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GERIJAH: A TRAGIC LOVE STORY?

Now as a Valentine gift for all of you, a brief look into Gerijah! Happy Valentine’s Day and a special shoutout to @selene-yoshi-chan, @cartoonobsessionsyndrome, @welcome-to-cobblepothell, @multi-villain-imagines and @jokesterwrites

Despite the fact that they share no airtime, she never mentions him and he’s only in 2 episodes, I believe that I can prove that Gertrud Kapelput and Elijah Van Dahl is one of the deepest, loving and complex couples in the history of FOX’s Gotham, using only examples from the show and well-formed thoughts.

For me, Gerijah first became a thing in the middle of Elijah’s first episode. There is a scene where Elijah is serving Oswald a meal and telling his son about his past with Gertrud where is his body language, the way he stared off into the distance as he called Gertrud ‘so beautiful’, and he broke down at the thought of his parents separated them that it first dawned on me. This wasn’t just a guy recalling good times, this was a man telling a story about a woman he was still very much in love with. This seems even truer when Elijah tells how he meets his wife, Grace, in a much more matter-of-fact, less emotional way than his Gertrud story. In fact, proof that Elijah loves Gertrud comes with his very first entrance. He appeared as edger and nervous as a schoolboy going on a date, when he comes to put flowers on her grave. Old flowers are already there, suggesting that he has already been there before, (or the flowers could be put there by Ed, as per Oswald’s request) and it’s unusual for a rich man to place flowers on a servant’s grave or for a married man to do so for a ex-girlfriend, unless, of course, the dead still meant something very special. With the line, ‘Gertrud was a cook that worked for my parents,’ not ‘for us’ or ‘for the family’, it is possible that Elijah never saw Gertrud as a servant but more as a equal, a friend, a lover, a girlfriend or even a wife. Granted, we never got a timeframe for Gertrud and Elijah’s relationship but there’s one more clue that points it to being extremely serious. When Elijah meets Oswald for the first time, all he needs to know is 2 things, only 2 pieces of information, that his mother is Gertrud and that he’s 32, that’s it. Elijah   never even questions that Oswald is not his son, again. This certainty and the intensity of his feelings for Gertrud prove that it wasn’t a one-night stand or a casual fling. These were 2 people in love and were sexually faithful to one other. But if Elijah loved Gertrud so much, why didn’t he go after her? I’m not so sure he didn’t. Yes, Elijah tearfully admitted he was ashamed that he didn’t at least try to contact Gertrud when his parents forced Gertrud to flee the mansion but earlier in that same show, Elijah said that he ‘only found her in death, I afriad’, that quote implies that he HAD tried to find her in life but was unsuccessful. Regardless, by his own admission, life without Gertrud is pretty bleak for Elijah. His father commits suicide in his office, leaving deep mental scars on Elijah, leading to behavior such as sleepwalking and sometime later, his mother also dies. Elijah said that after his mother’s death he barely got out of bed for months at a time. This is classic behavior for someone who has depression and after losing both his parents along with Gertrud, why shouldn’t poor Elijah be depressed? In such a state, a lonely, depressed, heartbroken, single millionaire would be quite easy prey for a gold digger, enter Grace. We know next to nothing about Grace and her children’s lives before they met Elijah. It is mentioned that Grace’s first husband was abusive. (Given that Grace is a skilled liar and the fact the woman never acts like a victim, the abusive husband could be a tall tale meant to gain sympathy from a compassionate Elijah. But as this is a one-time comment it’s impossible to prove one way or the other.) Something we do for a fact is that Grace is not born one of Gotham’s upper crust. When she met Elijah, Grace was a waitress. She had the same kind of blue-collar life that Gertrud had. Despite the fact that Elijah said that ‘love blossomed’ between him and Grace after he took her and her kids into his home, there is no proof that Grace ever liked, loved or even respected her husband. Make no mistake, my friends, there is no great love story between Elijah and Grace. Still, there had to be something between the two at some point right?  After all, they got all the way to the altar, so they had to have some kind of deep connection? Well, yes and no. As someone who has given this a lot of (okay, maybe too much) thought, I came up with 3 possible reasons as for why Elijah would marry Grace. As I’ve already mentioned, Grace was a waitress when she and Elijah first met. A waitress is similar to Gertrud’s profession as a cook, leading me to believe that Elijah’s feelings for Grace could had been a transference of the love he still had for Gertrud, playing up the parallels between the 2 women and ignoring the many differences. Another school of thoughts is shortly after being taken into the mansion to get away from her abusive ex, Grace sets out to seduce Elijah, (i.e. sex). Elijah doesn’t seem like the love ‘em and leave ‘em type, so after sleeping together, Elijah develops a crush on Grace, which he mistakes for real love. Or perhaps the attraction is not Grace or rather not Grace alone. It could be her children. Elijah did say that after the kids moved in, ‘this halls heard laughter once again.’ The prospect of becoming a family unit with Grace, Sasha and Charles would be alluring to a lonely bachelor like Elijah. The fact that Sasha and Charles carry the Van Dahl surnames rather than real father’s supports this theory. If Elijah’s motives for marrying Grace are unclear, Grace’s are crystal: his money. Whatever got them to the wedding, at some point; the marriage breaks down (if it ever worked at all). Maybe Elijah finally realizes it takes more than sex to make a marriage or it finally dawns on him that Grace isn’t Gertrud or perhaps when the kids got older, Elijah finds there’s not much between him and Grace as a couple. Elijah goes back to his memories of Gertrud. By the time Oswald appears, the marriage is dead. The terms of affection like ‘dear’ now seems like forced polite conversation and they sleep in different rooms.

So I think I proved that Elijah loves Gertrud but did Gertrud love Elijah? I believe she did, but if Elijah’s love is proved in words, Gertrud’s are proved by actions. Elijah tells Oswald that all he was told that his parents and Gertrud ‘came to an arrangement.’ This almost always means that Gertrud was offered a large amount of money to stay away from Elijah. But given her faded clothes and tiny apartment that we saw in season 1 plus Oswald saying that ‘they didn’t have much’ when he was growing up, it’s pretty safe to say that she didn’t take the money, proving that she wasn’t the gold digger the Van Dahls thought she was and that she truly loved Elijah. While she didn’t take the money, she did agree to go away. Why? First off, she was probably worried about Elijah himself

We are never told when Elijah got his bad heart but if he was sickly in his youth as he is later on plus his lack of experience with the city, he was home-schooled after all, Gertrud was likely worried if Elijah left the mansion, his health would get worse. By this time, Gertrud was pregnant. The fact that Oswald was the same age as when Gertrud left the mansion leads me to believe that she was a few months along. Elijah’s health could also be the reason Gertrud never told him about the pregnancy. He has already threatened to run away with her even without a baby in the picture, if he knew about the   baby, there would be no way he would leave Gertrud’s side. A lesser woman would have viewed a pregnancy as an   answer to prayer. She could of used the baby to trap Elijah into marriage. Gotham producers have always described Gerturd ‘as a proud but faded beauty’. It’s the proud part that interests me. No proud woman in love would want a shotgun wedding with disapproving in-laws. I believe that Gertrud didn’t tell her employers for a different reason, she doesn’t trust them. After all, this is the couple that tried to buy her off, believe she is good enough for their son, so why would she be good enough for their grandchild? So Gertrud left the mansion and Elijah with   her secret intact. So Gertrud is unmarried, pregnant, jobless, and if her job was live-in, homeless. Gertrud probably moved in to a poor neighborhood into the city and works at a new job. Gertrud was just as heartbroken as Elijah but unlike Elijah who has nothing to do but mope around the mansion and wonder what went wrong, Gertrud is busy trying to build a new life for herself and for her unborn child. As we all know, Gertrud carried her baby to term and untimely gave birth to a son, who looked a lot like his father. Oswald becomes his mother’s entire world. By all accounts, Gertrud is an outstanding mother. Yes, she does lie and tell Oswald his father was dead but I don’t think she did it out of spite or bitterness but out of a need to protect a little boy against the idea that his own family might not think him good enough. As an awkward and bullied boy, the only place that Oswald feels completely safe, secured and loved was with his mother. The bond between mother and son is so strong that after Gertrud’s death, Oswald often finds himself lost without her. If lovingly tending to their son is not enough to convince you that Gertrud loved Elijah, how about the fact that is likely that Gertrud NEVER married. This is not canon, no one on the show said Gertrud never married, but all the pieces are there. Yes, she was the widow of Oswald’s dead father, which makes Oswald (and her) look better. Since he is not the type to do something without his parent’s permission, it’s unlikely that people address her as Mrs. Kapelput or Cobblepot, but this could be that she told people Gertrud and Elijah were ever legally married and Oswald recalls his youth often but has never once mentioned a stepfather. The bond between mother and son wouldn’t be as strong if there had been a husband/ boyfriend in the picture vying for Gertrud’s time and attention. It’s not hard at all to see Gertrud as a working, single mother who had no time or will to date. Also, Kapelput was the only name on her tombstone leading me to believe that Gertrud simply put Mrs. in front of her own maiden name. If Gertrud never truly got over Elijah, then it must of hurt a lot when she heard that he married and seemingly move on. And since they all live in the same area, it’s likely she did know about Grace and the kids. At the start of Gotham, Gertrud comes off as an overprotective and overbearing mother and in a way, she is. The older Oswald gets, the less and less control Gertrud has over where he goes. I believe Gertrud is terrified of losing Oswald, but not to a hussy, as she claims. No, she is afraid that one day Oswald is going to bump into his father or stepfamily, exposing the lies that she had told him his whole life, causing her son to reject her. When Oswald and Elijah do meet, it’s in a graveyard and where both are grieving for the recently deceased Gertrud. By taking in and caring for Oswald, Elijah may be trying to redeem himself. By embracing their son with open arms, Elijah might be trying to prove his love for Gertrud, to show he’s worthy of a 2nd chance, if only to their child. As Oswald (and Gertrud) come to the forefront of Elijah’s mind, Grace and the kids are pushed to the side, a little. It’s ironic that Grace’s cruelest deed turns out to be kindness. For only by dying, can Elijah be reunited with Gertrud.

What makes Elijah and Gertrud a tragic couple is that their parting was completely avoidable! Both are equally to blame. If Elijah had simply stood up to his parents, he could have raised his son. If Gertrud trusted Elijah with the news of her pregnancy, she could have her baby and the man she loved. Still, even in death, Gerijah has a small justice. If the Van Dahl dynasty continued, it will have to be by Elijah’s ‘only living relative’ Oswald…and Gertrud’s bloodline.

 Do you agree? Disagree? Have I missed something? Comment!

[hurricanetortilla5ever-blog]

OK SO I GOT AT LEAST 10 MINUTES TO WRITE THIS UP OPPS CAPS 

anyways im rushing to study but i got something on my mind , i was complaining about my periods and neville tells me how he would prepare ginger tea for her then he would buy medicine and he would tapao and cancel plans so that she could just stay in , and how he would boil water to make a heat compression for her , and like fuck thats so sweet like honestly i never really expected bryan to do this but neville is honestly so sweet and i wish bryan was that sweet but i bet neville did it because he wanted to not because he was told to because thats just who he is , and i think isaac was like that too like i remember hwo he would buy me a sneaker bar everytime i mentioned that i had my period like that shit was su sweet and i never apprieciated it because hes just my best friend , and like phil last time boil the ginger water for elaine too , so im like maybe bryan is like super blur , like maybe because before this i was dating white guys and i mean white guys usually maybe dont do as much as chiese guys , cause when asians treat their girls right they really really treat their girls like queens , but honestly even tho joh was russian i remmeebred when we woke he made me breakfast in bed and an omelette and stuff , idk i was seeing our chats the other day , and i guess some of the bitterness that i had from him came from like me being jealous of his gf but honetly im happy he has someone now , like he was actually nice and he really hyped me up  a lot like he would comment on my stories and apprieciate a selfie and what not , hed take notice of my outfits , my hair , my make up . but i mean it just had to end , and i didtnt love him but im glad he has someone he loves now , i guess thats some sort of maturity , like if i hated him that would mean i wasnt over him but im happy for him moving on , anyways back to the subject , sometimes when i wear something cute or whateever, change my outfit or makeup , bry doesnt take notice , i tried seeing his reaction and usually ill have to be all like ‘ i changed my hair today ‘  ‘ im earing make up today is it nice ‘ or is my outfit cute ‘ then only he responds , and honestly its kinda sien , maybe idk hes just not that attracted to me , wow this hurts anyways that day when he was looking at my body and he was saying that it was sexy and he was lucky , i really felt butterflies , maybe hes trying idk , maybe after i told him i want more thats him showing it or something , idk la , i hype him a bunch , too much for my own good . but like i want some sort of reciprocration i think im so used to the reciprocration because of austin , like austin would take screenies of all my stories lmao , but i mean i guess now its kinda concerning knowing he has my photos . i hope he deleted them  idk  but it dont matter , idk if i made myself this demanding of bryan , is it the men i dated ? is it society ? what if bryan never treats me the way i think i wanna be treated ? when i asked neville like wow u do all these stuff and he was like doesnt bryan do it too , i was like erm no ? and they were like shocked like a normal man should do these things , and that was kinda shameful i guess , and i was likeno la bry just give me tummy rubs , and esther said well if you receive the way you are treated if you think youre a queen your bf will treat u like a queen , but if you are shit your bf will treat u like shit , idk that kinda resonated with me , anyways i tried to test bry by telling him about my period 

he said he did some research and pullled out a 5 list of things that are remedies for periods which one was sex and he was like hey loook we had sex :( like i mean ha ha yea but he wasnt really catching the hint , so i told hi about neville and isaac and i think he felt intimidated especially after neville said that hes a lil boy , which tbh i dont get why hell think so like hes jsut a year younger , i guess esther and neville jsut look down on everyone except themselves , anyways he suddenly ask hwo old is neville and how logn were they dating which like i think was a hint to me like ,  hey neville is not so old, and the reason i dont tret u like neville is because their relationship is longer than ours , i wanted to say ‘  well you dont need to be in a 2 year relationship to do those things ‘ but honestly i feel like thatll just start a fire 

idk la i thought after this fight i wont be thinking too much but i find myself doing so 

i thought that after i told him i wanted to go somewhere nice that he would plan something but nigga didnt plan anything at all , we ended up staying at home to eat with mum , its supposed to be posponed but id about bryan , maybe we wont celebrate it . its important to me and i kept hinting that its soemthing i wanna celebrate that we cant just ignore it , its jsut a day to apprieciate each other, idk la i feel like i still have expectations and little by little im being super sien because hes not reacting , and i wanna feel loved not jsut thru kisses not jsut thru sex, anyone an do that , but it relly takes someones real effort to make someone smile , and im afriad that my smile fades , rn im happy with the little things  but if i break up with him now i wont say he did crazy things for me to be like yeah ‘ill never find someone who will love me as bryan did ’ and its sad that thats the case, idk i still wanna wait and see if he does anything , i jsut wanna feel something ya know , i dont wanna be just grateful that he stayed over one night , like idk , im grateful but wheres the other stuff , anyways fuck 25 mintues passed dy now im sad i still have a lot on my mind but idk , i jsut hope it all goes uphill from here 

[sleepinbird]

do all the "send me a number, yo" asks!!!!!

You got it dude.

Under the cut bc its long!

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?I’m afriad that im making the wrong long term career decision. 

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

No, but I wake up right next to her so we say it in person

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

Nah as long as she’s safe about it.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?

Depends on the vibe I get from them.

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

Playing BOTW

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

Hopefully my partner

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

I dont even know. I would be so crushed and angry. 

8: Are you close with your dad?

Nope

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

Yep! My girl.

10: What are you listening to?

My partner tapping her foot to music

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

Blue gatorade

12: Do you like hickeys?

Love ‘em

13: What time do you go to bed?

Between 1 and 3am

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

Nah

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

Nope

16: Do you always answer your texts?

For the most part

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

No. She’s the best thing thats ever happened to me.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

20 ish mins ago

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

Ye, my girl

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

“God my hip hurts”

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?

Yeah, several. I’m at school.

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?

I hope it does.

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

No. I was at the beginnings of a depressive episode.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

Sorta?

25: In the past week, have you cried?

Yeah.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

Maroon.

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?

Nope.

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?

Not as far as I know

29: Do you have a best friend?

Several

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

It’d be devastating considering I’m dating the last person I kissed.

31: Who was your last call/text message from?

Both from my Mom

32: Are you mad at anyone?

I’ll always be lowkey mad at my dad.

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Yes, once

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

23

35: How many more days until your birthday?

87

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?

Work

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

Ye.

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

Nope

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

I dont think so

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

Lowkey, but not really.

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

To an extent, yeah.

42: Are you available?

Nope!

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

Since it ended? One. And Im with her now.

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

Probably a second lip piercing. Maybe tongue.

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?

Depends on the circumstances but yes.

46: Do you regret anything?

Yeah but not so much that I would want to go back and change it

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

My health

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?

I feel like I sorta half lost one. We still chat, but its not like it used to be and its probably my fault.

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?

Not at all.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

I already did and it was a success. : )

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

Several times

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

Every day

53: What was the last thing you ate?

Apple slice

54: Did you get any compliments today?

Not yet

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?

God I have no idea. Maybe Idaho Springs?

56: Do you own anything from other countries?

I mean most things are made in China so???

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?

Most of them are outside the binary, but lean towards female.

58: Where have you lived most of your life?

Colorado

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

Can’t remember

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

Nope

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

Nope

62: Who do you text the most?

Either my Mom or my partner.

63: What was the last movie you saw?

Would You Rather

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

Idk, they love me I guess?

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?

None.

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

Yeah by like a year ish.

67: Do you curse around your parents?

I try not to

68: Are you happy with where you live?

Decently so. Its messier than I’d like, but 4 college students live there, so what can you do?

69: Picture of yourself?

Will post separately.

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

I prefer monogamy because I’m easily jealous, but under very certain circumstances, I’d be willing to try polyamory.

71: Have you ever been dumped?

Nah. 

72: What do you most like about making out?

Tongue ;P

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

Kissed, yes. Made out, no.

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?

I’ve only done it once, and I initiated.

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

The crease where thigh meets butt, hands, neck, legs lol

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

My partner

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

Nope

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?

Nope

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

When I wake up to her smiling at me

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

Depends on the age of said child

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

My current partner, yeah.

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

Nah, only like one person

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?

I always miss her 

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?

Probably about a month ago in our living room

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?

Nope

86: How can I win your heart?

Someone already has it. But personality is everything.

87: What is your astrological sign?

Libra

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Getting ready for bed

89: Do you cook?

Not as much as Id like

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?

Not really an old flame, but an old friend yeah

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

Not single

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?

Monogamy

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?

Physical traits dont really matter. Its more a personality thing for me

94: Name four things that you wish you had!

A dick, the willpower to lose weight, a higher wage, another iced coffee

95: Are you a player?

Not really.

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?

I dont think so

97: Are you a tease?

Yeah, but only with her

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

I think so. Probably at a con

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

Currently am

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

Only the gal Im currently dating

101: Hugs or Kisses?

Hugs

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?

Most of the time yeah lol

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Idk, voice? Smile?

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

Ye

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

NOOOOOOOOO

106: Do you flirt a lot?

Kinda lol

107: Your last kiss?

My gal

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?

Nope

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

Ye

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

The girl to my left

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?

Absolutely

112: Does someone like you currently?

I hope so!

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

Yes indeed

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

Serious only. I dont see the point in a fling.

115: Ever made out with just a friend?

Made out, no, kissed, ye.

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship

It depends. Id say Im happier with her than I have been in a great long while.?