#my weird old artist man

[cgspirl]

Regarding Antlers (Spoilers for NOPE [2022])

Working on a video essay for 'Nope' and I ended up ranting on Discord about Antlers, so I'm gonna post it here, unedited for the Full Effect™️ of the brain damage Mr. Jordan Peele has inflicted on my churning little brain:

ALSO. antlers. antlers is such an interesting character because he comes off as like. the apathetic, jaded remains of someone who is a hollywood legend, who never wanted to be a hollywood legend, who just. now has to live with that because that's just how it is.

and on the surface? yeah! that's antlers holst. but frankly there's more to him than just. grizzled jaded cinematographer who was going to fuck everything up for everyone because he's a selfish artistic prick.

to make a long comparison short he's like o.j. down to earth (heh), no-nonsense, straightfoward type of guy who knows what to do within his field of expertise and only wants to do his job and be left alone to do that job

unfortunately, because he is someone that can be commodified by hollywood (cinematographer), unlike o.j. who can't (animal-wrangler), he's stuck in the claws of the fame machine even though he doesn't want to be.

a big thing i noticed on my rewatch was the purple people eater scene. at first, it comes off as threatening and ominous, like a warning; and then you put it in perspective of who the fuck he's actually talking to. these 'kids' (grown adults but antlers is old n therefore probably refers to anyone younger than him as 'kids') have already been through the worst of it. all that's left to do it pull it off. think about it in perspective of the lyrics, specifically the verse he chose to recite:

'tree' of course. not being an obvious tree but rather being a reference to the mountains jj resides in; but the specific one is the "i wouldn't eat you / 'cause you're too tough" because. because they're quite literally the protagonists. they are too tough to eat because of plot armor. this was quite literally antlers' strange artistic way of saying how much he believes in them because he sees them as 'too tough' for jean jacket to eat. they'll outsmart it. they'll outpace it. n by god they'll get the impossible shot.

also extremely important to me that antlers a) predicts his own death and b) always stands away from the group, which can symbolize both him being an outsider AND his foreshadowed death. i also think it's very important to mention (because so many people have been so quick to write it off as 'selfish' or 'stupid') how antlers dies.

if you watch the scene before the run, antlers takes. some sort of cocktail of medication while angel watches both vaguely concerned and confused but ultimately chooses not to say anything because frankly. well frankly it's none of his business whatever they've got shit to do.

now they get the shot! they get the shot, everyone's celebrating, overjoyed they got it! except antlers. antlers comments on the light, how it's going to be magic soon.

remember he joined this operation late; to him, he hadn't done enough to fully like. constitute his contribution (despite bringing the equipment that actually allowed this come to fruition but to him that isn't enough. it's not enough. he has to get the impossible shot. the shot that will finally, finally prove to himself that he is, in fact, the artistic genius hollywood claims he is. but instead of getting it right there, with angel and the equipment near by, he chooses to walk away, to distance himself from angel, the equipment, and essentially the rest of the group. why? he didn't want to put them in danger.

what he was about to do was essentially suicide! fuck he even leaves angel with a warning before he goes: "Don't worry Angel, it's gonna be alright. We don't deserve the impossible."

|now a lot of people have imposed this 'we' as antlers referring to the group, but frankly? i 100% he was talking about himself and hollywood as a whole. they don't deserve the impossible; they'd just squander it. these kids? these kids do. these kids have put their asses on the line far more than any big wig hollywood anybody has in his lifetime; they deserve the impossible.

granted, if he'd been less cryptic, angel's stupid ass probably wouldn't have followed him up and nearly gotten himself killed by that's neither here nor there at this point tbh THE POINT IS. antlers knew exactly what he was doing (give or take on account of The Meds:tm:) and wasn't going to let those kids get hurt for him to do so because, at the end of the day, it wasn't them who had anything to prove to hollywood; it was him.

tl;dr antlers is a weird cryptic old man who might've been on a lot of drugs but his heart was (kinda) in the right place

[crunchchute]

i know nobody wants to hear about my self insert bs but i had like 2 main storylines clashing so hard in my brain to the point i gave up on them cause one was in the 80s in game storyline and other in like 90s with tse dave and my mind just wanted both at once and merge them but it just did not work at all so those braincells died off. now the tse one picked up again after finishing the book but i miss the game one even if it was cheesy and unoriginal. a mans gotta do what hes gotta do (make up self insert stories in his head every day before bed) (dont read the tags its info that should only have been shared by me being waterboarded)

[hiding-under-the-willow]

He's just like me fr <3

[psikind]

so dnd's been going Great

[jacklelanturn]

NPC ID Photos

[calvinandhobbes]

i want to see boygenius sooo bad but i have a strong feeling that crowd would be fucking horrid

[guromaws]

(id in alt - do not repost - character uses he/him + it/its)

[lion-buddy]

being the resident nezuko liker is such a challenge sometimes

[nero-neptune]

about time i draw my two favorite time travelers

[glaciarieart]

Bunny Jan

[wormadile]

Catbot time

[terpia]

I love this exchange lmao

[frutavel]

And the last of the sketch batch is my shaman/seer, Toranja :D

Man I have 3 forest trolls and they're all redheads huh 🤔

[songship]

WAIT I just remembered this is a secluded corner of the internet where I can bitch about things that dont matter and nobody will care. Awesome

So in addition to being a dying student and cybersecurity boy by day, I also rig vtubers right? But I'm not super invested in like vtubing culture or watch any vtubers, I would honestly compare it to making fursuits without being a furry yourself.

Anyways I'm gettin real fuckin tired of hololive/nijisanji(/vshojo's on real thin fuckin ice)... so like both holo and niji have dropped their new sets of talents literally within days of each other and idk man, it feels fucking ghoulish to see the accounts #funny vtuber tweeting all 'haha horny on main look at me i'm a fellow filthy weeb' before even debuting. Like yeah "holo/niji give their talents lots of freedom" or whatever but not actually because it still has to be approved by a social media manager, it's just that that's a favorable image to project right now. It's not really any different than ye olde funny brand twitter that folks eventually grew tired of.

So I'm seeing my friends get super into corporate vtubers and it's like... listen bud. I respect you as a friend. But by god get some better taste PLEASE and support independent creators instead of the anime flavored dregs of late stage capitalism. It's petty!! It's a minor gripe really!! I'm just mad because my job necessitates high amounts of exposure to other rigger's fanart/clip/etc retweets just so I can get to the cool rigging tips! ANYWAY

TLDR stop watching corpos, start watching my clients and give me money so i can make you a vtuber too

[transsexual-divinity]

First ever tattoo before/after

[chronicroc]

this week has gone great!! I saw puss in boots the last wish in the theater, got new designs for a movie I'm really looking forward to, and two of my twitter enemies have begun their downfalls!!! Life is looking up