Your tags, tho. I'm having gentle feelings for them.
I love thinking about the Corruption, especially in relation to Martin and it being him that Jane targets. And yeah, sure, he was there in Vittery's basement and Tim and Sasha weren't, but he’s also a person who, as Elias meanly points out like a big meanie, often shows great devotion and loyalty to people who don't really deserve it (sorry Jon, you'll get there, but at this point you're still a jerk).
When the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally (ie your parents) not only put conditions on that love but ones you're never going to meet no matter how hard you try, it's gotta warp your idea of what love even is. Can't really earn someone's love if they already hate you for something vastly out of your control.
Obviously The Lonely comes along and Martin chooses isolation, but there has to have been a point when he was alone in his flat for two weeks, assuming that no one had noticed he was missing or if they had they didn't care enough to check on him, where he heard The Corruptions song and thought it was for him, thought it sounded beautiful and thought it would be better to be loved by something horrific and poisonous than be loved by no one at all.
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I'm not able to @ the grbookworm1881 "spambot" account or Tumblr search it, so it may be set to private?
A shame, it's one of those things you wanna share with your friends, and let them click the profile link on their own.
Omg you're right, it's not available. I sort of want to share but idk if the creator would appreciate it? The video only has 36 views on YouTube and I'm pretty sure I'm like 4 of those. Anyways I do want people that did get the follower to click the link.
Though I did share with my friend that isn't on tumblr. Lol.
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It's 8:30 in the morning, I've only had one cup of coffee and I am chewing the walls over your tags on the time travel post! 😭 I just think s1 Jon needs a little kiss on the head.
Jon sulking in his office, wondering why it even matters if his assistants like him or not, this is his job, he's here to work not to make friends, he doesn't even care if they all like his future self more than they like him.
But he's in here, alone, stewing about it so obviously he cares a little bit.
And why wouldn't they like him better, he's confident and competent and so secure in himself, plus he might have...super powers, or something? Obviously they would prefer that kind of Jon to the mess they're stuck with now.
He doesn't care, it doesn't matter, he isn't even thinking about it.
He's just debating whether or not to get on with things and record another statement or sneak outside for a stress-smoke when his office door opens and slams closed again, and Martin stares at him sheepishly.
"Sorry, I know you're busy, I just need somewhere to hide from your future self for a second-oh...no offense."
"Oh," Jon says softly, surprised. "N-none taken. He's ah...slightly insufferable, isn't he?"
"Slightly?" Martin starts to sit down on the other side of Jon's desk, and then freezes, eyeing Jon nervously as if expecting to be ordered out of the room. Jon gives the chair a jerky nod, and Martin sinks down the rest of the way. "He's kind of doing my head in, to be honest. He keeps...staring at me with his...laser vision."
A very undignified snort of laughter bursts out of Jon, and Martin stares at him in shock, before a hesitant smile lights his own face.
"You know what I mean though? Like he's...I don't know, trying to set you on fire with his mind or something?"
"I'm fairly certain that isn't one of his powers," Jon says, although he supposes it's possible. That's concerning - the archives don't have sprinklers and there's an awful lot of dry paper in here. "You don't think..." Jon hesitates; he should tell Martin to get back to work, to stop wasting Jon's time and his own, that Jon-from-the-future might be...unnerving, but he's full of information that can almost certainly help them.
He doesn't, because it turns out...good lord...he does care whether his assistants like him or not, even Martin.
"What?" Martin prompts, gently.
"You don't think he's...I don't know...he seems to know what he's doing? He's very..." Jon chews his lip thoughtfully. Confident? Powerful? The opposite of a person mid-nervous breakdown over a promotion he doesn't deserve to a job he has no idea how to do? There's no way to end that sentence that doesn't rip something mortifying out of Jon and hold it up for Martin to see, to judge him for.
Martin huffs.
"Smug?" He suggests. "Pompous? Full of himself? Kind of a self-righteous muppet?"
Jon laughs again, properly this time, and tries to ignore the flood of relief suddenly warming his chest.
"He's trying to help," he says, not sure why he's half-heartedly defending the future self he kind of hates, and ignoring the little voice at the back of his mind saying he just wants Martin to keep calling him names.
"I mean...he is helping, a bit, when you get him to stop talking in stupid riddles. Sasha and Tim are taking it in turns to talk to him."
"They...uh...they don't like him either?"
"No! Tim said he was creepy and Sasha-" He stops, and pulls a face. "Sorry, I shouldn't be...I mean...he's you, isn't he? Sort of? I feel like I shouldn't be telling you that we keep taking it in turns to hide from your future self."
"I...well...he's...one possible version of me, I suppose. We're not the same person, not yet."
"Hopefully you never will be," says Martin, with surprising force. Jon thinks of all the horrifying things that happened to his future self to make him what he is, and somewhere deep inside Jon is a little fluttering feeling at the thought of Martin wanting to protect him from it. Hmm.
"Hey," says Martin, pulling Jon back into reality and away from the dangerous precipice of introspection. "He said - the um, the other Jon - he said he needed to get some work done by himself later, some stuff he doesn't want us to know about yet. We were going to go to the pub for some lunch - just get out of here for a little bit...you fancy it?"
Jon stares at him for a second, deliberating. They do this every so often, the three of them - when the weather brightens up and they feel like getting out of the basement into some natural light, or when one of them has had to deal with a particularly gruesome statement, or when Elias has been into the Archives twice in one morning. They used to invite Jon; Tim would poke his head into Jon's office and ask if he fancied a pint or a pub lunch or some fresh air and natural light. After weeks or Jon saying no, they eventually gave up.
Martin raises his eyebrows, and gives Jon a little, lop-sided smile; it brings out a little dimple in his left cheek.
There's something about Martin that sets Jon on edge - always has, from the beginning, all the way back to the thing with the dog. No one is this nice, this gentle and persistent in caring about someone who definitely doesn't deserve it...and kindness has always sat awkwardly inside Jon, unfamiliar and aching.
But...he's just sitting here, in Jon's office, patient and unhurried and offering Jon yet more kindness. And he thinks future Jon is a smug git.
"Yes," he says, eventually. "Why not?"
As they pile out of the institute and into the tentative sunlight, Sasha takes a big deep breath and Tim slings an arm around Jon's shoulder.
"Finally, an hour of freedom with the Jon that's only a little bit insufferable," he says, but he gives Jon a bit of a squeeze as he says it, and when they arrive at the pub Sasha puts a pint of Guinness in front of him without having to ask what he wants, and Martin nags him into ordering something substantial for lunch, and for the first time since he stepped into the archives weeks ago and had to force down a panic attack, they feel almost like a team, almost like they're friends, and Jon feels something close to safe.
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Please go off on us about Jude Perry. She doesn't get enough love horrified screams on my dash. 🔥
I have absolutely no intelligent thoughts about her other than I’m a lesbian and I love an unhinged lesbian.
That said, I think she’s just very compelling as a character, maybe because I think a lot about the entire “setting yourself on fire to keep others warm”, so it’s just so incredible sexy that she sets herself on fire to keep herself warm.
There is something so freeing about getting to see a woman being absolutely unhinged and definitely in the role of a villain but never really evil?????
Like don’t get me wrong, she’s definitely not a good guy and I know she’s causing suffering just cus, but it just seems like she’s just doing it for fun you know? She’s just causing desolation and devastation because that’s what she is.
Same reason Helen keeps playing with team archive, Jude is just so much less subtle about it.
Idk, I just love a woman who sees a problem and lights it on fire.
That’s all.
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