#overwhelmed

[theghoulboysblog]

as a person of color myself, my heart hurts especially for the people of color that will never feel safe in the watcher fandom again.

for any poc that need to hear this: i fucking LOVE YOU. i’m sorry you were made to feel like you were less or worse than. you are NOT.

[tacosaysroar]

Today’s workout with the trainer is called “Bye Bye Legs” and I’m going toward it in a very dead-man-walking kind of way. I did this workout for the first time last week and came perilously close to bursting into tears in front of the trainer and two other clients.

[lollytea]

Do I think Hunter and Willow were already talking about getting married and building a home together when they were still dumb teenagers and had been dating for less than a year? Yes, I think they were doing that.

Do I think that was a good idea? No, they probably should NOT have been doing that.

Did it work out somehow? Yes. Out of pure idiot luck, it did work out.

[phpolly]

now that it’s over can i laugh?

[itsmariejanel]

78. best friend

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Jace - Evanora!! There you are! Evanora - Jace! You startled me- Jace - Girl, where did you get that cigarette?  Evanora - … Jace - No actually, why are you smoking?  Evanora - Hey! You smoke! Jace - Not the point, not my question, miss Cordova!  Evanora - I- Nickelback! Jace - Wait, the band or the safe word?  Evanora - Huh? The safe word of course... Why would I even use it in any other wayyyy- Jace - Alrightttt, we’re gonna sit and you’re gonna tell me what’s happening-

Jace - Eva… Did something happen? Do you not wanna get married anymore? Evanora - Of course I wanna get married!! Grace is the love of my life and I wanna spend the rest of my days with her… I do! It’s just… Evanora - Jacey, I’m exhausted… The visions have been a lot lately and they’re quite… irregular? sometimes! So uhm, I’m just trying to manage all these feelings that I have right now, you know? About the future that lies ahead- And, like always, I can’t talk about it…But yeah i’m… Overwhelmed! Jace - Your type of power is a lot to deal with. You are one of a kind, literally. There is no one like you and there hasn’t been in centuries-Evanora - Jaaaaace!! I thought you were trying to help me instead of overwhelming me more?  Jace - [ smiles ] Stop being a baby and hear me out!! The thing is, you are the strongest of them all, in every way, and I see that right now that even in your pain, you tell me you can’t talk about it… I mean, you don’t break, ever- Breaking is okay, you know? Not saying you should break your Oath, but you gotta give yourself the grace to feel weak sometimes, it’s okay. It’s natural, it’s human… But we’re all here for you! You’re not alone in this and you’ve never been. I know I’m far away now, but you’re my best friend, and that will never change Eva! There’s not one thing I wouldn’t do for you, you know that right?  Evanora - Jace… 

Jace - Alright, makeup is fixed, dress isn’t burnt-  Are you ready? Evanora - Wait… Evanora - Alrighty, we’re ready!!  Jace - Wait a minute, where was the little devil all this time? Evanora - You should already know, he’s always lurking- Zeus - * purrs *

[tinyangrynerd]

Picked up the game again to finally dip my toes into the recent dlc. And i forget how much of a cluster fuck my 1st savefile is. Not that it's in a bad state, but it's just too much happening, too much everywhere. And i got nowhere to put new stuff. And it made me very stressed and angy.

Also pls..... the Bars....

[maryoliveoil]

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[befuddledcinnamonroll]

When you live on the West Coast of the U.S. and open Tumblr for the first time the day of GMMTV's livestream:

[kicktwine]

its cute how erich’s magic-tempered desire mindset was “do job save friends do job save friends” at first

[murderbees]

Programs that are in the real/user world all have sensory issues for sure

I will elaborate gladly

So on grid? Everything is data or functions, or other computer stuff. It slots into their processors like nothing because it's how they're meant to function.

There's not a lot of extraneous information being sent, it would make The Grid inefficient. There's not really air or wind, or at least, not in the same way. Things can generate force, like fans pushing out, or the insect-like wings slowing programs descent.

Surfaces are generally smooth, there's not a lot of data input from them. The gridsuits and armor are like second skins, not much sensory input there.

The programs are also connected to the operating system and Grid on a deeper level. Pings race across personal displays and queries are sent with barely a thought. There's a level of interconnectedness with everything, even the ground. ISOs felt this even more. As children of the Grid, they have even stronger links. Like a 6th sense.

In the Real/User world? oh man,

There's so much information everywhere all the time.

Everything has a texture, especially clothes. Most programs go for skin tight clothing, it's the closest to their suit as they can get. Most can't decide between running their fingers over everything or trying not to touch anything at all.

There are sounds and smells everywhere. Yeah, they're on the Grid too, but not like this. It's almost an assault. Every single thing has a smell, and they can't filter out the inputs anymore.

Taste is somewhat new. The only thing there really was to taste was energy, and while it had flavor, it generally was more conceptual in nature than physical. Energy consumption connected directly to a programs circuits, cycling through and being processed within seconds. Food feels like the opposite. Adjusting to physical food is an ordeal for every program.

The absense of Grid connections makes them all uneasy. They can't send a message with a few flicks of their fingers, no, they have to talk. They can't feel the other programs like they used to and not having a personal display makes most of them feel inefficient.

It's basically a whole new set of senses to get used to, with the loss of half your previous ones. Yeah they all have their sensory issues for sure.

[bass-alien]

gonna go into hermit mode for the next few days because I’m just feeling very stressed and anxious and I just kind of need to stay to myself rn, like I said the other day pls just send all the good vibes my way, it’s immensely appreciated

[magicbats]

im so jealous of people who can sit down and finish a sim or a house in a reasonable amount of time....... making anything takes me so long

[hwaitham]

post exam delicacies :3 🌸🍵⭐️

[istayawakereading]

I haven’t been able to watch the newest episode until today and I’ve been slowly dying but THE WAIT WAS WORTH IT THAT WAS INSANE

Kipper Lily just straight up murdering Buddy???? OISIN???? Kristen’s paranoia being the saving grace to be able to even WITNESS THAT????????????????Thats not even beginning to cover how totally and unequivocally the bad kids fucking bodied that exam

[grainlord-town]

commission info up if anyone's interested. i take robux nitro n USD via paypal

[girllbossing]

Sorry for being a bitch earlier, I needed to lay in the dark with my headphones for 3 hours to feel better