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[patricia-taxxon]

A bunch of those replies are just straight up "it's disgusting you were aroused when arousal was forced upon you". I'm really sorry to you have to deal with that shit.

they literally just don't care about survivors, i have nothing else to say

[clowngames]

Do you watch Patricia Taxxon?

It's funny you ask. I had never heard of Patricia until her newest video On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People showed up in my recommendations. Now, I'm a known enjoyer of video essays and a known enjoyer of philosophy, so this was a no-brainer for me, but it ended up being 10x more enjoyable and insightful than I was expecting.

And she filmed 90% of the essay with the camera tilted down with her sitting on the floor. It's an incredible showcase of understanding the rules of filmmaking (applied to video essays) by knowing when and how to break them.

Naturally I had to watch The Autistic Horror of Don't Hug Me I'm Scared. As a big DHMIS fan who has been consistently disappointed by the "Explained" videos even by creators that have historically understood how to analyze media like DHMIS, the title alone got my hopes up. I think this is probably the best video about DHMIS on the internet. Plus it introduced me to Jack Stauber.

Those are really the only two videos I've seen but I think I would consider myself a "viewer" at this point given that I really enjoyed both.

I'm too scared to listen to her music though.

[wolfnanaki]

Did you watch Patricia Taxxon's latest video esay? I don't know much about being a furry but that video changed a lot of assumptions I had regarding GVH. I assumed GVH wasn't "furry enough" because it didn't go all the way with the characters being humanoid dinosaurs, being pretty much humans that look weird, but it lines up with what she says about the other visual novel Echo in her video.

Yeah, I've seen it! I've been following Patricia's work - music and videos - ever since she provided tracks for Hbomberguy's video on Ctrl-Alt-Del.

And yup, I think Goodbye Volcano High does kinda tumble into accidentally being furry in the way she describes. The game's not concerned with the big worldbuilding of making it a dinosaur world in the same way Zootopia tries to justify it being a world of talking animals, so it ends up being more in line with Echo. Yet all the characters being dinosaurs is also extremely important to how they're portrayed. For example, if you know dinosaur lore, Naomi's crush makes so much sense.

It's kinda funny, I don't think GVH wasn't trying to be seminal furry work, but it kind of is anyway. The designs used are so distinct from how furries have been drawing dinosaurs for years, so for some long-time furry dino fans, they're a little off-putting. But I can totally see furry OCs of future furry generations being inspired by the GVH designs.

And I hope Patricia plays GVH someday. I wonder what she'd think of it.

[void-botanist]

Rose's Kiss Week Day 6: Home Alone

OCs: Sierra Callawel and Ian Carlisle (Spinder's oldest sister and her husband)

Words: 1189

Content warnings: none

Notes: Ian's canid form is a common raccoon dog. It is also well-known that shifting to that form makes you itchy.

When Sierra looked up from her computer, she could see the full moon hanging too-large over the faraway trees outside her window.  She’d lost track of time.  Ian would be transformed, now, and she hadn’t seen him at all.  She locked her computer and stood up.  The kids were out, so making a circuit of the house wouldn’t draw them out of their rooms and interrupt the nice night she wanted to spend alone with her husband.

“Ian?” she called as she started up the stairs.  “Where are you?”

She heard a mournful squeaky-toy noise from somewhere down the hall and smiled to herself as she went to find the source of it.  When she flipped on the light in her bedroom, she got a louder and angrier squeak from the bed, where a golden brown and black fluff of a dog was burying his little face under his front paws.

“Sorry,” she said, going to turn on her bedside lamp before turning off the overhead light.  He didn’t raise his head until she sat down on the side of the bed, and then he tried to crawl in her lap immediately.

Laughing, she held him back gently and got fully onto the bed, leaning back against the headboard before she let him snuffle his way into her space.  He seemed content to put his paws across her legs and rest his head on them, but she scooped him up all the way, holding him close against her.  His response was to put his paws on her arm and set his head there instead.  He was probably just tired after transforming, but he always looked so cute and sad in his dog form, and it made her want to hug him tighter.  So she did, pressing her cheek to the top of his fuzzy little head and then kissing him there.  He let out a longer squeak, stretching his neck out further, and as she petted his head she followed his gaze to the brush he’d set out for her.  Oh, of course.  Grabbing it was a bit of a stretch, and she almost dumped him out of her arms accidentally, but once it was in her hand she settled him in her lap and began running it through his fur in long strokes, head to rump.  Instantly he was a dog-shaped puddle in her lap, his only reaction little snuffles of pleasure.  

When she paused to pull out the mat of hair that had collected in the brush, he rolled over onto his back, cradled in her crossed legs.  She scratched behind his ears while she drew the brush along the contours of his ribcage and haunches and arms.  He didn’t even tense as she carefully brought it over his neck and chin.  As soon as she set the brush aside, though, he was getting back out of her lap, jumping down onto the floor with a cacophony of clicking nails and pausing in the doorway to look back at her.  She smiled and followed him back downstairs to the kitchen, where he waited by the table while she got their dinner out of the fridge: sliced chicken, lentils, and a touch of cranberry sauce.  For him, at least.  She could have as much as she wanted.  His was already in a bowl, so once she pried off the lid she set it in front of him on the floor.  He wagged his tail but didn’t move.  While she made her own plate from the main bowls of food, she saw him bend down and sniff his bowl, his eyes never leaving her.  

“You can start without me,” she said.  

He made a sound somewhere between a shriek and a growl and sat straight again. With a laugh she returned the food bowls to the fridge and brought her plate to the table.  

“Blessed be the fruits of the earth, and us among them,” she said, and he squeaked out the same cadence before shoving his face in his bowl.  She ate with half an eye on him inhaling his food, mostly because his enthusiasm was adorable.  

On the way back to bed she carried him up the stairs, letting him jump down on the bed before she got into her pajamas.  He didn’t stay on the bed, though, since she had to go to the bathroom to brush her teeth and he apparently had the energy now to not let her leave his sight.  He brushed against her ankles where she stood in front of the sink, hopped in the bathtub, and started rolling around on the textured treads on the bottom of it.  That was why he was accompanying her.  He’d told her before that there was something sublime about the feeling of the bathtub treads specifically that he really couldn’t explain.  He didn’t feel that way about them in human form.  She didn’t care as long as he didn’t leave his fur in the tub, though she was often the one who cleared it out to take a shower anyway.  But it was worth it to see him being so happy in there.  When she left the bathroom, he followed, and she scooped him back onto the bed.  He curled up right next to her while she read her book for a bit.  After she turned out the light, he yipped along with her presleep prayer, and she gave him a last pet on the head before relaxing into the dark.

At the crack of dawn the sudden weight on the bed woke her.  In the light that sifted around the edges of the curtains she could see Ian, now fully human, getting under the covers.  He turned his back to her—he might not even remember that his transformation always woke her up—but she came over to him anyway, putting a hand on his side as she kissed his shoulder.  When he shifted onto his back, she kissed his scratchy cheek, then gave him a peck on the lips before leaning back on her elbow to look at him.  There was always something a little canine about him to her, but it was stronger when he’d just come back—the way he blinked at her like a sleepy dog melded with the way he still smelled of fur.  And it was his smell, because he smelled the same if she met him in the middle of the hallway, or raiding the fridge downstairs.  After he took a shower it would fade, but for now she breathed it deeply.  She could never explain it to anyone but him, but these were the hours when he smelled most like himself, like her Ian.    

His hand slipped into the curls at the back of her head, guiding her into a deeper kiss.  She wrapped an arm around his warm chest as he smoothed his other hand over her shoulder.  He kissed her a second time, then ever so gently pushed her away.  

“Okay, I’m sleeping now,” he said with a tired smile.

She caressed his cheek, then laid back on her side of the bed.  “Goodnight.”

RKW taglist: @jezifster @kk7-rbs @vacantgodling

Shifters taglist: @outpost51 @kk7-rbs

[grenadineghost]

i love very long songs by trans women that end in harsh noise mixed with birdsong that create a sense of ascendance

[femboyfertility]

in response to not feeling gay enough: maybe you should spend some time away from the community and do some self-reflection. i'm not one of those people who thinks being gay or trans is a choice but the environment you're in has a big effect on how you see yourself.

This is true!!! The environment someone is in can convince themselves of things that are or aren't true. Introspection is very important and I've been trying to look at myself and see what I like and don't like. What I am and what I'm not.

I've thought a little bit about it since I made that post and honestly figured that my identity and my sexuality are just too complex to put labels on. I'm not anything gendered but I'm also a man, and I like to be everywhere in terms of expression. But I'm also not a man all of the time, if I'm even human, which clearly I have to be even if I don't feel like it. There's so many facets that it's too complicated to fit into anything.

For my sexuality, I love so many types of people but all in different ways at different times that I can't settle into one thing. I like everyone, but in what way is incomprehensible. Am I gay? In the umbrella term, sure, but am I truly? Romantic and sexual attraction are so hard to differentiate that it's near impossible to distinguish, so I can't just say I'm "xyzsexual and xyzromantic", and even the grey areas and ace spectrum don't seem to fit me in that well either.

So for the time being. I'm just running under Unlabelled since at least that "label" doesn't define me by something that doesn't fit me right.

[absinthe-and-alabaster]

character opinion bingo patricia taxxon? is that allowed?

i feel like trying to apply the majority of the boxes from that character bingo to a real person would be a little strange. but i will say im a huge fan, love her music especially, and i also think her video avatar puppy is a pretty good design

[megafawna-permhiatus]

OMG YOU LIKE PATRICIA TAXXON TOO...YES YES YES. whats ur fave album Foley Artist and Little Spoon r my faves [SMILEY FACE]

OGMGMGG I DO!!!!!! my favs are probably . . . .. . . . .little spoon, gloria , &pix & bit . .. . foley artist is such a good album 2 THOUGH!!!! u have GOOD TASTE!!!

[bryng]

Have you seen the patricia taxxon marble blast video? If you haven’t I definitely recommend it if you like those games :)

i have!!! it's what originally set me off on my love on rolling ball games, though i had a few from childhood that really cemented my love for them upon looking back (shout-out to mercury hg, game of the century)

[ruthytwoshakes]

HEY SO SO SO SO WOMEN !!!!!!!!!!!! @friendlyengie made this kick ass au!! It’s fem fortress but with actual characters rather than gender bends,, most creative thing I’ve seen all month awaga so epic. Might have gone a little feral in the asks,, very sorry I just got very excited and then got very embarrassed so sorry will not happen again maybe

ANYWAY I DREW THEM AND PLAN TO DRAW MORE HERE YOU GO

augh I don’t know what a boston is I hope I did the accent okay ooo

also that’s mean scout’s ma,, poor scout lmao

they are NOT on good terms and I am ACTUALLY PLANNING AN AMV TO OVRIJSSEL BY PATRICIA TAXXON WITH THEM!!!!! Go listen to it it fits them perfectly

Ex-Wife medic is doing the thing that toddlers do when they try to escape getting put in a car seat

As individuals in case if anybody needed that

A SKETCH I PLAN ON FINISHING!!!! I have no idea how skates work hhhhhhh

Also I love spy x ma I think it is very cute and I like to think they have a very healthy marriage,, you can thank @thetriggeredhappy and their series Running Blind for that lol. Go check it out,, even if you aren’t a speedingbullet fan the writing is so fucking good and they way they wrote scout and his family ahhhhhhhhhhh I cannot wait for the next chapter <33333

There will be more soon. Heheheh

[patricia-taxxon]

I am just wondering if it’s wise to defend your stance in this way. This site is rife with people who are fully invested in the notion of thought crimes, immoral & irredeemable feelings, ideas, notions, fictions and fantasies and an essentialist view of morality focused on inner virtue and not actions. As you know, this is both on issue on the left and the right.

You are in your right to express yourself, but I hope you do know that this is a debate you can’t win, at least not on here. Your opponents have an essentially puritan interpretation of morality. So, to them it’s a moral crusade to convert or erase.

I am saying this because I saw a post about your mental health improving. Dealing with mental illness myself, I get that expression can invigorating, but I am distrustful of discourse to have beneficial effects to that process. So yeah, maybe keep that in mind.

Take care.

You're right. I got kind of caught up in trying to defend myself before I realized none of them actually saw me as an authentic being to begin with, and then it was just inertia. I'm fragile, defensive and combative to a fault. sorry for repeatedly putting this shit on all your pages, I won't reblog it anymore.

[clowngames]

Don’t listen to techdog 6

I know this is about Patricia Taxxon's music but for a solid few seconds I lived in a world where a tumblr user named techdog 6 was typing up cryptic instructions that would doom us all and you had to intercept before it was too late

[janmisali]

do you have plans / the ability to put your caramelldansen remix on bandcamp? i know it's a bit finnicky with things like covers so i understand if not but i wanted to ask cause i really like it :-)

it's not my caramelldansen remix, it was made by patricia taxxon and jules

[goosemixtapes]

max's favorite short stories & articles!

to be updated as i read new things! "articles" could be anything from political points to philosophical musings to fascinating stories. obligatory statement that i don't necessarily agree with everything in every one of these stories/articles, but i think about them a lot and want to share :)

short stories

Avi Cantor Has Six Months To Live by Sacha Lamb (@kuttithevangu) (novella) (so says the writing on the bathroom mirror. of gender & judaism & magic and t4t trans guys. cw for suicidal ideation and bullying)

Epistolary by Sascha Lamb ("The [stuffed] frog you are selling on your blog is MINE and he is NOT HAUNTED and his name is MOSHE not BILLY HOPPER.")

Chokechain by Andrew Joseph White (a trans man discovers his parents have replaced him with a robot version of his pretransition self. cw for transphobia and violence)

Sandrine by Alexandra Munck (the tagline for this one is "I dated a sun god in college" but that doesn't do justice to the sheer concept here please read this)

The Traveler Wife by yves. @yvesdot (an astronaut writes to the wife she left back home)

You Wouldn't Have Known About Me by Calvin Gimpelevich (set in a hospital ward where patients are recovering from gender-confirming surgery)

No Flight Without the Shatter by Brooke Bolander (novella) ("After the world’s end, the last young human learns a final lesson from Earth’s remaining animals." cw for climate change/extinction)

And You Shall Know Her By The Trail Of Dead by Brooke Bolander (what if you had to death-match-fight a virtual version of yourself at your meanest made by your boyfriend whose life you're trying to save would that be fucked up or what. cws for guns and violence)

Hell is the Absence of God by Ted Chiang (stories that clock you in the fucking teeth in the religious trauma.)

A Serpent for Each Year by Tamara Jerée (microfiction) ("Our relationship is almost a year old when I ask Nal why she is covered in snakes." cw for animal death)

The Front Line by W.C. Dunlap (microfiction) (cited as one of the world's finest attention-grabber openings. cws for police brutality, racism, and SA)

Welcome to Your Authentic Indian Experience by Rebecca Roanhorse (step into the simulation and gain an authentic experience! cws for anti-Native racism and alcohol)

articles & essays

Lockhart's Lament (on how math is taught in schools. that is, badly. one of the most cathartic essays i've ever read on education)

Against Cop Shit by Jeffrey Moro (on adversarial education)

I Am A Transwoman. I Am In The Closet. I Am Not Coming Out. by Jennifer Coates (do you have to be out to be a woman? cw for transphobia, homophobia, and eating disorders)

Debunking "Trans Women Are Not Women" Arguments by Julia Serano (comprehensive, well-written, good to have as a reference point)

On Liking Women by Andrea Long Chu (and on the politics of desire)

Turning a Unicorn Into a Bat by Josh and Lolly Weed (on Mormonism, love, and whether a gay man and a straight woman can marry happily. cw for homophobia)

Laziness Does Not Exist by Devon Price (musings on motivation from a social psychologist and professor)

How Millennials Became the Burnout Generation by Anne Helen Peterson (how come everything happens so much?)

White Women Drive Me Crazy by Aisha Mirza (on the harm caused by white women. cw for racism)

Everything You Know About Obesity Is Wrong by Michael Hobbes (should be required reading for everyone at this point. cw for fatphobia and eating disorders)

Becoming Anne Frank by Dara Horn (on the cultural fascination with Anne Frank. cw for antisemitism)

The Ecstasy of Influence by Jonathan Lethem ([on/a] plagiarism)

On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People by Patricia Taxxon (video essay) (ostensibly what the title says, but actually a detailed musing on the essential properties of furry media and the freedom of dehumanization; changed my life a bit)

[foxtail-pip]

We welcome you to Echo - fanart for Patricia Taxxon

My Lykos sent an ask to my current favourite music artist Patricia Taxxon (@patricia-taxxon ) about her favourite character in the furry visual novel Echo, here is the finished piece of you and your husband Carl, hope you like! I tried to style it like a postcard for the town. Tumblr will probably compress the image, but if you open it up the detail should be clear!

[alicedyerappreciator]

on human animals and animal humans. (reposted school essay)

Humans navigate the boundary between humanity and animality and where we draw the line of personhood.  We allow some animals to cross the boundary and become persons, and some humans intentionally cross the boundary and become animals. When humans cross into animality, they may look at the boundary of personhood from a different side – the animals become persons, and humans unpersons. In ‘Grizzly Man’, Herzog (2005) presents the idea that Timothy Treadwell retreated into the animal kingdom to avoid his ‘human’ problems. Patricia Taxxon (2023) proposes using the identity of an animal to reclaim the dehumanisation of being marginalised.

Living with bears is made to parallel Timothy changing his name and lying about his heritage – a way to reinvent himself. He seemed to refer to himself as on the bears' side, wanting to “mutually mutate into a wild animal” (Herzog, 2005). There is also a continuous reflection on his lack of connection to ‘the human world’, particularly his struggles with women. One could argue that the reason he died is because he went back to the bears after being rejected by the human world (getting into an argument with an airline employee). But this wasn’t about the bears. In his retreat into working with bears to avoid his problems, he did it for his own gain and still maintained anthropocentric beliefs. Instead of seeing humanity as uniquely special, he saw himself as uniquely special, able to defend and help bears with a problem they barely needed help with (the documentary emphasises that poaching was not a big problem in that region) (Herzog, 2005). Sven Haakkanson argues Treadwell’s self-centred ‘help’ may have put the bears in more danger, as it familiarised the bears with humans (Herzog, 2005).

Animality can be retreated to in more ways than just leaving to live in the wilderness. In her video ‘On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People’, Taxxon discusses her relationship to furry identity as an autistic person. She notes the dehumanisation of people who display autistic traits (particularly children) and how comparisons to animals have been used to dehumanise a multitude of marginalised groups – like the positioning of Jewish people as mice or rats in anti-Semetic propaganda to frame them as vermin (Taxxon, 2023). For her, furry identity (engaging with an anthropomorphised animal state and portraying animal traits) is a way of reclaiming this dehumanisation. To see non-human animals as people is to see humans dehumanised into being animalistic as people. As she says “I was treated like a failed human my entire life and […] my response was to become a dog”. But being a furry does not mean seeing yourself as the same as non-human animals in the way Treadwell tried to be (Taxxon, 2023 ; Herzog, 2005). There is an acknowledgement of the human body's limitations (Taxxon asks us to imagine the tail that is wagging) and there is no idea that being a furry makes someone uniquely capable of understanding or engaging with animals (Taxxon, 2023). Once again, it is a retreat into animalism that comes from a human perspective and responds to human problems.

Retreating into animalism is often done for human reasons, and I wonder if connection with animals is even possible through these means. Will we always be just humans in animal costumes?

Bibliography:

Grizzly Man (2005). United States : Discovery Docs, Real Big Production .

Taxxon, P. (2023) On the ethics of Boinking Animal People, YouTube. Available at: https://youtu.be/ws9g3igw51s?si=5_76TYhrHesSrxJx (Accessed: 09 February 2024).