#not bc of her just. Grief etc

[harrylights]

the good news is that i am still gay as ever 🫶

[faaun]

pls i need to provide updates

[elgaravel]

On a sadder note, also thinking abt el listening to the holotape you get in game and destroying it on impulse 👍

[barkingangelbaby]

I feel like such a broken fucking person lol

I talked way too much in the tags don't read them

[autistic-britta-perry]

like Shiv's mean sometimes and emotionally stunted and that's basically it She's a cheater but he was fine with possibly cheating and it was only when he thought she'd do it too that he was like no so like sorry I don't really feel bad about that part. And then there's the 'I don't love you' thing and that's it! she didn't send him to prison!!! he got himself into trouble, he could've exposed it and he did not and then he offered himself and she was like strategically that'd be good and then he was hurt that she didn't save him He keeps saying he loves her and that he cares throughout the first seasons and people just buy that fully and think Shiv doesn't when she's the one who shows it through actions! and like I get up until beginning of s4 Tom not knowing that but whenever I read people who watch the show saying she doesn't love her or that it was only Shiv hurting him until the betrayal I get so mad

[vigilskeep]

colour symbolism breakthrough

[delicatetaysversion]

my sister was explaining ki unhe kaisa ladka chahiye and my mom was like mujhe toh samajh hi nahi aa rha and then she told me jokingly ki beta tu toh ladka pata ke rakhna cause agar mujhe iska samajh ni aa raha toh tera toh bilkul bhi nahi aayega AND my sister was like mummy aur progressive bano, ladka hi kyun, ladki bhi toh pata sakti hai LIKE

[thedeadthree]

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SILENT

a lot has happened to you. its demoralizing, i know. you cry with your head leaning against the wall, tears streaking your face. your lip quivers but your mouth stays firmly closed. you keep your problems to yourself to not bother anyone.

FRUSTRATED

so many big things have happened that a little one sets you off. your angry and that anger turns to hot tears. you scream in frustration and try to verbally or physically release all of the anger by yelling/throwing things. eventually you fall into a pile on the floor full of brokenness.

SOB

you are a sob. youve been through so much and the pain has finally caught up to you. you make soft broken noises as you cry. your life has been hard and everythings piled up on you, and in this moment it becomes too much. you sob for a few minutes before the tears stop and you just lay in pain. one of the worst cries.

HAPPY

a lot may have happened to you, but in this moment it doesnt matter. everything will fall into place as God [the seven] intends it to. you know you will be okay, because whatever caused this cry is how it needs to be. the future is bright and so is your renewed sense of hope.

[mashmouths]

CLOSET HISTORIAN LITTLE GREEN STREAK IN THE FRONT

[moonsandstar-s]

one of the aspects that i love most about the confession scene is that blake & yang both already know the big truth they haven’t dropped on each other. blake knows yang is thinking ‘i love you’ and yang realizes that blake is thinking it too as the clouds go gold behind her, even though she immediately questions it with the dropping of her gaze and the uncertainty on her face - for them, it’s a matter of being brave enough to speak it into existence rather than revealing previously-unknown feelings to each other. my question is, when do you guys think blake and yang first became aware of how they, themselves, were feeling? 

[lingeringscars]

it's the way quinn is currently afraid for her and her boyfriend and she still plans this entire day for jamie because her sister is struggling and jamie is upset. she creates a scavenger hunt for treasure, gets jamie to watch the goonies with her, and then gets him all excited to go on this treasure hunt.

[foolishjellyfish]

Heart says ouch. We still sad. :-((((((

[nomairuins]

my tags on that went on for so long i had to go back and edit them to fit tag limit and i still had to delete a bunch of them. Its the autism it literally is

[forgotteneabha]

On the Wind | Eabha & Finn

Every morning, she stood at the shore. Stubbornly, now, she stood at the shore. The wind swept through her hair and clothes in unseen rivulets and no matter the sun or the chill, she stood and kept her watch. when Eabha had been a child, she would wait often this way, wait and watch the horizon for her father to come sailing back, the colors of Hanthom-Calleary proudly flying over the thrashing waters.

Now, however, now she expected to see nothing, waited for no one. She'd seen his head come off, watched the hideous kicking dance of his legs as his head came off, and the awful tide of red gurgle from his severed neck. She'd seen his head seized and placed upon a pike for all to see, braced by a plaque reading 'thus always to traitors.' She'd pleaded for his body, pleaded for his head, and she'd come back empty handed. Roderick wanted them both to display. And she had nothing left to offer back to the sea save her own tears. She couldn't do anything for him.

But standing here, her eyes set upon the horizon...Here, just here, she could imagine otherwise. That he was gone, off on one of his many adventures, and soon he'd return with laughter and smiles to regale them all. It perhaps was no healthy thought, she knew, but it was better than contemplating his lifeless eyes staring sightless into hers, and that was too terrible a memory for even the sea to wash away entirely. All she could do was stand here with the rising sun at her back and think of all she might do -- all he would do, were he alive.

As morning late settled upon the castle, however, she made her trek back from Hanthom under the light of the glowing sun. Lorcan rose up before her, a dark monolith, near as much a prison as the cell in which her father had spent his last days, though she had once known it as a happy place, growing up alongside its heirs and watching her sister marry there, her children born there...Yet she found it difficult to see it thus with the traitor Rian now in charge.

Yet, it was far more cheerful than her candlelight walks to the shore, and she breathed in deeply, hearing the childish happy shrieks of her niece, and formed a smile. She missed the scent of salt in the air, but she couldn't help smile all the same to hear that tiny, cherished voice.

"What chaos is this?" laughed Eabha, arriving in the Calleary quarters to spot Clea slipping inside a wardrobe as Fiona counted.

"Shhh!" demanded little Clea. "We have to be quiet!"

"Why is that?"

"Uncle Finn's still sleeping!"

Shaking her head, Eabha sniffed. "Oh, no he isn't!" she declared, marching into his bedroom and pulling the curtains back. Sunshine streamed into the room and she turned, hands on hips, her expression one of triumph with a brow slightly raised. "Up you get, Finn! I've quite the day planned!" She grinned, a trice wickedly. "Let's go fishing! The people in Hanthom are hungry!"

[ace-malarky]

me: oh yeah, I guess I'm not. too much on the sadness? she was old and I've had time to conceptualise that and also it's not like I've ever been that good at communicating feelings and all that.

also me: oh all my writing is about grief suddenly

[nanaonmars]

SPOILERS FOR ULTRAMAN:RISING

i know people have been talking about it but i’m going to lose my mind if i don’t say anything. the new ultraman:rising movie is SO SO GOOD. SOOOO GOOD. i’m genuinely losing my shit because i didn’t expect it at all. i was just looking for something to watch with my sisters. imagine my surprise when we played it and it was more emotional than i thought it would be. first of all: the reluctant father trope is gonna get me EVERYTIMEEE. and they did it so well. in fact i think it’s my favorite portrayal of the trope so far. ken had me tense as hell for the first bit bc i wanted to see how they were gonna redeem him, but honestly, the pacing and character development was amazing. watching him progress felt natural, and i absolutely adored seeing how emi made him a better person.

the scene when he met her for the first time and the clouds cleared?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? he loved her from the moment he met her. and i love love loveddddd that he actually treated her like his daughter. he called her baby, he called himself her dad, he played with her, he fed and washed her, etc etc. i feel like it’s very common to see the father figure still keep that distance, especially when they’re not raising a human, but for the most part, he went all in. you couldn’t tell that man he didn’t birth her! i so badly want to see more of them together, even if it’s just a mini series of him raising her on kaiju island. she impacted every area of his life. he needed her just as much as she needed him.

dr. onda did drive me insane, but i did feel for him just a little bit. i understand why he let his vengeance fuel him. also maybe i’m overthinking it, but i like the parallel of him and ken with their sunglasses. they both hide their sadness, grief, and vulnerability with them. i think it’s neat that they know they can’t hide how their eyes express their feelings.

ultradad and mecha gigantron messed me UP. i was so scared his dad would actually die, but i was also very happy to see gigantron was actually alive. she was very valid in attacking the kdf for stealing her baby!! i hope they can fix mina because emi needs her grandmas. every single scene of ken and emi nearly brought me to tears. this movie was made with so much love. i heard it took 25 years for them to get this movie actually approved and going, so congrats to shannon tindle for having a vision and seeing it through!! thank you for sharing it with the world because it’s easily one of my favorite movies of the year. i hope the end credit scene actually leads to more of this universe, because this movie has truly blown me away.