#personally I like the bottom two as in I'd be most likely to participate in them

[birdmenmanga]

excellent point!!

Prompt Week - 7 days, 14 simple prompts (2 per day). you know the drill. general is just going to be about the series at large, ship-focused is probably going to be takaeishi week electric boogaloo

Collaboration (Artswap) - Participants are paired up randomly in order to work on a single creation together. Traditionally it's a single illustration in which one person does the lines and the other does the colors, but you could also do other things like "one person scripts and colors a comic, and the other person does the linework" or "two writers pass a single google doc between them like a hot potato and they write alternating paragraphs" etc.

Podfic Challenge - A podfic is essentially an audiobook of a fanfiction. Either write and podfic a birdmen fanfiction, or ask for an author's permission to podfic (a portion of) a fic. You can get fancy, like adding sound effects or backing music, or just keep it simple and record something on your phone. Nice because it doesn't require you to create something in the traditional sense and is also a way to show appreciation to past fic writers. Not nice depending on how self-conscious you are about your voice.

Not My Medium Challenge - Create a fanwork in a medium you've never worked with extensively. For example, for myself, I'd consider illustrations, sequential art, meta essays, fanfiction, and music videos as mediums that I've worked in extensively, so I'd focus on other things such as meme compilations, music compositions, podfics, video essays, gifsets and edits, among infinite possibilities.

Draw A Comic Month - 4-week event with one week dedicated to scripting, storyboarding, linework, and colors/toning each. A comic can be as simple as a 2-panel comic to something as complex as a 30-page manga. This is one time where my comics advice is going to be ENTIRELY FREE OF CHARGE. I am going to sit in the birdmen discord at regular times throughout this event and do my best to make the comic of your dreams happen (guy who is obsessed with sequential art voice)

the collaboration is a COMMITMENT whereas the rest are things you can opt in and out at any moment. ok now go hog wild with the votes and let me know your bonus thoughts in the tags

[kassiekole22]

At First Sight

Pairing: Syzoth X Fem!Reader Description: On a mission to cause a great diversion, Syzoth gets distracted when he lays eyes on a gorgeous woman who sits all alone at one of her family's biggest festivals.  Warnings: None... Word Count: 508 A/N: I'm sorry this turned out so short. I didn't know how far I could go with this, especially since I wrote the first fic before watching the game. So I tried to keep the reason he was there discreet so it would make sense for both my story and the canon story. But I'd be willing to do a part two where it fits in with the canon storyline, if that's what you guys want. Anyway, more Syzoth x Fem!Reader requests are coming soon. 💚 Main MasterList: 🖤 Kassie's Angels: @lorebite, @mornandil, @bihansthot, @katiralovely, @queenkhepri, @blackbunnymayw, @simpforhotmaskedmen, @theleftkittycollection, @kiashines. (If you want to be added to the taglist, let me know in the comments! 🖤)

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As soon as my feet touched the shingles of the roof, I was on the run. I scurried across as fast as I could before stopping at the very edge and looking below to see if I had been noticed. Fortunately, everyone was too busy enjoying their time at some festival the royals had thrown. Everyone danced and mingled with each other without a single care disturbing their perfect night. For a moment, I pondered what it would be like if I was able to do that with my people — to be one with them once again — but I knew that would never happen; that was just the sad truth.

I shook myself out of my moment of reflection before turning back to my mission, since this was clearly no time to be taking my mind away from it. So I waited and watched on the rooftop, studying everything below me and trying to decide where and when it would be best to cause my diversion. Everybody was heavily distracted with dancing and talking with their friends and family so I decided that now was the best time to make my first move, but then my eyes landed upon someone different.

A young girl — dressed in a beautiful (favorite color) dress with her hair done all up — sat alone with a rather melancholy expression etched on her features. In fact, she seemed to have no desire to participate in her people's antics at all. She looked too rich to be a normal lower-class person like the others surrounding her, so I figured she was a part of the royal family. But what I didn't understand was why she seemed so down and... Alone.

It was a moment that I was grateful that one of my Zaterran abilities was brilliant sight, so I could see every detail of her — the way her eyebrows turned up due to sorrow, her pink lips forming a straight line until she sucked her bottom lip between her teeth, her beautiful (E/C) eyes twinkling under the lanterns' light — she truly was a sight to behold.

I watched her patterns for a moment — watched how she slowly brought her drink to her lips every minute or so and how she nervously played with the few strains of hair that fell gracefully over her shoulder. It was as if everything she did — even the most natural things known to her kind — were done in the most beautiful way. I could feel my heart beating faster and faster by the second and then when I got that burning desire to be near her and never far from her presence, I realized that she was the one. I just had to have her all to myself.

I wanted to learn more about her; I had to… Soon. But for the time being, I had to finish my mission. It was too important to let anything distract me from it, no matter how beautiful the distraction may be. Maybe once the fire is out and the smoke is cleared, I'll see the beauty once again.

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[sparklepocalypse]

Last week everyone was like, “good thing AO3 doesn’t do a ‘your year in review’ thing like Spotify!” and this week we’re all like “anyway here’s my 2023 AO3 year in review!” So. Anyway, here’s my AO3 year in review -- thanks to @anincompletelist for the tag! Open tag — if you wanna participate, do it! If you don’t, don’t; I’m not the boss of you.

Check it out under the jump:

2023 by the Numbers

Published Words: 123,740 since the RWRB movie pulled me kicking and screaming out of a semi-permanent fic writing hiatus in late September 2023. (Yeah. All those words in essentially one quarter of the year. I am bonkers.)

Published Stories: 37, all in the Red, White & Royal Blue movie fandom -- 22 of them are also tagged with the RWRB book because I kept character descriptions vague enough that readers could self insert whatever characteristics they wanted. All of them are Alex/Henry (be still my little ‘shipping heart).

Unpublished Words: 28,113 and counting in the Big Giant AU (KHIX). I have no other WIPs with actual story written in them, currently, but I do have a to-do list that’s 33 ideas with various levels of detail long.

Most Recent Drops

Sip You Like Cosmic Juice [rated E, 3,122 words] inspired by @orkazh-arts’ rugby!Henry piece. What if RWRB, but Henry plays rugby instead of polo? Alex POV at the charity sporting event. Oral sex, banter, and Henry’s thighs.

So I Will Weather the Storm [rated E, 9,804 words] my RWRB Advent fic. What if RWRB, but Henry's a helicopter rescue pilot in the RAF and Alex falls off a mountain? Oral sex, anal sex, Christmas. One of my favorites!

I'd Wanna Be Felled By You, Held By You [rated E, 2,310 words] my take on what happens when Alex lets Henry borrow his clothes at the lake house. Oral sex, making out against walls, anal sex, possessiveness.

On My Mind (Let's Go) [rated E, 10,751 words] my NYE fix-it fic where Henry boxes out Green Dress Girl, seduces Alex with dance, and gets his damn kiss (and more). Oral sex, anal sex, anal fingering, Henry’s ballroom lessons. One of my favorites!

Top 5 By Kudos

What's Symbiotic Will Always Be [rated E | 2,622 words | 1,157 kudos] The one where Henry develops a breeding kink. Out of all of my Kinktober fics, this one is the most qualified to be called absolute filth. God I love this fandom.

Take it Down Low / Make Me Get High [rated E | 2,092 words | 971 kudos] The one that’s been described by at least one person as “that rimming fic.” Again, you degenerates are fabulous.

In the Low Lamp Light, I Was Free [rated E | 3,156 words | 750 kudos] The one in which Alex bottoms for the first time in Paris, because there are two condom wrappers. Now we’re getting into my genre: porn with feelings.

I'd Wanna Be Felled By You, Held By You [rated E | 2,310 words | 670 kudos] The one in which possessive Alex really likes Henry wearing his clothes. One of my more recent ones and one of my favorites.

On My Mind (Let's Go) [rated E | 10,751 words | 601 kudos] The one in which Henry gets his New Year’s Eve kiss (and then some).

My Favorites Published in 2023

Only including fics that don't appear in either of the other sections above, so I don't clog up your dash with the same link multiple times here...

Bloom [series | rated M/E | 7,655 words] the fandom’s first sex pollen ‘verse on AO3 (unless someone wrote some without tagging it; I checked more than once!).

This is Holy Ground (The Flesh I'm Made Of) [rated E | 3,491 words] the fic in which Alex is a god who’s new to the whole deity business, and Henry is his acolyte.

Down On My Knees; Wanna Take You There [rated E | 7,787 words] the Renaissance Faire AU with glory holes and Pancake, the best horse in the universe.

If We're Caught in a Wave (I Will Carry You Over) [rated E | 5,944 words] the fandom’s first tentacle porn fic (again, unless someone wrote it without tagging it, as with the sex pollen). Alex is Alex and Henry is a cecaelia — AKA octoHenry.

Slide, Crawl into the Shades of Light [rated E | 4,851 words] the fic in which Henry has a bad week and asks Alex to overstimulate him into oblivion.

Amazed at How We Talk (Once, Successfully) [rated E | 8,782 words] the fic in which Henry and Alex don’t get hit by a cake, and Alex goes on Grindr at Buckingham Palace — AKA the harlot flat fic.

Blame My Poor Romantic Mind for the Mess We Made [rated E | 1,570 words] the fic in which Henry writes poetry on Alex’s naked body and then tops him.

A Few Other Stats & Facts About My Fic

Which RWRB canon did I lean on? Well, it should be no surprise to any of you that I’m an RWRB movie writer if you read the first chunk of this post. 100% of my RWRB fics published in 2023 are tagged with the movie fandom, while 59% of them are also tagged with the book fandom because I kept details vague enough that they could fit with either canon. I did not post a single RWRB fic that was tagged with only the book fandom. (And here’s my secret: I’m always picturing the movie characters when I write fic in this fandom. Always.)

What was my ratings spread? of the 37 fics I published in 2023, 2 were teen and up, 1 was rated mature, and the other *thirty-four fics* were explicit.

Where did my titles come from? All but one of my fic titles were sourced from song lyrics; the remaining title was pulled from a love letter written by Herman Melville to Nathaniel Hawthorne. I also put together a Spotify playlist for my Kinktober title songs.

What did I listen to while writing? A lot of M83 while writing plot and dialogue — enough that it put me into the top 0.5% of M83 listeners on Spotify for 2023. I also listened to the playlist Songs I’d respectfully get railed to while writing smut.

Canon-compliant or AU? While I’ve written a few things that are completely canon-compliant (missing/expanded scenes mostly), I’m a sucker for both AUs and canon-divergent fics!

Things I'm Hyped for in 2024

The Big Giant AU (KHIX): I’ve been working on this since September, but then Kinktober happened, and then Kinktober burnout happened, so I only recently started plugging away at it regularly. It’s going to be long. It will make people ugly cry. It will make people giggle. It will probably make people [redacted]. It’s already 28k words long, and I’m nowhere near finished. This will not be published until the first draft is complete, because I know me and abandoning WIPs.

Hanahaki AU: I’ve never written this trope but I love it and I need to do it. The end.

Runaway Prince: Henry runs away. Alex finds him. More to come. (Them to come as well.)

More in the Ren Faire, sex pollen, harlot flat (no cakegate), and octoHenry AUs.

And a few movie AUs and one-shot ideas I've got up my sleeve.

[drawthiere]

hello!

so, as is observable from my reaction to the news about tumblr and midjourney, i'm in a bit of a doomer mindset about the whole situation. i kinda left it a bit unclear as to where this blog would go from here, so i just thought i'd clarify~

i will not be deleting this blog, nor will i be deleting all of my posts-- but i think i will stop posting on here for the foreseeable future. life is kind of getting me down a lot already, and the prospect of continuing to make and post art in an environment where people's works are treated with increasingly less respect isn't something that has any appeal to me anymore, especially since i'm kind of struggling with drawing enough as is.

perhaps if my relationship with art improves or if i become more of a prolific artist then i might return to posting regularly on socials, but as it stands, i don't see much of a point in posting. my activity is infrequent enough anyways, so i don't think it will particularly matter if i stop LMAO

so, with that being said, i don't really have any 'here's where you can find me' links, save for these two

i will still participate in art fight yearly and i still stream art on twitch occasionally (though i might have my gamer arc on there eventually)

i'm not leaving the site (i still have my main and my selfship blog), but if you're interested in exclusively my art, that's all i have to offer, sorry ;w;

also: about people who say 'just glaze/nightshade your art!' i know this is a lazy opinion, but like, if i have to run my art through a bazillion different filters and programs and websites on the off chance it might make it poison to AI, i won't lie... i just don't think it's worth the effort. same with slapping a big ugly watermark on all of my art. like, what is even the point at that point

this isn't to say that artists shouldn't be doing those things-- please protect yourself and your works if you are willing and able! but i am just a rather defeatist person.

and i also know that my D tier artstyle isn't the kind of thing that is usually pulled to train on anyways, but the bottom line is that this whole situation is the last straw on an activity (art) that has been steadily demoralizing to me for years already. i don't want even the slightest possibility of contributing more to this shitty craze than i already have (unwillingly, considering data has probably been scraped already in years past). if i draw, it will exclusively be for myself, or as gifts for others

maybe i will change my mind about all of this one day- but honestly, my art pace already has slowed to an absolute crawl. i don't want this to get too vent-y, but... it's MARCH and i only have 4 completed pieces done this year. in reality, i only have one finished piece from this year! because the other 3 were wips at various stages from last year. in general i am kind of washed up and my passion is gone and my skills are lacking. so. . . not like anybody will be missing much! i was looking at stuff i drew in like 2020 and honestly there's barely a difference. i'm the most stagnant mf on the planet. and now i'm looking at the new wave of all of these 14 year olds that are actual god tier artists and i am like. genuinely so happy for them like i love that and they slay but GOD it makes me want to kill myself even more than i already do LMFAO. so, yeah

[ut-versotale]

A Trip Down Nostalgia Lane

This AU's been in existence for so long, and the most current iteration is so wildly different from the rest. As such, I felt it'd be kinda cool to show you guys how the AU's progressed over the years. I don't think it's too big of a problem to reveal what the initial plans were for each iteration, what I liked and didn't like, and my thought process behind forgoing the old ones

If you don't particularly care for all that, here's the iterations' major characters lined up. (Iteration 4 I only have revealed Asriel and Undyne, so the rest I've designed so far are silhouetted)

Iteration 0.5

Oh boy, where to begin with this one...?

I number it "0.5" and not "1" because there were only two parts that never even officially released on this Tumblr blog. I did upload Part 1 for an April Fool's joke a while ago. But really, it was only ever present on the TS!Underswap Discord server over half a decade ago.

To put it bluntly, Versotale at this point was just a reskinned Undertale roleswap AU. The personalities, while I tried to keep them intact, were not the main driving force. As such:

Asriel is a silent protagonist (And not in a cool clever way like Kris; I mean just straight-up silent)

The only difference with Undyne as a narrator was noting that Frisk was a human at the first save point

Flowey had a more formal speech pattern but was otherwise barely affected despite carrying Chara's consciousness. They weren't even named Asthana yet.

Frisk... well, I can give my past self this, he certainly made an effort to differentiate Frisk from Toriel. I can't say he did a GOOD job at that, but they certainly were different. Awkward dialogue, though, and not much sense behind why they were the mayor of the Ruins at 13 years old

Overall, you can 100% tell I made this as a young teen. Awkward dialogue, barely any effort put into the concept, unoriginal...

It's pretty easy to see why I forewent this version of the AU. Only two parts were ever made. I must thank @beethovenus who gave me a lot of very helpful critiques, such as giving Asriel a voice and making original sprites rather than using sprite edits, as well as encouraging me to make this Tumblr blog for it. Thus, brings us to what I'd like to consider the first PROPER attempt at this AU...

Iteration 1

Ah, this one... this ALSO lasted only two parts. Can't remember why. But I made a lot more headway on this one. Quality aside, I am happy that I had the guts to try and make original sprites of my own back then, even if they aren't particularly good compared to now.

This was where I really attempted to make the characters act noticeably different. Though there were still quite a lot of problems, some that would even persist all the way up until Iteration 4.

I wanted to give Asriel a combination of his regular and Flowey personalities. A cool idea on paper, but the lore doesn't support him acting like that well enough. Thus, I refer to this version of him as Sassriel. This was one of those problems that persisted up until Iteration 3.

Undyne having this snarky back-and-forth with Sassriel. Again, cool idea on paper, but it is not supported by her personality in Undertale, nor the altered circumstances in VT Iteration 1. Also, with Undyne being a disembodied consciousness, it means she's merely an observer of the story and not an active participant, meaning her dialogue got very boring very fast. Undyne in canon was always an active character, so putting her in a role that basically FORCED her to be a passive character was maybe one of the worst decisions I could've made that lasted way too long, all the way until Iteration 4.

You'll notice a whole bunch of characters that never actually saw the light of day in the comic. In the bottom row, starting from left to right, there would have been Pepper (Who DID have a design but I've lost it), Donavan, Dr. Aakil, Lily, and Queen Alice. There's not much to say about them story-wise since I mainly just got the designs down, and you can probably guess what the plot was gonna be like given this was the early days of the AU where it was still very much following the Undertale formula. I think the only UNIQUE things I should mention are that Aakil's version of the amalgamates would've been cyborgs.

Iteration 2

This is the one that's lasted the longest (so far), managing to push its way into the Cold West. I tried to break out of the Undertale formula a tiny bit with this one, to varying degrees of success. There's not much history I can recall or find with this iteration, but I suppose I can give a character rundown of the ones you never saw, ironically enough all positioned on the bottom row again.

Donavan... not very unique compared to Undyne. The main gimmick that separated him from her, I think, was that he had gloves designed by Aakil that were soul-powered.

Valencia... a new character who was meant to be an expanded version of Napstablook's role. Fun fact: Valencia's hooded trenchcoat design there was originally Pepper's Iteration 1 design.

Everyone else was... about what you'd expect.

Looking back on this version, I am... honestly very embarrassed by how badly I butchered the Cold West. I wanted to do so many cool things, like a bounty on Asriel's head and all. But my God... Spade and Pepper sucked so much. Especially Pepper. For characters who at this point were meant to be this AU's replacement of Sans and Papyrus... what poor substitutes.

And honestly, I think that's why I scrapped this one; because I hated the Cold West and how I did it. It felt rushed, awkwardly-written, bad characterization, horrifically-bad puzzles, etc. Thus, Iteration 3 was made.

Iteration 3: Hybrid

I nicknamed this short-lived one "Hybrid" for multiple reasons.

It's where Deltarune became an extremely prevalent influence in Versotale's universe. So no longer is Versotale just an Undertale AU, it can also be considered a Deltarune AU as well.

Many characters could be considered hybrids at this point. Asriel and Undyne shared determination and a body. And, more interestingly, the Mettaton role also shared a body with Mettaton. More about that in a bit

When I was making Part 10-B of Iteration 2, Iteration 3 was meant to flow naturally into it, effectively replacing all of what had came beforehand. That never worked out.

Ultimately, I abandoned this version because it just simply wasn't doing it for me. By this point, the project was beginning to feel stale and boring. Despite my attempts to make a new unique storyline, it just kinda... felt like it was still following in Undertale's footsteps far too much. I mean, you've got the protagonist kid, an old fallen member of their species, the double-crossing flower, a mentor who's lived in a secluded area all their life, a chef who wants to join the guard, a tough grizzled guard captain, a morally-dubious scientist, a celebrity, a monarch... you see how I became dislliusioned with the quality of what was supposed to be my "Unique Undertale storyline." The most unique thing at this point WAS probably Spade. But still, many elements of this version of the story were very fleshed-out. I tried to turn Pepper into a character who wasn't just a bargain-bin Papyrus clone, I had come up with a more unique Hotland area, and it probably could've turned out really nice.

I think the thing I genuinely really liked from this old version was that Shella (This iteration's celebrity character) actually was also possessed by Mettaton. There was this huge backstory thing where the scientist character had monster dust and was injecting humans with it, and since Mettaton was a ghost, his consciousness became attached to Shella's and served as her sort of "assistant." He gave her all the tips and confidence to become famous and gave Mettaton the opportunity to indirectly entertain humans like he always wanted. While a cool idea on paper, having... well, essentially Mettaton technically in the same place as canon Undertale again just felt cheap and lazy. Not to mention it only continued my disillusionment with my "unique story" being far too similar to Undertale for comfort.

But the Surface shenanigans this iteration... man, for as weird as Gaster being king was, I had such a cool thing planned for all the Ebottobia characters. It's something I wanna carry over into Iteration 4 to a certain extent.

Iteration 4: "King Asriel"

This one's really freaking cool. Going back to the drawing board completely, the story resembles almost nothing like Undertale's, with the sole exception of the main premise: People underground, free them from imprisonment through peace or violence.

I'm so proud of these ideas so far, you have no idea. The new Ruins area I'm excited for, the new Cold West feels like an actual proper flowing storyline now, the other areas have way more uniqueness, the characters feel like their own characters with their own stories now (Even the ones that appear in canon), the plot feels completely different... I think you all are really going to like it

That's all. Just felt like taking a trip down memory lane and share some ideas and designs the public never got to see.

[robo-cryptid]

Do you consider yourself a Yeehan shipper? And if so, why? I hope you don’t take this the wrong way, I’m a relatively new shipper (started playing this year, and other Yeehan shippers directed me to your work), but I’ve seen some of your tweets and in many of them you seem to have more negative things to say about how they make you feel than positive. So I was curious to know your stance on them, and why you keep writing for them. (If this is too invasive, you don’t have to reply)

Also, I really enjoyed Ricochet. It sold the ship to me, basically (but now I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing)..

First off, I'm really glad you liked Ricochet! It's one of the fics I'm still really proud of, and I'm currently in a project with fanartist @showerwhoops and a friend who makes fandom light novels to make it printable with lots of gorgeous art. I mean, mostly I just love collabs and wanna support G's light novel-making hobby, but hopefully other people will find that exciting to know.

With regard to Yeehan, lol, I'm struggling to figure out how to answer this, especially without context for which tweets in particular. The simple answer is yeah, I'm a Yeehan shipper. I love them. I've said it before, but I basically trauma-bonded to them and can't let go. But also I love the themes of redemption and the various forms that can take, and people finding love not when they're young and fresh-faced but when they're jaded and have been through some shit, and seeing two people fight not only to make the world better but to make themselves better people together. I love all of that. It's delicious. I also love writing them as dumb himbos because why the heck not.

I've been in this fandom since 2018. I've written 70+ fics just for Yeehan (plus a few dozen others for the rest of Overwatch), and I'm still writing it. Of my last three art commissions, one was Hanzo and one was Yeehan. I started Yeehan Fic Rec Friday (@yeehanfrf) to help new people find good Yeehan recs sourced from the community, not just one person, and to lift up my fellow writers. All of this is on my twitter, and that's not even getting into all the fan events I've participated in, etc., before this year. So yeah, I'd say I'm a fan, lol.

Unless you're mistaking my shitposting and lovingly mocking the characters for meanness, maybe the negativity you're seeing is when I'm being critical of the fandom itself? In which case... you know, I'm going to take this as an opportunity. And it's gonna get kind of long, so let's go behind a cut.

I can only reiterate that I've been here since 2018. I've seen so much shit, and while some of it has come from "outsiders" (other shippers, people who are sick of Overwatch, etc.), plenty of it has come from my fellow Yeehans too. And while most of my frustration with the Yeehan fandom is on the level of, you know, family that you love but would like to shake some sense into, that doesn't change that it can be frustrating.

Here, an assuredly incomplete list of all the things I've experienced from other Yeehan fans:

I've seen people harassed outright for drawing/writing the "wrong" character bottoming. I've seen literally dozens of nonbinary and transmasc people misgendered and harassed for being "fujoshi" "fetishizinig mlm," because nothing says great justice like blending transphobia and misogyny to attack real people over fictional characters. I've been here for at least 10 different rounds of witch hunts for various fandom "crimes" like people shipping characters with a bad-idea-in-real-life age gap or power imbalance, or even just shipping the same character with multiple people.

I was here when Cassidy's animated short dropped and it took less than an hour to see hate posts about Ashe. And I was also here when fandom retconned the tale of those events to claim Yeehan fans only hate her because some of her fans are shitty, and it can't possibly under any circumstances be misogyny ever. (Which is not saying that some of her fans aren't shitty. It's just that some Yeehan fans are also shitty and in denial about it.)

I've been outright harassed for talking about fandom misogyny, no matter how kitten gentle and "Let's Have a Teaching Moment" I've been about it. I've been harassed for pointing out fandom racism. I've seen a friend get ostracized and harassed much worse for pointing out the same fandom racism and misogyny. And this is, of course, on top of actually seeing and reading racist portrayals of Hanzo and occasionally Cassidy, and seeing and reading constant misogyny (mostly over Ashe, but not exclusive to her) to remind me that men get to have greater interiority and receive more sympathy and get their flaws smoothed over in ways women never do, in fiction and in reality. But hey, don't point any of that out, because fandom is supposed to be a place for escapism, even if those things are making it difficult to escape, yourself! (And then of course I've seen people attacked really harshly over the kind of "they probably genuinely did not know better and it would have been an easy fix if someone just very kindly explained it to them instead of needing to publicly punish them" racism or misogyny.)

I've had someone hold a sustained, months-long campaign of just constantly shit-talking me and low-grade harassing me across multiple Discord servers, and recruiting their friends to do the same, all because I said, "Hey, you've been consistently rude and also triggered me this one time."

I've had anons in my inbox doing everything from demanding I write more to accusing me of pedophilia (or supporting it) for... I don't even know at this point, lol. Because that's a thing people do in fandoms, I guess.

Maybe because I'm prolific or maybe because I actually talk to anons or maybe because I have a follower count above the triple digits, a lot of people have treated me like I'm nothing but a content machine, not a person, which is something I've seen plenty of people do to other artists and writers across fandom. It's crummy. It makes me feel like I don't belong here if I'm not "producing," and even then I'm only tolerated for that, not for, like, my basic humanity (or being funny as hell imho). I've had people attack me over dumb jokes or act like I'm not a "real fan" for them (despite the aforementioned 70+ fics, like I guess those don't count if I make a joke about Cassidy being kind of a douche one time in his animated short).

And anything that's happened to me, I've seen happen to other people. Often worse, actually, because I get far fewer rude comments on my fanfic than several of my friends do, and nobody's misgendering me when they imply I'm a woman, even if they do sometimes erase my queerness.

On the scale of things that are mostly just annoying/stressful and not so much acts of aggression, fandom does this thing where it just freaks out (positive or negative) about something instantly, so I get spoiled on stuff if I don't see it within 15 minutes after it dropped? That's frustrating, especially if the reaction is largely negative, so I'm just, like, absorbing all these bad vibes before I ever get to see the thing for myself.

And then, you know, shipwars. Shipwars are obnoxious. They are exhausting. I do not have time for them. They are also unavoidable these days. Any time I go searching for content, there's someone shitting on Yeehan and someone else stirring the pot by replying to them, and frankly it's just tiresome from all sides. (Besides, I think if you're a fan of the juggernaut ship in a fandom, you've gotta chill and recognize people will find you annoying, then go comfort yourself with your near-daily fanarts and over 6,000 fics. This doesn't mean they're allowed to be absolutely garbage monsters and harass people. Like I'm not pretending Yeehan fans are the only people capable of sucking, lol. They aren't! Online harassment is shitty at all times! But if all they're saying is, "Why does Yeehan get so much attention? I hate it," you can just ignore them, mute them, block them, whatever you gotta do.)

In general, I'm often critical of fandom, especially my corner of it, mostly because I'm a social scientist by training so observing groups of people is what I do. Like genuinely, I enjoy holding the world around me under a microscope. But also in terms of reach and efficacy, I'm more interested in "cleaning up my own backyard," so to speak, than arguing with people who wouldn't listen to me anyway (Yeehan antis in this case, I guess). So when I turn the "negative" lens on, it's of course going to be aimed at the community I'm most embedded in. It doesn't mean people outside of Yeehan are better or worse people; they're just not the ones I'm exposed to constantly, lol.

But also, as many bad things as this sounds like, I've actually mostly enjoyed my time in this fandom. I've made a ton of friends here, people I adore and respect and am so, so grateful to have in my life. I've gotten to be part of some really cool projects. I've been lucky enough to experience the absolute joy of knowing people like something that I've made, of getting to make stuff for people, of people telling me I inspired them to make things. All of those are really special, wonderful things that places like fandom cultivate, and I love that part so much that it makes me feel gooey and self-conscious about trying to articulate it.

Anyway. I'm sure the actual question you asked got answered in the paragraphs above the cut, but just in case it didn't, it was nice to be able to just say all the things anyway. You're new here. I hope you enjoy all the fun parts and don't get bogged down by the crummy ones. Also you should definitely check out the @yeehanfrf rec lists if you haven't.

[bisexualamy]

Transition Update #63: 7 years on T & hysto retrospective

Hi everyone!! The title says it all. I wanted to include all of my phallo consults in this as well, but a few items are last-minute up in the air, so I'll write a separate post for the phallo consults omnibus.

As always, please don't reblog or screenshot and repost. Links are fine. Writing transition updates over the years has been really good for me and I always hope someone finds them helpful. But at the same time, the larger public is awful about bottom surgeries and I'd rather not subject myself to that ire.

This post has a general content warning for discussions of sex, genitals, body image and body/gender dysphoria.

7 years on T

I stopped doing annual T updates a while ago, because after the first 2-3 years most of the bodily changes are basically the same bodily changes cis men go through as they age. This year I made a point to celebrate 7 years, because that's an absolutely wild number, and I think it's important to acknowledge my T anniversary when it comes around. Testosterone has fundamentally changed my life. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be here without it. I'm so grateful to be in a place mentally, physically, financially, and temporally that I can continue to access it.

I started taking Finasteride this year bc my hairline is getting a little thin. This is, again, more a factor of being in my later 20s than anything else. I didn't expect it to affect me as much as it did. It was one of the first times I experienced and male body image issue that had nothing to do with being trans. Normally, I'm so grateful to live as a man that most male body image issues don't affect me. I don't care that I'm short or a little round or I have wider hips. I'm so grateful to pass and live full-time as a man that it doesn't register. This one was different, and I'm not quite sure why, but I'm going to try and not obsess over it.

Off and on the last four years, but seriously the last two years, I started working out and lifting. At first, I mostly ran, especially during the height of the lockdown when it was the only safe way to work out. I love running but I always wanted to be strong and see what my body could do. The past two years I've been working with an online trainer and my strength has really improved!! I'm hitting personal bests in the gym and it's stopped feeling like a tedious chore. I'm actually excited to go now. That's an amazing feeling and I'm always really happy when my friends or family call me strong.

Hysto retrospective

It's been 7 months since my hysto back in January. The recovery for that was longer and more difficult than I expected. Being cooped up in the house and feeling really weak and gross, on top of the bottom dysphoria I kept experiencing having to constantly discuss lots of parts I hate having, was really hard on me. I feel like, over the last two months, I've shaken off a lot of the lingering depression from that. All that being said, I've healed very well, and I'm so happy I got my hysto.

One of the worst, dysphoria-inducing nightmares for me was getting pregnant. It was so bad, it prevented me from seriously dating cis men for years. T is not birth control, and even with protection and respectful partners, the fear and anxiety were just too much for me to handle. I knew that once I got my hysto, I'd probably feel more confident dating men, but I didn't realize the extent to which that would be true.

I've felt way more confident to date around and hook up since I got my hysto. I've gone on more dates with cis gay men than I ever have before, and even though they ultimately fizzled out, I have never had that level of dating confidence in my life. It's so, so gender affirming when cis gay men are attracted to me. I always felt like I lost something, being a bisexual man who was too anxious about being trans to participate in any kind of gay male culture in NYC. This is by far the biggest gift my hysto gave me and I'm so happy for it.

[transpersian]

Bottom line is: I choose who I talk to. Nobody from either side is going to dictate that to me.

so y'all are like... in ok terms now? that's good to hear ig. maybe there's hope for everyone after all. idk your post made me feel warm inside. i'm happy for you, please stay healthy and take care of yourself. thank you for all the thoughful discussions, you helped a lot of people and i hope people remember it. <3

"Okay" doesn't come anywhere close to describing the complexity of the situation. Let me see if I can give you an idea by summarizing some of it, briefly and impartially:

We've both been through a lot directly because of each other and we both still have a lot of active and complicated feelings about them.

This affects a lot of relationships that both of us have and there are a lot more ongoing elements to the current landscape than just us.

And you can bet your ass that both of us have been having discussions with friends who are very, very not okay with what we're doing.

I always said I'd be willing to talk and I meant it. These principles matter if we're to ever have hope for anything but eternal war, here or otherwise. They've served me well and guided me true in the face of doubters for a long time.

Does this resolve everything? No, of course not. You just have to look at Twitter to see the current carnage. I'm going to be sticking very strictly to what I said in my post: I will not be speaking positively or negatively of anyone on either side regarding this conflict. I can only encourage you to look at what's happening and decide for yourself.

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Thing is, I'm still here. You can send questions, and while I can't promise I'll be able answer them, I'll do so to the best of my ability.

My personal code and approach towards this situation still holds true. I still believe in approaching things a certain way. That's why I said that the current discourse isn't for me; the tornado got away from me while I was gone and now it's too big to steer.

I can only encourage people to be civil and empathetic, evidence-focused and direct, to not engage with the inevitable spectators that want to turn it into a participation sport.

When it was a few Tumblrs on here, that was doable. Now the war's come home for them and I don't have nearly the level of credibility or influence that some people who are involved do. I can't turn them one way or the other. Even the content creators are mostly watching from the sidelines not wanting to get involved.

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And beyond that... y'all, now that I've made this decision, I'm coming to realize just how fucking exhausted I've been.

I'm not turning my back on anyone who doesn't turn their back on me, I promise. Even then.

But I need you all to understand that while I can't tell you everything that's gone on behind the scenes, the people closest to me and supporting me the most through this have been increasingly concerned about how this has been impacting my well-being, and whether I would ever be able to pull away from it.

They've wanted me to step back. It wasn't my initial intention when accepting her invitation to talk, but the fact that the opportunity has arisen from it right as the need for it has become dire is just good luck.

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Again, not to get into too many details, but January got harrowing. I went through the worst mental collapse I've had since last July (if you've read my doc, it's the part with the panic attacks). I have a whole life outside of this that I've had to maintain, and if I told you the level of high-pressure work I deal with in my day job, you wouldn't believe me. This is on top of being caught in the middle of my parents' divorce and helping plan and prep my sister's wedding.

I've been burning the candle at both ends for months, practically every single day. I tried to take breaks, but I'd inevitably get a day or two in before some other thing happened that needed my attention. With where last month pushed me... I don't know.

While a lot of elements aligned and a lot of thought went into these decisions, I lost people for even talking to her in the first place, and honestly, I don't really blame them. I understand the feelings that people have about this. Believe me, I'm still having some very direct, personal conversations about it in DMs and VCs, especially after today's post.

But I have thought about this, a lot. If you've been reading my posts for a while, you've seen how I've approached this situation the whole time. Those principles and values just extend further than a lot of people consider to be wise, reasonable, or even just plain not "fucking insane." If any of y'all had known me for a few years, you'd know that this is not a new thing for me; this path has served me well for many years and has been an essential compass in pivotal moments.

Sometimes it pays off. Sometimes it kicks me in the ass. But I never regret it.

I've always been direct and honest about my perspective, and I'm still very much who I've always been. I'm not some naive child wandering into a trap; I'm deeply considering how I handle every step of this, and me doing my own thing here isn't going to change much in the grand scheme of the current fight.

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If you've had faith in or respect for how I've done things so far, I'd like to hope that I've earned that. I simply ask that you consider these actions in the context of those feelings over the gut discomfort that may come from the notion that we're even having conversations in the first place now.

And I don't know what conversations you think we're having, but they're definitely not full of bubblegum and butterflies. We've both got BPD and have put each other through hell. There are a lot of big feelings to contend with. Hurt and rage and resentment. Things that can't be fixed or taken back or forgiven.

If you don't understand why I'd be open to a chance to have those conversations, I can't explain it to you. I only ask that you continue to trust my increasingly unconventional approach to all of this.

You don't have to give it to me. You don't owe it to me. I can only ask for it.

So... are Poppy and I "on okay terms" now?

I don't know.

It's complicated and really fucking weird.

But it's definitely not the catastrophic idea that some people think it is. I just hope they'll give me the time and chances to prove them wrong.

[extervus]

Results of the Favorite Apex Characters Survey!

To start off, I'd like to thank everyone who participated! This was really fun to watch as each character rose and fell in the ranks over the past 36 hours lol. I'll also say, I plan on leaving the survey open, so feel free to keep submitting responses, and if any significant changes occur, I'll be sure to update y'all!

For the main post, I'll only be listing the top five and the bottom five results. I'll post the full ranking in the replies for those who want to see how their faves did!

So, without ado, here are the results:

In first place for the Most Favorited Apex Character, with 77 votes (38.5% of 200 voters), we have...

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Octane!

I'll admit, I'm a little surprised to see Octane win, especially after Bloodhound had spent so long in first place (Octane wasn't even in top five for the first quarter of the responses). #OctaneSweep

For our second place character, we have a legend who I personally consider one of my top faves. With 70 votes (35% out of 200), we have the one and only...

Mad Maggie!

I'm yet again pleasantly surprised to see Mad Maggie in such a high ranking! I do believe she's a very underrated character, and I was honestly expecting her to rank in the mid range at best, but she remained in the top five ranking throughout the whole duration of the survey. Hey, I can't complain!

For our third place winner, we have another character who managed to stay in the top five the entire time. With 58 votes (29% of 200), we have...

Loba!

I think Loba's top three ranking is a surprise to no one! Especially with how consistent she was in remaining in the top five.

For our fourth place winner, coming in right behind her beloved Loba, with 57 votes (28.5% of 200), we have...

Bangalore!

Bangalore was another legend that swooped in at the last minute and claimed a top five placement, though she had been a higher rank than Octane had been until he came with a final sweep lol.

Finally, we have our fifth place winner, and another last minute sweep, with 52 votes (26% of 200), we have...

Seer!

Up until a few hours before I tallied up the votes, Seer had surprisingly remained fairly low ranking (averaging around the middle range), but just as Octane and Bangalore had, he came in last minute and secured a spot in the top five. Woo!

So! Now onto the bottom five ranking favorites. Now, I should mention that these aren't necessarily the most hated or disliked legends, these are just the ones that people favorited the least. I will make a separate post on the results of the most disliked and hated legends.

Starting off, we actually have two legends who tied for have the fifth least amount of votes! With only 27 votes each (13.5%), we have...

Wattson and Revenant!

(this is the only gif with both of them in it lol)

Wattson remained low ranking throughout the whole survey, but Revenant's score surprisingly plummeted, going from a consistent top three ranking to a bottom five (technically eight) ranking. Ouch!

Moving on to our fourth least favorited legends, we have another tie! With 22 votes each (11%), we have...

Pathfinder and Gibraltar!

These two are another set of underrated characters in my opinion, but I'm honestly not surprised to see them rank so low. Come on y'all, show them some love! :(

For our third least favorite legend, we have just one. With only 20 votes (10%), we have...

Ash!

Again, I'm not too surprised with this one, especially given Revenant's similar low ranking. Looks like people just aren't into murder bots anymore!

For our second least favorited legends, we have one last tie. With a measly 13 votes each (6.5%), we have...

Horizon and Newcastle!

(thank god this scene exists lmao)

I was expecting low rankings for both, but honestly I didn't think they'd rank lower than Ash, and I'm a little sad about it! I genuinely really like both of these characters, but hey, the people have spoken!

And finally, coming in last with a whopping 11 votes (5.5%), to no one's surprise, we have...

Caustic

Surprisingly, he only dropped down into last place at the very last minute (Newcastle, Vantage, Horizon and Gibraltar had all been bouncing back and forth between last place for a majority of the survey duration). But alas, he made it into last in the end.

So there ya have it! The people have spoken, and overall I'm pretty surprised at the results! Definitely much different from the last survey I had created (at least in regards to the legends that existed back then too).

I'll be making another post here soon with the results of the most disliked/hated legends, probably within the next hour, and after that I'll be making a bonus post that calculates both responses together to better categorize the absolute favorite and least favorite legends!

[kyriolex]

Himawari enrolling in the Academy now seems to me like at least a year has passed in universe since Boruto Graduated from the Academy considering none of the characters look any different compared to when Boruto first entered 🤔

One thing that I will be forever grateful is that Kishimoto made Himawari a little younger than the majority of the next gen kids for one reason alone:

She is safe from shipping nonsense

Also somewhat unrelated but do you believe that Boruto females are overall better handled than the Naruto ones?

In Naruto a big criticism is that the Females were incompetent and they're personalities were all about how much they loved a Man.

The girls in Boruto, while there are still writing flaws, the young Kunoichi are shown as competent in battle and they seem to have personalities outside of falling in Love

Do you agree?

While Boruto has a lot of flaws (even without filler, its pacing is a disaster), it does do right by its cast. I'd say yes, Boruto has better-written female characters than Naruto, for three reasons:

One: Modern standards

Boruto is being written 20 years after Naruto, and female representation has advanced a lot since then. Stuff like Jiraiya peeping on teenagers in the bath doesn't fly anymore.

Two: Naruto set the bar VERY low

I love the OG cast, but that's mostly because of fanon, not canon. In the show, Naruto's female characters only came in three flavors:

Lovesick girl

Crazy bitch

Lonely old hag

It's hard to act like a fully fleshed-out person when your writer considers "not being in love with the protagonist" to be a huge character flaw.

Fanon versions of Naruto's girls are deliciously nuanced. But the canon characters fell drastically short of the promise they showed in the first half of the series.

Three: Boruto treats its female cast better than most modern shonen

A lot of shonen these days allow their female characters to participate in battle, but they're usually mid-tier at best. For example, in Boku no Hero Academia, even the class "prodigy" Momo rarely wins her battles - Aizawa canonically threw his match against her to boost her self-esteem.

But Boruto allows Sarada and Sumire to be genuine powerhouses. Sometimes Sarada even gets to outshine the boy characters.

What's more, even the weaker female characters are allowed to have backstories and motivations. Again, not to keep ragging on BNHA, but Ochako is the literal heroine, and her main motivations are "help Deku" and "earn money for her impoverished family that only appeared in the anime for two seconds."

That said...

When Boruto does female characters well, it does them really well. But when it does female characters poorly, it's a train wreck.

Eida takes all the worst tropes from Naruto's female cast - the stalkerish obsession, the fickle selfishness, the utter lack of common sense - and ramps them up to 11. If Naruto's cast sat at rock bottom, then Eida belongs in Earth's molten core.

You could argue that Eida's mere existence cancels out all of Boruto's so-called feminist cred.

P.S. I guarantee that after the timeskip, Himawari will be thrown into the shipping wars with everyone else. No one is safe.

[bright-bluejay]

Grief

My first poem was written back in middleschool

Back when life was a larger being sitting on my chest.

Chests full of paperclips, pencils sharp as a knife

Crumpled bits of paper lamenting my tiny life

I wrote my first poem. Attention all I wanted,

About a miserable masquerade and how my facade was disregarded.

Dancing in a ball with all the participants wearing masks,

Mine starting to crack, writing to avoid relapse.

Showed it to everyone I knew, hoping they'd see through

Tell me I did good and provide the comfort I craved.

I don't remember what happened next, or really even how they responded.

All I know is that that's how it all started.

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Songs, journals, stories and poems.

Notes app graveyard discussing oncoming doom.

Burning and smoke, echo and choke

Broken into shards and hands reaching for the stars

All these motifs I use even to this day,

I wish I could be more creative, find other ways to convey

My thoughts, my experiences, all my pain and strife.

My emotions trapped between lines of code and flesh.

Even to this day it's rare that it's happy, what my poems have to say.

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My Miserable Masquerade, my first healthy outlet

It's been a journey since then, and oh how I've strayed.

Frenzied tapping of fingers against glass screen

My way of a 3 am silent tormenting scream.

I'd write 10 poems a day, then not write for years.

I'm still like that, always suprised when I find it can help ease the tears

Yet still stressed over how to rules my writing rarely adheres.

I fear judgment from others, how they might say what I write is obscene.

That's really fucking stupid though, nobody ever said the language of poetry can't be extreme.

I guess I've still got those 6th grade lessons stuck in my head,

How cursing's a sign of idiocy, my teachers would have said.

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However that's not what the main idea of this is supposed to be.

(I always have a hard time staying on topic)

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From 7th to 10th grade, I wrote over 200 poems in quickmemo on my first device.

My only way of remembering what the horrors of youth had forced me to forget.

Come 2020 my father lost his job. We had to switch plans, and with that our phones.

I always said I'd transfer them, but I never really did.

Two years later I found that device cracked, dusty and dead.

It's my own fault really, I was too busy to bother.

Still, I lost a huge piece of my history, a huge piece of what was supposedly me when I was younger.

I managed to save one, the one most important.

Or at least to the best of my knowledge it is, I wouldn't know,

I'm ashamed to say that almost all of them I've forgotten.

At poem 100 is when the dream first formed,

My childhood desire to write my own book, to become an author.

To see to others what my poems had to offer.

Just as I began, i realized i wanted to be seen.

To hear others read my words, and say to themselves, "That's me!"

That's what I said at least, and a piece of that was really the truth.

In actuality I still wanted someone to read my words and see that that's what was truely me.

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I'm not that way now, or at least that's what I claim.

Whatever helps me sleep at night I guess.

Lying awake all that's left to try is to lie to myself.

That a piece of me isn't missing,

That I haven't lost all sense of former self.

My memory's a colour gradient with a dark hole in the center.

("Oooh how edgy!" Trust me I know.)

No bridging the gap between the person I was born as to who I am now.

We are two separate people, though my older poems suggest even more.

I am always new and ever-changing,

left disconnected from this experience of life without that record to keep me on track.

This life isn't as crushing as the first, I don't feel that weight on my chest anymore.

Though to the chest of my old emotions a key I now lack.

I'm free, I'm a passing breeze. Yellows and golds and finally at ease.

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I still feel the weight whenever I think too hard about who I used to be.

That chest is locked at the bottom of the abyss.

That doesn't mean I cant feel it rattling, it doesnt mean it no longer exists.

Withheld from me is another person's grief.

Lost with the 200 poems, all except for the first one detailing my fractured selves,

I lie awake at night left in an attempt of lying to myself.

Pretending I'm whole, pretending that there's no gaping hole.

Pretending that even if there is, it's okay because I can always write more poems.

[gaycelebtea]

I completely agree with you Juanjo deserved to win he was the best singer and progressed so much.

While being disappointed, I am trying to see this result as a positive because it’s like the winners a of tv shows like OT is like a curse, how many winners had the projected career that was waiting for them? Most winners are forgotten after a few months.

Most of the well known participants like American idols were runner ups or sometimes not even in the top three.

Winners have a contractual obligation to sign with a specific records company and they will do everything to have the most popular success even if it means erasing what makes them unique. They don’t even have the liberty to choose the songs they want to release

So by being 4th while it is a complete fraud and steel, I really hope that it will allow him more freedom to be the artist he wants to be.

Will see, time will tell.

I completely agree with everything you said. He got robbed. 4th is a joke. I don't hate Paul at all, he seems like a sweet guy, but he does not have a better voice than Juanjo. His voice was mediocre when he sang Baby Hello. Juanjo had the best male voice by far in the final, heck the entire competition this season. I feel like he was done in by his song choice. Ballads never do well, and the two ballads from him and Martin cancelled each other out. It wasn't "exciting" enough for the viewers. He didn't have a show like Paul. Many people find ballads boring, despite being sung well. I also question the song itself, we all know he can sing it, but did it connect with viewers, was it emotional enough? I feel like Martin's song was more emotional and connected more with people, despite him getting 6th (I think that was more due to his voice not being the best because of his cold).

I think Paul's fun upbeat song and his Eurovision-esque show won over Juanjo, despite Juanjo having the best voice by far. I feel like this is more of a personality competition than a singing competition. I sadly think people didn't like Juanjo for some reason, maybe because of homophobia or something else. I also think Juantin was their downfall, as people didn't like it, either because of homophobia, or because they found the Juantin fans annoying. Last but not least fans of the other contestants had literal hate campaigns directed at Juanjo. It was gross and disgusting. He also got a lot of hate from the gay community itself, from envious and jealous people. Paul is gay too, but less gay coded than Juanjo, so the homophobes didn't have a problem with him versus Juanjo. Also: he wasn't "in people's faces" (it's what the homophobes say) with a gay relationship. I sadly think the fact that Martin and Juanjo were so open costed them the win.

Anyways, as a positive spin: I agree. The winners of these shows never go on to do anything, and they are tied to the contracts. I also think them both ending in the bottom 3 is a good thing in that they can relatete to each other as they are both in the same boat. I'm also happy Lucas ended up in the bottom 3 with them, he loves them. He is their biggest fanboy, he's a huge stan. He is also so sweet as a human being. I'm very happy these three get to do interviews together, both because of Juantin and because of Lucas. I couldn't have asked for something better.

I think both Juanjo and Martin have great futures. Martin has a unique voice and is able to connect with viewers. He is also a great actor. I could see him doing theatre, tv shows/movies or musicals, as he can dance too. He is basically the complete package. I would love to see him on my screen again in a tv show or movie! As for Juanjo; there's no doubt he has immense talent. I could see him having a Sam Smith type career, with focus on beautiful ballads complementing his voice. I hope he'll mix it up a bit though. With his voice he can sing any genre. I'd love for him to explore other genres too. Either way I have no doubt he'll be successful.

[remuswriting]

Hi I'd like to request a haikyuu matchup!:)

• Romantic please

• I'm nonbinary and my pronouns are they/them

• I have no gender preference

• I am an adult

• Personality: I am very much the parent friend, I am an absolute airhead, bit of a stoner, I'm the friend that if you're too shy at a restaurants I'll talk for you but if I'm with someone more confident than me like my mom or older brother I have to have them talk for me, I have no idea how to use a computer properly, I tend to downplay my talents and absolutely hate compliments because I never know how to respond, I thoroughly enjoy coming up with extremely absurd ideas and headcanons (for example: came up with the idea to have an indoor mini golf course exclusively for the lgbtq community), I don't know what I'm talking about literally ever I just word vomit and people seem to think I'm funny, I very much like my personal space and have a very low social battery so I spend a lot of time alone buy otherwise I'm pretty energetic and upbeat, definitely more of an optimist, sometimes to my detriment. I'm also a triple Leo, I'm an infp as far as I know, and I kin Yamaguchi, Nishinoya, and Bokuto

• Hobbies/interests: I have over 70 squishmallows and I collect their bio/name tags in an old ipsy bag, I do white charcoal portraits and plan on doing commissions for them once I expand my portfolio, I play animal crossing every single day usually without fail, I absolutely adore sharks, frogs, and most reptiles esp alligators and crocodiles, I love astrology and love doing people's charts and telling them my assumptions about them (after reading into their placements ofc), I like to watch true crime, paranormal, nature, and history documentaries, I also like a lot of anime specifically (outside of haikyuu) demon slayer, jjk, and jojos bizarre adventure, and I'm going to be a summer day camp counselor this summer at the camp I grew up going to

• My type: someone that's more on the responsible side so I don't have to worry about them doing something stupid, someone calmer so I don't get tired out when I'm with them for long periods of time but not so laid-back that I get bored, someone that will put up with my antics and sometimes participate, has got to be calm and grounded when I'm feeling anxious and will talk me through it rather then freaking out and asking me a ton of questions I don't have the answers to, will understand when I'm not feeling up to being social, is interested in the things I'm interested in or is willing to hear me vent about them, understands that I'm not a big fan of being touched constantly and will give me space

• Love languages: acts of service and gift giving (I give the gifts, hate receiving them)

• I absolutely do not want to be paired with kuroo, Kenma, kindaichi, shirabu, or goshiki (some I really don't like, some I'm just indifferent toward)

Thank you!

I believe you and Osamu would be a good match!

HOW YOU MET

You had only recently started being a camp counselor at the summer camp you went to growing up.  After four years, they decided they could pair you up with new counselors to help them out.

“He’s really nice,” the camp director said. “Went here for two years when he was really young, so he knows a little, but that was who knows how long ago.”

“So, I’m just helping him learn how to be a counselor?” you asked, and she nodded with a small laugh.

“Yeah,” she said, and she looked down at the clipboard in her hands. “Before you go looking for him, he’s with the nurse.  Doing a quick physical on him.  You know how long it takes.”

“Thanks,” you said as you nodded.

You started walking down to the nurse’s office since you needed a physical too and it would be quicker to wait for him to get done downstairs than talking to the other counselors.  The two flights of stairs sucked while carrying your luggage, but you didn’t want to lose it.  After taking a deep breath once you got to the bottom of the stairs, you turned to walk down the hallway that led to the nurse’s office.

The nurse’s office was at the end of the hallway, which a guy walked out of.  He was tall and his shoulders broad.  His hair was nearly black and messy, as if he had been running his fingers through it.  He was wearing khaki shorts and a black shirt with a volleyball reference on it.

“Hey,” you said, and he looked at you. “Are you Miya-san?”

He nodded with a small smile. “Yeah.  I’m Miya Osamu, but I prefer people just callin’ me Osamu.”

“L/N Y/N,” you said, and you stopped walking. “But people usually just call me L/N.”

Osamu chuckled. “It’s the struggle of havin’ a twin.  People think I’m really friendly.”

“Are you not?” you asked with a small smile.  Osamu chuckled. “Also, a twin?  I’ve never met a twin before.” You chuckled slightly. “Bet you hear that a lot.”

“You’ve got no idea,” Osamu said.  You found it easy to talk to him.  He turned his head to look over his shoulder as he pointed towards the nurse’s office with his thumb. “Do ya also need to go to the nurse?”

You nodded. “Yeah.  You can wait upstairs if you want.  It’s not going to take long.”

“I could just wait out here for you,” Osamu said before quickly adding. “If that’s alright.”

“Of course it is.” You smiled. “Just watch my stuff for me while I’m in there.”

“You got it,” Osamu said as he took your luggage from you. “Now, go on.  I wanna go check out our cabin soon.”

HEADCANONS

Osamu loves going and hunting for squishmallows and buys you all the ones he finds.  If you mention there’s one you want, he will search everywhere for it.

Osamu isn’t one for partying/socializing, especially as he gets older, but he’ll go hang out with people from high school occasionally.  When he does meet up with them, it’s typically planned ahead of time, and he will give you the choice of going or not.  He’s not going to get upset if you don’t want to go and doesn’t force you.  He makes sure you know you’re welcome to join him if you want to.

He’s the kind to set aside movie night every week.  Movie night isn’t exclusive to just movies but also television shows.  These nights are filled with whatever new thing you guys have found to watch and snacks that he brings home from work.

Osamu is the chill counselor whose cabin behaves so well that every other counselor wishes they had his kids.  He’s so nice to be paired up with that both of you request to be paired up with each other every summer you both decide to be counselors.

Whenever you talk about anything you like, he listens and remembers everything.  He buys things that remind him of you, even if it’s something you said in passing.  He has an entire section in his notes’ app with information about you; all your orders from food places you go to, favorite books/shows/movies, your astrology information, and anything you mention in passing.  He’s healthily obsessed with you.

Whenever he introduces you to someone, he has a proud smile as he says, “This is my amazin’ partner.” He loves calling you his “partner” and “significant other” (or anything that you’re comfortable with), because he’s so happy to have you in his life.

RUNNERUP: Sakusa!

[creamcheesefrosting]

Diary Entry - 8th of May 2022

Recently I've been thinking a lot about my gender identity. I first started questioning it when I was 19; one day I was walking back to my flat after doing some shopping and had this sudden realisation that I didn't want to be perceived as a woman, or in any way feminine. I did some research and found that I identified with the term genderflux, but I had too much going on in my life at that point so I pushed it to the back of my mind and ignored it. I didn't have a very good queer network at that point, so I didn't feel like I could talk to anyone about it. I'd also recently experienced a string of sexual harassment incidents, so I convinced myself that what I was feeling was a response to that.

It was two years before I finally acknowledged it out loud. Steph was visiting me, and it turns out that they had been feeling something very similar. It felt so liberating to be able to talk to someone about it properly. We moved in together about a year after that, at the time when the UK was coming in an put of lockdown, so we spent a lot of our free time locked in our flat and figuring out our identities. It was amazing to be able to live with my best friend and for them to understand exactly what I was going through.

I've recently realised that I suffer from gender dysphoria, and have since I was about 12. I know that you don't have to be trans to experience gender dysphoria, and you also don't have to experience gender dysphoria to be trans, but it's put a lot of things into perspective. I don't really experience chest dysphoria, but I DEFINITELY experience bottom dysphoria. There have been times in my life when I wished I looked more androgynous, but I've also had time when I wished I looked more masculine. I'm a very feminine presenting person, and I love exploring my femininity. I enjoy makeup, and feminine clothing, but I wish that I could still participate in traditionally feminine activities without them or me actually being perceived as feminine. It's an incredibly complicated feeling.

There are days when I definitely feel like a woman, and I take joy in it. But those days seem to be getting fewer and fewer, and the rest of the time I either feel nothing or a deep sense of mourning. Sometimes, though, I wonder if I would still feel this way if I experienced puberty the way that most cis women do. When I began puberty, I started to develop in ways that other girls weren't. I started to grow facial hair, and my voice began to deepen, and part of my body developed in ways that other girls' didn't. It might be PCOS, it might just be genetic, or maybe I'm intersex. At the time, I had no idea about any of those things. Now i'm educated, but back then it left me feeling wrong, and it's still a feeling I struggle to shake. It's one of the reasons why I doubt if I'm trans even when I experience gender dysphoria.

I very much believe that gender is a social construct, and that the binary doesn't truly exist. That should take the pressure off of my identity, but it doesn't. I constantly feel the need to categorise myself, and find words for the things I'm feeling. I suspect it might be because of my autism. I struggle to understand my feelings and emotions, or the ways in which I experience the world, so I like to label them. I truly wish that we could live in a world where it wasn't necessary to label our sexual and gender identities, but those labels are incredibly important in the world we live in now. It feels amazing to be able fo put a name to our experiences.

I remember the joy I felt when I realised that I'm a lesbian, and again last year when I realised I'm ace. The relief and freedom I felt to realise that I'm not alone, that other people feel the same way as me, that I'm normal and valid and human. I think I felt the same way when I first came across the term genderflux, even if I'm not so sure now. I do know that I experienced a deep sense of personal grief when I heard about genderflux being purged from the LGBTQIA+ Wikia a few months ago.

In the last few days, I've been wondering if I'm actually a man. I follow and relate to a lot of trans men, particularly feminine presenting trans men. I headcanon a lot of my favourite male characters as trans, the ones I relate to the most. I used to worry that I was doing something harmful and transphobic, but I've just always desperately craved more trans rep. But I also cannot see myself living as a man. The idea of being perceived as a man isn't inherently negative to me, but I don't know if I could identify as one.

I think the main thing holding me back from fully exploring my gender identity is how transphobic the UK is. I don't know if I'd be able to survive living as an openly trans person here, especially in my incredibly conservative area. Even excluding the ridiculous waiting lists and incredibly demeaning process of acquiring gender-affirming treatment, day-to-day life would be so incredibly terrifying. Just thinking about everything happening in the news is enough to make me want to give up living.

I'm so afraid for my rights, all the time. I'm afraid of losing my bodily autonomy. I'm afraid of losing my right to love. I'm afraid of losing my right to express myself and my beliefs. The UK is a scary place to live right now.

[levis-little-nuggie]

hi! i just saw the post about requests and could you write some fluffy sex headcanons with the brothers? we don't really see stuff like that so i thought i'd ask

Bless you nonny for the request 💜💜 this uh, turned out a lot longer than I had anticipated, probably because I haven't written anything in a good while 😅

Asmo and Belphie will have their own posts 💜

Nsft, obviously, so everything is under the Read More. I made the reader as gender neutral and inclusive as I could. Please let me know if at any point, I was exclusive.

Fluffy Sex Headcanons of the Demon Brothers

(minus Asmo and Belphie)

Lucifer

This man will top or bottom solely dependent upon what you want. Sex with him is moreso about pleasing his partner than just getting off. His preferences are fine tuned to your desires and your body’s limits. Lucifer’s sin feeds off of the immense pride a lover feels when they know you and your body better than you do

He may act cold and aloof in public and in front of others, coming off as stoic and arrogant, but it’s a completely different story behind closed doors.

However you want him, he’ll comply. You’ve done the impossible and captured his heart.  Don’t let this old man and his brown shoes fool you, he’ll drown you in passion.

He’ll gladly play the Dom role, but he’ll also gladly be your sub as well.

If you’re into BDSM and prefer him to Dom, you can expect an intensive aftercare routine that would rival Asmo’s. It’s not that he doesn’t like hurting you or pushing you to your limits, he just wants to reward you for being so good for him and wants to remind you how much he loves you.

If you’re into BDSM and prefer to Dom yourself, go crazy! While you would be capable of marking and bruising his skin, you can’t physically hurt or break him beyond light scratches. He can break out of whatever restraints you put him, even if they are demon-grade. You would need actual spells to diminish his strength to put him on par with a lower-class demon if you wanted him to actually feel any real pain, but if it’s what you want, he’ll do it. Expect a conversation beforehand about what you want and how he can do that for you. He wants there to be clear communication so he knows how best to serve you in the moments to come.

Sure the sex is fantastic, but he’ll show you how much he loves you in the tender moments after. The afterglow is his favorite part, both of you basking in the remnants of pleasure coursing through you, the physical numbness, and the swell of feel-good chemicals swirling through your bodies. This is when he’ll hold you closest, pepper your skin with kisses unable to stop himself, he’ll play with your hair if you have it, his eyes will be bright, his smile will be unrestrained. He may even start humming a long-forgotten lullaby or your favorite song as he rests his head against your chest, hearing your heartbeat in blissful content until one of you decides it’s time to get cleaned up.

No matter how long the day has been, the amount of hours he’s put into all that damn paperwork, he’ll always make time to pamper you after sex. If you prefer to shower alone, he’ll let you go first and have the bed ready with new, clean sheets and clean towels set out for you when you’re done. Prefer to sleep with pajamas? He has a drawer dedicated to your favorite things along with some new ones he bought for you.

Mammon

Ah yes, the tsundere. The dumbass in the streets, dumbass in the sheets. The one who has more hair-brained ideas than he does fingers and toes in one week. One of the greatest banes of Lucifer’s existence.

His push and pull personality might have you questioning the validity of his feelings, but I believe that Mammon wouldn’t be partaking in fluffy sex at all unless he was absolutely smitten.

With how his brothers treat him, he’s reluctant to open his heart to you and fully accept that at some point, you won’t start insulting him either. However, equipped with the sin of greed, Mammon’s completely helpless when you compliment and reassure him. 

His standoffish attitude is a front, a feeble attempt to keep up his reputation as “The Great Mammon,” but he’s got himself wrapped around your finger before he even realizes it and that facade would melt away instantly at your smallest of smiles, a kiss on his cheek or back of his hand, a surprise compliment, anything that makes his heart skip a beat. 

Of the brothers, he has one of the weakest composers around you mainly because he’s also one of the horniest. 

Sex with Mammon can be rushed;  a quickie between classes, a broken composure that has him feeling dehydrated for you, a clash of tongues and teech and a burning desire that encompasses both of you until you find release.

However, the sweetest and fluffiest sex with Mammon would be when either of you are feeling emotionally vulnerable. 

He’ll treat you like you’re the greatest treasure to have ever existed in all three realms, with a delicacy as if you’re fragile because he knows he can be careless and reckless. He’ll be in his head a lot making sure he’s taking care of you, that you feel good, doing his damndest to keep you satisfied so there’s no room in your heart to doubt him. He’ll do whatever it takes to keep that sparkle in your eye when you look at him, to never lose you and never have to experience the day you realize his brothers have been right all along. 

And I mean he’ll do whatever and however. Any wish is his command, but you’ll have more work cut out for you if you suggest the both of you participating in a threesome or more. He wants you all to himself, it’s his greed, but it’s your reassurance and validation that will have him like putty in your hand. 

He’s more than okay with both of you falling asleep in your mess, but more often than not, he’ll wait until you’ve dozed off to clean up. In these moments, he takes the time to worship every inch of your skin, like polishing a priceless jewel. His intentions are pure, most of the time, he just likes to wait till you’re asleep so there’s no chance for you to tease him about it. It also allows his greed to soak up your peaceful expression, the way your body reaches out to him after he’s finished cleaning and comes back to curl up next to you. 

There’s a secret photo album hidden on his phone filled with pictures of the both of you like this, your lashes against your cheeks, your freckles or sun spots, any blemishes or scars that he’s covered in kisses countless of times, your hand in his and vice versa, memories of how sweet and tender your love is, filled with emotions he struggles to put into words. 

Leviathan

It all depends how you play your cards with this one. Teasing him is easy and it’ll get him all flustered, but pair that with his raging horniness and you’ll be walking a fine line between a Dom or sub Levi.

However, if it’s fluffy and sweet sex you want, treat him gently and he’ll return the favor. It’ll take a bit of time and effort to get here, on both your parts, but if you’re willing to put in the work, he’ll make it worth it. Like Mammon, this means sex will be its fluffiest when either both of you or one of you is emotionally vulnerable.

We’ve recently been blessed by the devs on a cannon description of his tail, confirming that it is snake-like with scales. This also means, however, that his tail is sensitive to touch and he has full control of its movements. During a more sweet intimacy, he likes to wrap his tail around a limb, your arm or your leg. It’s only when he’s in Dom or sub mode that he likes to use his tail in a more active manner.

It’s important for him, whether he realizes it or not, that during these moments, that he’s the one touching you, not his tail. If you ask him to use his tail too much during sex, he’ll start to think that you’re only with him because of his tail.

He’ll want to see you even though his room is dimly lit. He also knows his tub bed might not be the most comfortable so he’ll invest in a mattress to put on the floor by the tank, and a few fluffy blankets, from the Ruri-chan line of course, to keep you warm and comfortable so you’ll never want to leave his room, just like him.

He prefers any position that has the two of you lying together, with your face in clear view because he can’t get enough of the faces you make because of the pleasure he’s responsible for making you feel. He’ll be more focused on your voice, your body language, your reactions to reassure him he’s doing something right.

To see your naked skin kissed with the reflection of the water from the tank is his favorite part. He actually got a nosebleed the first time he saw you like that. 

Sex with the otaku is a learning experience that requires patience and repetitive reassurance. He’s certain that no one could ever love him, and it’s going to cost a lot of mental energy, and it can be disheartening at times where it seems he’s not made any progress in loving himself at all, but you’ll both also have an opportunity to create something truly beautiful between the two of you. Falling in love with your best friend, and having your feelings returned with all their heart is one of the most beautiful things to ever experience.

Satan

I like to imagine that Satan is akin to that tiger DILF in Zootopia looking at his tablet while on the train, you know, the one who looks like he’ll take good care of you? Listen, during one of his Devilgram stories, the man pitches a tent (like an actual tent, not a boner you guys) and makes both of you cups of hot chocolate. You can pry this hc out of my cold, dead hands.

Sex with Satan is actually more often fluffy and sweet than anyone would assume because he’s the Avatar of Wrath. Just like all the other brothers, Satan is more than his sin. That being said, Satan is still CEO of Angry Sex™ but he’s also more intune to his own feelings than the rest of his brothers. 

It’s after his more violent fits of rage that he’s seeking your comfort. It’s difficult for him to come down from his wrath; the worse the fit is, the more broken and twisted he feels. He didn’t like coming to you at first because he knows how mentally draining it can be for a human to deal with someone like that, but you’ve insisted in your endearing and stubborn way that he can and needs to rely on you more. You threatened to find all the sources proving your point for the success of any relationship and he eventually gave in, accepting your kindness and your love.

In turn, he provides you with an arsenal of reading material and spells you can arm yourself with for a plethora of reasons; mainly self-defense against demons, a history of successful and failed attempts to prank Lucifer, as well as guides for subjects in class to help you study.

Unlike his previous brothers, sex with Satan is more about the pleasure you both feel. Of course he’ll still be mindful of your pleasure, but he can also get lost in his own desire. No matter how far gone he is, you know that the moment you utter the safeword, he’ll stop immediately and assess the situation. The safeword is actually a simple spell that he’d found when you two started getting more intimate.

On days he’s feeling extra playful, he’ll dress up for you; a collar with a bell, cat ears, a butt plug with a tail attached. He loves to be your little kitty cat, and will practically foam at the mouth if you ever dressed up like a slutty cat for him, but this doesn’t lead to fluffy smut times.

While he has no issues with PDA, Satan reserves his more soft and fluffy side for when you two are totally alone. He’s proactive in looking up cute date ideas and is the type to go all out turning his bed or his floor into a nest of pillows and blankets, cups of tea, hot chocolate, coffee, whatever you prefer, a variety of little snacks, and turn his wall into a projection screen to watch old-fashioned black and white romance movies. 

For Satan, it’s the moments leading up to the sweet intimacy filled with love and adoration that are his favorites. Being the reason your face brightens, tears of happiness well in the corner of your eyes, the way your smile makes his heart stutters, Satan loves showing you how much you mean to him mainly because he knows he’s not the best with words. He could recite any poem of strings of song lyrics, but he believes actions speak louder than words.

He actually prefers for you to have control in these moments; there’s less of a chance he could hurt you and it’s another way to prove his love. He’ll only ever bottom for you. He was reluctant at first, but it’s like you opened his eyes to a whole new world he didn’t know about. He still likes to act like he's a cat and you're his mouse, but he also likes it when you take over and make him bow to your whim. You've gained his trust as well as his heart and he believes that the power dynamic in a relationship should be balanced.

During the most intimate moments, either right after sex or waking up together in the morning after sleeping in, you'll both enter this Cat Speak mode. One of you will start, just a cute little "mrow?" and you'll go back and forth entertaining a semblance of a conversation but without saying anything. There's no actual conversation happening, it's just the two of you making cat noises at each other, giggling and riding the high of this special intimacy specially reserved for these moments of bliss.

Beel

Let’s be honest, 9 times out of 10 your sex with the sixth-born will be fluffy and sweet. He’s like the personified version of a golden retriever. He loves you and has the instinct to want to take care of you. You’re such a small, delicate human, and his brothers love you too so when you’re in Beel’s care, he makes sure you’re satisfied more than just sexually. 

Anything you’re willing to give him, he’ll accept wholeheartedly expressing his love and gratitude in the form of huge grins, hugs, a hearty chuckle, and peppering kisses across your face. 

Even though he’s not as sexually active as some of his brothers, once you get this big guy started, be prepared to cancel any plans you have for the rest of the day… and also the day after just to be safe. He has the most energy and will keep going until he’s had you against every solid surface in his room, minus Belphie’s furniture of course. Regardless of your size or how you look, he’ll make you feel weightless as he carries you around the room effortlessly

He loves the way you taste, gliding his tongue over your skin like you’re an ice-cream cone that never melts, he’s actually growled a number of times when you tried pulling yourself away from him. His eyes had turned shades darker than normal before you snapped him out of it. He would apologize profusely and kill the mood so as to make sure he’s in the right headspace and you’re okay. 

This has only happened a few times, but he still loves to taste every inch of you whenever he has you all to himself. He leaves you covered in hickeys and love bites and even though he’ll apologize, you know he feels absolutely no shame in his brother’s reactions to seeing you covered the next day. 

His favorite part is helping you ride out your orgasm with his mouth. He knows he’s more skilled with his mouth anyway and just, the man cannot get enough of you or your taste. Depending on where he’s at when you orgasm, if he’s close, he’ll paint your skin in his release, and then clean up the mess and drag you in for snuggles. If he’s not quite there yet, he’ll assess your energy levels and wait until you’re ready to go again or keep going, depending on who topped or bottomed. He’s all about consent and wants to join you when you’re fully blissed out regardless if he’s finished or not (meaning he’ll deny his own release in order to lie with you).

Aftercare comes almost second nature to him. He’s already carrying you to the bathroom and soaking you off in the shower before you realize it. The warm water and his large hands invade your senses and he urges you to let go, to let him take care of you and it’s like a dream. His calloused hands offer a sort of comforting roughness that keeps you grounded. If you want shower sex, you’ll have to initiate it.

Actually, that’s pretty accurate for Beel. You want sex? You’re either going to have to initiate it or tell him straight out. Poor guy does not take hints well as he is very oblivious.

[maplecornia]

I am so tired of people saying other groups can't achieve half of what BTS has achieved.

Istg some of you ARMY's act like BTS is the only kpop group to ever exist in the world and its a problem. The reason I'm upset about MAMA is because even if some of the awards weren't fan voted for and judge voted its so clear that the judges are catering towards the most popular people.

There is NO WAY any qualified judge in their right mind would think "Butter" choreo was better than "Thunderous", "Hot Sauce" or even "Sticker" choreo. Say what you want but coming from a dancer, "Butter" choreo is generic at best and did not deserve Best Dance Performance against all those other nominations. Heck even "Ready to Love" choreo was better than "Butter"

When it comes to SOTY, no I don't believe "Butter" should have won. There were multiple other songs that were better and more iconic than "Butter" was. But I don't have as much of a strong opinion on it because I don't know who else was nominated.

However for album of the year, yes I believe BE deserved that title, although I don't know why it was included considering it was released last year not in 2021 but back in 2020.

For Artist of the Year I wasn't surprised they won, but music wise I don't think they should have won. They didn't even release an album this year and their only Korean related song was a song where they were featured. I think other artists deserved it, like Brave Girls for example. And they'd probably benefit greatly from it but I know it was an unrealistic hope.

In other news, even the nominations were biased towards more popular groups. For example, ATEEZ was only part of the Worldwide Fans Choice and wasn't nominated for anything else despite releasing like two albums this year PLUS other singles and are preparing for a new album AND their participation in Kingdom. They deserved so much but weren't nominated for anything like -_- how tf does that make sense.

In my personal opinion ATEEZ should have at least been nominated for Best Male Dance Performance and yeah I believe they should have won. Fireworks was a slap and the choreo was some of the best I've seen this year and not to mention Deja Vu? They deserved so many for those comebacks but Mnet so obviously clowned them and used them.

Not to mention TXT which should have at least gotten SOTY or some other award to recognize their success and clout this year, but no we got nothing.

Bottom line is, the only reason BTS won those is because of their popularity and the fact that some of you are even admitting to that but still saying they deserved it astonishes me. It wasn't based on talent it was so clearly based on popularity and that's what makes it so frustrating.

Now if "Film Out" was nominated I'd understand, heck even if they'd somehow nominated "My Universe" I could see why. But they didn't, they only nominated "BE" and "Butter" and I personally don't believe "Butter" deserved that award. It was only given because it was BTS