#one day i'll get stuff sorted out but today is probably not that day 😔

[risingsunresistance]

i have GOT to figure out how to commission people without being forced to personally hand over my legal info, my Mental Problems will not let me do that

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

My apologies for not being active. It's been tough lmaos. Stuff with my family has been going on, and my friends.. Blah blah blah. Got embarrassed because my friends asked if I was on of my psychology teachers favorite students (I wasn't in their period.), and he said "No, but I'm not blind. I'm aware that I'm one of hers" out loud in the class, and my friends have been joking about it. So I'm reminded of it everyday. My boyfriend uhm. Well, I'm sort of considering maybe bringing shit up that bothers me, because today he said that since he got with a "bum" like me, he obviously doesn't have taste. Replied with ow? And told him it's bringing the petty out of me lmfao, and he started going "Oh no I'm so scared" yk shit like that. So I'm annoyed, and angry. Told him to "unget me then tf". Sigh. It's just been tough, and I can't handle people talking about my appearance anymore. I've had enough of everyone, and I mean everyone picking fun at me for it. Like my friends are constantly talking about "how big my forehead is", my boyfriend would say stuff about it too, but a couple days ago Ig he was feeling nice and told me that he's just hating on me. That there's nothing wrong with me. But then he contradicted himself today?? Ik its a joke, but it's hurtful and Idk what to do about it. He legit told me he was gonna do something while I "sulk", so I'm just afraid that if I say smth about it, then it would be an argument 😩 Life is confusing.

Been so depressed lately that I haven't been going to my classes. Luckily, we're out because of the snow. So I don't have absences rn. But mannn.

Anyway. I'm probably gonna lay down and sleep, maybe do some work I haven't done, idk? But I'll try to be in your asks again lol, just don't have the energy 😔

Xoxo 👽

BAE DONT EVER APOLOGIZE FOR THAT ITS OKAY!! I UNDERSTAND THINGS R HAPPENING AND IM SORRY THAT SO MUCH IS HAPPENING RN FOR U AND I HOPE YHINGS GET BETTER :(

also that’s so fucking weird and unprofessional of ur psychology teacher ngl like who the fuck says that genuinely… and bae ur bf… i still whole heartedly believe should be an ex bf and this literally just pushes me towards that opinion even more :/ u deserve a better bf!! one who doesn’t “poke fun” at u like that or starts an argument when u “sulk” or whatever. u deserve a better bf and better friends ngl . and i truly truly TRULY hope u get that.

at least yay for no school :( ily! take some time for urself and i’ll see u in my ask box whenever u have the energy! don’t worry about it!!

[zgvlt]

Quick Update for the Week!

Hello! I have my midterms next week so I'll be busy studying and doing my revisions for that hihi. Probably won't have much time to write so idk when the next fic will get posted 😔 hope y'all stick around anyway for whenever that'll be

Speaking of revisions I'll probably spend some time over the next few days proofreading my own works and editing some grammar/punctuation/wording. I don't know how many people reread my fics, but in the case anyone does this is for you babyyyyy *throws a basketball, misses the shot*

Lastly, here's stuff currently in my drafts. I don't know which one of these will be written next, but I wanted to step out of the canon universe for a bit:

1) Trey Clover — royalty/aristocracy/nobility AU. i adore jane austen and charlotte brontë but i recently started reading some maria edgeworth and frances burney. plus, i love the otome isekai/villainess/noble girl type of manga and manhwa so yeah, the writing style will probably be a little different since i want to emulate the styles of the aforementioned writers

2) Jamil Viper — i don't know how to categorize it, i guess travel buddies would be the way to put it? the idea came to me just today so i haven't figured out a setting yet, but whole travelling and then falling in love while on the trip trope

3) Malleus Draconia — this is difficult to explain, but its angst and sort of talks about death. but like not a dark fic or anything where malleus is evil, just a sad kind of melancholy it is what it is vibes. i make it a point to only write angst when i'm in a bad mood so i probably won't get this out for a while, but who knows if the midterms stress will get to me

Anyway that's it, sorry that I won't be able to get anything out until at the least next week 💖 Hope y'all stay hydrated love y'all mwahs