#or maybe find thicker shirts outside of summer lol

[miss-floral-thief]

kinda bs that weight gain might make your chest grow but if you lose weight it wouldn't necessarily shrink your chest

[malfoysmaybank]

Nothing to Lose- JJ Maybank

gif by @rudypankows!!

requested: yes!

Request: Hey!! I’ve had a thought for a JJxReader one shot where they’re either dating, or have an unspoken thing with each other and after the speech in episode one where JJ says he and John B have nothing to lose the reader gets upset and either says something along the lines of you could lose me or JJ includes her in the nothing to lose and she says she could lose him. You’re writting is so good and mine is trash but I would LOVE to see a fic like that. by @jailcalledlife!!

a/n: i love this request! i’m really excited to write this. also, y’all keep requesting JJ and as much as i love him (and i like REALLY love him), i feel like i’m not giving you guys enough diversity! so if you want other characters, let me know! all the characters i write for are on my masterlist <3 thank you for this awesome request and enjoy! warnings: tooth rotting fluff, angst, anxiety attack, typos, slight cursing, and i think that’s it lol.

You’re tuning everything out as you hear JJ and John B talk about their plan with the gold. You’d never tell him, but you were scared that the gold would become his main priority and he’d forget about not only the rest of the Pogues, but you as well.

You and JJ have been together for the past year now. You hated to admit that you’d fallen hard for this boy. You tried so hard to keep your feelings at bay but when you looked into those crystal blue eyes swimming with love, your barriers broke.

“Besides, John B and I? We have nothing to lose.” Your eyes widened at his words. Tears were swimming in your eyes and you thanked god for the inventions of sunglasses. You didn’t say anything, staying quiet and hidden behind your book. Your mind raced as you replayed his words. “...nothing to lose.” Were you nothing? Was he not worried to lose you? Did he even love you? You quickly excused yourself, saying you had to use the bathroom.

As soon as the bathroom door closed, silent sobs racked your body. You tried to convince yourself deep down that he wasn’t thinking straight, that he just forgot for a minute. But no matter how much you thought it, you couldn’t get the thought out of your head that maybe he meant it. You started having a full out anxiety attack. Tears streamed down your face, the air felt thicker, you had a raging headache. You thought you were dying.

A knock came from the door. “Y/N hurry- baby? are you okay?” JJ. You tried to respond but it came out more as a sob. “I’m coming in, okay?” The door swung open and JJ quickly sat down next to you, pulling you into him. You straddled his lap and buried your face in his chest. “Hey, hey. You’re okay. Breathe with me, okay?” You nodded. “Okay, breathe in. 1, 2, 3, 4. Hold. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. Breathe out. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. See? You’ve got it. You’re okay, bub.” He shushed you and kissed your hair.

“Now, can you tell me what’s wrong or do you need a minute?” You took a shaky breath in and he held you a little tighter. “That’s okay, take all the time you need, baby.” You lifted your head, revealing your puffy eyes and red nose. He thought you looked so gorgeous in this moment, your hair slightly frizzy from the humid summer air and your cheeks rosy from the sun.

“When you were talking about your plans with the gold, you said you had nothing to lose. And you probably didn’t mean for it to sound like this but I just need you to say it out loud, would you care if you lost me?” You finally looked up at his eyes. Damn, those eyes. He pulled you back into his embrace, holding you so tight, afraid if he let go, you’d disappear into thin air.

“Fuck, Y/N. I’d be lost without you. Don’t ever think for a second that I don’t love you. There are 4 people I’m scared of losing. 3 being John B, Pope, and Kie.” He pulled you back to look at him. “And the one left, the most special one...” He touched the tip of your nose with his pointer finger and made a “boop!” sound, making you giggle. He loved it when you giggled. “...is you. If you ever even think for a millisecond that I don’t love you...” He started tickling your waist, making you a giggling mess. “I will murder you!” He said, voice muffled through his smile. “JJ! JJ stop it!” You screamed, still laughing.

After a minute, he finally stopped and helped you up off the bathroom floor. Suddenly he picked you up, threw you over his shoulder, and ran outside. He got to the end of the dock when you said “JJ! Put me down!” He laughed and said “Alright, if that’s what you want!” He threw you off his shoulder and into the cold water. As the water washed over you, you had an idea.

You used to swim before moving to the Outer Banks, so you could hold your breath for long periods of time. JJ didn’t know this, you had moved here at a young age but this was one of the things you remembered from your old town.

When JJ realized you hadn’t come up for a while, he didn’t hesitate in taking off his shirt and jumping in after you. He found you quickly and dragged you to the surface by your waist. When you surfaced, you let out a huge laugh.

“You are so gullible! I used to swim, I’m good at holding my breath.” You said between laughs, tears building in your eyes as you held your sides from laughing so hard. “Yeah man, you’re hella whipped.” You heard Pope say. You looked up at all the Pogues who just saw the whole encounter. They all burst out in laughter with you, including JJ.

“Okay, you got me that time.” He said. “Let’s go inside, I’m freezing!” You said. JJ pulled your shivering figure into his side. After getting to his room in the Chateau, he tossed you a pair of leggings you left there a couple days ago, your cute grey fox slippers (that you just kept in his room for some reason), and one of his shirts. You changed and brushed your hair.

As you walked back into his room, you saw him on the bed, holding his arms out with grabby hands. “I demand cuddles.” He said and you complied, getting in bed. He pulled his arms around your waist, his head nuzzled into your neck. “Awe, bubba. Look at you being all soft and needy.” you said, your hands finding the messy blond hair that you adored. “Only for you, babe.” He said, gently kissing your neck.

“I really do love you, Y/N. So fucking much.” He said, his words sincere. “I love you too, JJ.” You said, kissing his hair. And you fell asleep like that. Listening to each other’s voices, relishing the feeling of love and adoration towards the other.

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a/n: i really like how i write this! i also saw this same request on someone else’s page and i also really like how they wrote it, go give @jjsmaybcnk’s version some love! also please don’t request the exact same thing to multiple creators, it mixes ideas and makes it way more likely for copies of stories and confusion! anyways i hope you like this! i worked really hard on this <3

[spiffysixxsense]

Hello annoying best friend here to fulfill my duty by asking you to answer all of the cute asks

angel; do you have a nickname?

not really. my name is already short and I don't have a prominent quality to nickname me after. The only person who refers to me as anything other than my name is my boyfriend, but I don't think “babe/baby” really counts as a nickname lol

awe; how old are you?

24

baby; favorite color?

dark teal (blue-green? I've never found a good name for my favorite color)

bloop; spirit animal?

so because I didn't have a good answer for this, I decided to google a quiz to find out, lol. My answer was a deer. here's why;

When you have the deer as spirit animal, you are highly sensitive and have a strong intuition. By affinity with this animal, you have the power to deal with challenges with grace. You master the art of being both determined and gentle in your approach.

The deer totem wisdom imparts those with a special connection with this animal with the ability to be vigilant, move quickly, and trust their instincts to get out the trickiest situations

blossom; favorite book/movie/song?

i don't really have a favorite book, i don't read much outside of school (I wish i did)

movie: A Beautiful Mind

song: oh dear lord i cannot pick just one, but all-time favorite band of mine is Shinedown

blush; what was your stuffed animal as a child?

a little stuffed dog that looked like Kipper from the TV show, I still have him :)

breeze; most precious childhood memory?

lmao what came to mind was when i pledged to never drink, smoke, or say bad words. two out of fucking three ain't bad i guess. 

bright; mermaids or fairies?

(honestly neither but) fairies

bubbles; do you have a best friend?

given the asker, i would say yes :) also i am lame and my boyfriend is also my best friend 

buttercup; showers or baths?

S H O W E R S. hate baths!

butterfly; dream destination?

I've never had a huge desire to travel honestly. like sure i could say Italy or Greece look beautiful, but the actual act of traveling overseas really stresses me out lol. so i would have to say more like upper midwest, like Maine, in the fall time for all the pretty trees.

buttons; are you religious or spiritual?

i am neither

calm; favorite scent?

anything fruity - pineapple, mango, berries, apples. at least in terms of what candles i like lol.

candlelight; what did you dream about last night?

i do not remember anything from last night - the last dream i remember involved my boyfriend, dad and i being lost up north lol

charming; have you ever been in love?

currently 

cozy; eye/hair color?

hazel / brunette 

cuddly; what’s your favorite time period?

the 1970′s for the fashion

cupcake; favorite flower/plant?

love me a good succulent

cute; what did you get on your last birthday?

well this last birthday was amidst quarantine, so I got some candles and granola (my boyfriend knows me well lol)

cutie pie; most precious item you own?

i have no idea? what an odd question? probably some stuffed animal?

cutsie; what makes you happy?

picnics, alone time, my boyfriend, my cat choosing to cuddle with me.

daisies; describe a moment when you felt free.

I really cant think of a time I've ever felt truly free. maybe when i drove myself to school earlier this year & didn't have to wait for someone to pick me up? 

daydream; how do you want to be remembered?

as a light in others lives. happy, bubbly. things i currently am not

daylight; favorite album of all time?

gosh these dang music questions. well, Nickelback - All the Right Reasons was the first album i ever bought myself. then maybe Shinedown - The Sound of Madness (i cant pick one OKAY)

dear; zodiac sign?

Taurus 

delightful; concerts or museums?

concerts

dimples; have you ever written a letter?

yes? this question makes me feel old, lol. 

dobby; dream job?

criminologist. some way to be reducing the mass incarceration rate in the US. 

doll; how do you like to dress?

comfy, v necks and leggings. As i have gotten older i have slowly wanted to be more feminine i think, because i really want some sundresses for summer lol

dovey; any paranormal/magical experiences?

one! when i was 12ish, i swear i saw a reflection of a uniformed man (like old school soldier uniform - blue blazer with gold cufflinks) behind me in the glass of my snakes tank at the time. it was weird because the only reason i even looked that way was because my snake started shaking his tail against the glass, something that corn snakes do when they are scared, but also something that in his entire life had never done unprompted ever. 

dreams; do you want or have any tattoos?

want yes, have no

drizzle; do you believe in aliens?

100%. no way we are alone in this universe

euphoric; talk about someone you love.

he makes my days so much better :)

fairy; do you have a pet?

I have one little old kitty :)

fluffy; ocean or mountain?

to vacation, ocean. to live, mountain

forever; where do you feel time stop?

the secretary of state? lol

froglet; are you a good plant owner?

I've never owned a plant lol

garden; how many languages do you know?

one :(

gem; who are your favorite tumblrs?

@cy-ne-fin 

giggles; what is your aesthetic of choice?

sepia photography/old books that have yellowed into sepia. or fresh greenery on white marble. 

glittery; do you like anons? why/why not?

i don't really get any anymore, but as long as they are nice or just questions/venting, im down. don't be offended if i never answer though, for some reason i never get Tumblr notifications lol

glow; list the top 5 things you like about yourself

im compassionate

im empathetic (which is similar but im struggling to get to 5 lol)

im goal-oriented

im determined (once i have said goal. again, related lol) 

i guess i like my lips/lip shape

heart; silk or lace?

lace

honey; coffee or tea? how do you take it?

tea. iced, black or green really, with sugar. 

hugsy; do you enjoy people watching or bird watching more? why?

bird watching because it means i am probably alone and in nature as opposed to somewhere in a crowd of people. and i wont feel creepy for watching the birds lol

hunnybunch; what sounds help you sleep?

white noise, a fan running. if that's not enough, i enjoy asmr. if i am really struggling/having anxiety, i will look up sleep stories from the headspace app on youtube (life hack to not have to pay for the app lol)

jewel; what’s your favorite kind of weather?

to be outside, i enjoy just warm enough to be comfy in pants and a t-shirt (so like 65F-ish) and sunny.To be inside, i love when it is cooler (like 50F?) and raining. I love the look, sound, and smell of rain but it is usually just inconvenient to be in. 

jiggly; what do you usually like to do on weekends?

well now all days are the same for me, #quarantine, so the same thing i do every day, just about nothing, lol

joy; do you laugh loudly or giggle more?

i guess laugh loudly because i am a loud person in general. i have a deep voice

kinky; do you blush easily?

i don't think so, my embarrassment turns into sweat, not blush, lmao

kisses; what romantic cliché do you wish for most?

i guess being proposed to someday? but i don't have a certain dream way of it happening, just the fact that its happening is enough for me lol. id enjoy if someone (cough Elle or also maybe Michael lol) were secretly filming and/or taking photos of it? I am not sure how you'd manage that though

kitty; what’s your favorite time of the day?

late at night when everything is quiet

ladybug; what’s your favorite artist to listen to when you’re sad?

old school three days grace (one-x album in particular)

love; what is your favorite season and why?

i always gravitate to fall for the leaves and pumpkin patches. but honestly, i think my favorite season is spring. i love the newly budding trees and flowers, the feeling of renewal, the release from the horrible Michigan winter lol, but most importantly, spring time for my whole life as of yet has always meant that school is over for the semester! as opposed to the fall when the semester starts. this is very long winded but spring final answer lol

lovey; what is your favorite flavor of macaron and ice cream?

I've never had a macaron and blue moon ice cream 

magic; what are five flaws you have?

ooooo boy

im short tempered/angry too much 

im unmotivated (which is confusing maybe because i said i am determined earlier. you see, once i HAVE a goal i feel determined to finish it. but i am unmotivated to create said goals, lol) 

im nonconfrontational to a fault where i always put others’ feelings before my own

i let fear of change stop me from ever taking risks/ am anxious

i am stubborn and sometimes have a hard time admitting i am wrong

moonlight; do you prefer soft pastels, warm neutrals, or cool darks?

this depends - screw pastels. warm neutrals for makeup purposes, but cool darks for aesthetic or decor purposes

munchkin; what do you look for in your significant other?

someone who feels like home. I am not entirely sure how else to explain that. you just feel peace and content with them. 

paddywack; how would you describe a perfect date?

something that allows you to only be with your date - so like a picnic or hike or just a walk even. my boyfriend and i liked to walk around in the fall for me to take pictures of leaves while he played pokemon go (man i miss the pokemon go summer and i have never even PLAYED it, it was just so fun to be with him while he played)

pebbles; how do you spend free time by yourself?

on youtube usually

precious; what is something valuable that you learned in your life?

The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. if your family is toxic for whatever reason, you do not owe them your time strictly because they are family. 

pretty; do you like to cook or bake more?

cook, im not super into sweets & i want to enjoy the final product

prince; how would you describe your handwriting?

normal? like its legible but its not pretty or cute

princess; do you play any instruments? if not, are there any you wish you could play?

no:( wish i could play bass or drums

prinky; how do you relieve stress?

i don't :)

i really don't have an answer other than solving whatever is stressing me out, lol. i wish i had more mechanisms to calm me down but nothing i have tried has ever really worked

pumpkin; what is your favourite kind of fruit/vegetable?

you know these favorites questions are hard for me lol. right now, i am loving watermelon, but i also love most fruits. kiwis! vegetable, i feel like i have to say potato lol

rainbow; what was the last line of the last book you read?

lol the last thing i read had to be some academic text, so that's boring

roses; what is the most significant event in your life so far?

meeting Alex i guess, it changes my whole life path to have someone you want to do life with 

smile; what is one thing that has greatly affected you?

quarantine? lol

shine; art or music?

music is art.

shimmer; do animals tend to like you?

i think so. Elle’s dog griffin loves me for some reason lol

smitten; do you collect anything?

not really

smoochies; how many pillows do you sleep with?

4

snuggle; what is your favourite candy?

jolly ranchers 

snuggly; do you have a camera? if so, what kind?

nope

sparkle; do you wear jewelry?

nope

spooky; sunrise or sunset?

sunset

sprinkles; do you like to listen to music with headphones or no headphones?

headphones

starlight; what was your favourite show as a child?

Spongebob probably. unless we are talking like really tiny, toddler age, then Winnie the pooh

soft; describe your favourite spot in your house.

i live in a 2 bedroom apartment, there arent any spots. lol. my bed i guess

soothe; digital or vinyl?

i mean digital for convenience but vinyl for aesthetic 

squeezed; who do you miss right now?

i mean the only person i really actively miss ever is Alex. @cy-ne-fin sometimes, but i have also grown used to living away from each other

sugary; what traits do you value most in friends?

loyalty, honesty, & humor

sunshine; do you prefer for things to be practical or aesthetically pleasing?

if i must pick, practical. 

sweet; do you find it easy to open up?

absolutely not. i feel like a burden with my feelings even though i shouldn't 

sweetie; do you like kids? if so, do you ever want to have any?

honestly not really. am on the fence still about ever having any 

thimble; is there somebody you look up to? who are they?

not really

toot; what is something you find unique about yourself?

i am as average as they come man, nothing is unique about me lol

tootsie; what kind of friend are you?

like a background friend? like i am not very social, so we do not have to talk every day to be friends. so like im here if you need me, but i enjoy alone time. 

treasure; what was something that made you smile today?

the way my boyfriend looks at me, & as i was working on this my cat came to cuddle, which i gave as an answer earlier before he jumped up here :)

velvet; are you an early bird or a night owl?

night owlllllll

whiffle; if you could have a magical power, what would it be?

the power to heal those who are hurting (including myself)

whimsical; do you prefer doing stuff at home or going out?

home home home home

whiskers; do you usually wear makeup?

not anymore, i did in high school/early college years. not I've stopped caring

wiggly; are you a messy or tidy person?

messy? kinda in the middle really. 

wispy; do you like the place where you grew up? do you think you will live there when you get older?

my state, sure. my city in particular is definitely pretty boring

wobbly; have you ever wished upon a star?

I've never seen one :(