#night notes

[penname-artist]

I might actually just be immortal. Or else God just REALLY wants me to suffer, to the point I contemplate whether or not my life is one big reality television show, where every episode some incredible thing happens to me only for it to be inadvertently stripped away so they can zoom in on my pain and anguish. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to assume that was the case, even; I mean if it was, it would make all these random and personal sufferings make some kind of sense.

[rainboas]

my upstairs neighbor is so loud and annoying and all he does is yell and play video games but right now he's explaining the civil war and like the entire history of slavery and the prison industrial complex to some guy in overwatch voice chat so

[bublines]

i have searched for my mother’s love in all the corners of the world

[kyathedino]

Notes goal post. Because why not.

I don't expect this to get very much attention, but I need motivation for some stuff so here we go I suppose

20 notes and I'll drink some water

50 and ill brush my teeth every night for the next week

100 and I'll start actually studying for my tests

150 and I'll weed my garden

200 and ill wash my hair regularly for the next month (like every other day)

300 ill start actually packing my lunches for school and eating them for two weeks

400 ill start eating food that's good for me, and have protein semiregularly

500 ill start taking my vitamins again so I can stop being malnourished

600 ill start going on walks again

700 ill clean my room

800 ill start reading and writing more

900 ill fully delete all of my suicide notes and wills that I've written

1000 ill throw away the razors

1500 ill be honest with my parents about all my physical issues and go to a medical professional

2000 ill ask my mom to let me go to therapy again

2500 ill stop starving myself when I'm mad at myself for one whole month

3000 I'll start like really trying again to be happy

5000 ill begin to actually try to be a good person, even considering my limits and all that

10000 ill listen to the entirety of welcome to nightvale (the real incentive here)

Spam allowed, tagging allowed, the deadline is October 22.

have fun

[rogue-driv3r]

So, exams are going fine but they once again took all of my time and energies. They keep my mind busy enough which is a good thing, "thoughts" don't get too loud in my head. But at the same time i'm getting more and more insane, i can't speak correctly and get anxiety attacks triggered by memories of interactions i had at lessons/exams. I'm literally rotting in my clothes at home, been going outside only twice in the last month (not considering uni stuff). My phone's on mute 24/7, when i open it it's flooded by notifs and that's quite overwhelming, i have no energies to read/reply. Then i feel like a horrible person.

I wanted to take a long drive to clear my mind but this last exam i'm studying for is taking more time than i thought, so every hour is important, and i can't risk getting more worries from possible accidents or car failures. The weather is awful, too. So i keep my car parked.

I'm stressed af and i don't even know if it's gonna be worth it. I love what i'm doing, for fckn once, but it's not enough to make me feel better with myself, to give me hope. I'm tired, i'm struggling a lot just to keep myself afloat.

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw

[hinamie]

9 / 266

[badolmen]

They don’t even attempt to assassinate US politicians anymore. You notice that? Not since the anthrax scare back for… who was it, Barack? And even that… pathetic. This new generation has no respect for an honest hitman. I’m not sure this new generation has any honest hitman - you see that shit with Boeing? Sloppy, fucking disgraceful - you kill the whistleblowers before they get halfway to a lawsuit. What kind of fucking amateur is doing faked suicides the night before testimony? Goddamn greenhorns. Back in my day someone tried to shoot Ronald Reagan in broad daylight. There used to be bomb threats to Congress. I took out a few union leaders in the utilities sector myself. Today’s generation? Won’t even threaten to throw a punch - not even over on that - what’s it now, ‘X’? They got no guts. None! And they don’t even have poor impulse control to boot! Too much of that - that panopticon anxiety bullshit. “Oh what if I get a called out post???” People used to send the president letters full of bioweapons. In the mail! Today’s generation? Not a chance. All because of woke.

[wizardmania]

The absolute silence today is gut wrenching. Leaflets were dropped on the west bank telling palistinians to go to Jordan. Last time they told them to go south and they got bombed. Everything about Palestine has suddenly dropped off trending and we know that staff has been suppressing the tags #free palestine and #palestine. Now its has to be every single tag that was trending, because i just simply do not believe we stopped talking about it over night. I feel so hopeless about this shit but the only thing we can do rn is to not stop talking. We have to stop trying to bury our heads in the sand and keep posting as if it was normal because its not normal. Palestinians don't get a break from the horror, the least we can do for them is to make sure their suffering isn't silent.

[darkstalker1247]

[wu-does-art]

coming out as a "Will snores obnoxiously loud" and "Nico breaths so quietly you can barely tell hes alive" truther

[jackyjackdraws]

Redrawing one of my favorite drawings from The Book of Bill

God! These bitches gay! Good for them! Good for them!

[ladyluckylu]

From last year. Surprisingly, I still like how it turned out

[sourtomatola]

Introducing Light Switched AU

(this is the only one XD) was supposed to be the only one

(Part 2 or 3 ish)

[lepitorus]

here's some diagrams of my springbonnie/springtrap design because people seem to like it a lot! : D

[cirrus-grey]

Interesting detail: both Bonzo cases have been Category 1, Rank B. The only other CAT1RB case has been Needles.