Chay wakes up every morning, alone in his big, quiet house, and thinks about all the ways his last conversation with Porsche should have gone.
In his mind, every new line he tries sounds more convincing than the last. Pa and Mae wouldn’t care about the house. They would want us to stay together. They would want you to be happy, too.
If you’re not happy, I’m not happy. Don’t you want me to be happy, Hia?
If you’re going to destroy yourself, I’ll destroy myself too. I’ll quit school. I’ll get a job. You can’t stop me, just like I can’t ever stop you—
Chay is not stupid. He knows it could never have gone that way. There are things that Chay cannot bear to say — lines that he will never cross — because to do so would break Porsche’s heart.
But he thinks about it. He thinks about the staggering bravery it would take to say, your dreams for me are not my own. Ask me what I want. Listen to my answer.
color studies 17 April 2024 — apo nattawin (pop edition)
timelapse below the cut (original sketches here)
wanted to play around with various styles and apo's skintone because i struggle with color and color pallettes on a good day but add in skin tones, and i feel like i'm going bonkers.
i especially love playing with unusual backgrounds and line art, so that was what i explored here. making an outlandish color choice in the hair or line art and then working to balance that choice into something cohesive.
obviously inspired by andy warhol's pop art, the watermelon colored apo was directly based on one of his marilyn monroe prints.
Kim, at an awards show: First of all, I would like to thank Porsche, my brother-in-law, for telling me I wasn’t going to win and so not to bother to prepare a speech. From the bottom of my heart, most sincerely, fuck you