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Indie Game Male Yandere Showdown:
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staydays · 3 years
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'goodbye pil-lam'
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Harry had to travel separately because of how much Louis and Zayn were smoking both cigs and weed. He actually said that he doesn't like the cig smoke as both he and Gemma have allergies and smoke triggers them. Whoever dates Harry would not be a chain smoker like Louis. Otherwise Harry would have to take anti allergy pils all the time. There are different types of stage smoke that crew can use to avoid triggering artists with strong allergies. Niall said they can to blows in the band too.
Sigh, why do you keep coming here trying this shit?
1. Niall quite literally did not say that.
This is the actual quote:
In an interview with The Daily Telegraph newspaper, Niall admitted: "It was incredible. But we got tired. Not tired of it, just tired out. Five albums, five tours, in five years. We were all knackered. I can never really remember any major bust-ups, just brotherly family nagging, s****y arguments like that.
So he explicitly says they never had any major fights or physical altercations at all, they just had shitty arguments.
He then says, and this is clearly hyperbole:
"But we were gonna end up killing each other.
"We all sat down one day, had a chat and it was like, we need to take a break. Step back, chill out and try something new."
The phrase 'we were gonna end up killing each other' is clearly not literal, its a turn of phrase used to mean 'we would have had an awful time'.
The 'come to blows' bit isn't even in his actual quote, it's added in by the paper:
The 26-year-old Irish star says the boy band - also comprised of Harry Styles, Liam Payne and Louis Tomlinson - were "knackered" after releasing five albums over five years and touring the world relentlessly, and although they never had any "major bust-ups", he believes they would have come to blows eventually if they hadn't gone on an indefinite hiatus in 2016.
Look at what is in quotes here and what isn't. Again, he said they never had any major bust ups, and then the paper itself says 'but he believes they would have come to blows eventually'. Why isn't that in a quote if that's what he said? Is that perhaps just the paper taking his 'we would have ended up killing each other' and summarising it?
So all in all, does it indeed appear that you're alleging Niall actually said they physically harmed each other when he did not? Yep.
2. The only article we have about Harry choosing to take seperate planes because he doesn't like smoke (it says nothing about allergies) is from the Daily Mail. Not exactly the best source in the world. And it's quotes from an anonymous source.
It's entirely possible that they had one plane that the smokers used and the non smokers didn't want to be on it. That's life. Many of us have friends and colleagues who smoke and we don't want to be around it, it's not exactly 'problematic', it's life. I am an asthmatic and yet I have friends who smoke. I just don’t go near them when they do. They aren’t doing anything wrong by me just by smoking though. It’s not ‘rude’ or ‘bullying’.
It's certainly interesting that a 'source' just happened to try and distance Harry, specifically (when Niall doesn't smoke either), in 2014 around a drugs and n word scandal, when Harry was getting close to his future manager. Almost like he may have already been anticipating leaving and didn't want any bad stories in the band impacting him, so maybe it was a 'source' intentionally clearing him. Again, that's what PR teams actually do. Who knows.
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sweetlykissedadora · 5 years
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tagged by @pennguinmore @aclorah and @princessofgayskull  Thank you all!
nicknames: I have many. Red, Brave, Diamond Lil, Lil Pil, and Lil. 
zodiac sign: Taurus
height: 5′6″ -5’7’’
hogwarts house: I got Slytherin, but then I was told the original test was wrong...?
last thing i googled: Canadian Actors. 
favourite musicians: Marren Morris, Kacey Musgraves, Taylor Swift, Aaron Tveit, and Niall Horan. Judge away, I’m used to it. 
song stuck in your head: I’ll think of a reason later by Lee Ann Womack
following: 437
followers: 252. Thank you!
do you get asks: Not too many, but I appreciate those who have sent prompts and whatnot. 
amount of sleep: Rarely any. It’s kind of an issue, haha. 
lucky number: 5
what you’re wearing: A tank top from Forever 21 and Jeans. 
dream job: Voice Actor. 
dream trip: I really want to see Japan, but also Ireland. They are tied. 
instruments: I wish, but no. 
languages: Only English. I am attempting to learn ASL though. 
favourite songs: Rainbow by Kesha and Feels by Marren Morris (Also, like half of Marren’s new album. Holy shiz!)
random fact: I completed over 13 high school plays. 
aesthetic: I have no idea. Picture Dove Cameron’s messy room picture from Twitter months back. I am that room. 
tagging: @yep-they-actually-said-that @moonshaddowww @magentasuit @nightlight-glimmer @sylencr-art @brightmoonprincess
And anyone else who fancies doing this. Clearly, anyone tagged who doesn’t want to, please don’t. 
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therealbuttertost · 7 years
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Bad Decisions
Just for tonight, I have nobody left to air my sadness out to. So I’m going to do it here. I’ve stopped caring who sees this, I don’t care if it sounds melodramatic, I’m just tired of making throwaways for this shit. Recently I have hit rock bottom, and I’m struggling to find my way out of it. 
It started earlier this year when I got properly introduced to drugs, and that’s about the time I became a real piece of shit. I stopped talking to my friends, didn’t talk to my girlfriend as much and even stopped putting in the effort to be a good boyfriend. I made several bad decisions along the way and am continuing to do so, because I don’t know how to make decisions that aren’t completely toxic anymore. It started when I was still in film school, and I got introduced to this group of people who at the time seemed like a great bunch - we’ll call them the stoners. But eventually they turned out to be a completely horrible bunch of people and the attitudes they have rubbed off on me. They smoked a hell of a lot of weed, and while even now I smoke from time to time, this was some day in, day out, kind of smoking. It was non-stop. At the time it was great. But eventually a sort of…dependence rose from it. I became a total prick when I wasn’t smoking, I had a go at people because I thought they were accusing me of being a stoner or a druggie (weed isn’t a hard drug obviously but a lot of my friends could see what it was doing to me), and that offended me. I wasted a lot of money I didn’t have on weed. I stopped going to film school, just sitting in that stoner’s den smoking all the time. This led to me not doing my coursework when I should have been, and generally just letting life pass me by because I just stopped caring. Lastly it stopped me talking to all my closest friends; Josh, Billie, Kato, and a good group of friends that I’ve recently managed to integrate myself back with.
I was living in the area with these stoners, and I was arranging to move in with a couple of my classmates ready for the third year of film school. At the time I didn’t see myself as a complete loser, the world was still in my hands despite me not taking any opportunities. The move wasn’t to happen for a good few months but we had found a house and we were all good and ready.
However during this time I get invited to be a crew member on a film shoot; ‘Great!’ I thought, ‘I get to kickstart my career off!’ 
Unfortunately the manager of my part time job (the only thing allowing me to move into the new house - which I was very excited to do), wouldn’t let me take the holiday in order to chase my career. In my clouded mind the only option I had was to quit my job. ‘I’ll easily be able to find another job that allows me to also go to film school’ I tell myself. 
So that’s exactly what I do, I quit my job, and a few weeks later found myself on the set of my first proper film. However because it was a budget film and not exactly a Hollywood production; the schedules were tight, and eventually me and a few others found ourselves being taken advantage of. Before we joined the set, I was asked to wrangle together a small team of runners and assistants. So of course my first port of call are the people I go to film school with, and by association, two of the stoners I hung around with. Those stoners talked me into giving up on the shoot and going home. I don’t blame them for my actions, but I regret letting myself be such a pushover that I just agreed with them. I wasn’t happy working there, but if it wasn’t for that I probably would have just put up with it. At the time it seemed like a good idea, especially since myself and the stoners that were there came up with the idea to make our own production company together. Things were working out after all, until it didn’t.
A couple of weeks later, while I’m searching for a job, I get invited to a party at a pub. I knew all of three people there, and I wont lie I had a great time. I don’t regret how I felt there. However I do regret certain events of that night. It gets to about 11pm now and one of the people at the party (close friend of the birthday boy) invites most of us back to his place. We get there and after about half an hour that same guy comes up to me and asks me if I want him to get any pills. At the time in my naive mind, I thought he meant ‘pils’, as in the lager ‘holsten pils’, so I say yes. It doesn’t take long for him to bring back three pills of MDMA. I was still in this mindset of being king of the world, so I didn’t have any problem with taking one of the pills. And for the record I had a great time and it is the only drug I fully recommend people to take at least once in their lives. But, I regret the person it turned me into. You can’t get addicted to MD, it isn’t that sort of drug. But I let my enjoyment of it get too much that even one of the stoners called me drug hungry, and got concerned about my well being. 
The above two paragraphs put me in a state of financial crisis. I still had a few months of my current tenancy, and another 11 months of the new house I was supposed to move into. I needed a job and I still didn’t have one. I got so desperate that I started looking for full time work instead of part time. I found a job pretty quickly after that, but as a result I had to drop out of film school, and the chain reaction to that was that I couldn’t move into the house with my classmates. It was a student only house, and I had to let the estate agents know otherwise I would illegally not be paying council tax. But the landlady didn’t want a non-student there. So I was sent on my way with no career, and a job which I fucking hated.
This was about the time my life went off the rails. Because I was no longer in film school, the stoners basically dropped contact with me. I had made a production company with a couple of them, and they all but kicked me out of it. The ringleader of the production company - probably the one I was closest to out of all the stoners - didn’t even have the balls to tell me this. He used one of his friends to tell me. They didn’t even let me fight my ballpark and explain that I could juggle the company and my job. Moments after this, one of my actual friends (who was already concerned about me at the time), was asking me for money that I didn’t have so I could help pay for a present for our teacher. I refused because of the above reason and she brought up the argument that I shouldn’t spend so much money on drugs. While at the time I was spending less, she was still right. But I was too insulted to let that comment slide and built it into this massive argument that exploded and we fell out for several weeks. My best friend Josh also had enough of me around this time, and it took a very long time before I actually realised this enough to mention that he was being dismissive when talking to me. He called me out on my bullshit and that was the first step in my wake up call. But even now I find it uncomfortable. I’m ashamed of the way I treated him during that time considering for several years he’s only been there for me and supported me. But I throw it in his face by ignoring him, and I don’t know how to make that friendship feel the same as it used to be.
By the time I've spent enough time away from drugs to start returning to normal and not being such a prick, an old friend from college gets in contact and we arrange to meet. I forgot I was seeing my girlfriend (Chloe) the evening before because a work party is happening, but I say that I'm still willing to meet despite knowing I'll probably be hungover. Sure as anything the following morning we wake up hungover as fuck, and it's about 5pm in the evening. We slept through the whole day. To begin with I was too ashamed to get in contact and apologise, and then when I finally got the courage to do so, that friend challenged me on it, saying 'You did kinda fuck up' and that was enough to make me basically consider that friendship fucked. There's a long story involving that friend where I made several other bad decisions, and we didn't speak for a long time (my fault entirely). So for this to be added on top of that, I'm too weak to gain the courage to face the music. And I, again, burned that bridge when it wasn't necessary. Because I don't know how to own up to my faults until it's too late. This isn't a drug related story, but it's another bad decision on a whole goddamn list of them that I need to make amends for.
I’m not even 100% sure if I’ve got all that information in chronological order. My memory is just a blur of drugs and bad experiences that it all just fits in together by this point. That’s how fucked up I was that entire time. I’m not even including the parts where I started taking cocaine, they aren’t relevant to what I want to get off my chest.
All this brings me to where I was this past weekend. Since the time of the above stories, I don’t do as many drugs any more. I smoke weed occasionally if it’s a good time to do so. I thought I managed to get over it and was just in the process of fixing all the mistakes I made over the past year. 
However I’ve made another bad decision that while it quickly blew over, I’m still dealing with the guilt of it. Remember that group of friends I mentioned at the start? My girlfriend (Chloe) and I are part of that group and this lot are awesome. They’ve considered me a friend for longer than I knew about and they’re generally a kickass bunch. It was Chloe’s birthday on Saturday and I took her out for a meal, and then we were invited out for drinks afterwards, which we accepted. However, Niall’s old friend James was there by the time we arrived, and these two have a weird history which I wont get into. The group was happy to stay at the pub and drink, but James invited everyone back to his place, and got fairly pushy about it. He asked Niall if he wanted to do MD and Niall refused. Then James asked me and without giving it a second thought I said yes. Despite it being Chloe’s birthday. Chloe didn’t mind me taking drugs, mostly I think because she hasn’t seen what an asshole I am on them. It’s the actions I took while rolling, is what I regret.
We got back to James’ house and I took both bombs in one, and in about half an hour got to the point where I couldn’t stand up. I locked myself away in James’ room with him and proceeded to come up to the high that I loved, my mind collapsing in on me while I was sat on his bedroom sofa. It turns out I was in there long enough for the rest of the group, and Chloe, to get tired of being there - they didn’t want to be there in the first place - and they decided to go to the pub. While they were there, James and I decide to go for a walk and during this walk I come to the realisation that maybe I shouldn’t be taking fucking drugs while it’s my girlfriend’s birthday. James offers his place to stay at and I call Chloe and tell her that we’re staying at his. I didn’t give it a second thought. I was being absolutely selfish because I wasn’t thinking straight. The MD had completely consumed any care I could give about what she thought of the idea. I shortly afterwards get a call from one of the group who explains that Chloe is crying, and everyone (7 people) is incredibly angry with me. 
That was the exact moment I properly woke up and admitted I have a problem. Chloe and I haven’t even argued yet, let alone been upset by the other’s actions. I had made Chloe cry, I showed her what an asshole I can be when under the influence, and the moment I realised this I was filled with remorse. The events of that weekend have blown over and I’ve made my apologies and everyone has forgiven me. But ever since I woke up from my drug haze, all I can see is the damage I’ve caused to myself this year. All I’ve done is make bad decision after bad decision, and I’m afraid that I’m going to keep making more of them. It’s not enough to say I’m sorry anymore. I had plenty of opportunities to realise my mistakes and make up for them but I just didn’t. I alienated most of my friends, showed them that I’m untrustworthy, or unreliable. I’ve hit rock bottom, and I don’t know how to fix this. I’ve run out of people I can talk to about this, because I’m ashamed to tell anyone specific. I don’t want to lose anyone else because of my actions, even if it’s just me explaining them. I’ve turned into a completely toxic person and I don’t know how to fix myself anymore. 
I don’t expect anyone to read this all the way through but if you did, just know that if you let drugs get the better of you, it’s only going to end badly. You’ll hang out with the wrong people, or gain a dependence that you are better off without. You’ll lose the trust of literally everyone around you, and you wont be able to fix it. Not properly anyway.
I know most of this is rambling, but a lot of this is stuff I haven’t told anyone. So if you’re reading this and you’re someone I know, please don’t think less of me. I’m trying to sort myself out.
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