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csakszavak · 1 year
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Én nem a “vegyél nekem ajándékot és kényeztess el” hanem a “szeress és tarts ki mellettem” barátnő vagyok.
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vampireink · 18 days
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So many thoughts
They spill out of me like ink
Dark and rich and full of intricacy
Creating art
That no one understands
Or wants to see
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dumblr · 2 years
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I rather have one amazing person to talk to every night than have several pointless conversations with temporary people.
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glkr-xx · 3 months
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I think I've always been the problem
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doritooooo · 1 year
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as someone who plans on taking my husband's last name when I get married eventually, I think Din should take Bo's last name. She's the Mandalore, and Din is her knight, it would make more sense for Bo, their leader to keep her name, but for Din, it would symbolize him realizing that he doesn't need to follow the Creed so strictly.
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rockinginneverland · 7 months
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See it’s the fact that more and more lately I’ve been angrier and angrier at the idea of romantic love or romantic relationships and I find myself frustrated not being able to understand this obsession with it or just sometimes the idea of romance grossed me out, there are many types of love but this society os obsessed with romantic love though they just like calling it love thought love is a vast term. When I was younger, must have been middle school maybe, I used to write letters for my friends and I would write quotes about how much they meant to me and how important they were but I guess somewhere along the way I stopped because I soon realized that people looked down on me for it because in their eyes I must have been in love with whomever I was giving letters to and they were scandalized by the prospect of a girl loving another girl romantically, though even if they was the case which it wasn’t but even if that was the case why would that have been wrong? I never looked at someone romantically and I part of me always knew I must be asexual and later on aromantic even if at the time I didn’t have a name for it. So I guess I grew up not knowing how to show people outside of my family members affection because I was afraid it would be mistaken for romantic love, my kindness for flirting, my attention for interest in perusing someone romantically, I also want to add that I didn’t know then that I was autistic. So you see there’s always been this confusion in me on how to show love, show affection, angry at the pity stares people use to give me cause I’ve never had a boyfriend and years where going by and I was still single, of being asked when was I going to have a boyfriend and later on when was I getting married or if I wanted to. I remember one time my brother asked me if I was asexual and I remember saying that I wasn’t because I wanted a boyfriend which is bullshit because you can be asexual and have a boyfriend, not feeling romantic attraction towards someone is being aromantic, which like I mentioned I discovered I was too farther down the line. I felt alienated because I was never looking to date someone or had an interest in it but all around me that’s what people where doing but I will say I was longing from companionship though I guess people would automatically take that as romantic though is not, though I guess society has made that the default.
I hate saying that I’m aromantic asexual not because I’m ashamed of it but because I hate people’s reaction towards it, as if it’s heartbreaking to realize I don’t feel sexual nor romantic attraction towards people as if I’m broken for not feeling it as if I will never be complete because of it… as of how can’t I not want a boyfriend… how am I supposed to get married if I don’t go out there and meet people… why is it not cool, bet… why it always pity on people’s eyes or not believing me when I say I don’t feel sexual or romantic attraction… as if is not confusing enough for myself as it is to have to describe what it means to not feel something that you’ve never had in the first place, how do you explain the lack of something? I’ve always felt lonely really and now the more I realize how to me friendships have always had much more weight than romantic relationships because I’ve never cared for them, or how even sometimes I find myself questioning my feelings because of how ingrained this idea of romantic love is in society and then being angry with myself for invalidating my own feelings when I know them to be true. They say the first thought you have when it comes to something is what you’ve been taught you believe and the second is your reaction to what you believe to that subject of matter and now I understand why there is a war sometimes in my mind because society has taught me and made me believe that a woman and a man cannot be friends so I when I’m reading a book and I love these 2 people and the relationship they have, always friendships, my brain always has to throw this thought at me… oh so you ship them? As in romantically?… it angers me because that’s society speaking not me so I need to reiterate how there nothing more than friends even though I shouldn’t because why is it romantic love the default? And why is it that is only valid for these 2 people to be friends, man and woman, if they each have partners? Because otherwise they would fall in love with each other… BULLSHIT… it’s almost 6am and here I am rambling about romantic love and being aroace and how hard it is to let go of believes that have been engrained in our minds and how frustrating it is for me now that I finally found what I truly believe in and my true feeling on the matter, how I love friendships more than anything and how when reading books those are the ones that stick the most specially those that are so deep and beautiful and raw that people have the need to ask if they are romantic even though friendships can be just as strong and beautiful and raw as romantic relationships, how they can just be friendships and be all that… because those are the types of relationships I want… the ones that are everything but don’t have an ounce of romance in them, the ones that people want to romance code because that can’t just be friendships… I like those friendships because they defy societies views and expectations when it comes to relationships and what is deem romantic… see I’m petty sometimes. See in books relationships like this would be Fenrys and Aelin for example. Just friendship and the bond they have is just as strong and beautiful and raw and deep as the romantic one Aelin has with Rowan. A beautiful friendship nothing more, nothing less. I fuck with those relationships, the one line Aelin and Fenrys but then again some people reaction towards it turn me petty and make me angry to see how you only believe is posible because one of them already found a romantic partner, their romantic soulmate forever because other wise you would be the first to ship it and ask if the single one has feelings for the other instead of just understanding that the relationship between these 2 people can be just a FRIENDSHIP…
So I’m here at 6am being angry and frustrated with romantic love and wanting to throw hands because of how suffocated it makes me more and more each time… see some days I can picture it in theory but never in practice… I’m just tired of romantic love being the center of attention when it is not the only type of love there is… I want to write letters to people and have it just be affection not romantic just my way of showing I care, my way of showing I appreciate you… like k appreciate the moon and the stars and the clouds and how I love the owls and the foxes and the cats, how I’m in love with all that but never romantically… why would that be the default?
So here I am not knowing how to show love or affection feeling angry at romantic love and feeling lonely and tired and wanting companionship and deep friendships and how even though I’m disgusted sometimes with romantic love I’m not with love because there are many times of love… so I guess I will fall in love with myself and with museums and the world and nature and letters and writing and people but never romantically, no never romantically…
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tigerlilli · 9 months
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I've recently had a lot of people interacting with my silly little blog of which I'm so grateful for but it always strikes me funny that on here I can be sexy, self-assured, confident and can talk about the sex I like whereas in person I'm so painfully shy and insecure I haven't had sex in a really long time incase I suck at it or I give the worse head ever or my pussy smells. I hate been so insecure but I don't know how to get over the almost crippling fear I have of not been good enough🌷
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lostestleo · 6 months
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I feel as if earth is a type of limbo.
Some kind of “in-between” that we are all just wading through.
Maybe we are stuck here? Maybe we’ve been recycled?
Maybe there is some truth to souls, and that some of us are newer?
I am starting to believe that anything is possible…
But I also feel I don’t truly belong.
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hirafirarda · 14 days
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ask kuraklık ne suyu
(askbisuduricickuduraithafen)
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guettaes · 9 months
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you broke my heart a little, because I feel that only you need digital art and you don't like simple drawing... I'm a little sad now, I'm telling you this now... I'm crying a little now. (I'm ADHD)
I didn't like the drawing of Alejandro and Leon. it hurts that you want digital art on me...
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csakszavak · 1 year
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Egy jó kapcsolat nem arról szól, hogy mindig minden rendben van. Hanem arról, hogy bármi is történik, mindig mindent meg lehet beszélni.
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vampireink · 8 months
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I don't just "miss you". My entire soul burns for you. My body aches to be near you. My heart jumps in my chest, wanting to be in your hands. My head spins, wanting you to steady it. I see you in everything, everywhere I look. I wish I was tucked up in the safety of your arms, listening to the beat of your heart.
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a-littlebitofmonica · 5 months
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I feel all on my own
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ninakuli · 11 months
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Ok
First time I watch House of wax I think Vincent is the cutest baby and wondering why Bo so mean to Vincent and think Bo is such an asshole and he bad I won't like him. (And yes I don't notice Lester sorry)
Second time I watch House of wax... Fucking god please Bo I LOVE YOU please marry me I will always love you, and God Vincent is such a little cute princess I never see before, and Jesus why WHY Lester can be sooo cute and nice he just a lovely guy!!!
AND NOW I LOVE THEM SO MUCH❤️❤️❤️(actually Bo I swear I can die for him)
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alaezasmystery235 · 2 years
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So I want to ask a question to all the tarot readers here ....
Is it me
Or you all face difficulties when doing your own readings . Like everytime I want to know anything about myself idk my own thoughts get mixed with Intuition and overall it's just messy lol ......
If you're free spare your thoughts on this @planetsxmore @laissez-fire-oh @astrofangs @astroreadsbyelle @royaleofury @celestialblushxoxo @the-falling-star @theveil-and-thepath @1tarot1with1k1o @girlpoet @karmakittie
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