS FUCKING ME RN BITCH WHAT MY LIVE IS FALLING APART AND THIS MAKES MY DAY. I LOVE YOU OLDXIAN I FUCKING LOVE YOU AND IF YOU NEED KIDNEY I'M FUCKING HERE.
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inkskinned · 8 months
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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rosesocietyy · 2 years
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I am obsessed with the way most sandman characters talk like it lives in my head 24/7 rent free. And I don't even mean accent I mean like cadence, speech patterns and the like.
Lucienne talks like Every Single Word In The Sentence She's Saying Is Capitalized. here for it
and listen I've read some questionable shit from time to time and everytime the author is like "he purred" "she purred" I always used to scratch my head like tf do you mean "they purred" I GET IT NOW DESIRE YOU DEVIOUS LITTLE SHIT I GET IT
and bitch boy dream that talks... like there's an ellipses.... after every few words... which is extra hilarious once you take into account the fact that he knows exactly what he wants to say he's very delibrate in that way he just feels the need.... to make you wait.... for the rest of the sentence.... and by the gods you will because this is the king of dreams speaking
Corinthian love, oh dear Corinthian. I don't know how boyd came to the conclusion that he should take that southern drawl, season it just a bit and then bring it down to 0.75x speed, but I want him to know that I am forever grateful.
And then best bird Matthew sounds like every average white male history teacher ever and it's perfect
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suckmyarschkarte · 3 months
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liverpool fans: 😭😔😢🤧
jürgen and the players: 😄😂🥰☺️
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7roaches · 3 months
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posting my incorrect opinions @ night when nobody can see them
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dorkicon · 1 year
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elite trine slumber party...?
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mikacanica · 19 days
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"… I’m coming back. I won’t leave you on your own."
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epiclamer · 7 months
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“Another week off? Even that’s odd for you…” the villain glanced around the worn and torn living room of the hero’s. A tickling sensation sent down their spine as they recognized emotions in the actions the other displayed, but not in their tone of voice.
“I’m tired. Can’t a hero get a break every once and a while?” Dishes clattered in the sink with a bang that seemed all too violent for the crime-stopper’s demeanour.
Villain pushed a trash bag aside with their foot, “it’s been over a month.”
The hero groaned collapsing back down against their sofa with a hand hiding their tired eyes. “I’m a lost cause and I’ve realized it. What does it matter if I take a longer vacation than usual, I deserve it if anything. Chances are I don’t get back in the field with my injury.”
“So you’ve given up?”
They huffed a laugh but didn’t uncover their face, readjusting on their back as they dodged the question; refusing to cooperate any further.
“No, this isn’t hopelessness, this is…”
Anger
“So what? I ought to call the heroes on you for being at my house.”
“The same heroes that abandoned you? After you gave everything for them? For their safety?”
The hero stayed quiet.
Yeah, thats what I thought. Was exactly what they didnt need to hear, so the villain shut their mouth before it slipped.
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marutchi · 8 months
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(more) spoiler under the cut
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they are landing on their feet yet skwisgaar still ends up in tokis arms 😭😭
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softboiled-egg · 13 days
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I feel so sigma!
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absurdumsid · 1 month
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If you still taking requests can I have some error x nightmare?
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ABSOLUTELY !! errormare cant kiss ? errormare cant hold hands ? NO, I. WILL ! MAKE !! IT !!! WORK !!!!
Error! Sans belongs to CrayonQueen/LoverofPiggies
Corrupted! Nightmare belongs to jokublog
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not to make angst out of a fucking gag but also thinking about the silly au rei in the final episode makes me think about how different rei would be if she didn’t have literally the worst dad ever. like, no, she probably wouldn’t have been the upbeat adhd whirlwind in the high school au lmao. but it does just make me think. because while all the pilots lives are incredibly marked by trauma, rei's the only one to have never had access to any sort of normal life. her entire personality and worldview is shaped from being isolated, groomed, and taught to see herself as a tool and not a person. and then i just get so sad that she never had any chance of a normal life where she could discover herself and what she is. she went from being abused and manipulated by gendō (which is made even worse with the implications certain scenes leave about their relationship) to becoming god. she never had any chance of living a normal life. and just like. fuck.
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edge-oftheworld · 2 months
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'shallow hearts for shallow minds that ache to be alive' the chokehold you have on me
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Every time I watch Get Back I just love the contrast of George’s banger fits, showing up every day in
✨slay✨
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After ✨slay✨
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After ✨slay✨
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Vs John’s greasy, unwashed depression fit like same babe, we’ve all been there 😂
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I mean this picture pretty much sums it up perfectly:
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John vs. Geo’s reactions to the breakup of the Beatles really be like:
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crispycreambacon · 3 months
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Spice In, Time Out!
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Wanna read a semi-crack fic about Beef Boy hanging out with a bunch of puppets? Maybe even do a little ramen challenge with his little blue fuzzy nerd friend? You're in luck, 'cause I wrote 6500 words of exactly that!
Among those thousands of words are a bunch of cool stuff such as:
Puppet shenanigans! Two of them may have planned to kill their friends (disclaimer: that murder will not be shown in the fic)
Actual history??? Yeah that's right you're gonna get hit with a Puppet History-style question so STUDY UP ON THE HISTORY OF RAMEN (or not) 👹
God being the worst! Again! They may have actually killed someone (disclaimer: that murder WILL be shown in the fic)
God/Professor allegations. Whether those allegations are true or not will be up to you
Overall a (hopefully) funny and wholesome bonding time between everyone at this table. They're all friends! :]
If all of that sounds like a jam to you, you can read the fic via clicking here, clicking the title, or searching up "Spice in, Time Out!" by crispycreambacon on AO3.
I hope y'all will enjoy this fic! I'm pretty proud of how it turned out especially since I was honestly not feeling it at the start and even contemplated not publishing it at all. Even if you don't read it, I hope you enjoy the art (bonus doodles down below btw!) and I hope you'll have a schmaculous day!
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