#ooh u wanna look at my oc so bad....

[springcatalyst]

I know we all have songs that remind us of our blorbos but you ever have songs that BELONG to a blorbo. like that's his

[yuckyfucky]

⋆｡ﾟ(??????? // ?????????) 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑.𝖿𝗍.𝐄𝐋𝐋𝚰𝐄 𝐖𝚰𝐋𝐋𝚰𝐀𝐌𝐒 remix

author’s scribbles: my s!lly as$ was in an incredibly s!lly mood. i wanna laughᵎᵎ i wanna have fun, a bch can hardly sit stillᵎᵎ

summary: ♡ ellie goes out on a date with friend ♡

uhhh w⚠︎rnings(??)..mm 2 b aware of..(???): honestly self insert, alllll oc’s r blk(coded) ☆, a lvl of unserious-ness, these bchs r str8 (no) up CLOWNS, “cuz u gay n’ stuff,” fwb 2 lovers, fluff + suggestive, not proofread @ all (SAWRY), loosely based on a story i have in mind, i have a visionᵎᵎ

l: v (very), wld (would), 2 (to), cld (could), bk (back), @ (at), nvr (never), 4 (for) // my slang is jus foolishness buh i can’t stop! update: im reading this thinking..damn this might give y’all a HEADACHE geezus, lemme make it make sense a bit fr 😭💀

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✎ “come.on. there’s gotta be fucking something..SOMETHING!” the last time ellie went shopping was almost half a yr ago. she wore her shit til the seams unraveled

✎ cue 2 a night when she tried 2 send an “accidentally on purpose” thirst trap but the second she pulled @ her shirt 2 flash a lil sumthin’, it came undone by the sides she still sent a pic

✎ wearing SCRAPS 4 clothing @ this point. “fffuuuuUUUUCCC—!” just a mess!

✎ n’ her excuse reasoning 4 STILL not going 2 damn store despite actually looking very forward 2 her night-out “it was in the spur of the moment!” (sheee literally had three whole days 2 go buh was all heart eyes n’ wobbly knees simply bcuz she had finally asked. oh, n’ bcuz her date said “yes,” obvi ♡)

✎ her hands shuffled robotically in front of her face before settling them on the back of her neck. terrible, TERRIBLE tics; she knew better than 2 bite @ her fingers

✎ especially after oc had made a comment that if she didn’t stop she’d end up with “frog fingers.” completely brushing over the countless vids of ppl they’ve seen wound up in the hospital bcuz of that that n’ a few other ridiculous warnings were thrown @ ellie if she didn’t want 2 end up accidentally leaving herself disfigured in the later future

✎ lightly being scared—or as she would call it, “bullied” out of her bad nervous habits

< from: my silly rabbit💋💋 > (tots didn’t personally put that in as their contact 030)

nobody:

u:

✎ but it was working. her lips also recovering from the excessive biting and lack of lip balm

LOL&;$:8:8.&IMFKNGONE ↴

✎ disgustingly dragging/typing out their laughter 4 emphasis on how funny they thought sumthin’ was, ranging from pure gibberish or (a personal fave) “AAAAAAAAAAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA” 4 obnoxiousness

✎ oc was as silly as they come: nvr failing 2 make an interrobang form above ellie’s head or getting a smile out of her

1) from a fucksesh that lasted nearly 3hrs, the both of them clocked out almost immediately right after. tho ellie’s slumber was cut short when she heard giggling in the middle of night. going thru emotions of confusion 2 anxiousness then annoyance n’ fearfulness. it was that she was being robbed or her place was haunted, n’ who tf had the time 4 either?? she leaned over, ready 2 shake oc awake n’ grab a bat she kept neatly stashed from underneath her bed buh paused when she saw them comfortably asleep with a fkn smile on their face. another giggle escaping their lips before they unconsciously stuffed their hand into their underwear

2) ellie could practically see the gears turning in their head from her peripheral. cocking their head 2 the side while they noisily slurped down a sweet tea they had gotten earlier from a lil donut shop right off of campus. a mischievous twinkle in their eyes. “..ellie,” they started ooh so casually “you know how to dance?” she squinted her eyes before rolling them. failing 2 suppress a smile which only grew bigger when oc surpassed hers with a cheshire-like grin “…no.” “So if I throw ass, how you gonna catch it?”

✎ dina shared that ellie was only working herself up. especially considering that they’d b out n’ around in such (inconsistent) humid + hot weather. with a pat on her shoulder n’ a “you’ll figure it out” 4 extra support, along with a promise to take her shopping next week. n’ ellie did. same way she let out a sigh of relief when she figured out which carnival 2 go 2 instead. this one being 30mins away. ellie didn’t want them to cross any paths with old habits. it was lowkey much 4 her that she still went 2 the same university

✎ oki, now ellie wasn’t exaaactly a player persay. tho she did happen 2 get around..often.. (unintentionally) leaving behind a lil more than a handful of broken hearts affiliated with either jesse or dina having 2 suffer n’ fend off awkward run-ins from “have you seen Ellie”’s. playing confused like they don’t practically live with her not like that’s their business anyway. blowing em’ off wit a neck scratch n’ a tired “she’s in jackson for the next two weeks.” followed up by a ray of annoyed texts sent her way: bro, call them already! x next time im giving them the keys to ur room buh-buh ntm on her! she’s a changed person now!

✎ tho she did met oc @ a time despite claiming she was done with hookups, happily welcomed them into her life with open arms, and open legs and an open mouth. but it was a treat 4 herself! had absolutely no expectations other than a lil summer fling @ best buh overtime she found herself wanting them 2 stay a lil longer (tho it took her awhile 2 admit it)

✎ she crossed her fingers n’ hoped, damn near got on her knees n’ PRAYED that they didn’t know about her promiscuities. like she didn’t spend her first 2yrs n’ sum change walking round campus with “community strap” practically stamped on her forehead—like that wasn’t exactly how n’ y they even met! (womp womp)

✎ ◁◁: oc knew of ellie best from a conversation they shamelessly eavesdropped on during composition. a girl n’ assumingely a fren, were trying 2 ever so quietly (buh failing) 2 talk about her. her n’ another one apparently. called them a “cock carousel,” tho admittedly confessing she’d like 2 get on that ride all dreamily. it made them curious

✎ damn her hypnotic green orbs n’ those scruffy ass shoes!

✎ dina ain’t give a shit fr lol. FINALLY an opportunity 2 give ellie a lil makeover after all those years she turned her down when they were younger, cuz apparently she was jus too cool 4 that shi n’ dina was willing 2 take whatever she cld get. ellie knew it was coming too

✎ “you know—“ “no.” “..?..you don’t even—“ “no.” “why are saying ‘no’, you don’t even—“ “no.” “you didn’t even—” “no!” “fine, be late to your date!”

✎ either ellie wasted more time tryna puzzle piece whatever was left of her wardrobe n’ b late or her clothes would come apart before she even left the damn house, making her even more late

✎ she knew she gave herself the short end of the stick. ellie didn’t even have 2 utter a “yes.” dina was already down the hall happily humming 2 herself, that deep exasperated sigh of defeat from ellie was more than enough. she could hear the clatter of doors opening. it’ll just have 2 do

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“Okay, look up again real quick!” “Oou put this on ‘nstead!” “Lemme add another strip!” Excited squeals circled the living room. I stood tall and balanced on the foot stool. Theatrically posing like a Zara Model (a.k.a unserious). I basked in my friends buzzing energy like a damn mannequin while they beautified me for my little adventure—oh! Sorry, DATE, of the night. Lightly..floating away.. back.. — .t

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a late convo in the middle of July.

< from: ew!..♡ >

then the beeeest fucking part

ending the night with elephant ears

or funnel-cake

u know, something like that

“Something like that..” I read her text aloud to myself. Geeked up in bed like she was a high-school crush: a finger pinched between my teeth and feet kicked up into the air. This was serious!

I motioned my hand in slow circles as I watched the three dot speech bubble appear then disappear for the next minute.

Mhmm..Oki!..Oki!

Then two.

..Oki!..Oki!…….Oki? My smile faltered and I stopped my movements.

It’s been five minutes.

I lulled my head to side and scoffed. My dazed smile turned agape.

< to: ew!..♡ >

…..i know this ain’t ur way of asking me out

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ellie😭

i was working my up to it!

talking bout something like that

b a fkn lady!

damn! i won’t ask then!

ooooomfg, i was jus playing

it was funny.LAUGH!!!

elliiiieeeugh

We started spamming each other. Her pretending to be chicken shit while I demanded for an official proposal. I loved, fuckin’ DESERVED to be courted dammit!

fine! sorry!

..[redacted]

uuuugh

???

do u NOT want 2 take me out or sumthin?!?

bro, STOP

just let me do my thing!

“Just let me do my thing!” I mocked.

“Hmph!,” I let out a squeak as I hugged squeezed the shit out of my pillow. Growing silent while I waited. My heart racing.

can u go out with me?

What the..? I deadpanned and kissed my teeth.

i mean…..ig i CAN

u know, since that’s wha ur asking me

Giggling myself, I imagined her combing a hand through her hair while yelling out “oooooooh my gooooooo—!” I don’t care! This isn’t middle school!

toooots not w8g 2 b swept up off of my feet by prince charming or sumthin..

I dramatically pouted into the phone. Just sitting here! Waiting and waiting aaaanD WAIT—

O’ [redacted], O’ [redacted], wouldst thee liketh to wend out on a date with me to the

fuck it

carnival this saturday at 7??

Oh how dramatic!

WOAH?!

not even a “let down your hair” remix?? u went deep into the wenches wit it. u sure u nvr been 2 a renaissance fair b4🤨 bet they had ur freaky ass greet ppl by the s🚫x dungeons

u got that shi str8 from google anyway!!

Immediately a speech bubble popped up.

LOL

STOP, JUS LEMME HAVE A LAUGH OMGG

EHEM, EHEM!!

i wouldst v’ry much like—th..uhh that

^-^

and u said I got my shit from google

took u 10mins just to look something up and put together that scrambled egg of a sentence

lmaooo

ANYWAYS!!

@ 7

T’is a date!

it’s a date

:)

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☾　˚₊‧꒰ა It’s a date! It’s a date! ໒꒱ ‧₊˚　　. 　　

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˚ . I threw my phone onto the bed and screamed into the pillow. Excitedly kicking my legs. ⋆ ⠀　　　⠀.　

　　˚　　　　,　“Wait, oh my gosh!”—I grabbed back my phone—“I gotta tell the others. Imma need help with this!” .

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< to: we r lightskin, n’ we can help you >

guess who’s goin on a date with a certain sum1 2 the carnival this Saturday, @ 7??!

I laid sprawled out. Waiting for my phone to blow up—bzzt! bzzt!.. BZZTBZZTBZZTBZZTBZZT! Oh, never mind.

What will we even do? Oki, I mean..yeah! It’s the literally the fair. Just get up on a damn ride, ‘woohoo’ n’ whatever, but like..it’s been a little minute since I’ve went out-out…especially on a date.

My smile fell and settled into a deep frown.

What if I embarrass myself? What if I don’t even get to do that? . What if she flakes out last minute? Or worse! What if—

“BOOOOORRRIIING!” I yelled. Wiping my face to swipe all of that negativity into the trash.

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　　　　　.　　　　“It’s a date,” I reassured myself. Lightly brushing my fingertips over my lips. That dopey smile making its way back on my face. “It’s a date.” ⠀✦

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✎ the house stood still. then came the hushed shrieks

✎ oc was suddenly pulled into a whirlpool of 21 questions n’ inspection: “text—no, CALL me when you guys get there! and give me updates every four hours.” “do you have your keys? what about your lipgloss?” “ur location still on?” their friend, brandy, patted n’ smoothed down the crop top she had picked out 4 them 2 wear (along with some shorts). “okay..okay..” reassuringly murmuring more 2 herself than them. making sure the 10 strips of boob tape was wrapped securely (they REFUSED 2 wear a bra again!..unless it was rly cute ofc)

✎ n’ right before they knew it , n’ could answer a damn question, they were shoved out the house with a slam behind them

✎ staring @ the puzzled freckled faced girl (who quickly collected themselves from tripping up the steps from the porch n’ almost crushing the gifts she had bought them)

✎ she was dressed in a plain black wife beater top, dark green lounge shorts n’ those damn converses. she scrunched up her face n’ scoffed @ nearly everything dina originally had picked out. hyping herself up in the bathroom “damn i look good” while dina stared @ her thru the mirror bored n’ rolled her eyes before walking away

✎ does that shit where she uses her spit 2 slick her eyebrows instead of buying eyebrow gel

✎ all of that just 4 her 2 hide in her car 4 almost 10mins outside of oc’s place bcuz she was doubtful n’ regretting her outfit choice

✎ oc ooooobviously thought she looked hot af (regardless/always) ♡

✎ “oh uh, sorry about that. my friends are uh..” oc’s hands flailed around as they tried 2 collect their words. pointing n’ looking back towards the front door, but paused when they didn’t see any light from the other side of the peephole. “the fuck..?” were they..seriously watching them?! looking 2 the window, immediately the curtains shuffled bk. NOSEY PERVERTED AS—

✎“like that isn’t you..” ellie let out a chuckle from behind them. “here.” she handed them an overly stuffed gift basket full of pop up confetti cards, candy n’ sum other things. knowing how much they love 2 b spoiled with all the lil silly things that makes their world go round. beaming like a child on halloween night

✎ ▷▷: engulfed by the shrill screams of kids n’ the aroma of overly sweetened treats in the air battling the occasional MUSK from ppl that refused 2 wear/carry deodorant. the two of them spent the first half an hr pushing thru the crowd 2 find one of those expensive air sprayed shirt displays. bought sets of two: coordinating n’ individuals. oc settled picked a stencil 4 their shirt 2 say heaven sent in bubble font with a hot babe on the side where ellie’s said hell bound in block font with a big headed styled chibi drawing of her

✎ individuals: oc’s got a bunny blowing hubba bubba n’ ellie’s was of the moon of course (she’s never taking it off btw)

✎ oc tots failed 2 b keep their frens posted buh @ least they turned on their location. it counts 4 sumthin!

✎ oc has a major sweettooth: practically inhaled a diabolical sugar rush of strawberry milkshake topped with giant lollipops, cotton candy, sprinkles n’ gummy bears. ellie felt sick jus looking @ it. they were getting caramel popcorn next

✎ all the rides were old n’ rusty as hell. went on the lil spooky merry go-round n’ not even a jump scare or sum flashing lights, jus riding in the dark 💀 wasted 3tickets 4 that shi

✎ they shared a liking 2 fast, spinning rides. jus another n’ a much more fun excuse 2 b up against each other (…in public)

✎ not silly, jus a menace: “put ur foot here” ellie bent down 2 show oc a cool trick, “now lift,” already walking away. pleased n’ laughing 2 herself. “UUUUGH!” leaving behind oc 2 grimace @ the glob of gum stuck beneath their shoe. yeah, cuz that’ll show em’ 4 putting a fkn ZIP TIE who tf just carry’s those??! on ellie’s car handle attached 2 a shopping cart 2 beat her in a (mini n’ SAFE) race back to her place

✎ “it was funny. laugh!” ellie mocked. circling oc as they pretended to b annoyed. “y’all hear sumthin?” literally jus talking 2 themselves, per usual. ellie kissed her teeth “such a baby, here I’ll make it up to you” she stride towards one of the many gaming booths where workers who looked like they had better things 2 do boringly resisted lines along “step right up…” (disappointingly looking nothing like nor holding the same enthusiasm like that one guy from that carnival video game) “which one you want?” oc pointed at a Kai-Lan plushie

✎ ooh, she cheated. it was either that or she was gonna (somehow) steal the plushie. the both of them coming 2 an agreeable justification: all the games were rigged

✎ hanging out 4 a bit, ellie ate two corndogs n’ oc stuffed their face full of fries (that were no different—literally bought from the grocery store, not they cared anyways. their argument being “it’s tastes better!”) while they complained n’ expressed their delight 4 the “architecture” of fairs. rambling on n’ on about how lame most places r now 4 taking down all the weird whacky shi: the giant objects on the walls @ in malls 4 advertisement, the fake homes above the deli/vegetable section in grocery stores, fuckin’ fast food restaurants n’ movies theaters losing wha made them movie theaters in the first place. “whyyy do i have to drive out of the state just to find a movie theater that still uses mothafuckin’ cutouts?!” all the things that made life a little more enjoyable. “look, look!!” holding up their phone 2 ellie’s face “i know what im talking about!!”

✎ completely bypassed the ferris wheel or a causal walk right after eating n’ excitedly got in line 2 the fkn GRAVITRON🧍🏽‍♀️learned absolutely NOTHING from the last time they went 2 the fair n’ ate a shit ton of food before going on a ride. literally has it set as a “rule” in their notes app

✎“shit, i think im gonna—“ ellie held her hand against her stomach as she hunched over the exit railing, covering her mouth. “im walking away from you” oc hurried down the ramp “you better not! stop!!” screaming @ ellie as she chased them around acting as if she was gonna vomit on them

✎ she actually did puke. making a frantic beeline to the bathrooms. oc gave them the french fry bucket they were gonna keep as a souvenir , incase she felt nauseous again buh the toilet wasn’t close by. they’ll jus get another one before they leave

✎ eventually the musky crowd dispersed, children’s screams were replaced by light squeals n’ the pitter patter of shoes against the grass mixed with unintelligible conversations

✎ the two of them made their way towards the back of the fair. headed str8 4 the funhouse that was freakishly empty. the glow from the red lights created a spooky ambiance. just walked right in cuz whoever was supposed 2 stand outside was nowhere 2 b found

✎ “this kinda reminds me of this music video..ca—mm..don’t know a lick of belig..em??..belginguam??” “Are you serious..” “Wait hush, hush, HUSH! uhh..belgium—YEAH, belgium!!”

✎ they started shuffling their body awkwardly, trying 2 replicate the dances in the mv. “lemme stop before something actually happens” it was supposed 2 b like a ritual/possession

✎ “uh uh, back up!” “what i thought you liked me?” ellie corned them tryna get a kiss. “yeah once u brushed n’ rinsed out your mouth! im not kissing no—stop, get off of me, FREAK!” they giggled. pushing her out of the way n’ running back outside

✎ ellie’s ego was satiated from showing off her gaming skills at a mini arcade (since when did they have those??), adding another plushy to the mountain oc was carrying beside her. tho their mood was a bit sour bcuz the photo-booth was out of order , all those pinterest reference photos they were so ready 2 recreate

✎ greedy as$ bought more fries, a burger n’ two extra corndogs. choosing 2 believe the money was being well spent . no real care 4 cost effectiveness , “it made me happy that’s all that matters!!”

✎ n’ ofc, ended the night wit elephant ears AND funnel cake ♡ (n oc’s phone blowing up 4 not giving the dets 2 their nosey frens)

damn that ending was FLAT!! lol 😭😭 tell me if i used hcs properly tho , literally jus told a whole story thru it cuz i couldn’t do it the other way (yet). was fighting 4 my life fr // thanks lot 2: [ @s-4pphics n’ @seattlesellie ] 4 encouraging me 2 write ^-^

[ultramanyaoi]

ooh u wanna look at my ocs so bad goofnight

[bbangsoonie]

just u

member: sunwoo genre: fluff word count: 1,903 synopsis: sunwoo thinks you’re a flirty drunk but doesn’t notice you only flirt with him.

a/n: oc’s facial flush after drinking alcohol is mentioned once in the fic

Eric: giant sleepover at hyunjae’s tonight

Hyunjae: this is news to me ??

Eric: be prepared to pull an all-nighter because we are doing everything from watching movies to playing games to ✨drinking✨

Sangyeon: his house is also my house ???

Eric: y/n, can you pick up some snacks and drinks with sunwoo?

You: sure

Sunwoo: this is news to me as well ?

Eric: see you all at 6! i know no one has classes today and tomorrow’s saturday so i expect full attendance :)

Juyeon: again, our house is not just solely hyunjae’s ???? younghoon and i live here as well ;-;

Eric’s impromptu gathering was in no way organized but he knew everyone would go along with it. Your group of friends consisted of the most spontaneous people you’ve ever met. They were always down for anything, anytime.

That was how you ended up going grocery shopping with Sunwoo and Haknyeon after you stopped by campus for your professor’s office hours. You ran into Haknyeon there who wanted to tag along to make sure you bought his favorite snacks.

“Any requests for chasers?” you called out to the boys who were an aisle away. You scanned the shelves of sodas in front of you, trying to recall who liked what drinks.

“Chasers are for babies,” Haknyeon scoffed as he made his way over to you.

“I’m baby,” you proudly pointed at yourself.

“Are you referring to the Kirby meme right now?” he blinked. When you nodded, he pretended to gag, making you slap his back.

“Do you guys think this is enough alcohol?” Sunwoo arrived with a cart full of bottles. You almost laughed at the amount of cases. Anyone passing by would think you were shopping wholesale. Which honestly didn’t sound like a bad idea for a group of 12.

“Should be,” Haknyeon shrugged, taking over the cart. “Now time for the good stuff!”

You and Sunwoo watched as he threw in bags of chips and jelly into the cart. You only picked out one or two for yourself since Haknyeon was essentially just getting everything. There was a wide variety for you to choose from anyway. Sunwoo had to physically stop him from adding more stuff, insisting that there’d be dinner as well.

With Hyunjae in charge of ordering food, it was no surprise that you walked into his house smelling like chicken. Eric greeted you from the kitchen and you hollered out a “hey” before joining Changmin and Chanhee in the living room. They were in the middle of an intense round of Super Smash Bros and by the looks of it, Changmin was winning. When the game finally ended, Changmin shrieked with laughter while Chanhee dejectedly collapsed onto the sofa.

Jacob and Kevin walked in not long after, exchanging greetings with everyone else. Sangyeon, Juyeon, and Younghoon emerged from the staircase after finishing their assignments upstairs in their own respective rooms. With the whole group together, Eric gathered you all in front of the TV to have a Super Smash Bros tournament.

“Only people who suck at playing games pick Kirby,” he yelled as you picked up a controller.

“I do admit I suck at games and love Kirby,” you stuck your tongue out as you chose your character, making Chanhee groan.

“All you do is spam down b!” Kevin whined.

“Well no one wants to teach me other moves or how to play other characters,” you shrugged.

“I tried,” Hyunjae sighed. “You’re an impossible student.”

“That’s because everyone kills me off while I try to learn!” you huffed.

To your amusement, you won the game by avoiding everyone in the air while they battled amongst themselves. Then you constantly attacked Younghoon with the same move until he eventually died. He screamed in frustration when your victory flashed across the screen.

Unfortunately for you, everyone decided to target you in the beginning for the next round. After easily finishing you off, they enjoyed what they called a “true fight” that Eric ultimately won.

The long night officially began with the mountain of boxes of chicken in the kitchen. It was easily demolished before Changmin won rock, paper, scissors to put a horror movie on. Before the film was even chosen, Sunwoo was complaining about how he hated jump scares.

“Bro just say you’re afraid and move on,” Eric snickered.

“I’m not scared! I just don’t like being surprised,” Sunwoo insisted.

“Pft, if you’re a true man you can watch it,” Chanhee teased, unaware of his embarrassment to come.

The next couple of hours was chaotic. Chanhee screamed at every noise, making everyone else scream as well. Haknyeon and Sunwoo ended up watching the movie with their ears closed and Jacob gave up entirely by trying to nap instead. You had the unfortunate seat next to Younghoon and became his ragdoll that he clung onto and shook every time he got frightened. You didn’t even get to react to the movie because he kept screaming and grabbing onto you.

Eric and his mischievous instincts spent the whole time trying to startle Juyeon who ended up chasing him around until he promised to stop. Changmin, Sangyeon, Hyunjae, and Kevin were the only ones who truly enjoyed the movie.

When the lights came back on, Chanhee and Sunwoo pretended that it wasn’t scary at all. Hyunjae laughed, reminding them of their reactions to which they feigned oblivion to.

“I need a drink,” you groaned. “Younghoon stressed me out more than the ghost did.”

“Everyone go slow and steady,” Eric warned. “I want to be playing until the sun comes up.”

“My body is too old for this,” Sangyeon mumbled as he began taking the alcohol out of the fridge.

“Hey, Y/n, can you pass me a bottle?” Sunwoo asked. You felt your heart skip a beat when his fingers brushed past yours to take the drink from your hands. The exchange made you blush and you quickly took a shot to mask your tinted cheeks with the flush of the liquor.

Spending the night with your friends meant that you would be spending it trying hard to not fall in love with your budding crush. You tried your best to keep a safe distance from him, relying on Chanhee to be your trusty barrier.

After a series of drinking games (that mostly resulted in your loss), you were beginning to feel the effects. With Chanhee and Haknyeon by your side, you were slightly swinging in your seat. You were all sitting on the floor in the spacious living room to start whatever game Hyunjae had suggested. His words had gone in and out of your ears while you were finishing your last punishment drink.

“So basically one person will ask another person a question and that person will say their answer out loud. The answer has to be the name of someone in this room. Those who are curious about the question will drink to hear it,” Hyunjae explained.

“Can I go first?” Kevin excitedly asked. With the majority agreeing, he happily went up to Jacob to whisper in his ear.

After hearing his question, Jacob thought for a second before saying your name. The boys teasingly “ooh”ed, making you roll your eyes. Sunwoo, Eric, and Changmin were the only ones curious enough to drink for the answer.

“Aw, Y/n, you don’t wanna know why he picked you?” Kevin pouted.

“By the look on your face, I think I get the gist,” you chuckled. “Any questions involving girls only leaves me as an option. And to be brutally honest, I don’t really care what he thinks of me.”

Jacob, faking pain, clutched his heart.

“Ouch,” he joked.

Jacob asked his question to Younghoon, who answered with your name again. This time, you were slightly intrigued.

“Me again for the second time in a row? Now I’m kinda curious,” you pretended to think hard.

Eric drank again and eagerly asked for Jacob’s question. Trying to elicit a response from you, he acted shocked and grabbed Younghoon by the collar. Laughing, you gave in and drank to hear the question.

“He thinks you’re gonna be the first to get cuffed,” Jacob whispered to you.

“Ah, unfortunately no,” you shook your head at Younghoon, sitting back down.

This time, Younghoon asked you a question. He asked who you would date if you had to choose from the friend group.

“Sunwoo,” you said almost immediately. His jaw dropped at how fast you made your decision and he gave you a smug look.

Again, Eric couldn’t hide his curiosity. His reaction made the rest of them interested and everyone ended up drinking to find out what Younghoon had asked you. Hyunjae hooted but the alcohol in your system left you unphased by all their teasing.

After their excitement died down, the game continued until each person had a turn. It ended with Eric drunk crying thanks to Juyeon picking him as his most cherished friend. Seeing him cry made Sunwoo cry as well and Changmin was having a blast laughing at them both.

Not wanting Sunwoo to also turn into a crying drunk, Sangyeon took his cup away from him. He reminded him to keep his pace, prompting him to sulk. As soon as Sangyeon looked away, however, Sunwoo stole it back and downed the rest of his drink.

“Sunwoo, no,” Sangyeon groaned.

“Sunwoo yes!” Sunwoo exclaimed with glee.

The group then split off into subgroups to take a break from drinking. You, Younghoon, Juyeon, Changmin, Sunwoo, and Eric propped a phone up to make TikToks together. Meanwhile, the rest of the boys were just chilling on the couch, laughing as they watched you embarrass yourselves.

Subconsciously, you ended up with your arm wrapped around Sunwoo’s neck for most of the stupid 15 second video. You honestly weren’t sure what you were filming or why you were so close to your crush but you were having too much fun to care.

Chanhee, on the other hand, definitely noticed. He smirked as you rested your head on Sunwoo’s lap and Sunwoo’s face reddened. He nudged Jacob to point it out and made fun of how oblivious you two were.

Before reconvening, you stepped outside to get some fresh air. When you didn’t return after 10 minutes, Sunwoo was sent to retrieve you. You lit up seeing him join you on the veranda and beckoned for him to sit down next to you.

“It’s cold out here,” he said. “Let’s go back in.”

“So then you should hold my hand to keep me warm,” you giggled, holding out your hand.

“You’re drunk,” he commented as he raised an eyebrow.

“Drunk on you,” you winked, making him shyly look away. He cleared his throat to rid himself of the awkward tension between you.

“You know, you’re a flirty drunk,” he mused.

“Only to you,” you shrugged. “Haven’t you ever heard of drunk actions reflecting sober thoughts?”

Taken aback, he stared at you in silence. You pouted at his lack of response and got up to go back inside. Before you could open the door, he finally spoke up.

“I’ll think about it if your sober actions reflect your drunk thoughts,” he said.

“Really?” you beamed.

“As long as your drunk self is only flirty with me,” he teased.

“Oh please, have you ever seen me like this with the other guys?” you laughed. “I only like you. Just you.”

[frecklystars]

ok uhhhhhhhhhhhh I just wanted to pop in and say like... thanks??? Because like... you and your blog changed my perspective on self-inserts and canon/oc shipping??? Like I used to think it was the cringiest/dumbest shit ever and then I followed u for starscream art and suddenly ur self-insert stuff starts popping up on my dash and it makes me go 'huh this isn't so bad this isn't cringy or bad at all.' anyway I now ship myself with KOBD and I wanted to say thank you for changing my perspective for the better.

Oh!! Bro I'm so glad I could indirectly help?? Thank you for telling me this. That's really great!! 🥺🥺🥺 What a nice message.

I was literally thinking to myself while driving home today how much it sucks that most ppl see self shipping as "cringe" bc... it is literally the best thing... I love doing it!! Drawing it, writing it, daydreaming it. I don't know why it's so... idk... unobtainable to others. Not just in a "ooh that's cringe, how dare you do that, you can't do that" way but a lot of ppl who want to try it don't let themselves because they're too embarrassed of what other people will think of them. And that makes me feel sad for them!! I think everyone deserves a chance to have some fun!!

I think everybody should allow themselves the freedom of making a self insert at least once in their life, or even an OC that they wanna project onto. Even if it's just for the hell of wanting to see what your character would look like, it doesn't even have to be for shipping purposes. Just for the sake of trying it! It doesn't even stay within canon, just go completely wild. It's your universe!!

That's partially why I keep this blog running and I don't hold back when I wanna ship with someone, no matter how "silly" the character might be (i.e. spongebob, doofenshmirtz, robbie rotten, etc). I want y'all to know that you're not gonna be judged here - I am literally the last person to do that when it comes to F/Os lmao?? Self shipping is the most harmless thing you can do, and it can also be a really healthy coping mechanism for those who need it. It's you convincing yourself that you're a lovable person, after all!! And it's really nice to be able to give love to characters, especially those who may not receive any love in canon - it's nice to know that they'll always have you, no matter how badly canon screws them over [sideglancing @ starscream] y’know??

And I am so thrilled to hear that you're self shipping now, too!! Thank you for following me for my Starscream art; despite the StarKeri art that was sprinkled in there, you still stuck around and kept an open mind about something that you used to dislike, and I appreciate you doing that :] I'm glad to have you here. Having a polyship with KOBD is valid as hell and I hope you're having so much fun with it - they love ya to pieces!! 💘💘💘

[seijorhi]

asks :))

what i have learned today is that y’all wanna get fucked by some monsters...

What does nostos mean? What language is it in? 🤔 also I of course loved it, mind blown as usual queen

it’s ancient greek! it means homecoming, the idea of a triumphant return home for the hero after a long journey. i found it through looking at the root of nostalgia. in this fic of course it’s kind of a grim tongue in cheek play on it. the reader’s coming back to the mountains, but she’s running away after a bad breakup, and the welcome she gets is... shall we say less than ideal haha

Just read nostos-

First of all as a person who reads monster shit- hell ya. Mhm. That’s some good shit right there. That was DELICIOUS horror. It actually had me a bit nervous and afraid to read what was gonna happen next 😳

Secondly- omg I wanna know what happened next (at the end) 👀 know what I mean??? 😼

ANYWAY AS ALWAYS you never disappoint and your writing is fantastic (if/when you write horror yandere stuff again I’ll be there- frothing at the mouth. A+++++ work ILY💖)

you want me to write the monster porn, just say it bby ghfjdkshgfjkd but ty

Omfg that fic was so good!

Did the readers mom know about monster kuroo?? Or was she just worried because of the previous murder? And did Kuroo somehow manipulate reader into coming back to the forest or was it just a big coincidence? (👁👄👁 there's no such thing as a coincidence)

Looking forward to your future work <3

ty nonnie!! i didn’t have the right space for it, but after kohsuke was ripped apart and eaten kuroo stayed by the reader’s side until late in the night, only disappearing when he heard the reader’s parents/search party approaching. they found her lying in pools of blood (and scattered half eaten body parts), shaking and unresponsive – they knew no animal could’ve done something like that. so they knew something lurked in those woods, but considering the reader had repressed the memories, her mom couldn’t just come out and say it <33

You are an AMAZING horror writer!!!

The uneasiness I got from the conversations with the mom is just *chefs kiss*

A+++++

ahh thank you!! horror is such a hard genre to write because i’m never sure if the suspense and everything’s gonna hit right haha

I read Nostos before going to sleep last night and at the time I was like “sure hope this doesn’t give me nightmares” and thankfully it didn’t lol. But I think I’m willing to take that chance again because it’s so GOOD and I think I’m just going to have to relive it – @ohno-otome

fhdjgbfhjkdfn i’m glad it didn’t give you nightmares bby!! but i also appreciate that haha, i’m an absolute wimp with scary movies and stuff but i just can’t stop watching them haha

I just wanna say that I was listening to "You're a psychotic villain playlist" on youtube while reading Kuroo's oneshot and I can't explain the emotions I felt, but I'd let Kuroo do things to me asdfghjkl – @itishebihime-samaforyou

ooh nice! sometimes the right playlist makes things doubly as fun haha

OH MY GOD!?!?! Nostos was soooo GOOD?!?!? Like it was so creepy (but in a good way), and scary and suspenseful!! And the ending!?!? Omggg honestly one my fav fics from you!! You did my mans Kuroo justice 🥺💖💕

TYYYYYYY i was genuinely concerned i was gonna scare everybody off haha

Ah! The new fic! Chiefs kiss! Magnificent! Bravo!🧚‍♀️✨🧞‍♀️🦖🦭🌹💫

tysm nonnie!!! <33

i’m pretty sure i’m in the same/similar timezone as you? and i do be staying up late to be one of the first to read your fics (i usually stay up late anyways). so imagine my surprise when i see you post in the afternoon. in conclusion, whether you post to align with your european and american readers’ timezone, my gmt+10 arse will still be one of the first to read your fics. also nostos sjdufigyyjf i have to admit, i recently just found out about monster fucking and nostos scratched the itch😫 i feel bad for kohsuke though

bby i always post at like 2-4 in the morning please get some sleep!! the fics will be there in the morning lmao. i kinda low key forget about my aussie/gmt+10 followers because i think there’s like... 3 of you haha

Honestly if i could give u a dollar everytime i got off to your fics, you'd probably be rich by now

lmao the idea that people find my fics hot enough to get off to still blows my mind lol

your newest kuroo fic was so SO good!! its totally okay if you dont want to answer this so you can keep things ambiguous but is monster kuroo planning on killing the reader after he's...done with them

thank you, bby!! but no, monster kuroo isn’t gonna eat her – he’s had plenty of chances to do that if that’s what he wanted, but he has other plans for the poor reader

RHI, I WANT TO STATE FOR THE RECORD THAT I AM OKAY WITH MORE MONSTER FUCKING IN THE FUTURE. i also want to say im not a monster fucker, but that just feels like a lie at this point. okay, now that that's off my chest, i love it. the mystery, the connections of kuroo to a cat. kuroo's probably gonna go and batter around his prey once they're under his grip like my cat does. hopefully the reader will come out somewhat unscathed, if they are ever allowed to leave 😌 love this, love how different it is, the way kuroo just tries to weasel in. very monster and yandere vibes, very you. have i said i love this yet?? id willingly let him get me drunk on his cock, maybe never leave the peace of the mountains again

‘i want to say that i’m not a monster fucker’ bby the denial will get you nowhere haha. just lean in and embrace it hgfjkdlkfgjnkdl ahh but thank you this is such a sweet ask ILY!!!

Omg omg the monster thing kuroo was in ur latest fic is so familiar to me abdhdmfnjfjf. I remember being told abt a monster with VERY SIMILAR characteristics to it (aka the not being able to go inside a house unless invited and using fire to lure ppl out) AND JFC IT TERRIFIED ME. Esp how when i told ppl around me and they didnt recognize what it was, but it was somehow known to the kid that told me abt it.

(Some ppl thought it was familiar but still didnt know what it was)

Do u know what im talking abt? Hopefully u do

-🥚

GHFJDK so the monster in this is kind of based off the nekomata spirit in japanese folklore - they can appear like people, torment victims by reanimating the corpses of their loved ones, they’ve been blamed for forest fires, so it was just fun to use that as a basis and then go buck wild haha. anyway thanks for the ask bby!

Rest In Peace Kohsuke, you would’ve loved Haikyuu season 5😔✊– @joyvstheworld

poor kohsuke deserved better, i’m just mean to the oc’s i throw into fics haha

Monsterfucking ❤❤❤❤❤❤ a little annoyed you're making me simp for yan Kuroo though (a vibe tho tbh). You're so extremely talented!!!! &

This is probably a stupid question, but how did Kageyama react when he couldn't find y/n? How is life with yan Suga? I imagine probably awful BUT yknow maybe the stockholm syndrome set in fast lmao. Sorry, I'm going on a binge reading your stuff. - @oracleofdin

i will not apologise for making you simp for kuroo he deserves it the man’s a snacc. and as far as your second question, suga’s a very caring, very smothering kinda yandere, so i guess in some ways it’s better than what the reader had with kageyama but... pick your poison haha

That was so good. I’m so shook rn I can’t comprehend anything but how good that was and how good a writer you are

TYSM NONNIE!!! <33

Ok, so, I just read Final Girl and the lil' ticket addition to it and just---

Well, ok I've been playing Dead by Daylight a lot lately? And I'm just picturing Tetsu as the newest killer "The Trickster" and I'm positively RANDY.

Your writing is ALREADY thirst inducing and just as satisfying, but this has SENT ME- If you're not familiar, please...

https://youtu.be/iowkiPobYYQ

Understand my thirst. (I'd also like to clarify, I use a different skin for him that gives him black hair and he looks like Kuroo with an undercut.)

~ @the-casual-hedonist 🌸

i love how feral y’all got for final girl kuroo. like bo and akaashi had his fans, but i put a spiked bat in kuroo’s hands and y’all lost your goddamn minds and i love to see it. fghdjkvhfjdkls thanks for the ask bby

idk why but I love preggo reader as long as I don't pretend it's me 😢✋ I hate babies n pregnancy anywhere else other than horny haikyuu fics

i think that’s a valid thing for a lot of fans. the idea of breeding is sexy, the actual getting pregnant and having a kid thing... not so much. but especially with non-con scenario’s, it’s more about the aspect on control than the actual desire to have kids. but yeah, i feel you

Sorry to bother but uh was just wondering in fracture did Osamu kill his wife or was it actually an “unfortunate event” ? Love your work btw!!

he most certainly did :))

LMFAO RHI i totally get not liking cheating/infidelity fics (towards reader) bc IT HIRTS ME SO BAD I CANNOT HANDLE THOSE.

id be reading fics those fics like: tf you mean my yandere aimt gonna baby me and only want me??🤨🤨🤨⁉️‼️

EXACTLY! listen i get that it’s a fucked up fantasy, but in my fucked up fantasy you damn well better have the decency to be loyal smh

Finders keepers is the most beautiful thing I've read by you: I read it twice like I normally do and here's what I figured out the second time (that's when I analyze it and find the little tidbits of things that are much darker than they appear (: )

To start I LOVE THE DETAILS OF THEM NEVER TEACHING READER ANYTHING- at first I assumed "oh they might see her as a little sister or child or something" but realized thAT WAS THE ISSUE!! they infantilize her and isolate her from everyone but her group. the small details like that are what make the story amazing 😎💅

ahh thank you so much, nonnie!! pls this is making me soft 🥺

I just wanted to stop by and say that I love your writing and I hope you're doing well!!! Drink plenty of water and keep up the amazing work :) but seriously you're one of the best fanfic writers I've seen on tumblr! I read your "Imitation" piece about kuroo and i keep coming back to it, it's so good! I did want to ask if you think it'd be possible for the reader to ever escape with the baby (or at least attempt to). Or if Kenma would "help" at all just to put an end to kuroo's antics lmao

kenma would in no way help the reader, and tbh by that point if kuroo did get her pregnant, she’d be far too emotionally dependant on him to actually even want to leave, but thanks for the ask!

You know who I think would be a perfect Yandere in the JJK world? Choso.

🚨Spoilers Ahead🚨

After being locked in a glass jar for however long he was, and all that happened with his brothers, I feel like he would absolutely never let his darling out of his sight. He would be possessive. Obsessive. And Oh So delusional. Sure he’d be your anything - he truly is a softy - but to what end?🤤

choso would make an excellent yandere, ngl 😌

what au/troupe of your fav character(s) that you have written do you like the most?

(rlly hope this makes sense🙏)

i am always a slut for soulmate au’s :))

[iwhumpyou]

soooooo if you do wanna gush about your your ocs, do u have anything you wanna share about Kyran? (I love that oc lol)

I always want to gush about my OCs!  I’m like a proud grandmother, except instead of trophies and homemade crafts, I have whumpy tidbits!

Ooh, Kyran.  Dear, dear Kyran.  I think, chronologically speaking, Kyran is one of my oldest OCs.  Actually, probably age-wise as well, considering he’s a demon and has been alive for centuries.

So the original story I had in mind was something along the lines of angels and demons being enemies, and Rae was the main character and Adam was helping her in her quest to regain her wings, and Gabriel was the bad guy.  Like, sometimes-helpful, not-actively-villainous, but still not on their side.  He was the commander of the angel army, and he wanted to capture Rae because she disgraced the family, but he still had a (deeply concealed) soft spot for his little sister.

Kyran was enslaved by Adam through shackles that forced him to obey whatever Adam commanded (because demons are so untrustworthy, aren’t they) and he was the same, can-annoy-anyone-in-a-mile-radius little shit that he is now.  These shackles also prevented him from cloaking himself in darkness, which is what demons do to avoid the burning glow of an angel’s wings.

Gabriel hated Kyran because Kyran (allegedly) killed his wife.  And he believed it wholeheartedly, not like the weird, hand-wringing denials he does in this universe before he finally snaps.

Which leads us to the two original moments for whump!

The first is a scene that never made it out of my head.  In it, Adam and Rae are arguing about something or the other (I mean, I had the whole conversation planned out in my head once, I’ve just forgotten it) and Kyran interjects with his usual snark until Adam orders him to shut up.  So Kyran falls silent, the argument continues, until Kyran begin gesticulating.  Adam, fed up, orders him to stop that too, and Kyran looks at him with wide eyes, his skin growing paler and paler until he passes out.

But the only thing that causes that reaction is the glow from the angel’s wings!  Cue Adam and Rae slowly turning from Kyran’s crumpled form to the floor-to-ceiling windows, and Gabriel hovering outside in the rain, a wicked grin on his face.

The second is a scene I tweaked and posted!  Gabriel has a temporary truce with Rae to help her on her quest, and they’re all sitting around a campfire.  Gabriel passes out the water, Adam forces Kyran to drink - oops, it’s holy water.  Only this time, Kyran is still enslaved and can’t leave the situation, Gabriel is still a somewhat-bad guy fixated on getting Kyran to confess and stand trial, and the whole situation ends much, much worse.

[plushievash]

how did leo/alexei happen? give us lore!

so for a long while they both had crushes on each other but alexei is stupid and leo suffered from internalized homophobia believing hes not meant for relationships no matter how much he wanted one with someone he would never pursue it bc he thought he would be a burden/nobody sees him that way/he is repulsive;; alexei just admired leo too much and thought leo was out of his league and that hed never love someone like him and also bc hes alexei and is just like * has severe paranoia and also no social skills *

dasha saw the Signs™ tho bc hes like love is in the air….and i will find out where its coming from and then. he suffered watching these 2 dumbasses for 2 almost 3 years dance around each other and their feelings while nobody else believed him that hey…..looks like somethins goin on between alexei and leo…u ever notice how leo takes any chance to touch him? u ever notice the way alexei immediately becomes more interactive when leo comes along? yes i know leo is clingy yes i know alexei is improving socially just like. Look its Right in Front of You.

but anyways went like that for the longest time where both of them kind of planned to make their feelings known but could never work up the courage to follow through with it. and alexei got with lucien to try to forget abt leo bc he “knew” he ‘had no chance’ and leo just [roblox OOF] and as usual * focuses on work at a dangerous level and does stupid stuff *

which ends up with a mix up and confusion where leo is missing and puts everyone in a panic and miko catches a guy named nikostratos and ooh ooough oh hes so mad hes so ohguh hes so angry that hes mad. and without thinking and following standard procedure does some things and is 8D to find out uh oh! just gave my brother the familys awful itchy scratchy disease! fuck! time to go kms i guess!

and masha is big mad at everyone so shes just like leo and miko are banned from work and if they even attempt it they wont bc theyd cross me and nobody crosses me. and then alexei is put on watch to make sure leo doesnt try to sneak away and work on his own anyways and to nobodys surprise, he does try. instead of sending one of his people alexei personally confronts him and persuades him to go back home. to which leo asks alexei to stay with him and he does…slowly leo starts to ease up again as alexei stays with him and basically lives with him/stella/the twins for a short while as hes stationed to by masha

eventually after a while of watching both miko and leo masha is satisfied enough with their recoveries and allows them back to their jobs calling alexei off since they no longer need to be supervised. but alexei again * is extremely paranoid and well meaning but also awful * so he keeps his people watching leo from a distance just to be sure hes safe; as he does with maxim and miko (the only difference is that maxim and miko Know he does that and asked him to do that; leo didnt.) oh yeah somewhere sprinkled in around that time alexei split with lucien cause he just. wasnt happy it wasnt working. i dont remember where exactly in all this mess it happened LMAO u might wanna ask my boyed friend abt that since alexei is his

so anyways after a while of being back to work leo notices hes still being followed and slowly gets paranoid and irritable. he ends up doing rash things that could end up getting him killed just to get the attention of the people following him to see if hes “just being paranoid” or if hes really being followed still despite masha allowing him to return to work. eventually after the 3rd time instead of sending someone to intervene alexei himself shows up and leo is Angry and hurt tells alexei to call off his people cause if he ever sees them again he wont hesitate to kill them and so alexei does cause he does care abt his people he doesnt try to defend himself or anything it finally hits him that he just “oh hmm. ok yeah that was kinda fucked up. uh oh i fucked up. this is bad”

and leos whole attitude began to shift instead of his usual generally polite and very easy attitude ready to make friends with anyone he became guarded irritable and quiet and he lost the soft tone in his voice. eventually even with his favourite most important people around him (stella/felix/miko) hes just too paranoid sick to his stomach and angry to stay where he is. so he says hes going to take a vacation and instead moves down to work at the other facilities as a lower agent domenico carlevaro; he doesnt alter his appearance too much aside from dyeing his hair and changing his general fashion style. the only person he allows to come down and see him is mikolaj but he says if felix or stella ever asked him he is allowed to tell them they can see him but no one else. not maxim or dasha or alcides not the twins. he cant stand to see anyone else. miko regularly visits him but has to ask each time since leo doesnt stay in 1 place for too long. eventually leos anger just makes him even more reckless causing him to break his prosthetic; so he has to return to apologize to dasha and ask for a new one.

there he finds out alexei has disappeared and immediately he just feels a twist in his stomach bc he wanted to be angry and pretend that hes over it and he doesnt care about him anymore but he still does so after he gets his new arm despite maxims protests he insists that he will assist maxim in the search. miko reports that alexei was last seen injured being carried away by a woman from some abandoned facility and so everyone is like ok fuck! who is that! is he already dead! or what the fuck! goddamn it! eventually maxim and leo manage to find where alexei is hiding running into one of his people; daria who is a tracker and not really experienced in protection. she… doesnt know how to properly use a gun. shenanigans happen bc daria is sweet and maxim and leo are not mean then leo sees alexei and boy ! he is  FUCKED UP. alexei looks like hes str8 up dying (cause he is!) hes extremely weak and has to use a cane to walk hes got bloody bandages all over and his arm in a sling and later leo and maxim see that arm has a huge ass bite taken out of it and maxim is just 8D…im a good doctor but im not That good a doctor what the fuck is this. and calls marina down to see if they know what this is

marina does and identifies it as a kaprinka bite (ask my boyed friend what a kaprinka is) and that all cases theyve been in charge of nobody has survived but theyll do what they can to try to fix it. maxim and leo decide to take shifts to always be in the room with alexei in case anything goes wrong like his condition suddenly gets even worse and they need to call marina or an attempt on his life happens. so the first night while leo is in charge of watching alexei they start to talk and leo isnt angry anymore and instead is just…Really really sad and admits how hes felt and how he knows that he doesnt have to; he shouldnt; and he Doesnt forgive him for what he did but hes willing to push that aside to at least go back to the way they were. and alexei admits how hes felt and apologizes for everything and how he “probably got himself killed” and theyre both just mmmm feels bad toddbut after that it gives alexei the push to keep on living and alexei does Stupid Stuff which is really stupid but! it helps and he manages to bring back the kaprinka for marina to see what they can do to help him since they said that theyve only ever seen kaprinka that were already dead and not usable for testing it takes months and some big rollercoaster ups and downs w/ alexeis progress but he makes it and recovers but continues to stay in hiding til he gains his full strength back and during that time someone is sent to kill him and leo and maxim stop the guy and then stuff happens and alexei is big mad and blah blah and stuff and then after thats taken care of and his recovery is full they all return and leo helps alexei/artyom/daria in their search for what originally caused the whole situation alexei got in

and so basically from the day they found him theyve been dating Finally but never like fully established it but its very clear now so everyone knows and dasha is rubbing it in everyones faces and miko and felix are dying and they just Cant understand.

also a quick note: theres 2 darias…i have a daria who is just a cute crafts girl with rainbow hair but thats not the daria in this situation…the daria in that situation is my boyfriends oc who is a motorcycle racer and tracker for alexei but they are both equally cute and good

[vincent-frankenstein]

Shatter

Chapter One | Unravel

Summary: Logic is a storm. He’s a furious fire, raging deep inside; thunder strong enough to tear the mindscape to pieces, lightning bright enough to take control. And the storm grows with each time he’s ignored or disregarded, each time his so-called “family” pushes him aside. This is a golden opportunity — how could Rage not take it?

When lightning strikes, Deceit is left to pick up the shattered pieces left behind. The light sides are the only ones who can stop Logic and take Rage off his throne, the only ones who can save Thomas. Deceit just has to fix the damage Logic wrought. He just has to bring back the light.

(And maybe, maybe fall in love with them in the process.)

Warnings: violence, manipulation, blood, corruption, eventual sympathetic deceit, villain logan, swearing, dark side ocs, basically just logan and rage being ASSHOLES and hurting everyone including thomas

Pairings: eventual DAMP (starting with Roceit, then Moceit, and finally Anxceit)

{ Read on AO3 | Prologue }

@dante1138 @aliferous-ly @unlikelynightmareconnoisseur (lmk if u wanna be added/removed from the taglist!)

“— If we were to actually make a plan for this project, it would be a lot simpler to carry out,” Logan said, fighting to keep biting anger out of his tone. It was the same situation, every day: another project to be reviewed, another argument to be had, another hour spent being ignored. “As I have said before, a schedule will —”

“Ah, schedule, shmedule!” Roman waved his hand dismissively, not even sparing Logan so much as a glance as he looked over the papers scattered across Thomas’ desk. “You cannot schedule creativity! It needs to be free! Open! As swift as the coursing river!”

“I can, and I will.” Logan readjusted his glasses and tried to catch a glimpse of what Roman was writing. “For this to succeed, a plan must be made. Thomas has far too many other projects to — would you stop writing and listen?”

Roman scoffed. “No matter how the wind howls, the mountain cannot bow to it,” he quoted sagely, scribbling something along the margins of a sheet of paper.

“Stop quoting Mulan and pay attention, Roman.” Logan’s hands twitched into shaking fists and he forced them to relax, letting out a long, slow breath to douse the fire eating through his lungs. “This project is doomed to fail if we don’t organize it. You’re lucky enough I’m letting you go through with this foolish idiocy at all, the least you can do is listen —”

“‘Lucky enough?’” Roman had finally looked up at him, cold indignation hardening in his eyes. “Last I checked, you weren’t in charge here. And in case you’ve forgotten, Logic, this ‘foolish idiocy’ is Thomas’ life!”

Logan grit his teeth. “I am well aware of that, Roman, and you are well aware of my opinion on his, ah, ‘life.’ Seeing as you are too self-centered to listen to me on anything else, you could at least heed my insight here, so your stupid project won’t be as big of a failure as you are.”

It had slipped out, freezing cold, and left the room a silent tundra in its wake. Roman jerked as if he’d been struck, his eyes widening, his mouth settling into a furious line.

“Talk about throwing stones in glass houses!” he scoffed, too loud to be genuine, to be anything but a cover for the sharp hurt in his eyes. “Gee, thank you so much for your insight, Logan! If I ever want to turn Thomas into an uncaring, unfeeling robot like you, I’ll be sure to follow it!”

“What’s going on over there?” Thomas peeked in from the kitchen, eyes narrowed.

“Logan is trying to ruin our project!” Roman cried.

“I am doing nothing of the sort!” Logan protested. “I am simply trying to help! If you would only listen —”

“Listen to you call me a failure? Yeah, no thanks!” Roman’s voice cracked, and Logan ignored the way something in his chest did too. Thomas stepped into the living room, arms crossed.

“Logan, did you call him that?”

“Well, yes, but —”

“And he called our project ‘foolish idiocy!’” Roman continued, both hands pressed into the papers on the table, like he was trying to protect them. “You know he wants you to change your career, Thomas, why wouldn’t he sabotage my work?”

“I don’t think that’s what’s happening, Ro. Still…” Thomas grimaced, shaking his head. “Maybe you should go, Logan. Go cool off, okay?”

“Wh —” Logan cut himself off, shoving away the spike of anger that pierced his throat. He was fine. It was fine.”W-Why not send Roman away, too? He obviously needs to ‘cool off’ as well.”

“Because I need Roman,” Thomas said. A pang went through Logan’s entire body and he froze, cold fury and icy pain swirling in his stomach.

“I-I see.” He didn’t meet Thomas’ eyes as he sank out, forcing a layer of numbness over the freezing hurt. His feet touched the cold tile floor of his room and he fell backward, sitting on the edge of his bed. Why did he feel — no, no, not feel, why was he experiencing this? All that interaction had done was confirm his fears suspicions. He was not needed. He was not wanted.

His fingers tightened around the edge of his bed until his knuckles turned white. He couldn’t drive the image of Roman from his mind, his eyes flooded with insecurity and pain. All that from a few insults? Roman’s self-esteem was far lower than Logan had thought.

And he had damaged it further.

But in doing so, he’d made Roman listen. He paid him his full attention, if only to fight back. If he could, perhaps, use that…

“I knew you’d come around”

Logan shot to his feet and stumbled backward, a growl ripping itself from his throat. “Get out,” he spat.

“Ooh, someone’s angry.” Rage grinned, showing off all his deadly-sharp teeth. His eyes smoldered behind his dark glasses. “Poor, poor Princey, huh? He’s probably a mess after what you did to him. Didn’t it feel good to be listened to? Wasn’t it delicious?”

“It was a mistake,” Logan snapped, and his voice jerked and broke and trembled. “It slipped out. I meant him no harm. It has nothing to do with whatever ‘anger’ you have deluded yourself into believing I have.”

“Oh, Logic, you’re such a bad liar it’s almost funny.” Rage grabbed Logan’s faced, digging his clawed fingers into Logan’s jawline. “You’re the deluded one here, idiot. I’m only pointing out the power you’re too stupid to use.”

Logan growled, shoving Rage away. He wiped the blood dripping down his jaw on his sleeve and forced his expression back to neutral, hiding his shaking fists behind his back. “Get out.”

“Did you see how Princey crumbled when you called him a failure? He’s so close to shattering. Don’t you think he’d listen then?”

“Get out —”

“You could do the same to the others, you know. Logic can defeat emotions. Logic can unravel anxiety. You could break them, and then make sense of the wreckage. It would be too easy.”

“GET OUT!” Logan roared, punching Rage so hard that he stumbled backward into the wall. Pain exploded across his fist but he didn’t care, didn’t care, didn’t care.

Rage grinned, wiping blood from his face. “I knew you had it in you,” he said, and sunk out without another word.

Logan fell to his knees, and pain burst up and down his legs as they collided with the hard tile floor. His knuckles bled. He let out a long, shuddering breath, anger flickering across his face. He had to stop. Rage couldn’t break him — Logan wouldn’t let him.

Slowly, he got to his feet. He washed his shaking hand and wrapped it in a bandage, and scrubbed his wall until the flecks of Rage’s blood had vanished. He cleaned the wounds along his jaw and wrestled with his own thoughts until the image of Rage’s eyes, alight with furious glee, had been burned from his mind.

And when he finally left his room the next day, no one even paid him enough attention to notice he was injured.

[pbjpuppy]

do every oc question but with horsepower PLEASE

DUDE I WAS SO HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK ABT HER IM SO EXCITED

THIS IS SO LONG SO I’M PUTTING A READMORE

1. Do they sleep with a stuffed animal? If they have multiple, who’s the favorite?

SHE does Not surprisingly!! BUT similarly to Giovanni with his kids, Serene is always sleeping next to her bc she’s Warm and Soft so it’s like, kinda the same thing 

She IS the type to love sleeping with a ton of pillows though

2. Can they take care of a plant? What about a pet? What about a child?

Horsie doesn’t have the world’s greenest thumb but she could probably keep a houseplant alive!! She likes nature a lot she’s just not stellar at gardening

She would be REALLY GOOD with a pet though that animal would THRIVE and she’d be the type to take like 400 pictures of her pet and spam everyone with them like “Look at this Fucking Angel” 

And she’s DEFINITELY GOOD W KIDS seeing as she’s basically raising Serene!! Serene can testify that she’s the Best babysitter (even if she accidentially taught Serene like. 20 separate curse words gdgjdsk) 

3. Ask them to describe their love interest.

OOH FUN DIALOGUE

“Um, she’s.. REALLY pretty. Like, really fuckin’ pretty. I think she made me like, 17% more lesbian the first time I saw her. And like, we’ve known each other for a long time and we know each other’s secrets n’ stuff… ahahah, that came out really weird! I just mean we’re good friends, y’know? Hah. Anyway, she’s a bad bitch, I’d die for her. Love her.”

Her love interest is actually a character named Destiny who I havent drawn yet!!

4. Do they look good in red?

I think she could pull it off bc red is in her color scheme but also like.. there’s already so much warm colors!! I think she looks the best in gray or black tbh (like imagine her in a black suit or something she’d look SNAZZY)

5. Speech! Speech! Speech! Speech! Will they give one, and what about?

“HHuuh WHAT AM I S’POSED TO TALK ABOUT? Fuck. Uh. Respect lesbians.” Mic drop

6. Who will they take advice from, no matter what it is? Who won’t they take advice from, no matter what it is?

She’ll ALWAYS take advice from her friends, especially Destiny, bc she trusts them to know when she’s being too hot-headed or rash- There’s a character in her friend group who hasn’t got a name yet but he’s REALLY good at giving advice!!

She will NEVER take advice from her old rival Lockjaw, and she shouldn’t- he’s always out to sabotage her somehow and plays dirty a lot of the time, and he’s known to be a huge liar (Plus they just hate each other)

7. Describe them in three words. Now let them describe themself in three words.

My three words: Fiery, protective, loving!!

Her three words: “Uh.. Gay. Handsome. Wait, scratch that. Gay, HOT, optimist.”

8. Do complex puzzles intrigue or frustrate them?

She WANTS to be intrigued but she just gets frustrated and crumples up the paper after a few minutes if it’s not a super easy riddle sjhsjf she knows by now that it’s just Not Worth It

9. Do they empathize with non-sentient things (dolls, plants, books…)?

She only usually does with like people (or I guess furry)-shaped objects like stuffed animals and dolls, and even then not to an extreme degree- it’s really Serene who has the EXTREME empathy and empathizes with everything!!

10. What age do they most want to be right now?

THIS IS SUCH AN INTERESTING QUESTION she misses being a kid like Serene is a lot, but she’s pretty happy where she is- she’s in a better place than she has been for a long time at the current point of her story! If anything, she wishes she could go back and tell her middle/high school self that things are gonna be okay

11. They’ve won the lottery. Spend, or save?

She’d SAY she’s gonna save it and REALLY try but she wouldn’t be able to resist splurging on some really cool stuff bc COME ON she won the LOTTERY!! She’d also wanna buy gifts for the Monster family because she wants to thank them for how generous they’ve been to her so it’s really very wholesome 

12. Do they like romance in the books they read (or in the book they’re in)?

She doesn’t READ that’s for NERDS

JUST KIDDIN but nah she’s not really one for “mushy stuff” and prefers action/adventure stories!! She’s also a fan of mysteries and anything that’s not Painfully Heterosexual 

13. Name one thing their parents taught them.

Her parents weren’t the best, but they did teach her very good manners- she did go through a BIG rebel phase where she definitely was Not as polite, but overall her politeness and natural charisma really help her out in social situations (especially when she has to get favors from people and stuff)

14. Would they agree with the term ‘guilty pleasure’? Do they have any?

I think she’d agree with the term in a general sense!! I’m not sure exactly what guilty pleasures she has, probably just the fact that she can be kind of a thrill-seeker and take unnecessary risks- not involving Serene though ofc

15. What would they consider a waste of time– other than school or work?

The first thing that came to mind is that she considers arguing with people you KNOW aren’t gonna change their mind to be a waste of time- Especially when it comes to social justice type issues she knows not to waste her energy on people who just won’t listen (but she’s argumentative by nature and usually ends up doing it against her better judgement)

16. If money wasn’t a limit, what would they wear?

LEATHER JACKETS AND COOL BOOTS AND SUCH!! She’d also wanna buy a bunch of cool pins to put on said jacket (And she’d probably have to get it tailored bc of her wings too which would also be money..) She would also probably get some kind of cool patterned horseshoes!!

17. Do they like children?

Yes she DOES and Serene is her favorite (Even though she calls her a booger)

19. Do they study before tests? Practice before job interviews?

NOPE she usually dives into most things headfirst, which can be VERY UNWISE but she feels like it keeps her brain clear to not stress about stuff beforehand  

20. What do they like that nobody else does?

HMM… I don’t really have an answer for this one tbh!! I’ve been thinking about it for a bit, the only thing that I can think of is that she likes waking up REALLY early and the smell of smoke, but lots of people also like those things

21. What would it take for them to break up with someone? What would be the last straw?

She’s actually really bad at getting out of situations like that, like if she’s in a relationship she’s not happy in she’s bad at getting herself out of it- but probably something that really make her realize she needs to get outta there would be if the other person seriously hurt her on purpose 

22. Do they like being called pet names? Do they call other people pet names? What’s their go-to?

She LOVES pet names and calls EVERYONE pet names (unless they’re not comfortable ofc)!! Nicknames are kinda hard to make from “Horsepower” so a lot of the time she’s given weird affectionate pet names instead, it’s somthing that she’s kinda known for

DEFINITELY her go-to pet name is “babe”, she calls almost everyone that and I like to imagine that it’s very soothing bc she has a lovely deep voice.. other go-to pet names are baby, hon and love!! She has a lot of personal nicknames/pet names for individual people though 

Tbh she only really refers to someone as their full name if she doesn’t know them or if she’s mad at them shfshf

23. Stability or novelty?

Novelty!! Stability is important to her but she gets bored and anxious if she’s stuck in the same routine for too long, that’s why she likes taking care of Serene bc Serene is ALWAYS doing new things

24. Honesty or charity?

Ooh that’s difficult… Once again both are important values to her, but I’m gonna go with honesty- she’s a very (bluntly) honest person

25. Safety or possibility?

Possibility!! As established before she’s kinda a daredevil she doesn't care about SAFETY (unless it’s anyone else but her doing it then she’s gonna lecture them)

26. Talent or effort?

Effort!! She is EXTREMELY passionate and such an overachiever about everything shkfskh it’s like Hey Horsepower Can You Do This Simple Task For Me and she’s like Oh You Wanted Me To Change The World? I’ll Do That

27. Forgiveness or vengeance (or…)?

Definitely vengeance she holds grudges REALLY BAD and as kind as she tries to be if someone who hurt her or her friends gets hurt… she can’t help being satisfied

30. What would they do if they knew it would be forgiven?

OH THATS A HEAVY QUESTION since she holds grudges so bad she’s probably try to get revenge on Lockjaw for all the grief he’s caused her over the years, if she knew she’d be off the hook she’d get really nasty about it bc her anger at him has just been Boiling for years 

WOW THAT TOOK A WHILE BUT IT WAS SO EXTREMELY FUN THANK U SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!! I’ll do the other one tomorrow bc I need to go to BED 

Also I did cut out a few questions!! I either didn’t wanna answer them or I had answered them before 

[ginger-and-mint]

G&M: Chapter 5 - Bonus Scene

Did somebody order an extra helping of kink shit with my OCs? No? Welllll, here you go anyway! Feat. the girls this time.

Based on [this here fic] kink shit content: post-stuffing; belly rubs non-kink shit content: tfw u have a crush on ur friend but don’t wanna make things awkward; also that friend is straight and ur not oops

Kara was being a good friend. That was all.

That was why Malia was pressed against her side, stumbling and hiccuping like that cute girl Kara had helped home after the Solstice Festival a few years back. That had been a good night—the shimmering heat, the sticky feeling of skin against skin, shared bursts of tipsy laughter.... The fact she and that girl had slept together a week later and enjoyed a passionate fling over the rest of the summer also sweetened the memory a bit.

This was a whole different situation, of course. Because Kara was just being a good friend. And rather than being drunk on elderberry wine, Malia was stuffed with so much food that her tummy was sloshing audibly. Even with Kara’s help, she had to stop to groan and catch her breath every few steps as they climbed the stairs from the common room up to their dormitory.

“Ooh, gosh...” she panted as they reached the landing. “I really think I’m gonna explode.”

“Come on, Mal, you’re almost there! You want to lie down, don’t you?”

“Ugh, yes. I could sleep for a year....”

“So let’s get you to bed.” Kara gently tugged at her elbow, and Malia groaned and followed, docile with fullness and impending slumber.

Kara gently deposited Malia on her bed. The mattress creaked as she sank onto it.

“You’re the best, Kara.... I honestly think I’ll just sleep in my clothes. I only have to....” Malia fumbled in her hair, trying to free it from its messy bun. “Could you possibly help me with this? The hair clip was a gift from my mother, I would hate to ruin it.”

She bent her head, and Kara obligingly unfastened the clip and pulled it free. It was a pretty thing, adorned with thin twists of silver in the shape of crystal-studded vines. Kara would never dream of wearing something like that herself, not in a million years.

“It’s cute,” she said aloud. “Very you.”

“Oh! Thank you, I’m glad you think so! Just put it on the—hic—dresser, if you don’t mind.”

Kara had never been in Malia’s room before. She was not surprised to see that although they’d been living at the school for less than a week, the place was perfectly decorated and organized. The top of the dresser was covered with a bit of lace cloth, upon which sat a brush and several small glass jars of hair oils and skin creams. Behind it, a cluster of books stood between a pair of ceramic bookends. They had titles like Markets and the Monarchy and Historical Perspectives on the Joining of Zlott.

In the mirror, Kara could see her friend sinking back into the pillows. She looked sleepy and dazed. Her eyes were half-lidded, her cheeks flushed, her long black hair falling loosely around her face. One hand rested on her belly, which was swollen out into a rounded bulge that rose and fell gently as she breathed.

She had eaten so much. Kara was pretty sure that tiny girl was holding more food than the two boys sitting downstairs combined, a feat she’d accomplished with terrifying, single-minded ferocity. She wanted to increase her stomach capacity and so here she was, too bloated to move. Malia seemed incapable of doing things by halves. Maybe that was why it felt so special, to see her like this, all soft and sated and luxurious and cute...

Kara glanced down guiltily. It would probably be wisest if she just left as quickly as possible.

Then again, as her Great Aunt Janice always said, a little stupidity now and again keeps life interesting.

She put the hair clip down and went to sit on the edge of Malia’s bed. “Feel better now that you’re horizontal?”

“A little.” Malia hiccuped spectacularly. “Ooh… but that last tea cake was too much… my tummy was already aching, I really shouldn’t have….” Her hands found the sides of her belly. “Gosh, Kara, it’s so big! Even after the Banquet, it wasn’t this big.”

“Ha! That’s because you’ve been filling yourself up all day.”

“Hmm, I suppose you’re right. I must’ve eaten… what was it, four sandwiches at lunch? And those apples during afternoon lecture? And all those strawberries and tea cakes… on top of two helpings of dinner…. two big helpings, ooh....”

“Don’t forget the almond tarts. You must’ve had half a dozen of those.”

“Oh, right.” Malia closed her eyes. “No wonder I’m so heavy and full. Ugh, my poor tummy.... Feel it, Kara.”

Kara froze. “Um, I—”

“Seriously. Feel how hard it is.”

Against her better judgment, Kara placed a hand on Malia’s belly. It was warm and firm and round. Just a slight bit of give, and then an unyielding tightness under the smooth, soft skin. Malia sighed at her touch, shifting slightly on the bed, and a tide of shivering warmth swelled in Kara’s guts.

Oh Creator, this could not be happening. Kara had walked down dead-end streets before. She knew exactly how awful it felt. There was no hope, Malia was one of the straightest girls she’d ever met. And their friendship was off to such a good start.

“Crazy, right?” Malia said.

“…Yeah. You feel really full, Mal. Does it hurt?”

“Yes. But… is it strange if I say that it’s not a bad kind of pain?”

“No. That’s not strange at all.”

“What you’re doing is helping too.”

“What I’m—? Oh. Shit.” Kara realized that she’d unconsciously began to rub over Malia’s tummy. She pulled her hand away like she’d been burned.

“No, no, keep doing it...” Malia mumbled, and like some kind of idiot, Kara obliged. “I feel really good like this.”

And I feel really good like this, Kara thought privately. Here, just the two of us, me rubbing your tummy....

She shoved that thought down quickly and said, “I always thought there was something really pleasurable about the way you feel when you stuff yourself. That heavy, sleepy, indulgent feeling. I always liked eating because of that.”

“So that’s why you’re such an exceptional di-mage, huh?”

“Me?”

“Yes, you.” Malia opened one eye to look at her before letting it flutter closed again. “You’ve cast twice already and none of the rest of us have managed it yet. You’re a natural.”

“Heh, well... keep eating like this and soon I’ll have nothing on you.”

Malia’s lips curled into a soft smile. “And I do plan to keep eating like this.” A heavy sigh escaped, and she settled more deeply into the pillows. “You’d better watch out, Kara Baker... ‘cause I’m coming for you....”

Kara found herself speechless. Which was okay, because Malia was clearly more asleep than awake.

An infinite, perfect illusion of a moment passed. Then Malia snored quietly, and Kara was jolted back to reality. She jumped up, feeling a little creepy and a little guilty and like maybe Malia would not want her touching her belly if she could see what was running through Kara’s head.

She stood in the middle of the room for a moment, trying to gather her steaming, scattered thoughts. Then she picked up the blanket from the foot of the bed, draped it over Malia’s sleeping form, and left the room, shutting the door quietly behind her.

[baereaved]

well I'd best ask you for all of the OC questions then, if you're going to answer 'em anyway :3

the tru way to my heart

link to the oc question post~

1. Which OC is the most likely to break the 4th wall?

u know how the stereotypical ~crazy~ one always breaks the fourth wall? that’d be hendrik, here, so maybe him. tho honestly i feel like shiv totally would, like, he’s one of those stereotypical characters who’s calm and always has their eyes closed (e.g. gin, ling) and i feel like he’d just be sitting under a tree chillin & dessa would say smth & he’d just open one eye and look at the camera like ;3

2. One OC will protect you, and the others will try to kill you. Which OC would you pick to be your defender?

probably opluxx or shiv, bc they’re both fucking tanks. i never thought i’d need more overpowered ocs. aurelio, maybe. i feel like having the literal sun fight for me would probably work out

3. Would you rather live in your OCs’ universe or this one?

for the most part, my ocs’ universe and this one are one & the same, and the exceptions aren’t, like, great for me. cielle is a dgm oc. does that count. can i go live in dgm

the rest are under the cut!

4. Your OC finds out that you are their creator. How do they react?

already answered!

5. What is your noncanon nickname for your OC?

kairos was always “key” and was also one of the many inspirations for me using “keystone” as a username once. for the most part tho, they all either don’t have nicknames or have ones that are canon or would be believably canon bc they’re so common (morgs, luc, etc.)

6. What is/would be the fandom nickname for your story?

what does this… mean…(do they mean, like, for example, shortening the name a la d gray to dgm or do they mean, like, hiatus x hiatus. either way, i haven’t come up w/ names for any of my stories, sadly, so. well. or do they mean what i’m addressing in the next question. i still dunno what any of them are called)

7. What is/would be the nickname for a fan of your OC?

is this referencing, like, fan nicknames such as superwholocks or beliebers bc if so i can only pray no one would ever enjoy a story of mine that much

8. Which OC is most likely to be called “son”/ “daughter” / “child” by fans?

already answered!

9. Which OC is most likely to be called “husband” / “wife” / “spouse” by fans?

undoubtedly, pollux & olivia. probably also ekundayo, olivia’s wife. i feel like not jo or reese, tho. or. i hope not, at least. i know fandom would probably love reese & that makes me very, very sad.v v few of my charas are actually adults so this is actually a harder question than i anticipated

10. If you could tell your OC one thing, what would it be?

are you kidding me? i don’t want to talk to any of them. they’d all hate me

11. What kind of advice would your OC give you?

i feel like half of them would be like “just don’t leave your house bc the world is horrible & full of suffering” and then the other half would be like “~convene with nature and let go of all things~” so

12. Which OC is/would be “woobified” by the fandom?

i think this is in the “pretending a horrible character is totally forgivable & innocent” sense but it’s been a while & the tropes page there doesn’t helpin any case, like i mentioned above, fandom would probably love reese in this way & it would make me very sad bc he is a relentless child abuser but he’s pretty & young & white & bipolar so, like, i wouldn’t be surprisedany of my main four slavedrivers would totally be subjectable to this, tbh, tho naturally olivia is least likely. pollux is about as likely as reese to be woobified bc he’s even prettier and has a kid sister. i make it too easy for them, really.ooh, hendrik. absolutely hendrik. he’s just an outlast oc & may or may not ever get a story of his own but you know how much people love to protect mentally ill horror charas bc they think it’s good somehowgod, hendrik would totally be a komaeda. i’m so sadhopefully they’ll all just latch onto the actual woobie charas instead bc. hoo boy. there’s too many of them. i need to Stop

13. What song would you sing to audition for the role of your OC?

i’m not pretty enough to be any of my ocsbut. i really should give them all theme songs. maybe i could be kairos. like, after he loses all his flesh. i feel like i don’t have any song ideas for that, though

14. Your OC finds themselves in your universe and you are their only contact. How well do they handle the adjustment and how would you try to help/hinder/contain them?

most of them would do fine, since. y'know. realism. the ones who wouldn’t (e.g. hendrik, santa, opluxx, cielle, princess rebellion) i’d probs just. toss into some nearby woodlands & hope for the best. at worst they’d be a new cryptid, so

15. f/m/k: OC edition

i don’t want to fuck my childrenhm. fuck shiv, marry santa, kill, idk, pollux, probablypollux is an asshole & shiv is hot and has blue hair & santa could probably make good money w/ his looks or, idk, maybe he could pull off the artist thingi kinda regret not making any really rich characters now bc i have no rich assholes to marry

16. Who would you cast to play the part of your OC in a TV show or movie?

i don’t know enough child actors to answer this question. or poc actors. or actors in general. i feel like i don’t know any actors except terry crews and the rock

17. If you could choose to meet one of your OCs in person, who would you pick?

enlil bc he’s beautiful and i really wanna meet a ghost, also

18. Which OC would you absolutely NOT want to be a real person?

i know i should probably pick like, someone seriously bad, but. rien. he’s just ur typical internet mansplaining douchebag & we already have enough of those

19. What is your dream medium for your story (book series, video game, comic, movie, cartoon/anime, etc)?

already answered!

20. Which OC is the most likely to become a “mascot” for your story?

i feel like morgan, the mc, should be the obvious answer, but i also feel like i’d probably want to make it jesús, bc he’s beautiful & also i love him. maybe i should make an actual mascot character. what if morgan found a cat

[diefakemodzilla]

Since I made Sander’s Sides ocs for myself, I guess I made a lil skit thing for them

(If u don’t know my children, this is the list of them https://sxgarboy.tumblr.com/post/177508773793/i-made-some-sanders-sides-for-myself-bc-why-not) Triton: *Appears* gREETINGS I AM- Oh...it’s deserted. Where is everyone? Conrad: Anxiety’s room~ Triton: Oh God, it’s you. Conrad: Good to see you too! Triton: Wh-Why Lucah’s room exactly? Conrad: Oh, well apparently there are more sides and- Triton: Good to know! *Slides off* Conrad: Wait no, they’re having a meetinggg-! Ugh...damn. I can’t keep anyone busy, can I?

Triton: *Pops up in Anxiety’s room, it’s dim lit but designed just like every stereotypical little girl’s room. Pink, glittery, cheery, and princess themed, but with more cobwebs and dust, as if it’s rarely entered or cleaned.* WHAT IS- Cavin: There you are, you’re my creative side! Help me! Make me write a story or something to get away from them! Triton: What?! Who?! Lucah: Uhhh...I may have invited a few guests. T-Triton, this is Jamie and Ana... Ana: It’s not a girls name, it stands for Anarchy. Jamie: Hi! Wow, you know those are girl shoes, right? Triton: I don’t like them, who are they?? Lucah: My friends...Jamie, gender dysphoria, and Ana, he- Ana: Don’t say anything, we all know I’m the savior. I keep his weight in check. Jamie: You know, Ana DOES sound like a girl’s name. Ana: yEAH WELL SO DOES JAMIE! Jamie: It’s gender neutral! Lucah: Guys!  Triton: Ugh. You’ve kept him in here for a week with these two? I can’t imagine what it’s done to him, what about l-...ugh,l-logic and morality? Lucah: Maroon started arguing with them, and we haven’t seen him since. Morality is- Ethan: *Sobbing* Wh-Why are they so MEAN?? Triton: *GASP* What have you done to my son?? Ethan: Aw you think I’m your son?? :3 Lucah: We’re just having a discussion, okay? Ana: Yeah, like how Kaz needs to check his weight. Jamie: And wear more hoodies and try shaving his head! Ugh, but a lot of girls do that too, don’t they? Cavin: Just SHUT UP! Triton: I don’t get it, this is complete chaos it’s...illogical...I knew Maroon was a little shit, where is he?! Is he still asleep at a time like this?! Ethan: Oh, yeah, he can sleep through ANYTHING. Triton: Well, damn, I can’t believe I have to be the one doing this...has no one tried to wake him up? Lucah: Ugh, I can’t go to his room. It hurts my brain. Ethan: It’s scary in there... :< Cavin: Y-You guys...have rooms? All of you? Jamie: Of course we do! Where do you think we go?? Oh, girls aren’t as smart as guys so I guess you haven’t thought of that. Ana: Ooh, your brains works less the less you eat, it’s WORKING! Triton: Ugh! Fine, I’ll go! This better not have gotten any worse by the time I get back.  Lucah: I can’t make any promises... Ethan: Please hurry. :< Triton: I will, my sad little son! *Disappears, and reappears in Logic’s room. It’s too dark to see anything...probably because Logic is still asleep* Maroon?! Where are you? Little shit I swear I am- *as soon as he begins walking, he trips over what feels to be a book* Damn!  Maroon: Huh...Triton? *He yawns and turns on the lights, revealing the room to be a library of sorts. It’s cabin themed and cozy, with lots of couches, beds and chairs. It’s a sleepy atmosphere but it has plenty of decorations; some are strange and one could spend hours contemplating what they are. Though it’s messy, and has several items lying about, some may want to stay for a while.* What are you doing in here? Are you gonna borrow a book, do you need ideas? Ethan borrowed one of my mystery books and he never returned it and- Triton: No! I NEED YOU! Maroon: H-Huh?? Triton: I mean- Kaz does, I don’t! I never need you, obviously. I mean...you know what just come to Lucah’s room with me, and get dressed! Well, after you see the urgent situation.  Maroon: ...Alright. *He appears with Triton back at the scene with the dark sides and Cavin.* Oh dear. Triton: OH DEAR IS RIGHT, FIX IT! Maroon: Ahhhh...guys. Stop. Jamie: Wow, that unicorn onsie is such a girly thing to wear. Are you a girl? Your hair is kind of long. Maroon: H-Huh...? Ethan: Hey, don’t say stuff like that! Maroon: Okay, time out. What’s going on? Lucah: I introduced Kaz to my new friends..and now they won’t leave. Maroon: Ah...hey. You can’t just let new people in...*yawns* ...you know? Ana: Well now we’re here, get used to it! Maroon: *Slowly falling asleep* Mmm...you can always leave. Ana: Yeah, so can you! Maroon: Nah...I don’t want to. Just...hhh...look. Leave him alone, okay? Jamie: Why? We’re gonna help him. Maroon: You’re not helping him...you’re hurting him. Jamie: I’m not. How can we be happy with ourselves if we look girly? Ana: Or fat and ugly? Jamie: Then we’ll get misgendered! Ana: And look bad. Jamie: And our lives will suck! Maroon: Y...*he begins to nap for a short period of time before Lucah nudges him awake* Huh? Oh. Yeah, you may think you’re helping...but you’re only making things worse. Sure, getting misgendered sucks and not liking your body sucks. But pushing yourself to fix something you can’t doesn’t help anyone. We can’t help it if we have feminine DNA or have a stout body type. You just gotta accept it and...*yawn* and think, hey that’s a neat body. I’m glad I’m in this body.  Jamie: But-! Maroon: No buts, young man. Jamie: Aw, young man?! Oh, I wish I got called that more often! Ana: Jeez, don’t be childish. Maroon: Yeah so...I’m gonna take a nap. You guys can contemplate what I just....*he then drifts off and returns to his room without completing his sentence* Triton: Wow, so an idiot like him can make a point. Ethan: *Clapping* Wow, that was good! Lucah: How many times did he try to fall asleep during that... Ana: I don’t CARE if he made a point! We have to fix this somehow! Jamie: I don’t think we can...oh, can I take a nap too?! I’m sleepy! Ana: No- Lucah: Yeah, why don’t you both go nap...somewhere away from here. Ana: We’ll discuss this later, *crosses his arms and disappears off* Jamie: Yeah! Man, just looking at that guy made me sleepy. Byyyee~ *he disappears, while waving goodbye* Cavin: Thank IRENE that was COMPLETE HELL. Triton: What happened? Cavin: TERRIBLE THINGS! Triton: Wait...this encounter gave me a writing idea...*gasp* I need to post it to Tumblr! Ethan: Oh, am I gonna be in the post?! Triton: You sure are. Lucah: Look...guys I’m sorry. Ethan: It’s fine, Anxiety. Just remember; stranger danger. Lucah: Stranger danger? Cavin: Oh I can do that! Triton: The guy handing out flyers on the sidewalk isn’t a stranger. Cavin: Yes he is, I don’t know him! What if he tries to take my kidneys?! Ethan: Oh no! Triton: Ugh...*pulls out his phone and starts typing as he leaves* Ethan: Wait..I wanna see the post let me get my phone! *He disappears after him* Lucah: Listen, I- Cavin: No more words, you traumatized me. Lucah: Understandable, bye.  Cavin: Seeya! *Returns to his room* Well. Maybe Maroon was right. I can’t let dysphoria and body dysmorphia get to me. Sure...I might not think I’m the world’s GREATEST person, but I can be. And the first step can be pretending I’m the greatest person. Yeah... Ethan: Aw man. *Comes back* I was in the story but I said almost nothing. Cavin: Aw, it’s okay buddy...

[hellotvv]

Recap

Well, I guess I’m writing this for the second time now :( but I guess I could include my day today...

So last week was a fairly idk stressful week, but I’m feeling much better now! Idk things got figured out and yeah, stress went away. I, also, had a pretty great weekend too. It was especially good, since it was kinda full of surprises in some ways. Nothing was really planned, and it’s kinda cool when nice things happen unexpectedly. :)

Friday, it was a crazy storm day. I was supposed to go to office hours, so I could ask for some help on my lab reports that were due Wednesday before lab. But it was legit raining way too crazy that I didn’t really wanna go. So I emailed my TA and asked if he’ll be possibly free on Tuesday. So my TA is honestly the worst TA i’ve ever had. I legit think that if I had any other ochem lab ta, I’d be doing way way better in this class. Like on the first lab report, there should be some amnesty for certain things. He legit took a point off for having fringes left on the uh lab report paper... The thing is, I’ve legit always turned in with fringes, and it never really mattered since the lab reports are passed back for the students to keep. Like okay, he want fringes off. But it’s the FIRST lab report, can he seriously not write hey no fringes next time, otherwise I’ll have to take off points. Nope, he legit just takes off points -.- like zzz, he grades ridiculously hard and his quizzes are legit way harder than any other TA’s quizzes. So it’s actually ridiculous lol... The thing that upsets me the most is he finally replied to that email I sent him Friday morning BEFORE office hours, Tuesday night... It took him a whole 5 days+ to finally reply to my email, and when he did reply it was too late lol. He was like, can you ask the questions after the lab tmrw? I was like ??? in my head, since I legit wanted office hours to get help for the lab report that was due BEFORE the lab. So I had 0 questions for after lab today lol. I still don’t know how it took him so long to reply to his emails. Like he could have checked it during his office hours, or idk even on Tuesday. Like it’s his school email too and he’s a grad student/TA. Like pretty sure he gets emails... No clue how he only checks or replys Tuesday night before my lab... -.-  Anyways, Friday was kinda idk just a day. I ended up driving home in the pouring rain, and the trip took nearly 5 hours... The drive is normally 2 hours - 2 hours and 30 minutes maybe. But it took 5 hours, because of the rain. Since cars would break down, ppl would get into accidents, and you naturally have to drive slower in the rain. But yeah, the traffic was actually insane, and I understand since it’s some heavy heavy rain. But it was really really exhausting being stuck in traffic alone in a car, stop and go, for hours... ._. I was so tired that I ate dinner and immediately knocked out after I got home. So I didn’t really do anything Friday.

But Saturday was hmhm a pretty good day actually. So I woke up late and I didn’t really do anything on Saturday. Since my friend Fyona was busy-ish on Saturday, and I didnt really make any plans with people. Then it was around 5ish and Jia randomly snapchatted me and asked me if I wanted to eat with her. So I was like yeee, and chose raising canes. She was down and drove and pick me up! It’s nice being driven, since honestly I drive my friends most of the time, and I rarely rarely get driven around :( So it was very nice of her to drive me! When she first saw me get into her car, she was like woahh Theo you lost weight! I was like yesss, I’ve been really good about my diet~ and she was really impressed like wowow. Haha, idk it’s cool when ppl notice when you put in hard work! I’ve been pretty good about my diet for weeks now and have lost weight! :D #KawaiiTheoAgain? Anyways, it was just cool talking to her and catching up on life in general. We ate at raising canes, and then went to Cafe Maji for drinks and to just hang out for a bit longer. I ordered a thai tea latte, then a bit later Jia was like ooh u ordered taro? I was like ?? nono, I ordered thai tea! She was like ooh I thought u said taro. Then the waitress brings out taro latte o.o I was like huh... I guess I did~ I suppose i was reading thai tea latte and somehow said taro outloud, which was below thai tea in the menu. But it was fine, and I finished the taro latte and it was alright. Just surprising that idk I ordered something else and didn’t even know! Uhh, idk how the convo came up exactly, but I think talking about vacations to places. She wanted to like go to Japan, or like SF trip, or idk. I was like yoo, u can just airbnb with friends and split the cost and it’s not bad. She surprisingly never heard of airbnb, so I explained and told her it’s fairly cool haha. She was like wowow, and thanked me for sharing it with her. She was like huh, you know I learn something new each time I hang out with you. I realized that it was kinda true, every time I see her, somehow she ends up like learning about something new. I think this is pretty cool actually, since idk I don’t intentionally try to do it. But I do like sharing cool facts or sharing about my hobbies/passion with ppl, and I think it’s kinda cool learning something new :D. She enjoys it lol and I realized I got my friend Brent into fashion nowadays! He’s mostly into sneakers rn, but yeahhh. Idk I like getting ppl into new things :) I guess I have a wide range of interests and hobbies that I have quite a bit to share? But anyways, she drove me home, and it was a nice idk hangout with my friend Jia. She even said she’ll make plans one of these days to drive up to SB and hang out! I was like woo :) Then I went home and kinda just read chinese novels until I late at night, since haha.

The next day was a pretty adventurous day o.o and full of idk surprises. I’m also a very weak boy :( But uh to begin, I woke up at like 10ish and was sleepy. Since I was meeting up with Fyona at 11 to do a laundromat shoot with her. She was very very rushy, and was like yoo get here at 11. Since her mom is fairly strict and doesn’t like her hanging out, so she lied and said she had to go study at 11, so I had to be there at 11. I got there at like 10:58 and she was like, oh my mom is making me help her cook, and then she had to wait for her mom to leave until she could leave. But then she still needed to do makeup and etc, so I had to wait outside alone in the parking lot for legit 50 minutes nearly T_T I mean, I didn’t mind, since I was actually just chilling on my phone and was content. But yee, I had to roast her a bit for that doe. She was like haha you could have napped or slept longer, since I didn’t even get out till 11:50. So I called her a monster for rushing me and how she was super adamant about 11 AM, only to make me wait outside alone for 50 mins. But yeee, it was silly, and then I drove us to the laundromat. But it was too crowded to shoot actually. Like Fyona and I don’t mind shooting in crowded locations. But if we shot there, it would just inconvenience ppl, and we’re not big on dat. So we decided to just do the shoot another day. So we went to go eat, and then she had a shoot schedule at 1:30ish. She asked me to come along, and it was nearby at huntington beach pier. So I went along and while we were walking around, we randomly met a popular photography iger that we both follow! I was like huh that dood kinda looks like dfreske (guy was carrying a camera too), and it turns out to be him! Wowow, we said hi and said we’re fans of his, and yeah :) it was cool. Then we met up with uh the photographer that Fyona was shooting with. The dude was hmhm alright, I think the photos came out decently well, but he was fairly quiet and didn’t do too much directing or anything, and yeah. Around this time while the shoot was on going, Catherine texted me out of the blue, and was like wutt you’re in the oc area? Are you free? I was like, oh ye, I am, and she was like oh come hang with cole + these uh 3 friends of hers. Cole is a photographer that I met through Hope and Catherine previously and he’s a pretty nice dude. But yeah, I legit haven’t talked to Catherine since like winter break lol. Uhh after the shoot was over, it was almost 3, and Fyona had to be home by 3. Fyona tried to push it back to 4, so she could come hang with Catherina and I, but she couldn’t. So I had nothing better to do, so I head over and met up with them. They already finished shooting, so we met up at a mcd and chilled. It was cole, some girl, and this guy name Adam, and Catherine ofc. Cole and the girl had to go study math not too long after, so they left. But yeah, Catherine was like, ooh we can hang at her place, so we all head over to Catherine’s place (adam, cat, and I). Adam turned out to be a pretty nice dude, he’s into streetwear a bit, and plays overwatch. They all went to the same school at Catherine, so that’s how they know each other. Catherine told me that her mom and grandma occasionally asks where I’ve been lol, since I used to go over to her house quite frequently over winter break. When we got to her house, I said hi to her grandma, and she was surprised to see me lol. Also met her mom a bit later and she was like ooh you’re back home. Idk I think it’s kinda cool that they like me? Idk why they do, since I don’t really do anything lol. But yeah :D wooo! Anyways, we hung out and watched supernatural (meh tv show) at catherine’s living room. Then we decided to head over to south coast plaza, since nothing better to do. Walked around and it was cool. Stopped by the Saint Laurent store, but I was dressed poorly and didn’t want to go in, but Adam did haha. Shortly after, all the stores were closing and it was only like 6:30, but I guess it’s a Sunday. We head over to a thrift store nearby just for fun idk. Didn’t buy anything, but Catherine randomly met up/saw one of her friends, and they were like omg. They made me take a pic of them, and I used my iphone 7 portrait mode and they were like wowow lit. The girl left, and then Catherine, Adam, and I decided to go grab boba + ice cream at some boba place in garden grove. I’ve been there before once with Calvin, and the place is okie. It was getting close to 8:30 and Catherine had to go home. I was gonna go meet up with my buddy Brent, who came to the oc area to hang out. He also was hanging out with his gf, since uh she was staying at her roommate Shannie’s place in Laguna Beach for the 3 day weekend for fun. So he figured he’ll come down to hang with me and elizabeth/shannie. So I was driving Adam and Catherine back, and Catherine’s mom told her to be home by like 8:30ish or whatever. So I was like ooh, I can drop you off first, then Adam. But she was like oh it’d be easier for u to drop off adam, and then bring me home. I didn’t really mind the order, since they’re both the same distance regardless and nearby. Adam and I insisted on dropping Catherine off home first, since she did have a curfew and didn’t wanna make her get in trouble with her mom. So when I was dropping her off, she was like, ‘you’re gonna come to my place after u drop off adam right?’ I was like ???? what in my head O_O.. Since I was gonna go have a nice dinner with buddy Brent. Then she pulled the idk sympathy/guilt trip card. She was like, ‘oh you’re leaving tomorrow, and haven’t posted snapsfromtheo in a while. also idk if i’ll be able to make it to lunch tomorrow too’. She suggested lunch the next day, before I leave. So uhh, idk ;-; i’m a weak boy and couldn’t say no after she said all that... I had to text brent and was like T_T sorry I can’t make it ahhh, and explained why. Elizabeth and brent were fine for it and encouraged me to go to cat’s house... I was like lol... But yeah, went over to her place after dropping off Adam. Honestly it wasn’t anything eventful. We sat fairly close in her living room couch, watched supernatural, and made small conversation here and there. Then it was like 11ish and I went home afterwards. Idk it was okie and not bad, but I kinda would have rather ate dinner with my buddy brent and elizabeth. But yeah, Sunday was still a pretty surprising day. Hung out with Fyona, met popular ig photographer, randomly ended up hanging out with Catherine, got guilt tripped, and didn’t hang out with Brent/Elizabeth. But had a good day nevertheless!

Monday was still a fairly interesting day as well. So I woke up, and then around like 1ish, picked up Catherine, and we decided to get ramen. I chose kitakata ramen, since she never been there before haha. There was quite a wait when we got there like 40 mins. So we decided to stop by the camp or whatever, which is nearby Kitakata. The camp is like a small food + shopping area, with a unique design. It was kinda cool to walk around, and then uh Catherine made me take another photo of her with my iPhone 7 portrait mode haha. It was kinda nice hanging out with her, and then we made it back in time before we got called to come inside kitakata. She turned out to like kitakata quite a bit, and agrees it’s better than shin sen gumi haha. While we were eating, she made an instagram post and uploaded the iphone 7 photo I took of her that day, and had a very nice caption about me... ;-; I was like nooo, don’t give me affection, I am weak boy in my head. But yeah, while we were eating, she roasted me a bit for not telling her that I was back in the oc area, but I was like I casually snapchatted it tho! She was like wowow i had to find out from Fyona’s snapchat story sad. So now I have to tell her the next time I’m heading back. I dropped her off and got a big hug, and then I headed off to pick up Fyona. For Catherine, it was definitely nice seeing her and hanging out with her again after not seeing her in a while. She oddly was super nice and made a lot of idk effort/took the initiative to hang out! I guess I’ve kinda grown out of my crush on her, and not really interested anymore. But it was nice hanging out with her as friends and would prob hang out with her again if I go home for the weekend. Fyona wanted to hang out before I left, and was free around like 2ish. But I was still with cat until 3, but fyona nice girl and waited till 3 to hang out with me. Then we went to ikea, since she wanted to. We got ikea food, sigh I ate again, and idk how or why I did. But yeah, ikea food is honestly not that bad considering the price. I’ve eaten their ice cream/hot dog before, but monday I ate their other food, and it’s not bad considering the price. It was cool walking around and chilling with Fyona, and then it was like 5 so I had to drop Fyona off, then it was time to head back to SB. I left for SB around rush hour, but surprisingly there was no traffic at all! O_O I was so surprised... Like idk why, since shouldn’t national holidays normally have more ppl free and driving around rush hour? But yeah, even when passing LA, there was no traffic and it wasn’t even raining or anything... I got back to SB fairly quickly, but I was kinda tired after the short 2 hour drive. Idk I guess I don’t go home as often as I used to, so I don’t drive long distances frequently anymore, so it kinda burns me out nowadays haha. Oh well. But got back at night, rested for a bit, then had to do my history homework and math homework, so I stayed up a bit late. It was nice sleeping in my room in SB again, since idk used to my pillow setup at SB lol.

Tuesday and Wednesday has been ughhh. So Tuesday, I slept late on monday doing homework, but I had to wake up early for my 8 am history section. It was raining as well at 8 am, so I had to go to class in the cold rain at 8 am T_T. Then after, my friend brent came over to get lunch and hang out for a bit. Then went to 4 o’clock class and got back. Then my 2nd pair of yeezys came! So there’s quite a story behind this, but I’m lazy to write it all out. But brent and i supposed to cop yeezys together during the drop. He fell asleep at like 3 am, and I did wake him up by calling him, and then he went back to sleep and asked me to get his size. I did, but I didn’t tell him I did, since Idk if he deserved it. It’s like waiting in a long concert ticket line to get concert tickets at 3 am, and your friend who’s waiting in line with you is tired and goes home and asks for u to stay up and try to get their ticket. it’s like uhhh, if I put in all this work, and you didn’t at least wait up with me/tried with me, do you deserve it still? But yeah, I ended up being nice and sold him the yeezys for retail. He was very very surprised and very grateful, and it was like a nice surprise gift. Since he did want the pair, but was sad he didn’t get it since he fell asleep. But yeah, he promised to treat me out to a lavish dinner one of these days to make it up for me and was super happy. Then he left, and Tuesday night began. I had 2 long long lab reports due the next day on Wednesday AND I had a midterm for greek myth. I didn’t really study for greek myth, since class is fairly easy, but still. I legit pulled an all nighter with my friend Kristy, and we both finally finished the two long lab reports at like 10 AM lol... So I was EXHAUSTED. I went to class to take my midterm and I think I did pretty well on it, maybe an A. But I was sleepy af and just wanted to sleep sigh... Then I stayed up and then finished up lab report completely + did prelab, and then studied for the lab quiz that’ll happen during lab. So yeah did that, went to lab, turned everything in, took quiz, and the experiment was kinda long and lame. But I’m finally free! The rest of the week isn’t too bad, besides the fact that I have to study for my math midterm on Tuesday. But ughh, I’m basically ready to pass out, since I legit haven’t slept in so long lol... Long long day, but yeah that was my kinda adventurous weekend, and long Tuesday night and Wednesday. Tomorrow should be not bad and smash tournie to go to! So woo, hopefully this weekend will be great too~

[vincent-frankenstein]

Shatter

Chapter Sixteen: For Forever

Summary: Logic is a storm. He’s a furious fire, raging deep inside; thunder strong enough to tear the mindscape to pieces, lightning bright enough to take control. And the storm grows with each time he’s ignored or disregarded, each time his so-called “family” pushes him aside. This is a golden opportunity — how could Rage not take it?

When lightning strikes, Deceit is left to pick up the shattered pieces left behind. The light sides are the only ones who can stop Logic and take Rage off his throne, the only ones who can save Thomas. Deceit just has to fix the damage Logic wrought. He just has to bring back the light.

(And maybe, maybe fall in love with them in the process.)

Warnings: violence, manipulation, blood, corruption, sympathetic deceit, villain logan, swearing, dark side ocs, basically just logan and rage being ASSHOLES and hurting everyone including thomas

Pairings: eventual DAMP (starting with Roceit, then Moceit, and finally Anxceit)

{ Read on AO3 | Prologue | Chapter One | Chapter Two | Chapter Three | Chapter Four | Chapter Five | Interlude | Chapter Six | Chapter Seven | Chapter Eight | Chapter Nine | Chapter Ten | Chapter Eleven | Chapter Twelve | Chapter Thirteen | Chapter Fourteen | Chapter Fifteen }

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They walked in silence for a long time.

Deceit was growing really sick of silence. Even the dark side of the mindscape had never been this overwhelmingly quiet — there was always music, or conversations, or a far-off Other practicing an evil monologue in the mirror. This was… stifling. Suffocating.

But the alternative was far worse. Conversations could lead to understanding, sympathy, and eventually something too horrible to even fathom. Friendship. That age-old boogeyman. Deceit had already almost ruined everything once by getting too close; he couldn’t risk that again.

So even as he itched for something, anything to break the tense quiet that had fallen over them, he didn’t dare speak. Every so often, he risked a glance at Roman, and every time he looked away he wished he could have looked for longer. The prince had a strange expression on his face, somewhere between pensive and… angry, almost, but not quite.

Sometimes, out of the corner of his eye, he thought he saw Roman steal a glance at him. He chalked it up to his imagination.

Time inched by like a snail caught in a pool of molasses. The kingdom seemed so much bigger, with a proper day-night cycle to show them how much time had passed, and by the time the sun began to set, they’d barely even made it halfway to the mountain. The silence grated against Deceit’s very being, leaving him tense and deeply uncomfortable. 

“So,” Roman began. Deceit pressed his lips into a thin line and cursed himself internally for wishing the silence away; he already preferred it to whatever was coming next, whatever disastrous thing he’d say to break Roman further. “The dark sides kicked you out?”

“Logan kicked me out,” Deceit corrected. “We are… opposite forces, he and I. Lies and truth. Although…” He paused to laugh, bitterly. “He hardly represents truth anymore. He simply… got tired of listening, I suppose.”

Roman nodded, his face lined with a deep, heavy sadness. “And no one… stood up for you? No one let you back in?”

Deceit burst out laughing. “What, did you think we were some kind of family? Honey, no. Those bastards have wanted me dead for years. Rage just expedited the process.”

“Ah.” Roman winced, lapsing back into silence. He swung his arms awkwardly by his sides, tension buzzing through the air. “Do… do you miss it?”

Deceit raised an eyebrow. “Why are you asking?”

“I — I don’t know! I can’t stand any more quiet!” Roman said. He sighed, running a hand through his hair, and his fire dimmed. “You don’t have to answer. It was a stupid question.”

Deceit paused. “Funny, a few hours ago all you wanted me to do was shut up,” he said, clasping his hands behind his back and shooting Roman a teasing look — one that Roman obviously missed. He began to splutter, apologies and offense getting tangled in his mouth.

“Don’t talk, then!” he said when he’d gotten his words under control. Deceit closed his mouth, shoulders raising tensely. The silence that fell after that was ten times as painful as the silence before, and he knew it was his fault. He used to be so… so smooth. He could talk his way out of any situation. Why did it seem like all he could do now was hurt everyone around him?

“I… I do,” he said, after long enough had passed that the silence filled his lungs and choked him. When he next spoke, he found that the thick blanket of lies had lifted from his words, allowing him to speak freely. Whether this was a blessing or a curse was yet to be determined. “It’s not the safest place, or the kindest, but… it’s all I’ve ever known. Of course I miss it. He locked me out of the only home I’ve ever had.”

He sucked in a breath and closed his mouth. He hadn’t meant to say that much. He hadn’t meant to be that soft. But the damage had already been done; Roman was peering at him strangely, like he was a puzzle he couldn’t quite solve, and there was something sparkling in his eyes. Sympathy, Deceit’s mind told him in a disgusted sneer, and he rejected the thought.

“I know how that feels,” Roman said a moment later, his voice ever-so-soft. At Deceit’s look, he rolled his eyes. “Deceit, I’ve been trapped in this place for weeks. I haven’t seen my family or my home in… far too long. I was trapped as a dragon, for Odin’s sake! I don’t know, I think that means I can relate to your plight.”

Deceit raised his eyebrows. “Ooh, sarcasm. If I didn’t know any better, I’d say I’m rubbing off on you.” He smiled when Roman laughed, hiding his giggles behind his hand. “So you can relate. At least I’m not alone in this bullshit.”

“You’re not,” Roman agreed. “If anything, I think I’ve been through more. Being a dragon was not a fun experience. Worst case of heartburn I’ve ever had.”

Deceit managed to stop himself just before he burst out laughing. “Oh, honey, I can’t even count the number of times your lovely brother has turned me into a snake. A word of advice: don’t play Trauma Olympics with someone who has lived with Remus.”

“You’re forgetting that we were the same person for the first 13 years of our life,” Roman countered. “If anyone knows Remus, it’s me. How… how is he, anyway?”

Deceit pursed his lips. “As demented as ever,” he said. “I can only hope Logan has enough sense to keep him reigned in, for Thomas’ sake.”

“Y-Yes. Of course.” Roman ran his hand up and down his sash, a nervous fidget. “Logan is… really making a mess of things, isn’t he?”

“No, the situation is perfectly ideal,” Deceit deadpanned, and Roman winced, sending hot regret seeping into his bones. He hated how familiar he was becoming with the feeling of regret.

“I should have seen it coming,” Roman said, his words coursing with cold, defeated anger. “I should have — stepped in, or… something. Protected him. Protected us all. It’s my fault.”

His voice broke, and he wrapped his arms around himself, looking so downtrodden that Deceit — Deceit, the epitome of morally gray bastardry, an asshole of the finest caliber — felt the sudden urge to hug him again. What the fuck was wrong with him, for lying’s sake?

He shook his head, forcing those soft urges back into the dark cave from whence they’d come. “Really,” he said flatly. “Your fault? There are six sides in the mindscape, aside from Rage, each of whom could have seen the signs and said something. Logan himself could have come forward with his troubles. Patton could have listened better. Virgil could have fought harder. I… I could have kept Rage under tighter reigns. But it is solely your fault? Forgive me if I have trouble believing that.”

Roman stuttered, fell silent, and twisted his lips into something between a grimace and a wince. “I’m the protector,” he said. “And I know — knew — Logan best.”

“Hm, strange. I thought Virgil held both of those titles.” Deceit hummed thoughtfully, studying one of his gloves with all the casual ease he didn’t have. 

“Well — he did, I suppose, but —”

Deceit raised his hand, cutting Roman off. “Do not read into this any further than necessary,” he said as a preface, refusing to meet Roman’s eyes. “Placing the blame solely on yourself is the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen you do — and I keep track of every stupid thing you light sides do. It cheers me up.”

“But…” Roman bit his lip, looking away. “I still feel bad. I could have noticed the signs, or — or something. Now everyone’s hurting, and I don’t know what to do. You said it yourself: I couldn’t defend them. I… I failed.”

Deceit almost winced. He took a breath, considering his next words very carefully. “Yes, you did,” he said, and Roman’s breath hitched. “Back then. What are you doing now, might I ask?”

Roman blinked. “Leaving the Imagination?”

Deceit clapped once. “Very good, Roman. And what is the goal here?”

“To… save Patton and Virgil?”

“So — and correct me if I’m wrong here — you’re taking action to protect your family.”

Roman hesitated. “I… I suppose so,” he said, grip tightening around his sash. “Still, everything’s just… it all feels so hopeless. I have no idea how to fix any of this.”

“Rather lucky you have me, then,” Deceit said smoothly.

“Why?”

Deceit placed a hand over his heart in mock-offense. “Roman, you wound me,” he said flatly. “I have everything figured out. Don’t worry that pretty little head of yours.” It was a blatant lie, and he knew it; he just hoped Roman didn’t. “I helped you, didn’t I?”

Roman blushed. “Y-Yes, you did.”

Oh. Oh. That was so much softer than Deceit had been expecting. His heart did a ridiculous, flip-flopping dance in his chest, and he cleared his throat, gritting his teeth as he fought to keep his cheeks from darkening.

“T-There, you see?” he said, as smoothly as he could manage with his heart trying to crawl up his throat. “I know what I’m doing, Roman. I will fix this mess.”

Roman nodded and released his vice-grip on his sash. “Y-Yeah. We’ll… we’ll fix this.” he took a breath, and Deceit smiled to himself, satisfied with a job well done — but then Roman turned and smiled at him, framed with sunset-light and radiant in the golden glow, and Deceit’s heart waved the white flag and died on the spot. “Thanks, Dee.”

Oh.

Oh fuck.

Deceit slowed to a stop, and Roman continued on. For once, he dropped everything — his whole act, every mask he’d ever worn, shed in an instant in the face of a sunset and a prince he just couldn’t figure out. Fire spread across his face, turning his cheeks pink and then a deep, dark red, and his eyes widened. Realization whacked him in the chest and he gasped.

He watched Roman go, and knew in that moment that it wasn’t his room making him feel this way. 

He had fallen for a light side.

Shit.