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Yellow Curtains - Chapter Two - Wanda Maximoff Series

Summary: Wanda Maximoff's senior year at Novi Grad School is duly planned for her. She has good friends, good grades, and a good system to hide who she really is. Or, the one based on Evak from the Norway Skam series, where Wanda is queer and tries to survive the last year without anyone knowing about it.

Warnings: (+18), general warnings about language and violence, legal drug use, mentions of underage drinking, high school, internalized homophobia and discovery of sexuality, explicit mentions of mental disorders (bipolarity and depression), dysfunctional family, making out, and eventual smut.

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Chapter Two - The Cabin

Ponedeljek 7:30 (Monday 7:30 am)

"Who can dissertate on the Sokovian Revolution of '74?"

The history teacher's question echoed in the classroom, but all he got in response were crestfallen students and soft giggles. T'Challa sighed, a small smile on his lips. "Come on guys, pay attention." He asked, nodding to the digital board where some information from the day's subject matter read. "We discussed last class how the labor revolution allowed Sokovia to become a first-world country in less than fifty years and about how that..."

Wanda's attention fell on the outside, birds flying in the sky above the main courtyard. She watched a few students walk by, and monitors asking what they were doing outside the room, before trying to force her attention back to the matter. 

The minutes dragged on as Professor T'Challa explained about Sokovian independence. Wanda didn't usually have trouble with humanities subjects, but lately, she had been so distracted.

Suddenly, the professor's talk was interrupted by the arrival of Vice Principal Harkness at the door. And she was not alone.

"Hi, T'Challa, good morning. We have a new student; She is late but is my fault, we had a problem with the paperwork. Is it okay if she watches the class?" Asked the woman - practically pushing the new student inside. 

The teacher agreed, of course, smiling gently, and the whole room looked at the student. 

Wanda held her breath, those eyes were so familiar...

"Shit, it's her!" Natasha whispered beside her with some indignation, and Wanda blinked away the new student to her best friend.

"Sorry, what?" the girl asks confused. Natasha nods to the new student's chair.

"It's the girl Carol brought to Tony's party." Nat explains in a low tone so the teacher won't hear. "Shit, I can't believe she's going to study right in our class. I am so unlucky."

T'Challa called for silence from the excited students, and Wanda tried to pay attention to the subject, not understanding why it bothered her that a stranger might be taken.

She was curious about the new student, but everyone else was. And when the class was over, and the table was filled with several other students greeting them and asking where they were from, Wanda gave up trying to find out too.

Natasha seemed willing to run away and practically dragged Wanda out into the courtyard.

They sat down at one of the outside tables, and it wasn't long before Pietro and Clint joined them. 

"Maximoff, you have something of mine." Barton declared as soon as he sat down, and Wanda sighed in defeat.

"I don't." She retorted. "I probably lost it at the party."

"What? Damn it, Wanda, it was three hundred euros!"

"I know, sorry." She asks immediately. "What can I do to make it up to you?"

Clint raises an eyebrow. "Well..."

"Dude!" Pietro interrupts with an angry grimace, giving his friend a hard shove. "It's my sister!" He recalls, but Clint laughs, raising his hands as a sign of peace.

"I'm joking, relax!" He assures between laughs. He then slips an arm around Wanda's shoulders, hugging her for a moment. "You don't worry either. It was because of the police at Tony's apartment, right? You were quick to think of getting out of there, he would have gotten in trouble."

Wanda forces a smile. "Yeah, but now I owe you 300 euros."

Clint shrugs. "Pay me back when you can." He says pushing her shoulder against his lightly. "You can do my homework too."

Wanda rolls her eyes, laughing weakly. "I'll think about it."

They fall into casual conversation after that. Clint comments about the party, and the boys on the team, and Pietro talk about his date with Crystal going well. Natasha is distracted, her gaze keeps going to the other side of the yard, and Wanda sighs slightly when she realizes who her friend is staring at.

"Have you talked to Carol yet?" The younger Maximoff asks, receiving a deep sigh in return.

"Not really, but I don't need to right?" Nat retorts looking at Wanda. " She clearly moved on."

Wanda frowns slightly, looking at the small group. The new student seems close to Carol, and they're all laughing, but she's not as sure about it as Natasha is.

"I don't know, Nat, maybe they're just friends." She tries, and Natasha gives a sad laugh.

"Whatever, Wands. It's not like we have anything official." 

"I think you should talk to her." Wanda insists, and Pietro and Clint join the conversation as well.

"Me too." Barton says. "Make things clear."

"I don't think so." Pietro comments shrugging. "Avoid her, make her anxious. She'll get the message."

Wanda rolls her eyes. "Don't listen to him." 

Nat laughs lightly, and when he sees Tony's group entering the courtyard he lets out an exclamation. "Shit, speaking of crushes, I'll be right back." And walks off towards Tony Stark the next moment.

Wanda feels her blood run cold. From her friend's excitement and the giggles of the boys and glances Tony steals in her direction, she knows exactly what they are talking about.

Natasha runs back to them with a proud smile on her lips.

"Great news, Maximoff." She declares. "Tony told me he's taking his brother for the cabin on the holiday, so we'll all be together and you'll get a chance to get to know him better."

The boys make teasing sounds, and Wanda can only force a laugh. 

When the bell rings, announcing the next class, and her gaze meets the new student's on the other side, she wants to believe she is imagining the way her heart speeds up.

The Independence holiday means four days off, and since eighth grade, Wanda's friends organize some trips, mainly to Stark’s winter cabin, even though it's not really cold.

The weeks go by quickly - which is great. Wanda's attention span at school doesn't improve, and she grows irritated at her brain's insistence on stealing glances at the new student, with whom she shares a single history class a week. 

She learns a few things about the new student. Their first name, the taste for rock bands that she notices due to the black T-shirts, the skateboarding skills from the item they use to leave school. She learns that they are from New York and that they are not Carol's partner.

It is Natasha who is investigating, of course. And Wanda was in the middle of reading an article when her best friend addresses the whole thing.

"You won't believe it, Maximoff! I'm so stupid!"

Wanda frowns. "What? What are you-"

"Y/N is not Carol's girlfriend! They are sisters!" She declares, holding out her cell phone at the brunette's eye level. "She just posted this."

It is open on Instagram, a photo of Carol with the new student riding her skateboard in the city park. In the caption 'I missed you, little sister! Glad you're here now!" Wanda feels a wave of relief fill her body and doesn't know why.

Natasha exclaims excitedly, "You know what that means, right?"

"Žal ne (No, sorry)." Wanda mutters uncertainly, but Nat chuckles.

"Silly girl, it means I'm back in the game!" Declares the redhead. "I'll like her last few stories and put her back in the best friends. She'll get the message."

"Or you could just talk to her..."

Nat laughs through her nose. "You're funny, Wanda." Says the girl, turning her attention back to her cell phone.

Wanda doesn't want to think too much about the whole matter. She doesn't really know you, and it seems ridiculous that you don't leave her thoughts. She is sure that it is Nat's fault and her momentary obsession with Carol.

When the Independence holiday arrives, and she finds herself in a crowded car heading for Tony Stark's cabin, her anxiety returns. She remembers that there, it would be Vision, and that everyone expected her to leave the cabin with a new boyfriend. Would it be too late to give up the trip?

"I'll take the window bed!" Clint and Pietro got into a pushing fight over the largest room as soon as they arrived. Wanda just wanted to sit down, because Tony's group was finishing checking out the entrance to the cabin's compound - Rich people's stuff - and they were all stealing glances at her.

By the time Carol's car arrived, Wanda was dressed more comfortably and smelled of soap. She had taken advantage of the fight for rooms to use the shower before everyone else, and although she only got one bunk, she was satisfied with the impossibility of sleeping with someone else next to her. It read Vision.

"I swear to god this girl is trying to kill me." Natasha gasps low from the balcony next to Wanda, watching Carol get out of the car in short shorts and a button-down shirt practically all open, showing off a sports top underneath. Wanda laughs at her friend's reaction, but when you get down from the back of the truck, she shallows dry.

You are busy pulling a motorcycle out of the back, and Wanda's brain clicks.

She recognizes the vehicle, and the helmet, and her heart speed up so much that it's the only thing she hears in her ears for a moment.

"Her sister's hot too, huh?" Natasha comments half-impressed, and Wanda immediately looks away. 

"I don't know, I don't like girls." She retorts, surprising Nat with her aggressiveness. The redhead gives a confused laugh.

"Okay? But you can tell a girl is pretty without being attracted to her." The redhead says, but Wanda clears her throat and hugs her own body.

"Sure, whatever." She murmurs. "I'm gonna take a nap, I'm tired from the trip." She says, practically running inside.

She doesn't notice your gaze searching for her.

–//–

Petek, 20:40 (Friday, 8:40am)

Wanda awoke in a very quiet cabin. 

She wasn't surprised that everyone went to bed early, after all the trip had been equally tiring for everyone, yet it bothered her a little to be the first to wake up.

She left her bunk as quietly as she could, watching her brother in the bottom bed snore lightly as he slept on his stomach.

After going to the bathroom, she was disappointed to find a completely empty kitchen and thought about waking Nat or Tony for a company to the market when she heard footsteps in the living room.

You opened the door making some noise, because the key got stuck in the doorknob.

"Shit." You muttered to yourself, struggling a bit to unhook the item. Wanda stepped into the kitchen doorway, hands in front of her body, and you jumped slightly when she wished you good morning half uncertainly. But your surprise gave way to a smile the next second. "Zdravo! (Hello) Sorry about the noise!"

Wanda shook her head, smiling as well. "Don't worry, you're Y/N, right? Carol's sister."

You raise an eyebrow at her, a charming smile playing on your lips. Wanda hates it. Hates how gorgeous you look right now, the twist in her stomach. She swallows dryly, and you lean on the door.

"She mentioned me, huh?" you ask. "Or maybe you asked."

Wanda's cheeks flush, and she grimaces to disguise it. "She mentioned it." She assures you with a half-trembling voice, which seems to amuse you. "Anyway, do you know where I can find food in this place? I'm starving."

You chuckle lightly, tossing the door key on the small table next to you and reaching out to grab your wallet from there and another set of keys from the support, which has a keychain that Wanda recognizes as belonging to Carol.

"Of course, princess, we'll find food for you." You say, and Wanda knows she is blushing at the nickname, but follows you anyway, just like the first night. And outside, walking side by side toward Carol's truck, you extend your hand to her. "I'm Y/N Danvers, by the way. We haven't officially introduced ourselves."

Wanda shakes your hand. "I'm-"

"Wanda Maximoff." You complete with a small smile, still holding her hand. "And I asked about it."

Wanda pulls her hand away before you realize that she is shaking.

You get in the car first, whistling lightly as you start the truck. Wanda tries to play it cool, keeping her arms crossed the whole way to the market. It's not far, but it seems like every minute drags.

"Did you get home safely after that day?" Your sudden question surprises her a little. Wanda frowns until she remembers what you are talking about.

"Hmm, yeah." She answers. "Someone else gave me a ride home." She says with a small smile.

You don't take your eyes off the road. "You lied to me, Maximoff." You comment then, to which Wanda looks at you with confusion. A small smile plays on her lips. "You are not part of the Avengers. You snuck into an event of ours, I could have ended up in trouble..."

"Hey, you're the one who practically kidnapped me from Tony's party!" Wanda defends herself. "And you asked if I was his friend, which I am, not if I was part of his group of protesters!"

You laugh, shaking your head. "Relax, I'm just messing with you." You comment, but Wanda can only give a nervous laugh because you give her thigh a gentle squeeze and she forgets how to breathe. The touch fades away at the same speed as it happened, your hands returning to the steering wheel, but Wanda's skin is still prickling. "I asked Carol about the mystery girl and she told me you weren't part of the group, but you were trustworthy and welcome in everything. So relax."

Wanda smiles half proudly, glad that Carol trusts her so much even though they are not so close. You cross a green light, and at the next turn, you find the supermarket parking lot.

Whatever this conversation means, it completely improves the atmosphere between you, making the interaction very light and fun. Wanda is unfamiliar at first - Pietro would recognize that Wanda had a shy and alert nature even better than she did. He would constantly tease her about being too self-conscious, and in need of relaxing, and would surely be surprised to see her laugh as easily as she is doing now. 

You picked up a shopping cart and seemed to have made it your morning mission to make her laugh as you sort through the groceries. You did little dances with the objects, threw bad jokes and flirtations at her, and even told loose facts as if you were close friends.

Wanda now knew that you lived in a shared apartment with Carol and two other girls and that you could speak Sokovian fluently. You were not a vegetarian even though you tried about three times, and you couldn't have pets even though you really wanted a cat because your roommates were allergic. And you could sing Lorde.

"She's so dramatic, I love it." You declare as the music starts on the speakers in the marketplace. You and Wanda are in the pasta aisle, and she giggles softly. "She's like a Taylor Swift of lesbians, but more alternative."

Wanda chuckles, soft anxiety rising in her stomach. She follows you down the hallway. "But there's a theory that Taylor Swift likes girls too, you know?"

You chuckle, shrugging. "Yeah, I've heard of it. But I think I prefer the ones who actually came out.  Nothing against Taylor, of course, she's a great artist. I just won't refer to her as a queer icon when she's never really taken her place in the community."

Wanda bites her tongue, the question about your sexuality on the tip. Would it be weird to question whether you liked girls in the middle of pasta hall? And why would that make a difference to her?

Your cell phone vibrates, and as soon as you read the notification, you huff softly. Wanda is curious to know what it is, but you put the device away and hurry up the pace. "Come on, Maximoff, our friends are hungry too."

You are distant on the way back, and Wanda twists the fabric of her shorts in curiosity as to why. 

Luckily, you accompany her to the kitchen with the groceries. 

The guys in the cabin are waking up a bit, but the space is small enough that no one will bother you two with breakfast, even if the living room fills up with teenagers.

"Can you make the coffee while I prepare sandwiches for us?" You ask so gently that Wanda doesn't even hear the question properly, and only nods in agreement. She moves around, trying not to touch you - which is practically impossible in that small space - but you don't seem to notice much, busy with bread and cheese. "You're not a vegetarian, are you Maximoff? I was going to put some ham on this."

"I'm not, you can follow your recipe." Wanda retorts with a small smile, a curious look at the double sandwiches you are preparing. She bites her lip when you catch her looking and offers her a wink before returning to the task.

Carol appears in the kitchen doorway next.

"Good morning, cuties. Got any coffee?" She asks. Wanda denies it with her head.

"It's not ready yet."

Carol yawns, moving closer to look at the market bags you have brought. She chuckles then. "Jesus, Y/N, did you buy anything healthy?" You shrug, indifferent to the question. Carol sighs. "You know you have half the soccer team here, right?"

"If they're bothered they buy their own food." You retort impolitely. Carol rolls her eyes.

"Don't be rude; you know you should eat better too-"

"Sure, Mom." You cut her off, turning your back on her to hand Wanda her sandwich. "Here you go, princess."

The brunette smiles half-heartedly at the nickname in Carol's presence, but the blonde only sighs in defeat at the argument and doesn't even seem to notice. She leaves the kitchen, and you stare at Wanda expectantly. She smiles shyly before taking a bite of the sandwich and is surprised at how good it tastes.

"Wow, what did you put in here?"

You chuckle. "Chef's secret." You joke, wrinkling your nose in an adorable way as you pick up your sandwich. You eat together for a moment until the kettle beeps and Wanda leaves the rest of the sandwich on the countertop to finish the coffee.

"Did you like it?" you ask as she pours the drink. Wanda smiles.

"Yeah, quite a bit." She assures you. "Too bad it's a chef's secret, I'd love to learn how to make it."

You chuckle, finishing chewing your piece before clarifying:

"Well, it's a family recipe. That's why it's a secret. You'd have to be part Danvers to earn the legal right to know the ingredients." You joke, getting a soft chuckle from Wanda. You stare at her, almost fascinated. "What about you? Don't you have any family traditions?"

Wanda is thoughtful for a moment, an expression on her face that you would describe as adorable to say the least. And then she gives a small laugh.

"I think so." She says, pouring a mug. "Mom always prepares Šišky on birthdays. I think it looks like American doughnuts."

"Yummy." You murmur causing me to smile in agreement. "And when is your birthday?"

Wanda is surprised but smiles, "February 10th." She answers and watches you pull your cell phone out of your pocket at the same minute.

"Well, let me save the date then." You comment, putting her birth date into the calendar app with the greatest tranquility in the world. Wanda thinks she is blushing.

"What about your...?"

But her question goes unanswered because a tall boy appears in the kitchen doorway. It's Peter Parker, another of Tony's classmates who is on the soccer team. He stretches out gently and you put your cell phone away, placing your snack away on the counter to greet him.

"Good morning, sleepyhead." You say, and it is so affectionate that Wanda swallows dry. He chuckles sleepily, moving closer. Wanda's heart stops when he kisses you on the mouth. "Did you sleep well?"

He mumbles in agreement, shrugging before looking at Wanda and wishing her good morning. 

"What's for breakfast?" He asks.

"Food." You retort amusedly, making him chuckle and roll his eyes.

"Okay, smarty pants." He grumbles, yawning a little. "Clearly you didn't buy anything healthy, you know Steve's gonna give you a hard time for that, right?"

You shrug, letting him hug your waist. "I'm terrified." You comment wryly, making Peter laugh.

Wanda feels sick. He kisses your cheek again, and she clears her throat. She grabs the coffee mug, and barely manages to force a smile before practically running out of the kitchen.

The rest of the folks are gradually waking up, and when Wanda is on the porch drinking coffee, Vision comes over to greet her.

"You're Wanda, right? Tony told me about you." 

He is gentle, and he is good-looking. And Wanda remembers Peter Parker kissing you in the kitchen, so she smiles and asks Vision to sit with her. It's exactly as it should be, she convinces herself.

–//–

Ponedeljek, 14:30 (Monday, 2.40 am)

Whatever Wanda expected from this holiday, she was not prepared for anything that actually happened. 

On Saturday, everyone played paintball between the cabins. Vision was her partner. He was a good player, but you hit him on the top of his helmet two minutes into the game.

You looked Wanda in the eye but didn't shoot her, disappearing between the cabins the next minute. She kept thinking about this interaction all day.

On Sunday, the gang went outside to play soccer and it was a real mess. Wanda was discreetly watching you play, annoyed at the line her thoughts took with the image of you sweating and panting, but she had no choice but to stay outside because Carol and Natasha were making out in her bedroom. She wasn't sure when they happened again, but she wasn't surprised that she missed it, having been too busy the whole holiday trying not to pay attention to you.

When it was finally time to leave, and everyone was finishing cleaning the cabin in pairs, Wanda caught you and Peter fighting outside when she went to put some bottles out for recycling.

"I don't need a babysitter, Parker!" You angrily declared, gesturing a little. 

"I'm just taking care of you-"

"I'm not a fucking child!" 

Peter rolls his eyes. "No, but you act like one." He accuses annoyed, and you chuckle humorlessly, crossing your arms. He sighs in defeat, raising a hand to your arm but you pull away from the touch. "Okay, whatever. Go chill out, then we'll talk."

He walks off angrily into the cabin through the kitchen entrance, and Wanda makes a noise so as not to startle you.

You run a hand across your face, forcing a smile before approaching her, "Let me help you with this." You say, taking the case of beers from her hand without waiting for a response. Wanda swallows dryly, but decides to follow your cue, and picks up another box further away before following you to the recyclable trash cans.

You place one box next to the other on top of Carol's open truck, in the intention of separating the bottles and cans. Wanda takes a risk:

"Is everything okay between you and Peter?"

You chuckle weakly, grabbing two bottles from the pile.

"Sure, just a silly argument." You mutter moving away to put the bottles in the correct garbage can. "He's sweet, but he's still a man."

Wanda frowns. "What do you mean?"

You short, shrugging; "You've never had a boyfriend?" You ask, and Wanda denies it with her head. You sigh, searching for the right words. "Well, boys can be... obnoxious." You comment with a short laugh. "It's just, they're different. How they treat us, how they act with us and with other people. Peter is really sweet when he's with me, but when he's around his friends he's a jerk and kind of controlling. And by god, don't even get me started when it's around my father... Fucking treating me like I'm something he owns just to please the old man."

Wanda separates a few bottles, thoughtful towards your statements. "I'm sorry."

You hum, shrugging. "Okay, it's not really our fault that society is patriarchal and sexist. It's going to take Peter some time to break the norms and act decently, but I'm under no obligation whatsoever to deal with it."

Wanda swallows dryly. "D-did you broke up with him?"

You look at her with surprise. "No? I meant that I don't have to take pity on him. If he acts like an idiot, we'll fight. And if he doesn't change, then we'll break up."

The brunette tries to hide her disappointment with a hum of understanding. You look at her curiously.

"You and Vision seem to be getting along well."

She forces a chuckle, nodding. She grabs more bottles and runs away from your gaze as she replies, "I guess so."

"Is he your boyfriend now or what?"

Wanda laughs nervously, shaking her head. "No, not really."

"He seems interested in changing that." You insist, studying her reactions. Wanda swallows dryly, putting away other bottles.

"I think so." She murmurs. You hum almost angry all of a sudden - Wanda jumps when you mash a can with a hard punch - and she swallows dryly before raising her gaze to you again. "Do you think...I should accept? If he asks."

You stare at her with an indecipherable expression, biting the inside of your cheek. Wanda almost takes back the question, but you sigh and look away.

"I don't know, you're the one who has to know." You retort with forced casualness. "If you like him, say yes. You were together the whole holiday, I don't see what the problem is."

Wanda stares at the bottles in her hands, her heart racing in her chest.

"Maybe... I was just scared." She murmurs, surprising you. You stare at her expectantly, but Wanda doesn't meet your gaze, her fingers on the bottles. "Maybe I think Vision is likely my only option."

You grimace softly. "What are you talking about?"

Wanda laughs sadly, looking at you. "Like... I don't think there's anyone else to love me. Maybe Vision is my only option, and I just... I'm tired of being alone."

The heartfelt confession takes her by surprise as well. But at this point, Wanda shouldn't be impressed that your presence in her life has come to turn everything upside down at once.

And when you simply step forward, and bring a hand to her face, pulling a lock of hair out of front of her eyes, Wanda thinks you are doing it on purpose.

"Don't you think it's selfish to stick by someone just for convenience, Wanda? Vis has feelings too." The seriousness of your words doesn't do justice to the gentle touch on her face, and Wanda feels a mix of conflicting emotions in her chest.

"Maybe I'm just a bad person." She declares with a sad laugh, but you don't smile.

"I don't think so." You whisper, your thumb caressing her cheek. "I think you are very sweet. And maybe you just need to understand that lots of people love you. And you won't be alone if you say no to a boy you don't like."

Wanda lets out a shuddering breath. "Who says I don't like him?" She teases, her knees going weak as you firm your grip on her cheek and lean in all at once. 

Your breath hits her lips, and Wanda closes her eyes, waiting for the impact that doesn't come. You gasp softly, your breath heavy against her cheek.

Your hand leaves her cheek and goes down to a bottle beside you.

You step back a half second before Carol appears in the area where you are standing. Wanda didn't even hear her coming, in fact, she doesn't think she heard much beyond her own heart beating in her ears.

"Aren't you guys done with that yet? Come on people, we have to get on the road soon." Carol repressed, but you forced a laugh at her, muttering something about her being a pain in the ass. 

If you noticed how Wanda's hands were shaking as she held the next bottles, you didn't say.

[shaykeijser]

me after seeing there’s not a new clip even when i know damn well it’s the middle of the night in europe

[inkblot-inc]

nat forcing jaws to watch stuff like the little mermaid.

also, what kinda music do you think they listen to

For sure, and let’s be real, any fish-related media gets thrown into Shark Flick Sunday. Because she and the others are getting Jaws’ takes on them all.

---

I mentioned this briefly in the headcanon about Jaws’ first Christmas, but they’re a huge Linkin Park fan. Jaws stumbled up on them not too long after the Avenger’s found them, and they latched onto it.

Jaws does strike me as a rock or rap person honestly, they’re not opposed to other genres. Jaws also has a bit of a soft spot for classics like Billy Joel, Hall and Oates and all that.

Fun fact: in the ask talking about Jaws singing love songs to Nat, the song that I pictured was Biggest Part of Me by Ambrosia

[crispydumbass]

so that was a wild, fun ride. I rly thought i was gonna die at some point but look at me, I made it through!

Gosh the angstiest remake Ive ever seen, all those little callbacks to the og one, ALL THOSE EMOTIONS I C A N T

All Im asking for is pls dont hurt me like that with the next season, my heart wont take it. I need something fluffy and comfy now (not the skamfr then lol) and at the same time i dont know what to do with myself.

Maybe Ill just start previous seasons later lol, we'll see

[ravenbrenna09]

fanfiction writer appreciation: skamverse edition

okay, so, earlier this week, @yaraaimsakul created a gif-maker appreciation for the skamverse fandom and i decided that i wanted to do something similar but for the writers of our little fandom. writing can sometimes take a lot of work out of us but it’s also such a beautiful thing and sometimes, it doesn’t get the recognition that it deserves. so, if you see this and you aren’t tagged, i want you to know that you are an amazing writer OR if you are a reader and aren’t tagged, but would like to spread the love to the writer’s YOU enjoy, do it! DO IT! spread all the love. i know all the writers of all fandoms (not even limited to the skam fandom) would love to hear from those who read their fics. 

also, if you want to tag more than one person. do it! if you want add questions, do it!! 

if you’re a writer:

a fic that you’re really proud of:


it’s really a tie between just friends and jij verliest. i really love both of them and i love how they both turned out—even if it was sometimes a little stressful because of irl events and the deadlines i put on myself. but i love the story about robbe and sander falling in love in another universe(s).

a fic that you were nervous to post:

safe. with unattainable, i felt very comfortable about robbe’s pov and his story but i wasn’t comfortable with sander’s. in addition, i would have probably liked to change his backstory—but it was the one i envisioned when i wrote unattainable so it felt weird to change all of a sudden. but it was probably the one i was most nervous about.

a fic you wished got more hits/kudos/comments:

overall, i will always wish that the curse of betrayal would get more hits. i know that it’s a fic centered on jana but i’ve thrown my heart and my soul into this fic and i love it to death. i love harry potter and i love wtfock so why not combine my two loves (tho i am putting a lot of pressure on myself lol)

one of your favorite tropes to write:

childhood friends to lovers, everyday. i love the trope so much it’s great. i really wish i could write a sobbe fic like that again lol.

another ship that you don’t write but you’d like to write:

omg there’s so many, you(s)mina is definitely one that i’m interested in writing because i just love them so much. the basketball clips the chemistry! it’s just impeccable. and zoënne. like real zoënne not whatever the hell attachment is LOL.

one of your abandoned wip you never wrote but wish you did:

um... my beach au. i love the idea but the plot isn’t tangible to me right now. i think i’m going to potentially write it someday but as of right now, it doesn’t look good. and maybe my royal au but idk if that’s abandoned yet.

another writer you would love to collaborate with:

@sonderthroughthestreets, @carolineworld, and @tsjernobyl <3 oh and @genjasafin ( ;) )

if you’re a reader:

a fic (or more) that you love to reread:

i know i had the questions, but it’s like i completely blanked on every fic that i reread. i really love anything by @aholynight because their way with words is simply amazing and their sobbe fics are to die for. i remember counting down the hours until they would post the chapter on sundays and it was amazing. oh and i’ve been loving @sobbefairytales’s the things you once said to me and i can’t wait to see how it turns out (but no pressure babe).

tag an author you always love reading:

@honeyandsinn cat i’m so behind on reading everyone’s fics but i always love reading yours because it’s always so sweet and beautiful and amazing. keep writing and conquering uni’s ass, you amazing queen. 

recommend a story to your followers:

if you haven’t already go read @tsjernobyl’s fic right this second. here’s the link. okay, i really can’t say anything personal about this fic because i haven’t had the time to actually read it yet because graduation and stuff and negative thoughts but i’m getting on it. but, i’ve been talking to her since she’s started this fic months ago and she’s thrown so much of her heart and soul into this fic and i know for a fact that it is going to shine in her work.

as for non-skamverse recommendations, go read the life of times. it’s a marauders fic and is the whole reason i’m a writer. 

tag an author you discovered recently:

i haven’t been in any ao3 tag in a while so i haven’t been able to catch up on fics so i don’t have an answer for this one :( though once i watch skam france i’m probably going to read @earthlingeliott and @luxandobscurus‘s fics, does that count?

spread the love!

tag someone who inspires you to write:

@peaceoutofthepieces, nat idk how you fucking do your amazing writing months in advance without dropping it but i am so inspired by you to try and do that. you’re fucking amazing and one of my best friends. dottori/croissenne, i miss her love and takes so much. @luludemauryyy, jess, i know you’re not writing skamverse right now but seriously though your motivation and excitement to write your fic is so contagious and amazing, i love you babe.

tag someone who you’ve admired forever:

@aholynight (i’m sorry to tag you twice), @dearrobbe/@dearsander, @sonderthroughthestreets, @luludemauryyy

tag your writing support and loves!

where to start... the aewb server for being the absolute shit and listening to me drown on my writing woes and conflicts. @tsjernobyl, emma, you give me so much support even when i’m struggling and i’m probably so annoying but you’re such an amazing person and thank you for supporting me. @sonderthroughthestreets, @honeyandsinn, thank you both for putting up with my random questions and bursts of inspiration and ideas. @hidden-joy, @sandersyasmina, @sanderxrobbee for helping me when i’m struggling and supporting me even with my hogwarts au and other stories. and everyone who has ever liked/commented on my fics or sent me an ask. you guys have all supported me in more ways than one. 

tagging: 

everyone who has already been tagged in this and @dagcutie, @carolineworld, @lot-bubbel, @luxandobscurus, @earthlingeliott, @mijnlief, @birthdaysentiment, @sander-klaas, and anyone that wants to do it. yes, even you.

[uitzinnigmp3]

gif maker appreciation tag - skamverse edition

i was tagged by @yaraaimsakul, @earthlingeliott, @lucasotteli, @nooraevas and @hidden-joy thank you all so much!! this took me ages sdlkfjdslk but i had so much fun <3 also thank you tutu for starting this!!!

rules: answer these questions and tag anyone you’d like (gif maker or not!) to help spread the appreciation. if you’re not a gif maker, ignore the first part

if you’re a gif maker…

a gifset you’re really proud of: definitely this gifset of skam nl season one! it was a pain in the ass to make slkdjf but every time i look back on it i just go :D i made this!!! ALSO this set of nora explaining what she’s feeling took me far too long but it’s still one of my most successful skamverse gifsets today, and i’m really happy about that!  

a gifset of your favorite remake: i absolutely cannot decide so i’m putting one for both druck and skamnl :) this gifset i made for druck season five did pretty well and i’m so glad bc i absolutely love it, i think it turned out really well :) and for skam nl of course, since i put the first part in the first category, this set for season two!! i’m still so proud of both of them (they took me Ages but it was absolutely worth it) 

a gifset that you wish would get more notes: all of them?? sfldks no i’m kidding but there’s a fair amount that i was just a little disappointed in, like this cashqueens set for alt er love week which i really really love (yes i know i spelt fatou’s last name wrong there it’s Bothering me but i’m too lazy to change <3) and lowkey this eliott set? idk it wasn’t anything special and it was a while ago that i made it but the colouring is actually really pretty (if i may say so myself sdlkfjsdlk)

a gifset where you tried something new: these gifsets with my skamverse lgbtq+ headcanons! it was the first time i worked with gradient text and i think it turned out pretty well :D also this davenzi gifset i made a while ago for a secret santa was the first time i put 2 gifs on one canvas, and tho it doesn’t look the best i still really like it!

spread the love!

a gifset of your favorite remake: still can’t choose between druck and skamnl so yall r getting more than one again, for druck i’m absolutely in love with this set aj @fakieu made for alt er love week, the colours are beautiful and the quotes are so good!! also this one by magda @noramachwtz bc druck old gen still has my whole heart, the blue in this is so stunniiing! now for skamnl this one by brenna @yasminaselamrani is definitely my fav lately, the symbols and the font are gorgeous!! also i love the colours sm, and this one by @peaceoutofthepieces just makes me laugh every time i see it sldkfjsdl nat u r so right

a gifset of a remake you haven’t watched/don’t like/isn’t your favorite: at this point i don’t know what counts as my most disliked skam bc i love them all so much, so i’ll just choose from my not-favs slfkjsdlk this wtfock gifset by @sanderxrobbee is so so beautiful, the colours and the blending is amazing! and i always forget how much i love skamit until i see gifsets of it again which are always amazing, and this one of nico by @starlightfantasia was no exception, it’s absolutely stunning!

a gifset with a cool layout: (i’m gonna be shouting out brenna a lot here so be ready lmao) this gifset by brenna is just. woah. this took so much effort and it absolutely paid off, i love it so much!!! 

tag someone who does beautiful coloring: ohh definitely jovana @yasminasrobbe and also tutu @yaraaimsakul!! also brenna again slfkdsmkl i can only dream to colour as well as u guys <3

tag someone who inspires you to make gifsets: magda @noramachwtz and valentina @nooraevas are both people who’ve really inspired me, tina started giffing just a month (or something) before me but she’s helped me so much finding new ways to gif without photoshop and magda is just amazing she’s inspired me so much! alsoooo maaike @phantomtarlos i think was the first gifmaker i really talked to and i was just so interested in how it worked so i really think she inspired me to start giffing 🥺 

tag someone who you’ve discovered recently: uhh idk what exactly counts as recent but i followed flora @floraflorenzi during druck s5 i think? and i’m 100% in love with their gifs, she always manages to get the best kieutou moments somehow and i love it. also ella @hatecomesfromfear0 recently joined the ael server and her gifs are so nice!

tag someone who you’ve admired for forever: uhhh i think definitely jovana, also @alinok and valentina, magda, soph, tutu, and so so many more people i can’t all remember, honestly if you make gifs, i admire you!! you’re all amazing and ily <3

tag your favorite people to participate! imma tag everyone i already mentioned (if u want of course) plus @inejs-kaz @lolaslecomte @pduwd and @lolasluquette! feel free to ignore or to do this even if i didn’t tag you!

[inmyarmswrappedin]

hello you probably already talked about this but why did you drop robbe season?

Hi anon! 🧩 I have mentioned it before, yeah, but I don’t mind talking about it in a bit more depth.

Admittedly Robbe’s season was already a hard sell for me before it even premiered. I have watched every Eva season, and that has always given me an indication of how things are going to go for the Isak season. Like, even though remake teams tend to go all out for their Isak season, and try harder than with their previous seasons (and I don’t think it’s controversial to say remake teams know their Isak season will majorly increase their viewership, even fandom has pointed this out as a reason Skam NL should’ve stuck it out for VDH’s season), you can already get a good idea in s1 about what they want to keep from Skam and where they’re going their own way.

I love Eva and I also tend to like her remakes. Honestly, I find Eva’s story really interesting, Jonas a good character when handled well, and I’ve generally enjoyed getting introduced to yet another iteration of the girl squad. I like the familiarity of the story beats. I also think how Jonas’ ideas are handled is a good indicator of how politically minded the team is, and how they plan on using their platform. 

And the thing is, despite all this, I found Jana’s season a struggle to get through. I had to try twice because I couldn’t get through the first time. At first, I thought it was because the writers had been super lazy with the adaptation. I loathe what they did with Jonas’ character, how little Jens knows about social justice. I was really put off by how, since they couldn’t write Yasmina into parties, they gave the drink throwing moment to Luca instead, but then more or less kept to the original storyline. Even back then, I was really concerned by how aggressive they made Moyo during the cabin trip clips. But then a friend binged the season after me, and brought up how terrible the pacing was (with Friday clips being moved to other days, destroying the momentum Skam builds through the week), how most of the actors sounded like they were literally reading from a script, and the utter spam of meaningless social media pics (with very few texts to go with it). And so I realized that this season I generally enjoy bored me, because Wtfock is generally just slapped together carelessly. 

Another issue I had was... Well, I’m not sure this comes across given my rabid love for David, but I actually think Skam s3 is as close to perfect TV as it gets. I don’t think this is a season that needs fixing. And as the Isak seasons succeeded each other, I realized I didn’t care for an Isak season that pretty much just took Isak and Even and put them in another country. I prefer the Isak seasons that did something Skam s3 never did, because they were never going to improve on Skam s3, and to do the same thing would just remind me how much better the acting, the music, the photography, the writing, etc. was in Skam. So I was hoping that maybe Wtfock’s Even would be a moc and they’d touch on racism for a change. However I knew the chances of Wtfock casting a trans man or a moc for their Even were slim to none.

But at the time it was kind of unthinkable that there would be an Isak season dropping, and people would not watch. And I in particular was a bit of a completionist, like I haven’t watched most Noora seasons, but I’ve watched all of the Eva seasons, and all the Isak seasons except for the last few episodes of Lucas L’s. These days I’m comfortable not tuning in (esp after trainwrecks like Arthur’s or Kato’s seasons), but at the time it felt kinda wrong to not give a season a chance, you know. Besides, a lot of people whose opinion I trust said s2 was great! Zoe and Senne one of the best noorhelms, if not the best! They really had fixed everything that was wrong with noorhelm, their social media game was so good, etc... I mean, you were there for s3 I assume, you know how people were hyping Wtfock at the time. And, for instance, Druck majorly improved in s2 after a more or less okay s1, so it’s not like remakes had never fixed their shit before.

So I started watching, but right away, I didn’t like the way they introduced Noor. She almost kinda seemed like the actual love interest in how cool she was, and how happy Robbe was hanging out with her that first night. I posted this, speculating about why Wtfock would introduce her that way. I should note that I posted that link on twitter as well, and Bram Renders liked my tweet... not too long after his tweet complaining about fans who read too much into the show would surface. 😂

Since I enjoyed writing that post, I thought I’d post weekly reaction posts in the style of Nat (@lightsandlostbells) and some others. The problem is that I’m just really good at procrastinating (I’ve been promising reaction posts in the same style for my favorite Skams seasons for... years now lol). And I wanted to keep my reactions fresh, so I stopped watching in real time. My plan was to watch the clips when I had enough time to write. This was like... Middle of week 2, I want to say. At the time, Sander hadn’t even been introduced yet!!

Even though I wasn’t watching, I still followed Wtfock-related accounts, like translators and subbers, so I still kinda knew what was going on. I was actually really let down by the way Wtfock didn’t take advantage of having Robbe and Sander in the same location for an entire week. Like, Sander was sticking a sandwich in Robbe’s mouth in a ~sexy way a few hours after exchanging their names, and yet it all kinda simmered down? No tension over social media really. Idk, I just feel like if Isak and Even, or Cris and Joana, or Matteo or David, had been stuck in the same house for an entire week shortly after meeting, Skam, Druck and eskam wouldn’t have let us forget about it for even a second. 

In the end, I never did write those posts, and I ended up washing my hands off the season because the tone of the discussions around the show was legit starting to get to me in a bad way. Like how LGBTI people were attacked for disliking the gay bashing scene. Or the discussions over whether the shower scene had gone too far or if Julie Andem had exploited Tarjei Sandvik Moe just as much. I disliked Moyo but also disliked the way white fans were writing about him. And the Britt bashing was just so gross. I was getting irl upset about a season I wasn’t even watching or following, so I put it out of my mind. 

[anthonyed]

color me you  (stevetony college! au inspired by this scene from skam france) also on Ao3 rated M for sexual content

“This is stupid,” Tony sighs, pain brush dropping with a plop into the paint can. Dark blue mixing with bright yellow, Tony couldn’t give a fuck about them.

“Speak for yourself. Personally, I find this very soothing,” Clint shrugs, swirling white into pink and marvelling at the pastel.

Rhodey aims a kick at his side, ignoring Clint’s protest to address Tony, “What’s going on?” He asks.

Tony gives an abortive shrug, “Nothing, I just feel,” he pauses to pull in a breath and exhales it out loud, “You guys aren’t even responsible for this,” he waves at the pathetic mural that needs repainting.

Clint stands up from his crouching, going to paint a stroke of pastel pink over the faded black ink of ‘Work Hard Study Smart’. All three of them scrunch their noses in distaste.

“Lighter,” Clint decides.

“We told you we don’t mind,” Rhodey tells Tony.

“I’m having all the fun,” Clint dribbles more white, beaming up at them.

Tony rolls his eyes. “That’s not what I meant -,”

“What is it then?”

Tony tries to wave it off, but Rhodey’s stare means business so he caves in and admits, “Rogers’ supposed to do this.”

“What’s going on with you two?” Nat asks from her seat at the back of the room. She’s too cool to paint is her excuse.

Tony turns from her to find two more pairs of eyes on him. He shrugs, picking up his own paint brush, wishing they’d accept that for an answer and drop the topic. But they’re still looking when he glances up from the brush so he sighs, shrugging again.

It’s not like they don’t know the rest. He’s told them as much.

“We’re not talking,” he says.

“Talking, face to face or -,”

“Talking, in any way,” Tony tells Clint who purses his lips thoughtfully and says, “But those notes…,”

“He gives you notes?” Nat chirps in, having moved in closer in the span of last minute. Tony scowls at her.

“He draws comics on post-its and gives them to Tony,” Rhodey supplies.

“Tony’s a rat and Rogers’ a bunny. Real cute,” Clint grins, “Show her, Tones.”

Tony shuts him up with a glare but Natasha’s already holding out a hand, carefully plucked brow raised in challenge.

Giving up, Tony pulls out the folded collection of the longer sticky sticky-notes from his back pocket. “It's a mouse. Not a rat.”  

He watches Natasha read through them, her face remaining stoic throughout until the end when she holds them out for his taking and remarks, “Cute.”

“Shut up,” Tony grumbles, pocketing them back.

“And you carry them with you all the time?”

“I thought you have an important assignment?” He scowls at her.

She levels him with her infamous no-shit stare. “Why are you not talking to him?”

Tony sees Rhodey and Clint share a look before busying themselves with the paints. He disregards them for Nat and answers her. After all, she’s the only one who’s yet to know about last weekend.

“He urm. He got back with his girlfriend.”

“He told you?”

“I saw him. They were kissing at Sharon’s party.”

“I thought you said they broke up?”

“That’s what he told me!” Tony loses his cool for a second, realises it and recollects himself. But Natasha’s face says it’s too late, she’s computed his reaction already.

“Did you ask him about it?”

“No. I told him to fuck off,” Tony grumps, scuffing the floor with his sneaker.

Natasha hums, leaning back against the desk, a pinched expression on her face. “But he still sends you those notes.”

“Slips ‘em in when I’m not looking.” Tony shakes his head, “Maybe he just wanted an out from this stupid project,” he sighs heavily, attempting a light hearted comment as he smirks at Nat.

But Natasha’s not listening, lost in her own thoughts which Tony leaves her to. He’s got tons of work to do anyway. Like a wall to paint.

 They’re collectively scolding Clint for getting the pink to white ratio wrong when Natasha speaks again.

“Text him,” she says.

Rhodey and Tony fall silent, looking at each other and at Clint as well.

“What?” Tony laughs nervously. “I’m not doing that.”

“Gonna play collector to his comic till you die then?”

Tony bristles.

“Geez, Nat. No need to be so morbid all the time.”

She silences him with a stare, “Send him a text. Tell him, he either chooses you or he stops with those notes.”

Tony blinks, fingers immediately reaching for his back pocket but stops when Natasha’s gaze falls on them. She gives him a pointed look. “It’s not fair of him to lead you on.”

“He’s not leading me on,” Tony mumbles.. 

“Are you sure about that?” Rhodey bumps his shoulder lightly. An encouraging smile plays along his lips. Tony glances at Clint and sees the same look on his face.

“So, what do I write exactly,” he sighs, pulling out his phone.

  Date me or quit sending those notes glares at him as he hesitates. “Do I add an angry emoji?” He looks up at the mastermind behind it; Nat.

“Are you five?” Clint cringes. Natasha tips her head in his direction, wordlessly executing  what he said.

“Just send it,” Rhodey urges. Hunched next to Tony on top of a desk they share while Nat and Clint share another, paint drying on his brush’s bristle.

Tony taps the blue button. “There,” he announces. “I did it.”

Clint raises a hand for high-five which he meets weakly. Rhodey tousles his hair while Natasha silently glares at the phone until it beeps just a few seconds after he sent his text.

Tony stares at his phone and then looks at her.

“What? You need me to tell you how to open the text now?” She snipes at him.

“Dude, what does it say?” Clint bumps into his side, buzzing with excitement. Natasha rolls her eyes at him.

Tony glances at Rhodey and taps on the message at his silent nod. He’s not usually like this, but apparently, it’s what Steve Rogers has made of him.

“He says he wants to talk.” He reads the reply out loud. Another beep comes through; “He asks if I’m free.”

Clint begins to coo but a kick to his shin from Nat shuts him up.

“What’re you gonna say?” She asks.

Tony looks at her, confused. He was, after all, under the impression that she was dictating him throughout this process. But she raises her brows at him, following her question.

“Tell him you’re busy,” Rhodey quips helpfully.

Tony looks at him and thinks about it. “I’m gonna say I’m busy with this shitty mural he’d abandoned,” he decides.

He looks over at Nat who simply shrugs; your text, your words. He looks at Clint who tells him seriously, “No emoji please.”

Tony steps on his foot the moment he sends the text.

“Ow!”

This time, no reply comes.

Ten seconds.

A minute.

Five minutes.

“You think green will work?” Clint asks Rhodey who looks relieved to knuckle his shoulder and start a banter about Clint’s artistic skills with him.

“Forget about it.” Natasha tells Tony in the hum of the boys’ raising voice. “Take me for ice cream after this. I want mango and coffee.”

Tony blinks and blinks before he smiles up at her. “Two flavours that don’t mix,” he comments.

“Fuck you. Don’t judge,” Nat flicks at his nose, pecking his cheek before she returns to her seat at the back of the classroom.

Seven minutes.

“I want ice cream too!” Clint wines when Tony tells him about their plan.

Nine minutes.

“The football team requested to use the court for training this week,” Rhodey mentions conversationally, “I’m gonna tell them no.”

Tony’s hand pauses in its repetitive stroke against the wall. He gawks at his best friend, “You can’t do that.”

Rhodey shrugs, dipping his brush in the paint can. “You’ll hear about my power once the complaints start pouring in.” He tosses a devilish smile over his shoulder.

Tony shakes his head. Couldn’t help but snort at him. “Don’t,” he says. “He’s not even in the team.”

“His best friend is.”

“Yeah, but Barnes doesn’t deserve it.” Tony sighs, bending over to dip his own brush. “It’s not worth it,” he tells Rhodey. “Trust me,” he adds when Rhodey looks unconvinced.

10 minutes

“I can send him dead roaches.” Clint offers good naturedly.

“I’ll tell him it’s you and he’ll shove them down your throat,” Tony grunts at him. “Seriously. Stop.”

Clint pokes his tongue out at him in retaliation. Tony wonders who gave this guy permission to accuse other people of being five years old. He doesn’t vocalize it, but he sure does poke at Clint’s side just when he’s getting the straightest damned stroke of paint. The line wiggles out of track.

“Fuuuck! Tony you, fucking bastard!” Clint lunges for him, but Tony neatly steps aside, letting him catch the air.

A big grin breaks across his face at Clint’s second attempt, but before his third, someone knocks on the door.

All of them pause to look in its direction.

“Who is it?” Clint asks them dumbly. Rhodey rolls his eyes at him and Tony’s distracted by the beeping from his phone.

He pulls it out. Reads the text, looks up at his friends, reads a few times over just to be sure and his palms begin to get clammy. 

“It’s Steve.” He tells them.

Clint’s jaw falls and so does Rhodey’s. Nat’s hand squeezes his shoulder, shocking him out of his skin. She orders, “Okay boys, time to pack up,” before Tony could express his surprise.

Another set of knocks, three quiet ones followed by a text; “Can I come in?”

“Get out!” Tony whisper-shouts at his friends who’re scrambling for their stuffs. “Through the back door!” he commands when Clint rushes to the front one.

The instant all three of them are huddled at the back door, Tony opens the front one, signalling them to spill out just as Steve steps in.

 “Hey,” Steve greets, slightly breathless. He looks like he ran here; windblown hair and flushed cheeks.

“Hey,” Tony answers, taking a step back, making space for him.

Steve gaze stays fixed on Tony, drinking him in even as he shuts the door behind.

For a while, they don’t speak. Simply taking each other in; studying the other’s face and their body, missing the way Steve stands or fidgets because he can never stand still.

Tony blinks, telling himself to not to be so stupid when it comes to Steve Rogers, but fuck. He just cannot do it.

“What are you doing here?” Tony asks, swallowing down the strange lump in his throat. He steps away from Steve, back to the wall, where it still looks as horrible as it did yesterday.

“Looking for you,” Steve says, following him, and he too stands. Staring at the wall, marvelling at its ugliness. “I see you’ve started repainting.”

“Maria’s at my throat,” Tony shrugs. “Don’t think she will hesitate to knock on my apartment door demanding I get it done tonight.”

Steve snorts and when Tony looks, he’s sucking his lower lip in, seemingly thinking over his next words.

When he says, “Wanna Jackson Pollock it?” Tony blinks, confused. “What?”

“Jackson Pollock,” Steve turns to him. His backpack is slung over one shoulder, blonde hair sticking out haphazardly and he looks as breathtaking as he always does to Tony. “Want me to show you?”

“Sure,” Tony answers before he could think.

Steve grins at him, dropping his backpack fluidly onto a clean patch of the floor and taking off his jacket. He’s in a black t-shirt, matching Tony’s in tone and its simplicity.

“You said you wanted to talk,” Tony rasps out, working his throat. He feels slightly light-headed. The last time Steve had taken anything off of himself, they were tangled in a bed, kissing and kissing until the world disappeared around them.

Steve looks up from where he’s bent, picking at one of those brushes Rhodey and Clint had left behind. He's a few inches lowered from Tony’s standing height and when he looks up, his baby blue eyes shine from under his long lashes, stunning. Tony sucks a breath in to steady himself.

“How’s Peggy?” He asks Steve, careful to not let any distaste slip into his tone.

“Why are we talking about Peggy?” Steve stands up, forgoing the brushes to take a step towards Tony.

Tony huffs out a laugh, stepping back. “I don’t know. Maybe because she’s your girlfriend.”

“She’s not,” Steve denies.

“Don’t lie.” Tony snaps at him. “I saw you two kissing at Sharon’s party.”

“We’re over.” Steve takes another step towards Tony. Insistent.

This time Tony doesn’t step back. He simply looks Steve in the eyes and says, “You said the same thing the other day only to shove your tongue down her throat the very next day.”

Steve shakes his head, not moving anymore forward. “Not this time.” He says, “The last time I told you, I don’t know, I thought you looked shocked that I ended it. And Peggy – Peggy knows me too well for a very long time and I just –,” Steve stops, breathing in deep before he lets out, “Ever since I saw you, you’re the only one that matters. I want a relationship with you, Tony. But I thought you weren’t ready to commit -,”

“I am,” Tony cuts him off. Almost shouts it out aloud.

Steve blinks. “Yeah?” he asks, voice so soft like that Saturday afternoon when he’d cradled Tony’s face and told him he’d never felt this way ever before.

“I want to commit. To you,” Tony tells him truthfully.

Steve lashes flutter as if he’s trying hard not to blink. To not miss the way Tony looks right then.

“Me too,” he exhales before scooping Tony up in his arms, mouth meshing together in the warmest, wettest worshipful dance and he swings Tony around in the paint stinking classroom of their college.

 Jackson Pollock.

Tony swears he’ll take that name to his grave.

“There,” Steve says, flicking the bristles of a freshly coated paint brush at the wall. Tony looks from the tasteless splatter of black paint to Steve. He’s met by an amused face; the afternoon sun lighting his full-blown grin so beautifully it twists something warm and tight in Tony.

Tony minces on his responding smile, pinches his thigh to stop being so smitten and he asks, “What is this?”

He watches as Steve takes another dip in a different paint can – green – and flicks it at the wall, some droplets overlapping, some not and he turns with that same full grin to Tony.

“Jackson Pollock,” he presents with a single-handed wave at the questionable result, “He usually splatters paints and pours them making a mess and calls it art. I thought we could try that.”

Tony would rather bite his tongue than say no to that face, so he dunks his brush and splatters a good amount of blood red onto the wall.

“Huh,” Steve cocks his head studying it. “You did it wrong.” He informs softly.

Tony gawks at him. “No, I did not. No one can do wrong with this. This is just flicking paint. You have to really suck to fail at it.”

“Yeah,” Steve turns to him, lips wobbling, “I just didn’t want to be the one to say that to you.”

Tony opens his mouth then snaps it shut and glares at the now laughing man. Going for a second dunk, this time, instead of flicking the paint at the wall, he flicks them at Steve. Covering him with dots of red that contrasts beautifully with his light toned-skin.

Steve recovers from his shock quickly, swiping a paint covered fingertip across Tony’s cheek.

 It starts like that; paints and laughter all fully clothed. But somewhere along that line, Steve ducks and kisses Tony and the brushes fall.

Next, their t-shirts come off.

Then their pants with belts still looped in their buckles.

And then Steve pushes Tony up the wall, almost all of him now covered in paint and he kisses him, paint covered fingers dancing across warm skin, smudging more and more until only about five percent of Tony’s skin was untainted.

Tony doesn’t hold back either; dragging palms across Steve's face as he cups his cheeks and sucks on his tongue, trails red, blue and white coated fingers down Steve’s chest. Lower and lower, leaving not an inch unpainted.

Then he smacks a hand over Steve’s ass and squeezes as he pulls him closer. His cock throbbing from the friction; wedged between their warm bodies and every time it drags across Steve’s hard erection, he shivers.

“What if somebody walks in?” He pants as Steve takes his and Tony’s cock into his hand and starts a rhythm.

“No one will.” Steve nips under his jaw, teeth dragging down the column of his throat as he breathes; hot and wet across Tony’s skin.

“But -,” Tony pauses, unable to stop the shudder that wrecks down his spine. He clutches onto Steve and clings on. “What if?” He exhales a sigh as Steve swipes a thumb over his wet slit.

“I locked the door when I came in.” Steve kisses his shoulder, opens his mouth and bites; starting gently and he sinks his teeth harder and harder as he goes.

Tony whimpers into his neck, finding purchase in Steve’s naked ass. Now slippery from all the paint and good God, they’re both going to stain like hell after this.

But in that moment, nothing matters except for the way Steve sucks at his skin and marks him as his own. The way he strokes Tony into completion and stops in pursuit of his own just to marvel at the face Tony makes when he comes undone. And to kiss him. And gets distracted in kissing him that Tony bats his hand away and takes his cock into his own hand.

Then it’s all about working Steve until he comes and comes and sighs and smiles into Tony’s shoulder. Until he’s all limp and happy and honest to god, fucking shines when he blinks up at Tony.

And Tony falls in love with him.

As if he hasn’t already.

[jennibeultimate]

Kinda personal recap...Cup of China 2020 SP

Yes I know I haven't done the recap FS from SkAm, but tbh besides the lovely ice dance teams and Skimeca-Knierem crowning their first "international" appearance with a win, there wasn't much that impressed me...more like extremely surprised to see two big errors by Nathan..it wasn't worth doing a post about it😅

So not gonna lie, this is Chinese Nationals actually, it's scored like Chinese Nats and it is only Chinese skaters, it's not their fault, I just say it...

Men SP

Yudong Chen was fun to watch. Yes jumps are not competitive internationally but he radiated fun to compete like no one else.

Han Yan - that huge amazing 3A, one of the absolute best 3As ever for men! I love the program, I love Han Yan's skating, his jumps are beautiful 😍...yet c'mon how many seasons do you want to keep this SP? I know he made a pause, a comeback, didn't perform it often still...just asking 😅

Boyang Jin - the program could be a good fit. Atm I think it just lacks polish and is a bit chaotic, movements are wild...that aside the 4Lz is huge - the best 4Lz has Boyang - fight me - (still I would like to see a transition into the jump, not "I use the whole rink for speed to jump" !)

Ok it's Nationals like, so the scoring being off is not a surprise and don't get me wrong Boyang deserves a huge lead, just those same - even slightly higher - PCS than Han Yan irk me...just c'mon transition wise, skating skill wise Han Yan is much ahead...(not discrediting the efforts and improvements Boyang made over the years, just that's not it. Let's say if Boyang deserves 44,9 I would go with a 49 PCS for Han Yan.)

Pairs SP

What a lovely program by Cheng Peng/Yang Jin! We ignore the side by side jumps...😅 the rest was beautiful and of tremendous quality.

So sad Sui/Han had to withdraw, I was really looking forward to see them. They were missed! 😭

The rest of the Chinese pairs field has a lot to improve...

Ladies SP

Tbh I only watched Hongyi Chen. The only really competitive Chinese lady...she is lovely to watch 😊

Ice Dance Short Dance

It has been a delight to watch the ice dance teams. China has drastically improved in this regard. All the couples are fun to watch! 🥰

And anyone skating to Disney - Mary Poppins - gets a special place in my heart. What a suiting choreography for the music.

Shiyue Wang/ Xinyu Liu and their Chaplin program is such a fun program.

I think ice dance is the most innovative and fun discipline at the moment. All the teams no matter what country, no matter what level they have are so passionate about their performance. This is what I would love to see more in other disciplines as well.

____

All in all I am just glad that at least some skating is happening and in CoC I have a good feeling they take the right precautions. May the next Cup of China be an international competition! Wish us all luck for a normal GP next season 🙏!

[triplelutzmoreliketriplecry]

GP 2020: Men’s Predictions Pt. 1

These are just kinda for fun and are in no way based on some science. Part 2 will be CoC, IDF, and NHK. I don’t know enough about the men’s Euro/Russian field to make an educated guess.

SKATE AMERICA

Gold: Nathan Chen

I mean, do I even have to explain this? On top of his tech skills/consistency, Nathan’s performance skills have been steadily increasing in quality and damn, those new programs? He’s going to slay his competitors in SkAM. (Also, he has top skater bias, which I’ll explain later in the post.)

Silver: Vincent Zhou

Vincent’s layouts are high in scoring capability and his performance skills have been improving a lot lately! His consistency is a bit lower than Nathan’s and he does ur a lot (although they do tend to get unnoticed by the judges) hence my prediction that he’ll take 2nd place.

Bronze: Keegan Messing, Stephen Gogolev, Camden Pulkinen, Michal Brezina (not in a particular order)

Keegan’s got a few quads under his belt and amazing spins/performance skills, and his explosive/lyrical programs will definitely win over the crowd. He’s got a shot, for sure.

Stephen’s had a rough season last year but he’s good enough to have a strong rebound this season.

Camden’s got a few quads and enough name standings to get a shot at bronze. I’m not a fan of his skating skills, but it would be nice to see him get this medal.

Not too sure about this, since I don’t watch a lot of European skaters, but I’ve definitely heard Michal’s name around the fs community enough that I think he’ll have a shot at bronze.

SKATE CANADA

Gold: Junhwan Cha, Jason Brown

Jun’s personally my top gold contender, and it’s not just because he’s my favourite skater and I wish only good things happen to him (although I do). He’s got high tech (3~4 quads—he likes to test new jumps in the beginning of the season so I’m hoping for a return of quad flip and mayyybe a new quad??) and high PCS. He’s got enough name value too (because it matters in FS—top skaters get +5GOE, middle get +2~3, etc.). It’s the beginning of the season though—Jun’s definitely not at his best now usually—so it’s all up for grabs.

Jason’s got amazing PCS—he’s one of the few skaters who are artistic enough that his PCS can boost his standings! He’s got a triple axel and I think maybe a quad? So he’s definitely solid. If Jun skates clean (and isn’t nitpicked about his urs), I think Jason would probably take second because Jun simply has more tech. But Jun likely won’t skate clean, and Jason will, probably, so it’s going to be a touch one.

Silver: Roman Sadovsky, Nam Nguyen

Roman’s got the tech but his skating’s a little stiff. He’s a bit temperamental re. consistency; he’ll kill it like it he did at Nats and then flop the next competition. But, provided he skates clean, he proves a strong contender for the gold medal.

Nam’s similar to Roman that he’s got the tech but his consistency is kinda wack. He’s more constant, I think, and his skating skills are a bit better.

Bronze: Conrad Orzel, Nicholas Nadeau

Conrad and Nadeau are the next level Canadian skaters, and while they’re probably not going to medal, they do kinda have a chance.

[pichitinha]

hello this is an about me page

i have been here for a really long time and i went through a lot of phases and i just think i want to have all the information that's actually important to me in one place, linked to my bio, and that's it yk? so here i am with this page that will be very unorganised and yeah lmao (click here for my covinsky fic masterpost)

links

first let's start with some links to things i like sharing and you might be interested in:

fic tag

ao3

ff.net

instagram

twitter

spotify

last.fm

letterboxd

relevant tags

my fics

my gifs

original posts

asks

cats

writing

tag games

music

about me

biggest otps

laila (my cat)

random info

my name is natalia and my nickname is naty (nat is fine too)

i am from são paulo, brazil

i am 28yo (as of aug/21)

i know next to nothing about astrology but main things are leo sun, libra moon, taurus rising

i am bisexual (meaning the only people i fall in love with are either fictional or famous)

i have depression and anxiety and i also have adhd

i am fat, i have a huge belly, big thighs, big arms, big face, double chin, all that, and every day i try to love my body even though it's usually really hard

i have extremely curly hair, nearing on coily, which in here we say is a 3C nearing a 4A

my hair is also naturally dark and currently its tips are green

i love tattoos and piercings, at the last editing time i have eleven and seven respectively

i have a bachelor degree in information systems and a masters degree in quality systems engineering

i currently work in a digital commerce team as a martech analyst (marketing + technology) which is pretty cool

i am a cat person (even though i love dogs too) and i have a beautiful one named laila

ships

listen i obviously ship a lot of things but this section is restricted to what ships are really important to me and that you will definitely see in here if you follow me

harry and ginny (harry potter) *

percy and annabeth (percy jackson) *

wally and artemis (young justice) *

dick and barbara (dc comics) *

peter and lara jean (to all the boys) *

trixie and katya (drag queens) *

ben and leslie (parks and recreation)

jake and amy (brooklyn nine nine)

jim and pam (the office)

peter and olivia (fringe)

chuck and sarah (chuck)

isak and even (skam)

* means i write/read fics about them

sitcoms

my favorite type of entertainment is a good old sitcom and here are some of my faves even though i love lots of them:

parks and recreation

brooklyn nine nine

the office

ted lasso

galavant

community

scrubs

that 70s show

new girl

the good place

tv shows

i also love non sitcoms shows and i don't really have a favorite genre so here are my favorite ones:

fringe

chuck

the haunting (hill house | bly manor)

sex education

sense8

parenthood

gilmore girls

skam

downton abbey

greek

broadchurch

marvelous mrs. maisel

musicals

i am musical trash even though i cannot sing for life, so here are some of my faves:

falsettos

in the heights

hamilton

dear evan hansen

come from away *

legally blonde

waitress *

les miserables

rent

the book of mormon *

something rotten!

kinky boots *

shrek the musical

* means i saw them live (either broadway or elsewhere)

drag queens

though i've moved on from the fandom, drag queens will always have a very special place in my heart and i'm gonna try to not list a hundred of the ones i like the most

katya zamolodchikova *

trixie mattel

raja

adore delano *

alaska thunderfuck *

bob the drag queen

jinkx monsoon

manila luzon *

bendelacreme *

alyssa edwards *

miz cracker *

aquaria *

sasha velour *

shea coulee

* means i've seen them live

movies

i'm not really one to watch tons of movies, more of a tv show kind of gal, but i do love romcoms and animation and a few other movies from different genres so here are some that i always think of when people ask me what movies i like:

brother bear

mulan

tangled

klaus

about time

27 dresses

love, actually

easy a

crazy stupid love

to all the boys i've loved before

pitch perfect

high school musical

descendants

knives out

the old guard

inception

a quiet place

us

get out

hereditary

please consider a lot more romcoms and animations there thanks

books

haven't really read in forever but here are some books i've read in my life and loved

harry potter *

percy jackson and the olympians *

heroes of olympus *

the kane chronicles *

the hunger games *

inkworld *

the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy *

never let me go

the ocean at the end of the lane

the perks of being a wallflower

the boy in the striped pajamas

wonder

the handmaid's tale

fahrenheit 451

and then there were none

the best laid plans

* represents a series

music

ok so obviously i listen to a lot of musicals but i also listen to other shit so here are some of my favorite bands/singers:

panic! at the disco

the script

fall out boy

all time low

the cab

sara bareilles

hozier

avril lavigne

my chemical romance

maroon 5

demi lovato

nickelback

paramore

backstreet boys

kelly clarkson

p!nk

and i think that's it? i was gonna list my favorite celebrities but we'd be here for a while lmao. maybe i'll add it later, but for now, here we go!

[skamamoroma]

Did you watch skam France? Cause even though I fully know all of us were expecting o helga nat to happen today, everyone freaking out that it’s not gonna happen reminds me of when they changed the day of the minute by minute clip in France. Like I remember people messaging the creators of how dare they take that scene out because it didn’t happen on the Saturday after their o helga natt lol it happened that Monday! So I sincerely doubt that they wouldn’t include it lol

I did, love. And I’m pretty sure I was sitting here saying the same as I am now 😂 when I say de ja vu, I genuinely mean it. I’ve seen this tag 5 times now. I’ve seen the same posts over and over and over again!

But I agree. Skam France did a killer job in their episode 10. I loved it, it’s actually my favourite episode of Skam Fr s3 (along with episode 2). The way they had Eliott’s mental illness become a little more of a reality was a brilliant addition and gave Lucas an idea of the truth of Eliott’s illness and lead to one of my favourite scenes from the Skam universe. So I’m so happy they did what they did and delayed it because it fit perfectly and was massively moving ❤️ you make a great point, anon!

[shaykeijser]

…what if noah smashes a bottle over m*rris’s head at the going away party

[moonb-eam]

hey nat,i just got an idea about what might happen with elu and wanted to have your opinion on how possible you think it is. so,before the spoilers came out, there was this weird photo maxence had shared from filming-it was like a 3 am shoot and he was in a dark spot all lonely. now adding this up tp lucas' insecurities and the spoilers, do you think they could try to pull off what skamit did with nicotino in s4?lucas leaving(temporarily)?bc eliott loves him but takes him for granted as well

hello love!

I have to say I haven’t watched s4 of skam italia yet, so I can’t speak to how they handled the nicotino story in that show - but I do see where you’re coming from!!

I forgot about that bts picture maxence shared 🤔 I think it’s possible it may be from some sort of upcoming urbex scene, but I really don’t know. Do I think it’s possible they’ll break elu up for a while? Yes and no. We know that skam France loves its drama, as any remake does, and we know the writers have set the scene for there to be tension between them - not necessarily grounds for a breakup at this point, but it’s possible they could take it there. And, of course, we still have the [redacted] spoiler to contend with 😑

On the other hand, I don’t know if they’ll go there completely. The thing is, I wouldn’t want them to, because introducing a break-up, then having them reconcile, while keeping in mind that this is Lola’s pov and her story, I’m hesitant to think that they would be able to address it properly. But I am interested to see if skam italia was able to add that story line in a concise way that made sense, while keeping the focus on the main.

I’m sorry anon - I’m not being very helpful asdfjkk because I think it could go either way! We haven’t seen the last of the elu drama yet, we know that, but if it will get to a point of a breakup, that I’m not sure about

From what I’ve seen so far, it doesn’t seem to me like Eliott takes Lucas for granted. I think he loves him a lot, and I think he’s scared of anything changing between them, in any way, which has lead to him holding back, or acting like everything is perfectly fine when it’s not. Something is going to have to give there, but I suppose we’ll just have to wait and see how (aside from the cursed spoilers I mean)

[sweetbitterpdf]

tag game: this or that & some faves 

i was tagged by @lepetitepeach​ !! the love of my life tagging me in cool things as per usual merci nat !! some other people may have tagged me too looking back through my activity page is a MESS

coffee or tea? coffee!! i do love a nice cup of tea, but i’m in the depths of an undergrad degree, coffee’s my lifeblood rn

early bird or night owl? this one’s gotten tougher over the summer, since i was up so early so regularly. before this summer i would have said night owl for sure, but now there’s just... something about the way everything looks when the sun is just about to rise, and about getting to spend some time to myself before the rest of the world wakes up...

early bird now i think!!

denim or leather? denim!! leather has a weird texture imo it makes me uncomfy

pearl or gemstone? ooh i love them both!! maybe gemstone, just because there’s so many different ones with so many different colours!!

barefoot or shoes? i like wearing shoes most of the time!! i only have a couple of pairs but i wear them super regularly!!

if we were talking about, like... a nice grassy field, or the beach or something though, i’d go without them!!

eye colour? i’m not sure if this is asking my eye colour or my favourite eye colour— my answer to the former is a fairly dark brown, and the latter is green!! i love green eyes so much!!!

bath or showers? i’d love to say baths but i’m 5′11″ with long legs so having baths just isn’t realistic for me most of the time because i don’t fit in tubs well :// so showers!!

favourite emojis? ✨💖👍🥰👀🤙 (not sure abt favourite ones, but these are the ones that i use the most!!)

night in or night out? night in!! i love a night out with some friends from time to time, but but most of the time i just want to curl up on the couch with my cat by the time my day is over lmao

secret garden or secret library? secret library!! i’ve always wanted to have my own library, and the concept of having a secret one?? yes please!!

tattoos or piercings? tattoos, definitely!! i don’t have any of either myself but i love tattoos so much and i have a few ideas about ones i’d like to get!!

freckles or dimples? oh my god, freckles, they make me melt 

eyes or lips? eyes!!

handwritten letters or texts/emails? there’s something so beautiful and personal about letters, especially in the electronic era when they’re a lot less frequent! i’d love to have someone i could send letters to, i’ve been sort of lowkey looking for a penpal? 

i also had a thing with a girl once where we were across the world from each other and we would send letters to each other lmao

favourite colour? i’m a notoriously indecisive person, and this shows when someone asks me about my favourite colour! i really love warm colours, soft yellows and oranges and pinks... i also really love green!! i can’t pick just one!!!

favourite flower? i’m not really a huge flower person tbh?? when i say that i mean that flowers are lovely but i’m not super informed on the different types!! daisies maybe? or buttercups?? roses????

favourite ships? elu (& all the other evaks obvs), but also alex/henry from red, white, and royal blue, monty/henry (different henry!! no relation!!) from a gentleman’s guide to vice & virtue.. there’s probably more, but those are the ones i came up with off the top of my head!!

favourite scent? there’s so many!! i love roses, my go-to scent is lush’s rose jam body spray, and i adore everything they release with that scent!

also vanilla, orange, peppermint— as for like... naturally occurring smells, i also love the smell of a good ‘ol campfire, as well as petrichor, and the smell of fall!!

last song? wait for me (reprise) from the broadway cast recording of hadestown !! i finally listened to it and the man who plays orpheus has??? the most beautiful voice?? how does he convey such a longing and an ache through sound alone???

AU where eliott is orpheus and lucas is eurydice anyone???

last movie or tv show? i watched a few episodes of SKAM the night before last!! it’s the only show i have downloaded on my laptop, and the power was out. i’m on season two now!!

favourite gifs? i don’t use gifs frequently at all, so i’m just going to search SKAM stuff and include some of my faves that i see!!

credit is included with the gifs!!

this one cause it’s a mood:

this one cause this whole scene makes me so fucking soft:

also this one bc i will never get over a) the way even’s eyes are fucking glowing and also the lilt to his voice that you can hear in the gif when he says ‘halla’ listen i am an even bech næsheim stan first and a human being second:

as for skam france, this one bc have u ever seen a boy so in love before?? yeah me neither:

this one bc it takes me back to the first time i saw this scene and it makes me remember holding my breath (maybe not literally, although i really don’t remember..?) for an entire fucking scene!! the pacing!!! the tension!!!!!:

and this one bc everything was okay again in this moment and it was just so tender it makes me soft whenever i think about it they love each other so much what the fuck:

i could link gifs all day but i’m not going to so instead i’m going to tag people!! i tag @lallemants, @oheliotts, @amorgignitamore, @loca-over-luca, and @lowquallife if u guys haven’t done this already!! if u have no worries!!

[ravenbrenna09]

This year has brought about so much change in all of us and, mostly, to us—some of it is good and some of it is bad. But, I’ve gained so much in the past year and a vast majority of it is because of some Belgium television show that dragged me into a multiverse of love and adoration and acceptance. So I wanted to thank you all, truly, for all the love and help that you’ve given me over the past twelve months because fuck this world—and this year and fandom—would not be the same to all of you. 

also: i love all of you.

@peaceoutofthepieces: nat, you’ve been one of my greatest friends. our conversations about our fics is something that i’ve cherished. watching you write Sink or Swim—then turn around and write all your Christmas fics—has been absolutely amazing and I’m so proud of all that you’ve accomplished. thank you so much for being my friend. 

@everyone-has-their-story: thank you so much for being my friend. our friendship started over some obscure question i had for how i wanted to end Jij Verliest and it morphed into some so near and dear to me. i love our conversations about what’s going on in our lives and i hope it never stops. 

@tsjernobyl: thank you for listening to me in my random spurts of drabble and one-shot ideas that i might not ever write that i spontaneously ask you about late at night to get your opinion and listening to me talk about harry potter aus (though, i still think you should write all shackles and bows). you are such an amazing and wonderful friend and i hope you know that i’m sending you lots of virtual hugs. 

@sonderthroughthestreets: thank you so much for all of your love and support on everything. our conversations of robbe in skinny jeans and our own writing slumps at 3am are near and dear to my heart. i love our “my place or yours/please say yours” rights. 

@cindylouwhos: you’ve helped me so much and there’s no way i will ever be able to repay you. you helped me get into giffing, listening to all my dumb questions about it, and helped me so much when i was writing jij verliest. thank you so much for all your help and thank you so much for bringing me into the alt er love server.

@womenstan: thank you so much for all of the support you’ve given me in the server—both in study-group and overall. you’re such an amazing and beautiful person who is so unapologetically yourself that it’s inspiring. you’re an amazing friend and i love all of our conversations. 

@norangensft: jenna, thank you so much for all of our talks about wtfock and robbe! your paint me in trust story gave me the distraction i needed during a tough time and i will be forever grateful to you. we might not talk as much anymore but i hope that you are doing well. 

to the alt er love server: i’m sorry i can’t tag everyone. i don’t have everyone on tumblr and i don’t remember all of your urls—i’m looking at you maxences—but thank you so much for all of you. you guys are so welcoming and supportive of anyone and everyone who walks in. i love you all and love seeing all your weird and crazy chats that you talk about. i missed emo hours earlier but please know that i will love and cherish all of you for the rest of my life. like jess said, it’s like walking into a living room with all of your friends. this crackpot of a year would be NOTHING without this server. 

@robbesdriesen: bianca, thank you so much for all of your support. being able to talk with you about a sobbe enemies-to-lovers has been so enlightening as we both struggle to figure out a possibility that makes sense for them. all of our random talks are so fun and i can’t wait to see what we both come with next.  

@luludemauryyy: thank you so much for all of our conversations that we’ve had over the past year. all of our chats mean the world to me from our talks about our stories to those about wtfock and skams to those that are more personal. being able to talk with you about it is so amazing and i love being able to talk with you. 

@driesenrobbe: becca, I know you’re not on tumblr right now (and that’s perfectly okay), but I couldn’t make this list without talking about you. thank you so much for all of our long conversations about random things. they mean so much to me, being able to just sit down and type responses out to all of your messages. i love looking on my phone and seeing a notification from you makes my day. 

@sander-klaas: fahmeen, i love you so much. you’ve supported me so much over the past year through my stories that i don’t think i will ever be able to repay you. i hope you’re being given as much love as you give because you absolutely deserve all the love in the entire world. i can’t wait to see what you create. 

@birthdaysentiment: cille, i love seeing all your tags on things. seriously. as soon as you like something, i can’t wait to see what you’ve written. all of your support and love means so much to me and i’m forever grateful for it. 

even more amazing people who deserve ALL the love and i’m eternally grateful for:

@to-enter-polaris, @luxandobscurus, @mijnlief, @driesendotkom, @carolineskam, @pduwd, @fatoudixon, @earthling-isa, @theflowerisblue, @itubainaretro, @dagcutie, @sunflowerlallemant, @welcometo-saturn, @kieutu, @hopetofantasy, @fatouuuu, @joanabianchi, @mailinrichter, @sanabakkoushd, @isakyaqi, @alcxmcrcer, @kritiquer, @noramachwtz, @mirroroferisedx, @alinok,  @zoesrobbe, @thebestoftimes, @pepethehobbit, @dreamy-slytherin, @lolasluquette, @gele-gordijnen, and @fangfaceandrea. 

if i forgot a name or didn’t tag you, you deserve all of the love in this world and i hope your day (or evening) is beautiful and amazing and bright. i love you all so much. thank you for making this year so so special to me.