#nini speaks

[niningtori]

ouuu i'm at 9k words and i still have quite a bit left to go... y'all pls actually read this if u want me to continue writing longer works (longer for me at least) i'm so serious NENSNSNKWKWKS

the way we were before | preview(s)

pairing: choi beomgyu x you

summary: you've been in love with beomgyu for as long as you've known him. deep down, you've always thought that he loved you, too; so when he tells you that he's engaged to another woman, you decide to break it all off after a nasty fight in which he shows you just how little you mean to him. a life-ending accident seems to put your feelings to rest, for good. just when you think it's all over, however, you awaken to a time before everything fell apart; and you're determined not to repeat the same mistakes. it's just that beomgyu can't seem to let you go.

genre: ANGST (literally so much angst it's not even funny), romance, second chance!au, rebirth!au

warnings: mcd (and rebirth), depictions of death, suicidal thoughts

notes: below are snippets for you all to get an idea of what's to come. this work contains a lot of angst... and that's coming from ME. this might be too sad to the point of being corny but luckily i was born on the cob. don’t be mean to me tho i'm going thru it rn

"but you can't expect me to just owe you my feelings,” he snaps.

“that's not what this is about, and you know it.”

“seriously? that's exactly what this is about. you're the altruist who does nothing wrong, and i'm just a fucking scumbag who takes advantage of you, right? well, i'm sorry, but it's not my fault that you're acting so goddamn crazy over something so stupid.” your eyes burn with an intensity so great, it feels like they're being seared out of your skull. in this moment, you realize that he will never, ever respect you enough to consider you worthy of being leveled with. he doesn't think you're even worth the time. you're his silly, lovesick best friend who's absolutely delusional to the point of being laughable for suggesting that he actually take you seriously, for once. and that revelation breaks you like nothing else.

you won’t do this anymore. you couldn’t even if you wanted to, and you don’t.

-

the collision is bone-shattering in the literal sense. you’d think you’d feel adrenaline alone in such a situation, but you can feel pain bursting out of every cell of your body as you feel yourself stilling after being thrown back and forth in your seat. every organ, every bone, feels like it’s just been crushed, and not for the first time today, you’re struggling to breathe.

as you feel yourself slipping out of consciousness, one immovable thought resounds in your head: i wish i never met him.

-

“don’t even bother finishing that sentence. you don't like me at all,” you sneer. “you just don’t like seeing me move on.” this makes him pause, and even you don’t have the heart to pretend like you can’t see the hurt in his eyes.

notes pt. 2: yeah...

if you would like to be tagged in this work, please let me know by commenting or sending an ask! thank u <3

[lgbtkanda]

thinking about the “it took so much violence to become this gentle” and how that usually is how i see allen walker but now i see it as kanda yuu and he is not even gentle per say he is just… tired. he regrets so much and earnestly wants to right things and it makes me ache. hoshino is so insane for that development and ill never get over him and how much he went through to finally wake up and become something that’s some kinda of gentle and sincere. and don’t even get me started on how he couldn’t care less if allen died when they first met and now he’s threatening those who might harm him… god

[yeastpanini]

Sometimes I think about that one bit in "The Robots of Dawn" where Daneel explains to Elijah that on Aurora there are Specialized Robots to raise kids, and neither him or Giskard have that ability. And then I think that Giskard sort of raised Vasilia.

Imagine when Vasilia was really tiny, Han Fastolfe going to Giskard "Oh I'm going a few days out for a scientific Conference please keep an eye on Vasilia" and Giskard Panicking. Fastolfe comes back home three days later and Giskard is now "Babysitter Supreme"

[dulce-chisme]

camilla doesn’t shave i’ll die on this hill

[luvniniiss]

My pussy tastes like Pepsi cola.

[lorelei-system]

Nini just wan go home. Wan be loved. So alone. So sad. Just wan feel loved. M just me but feels like being me is wrong. M not allowed to be little. Wan be treated like aam little. Don’t wan act like grown up cuz am not one.

[ninii-winchester]

could you please add me to your tag list if it’s no trouble? you’re an amazing writer especially for dean you write him sooo accurately!!! thank you!

Ofcourse I will, it’s not trouble at all. Thank you so much. It makes me so happy that you like what I write. ❤️🫂

[borntodoll]

i cannot stand him or fathom him .

[mygthv]

i really do be crying over min yoongi living his best life in a yacht eating some watermelon and drinking coconut juice likeeeeeeee he looked so happy and relaxed there’s no words precise enough that could explain how much i LOVE him my little yoongiiiiiii

[identityconfusioncentral]

I don’t know how to say thank you to the nice people who gave advice on how to deal with being scared of fronting in therapy but thank you so much your very nice. -nini

[niningtori]

OMGGG thank you for including me 🥹 it's an honor <3

(っ◔◡◔)っ 🩷 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙭𝙩 𝙛𝙞𝙘 𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙨 🩷

here are a few of my favorite fics that have made me laugh, cry, smile, scream, and probably feel every other emotion possible!

i'll keep adding to this list as i read. if you have any fics to recommend, i’d be so happy to read them!

𝗼𝘁𝟱 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗯𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀:

SILENT TREATMENT W/ TXT ~ @miupow 

GETTING STONED W/ TXT ~ @miupow

"Let's break up" prank ~ @skiiyoomin

Little things they do to make you needy ~ @taegimood

squish ~ @huckleberrykai (healed me 🫶🏽)

there's food at home ~ @huckleberrykai

let's dance the night away ~ @huckleberrykai

crush crush crush ~ @huckleberrykai

𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗶 𝘀𝗼𝗼𝗯𝗶𝗻:

ALL FOR A BET ~ @jjunieworld ("everytime i'm away from you my soul calls out to yours and everytime i'm with you it sings from how complete it is" has to be one of the most beautiful things ive ever read)

saudade love ~ @kumabeom

the great bake off ~ @jjunieworld

ALIBI ~ @bunniwords

𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗶 𝘆𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗷𝘂𝗻:

mango flavored ~ @biteyoubiteme

crown radio. ~ @mazeinthemoon

9:05 p.m. ~ @agustdiv1ne

9:23 p.m. ~ @agustdiv1ne

aquarium date with yeonjun ~ @blackhairedjjun

bed chem ~ @moamidzyism

THE UNDERGROUND ˒˒ 최연준 ~ @jjunieworld

girl dad yeonjun headcanons ~ @miupow

written in the stars ~ @blossom-hwa

shoong! ~ @beomie3

i wish i was a baller ~ @delcakoo

thoughts on food truck chef!yeonjun x office worker!reader ~ @blackhairedjjun

gold rush ~ @wave2tyun

you're not afraid of heights are you? ~ @beomiracles

flustering bestfriend!yeonjun ~ @taegimood

[bratty switch!yeonjun] ~ @heartchoi

lost ~ @huckleberrykai (one of the most heartwarming fics ive ever read!!! melted my stress away IM NOT EVEN JOKING)

found (part 2 of lost) ~ @huckleberrykai

i did something bad ~ @huckleberrykai (mafia yeonjun has me going brrrr)

a bouquet of flower ~ @p0ckykiss (this is the sweetest freaking thing ever!!!)

sucking on yeonjun's chain during sex ~ @taegimood

yeonjun w dumbification + spit kinks ~ @taegimood

𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗶 𝗯𝗲𝗼𝗺𝗴𝘆𝘂:

Stupid Cupid ~ @hybeboyenthusisast

an iron man ~ @niningtori

𝗸𝗮𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻:

STRANDED ~ @beomiracles

𝗵𝘂𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗮𝗶:

straight a students ~ @silvergyus

𝗺𝘂𝗹𝘁𝗶-𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿𝘀:

movie date ~ @biteyoubiteme

11:58 p.m. ~ @agustdiv1ne

busy signal ~ @biteyoubiteme

[niningtori]

not usually into this trope but i'm imagining a rich girl!reader who's just a fucking lonely mess bc she's sick of ppl using her to get to her rich father and an ambitious, poor beomgyu who assumes she's just an ungrateful brat who has it all so he gets with her to try to help a rival company get a leg up on the competition blah blah angst blah blah he finds out just how isolating her life has been blah blah blah she actually realizes he doesn't actually like her blah blah he regrets it

[lgbtkanda]

avg renheng stan experience

[dulce-chisme]

@ tsh fans if u a camilla macaulay apologist and are obsessed with her being insane and deranged FOLLOW ME PLEAZS BE MY FRIEND PLEASEEEEEE

[niningtori]

me always

y’all ever have one of those “omfg i’m a terrible writer and am embarrassed to have ever posted anything on here” days ???

[lorelei-system]

Nini don like autocorrect. Nini wan write like thoughts sound in head. When Nini type slep, means slep not sleep. (Dunno how to make angy moji)